#do i have a fucking 'ship' type

[lameotello]

I hate that we've gone from "don't like, don't read" and not caring about what fucked up shit is depicted in fan media as a standard to hypervigilance and having to mind your every word so the group you've found yourself in doesn't know you ship the Not HOA Approved Ship

#like what the fuck #tello talks #proship #I just can't get over it fr #I have a platonic side acc and the fact I have to be afraid some stupid internet person will find out I ship tcest #and tell all their insane little friends who might or might not harrass me #is LITERALLY insane #I have fight daydreams sometimes. as you do. yknow the type of daydream where you're in a talkshow only this is an internet fight #and I try to think of ways to maneuver around a potential ''are you proship?'' situation by saying Yes Fuck You but in a way that explains #what proship IS not what /they/ have made it to be #and that it was the internet standard until like 2016 when some weirdo decided ship wars weren't enough #they needed to Actually Cancel people #but there's literally no way to win because they would /not/ listen #and that's is Insane and I don't feel I'm exaggerating here #anyway rant over #sorry #lol #long tags

[ships-n-bats]

I still absolutely love how Wolfwalkers ended.

Love that it still ultimately focused on Robyn and Mebh and how they leave their old world behind to find a new one, just for them, their parents, and the wolf family to live in peace, far away from the townspeople. How after all that drama and near-death experiences, they just get to rest in the caravan, protected by their respective parent and live together in the forest.

No more societal expectations. No more gender roles. No need to appease a bunch of people who really only want them dead for what they are. No focus on these two literal children to change a town’s whole mindset like so many other films do. No, the message was just these two girls finding their happy ending with their loved ones somewhere else and just cutting out that toxic environment all together.

Why waste energy trying to help a bunch of people they don’t even have any real attachment to, after all? Especially with people who actively forced roles they didn’t want onto them and mistreated them for being different? It’s just such a breath of fresh air to see a film that ends with the characters finding happiness and peace in their own little slice of heaven, rather than wasting time, energy, and emotions on trying to change others.

#Wolfwalkers #Robyn Goodfellowe #Mebh Óg Mactíre #Mebyn #Ship Discussion #usually in films like this the main characters will have some grand philosophical speech about how they're all “not so different” #and can “live in peace together if we all just get along” and while I do agree with that sentiment /sometimes/ #in this instance I agree it was just better for the girls and their parents to find somewhere that was better to plant their roots #this type of lesson and world change is a better fit for something like HtTYD but not for Wolfwalkers #this also plays into one of my fave yet underrated shipping tropes where a couple leaves society behind just to live together freely #just let the girls be wolf lesbians in the forest while everyone else fucks off

[carlyraejepsans]

i was thinking about that ask i received the other day and how uncharacteristically upset the topic had made me when i usually just think "mh. gross!" and move on, and after mulling it over a while i realized it wasn't about the topic at all, it was the ask itself that freaked me out. i've mentioned sporadically before (for obvious reasons lol) that i used to be involved in fandom discourse when i was younger and that!! fucked me up quite a lot. between exacerbating my ocd and straight up getting cyber stalked (i almost feel guilty using that word, like i don't deserve it but. yeah that is 100% what happened to me), the topic is something I have very complex and personal opinions on but that i hate talking about in public because it still sets off my fight or flight response.

i know some people in the fandom are like "let me know if i ever rb someone who wrote/drew gross stuff" and that's entirely their choice and i respect it. but for the record, i am not one of these people. please, for the love of god, i am asking this genuinely do NOT come into my DMs about this, I don't want to know. assume I'm either living in blissful ignorance or my blacklist already covers me quite nicely & i wanna keep it that way. i vastly prefer the discomfort of stumbling into something unprepared and deciding what to do about it on my own, to the utter pit of dread i get whenever i open a message that starts with "hey just so you know-". i have blocked multiple people in the past over it. i WILL block more. be warned.

[note. this doesn't apply to people who have either hurt or behaved inappropriately with other members of the fandom, or spread bigotry and discrimination like racists and transphobes. please do let me know in those cases]

does this make sense? idk I'm kinda feverish you guys figure it out. I'm going to sleep.

