#do u think he cried

[lovesickeros]

☆ even the gods bleed [ pt 2 ]

{☆} characters furina, neuvillette {☆} notes cult au, imposter au, multi-chapter, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings none {☆} word count 1.9k {☆} previous [ 1 ]

This had to be a punishment of some sort – some kind of divine punishment.

She was bored out of her mind just watching the sleeping body – she hadn't blinked once in the past five hours, her eyes were really starting to hurt. Yet they still hadn't moved so much as an inch since she sequestered them away to the only place she had known to be safe.

But it'd been almost a week since then.

The only solace she found was that Teyvat had seemed much less hellbent on collapsing in on itself like a dying star.

That counted for something.

Not much, but something!

..Even if their position was no better then it was a week ago.

There was, after all, still the issue of what to do about the false Creator – the actual imposter – and the Archons following them like blind lambs. The other Archons wouldn't listen if she tried to reason with them, and it would only risk the life of Divine One if she spoke of their location to anyone else.

She also was pretty fond of having her head still attached to her shoulders.

So she avoided them all together. Partially because she wasn't sure she wouldn't have a breakdown at the sight of them..she'd never been a fighter, and fighting an Archon? Easy pass.

Instead she was forced to babysit the sleeping Divine until they woke up while Neuvillette handled taking care of the nation and dealing with the other Archons – and by extension the false Creator.

Really though, she would almost think them dead if not for the subtle rise and fall of their chest.

Though..this also left her with a lot of time to herself. A lot of time to think.

She really didn't like it.

There wasn't a lot to occupy her mind and what little there was only distracted her for a scant few moments before her eyes drifted back to the Divine like she was locked in their orbit, unable to escape.

She closed the same book for the twelfth time – she kept count – and returned it to it's meticulously designed place within her bookcase. A low, barely audible huff of frustration escaped her lips before she could bite it down, her stare boring a hole into the body of the Divine One with a sharp intensity she rarely showed.

She was tired, bored and constantly on edge, fearing that at any moment someone would find out about their presence here.

That, at the drop of a hat, she would be powerless to stop the greatest tragedy of her time play out before her eyes.

Neuvillette would have scolded her for being so petulant, especially around the Divine One, if he were here.

But he wasn't.

He was out running her nation, instead.

And what was she doing? Nothing!

She grit her teeth, nails digging harshly into the palm of her hands as she took a deep breath – now was not the time to think about that. She had..much more pressing matters. Sulking and letting her thoughts spiral helped no one, least of all herself.

Yet her attention was caught by a harsh inhale, the rustle of fabric – were they finally waking up? She was exhausted, but it all vanished at the sudden drop of life within the otherwise deathly still body of the Divine.

Her eyes followed the subtle twitch of their fingers, watching as their brow furrowed and their features twisted in something almost like..pain.

..She wasn't ready.

What was she supposed to say?

Should she even say anything? Would that be considered impolite? Does she wait for them to speak first? Should she kneel? Bow?

She doesn't get much time to find her own answer before their lashes flutter, chest heaving with every strangled breath. Every single thought vanishes from her mind the moment she meets their eyes.

For a long, silent moment she thinks that her heart must have stopped.

Their eyes glow like the cresting of the sun over the horizon, painting the world in hues of gold – yet it also reminded her of the dipping of the moon below the waves, casting the briefest, most gentle of lights upon the world engulfed in darkness. In the depths of their eyes was the birth and death of stars in the infinite cosmos – glittering stars in a sea of empty, blank space that left her feeling lightheaded and breathless.

Beneath the splendor is a spark of recognition in their eyes so vibrant it was like a shooting star piercing through the dark night sky, leaving nothing but the wonder in the eyes of the observer as the only proof it ever existed – brilliant in it's beauty, however brief.

It is the most beautiful thing she has ever seen.

"Focalors?"

The lilt of their voice nearly made her knees buckle beneath her – euphoria so consuming it left her feeling she was starving swallowed her whole, her mind blanking in a moment of utter bliss. It was..an indescribable feeling that she doubted she could ever hope to put into words – not in a way that could properly express it, try as she might.

She swallowed the words that threatened to spill from her lips – she couldn't make a fool of herself. Not in front of them of all people. She'd never forgive herself.

