#dissociation mention tw

[helpless-sunflower]

Feeling like I’m not real enough to be a system, like I don’t know my system enough for them to actually exist. Just feeling heavy dissociation and distress, like I’m going to have a breakdown.

#sunflower speaks #sunflower murmurs #silence yourself #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #actual did #tw dissociation #dissociation tw #dissociation #dissociation mention #tw dissociation mention #dissociation mention tw #self doubt with a diagnosis #I know I’m diagnosed I just don’t know how to feel #I don’t have much support and I’m not good at trusting other systems or people in general

[theresidentfullmoon]

POV: You're a system.

#tw murder mention #tw murder #actually did #did osdd #did system #did #hc did system #hc did #highly complex dissociative identity disorder #highly complex did #did memes #system memes #nimona #nimona movie #simply plural #fictives #fictive heavy system #fictive heavy #fictive #introject

[reclaimingsomethings]

Trans Ramcoa

I dont want to make this a habit however, when looking for terms to reclaim, I came across a post that made me recoil in disgust. @ cincinique made a post defending the not reclaimed term Trans Ramcoa and I would like to bring this to people attention so they can block the people interacting with this post and defending this term. I would like this to be perfectly clear, if you use the term Trans-Ramcoa or similar Trans-id terms, you are:

Defending Child pornography

Romanticizing Child Prostitution

Romanticizing the torture of Children

Defending Child rapists

YOU. ARE. BORDERLINE. PEDOPHILIC.

Not in a million years will these people understand what we went through as a child, all the abuse and torture we experienced at the hands of the people who were supposed to love us. To call this a kink, to say its just you being "kinky" is you getting off to the idea of child torture. You calling this a kink is you pushing people into dangerous situations were they will be abused and tortured. What you post matters. What you do matters. Do not make your legacy online supporting child rape and child torture.

#transid #transabled #pro transid #anti transid #traumagenic #did system #ramcoa #tw ramcoa #mogai coining #actually dissociative #tbmc #hc did #dissociative disorder #tw abuse #tw child abuse #tw sa mention #tw abuse mention

[lostcitysystem]

My heart goes out to other systems who have to spend the holidays with their abusers.

You will be free from them some day.

You are not to blame for their actions.

You are doing your best.

You are loved.

#osdd 1b #osdd #osdd system #osddid #did #did system #actually did #actually dissociative #dissociative identity disorder #tw abuse mention #abuse mention tw #abuse mention

[pluralcultureis]

Plural Culture (traumatized in general) is never knowing how to properly add trigger warnings because you've become so desensitized to everything that you don't know what's seen as needed, or what's doing too much

And half the time you don't even know how to tag it any way because "can I just put general tw? Do I need to specify which type of abuse is occuring? Is what's being said even clear/graphic/whatever enough for people to realize unless I add the tw? Would adding the tw make it worse??"

And then regardless of all that you still end up posting something that's apparently massively triggering, with no warning, because you thought it was just normal life stuff and then you feel bad about it but all you can actually do is just add the needed tws and apologize

*this is not an apology post, apologies from us will be much more clear if they're needed, this has not happened recently, but it's something that's been on our mind a lot

#endos dni #osdd #pdid #did #did system #pdid system #osddid #actually did #traumagenic #actually dissociative #plural culture is #tw abuse mention #cw abuse mention

[nottheobserver]

Shoutout to systems who don't want to be themself online for oddly specific reasons. Reasons like; You're not diagnosed. You think your fictives are from 'cringy' sources. You often fakeclaim yourself. And all of the other reasons, even if you're just nervous. even if you don't say the stuff you wanna say on platforms, or you wanna hide your identity from everyone. YOU'RE VALID !!!

#did #did system #dissociative identity disorder #endo safe #system #system did #system stuff #system shoutout #plural #plurality #all systems welcome #system validation #tw fakeclaim mention #fakeclaim mention #cw fakeclaim mention

[moldybits]

notes: symptoms in this poll are defined as ptsd/trauma symptoms (dissociation, amnesia, hyperarousal, etc)

this is an inclusive poll for any type of system/system origin. but it’s specifically how weed affects systems with trauma. this is not syscourse and i want nothing to do with it!

reblogs are encouraged for sample size

i’m convinced that all the progress we’ve made since december has to do with THC and our endocannabinoid system and i’m curious if other people benefit the way we have.