#word from the wise for anyone peering into the jaws of discourse. there are only 2 types of people you can trust on their opinions on it #they are 1) people who have never heard of ship discourse like. at all. and 2) people who know too much about it #and with that i mean people who started off at one end of the discourse ricochetted to the other side and then came out #objectively refusing to associate with any of it. because they Know. that whatever issue lies at the heart of it is never gonna get resolve #with the way that discourse is conducted. and that the problems will never truly be fixed. and even then #you should take three or four of them at once from different starting and ending points and let them talk it out together first #because they all came from different point of views the others could've missed #i cannot WARN YOU ENOUGH. you do not want to be the second type. don't fall in #block who you wanna block and be kind any time you can. most people aren't inherently evil & that's a weird thing to assume about someone #and for the love if god stop fucking beefing with teenagers online #that is all you need to know about this. go have fun #i haveee so many fucking. thoughts about this topic i genuinely think i could have (and have had! seriously!) constructive discussions on i #about what would be helpful and what needs to be changed and what people get wrong. but it's always in private. because of the horrors #anyway shipping wars veteran discounts when

[lestappenforever]

Just in case this wasn’t very clear: Sending anonymous (coward) Lestappen hate my way is an absolute waste of your time and energy because I could not care less about whatever shit you're spewing and I'll block you without even bothering to read your entire ask.

#Asks #Anon asks #Like fuck what are you hoping to achieve? 😂 Do you think you'll change my mind? Make me feel bad? #What a sad way to live your life spreading hate #I know you probably think you're badass sending anon hate to a Lestappen blog but let me tell you: you are anything but #It's just sad my dude #The clicks wasted to get into my ask box only to type out a long message I won't even read #Like damn babe #I've been part of fandoms for far too long to let those types of tragic attempts at being “cool” get to me in any way shape or form #If you have an issue with a ship just backlist tags and block blogs posting about it

[cryptcoop]

moira saying "must you be coddled pruksamanee?" when she saves lifeweaver... please keep cooking whatever it is you're cooking with them. they fascinate me

I think it's so funny because originally in my head I was like I ship them but not like REALLY you know. I ship them to be funny. But it's not a joke anymore. They are the blueprint methinks.

#i HAVE to stop doing this to myself #People on twitter thought my latest lw/moira post wasnt ship art #like no baby they are probably fucking in ways gender cant comprehend #I felt insane typing that actually #In reality I dont think about them fucking. Maybe making out though. Some heavy petting. OK who knows maybe they are fucking freaky style

[total-drama-brainrot]

Alenoah, where Noah cares about Alejandro, more than Alejandro's family did:

Noah: I will now torture you.

Alejandro: Kinky!~

Noah: I think you are brilliant and beautiful.

Alejandro: Wait!

Noah: You deserve to be cared for and loved, despite your mistakes.

Alejandro: No!

Noah: Your feelings and needs are valid, and deserve to be heard.

Alejandro: I need a safeword! 😳

Real.

#almost went on a whole rant here about how alejandro wouldn't know how to process unconditional care and support-- #for himself as a person instead of the praise he receives for his persona/mask/“charming” act #and also how this ties in to him being starved for genuine affection/love which is why it's so ironic shipping him with noah of all people #since noah is not the type to show a lot of affection. at least not publicly- and even when he does it's usually veiled behind a layer of-- #sarcasm and/or prickliness. he's like a hedgehog. #but noah WOULD absolutely break out the big guns once he's realised just how fucked up alejandro's home life and subsequent psyche is #“i am going to hurt you emotionally” #“do your best” #“i love and cherish you as a person and expect nothing in return. i care about you and your feelings. you're my top priority.” #cue alejandro ugly crying into a tub of ice cream #noah's trying to comfort him (awkwardly) but it's making it worse because noah caring about him even at his worst is The Issue #alejandro gets to have a breakdown over finally having a healthy relationship. as a treat. #total drama #td alejandro #td noah #alenoah #others' ideas #ophe's ranting in the tags again #replies

[lacefuneral]

i think stede's adorable little milf glasses

(figure 1. stede's adorable little milf glasses)

are not merely reading glasses, but full-blown prescription-grade lenses that he steadily refuses to wear because he had a hard enough time as a (gay) (autistic) child and didn't need the added mockery of needing a device to see in the 18th century, when glasses were not common devices yet

considering how this man deemed it necessary to have an entire LIBRARY on board, his penchant for escapism, and, again his history of being bullied, i think its reasonable to assume that stede has spent most of his life reading. that a lot of that reading, too, occurred by candlelight, and that this has rapidly deteriorated his vision

rather than wear glasses, though, even as an adult, he simply goes through the world with blurry vision, only bringing out his glasses for rare occasions. he doesn't even READ with them on, even though it would greatly help him. he has a mental block about using them, and they often collect dust in a drawer