"Divine One," She rasps, clearing her throat and covering her mouth with a hand to mask both her nervousness and the small smile that creeps across her face. She quickly regains her composure, hand resting on her hip as she puffs out her chest with every bit of pride she can manage. "I am sure you must be confused, but worry not– your most loyal acolyte has seen the truth!"

The silence is deafening.

She opens one eye, peaking at the bewildered and almost distraught expression of the Divine.

"What the hell are you talking about?"

That..she was not prepared for. Surely they knew who they were! Surely they knew. They had to– she's been praying to them for as long as she's breathed, she's dedicated every hour of her life to living up to their ideals, they can't just–!

"Lady Furina?"

Neuvillette, thankfully, spares her the embarrassment of having a meltdown in front of the Divine, the gentle rap of his knuckles against the door making her and the Divine pause, the soft lull of his voice soothing her nerves and yet setting her on edge at the same time.

"Neuvillette." She clears her throat again, her steps hurried as she marches to the door and pries it open none too gently, a forced smile pulling at her lips. She wastes no time tugging the man into the room, shutting the door behind him with a short huff. The silence is, somehow, even worse then before as the three of them stare at each other in absolute exasperation.

Neuvillette, for his part, manages to get his act together with a sharp clearing of his throat, bowing so low even she looks unnerved. She steals a brief glance at the Divine, and she's taken aback by the uncomfortability twisting their features into a grimace.

Their expression is schooled back into one of empty apathy when he stands back to his full height, but she saw it – she knows she did! Did they not like their worship? Were they not respectful enough? For a moment, she feared the Divine would smite Neuvillette down on the spot..but they just stared at him like he was a ghost.

"Why aren't you killing me?"

The defeated, resigned tone combined with the way their voice cracks makes her heart ache in her chest – it feels as though her entire world is crumbling down at her feet, and she cannot explain why she feels such emotions so strongly, but it is suffocating. It is almost as if Teyvat itself is weeping, bearing down upon her shoulders like a heavy weight.

She feels the urge to weep herself, but she powers through, gritting her teeth long enough for Neuvillette to take his place at the side of her – though it feels more like their – bed, kneeling like he was going to pray.

"Divine One," He offers a hand with a quiet rumble of his voice, the words slipping off his tongue like honey. It's like trying to soothe a stray cat..though she'd never voice such comparisons of the most Divine out loud. "I..we mean you no harm. I swear on my authority as the Iudex of Fontaine and Chief Justice that you are safe with us."

The skepticism she expected, but the reverence in which Neuvillette must convince them – or perhaps they are simply so tired that they simply did not care any longer if it was all some ploy to drive a knife between their ribs. She didn't expect them to actually place their hand in Neuvillette's.

He didn't either, judging by the way he visibly brightened – not that they'd notice, but she did.

..Not that she could really blame him, her heels clicking against the floorboards as she shifted her weight to the other foot with a nervous energy that was practically bursting at the seams, more then a little jealous of the attention he was receiving. She was the one who found them, she was the one who stayed with them the entire time..but he gets all the attention?

How unfair.

"O-of course! We would never lay a hand on our creator," She adds, her voice a little higher pitched then she would have liked as she placed her hands on her hips, puffing out her chest and brushing off the sting of jealousy. "Least of all I– your most loyal, most devout acolyte!"

She felt baffled when she heard the sound of their laughter, her shoulders hunching and her cheeks flushing on mere instinct – she was expecting mockery, but the look in their eyes, still dulled by a pain she cannot even begin to imagine, made her hesitate.

..It was, perhaps, the most genuine thing she'd heard from them ever since before the hunt began.

She wasn't sure why her heart hurt at such an idea, but it was enthralling to see the beginnings of a half hearted smile on their lips.

For a moment, her mask of theatrics was forgotten as she stared at them in a mixture of awe and adoration– and though she didn't look at Neuvillette, she could imagine he must've shared such an expression.

Had she any doubts that they were her Creator, that they alone were the most Divine..they would wiped clean now. There was no mistaking the way the world itself seemed to grow clearer as they glanced up at her like she was worth something.

