#do i wanna finish thesis?

[sunshades]

I shouldve written ch4 faster cuz my writing juice has been going low in this past month and now I might be falling back in the the no writing rut... hmm

#bell.txt #might just be some depresso maybe. 'just' KNDISKWKDJ but u know how hard it is making art and stuff #i do wanna write the church emoji knot emoji yuri for sure I'll try to post that #but ch4 idk. i guess we'll be seeing whether to post or just finish writing for myself BWAHAHA #i dont know godddd drawing and writing are both awful should i just work on my thesis and be a good student. ough #negative / maybe

[vermillioncrown]

reminding myself i can't just hyperfixate on one activity and need to switch gears every once in a while to enrich my enclosure

but also the bitch that started hi-fi rush at 9pm and went to bed at 5am 🫣

#redglyphs #verm is playing... #being humbled day in and out #like they used to call me the metronome in dance and yet here we are #sobbing and wailing during the rekka fight #verm bf ''no you're doing great! look you're winning!'' #me ''stop hitting me! go away! what are you doing now?!?!😭'' #korsica makes me wanna cosplay again esp i think 1) her wig would be so fun to make #2) i def can make articulated+LED props for her batons #but also hitting myself bc i. need. to. finish. thesis. #two of my friends are finally defending this month but they proposed nearly a year before me so yeah... #but i'm still 🥺🥺🥺

[forabeatofadrum]

Thank you for the tag @martsonmars. Happy 10th birthday to Check, Please!

Y’all know what time it is, right? That’s right, it’s Thesis Wednesday!

Last week, I shared the opening of my conclusion and it is, in Peach’s language, a dogshit chapter. I know. I said it myself. (Or actually, I meme’d it myself.)

After talking with my thesis advisor, I have some extra confidence. I mean, I am pretty confident about my results chapter. That one is no longer dogshit. My conclusion.... we’re getting there.

Here is the same first paragraph, but now slightly improved:

The aim of this research is to explore how queer women give meaning to the representation of queer women in television series and films. Queer women give meaning based on their judgments about the quality of television series and films, on how queer women are treated differently in television series and films, on the influence of television series and films, and because of a sense of identification that develops during the watching the television series and films.

Yes, that is an abundance of “television series and films”, but hey, my thesis advisor didn’t comment on that. As I said, it is slightly improved. It is still pretty vague, but just.... less? I am just a bit nervous cause it is still kind of dogshit and all my chapters will be graded separately. I need to pass all of them in order to pass my thesis, so I hope this conclusion won’t, as the Dutch say, put ashes in my food. I need to hand in a draft of the full thesis this Friday.

Again, [WYFMITE voice] how does this make you feel?

If you just read this sentence on its own, is it... fine? Okay? Dogshit?

It is also such a long sentence. Maybe I just need to cut it up in a couple of sentences, aka giving every main results its own sentence. I am just struggling with the ✨ word count ✨! Honestly, right now, I am under the word count, which surprised both me and my thesis advisor BUT I am aware I also need to add some other things so I doubt it will stay there SO using extra words when it’s unnecessary is not ideal. But is it unnecessary? Or is it necessary to make it more readable?

OH AND YOU KNOW WHAT IS ALSO FUNNY? MY THESIS NEEDS A TITLE AND A SUMMARY (aka the Abstract). WHY IS THIS FUNNY? CAUSE I’VE BITCHED COUNTLESS TIMES THAT THE HARDEST PART OF (fic) WRITING IS COMING UP WITH THE TITLE AND SUMMARY!!!! I’VE HAD FINISHED FICS STUCK IN MY DRAFTS FOR WEEKS BECAUSE OF THIS SHIT. SO YEAH, I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS SHIT ALSO HAUNTS MY THESIS.

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#it is also missing slovenia o'clock so i do wanna write more klaine advent but maybe after i am finished with this #altho my free time is still uhhh zelda time #wip wednesday #thesis lol #WELL AT LEAST I AM NOT USING CHATGPT UNLIKE *SOME* STUDENTS #tagged in

[anisohtropy]

genshin’s wild because I’ve gotta get waist deep in lore to write anything. like here I am wading through a sea of background optional dialogue from temporary event quests that contain central details about a character’s backstory and motivations

#this is about kaveh #i had to rewrite like 1k words because of The Contestant silly little sidequest #why hoyo #genshin #genshin impact #i just wanna finish this thing MY GOD #however i must admit #kavehs father being in aaru village for a time gives me like so much ammo #im reloading my nerf gun of angst as i type #kaveh is so connected to the desert #like his father and his thesis with alhaitham and being in the desert during the archon quest #im laughing maniacally #but also suffering bc why am i having to do a book report rn to write a fic

[silly-mode-cilia]

doing research on writing and stem and how it's taught as an aspect of a research paper has given me a deep desire to write a like. thesis about this and get research on the experiences of my peers and go to the dean and go "hai bestie uhm fix urrrrrrr bio degree hehe see: my sources". what if i just did that Because I Could.