#ofmd #i myself am a man with HORRIBLE vision that does not wear my glasses #i only utilize them when i go outside - because they are transition lenses #and of course when i was still in school and had to read a whiteboard or powerpoint from afar #but even as i type these tags - my astigmatism is presenting me with a blur #i spend a lot of time squinting. opening and closing my individual eyes #adjusting my brightness #doing everything BUT grabbing my glasses #and while i WAS bullied for being a gay autistic youth - my glasses never factored in #my reasons for not wearing them are purely forgetfulness and neuroticism #''but i don't NEED to see indoors'' i reason #stede however is a fucking pirate captain. put those milfspecs on #you need to see ships! you need to see during fights! identify loot! #also they are adorable #my glasses do not have that same charm #nor could i pull off the round spectacle thing

[defomin]

supernatural 🤝 pitbabe

unintentionally (?) developing a super high-chemistry gayer-than-normal ship that would be too big for their show to handle so instead they bury the babygirl one in the last episode because god forbid audience becomes delusional that they will have a happily ever after

#do i have a fucking type with my fave ships? #pit babe the series #peteway #destiel #deancas #supernatural #peteway is enigma x enigma and destiel is omega x omega

[aleim]

Let's play a game; You gotta guess who i'm thinking of. (Please read this, i know it's long but still, i'm trying to make a point)

It's a ship, very well known and loved amongst the fans of the show, but non canonical. There's a goth, very cruel and obscure girl, obsessed with death and morbid stuff, with a particular family life (she has some issues with one of her parents), who goes to a peculiar school for peculiar people, where everyone is terrified of her. In that school, there is another girl, all shiny and happy, who often gets compared to a dog by the fans, whose parents are questionable at best and disgustingly terrible at worst.

These two, obviously, don't get along very well in the beggining (i.e they hate each other, are mean to each other, actively try to make one of them leave.), But with time, as the show progresses, they get closer (mainly due to the sunshine one's determination in this friendship). The goth one is constantly saying that she still hates the smiley one, but it's proven otherwise time and time again in how her witty comments aren't as evil anymore; or the shiny one doesn't get hurt by them anymore; or how she allows her to touch and embrace her, when ussually she keeps other people in a five-meter radius from her.

They work. The goth one gets soft around the golden retriever one, and the golden retriever one learns how to stand up for herself thanks to the goth one.

Still, with all of this, the goth one ends with some boring white dude with little to no personality, who feels entitled af, with nice hair. Their relationship is a Chernobyl level of toxic and yet the showrunners pushed this.

Hell, even the showrunners admitted that they saw the appeal so many fans got about the girls being together.

So? Did you guess who they are?

If you thought about Wednesday and Enid, from Netflix's Wednesday, you are WRONG.

IT'S FUCKING TORI AND JADE FROM FUCKING VICTORIOUS.

I don't know why but I am so, so angry at this.

#why did I do this? #because i listened to You don't know me #by elizabeth gillies #and thought THIS IS ABOUT FUCKING WENCLAIR #the fact that i've obsessed over both of this ships #i have a type i guess #wenclair #wednesday netflix #wlw love #enid sinclair #wlw #victorious #jori #wednesday x enid

[pissfizz]