For a moment, she realized how cold the false Creators gaze had been now that she has felt warmth so gentle it almost made her knees buckle beneath her. It felt like a pale imitation, now.

Nothing could compare to the warmth that spread through her body at the mere semblance of a smile upon their lips. She didn't even mind if it was her they were laughing at anymore, she just wanted to hear them laugh again.

She'd make a fool of herself, if she had to.

She'd never felt so..ravenous for such a thing, but just the briefest glimpse was addictive.

She simply couldn't help herself from striding across the room and clasping their free hand in her own, her smile wide enough to unnerve as she leaned her weight onto the bed. For a moment, she considered pulling away at the way they startled, but her mind was made up by then – there was no going back.

"Again."

#sagau #genshin sagau #self aware genshin #genshin impact sagau #self aware genshin impact #fic tag #neuvillette #focalors #furina #dont ask what happened here idk #this was. also supposed 2 be neuvi focused and then i. #dont talk 2 me abt focalors i wont ever shut up #got a 300k word essay on hand abt how i feel abt her character/how i interpret her personality and her story #focalors jsut like me fr fr (cries at the slightest inconvenience or the slightest mean comment) #shes so pathetic girlfail im gonna chew on her #what happens when reader gets stuck with two emotionally repressed french bastards?? hell #neuvi is the “emotionless” flavor of emotionally repressed in that hes HORRIBLE at showing emotions at all #ask him to smile and its incredibly unnerving and theres too many teeth but hes trying his best please call him pretty or he will cry :( #furina is the flavor of emotionally repressed where she makes it up by having Too Many emotions #using theatrics and masks to show everyone what they want to see but inside this girl is a MESS #constant anxiety and panic 24/7 #will do random shit and look at you and if u dont compliment her she will think u hate her and cry #compliment her and she'll do even stupider shit to try and impress you more #i love my scrunkly little babies they r so stupid and mentally ill someone get these bitches some THERAPY #i want 2 put them under a microscope #watch this be ooc fr furina when more of her lore drops if shes not girlfail im leaving #anyway see u in a week im going on a trip ill get back 2 u in 6-7 business days

[rintoki]

a a a a a a a a a

playing dress up with aventurine. where he’s your pretty little doll. trying on clothes because he likes to show off how pretty he looks in everything. except the clothes gets progressively raunchier… and sluttier… and more revealing. until he finally comes out in just lingerie, expecting some kind of reaction from you.

but you’ve just been looking on with a mild smile on your face, barely even a chuckle as he climbs onto your lap. aventurine can feel the familiar anxiety in his belly, the doubt growing in his mind. but he can’t turn back now; instead he grabs your hands, bringing them to his waist as he puts on the overconfident expression he knows all too well.

he spills his honeyed words, his eyes drawing you in. he’s far too pretty—gorgeous even—for you to ignore him like that. so he toys with the loosely tied bow across his chest; it wasn’t meant to stay tied for long, one small tug and it all comes undone.

he feels your thumbs rubbing along his waist, hands squeezing slightly and aventurine feels right on the edge. so, so close, he’s almost got you. the thrill of winning just within reach, just a little more…

“you look amazing in this one as well, i’m sure your lover will deeply enjoy it,” your easy smile and relaxed frame gave nothing away, toying with the silky fabric of the lingerie.

and he nearly stumbles as you move to stand, signaling the end of your little ‘meeting’. you’re not sure what he’s looking to gain from doing this, especially since he has yet to propose some kind of deal to you. however, it was getting late, and it wouldn’t look too good on either of you if you were seen leaving his residence so late in the night.

“if there’s no other outfits to show me, i think i’ll take my leave then. have a good night, aventurine.”

you’re gone before he can even think of an excuse to make you stay. or rather, if him dressing up like such in front of you isn’t enough to get you to stay, what else is a man to do?

#turns out #you’re denser than a bag of bricks #oopsies #you’re just coworkers #friends if we’re being generous :) #did i cook with this or am i actually tweaking rn i don’t know #sometimes u follow a train of thought and it leads you to funky town #anyway #i want him to be desperate #wracking his brain thinking HOW DO I GET THEM TO WANT MEEEEEEE wails and cries #he’s a peacock of course #he only shows off his pretty feathers and draws you in #but you have to be the attacker heh #he can’t make the first move what is he desperate (he is) #the first person to fall is the loser obviously #and aventurine never loses #six.writes #hsr aventurine #aventurine honkai star rail #dom!reader #sub aventurine #honkai star rail

[theloveinc]

It's a little bit further into your relationship with art student!Bakugo and you've been working together now for the good portion of two semesters...

