#do you get it?

[lucky-slice]

Do you understand how much kevin respects neil? And i don't mean when it comes to exy, like sure there's a whole lot of you're not good enough followed by you will make court bluh bluh bluh, i mean fundamentally as a human.

Kevin and Neil's conversation after the truth of Neil's father is revealed drives me absolutely insane because I think it highlights a lot about how Kevin views Neil.

so indulge me for a bit....

I think a lot of people forget, in light of Andrew choking Kevin for not telling him the truth, that Kevin's initial reaction was to tell Neil to run.

*sorry for the quality - these are all screenshots off my phone

Kevin's instinct is to tell Neil to save himself, despite what that would mean for the team's success and for Kevin himself. This is significant to me for two reasons.

It highlights that Kevin genuinely cares about Neil outside of his exy potential. For most people, this would be a pretty obvious response to finding out your teammate has a guaranteed death sentence if they stick around, so it might not seem all that meaningful, but Kevin was raised in such an environment were you continued to play no matter what - even at the risk of death. Kevin is unflinchingly callous when it comes to exy and his teammates (*see his reaction to Seth's death), but he is frantic in his concern for Neil in contrast to his fairly passive response to basically anyone else's wellbeing outside of exy. Neil's death will have no real impact on Kevin. If Neil dies or goes to the ravens, nothing changes for Kevin. He is not at a greater risk of being hurt by Riko or the Moriyama's nor will his exy career be effected. That's not to say he would tell Neil to stay if he cared about him any less, but there is a desperation that implies a depth beyond just that of a teammate.

The fact that Kevin is frantic and desperate for Neil to leave, gives weight to his decision to keep teaching Neil in the aftermath of the revelation.

Neil doesn't want to run - he wants to be Neil Josten until the end. He gave Kevin his game and now he's asking him to keep it and Kevin obliges.

This is essentially Kevin promising that he will keep Neil's secret. He will allow Neil to wear his mask and continue teaching him despite the fact that Neil is essentially a dead man walking. This, to me, is Kevin ultimately respecting Neil and his choice. At any moment, Kevin has the ability to got to Wymack or Andrew and give Neil the chance at surviving, but that would mean betraying Neil.

Some people (certainly the foxes) would view refusing Neil's request as the proper and morally correct thing to do. But I think Kevin's immediate acceptance of Neil's decision is both immensely meaningful to Neil and also a signifier of a shared understanding between to two.

Imagine how impactful it must be for Neil, who has never had autonomy over his own life and has been marked for death basically since he was born, to be told that not only will his decisions and his autonomy be respected, but there is someone who will stand by his side on the court, knowing the whole truth, until the very end.

Kevin doesn't have much to offer Neil at this point. He can not give him a future - he'll be long dead before he can ever make court, and Kevin is a coward - he is not andrew, he can't stand up against the Moriyama's or Riko or Neil's father. Kevin can not protect Neil in a way that matters. All he can do is promise to keep Neil's secret and offer him a few more months of being Neil Josten.

I'm not including this to disparage Andrew or to suggest that he does not respect Neil, but this highlights that Kevin knows the decision to keep Neil's secret is one only Kevin would make. Andrew without a doubt would immediately try to get Neil to leave or attempt to get him into protection. I'm not passing a judgement of morality on what would've been the right thing to do, but I do think Kevin's reaction is indicative of the fact that Neil and Kevin understand each other in a way that no one else really will.

Neil and Kevin are a parallel's in a number of ways. Kevin lived the life that Neil was supposed to have and they are two parts of one story.

To them exy is not a game, but it's not really about exy either. It's about deciding to stay just to play for a couple more months even though you'll wind up dead because playing means you finally get to live after years of being a ghost. It's about playing to be the best no matter what, even though the consequences are having your hand smashed and the life you know completely demolished. It's about playing even though you're shaking with fear and anxiety because you need proof that your life, whether it be running to survive or living under an abusive hand, was not a waste.