I remember why I stopped reading this fic oh my god

#Yamaguchi would not ‘flirt with anything (sentient or not)’ he would not say ‘oh honey’ he would not be oblivious to how Tsukishima feels #YOU FUNDAMENTALLY MISUNDERSTAND EVERYRHING ABOUT HIS VERY SIMPLE CHARACTER #look as a yama fan I encourage expanding his character right #but in canon. his character is 1. social anxiety personified 2. a dork 3. kind of snarky 4. a follower and 5. Tsukki’s number one fan #also 6. very fucking passionate and determined #he can be expanded upon a lot both with canon facts and wih hcs #but more than anything he would NEVER be confident enough to flirt much less with anything possible #he also is literally the personification of loyalty he isn’t the type to do that anyway he finds one person and sticks to them #as seen with Tsukki and even yachi since it’s hinted he likes her (whom he NEVER FLIRTS WITH BTW) #he would not be sassy confident type to say ‘oh honey you are so fuxking dumb’ #he’s a dick but he’s not a to the face dick he’s a behind the back dick. and he usually laughs at what Tsukki says not makes the comments #and he’d NEVER SAY HONEY LIKE THAT THATS JUST NOT HIM #AND HED NEVER FUCKING BE OBLIVIOUS TO HOW TSUKISHIMA FEELS TSUKKI IS HIS GUY HIS BESTEST FRIEND EVER #idc if it’s not a ship fic about them you have to understand no matter what they’re a set and they care about each other more than anyone #regardless of the type of relationship they will never be the types to not notice when the other is suffering #sorry. i am passionate about people mischaracterizing them

[minweber]

Belisarius Cawl, hiding for his life, his ass kicked, ship crashing, friends in mortal peril: I am such a smart boy, he-he-he =)

#I love him so much your honor #warhammer 40000 #adeptus mechanicus #belisarius cawl #genefather #guy haley #cawlposting #(kinda going to finish my thoughts on the book here since I ran out of space on the last post) #but a huge HUGE part of what I loved about this book were all the fun relationships and dynamics that it had set up #I literally want to see all of those characters again #Cawl and AsanethAyu? Absolutely. Not necessarily in a shipp-y way (Unless?) But god do I love seeing necrons bicker apparently #Cawl and Bile? Do my eyes deceive me or did Haley actually pull off 'we are not so different you and I' thing in a genuinely interesting wa #Cawl and Primus? What can I fucking say?! #Guy Haley should be awarded a prize for bringing back emotion and weight into what is surely one of the top 5 most overused words in 40k #Cawl and Qvo? Never before have I so thoroughly understood shippers of something that I don't personally ship. #I (barely) write a different type of fanfiction but somewhere in here there is a potential for the most wonderfully fucked up family #Primus and Porter? They did not talk but parallels between them were set up SO hard. This one is definitely not shippy for me #just so fucking charged with storytelling potential #All the minor guys? X99 whom I now love dearly? Oswen who was set up to be the traitor so hard and then just sort of wasn't? (Unless?!) #Skitarii Marshal named Iota?! Maybe later on that one #and that is to say absolutely nothing about the MASSIVE (eh? get it?) set up for the next big Cawl thing? #god so many threads to follow up on #Guy Haley you owe me like at least three follow-up books

[milimeters-morales]

(NOT ATSV) my ideal miguel and miles friendship (bordering on enemies) dynamic is where Miles is sort of a Mean Girls figure where he’ll say the worst things to Miguel, who actually has no problems dishing that shit right back out, is usually too fed up or somewhere else mentally to reply. They fight a lot, more physically than verbally, usually in a slapstick comedy type of way. Miles is banned from Nueva York once a month and got a restraining order against Miguel in his own dimension. His parents fucking hate him and Miguel hates them right back. Rio has tried and failed to poison him via food and Jeff is considering hiring a hitman. Gabriel is beloved by them. Miles takes Miguel’s money at least twice a week to go spend it just because he can. Miguel has tried (and succeeded once) to get Miles sick with a future illness because he figured out the lesbian bar Miguel liked to perform at in drag. Miles has cried at least once in every room of Miguel’s apartment and Miguel has been confused on what to do each time besides an awkward hug and pat on the back. People are rightfully worried for Miles’s safety at least 80% of the time but when they aren’t they’re shaking their heads at the two’s antics. They need to be separated until they have a healthy “this is a grown ass man / this is stupid little girl i don’t like at work” relationship and it’ll take an act of god for either of them to realize their current one isn’t healthy at all and has extremely negative impacts on their mental state.