Except for whatever reason, your professor assigns him a different model for the upcoming final, and when you go to look for him after class (since at the announcement, he stormed out of the room in frustration, slamming back his desk and knocking over the overflowing recycling bin by the door), you find him weeping in frustration in the janitor's closet next door adhfnlkjadshfk

#bakugo #for some reason thinking abt him red at the height of his cheeks kinda teary cuz he already planned out his final w/ u as the muse ... #is doing something to me #trying to hide his sniffles and wiping his eyes with the heel of his hands. getting charcoal on his face #i feel like he's one of those artists who cries when something goes wrong.... #like mean angry tears bc he did something wrong and he's so sad but doesn't want to admit it #cuz he's also the type to literally destroy work over one single mistake #AND you have to be the one to comfort him. not n*de tho ofc #WAHHHH #kind of a carmy moment from the bear LOL #brain does not compute.... #and then when he's done freaking out he freaks out AGAIN realizing this means you'll have to be n*ked for someone else #cuz even tho u have... lowkey when u started working with him u stopped working with other artists #asdjlkfaskd AND WHAT IF IT'S KIRI OR DEKU #kiri i can see him getting on board with but deku #he's crying AGAIN LMFAOOO #afjadfj people after class are asking u if he's okay and youre like. we're not even dating but. no. he's not. a/ksjlfkasdjkl #shii posts #gen #art student bakugo

[astrobei]

do you think mike heard will cry himself to sleep the first night he was in lenora? if he wasn’t staying in will’s room then maybe he couldn’t sleep either and he was tossing and turning for hours before working up the courage to walk down the hall and see if maybe will was still up. maybe he got all the way up to his door before he heard it— stifled sobs, muffled and choked out like they get when you’re specifically trying very hard to not be heard crying. and the first thing he feels is guilt, because he knows why will is crying, and he just keeps playing on loop in his head the way will’s face had fallen when mike didn’t hug him at the airport. how he should have just gotten over whatever had come over him in that moment and hugged him anyway, if it was going to hurt him like this. and then he feels even more guilty because this is will’s private moment, and mike isn’t supposed to be here, and god, he can’t even let will be upset in peace without intruding. do you think he walked back to his bed in silence, probably missing will even more than when he was still in hawkins?

(because i do. i think about it a lot.)

#will cried himself to sleep that night and u cannot tell me otherwise #his best friend that he hasn’t seen in six months #is here and he’s blowing him off and #will thought they left things on a good note and then things got weird over the 6 months and he thought that maybe mike visiting would make #things ok again #but they’re not and it’s just like last summer #so he definitely cried. #head in hands #head in my FUCKING HANDS #if i have to think about this so do u all #i’m sure u probably have though #xoxo #will byers #mike wheeler #byler #/astro posts

[no-light-left-on]

I often wonder about the quote-unquote logistics of Corvo the Black/Emily the Butcher endings. Emily makes more sense to me, in a way, carving her way through the empire only to come back with blood caked under her fingernails and realising that she did everything her father refused to do 15 years ago. but why did Corvo have a similar choice?

what happens to the statues later? does Emily keep her father trapped in stone? does Corvo look at his daughter, frozen in the moment and considers freeing her? is he at his deathbed when he finally reaches out and cups Emily's cheek, freeing her into a carcass of an empire that he gutted for her, in her name, in the name of her mother?

when I first heard of the endings I thought that if you reach very high chaos, you are locked into this choice - Corvo or Emily tries to free the other and the stone just doesn't budge. they are trapped. the quest is over but the world knows that the bloodshed was extreme and this is the punishment they have to face

