#does anyone care?

[ellies-little-gun]

Starting on a "what if Riley and Ellie never got bit" Ellie/Riley fic (series?) guys, and I'm pretty excited about it

#does anyone care? #no they don't #but I am pumped so have an update I guess #Z talks #Z writes

[joeyspissstain]

YAALL YOULL NEVER GUESS WHO GOT KISSED BY HIS CRUSH YESTERDAY

#did i need to post this? #nope #does anyone care? #nah #you'd better believe im posting anyway

[maryjaneszombies-blog]

#killing ourselves to cope #does anyone care? #Spotify

[thecryptidart1st]

realizing that if i waited 3 more days, mike’s birthday could’ve been FNAF’s anniversary but i was too proud of my art and don’t double check my dates

#fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf anniversary #goddamn it #i am not a true FNAF fan #can i change mike’s birthday? #does anyone care?

[natjennie]

i think i might do a little updated design of my "it's gorgug keep going" in honor of fhjy. how do we feel about that?

#does anyone care? #also maybe to drive me some redbubble traffic #thoughts? #fantasy high #dimension 20

[anthro-cat]

hi

#does anyone care? #no. nobody does... #vent

[lattesqueeze]

i made pasta :)

#does anyone care? #nope #but i haven’t cooked for like a hundred years #not an Actual Meal anyway #so i’m kinda proud #AND i made something AND i’m eating it #take that brain #tw food #cha

[trashangel-dee]

Update on the real DB(s)

#iasip #does anyone care? #Kaitlin’s comment is gold

[manuscripts-dontburn]

Should I bring back monthly bookhauls and wrap ups?

#booklr #does anyone care?

[xin-chin]

Knowing that you have no real purpose in life and realising the meaning of it are two very different things.

I knew since a long time ago that there is no purpose to me.

I won't achieve the unachievable.

I won't do something great.

I won't be someone great.

I won't be known around the world.

I won't be mentioned in the history.

I won't be someone important.

I won't be someone people know.

And that's okay.

I never dreamed big.

I never wanted much.

But realizing that your own life has so little meaning in the turning of the world is painful.

There is no real purpose of being, of living, of existing.

There is no real reason to be, to live, to exist.

And if there is no purpose or reason then why?

Why be, live, exist?

Why putting up with the pain, the sorrow, the emptiness?

Why seeing your life through the end when there is no reason to?

Why being in discomfort with yourself and the world?

Why pretending when there is nothing to pretend for?

What reason is there to be on this world, living this life, dreaming dreams that are not meant to be?

Realising that you mean nothing in the scheme of things, that the sole purpose of living is to let it end, the reason for everything is always out of your grasp, there but not to be understood, realising this hurts and brings emptiness.

The void in oneself, the feeling of feeling nothing, the hole and it's accompanying indifference towards everything.

The numbness towards the happenings around you, the apathy of everyday life, the carelessness for oneself.

Why suffering through all of it?

Why suffer for decades to come?

Why putting up with everything?

Why not just ending all of it?

Why not giving up on oneself?

Why not?

#me being me #dead inside #alone in the dark #depression #that just happened #does anyone care? #being alone #im alone #late night thinking #night thoughts #not happy #i feel like crying #i feel like shit #crying #i wanna cry #don't mind me #just empty #sorry for being depressing #sorry for this #sorry for the rant #Just being sorry for uh everything I guess #thinking too much #i have issues #i need therapy #someone else got the same problem? #asking for a friend #random #but my brain is like #Haha you suck #Everything sucks

[hattywatch]

BIG ANNOUNCEMENT

In honor of Jimmy doin’ his thang, I made a masterlist :) 

#nhl fic #nhl imagine #hockey fic #hockey imagine #I DID IT! #it's time #is there another jimmy fic coming? #yes #does anyone care? #unlikely!

[captainsspnanon]

No one gives a shit but I had such a vivid Critical Role/Dimension 20 dream last night that not only did I immediately jot down notes about it upon waking up, but I was jotting down notes about it WITHIN THE DREAM ITSELF.