admittedly this is largely based on my own, fairly justified i think, opinion that many of my peers don't write scientific stuff well. from observations and group projects and such. but like. just the relationship between writing and the sciences...the perceived disconnect despite it's absolute vital role in developing identity and communicating findings and synthesizing understanding of phenomena in the context of past/present research/data UGH sexy

#mems yells #i have to do a lot of stuff over winter break but i really wanna do more research on this i have so many thoughts #and the sources are so interesting #and it would be nice to not be constrained by the requisit framing of tutoring and just fucking Look At It #maybe if i finish my current undergrad thesis earlier than expected i could do this for fun? bonus thesis? #i could create a survey for WI courses to see if they get actual feedback #i could interview faculty #ask people their perception fo writing and most improtant experiences to develop disciplinary writing #god that would be so neat to look at

[blyszczopies]

i need my body thrown around and at least three beers in my bloodstream in order to get anything done .

#i dont wanna do my thesis i dont wanna finish this college all i want is violenece and lesbian sex #notes app #3000 #<- sure i will tag this .

[possession1981]

i am really starting to think i might actually need to be put on sick leave for. idk. a while. because the way i am burnt out. i feel like i’m not even human anymore sometimes.

#p #but i don't i DO NOT want to have to finish my thesis late that's the issue #i wanna finish my degree this semester

[ispyspookymansion]

public opinion poll. trying to do my top surgery before i graduate in may so i am only missing classes. or after when my thesis is done and i am trying to find/keep my first industry job

#scary either way. cant everything just pause for a whole #if i wanna do it furing the year it would have to be like . mid april. and then i would miss the last two weeks of my school career #probably. but i cannot imagine i will be able to finish my thesis film if i get surgery before its done #sooooo .. #and i dont know what im doing after graduation yet maybe i should just plan it right after that #but what if i can get a job offer for right after graduation and then i cant start for like a month :[ #kora.txt

[airenyah]

update on my thesis: i STILL haven't written a single word for it, i'm STILL missing 4k words

buttttttt!!!!!!

i've gone through my literature and analyzed almost all my examples and done almost all the research i still needed and taken notes sooooooo

that means all that's left to do is to turn my notes into actual proper sentences

#i'm actually still missing two scenes bc i haven't transcribed them yet #a scene from atots and a scene from double savage #i came across them only recently and so i haven't transcribed them yet #i'm gonna go change my location and then i'm gonna do the transcribing thing and check #which translation strategies are being used #(now that i've analyzed a few examples it should be a little quicker) #it's only 6pm and i'm not likely to go to sleep before 2am sooooo #let's see how many words i'll manage to write before bedtime #i might have to get up early tomorrow to finish before all hell breaks lose #worse case-scenario i'll have to do it on the weekend #not ideal bc i was gonna go home but... what can you do 🤷‍♀️ #i wanna send it to my prof by june 15th so i can get some extra feedback before i hand it in for a grade #airenyah plappert #airenyah vs her BA thesis

[spoofenshmirtz]

I don’t wanna work on my thesis I want to play my silly little games and draw my silly little emotional support characters and wait for my silly little video game merch without having to worry about graduating on time

#technically i dont even have to worry too bad bc my internship already said they wanna hire me after i finish interning #and that they dont technically care if ive finished my thesis by the time we write the contracts #and that i can take some time off in between finishing my internship and starting my actual work period to work on my thesis #but i want the bastard done!!! out of my life!!! its been so long i barely know what im writing about anymore #and thats not like super helpful when i work on it at most one day a week and otherwise work fulltime #SIGHHHHH academics sucks and my thesis doesnt even have anything to do with my work so it literally just matters for me graduating #which is why its so hard to do. its just like my bachelors thesis that was virtually useless on all fronts #cant even do shit with a bachelor in psychology #but i need a master to be a real psychologist but the thesis doesnt have anything to do with my practical work #so its like who give a shit!!!! #ok im done yelling now. hi tumblr i barely have a presence online bc its exhausting but i still live #spoovy's thoughts

[torgawl]

i have 20 days to write my thesis i feel so overwhelmed i don't think i can do it i need to do so much

#doing this masters while being mentally ill and probably in the worst phase of my life is exhausting and one of the worst experiences #of my life i just wanna finish this #i know whatever comes out of this i won't feel proud of it because it's not my best #but also i can't take this anymore and don't care if i don't get a good grade #i just wanna end it #i feel so hopeless ajsksj #i will try to have an extremely productive day tomorrow #or today it's already past midnight but can't sleep cause anxiety ahaha fun ✌️ #actually no i have less than 20 days to write it i need to send it in 20 days LOL #i don't wanna say that bad phrase but i do be really wanting to sometimes #i'm afraid #i really wanna finish this #i wanted to be able to write something good because of my supervisors #i just feel sorry for them #they deserved someone who was able to make something good #and i'm just wasting it #i was supposed to actually write an article out of this as first author after the thesis but i think i will give up and just let them write #it and include me just as co-author i really need a break from this otherwise i can't take it #sorry for using my tumblr as a diary agsksj i'm having a full on panicking moment because the anxiety hits at these times #insomnia is a bitch #and i feel really disappointed in myself and hopeless about all of this #which was my one priority #i think it hits especially hard because i'm not monetarily in a good moment of my life either #anyways #i forgot to leave my cat food for the night i should do that lol