#li.txt #dh #dishonored #kinda like the high chaos brigmore witches ending #there is no reason for corvo to kill daud if you finish BW in high chaos. but he still does. because the world Knows #but the very Active choice of the player and by extension the character to take the throne and keep their last family locked in stone.... #its certainly a choice. and it makes me wonder about many a thing #i really wish we got more info #karnaisbear mentioned that itd be cool if we got comics expanding on alternate endings and like arkane. arkane can we please get those #I just really wanna know What It Was Like to live under the rule of Emily or Corvo in the very high chaos endings #and the fact that it seems like they can still free the other person? that adds so much more angst and tension to it #is there a time limit? do years pass and does corvo grow old and weary and thinks that yes #he has done his job and he has done it well. and the empire is righted and he can hand it back to emily now #and he cups her cheek and it remains cold marble #and all he did was for nothing #and he cries #(can u tell ive been reading thru the corvo the black tag) #not to mention something similar to that but with emily!! #imagine she grows old! older than corvo was when he was frozen! #the century is coming to a close when she finally frees him and she is older so much older and corvo will have to live with losing her #in every single impossible way he has lost her #and then he gets to bury his daughter #these tags got so dark wtf

[sollucets]

just khatha things

#midnight museum #midnight museum khatha #tor thanapob #this set brought to u by tor being a pretty crier #the only episodes of mm that khatha does not cry in are 5 & 8 #(1 has a flashback to the e7 scene) #this is made up for by khatha crying multiple times in e3 e6 e7 & e9 #(this set is missing one time he cried in e9 talking to boon) #please note that i Adore khatha and although i am making gentle fun of him i do actually like his crying a lot #i think it's very [screeching noise] that he would really love to pretend indifference but just absolutely categorically cannot #cry deny die baby :') #my best beloved narrative chewtoy #rowan gifs #this is maybe gonna be a series? but ive had some trouble with the other ones so this one alone for now

[bylertruther]

society if the duffers had gone through with their original plan to have mike go to the upside down in s1 to find will

#byler #it's enough for me to know that he WOULD but i still would have liked to see it........ but i guess there's still s5..... sniffles n cries #when will's ankle gets caught in a vine n vecna goes YOINK n u just see mike's eyes go crazy wide as he starts sprinting after him faster #than he ever has tripping stumbling falling in a very mike fashion but he keeps going n he doesn't make it in time but it doesn't matter #it doesn't matter bc he's NOT going to lose will again he's NOT going to lose him on HIS watch a-fucking-gain he won't he CAN'T #and maybe it's a party affair so he looks back at lucas n dustin who are almost there and they're screaming after #him BECAUSE MIKE WAIT STOP MIKE WE DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT WEAPONS but mike just furrows his brow and goes in #bc he's the heart he's the paladin he's going to lead them and he's going to save will because will needs him but also he needs will #and. and um. well. then i fucking die of course #OR COULD U IMAGINE IF will goes on a solo mission and he thinks he's managed to sneak away but mike pops up like 'what are you doing? 🤨' #bc he always sees will and he always knows when something is up and it's a crazy plan but they did say crazy together and that they'd be a #team no matter what and that they would kill vecna so liek. do u see what im saying are u seeing my visions are u feeling my insanity rn . #they get surrounded or trapped somewhere and will casts fog cloud n saves the party like he did in a previous campaign. etc etc #dustin is their bard who has snacks n keeps things lighthearted mike leads the way n will is at his side n lucas is their eyes n ears n it' #almost like one of their campaigns bc the show started with that and those were their roles when will was missing and now it'll end #like that and so on n so forth. nods mhm mhm #takes deep breath ok back 2 studying i go byeeee

[bestboysaiki]

it would be so funny if i made toritsuka love sick for the reader in my saiki fanfic

#bro has definitely thought of asking u out but has never actually gone thru it bc he knows you'll reject him #LMAO he also tried drawing u but it turned out so shitty he thinks its an insult to your beauty #toritsuka x reader when #he definitely had his ghosts check up on u to see whether u are doing well or not #toritsuka reita #toritsuka x reader #he feels physically sick when he sees you talking to saiki because of the way you smile so big at saiki #has cried like a baby knowing you wont be his #talked about his huge crush on u to aiura and she made fun of him by saying “babe y/n is out of your league”

[padfootastic]