#i wanna write this so badly bc like . this type of relationship with adults as a kid when you can’t 100% trsut them and place your safety + #in their hands is sooo interesting to write esp considering Miguel’s past and what Miles is used to #which is dangerous fights from adults (his villains) but also the loving ones like his parents his neighbors ripeter and peter b etc #and this miguel (imo) wouldn’t hurt miles on purpose because he knows the pain BUT he also doesn’t realize some shit is pain-causing both+ #mentally and physically bc yknow some abused kids grow into adults who subconsciously do similar shit #and for Miles and Miguel to finally realize beating the shit out of each other almost constantly and the negative back and forth (if miguel #feels like talking that day) is just. not a good thing #it’s sort of like the way i write pavitr and miles’s relationship regarding their fighting because it’s genuinely helpful but #can seem borderline awful and physically abusive to each other #peter b is so fucking worried sometimes bc he sees Miguel in a completely different way than other people. like he’s off in lala land #like. he’ll see this 15 year old stickbug of a kid fighting his buddy Miguel who has been known to kill #he’ll say some fights tou just can’t win Miles… and Miles is setting Miguel’s apartment on fire #like they have good moments. okay. trust me. but a toxic friendship like the kind you see that people take too seriously from a show like. #idk bluey. or some kids show like that. #spiderverse fans DNI ‼️‼️‼️🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🤦🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾‼️‼️‼️‼️ #not ship never ship don’t even tag is as such bc i’ll just delete the post #miles morales #spiderman #spider man #gabriel o’hara #rio morales #jefferson morales #miguel o’hara #m&m posts

[xxcherrycherixx]

I know i like to talk about cupid and blondie just fucking every second but i legit just also want them to just do normal couple shit man, like cuddling on the sofa or treating the other to their favourite home cooked meal.

Kissing each others cheeks and foreheads sweetly, holding hands everywhere. Constantly telling their respective friends about how much they love their gf.

They go to the fair and try to win each other prizes! Theres an archery game and blondie keeps telling cupid she can totally win it, cupid misses miserably. Blondie has a turn and wins immediately explaining her skills with “sometimes i get bored when you’re not home so i shoot your bow in the house” cupid just stares gobsmacked unsure wether to tell her girlfriend off or kiss her right there. (She absolutely breaks that bow when she gets home just incase blondie has accidentally hit herself with one of the arrows)

Cupid eventually starts bringing blondie through the portal and to other worlds, they never stay for long and cupid makes sure they’re very careful to not get caught but they get to go on wonderful dates.

Blondie starts bringing cupid with her on field work days, cupid takes it very serious and helps as best she can (although she does sneak kisses in now and then which distracts blondie)

They live in a little cottage, near a forest so blondie can explore (occasionally cupid gets dragged along with her, she still isn’t a big fan of the woods though) they have multiple spare bedrooms and when people ask why they have so many empty bedrooms they just give each other a look and make an excuse about how the place just came like that and they didn’t really mind the extra space.

Those spare rooms quickly become kids rooms (and a cub room, blondie brings home a baby bear one day and cupid just sighs in acceptance of the fact that she’s now also a mother to a bear. She of course loves that little one just as much as their other kids though)

None of the children are cupid’s biologically, she states that shes not comfortable with the idea of birth so Instead they’re all either a mix of blondie’s genes and a donors genes or they’re adopted.

Cupid’s family happily take in blondie and the kids as family, but they always give cupid sad looks when blondie and the kids aren’t around. Nonetheless blondie gets invited to join their parties and get togethers as cupid’s plus one, Aphrodite likes the blonde girl very much and tells her to call her auntie too, she often invites the girl to join her and her friends for drinks claiming blondie is great at sharing gossip.

As the fairytale worlds society changes, Blondies family comes around to accepting the relationship. especially when blondie introduces their first child, a girl with golden curls. All the remaining walls drop and blondies mother scoops her daughter up in a tearful hug proud of her for becoming a mother too and apologises for not being there to support her through the pregnancy. Blondie’s mother makes sure to be there for every single one afterwards and it makes blondie so happy.

But not everything is “just right” in a relationship. ( hey guys trigger warnings here for like um lots of shit about death and suicide 😬 whoops it got angsty)

Theres a lingering dark cloud that hangs over cupid and blondie’s relationship. Cupid doesn’t bring it up but she knows and hates whats to come, Its a horrible realisation that strikes her not long after they start dating, its the reason her family gives her pitying looks, its the reason she refuses to have biological kids of her own even though she wants to. She notices her wife change, and she changes herself physically to match, but its never real.

Blondie is aging and she isn’t.