Kevin agrees to keep Neil's secret because if the roles were reversed, Kevin would like to believe that he'd be strong enough to ask Neil for the same thing. This is obviously conjecture and a heavy heavy reading between the lines, but I'd like to think there's some truth there.

Finishing up with this line because it makes me a little emotional.

Kevin starts the conversation by calling Neil "Nathaniel" and ends it by calling him Neil again. Its right there in the text, "it was a promise". Kevin is offering Neil a life that is fully his - not his father's, not Riko's, but Neil's to do with what he would like, even if its only for a couple more months. If that's not respect, than I don't know what is.

#kevin day #neil josten #gnat be quiet #aftg #screaming and smashing bottles and shouting do you get it at the top of my lungs #do you get it? #this is what kevin does #he believes in people until the very end because that's only thing he can offer #I think there's a lot to delve in here about choices and freedom and growing up without either #and about what it means to live for yourself #even when that means dying for yourself too #maybe kevin doesn't know how to be brave but he knows how to give other people the chance to be

[blueberryblogger]

Fabian Seacaster the loneliest boy in the world because even though his parents shower him with wealth, money cannot buy people caring about you. Money cannot buy your mother wanting to talk to you on the phone. Money cannot buy not being sent to voicemail when you call your dad.

Money can't buy your friends noticing that you are agonizingly alone in your giant house & even though money CAN craft a space that people want to be in, you can't get rid of the knowledge that they aren't there for you.

#d20 fhjy #dimension 20 fhjy #fhjy #fantasy high junior year #fhjy spoilers #fabian seacaster #i am going to be sick do you understand? #do you get it?

[vaultlucy]

cailee spaeny and wagner moura in civil war (2024)

#do you get it? #wagner moura #cailee spaeny #civil war #civil war 2024 #*

[sky-neverending]

bicons

#six of crows #shadow and bone netflix #jesper fahey #hearstopper #nick nelson #kit connor #do you get it? #i switched the texts hehe #i’m bi actually #no not just girls #wesper #narlie

[ohimtherebabey]

LET OUR BODIES LAY, MARK OUR HEARTS WITH SHAME, LET OUR BLOOD IN VAIN, YOU FIND GOD IN PAIN AND IF, BY HIS OWN HAND HIS SPIRIT FLIES, TAKE HIS BODY AS A RELIC TO BE CANONIZED NOW AND SO HE GETS TO DIE A SAINT BUT AHE WILL ALWAYS BE THE WHORE

#DO YOU GET IT? #isaac.txt

[somesecretpie]

Have some Foxgloves!!!

#foxglove #they are actual foxes with gloves #get it? #do you get it? #flower people #plant folk #plantfolk #artists on tumblr #art #webcomic #weird comics #webtoon canvas #webtoon #broccoli soup comic

[supercityboys]

The thing that constantly gets me about Nishiki is that on a metaphysical level he fails. He’s not Kiryu’s narrative foil and so no matter how hard he tried to be the anti-Kiryu he still failed. At the end of the day, Nishiki absolutely could of lived. The very things he stood for weren’t even proved wrong or countered, like he wasn’t a stand for anything. He’s not Ryuji. Shit, he was barely the main villain.

#mine #akira nishikiyama #do you get it? #he never found HIMSELF. good side or bad side #he failed to be an imitation. even in his clothing. he didn’t -and wouldn’t- grow into that suit like Kiryu w/ his #and sure. ok. we don’t even SEE Yuko. Kiryu doesn’t have a bio sister. Do you think Ryuji would do the same? no! #because he already was a strong leader! he was already himself!

[beebox-illustrations]

*Sigh* here we go again with the bad german word - puns. Sorry 😬 creativity left my soul today

Have a great day!🌻

#harry potter #sketch #inktober 2022 #prompt: heist #in which #gellert grindelwald #puts together a team at durmstrang #to pull off the perfect heist #but his team lacks initiative #and also english skills #do you get it? #heißt heist #thats the pun #it's so bad i know #i apologise

[vermin-teeth]

Fucked up how my femininity was stripped from me at a young age and now I'm on my knees gluing scraps of it back together and trying desperately to explain that I'm not cis at the same time.