I’m actually really fascinated by Jily and Lily now, precisely because it doesn’t look as if it bothered her that J and S were inseparable. She’s very clearly aware of how important they are to each other, she writes Sirius to tell him James needs to see him and it’s just like “yeah, this is How It Is,” no bitterness from James’s wife that James needs to see Sirius. She even signs it off with her love, she doesn’t resent Sirius’s place in James’s life in the slightest.

right?? it’s amazing and i think the only reason why i love jilypad as i do and can accept it wholeheartedly. i also think it speaks immensely to james potter’s capacity for love; it’s not easy to convince someone of their place on ur life, or to give them security and mental peace esp in times of extreme tensions, but that he was able to do that to the point that lily didn’t feel threatened? amazing.

i can see it happening bc lily accepts that her and sirius occupy different roles in james’ life and there truly is no competition. i think a fic once out it like? ‘sirius was his soul, but lily was his heart’ or sumn i’m not sure, and i do think that sums it up well. james has so much love in him, it overflows and fills in all the cracks and never makes the other feel inadequate. and i also see lily as coming into the relationship w an attitude of ‘i am finally ready for not just james but sirius as well’ bc she knows it s a duo, all jokes aside, which is the one thing most people don’t understand about them.

#sirius black #james potter #lily evans #managing jealousy is actually so difficult #now i’m interested in a conversation #b/w lily and james #where she’s all worked up bc she thinks james’ love for sirius means there isn’t any for her so she tries to pick an argument #except he’s just super calm #zen. unbothered. sitting like patiently listening to her vent it out bc he realises this is coming from a place of hurt and inadequacy #and insecurity #and when she’s all yelled out and cried out #that’s when he gently takes her in his arms and presses a kiss to her temple and just. talks. #and he’s so gentle and soft and kind and loving #that it’s very hard for lily to believe that he doesn’t love her #or even to compare herself to sirius #bc i truly believe giving up on jealousy requires a radical restructuring of the way u perceive love #and the expectations u have of people #and the belief u have in urself #it’s not easy and it’s def not the mainstream idea #but once u do it. so so liberating #(but that could also just be my polyam/i do not understand relationships political agenda speaking lmao) #anyway. yeah. #jily + j&s ftw #have i ever talked about the oneshot i’ve had in my drafts for a while #where jily is moving into a new house #and lily just assumes it’ll have a room for sirius. not guest room. but sirius’ #and chooses a house accordingly for his convenience as well #and james is just jkasbfilnswfoibowdf floored #bc how did he luck out so well #pen’s asks

[suffarustuffaru]

Just wanted to say thank you for the ottosuba posting you've done lately. The English speaking fandom is absolutely barren with Otto content, let alone ottosuba content. So to have someone as awesome about it as you post via Tumblr posts, fanfic, fanart, etc. on a good(-ish) website like Tumblr is like finding a diamond in the rough. Anyhow, looking forward to any future ottosuba content from you!

(｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡

anon you made my day fr these are very high compliments T^T <3 i appreciate it a lot pfft a part of me is always like "I CANT REVEAL HOW MUCH MY BRAIN IS ROTTING OVER THESE CHARACTERS..." bc i get a little embarassed a little shy bc what if i am posting the same things too much...??? but then i simultaneously go "lol my blog my rules anyway im gonna make a gazillion billion content *clicks post*" which is how all the otto and ottosuba content gets churned out alsdflj. especially bc - like you said - the english speaking fandom is a BARREN DESERT when it comes to otto and ottosuba content T^TT ive been thinking about it lately bc they seem to be a lot more popular in the japanese speaking fandom i think, but theres next to Nothing with the english speaking fandom :o interesting difference there.

but regardless :o yeah i keep making otto and ottosuba content bc i am in Desperate need of it... its a desert and i gotta feed myself too HAH theyve always been interesting to me but in the years ive been into rezero that Interest has skyrocketed bc of all the interesting developments pfft (and also the lack of english fancontent for them HAH). i just think theyre so underrated in the english fandom.... thank you for liking my stuff anon <3 :DD