#may do another poll if i get any interesting results from this #i’ve been fascinated with THC and how it impacts mental health #cuz it’s normally associated with making it worse #but it’s literally saved my life #curious to see if having DID is what allows me to benefit more #but yeah no syscourse you’ll be blocked on sight #pluralgang #plurality #multiplicity #systems #did #osdd #actually dissociative #actually plural #polls #tw drug mention #plural polls

[azrael-is-haunted]

me: avoiding mirrors because that doesn't look like me

also me: pffffft... I'm trans. It's the dysphoria, not like everything is wrong. Not at all a DID thing. Definitely not. ಠ_ಠ

#tw denial #cw denial #did #did alter #did system #did osdd #plural #plurality #actually plural #actually dissociative #dissociative system #dissociative identity disorder #system alters #sysblr #system #dysphoria mention #everything IS wrong btw

[youandyour150people]

“Oh thank goodness I don’t have THIS kind of trauma :)”

Trauma holder/gatekeeper:

(Ps. I hope nobody has done this before)

#dissociative identity disorder #dissociative system #actually dissociative #actually did #dissociative alters #did #actuallydid #dissociative disorders #did memes #did system #system jokes #dissociative identity disorder memes #tw abuse mention

[disassociation-culture-is]

(CW: drug mention)

Dissociation culture is not needing drugs because you already feel like you're high all the time. And not even in a fun way :/

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#lol yea #my friends + I are at the age where we're starting to have access to drugs/alcohol #I have many avenues to safely try #however. I was on opioids for my wisdom teeth and I had to stop early because it was Not good for my brain/body #stressful as all hell #dissociation culture is #disassociation culture is #dissociation #disassociation #mod cheese #tw drugs #cw drug mention

[lynzishell]

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Content Warning: The discussion in today's post contains mention of childhood emotional abuse, dissociation, and self harm. Please proceed with caution or skip if needed.

Phoenix: Why don’t you talk to your parents anymore? What happened? Dawn: Nothing happened… Fine, if I tell you, can we never talk about this again? Phoenix: Sure.

Dawn: [pauses briefly to think about how to explain] I don’t like talking about them because I don’t like to remember what it felt like… It’s just that… they didn’t care about us at all. If they did, they never showed it. The ONLY thing they cared about was appearances. We were always expected to look and act a certain way, and I swear I could never get it right. I was too loud and too messy. And when I disappointed them, which was all the time, they would just… ignore me. They wouldn’t look at me or speak to me. It was like I’d cease to exist. It was devastating.

Dawn: When I was little, I didn’t understand, so I would throw massive tantrums trying to get them to acknowledge me. I’d scream and cry and tug on them. Eventually, they’d look at me, but they’d just laugh. Like it was the most hilarious thing they’d ever seen. Atlas never tried that, he shut down early on and would just stay in his room. Eventually, I gave up and did the same. I don’t think they ever really wanted us.

Phoenix: That’s awful. Why would they try so hard to have children if they didn’t want them? Dawn: Because that’s what was expected of them.

Phoenix: Can I ask you one more thing? Dawn: What? Phoenix: The scars on your arm…. Why? Because of them or…?

Dawn: Um, yeah, I guess. It’s hard to explain… Sometimes I would wonder if I was a real person, like I really wasn’t sure. I was always trying to do everything perfectly, to get it right. There was a part of me for a long time that worried if I didn’t, I might actually disappear one day. Not like dying, but just like, ‘poof’ from existence. And I’d get really upset And I’d feel disconnected from myself, like I wasn’t really in my body but outside it, and it was scary. But this [rolling back her sleeve], it helped... I’d feel the sting and see red, and it would bring me back into my body and remind me that I was real. And I’d feel better for a little while.

Dawn: I don’t get it. They’re the only two people in the world who were supposed to love me… unconditionally… like instinctually… and they didn’t. I never understood why. I never understood what was so wrong with me. Phoenix: Nothing. You are the best person I know, Dawn. Just because they clearly don’t have the capacity to love, doesn’t mean you were ever unlovable. I’m glad they’re not in your life anymore. They don’t deserve to be.

Phoenix: I love you so much. I promise, I will do everything I can to make sure you feel loved every single day. Dawn: You already do.

Dawn: Promise me something else? Phoenix: Anything. Dawn: Don’t ever give me the silent treatment, okay? No matter how angry I make you. Phoenix: Never. I promise.

Dawn: Thank you. I love you. Phoenix: I love you too.

#ts4 #ts4 story #simlit #ts4 simblr #sims 4 #sims 4 storytelling #sims 4 challenge #starsignchallenge #starsignlegacychallenge #gen1 aries #aries pt2 #phoenix realta #dawn stephens #cw child emotional abuse mention #cw emotional abuse mention #cw dissociation mention #tw sh mention

[angelsdean]

also re: my dean + sex work post, and especially the quote from 1x08 where dean's talking abt making money through non-legal ways like hustling and scamming and he says, "it's what we were raised to do" and then connecting that to the scene in 1x20 where john tells dean "you know what to do" cut to-- dean playing monster bait (and being nonconsensually kissed by a vampire) and then connecting that to the cut line from 14x14 where dean tells cas that john used to make him play the wide-eyed hitchhiker routine as monster bait on hunts. dean was groomed from a young age by john to see his body as nothing more than a tool and weapon. he learned from a young age that his body is an object. he is daddy's blunt little instrument. he is something that can be used for a purpose and then discarded. he's repeatedly used as a soldier and weapon by john when he's needed and then abandoned and neglected when he's not. and i think that mentality absolutely influenced how he saw his body in relation to sex and sex work. and i'm not saying sex work can't be empowering or positive for some people but in dean's specific case and circumstances it wouldn't have really been a choice but more a desperate last ditch option. but one that he doesn't even waver much on because of all these prior experiences that have primed him for being objectified. like he's already had so much of his personhood stripped, he'd already been objectified as a weapon, seeing himself as expendable and only useful when he's being used. all of this made him so vulnerable and desensitized in a way that sex work for survival wouldn't even be a huge jump for him. it's another way he can be useful and make sure he's providing for his brother and fulfilling his number one job as caretaker.