Sadly this was many many hours ago, so fine details were lost but:

Picture a generic plain room with a generic cafeteria-esque table, except on one wall there is Neverafter written (but only kind of, that dream state where it was there and not there).

All of both casts are together! Except the only ones who actually made appearances in the dream were Travis, Matt, Zac, Murph, Marisha, Ashley, and Laura. (and me. I was there with them, but I don't think I actually directly interacted with any of them. And yet, I had the context within the dream that I'd come on as a guest player in campaign 2 but just never left and then was full cast for the rest of the campaign and into campaign 3)

Travis was determining his next PC, he was going to be a scarecrow with magic. He was going to be part of a wizard of oz trio with Murph playing the cowardly lion, and a guest playing the tin man. But the guest didn't show, so Travis had to redo his choice.

He ended up picking a half-orc warlock and flaffed about on the name until he finally picked Fjord, at which point captainofthetidesbreath and I shared a relieved look. (yes, they were there! only for that one moment, and I have absolutely no clue of anything about their identity, so in my dream it was just 'generic white woman'. I sincerely apologize to captainofthetidesbreath if my subconscious has misrepresented you. If it helps, for the few seconds you were there, I thought you were really cool!)

Marisha and Laura had basically the concepts for Beau and Jester, and Ashley was asking for help coming up with the name for who would eventually be Yasha.

While all this was happening, I was getting very very frustrated as for the life of me I could not remember the PCs that Zac and Murph played in C2, and not remembering was so upsetting.

I was also very confused how such a large group was going to be doing a full 100+ episode campaign (remember that it was all of CR and D20, despite missing Brennan, Sam, Liam, Taliesin, Emily, Ally, Siobhan, and Lou), but then I remembered that it was only going to be a four episode mini-series and was highly comforted. (though in waking hindsight, how the hell would 15 players [plus myself for 16] be able to have a successful entertaining campaign in four episodes???)

The dream then shifted into non-actual play stuff, at which point I frantically started scribbling down the details of what I remembered onto a napkin. I think with a crayon? More dream tangents and absurdity, at which point I actually woke up and wrote notes as fast as I could into my phone.

#does anyone care? #no but I'm sharing this anyway #because I took notes about it TWO TIMES dammit #which means that my subconscious REALLY wanted me to share

[thetideseternaltune]

Update that I’m sure no one cares about. I finally smiled and laughed a few times today. Successfully watched Murder a la Mode last night. Still too afraid to try to read/write anything of my own, at least not MFMM fic. I was gonna reblog a link to my newest fic but I’ve only been on mobile, plus my brain is telling me it’s bad anyway and no one wants to read it or will like it so why bother 🙃🙃🙃 honestly just thinking about it is making me more depressed.

#does anyone care? #probably not #*sighs heavily* #i hate myself sometimes #and by sometimes i mean most of the time #i was happy a few weeks ago and now the feeling is completely foreign #i hate it #the worst part is #writing used to be the only thing that brought me joy/comfort #now my depression has taken that too #i wanna cry #random #depression #about me #rachel talks #also i hate that i require external validation #bc i have no internal validation #but i also don’t receive much or believe it when i do #fuck this shit #idk why i’m even posting this

[being-worthy]

Do I even have any mutuals here?

Does anyone even read the stuff I post?

Does anyone even care if disappear from here?

Just wondering…

#tumblr #tumblr mutuals #mutuals #does anyone even read the stuff I post? #does anyone care? #personal #nonsense #me #thoughts #just wondering #late night thoughts #my nonsense

[tobebbanburg]

I’m finally getting back into my original work after near two years of solid fanficcing and man… picrews are a godsend for helping visualise characters

#original work #does anyone care? #probably not! #but I'm having the time of my life making my little dudes #bob monday is a cad and a liar

[wh0thehellissaturn]

I HATH RETURNED.

so i went offline for like a year bc i completely forgot about tumblr and now im BACK

edit: i just went through and deleted some of my old posts, and i know cringe culture is dead but holy shit who gave me access to the internet

#im back bitches #does anyone care? #probably not