#ask #also you made me remember that ive been otto(suba) posting in like so many mediums lajdfljsl #i ended up sneaking a bit of meta into these tags oops aljsdfljsf but. #also i just think otto and ottosubas feralness is super interesting and my taste in characters totally isnt predictable (i say this as a p #five shuake fan also. cries.) but also like. people in the english speaking side of the fandom dismiss otto a lot which is interesting to m #like its u know that typical fandom tendency to sometimes only see characters for how they look on the surface. and its also interesting b #ive also been seeing a few people like. almost kind of miss how toxic ottos being in arc 8??? and also ottos general. subaru obsession #things yeah. like why do people miss this stuff??? he literally says his reason for being / existence is to oppose subaru??? what sane #person does that lajdslfjsldfj what sane person is so ride or die theyd rather leave a whole country + their bffs daughter figure to die?? #what sane person manipulates all their friends in order to save them??? understandable motive but literally insane lajsdlfjsld #yeah so anyway im super curious on why english vs japanese fandom have different attitudes towards otto and ottosuba HAH #being an emilia otto AND astrea fan is so weird bc people are so kind with the astreas usually and then being an emilia fan means suffering #through all the sexism and then being an otto fan is just going “YOU GUYS WERE FOOLED BY HIS SOFT BOY AESTHETICS???” and begging people to #remember that he cares about subaru. but that goes for many emilia camp members treatment in fanon. #and also yeah being a fan of almost any character in this fandom is suffering i think alsjdfljsd #granted i was also fooled by the soft boy aesthetics but that was way back when okay. i know now. hes my silly fucked up little guy now HAH

[sieglinde-freud]

WOOOOOOO INIGO SWEEP (it could be worse!)

#ann cries about feh #i think its kinda funny that of the awakening versions of the awakening trio inigo is the least voted #but of their fates versions laslow is the highest #kinda fun #personally i think intsys should j combine their votes so but whatever #as long as hes doing okay im okay #love u forever babygirl mwah 💋

[beforeyougo-turnthebiglightoff]

i still can't believe matty healy follows ethel cain on instagram

#thats so funny #apparently she like hates him too noooooo #and charli xcx??????????? #blah blah! #ethel cain #matty healy #do u think he's listened to ptolemaea before #do u think he's cried to sun bleached flies like the rest of us

[llumimoon]

ouggh. add another "npc relationship that would be really cool to see but that we probably wont get" to the list !!! anyways im thinking abt Hero Oak and Grant Wilson and fucking weeping

#cal rambles #dndads #their relationship is one ive BEEN thinking abt but actually this episode very much solidified it #as something really interesting i think. #BIG fan of Hero being initially raised by all the kiddads and therefore she knows them better than the other teens #i like the idea that theyre all kinda like weird uncles to her <3 yk the family friends that u call aunt and uncle #but aren't actually related to u #anyways. cries #before i was like haha it would be really cute if Hero's inital facination with video games #originated from Grant when he babysitted her as a kid #and then. this episode. OUGFFGGFGH #something something being forced to kill a living being in an intimate and grotesque way by ur father figure #and being told its for your own good. but all it did was fuck you up #one of my fav hcs of Hero is that she inherited the bulk of the oak family anger issues #that is to say. shes got a very short temper but also the tendency to repress it until it explodes #unlike Henry I think she does this partially unintentionally. she forces it down under a layer of apathy #from the moment she was born with the intention of being raised to be the chosen one #her situation has been unfair #and shes been angry at that unfairness for so goddamn long. and there wasn't much she could do about it #so her options were be continiously furious or repress it disassociate and feel nothing #if shes angry she could lash out and she's powerful. oh god she's powerful. she already has blood on her hands. she doesnt want more. #so she keeps it all in a tight little bundle and presses it down where it belongs #you see where im going with this. cries #anyways i just want to see them interact so bad ough i want to chew drywall #grants exposure to violence caused him to enter a disassociative state where only more violence could bring him out of #which caused him to seek more violence despite all the guilt and bad feelings attached #bc he wanted to FEEL something and it was the only way to do that #versus Hero. whos exposure to violence caused her to similarly numb her emotions #except i think more violence makes it worse. the state she has to put herself in to do violence is too emotionally taxing to get in & out of #so she actively avoids it avoids even thinking of it in order to feel like a real person