#so much more that i could say abt this. esp how all of this also primed him to be a vessel for michael later #and then in s14 how his consent as a vessel was violated by AU michael and there's a whole SA reading of that arc that could be done #esp the aftermath. and also during the possession...how dean was locked away = dissociating from what was happening to him #god there's just so much #dean studies #spn 1x08 #mymeta #tw sex work mention #dean and his body #dean and sex #vic.txt

[lostcitysystem]

I feel like we don’t talk enough about medical trauma as a cause/contributor for DID/OSDD/DDs.

We spent three months in the hospital at age 5 due to complications from a major surgery and it kickstarted a lot of our dissociative symptoms since we constantly felt trapped/scared. We now also have a dedicated alter (Ghost💊 or sometimes Newt🦎) to cope when we get a common cold or something similar. Rn we have a sinus infection and Blue🌌 is seriously struggling with keeping up and fronting. It also caused us consistent trouble in staying vaccinated because of the association of needles with our trauma.

What I’m trying to say is that a lot of dissociative disorders are cause by prolonged/repetitive and serious trauma and this absolutely includes medical trauma.

If you experienced medical trauma you are valid.

If it caused many of your psychiatric disorders to date, you are valid.

If you get triggered by medical scenarios and or have specific alters to deal with medical stuff, you are valid.

If you struggle to go to the hospital, get vaccinations, get tested for diseases etc, you are valid.

#osdd 1b #osdd #osdd system #osddid #did #osdd 1a #dissociative identity disorder #dissociation #dissociative disorder #actually dissociative #dissociation mention #dissociation tw #tw dissociation #needle mention #needles #needle #tw needle #needle tw

[wa1tngtill1d13]

Me too Garfield

#tw depressing stuff #dissociate #s3lfharmm #sh mention #self h@rm #crazy #tw selfhate #dark thoughts #kinda depressing #i feel empty #depressing life #shizoposting

[transmasccofee]

the time loop chapter is so fucked up i think about it every day and reading the manga its worse because there’s certain dialogue that was cut out of the anime (presumably to make it acceptable for kids)

Like ok. im gonna give a play by play from Saiki’s POV. so you can For a second imagine how much stress Saiki had to be under.

Imagine walking home from school and out of nowhere you get trapped in a time loop, already bad, but you can get out of it easy- except uh oh! now you are in ANOTHER time loop. ok, fine, get out of that. It goes on so long that you eventually stop being able to process anything around you but whatever, its fine. EXCEPT UH OH! A THIRD TIME LOOP! This time you are trapped in a loop of watching your best friend run into traffic to protect a small child, and the only one able to save them from dying brutally is you. You save the day, great, Unfortunately this is a time loop and now you’re trapped in this hell, watching your best friend dive in front of a moving truck. You need to have an empty mind to leave this, but thats hard because you also have to keep them from getting flattened. You’re getting more and more exhausted, but thats fine. You watch them get brutally killed in various ways thousands of times, over and over and over and over again, but thats fine. it’s still looping. you keep failing to save them. it’s still looping.

Rather than emptying your mind, Eventually you just disassociate, its gone on so long that your body is moving on its own. You are so tired, and you’ve seen your best friends organs on the road now probably a couple hundred times at this point (seriously Wtf Asou) and so it’s all just blended into the background.

You disassociate so hard your mind is empty. Your body moves on its own to save them. The Time Loop is finally over. You went through this 16,785 times.

#the only thing keeping saiki k from being a full blown psychological horror is that its really funny #i feel like i should trigger tag this #uhh #tw character death #tw graphic imagery #tw car crash #tw death mention #tw child death #tw repetition #tw dissociation #ok i think thats enough lemme know if i missed any #not even community was this fucked up like WTFFF #literally theres not even any jokes this chapter if you changed the art to be more dramatic it would look like something out of fuckinf #like #Evangelion or something #sorry thats the most fucked up mainstream-ish anime i can think of rn

[pluralcultureis]

Stoner pDID plural culture is getting way too fucking high and going through a process we call "alter roulette", where we start rapid switching like we're a roulette wheel. Pretty disorienting.

We do this every other night and it sucks but it's also validating honestly

#endos dni #osdd #did #pdid #did system #pdid system #osddid #actually did #traumagenic #actually dissociative #plural culture is #tw drug use #cw drug use #tw high mention #cw high