You get it?

#transfem afab #genderfae #genderdoe #girlthing #do you get it?

[queen-of-weird-girl-nation]

Jason: we’re going to die!

Leo: slay 💜🩷🩵😌🌸

Jason: EXACTLY

#do you get it? #do you get the joke #hehehe #jason grace #heroes of olympus #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #riordanverse #jason grace my child #my child <3 #percy jackson and the olympians #rick riordan #leo valdez

[peteypiessuperfamily]

Pre serum Steve but in the way that he still tops Tony

#do you get it? #you get it. #stony #stevetony #tony stark #captain america #iron man #steve rogers #superhusbands #ao3 #fanfic

[wowieeitsisa]

Unfinished dialogue, not sure how to even address this, but it’s q!Forever related

#IsaArt #qsmp #quackity smp #smp #q!badboyhalo #badboyhalo #q!philza #philza #4halo #implied Phillever #but like #not even requited? #q!Forever just catches anyone’s attention #to the point someone who isn’t even interested catches on and is amused #do you get it?

[totentnz]

hey do you guys ever think about the concept of AUs? and i dont mean from a creator standpoint but.... what if AUs are born out of a characters feelings? desires? hopes? longing? despair? hate?

was gonna put this into my tags but i wanna better myself so here we go lmao

i think thats how my cyberpunk AUs work, so as an example:

some time ago i wrote a thing about v and johnny taking the metro and while i didnt put it in there at some point johnny starts to wonder what it would have been like if they had met as teenagers. do they get along? become friends? a couple? does he never join the army? are they happy? all those questions come to mind

and at that point in time another universe popped into existence: v and johnny were not just born at roughly the same time but she also grew up in his hometown (au: americana)

i can do this with most of my AUs (and i bet most of you can as well) and while this might be awfullly sappy i think its also very beautiful :')

#sammy says shit #sammy writes shit #au: americana #DO YOU GET IT? #ARE YOU PICKING UP WHAT IM PUTTING DOWN? #otp; just the two of us

[kaftan]

thinking about Anne Carson’s translation of Sappho’s fragments being titled if not, winter, thinking about winter as a landscape of snow-blankets and cold quiet, thinking about lesbianism as a similar kind of vast emptiness---not a melancholy void but rather potential and loneliness and waiting and possibility, thinking about my favorite poem from lesbian poet May Sarton being the one titled “The Land of Silence,” thinking about yuri writer Iori Miyazawa’s concept of “yuri of absence” where scenery that merely suggests the possibility of two girls (say, “a cliff towering over the sea,” grass growing on it, “gray ocean and sky [...] stretching beyond the horizon, [and] there is an empty bench for two”) is enough to be yuri, that is, enough to cement a lesbian or lesbian-like dynamic, thinking about Terry Castle’s observation that lesbians exist as ghosts in the modern imagination, a kind of haunting which only, paradoxically, makes us more real, thinking about the very common closeted lesbian experience of supposing lesbianism to be a secret world, impossible to access...

#gay tag #do you get it? #i need a yuri tag

[flowerofbuffoonery]

dazai is littlespoon in skk but big spoon in knkdz

#do you get it? #do you see my vision? #bungou stray dogs #kunikida doppo #soukoku #kunikidazai #chuuya nakahara #dazai osamu #bsd #i need people to see this and agree #bsd.txt

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

half-steps

wrapped like a guitar string around your tuner

I'd take any strain for you

any change not to cut your fingers

I know I often abrade

wish the calluses wouldn't sting

'cause that's a kind of scar, too

I'd hit any note for you

play to your hand for a song

I never quite sound the right way

make fingers bleed in the wrong

feedback screams

only through a kind of speaking/er

in the tune of the wrong key

pulling me to you like a string

~ xoxo, Love yoU (like a song)

#this one.... this is for someone #this is basically my ''i will sing to you every day if it would take away the pain'' #do you get it? #''step/half steps'' is a music term also btw. it refers to transposing music into a different key #sometimes i think i could write poetry