[sholmeser]

i DESPERATELY need ezreal in arcane s2 like. please. imagine the vision with me for a moment. jayce is walking around absolutely DISTRAUGHT because mel has been hospitalized (or dead) for weeks due to jinx’s attack and they just can’t find her anywhere. hes wandering piltover trying to think about something to do and then he hears a fucking like. mid-puberty teenager voice going “hey. hey can you pass me that wrench” and jayce goes “what the fuck” and he turns around and there’s this 5’3” kid absolutely covered in soot and working away at a hextech machine and jayce says “shouldn’t you be in school right now” and ez says “no” and jayce goes “ok.” ez is talking about how hes going to impress a girl with his machine or some shit (jayce: oh this kids a major douchebag) > they eventually start talking about their problems > ez brings up his missing parents (jayce: oh this kids fucked up in the head) > jayce saying that hes frustrated about not being able to find jinx > ez saying some shit like “well have you tried to find out where shes based?” > jayce going “what” > ezreal pushing up his metaphorical glasses and going Well yeah see [pulls out a gigantic map of all of piltover and zaun] if u plot out all of the places she’s been within a certain time frame and make circles connecting them to each other [generates a protractor from seemingly nowhere and does this] using logic she will be situated in the center of these circles and u Should be able to find where she lives that way. and see this heres a factory so she probably doesnt stay there and this here is a gambling place so she probably couldnt even go inside But this heres an abandoned warehouse so i would say that thats ur best bet if u wanna check that place out for clues. and jayce looks at him like What the shit and ezreal goes Well im a pretty smart kid…hyuk hyuk! and then jayce slaps him or something and then ez joins the gang for like two episodes

#bonus points if he 1. tries to flirt with caitlyn and/or vi (significantly older than him) and gets brutally shot down and cries #and 2. he meets ekko who fucking HATES him and they have a Weird Gay Thing going on. i need ezko real so bad u dont get it #anyways. him and renata who steps up to be silcos replacement….i think renata would make sense lorewise but i literally just want ez there #bc i think it would be funny . #and arcane does a good job of balancing silliness and seriousness so i do not think his being there would be a big problem #anyways. i just lovehate ezreal and i think if he was there it would be the funniest shit ever #ezreal #jayce #league of legends #arcane #myne

[hwaitham]

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#aa . i feel so silly for liking him as much as i do . like . . i dont think it is exactly healthy #but i dunnoooo ! life is not being vewy nice 2 coco at da moment n dreaming abt him makes her smilee >.< #to love & to learn are synonymous in m eyes #n dere is sooo much ! to learn from haitham . . at least dis is wat i find personally #to be comfortable being alone . to be able to set clear boundaries wif others . to not be a pushover . #to not wrrie wat others think of me . to be steadfast in my convictions n not let my opinions get so easily influenced . #to jus like . take it easy ? ? ? dat it will all be OK ! #WAAAF u guys i jus :C hic sniff hic sniff #wehehhhhh blublubglbulbgub wuhbuhhhhh ‎(╥﹏╥) #dont cry dont cry dont cry dont cry . . . * cries a lot * #he's just da bestest . . . <- i know i say this abt everyone n everything but haitham is D Bestest . #SORRIEEEEE ! ! u are all sick of me i know . . . i will now proceed to shut up abt him for . erm . 24 hours #i think dat is doable . yes yes (￣^￣)ゞ

[dykeinthedark]

thinking thoughts about claus mother 3

#(spoilers in tags pls do not read if u plan on playing mother 3) #hfhdjfhsjdhfsd GOD like i didn't even cry when he died. i couldn't cry i was just SHOCKED. filled with DREAD. #did not even have time to process it enough #it makes me so insane though because... he was so happy :( he was a happy goofy little kid. and tbh i think that his mother's death #affected him a LOT more than he let on... bc lucas cries in his room for days and flint lashes out in grief but claus turns to revenge #with absolutely NO regard for his own life. like idk it's just giving very much kid who just learned about the realness of death #and that's why i think that his first instinct was to shoot the lightning at the end... it was blank faced and emotionless and intentional #he WANTED to kill himself instead of living as a soulless machine. which is so heartbreaking actually #mother 3 #edit: also lucas is literally the strongest character of all time bc wtf