[lovedbee]

what if i wrote a fic inspired by the minecraft but my friend is... series where dream is a shapeshifter. what then

#forget about the thesis i am supposed to finish and hand in NEXT WEEK #dnf #i kinda wanna do it......i havent written ff in so long

[moonctzeny]

Omg what's the song?! I gotta be mentally prepared for THIS one🥵🥵

ahhh the song is Kiss U Right Now by duckwrth 😩

I think I wanna kiss you Right here in front of everybody Right now

Uh, 'cause you know I've been peeking, thinking Giving me the reason to AirBnB and rendez-vous on the weekend Maybe all my thoughts are so indecent Start lip-lockin' in front of the deacon

#also I'm really sorry for not writing but I work full time and I have my thesis to finish #you have no idea how much I wanna write his chapter I just have no time to do it justice #madame viper #❤❤❤

[welcometogrouchland]

local girl did work for three minutes straight without stopping to listen to music for 45 minutes. 15 dead 11 injure d

#ramblings of a lunatic #why!!!is!!!writing!!!so!!!difficult!!!rn!!!!!!!!! #im being VERY brave about it but still #its fine its fine im almost done with the intro to ep 3 (gonna finish the base of the scene today b4 tweaking and planning the part tomorr) #*tomorrow #well maybe not tomorrow. i have to be up early tomorrow. but u get the idea #and THEN when i have the opening all donezo i get to go redraft episode 1 to my liking (theres like. 3-ish? changes by scene count?- #-and probably just dialogue/characterization tweaks across the board. as much as i wanna im leaving the actual plot points in tact- #-bc if i dont i'll be here until i turn to stone!) #and THEN i get to do an actual redraft/iron-over of episode 2 #(one scene needs to be added for thematic relevance and i gotta keep it short then i gotta redraft one scene to have better dialogue- #-then i gotta fix up some ending bits and add a better thesis statement to the penultimate scene- #-and THEN i gotta redraft the very last scene so it seques better into episode 3!) #and when all thats done then im gonna try and knuckle down for the next few months to get ep 3 done #aiming for late december deadline...we'll see what happens #u guys hold me to that. if it's jan 1st and theres no 3rd enterprise script feel free to send me anon hate /hj

[your-fave-is-bi]

I want to sit n play video games and drink tea and listen to songs together. I want to go for a snack run to the grocery store. I want to sit and hear my friend breathe and laugh and smile, i want to hear every mundane fucking sound they make, i want to see how they walk, i want to borrow beloved blankets to burrow in, i want to be near the people i love so dearly but who live continents away. a

#personal tag #im fucking lonely and stressed and tired and in pain and i just want to hug my friends #legitimately i think if someone hugged me I’d crumple into a mess of goop and tears #me: why do i have so much tension and headaches again #also me: trying to wrangle my perfectionist undiagnosed adhd ass to finish my thesis by the end of this week #i just wanna feel like i can breathe again. the course of my next few years is hinged on the yes or no on my degree #and i dont have plans for whichever way it goes #i just want to get away. i just want to get out and away and leave #i want a little studio for myself and i want to sit and breathe #and know that im out. i want to get out #dont rb i guess im just having emotions

[daechwitamv]

nobodies gonna be more surprised than me when i actually get this degree

#gonna have to move the exam i have in sep into next semester simply bc my mental health is deteriorating faster every day and #i cant do another year of daily panic attacks and constant anxiety i cant do it #ive been feeling dizzy every day for two months and lately ive been waking up and going to bed with headaches #i cant do this shit i rly rly cant #but the humiliation of having to move exams again bro im . #in theory im supposed to finish my master this summer aka rn lmao in practice im gonna need next sem for exams and then another semester #for my master thesis #. #my mental shit is holding me back so fucking much i thought i was doing better but holy shit #im so tired of this i just wanna finally get my degree i feel so dumb holy shiiiiiy #but i cant study every day for a month and a half for this exam in sept i cant its gonna almost definitely gonna make me sewerslidal #and for what. im destroying my mental health for fucking what #it doesnt matter if i need another year in the grand scheme of things #and it doesnt matter if other ppl are judging me for being slow and needing so much time . it doesn't #it doesnt matter it doesnt matter it doesnt matteerrr #hahahahhaha #:) #::::::))))( #anyways. im gonna take a nap