She confides in briar one afternoon, the girl was meant to sleep 100 years and outlive her friends and family, and while she wont have to do that anymore, she still had to live with knowing it was going to happen. Briar tries to comfort her, but fails. She tells cupid to tell blondie, but she refuses to.

Two years into their marriage blondie becomes pregnant with their first child. When their daughter turns one years old cupid visits her family alone and cries. She cries and screams about the future, how quickly one will turn to ten and ten will turn to her first child being lowered into a grave. Her father holds her silently, knowing that nothing he says can comfort her.

Cupid continues for the next decade trying to keep her fears at bay, and then blondie gets a call about a loss in the family. An older relative who had taken their own life not long after the death of their spouse.

Another horrifying realisation hits cupid. She doesn’t confide in anyone about this one.

one day Aphrodite finally lets it slip to blondie that cupid will outlive her and their entire family.

Blondie struggles with learning this, she had known her wife was immortal and very much older than her, but having it finally hit her that her wife will outlive her by thousands upon thousands of years with most likely many lovers after to replace her hurts. Knowing cupid and their family will be her forever, but she and their family will not be cupid’s forever, absolutely tears her heart to shreds.

One day she breaks and tells cupid, her wife tells her that she will in fact “be her forever”, that there will be no one else after her. Blondie accepts it as a lie to comfort her, but one day she realises what cupid really meant. she feels sick and terrified of her wife’s intentions, but she feels even more sick at the relief it gives her to know that she wont just be a short fling the other woman will one day forget.

They don’t speak on it again and they definitely dont tell cupid’s family of her future intentions, they continue to live happy and in love, but every now and then they think about the shared grave that awaits them.

#ever after high #c.a cupid #blondie lockes #heartlockes #whoopsie i got really fucking depressing there #am i crying while writing that?? absolutely. shit relating to immortality and mortality fucking destroys me #but i continue to ship imortal characters with mortal characters like a fucking idiot #i have so many thoughts about their life together #its kinda fucked how they took over my brain like this #they arent even canon #fucking lesbian cartoon characters why do you do this? #trigger warning time #tw suicidal ideation #tw implied suicide #tw mentioned suicide #i think thats all #sorry i threw angst on you after a bunch of sweet shit #im just in that mood i guess #its 5am i have to be up at 8am gnight #also sorry if any spelling mistakes etc. its hard to type while crying lmao

[littencloud9]

save me black and white haired duos SAVE ME (they cant even save themselves)

#i noticed a pattern. why does the black haired one always fucking die (first) #this is about sskk and satosugu and vanoé and shiguang and perhaps fyolai btw #red and blue ships do not hold a candle to yin yang doomed yaoi ships #sigh. i may not have a type but i do have a pattern and all that

[agrebel18]

 I do not understand people who make fun of others who make a romantic pairing between fictional characters queerplatonic as if it’s a “downgrade”

#and qpr isn't just friendship either!!! #it's something different from friendship and romance so y'all can shut the fuck up!!! #I understand if you're feeling that you HAVE to interpret them that way because of peer pressure #but I don't think this happens often so yeah #(and this is coming from someone who's a hopeless romantic) #besides this is harmless so if you do this then stop it!!! #BTW THIS DOES NOT MEAN YOU CAN'T INTERPRET A SHIP YOU LIKE AS ROMANTIC OR THAT YOU CAN'T CELEBRATE THAT THEY'RE CANONICALLY INTO EACH OTHER #OR CANONICALLY DATING #since I like to see my blorbos be happily in love with each other! #but don't be an asshole! #there are a few specific ships that people do this with that come to my mind as I'm typing this #but thats not important #fandom salt

[welcometoteyvat]

been half typing up too many complaining posts lately I need to actually finish a fic and then i'll have something with actual substance to post

#>types the post. >writes the tags >reflects on it for 30 s >deletes the draft >at least 7 haterisms within the past week havent seen the lig #light of tumblr dot com #open at will: hater behavior #SAD i feel like all my complaints are over inconsequential stuff and idk whether ppl do it anymore but i just get annoyed thinking abt it #esp bc some shit i complain abt is age/ship discourse which i dont see much of anymore #however i will say that looking thru screenshots from 2022 some people are so fucking stupid #this is about liyue 6ang ages which is a hill i have died and will continue to die on. yeah its a small hill but it is large in my heart