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gofancyninjaworld · 2 days
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Disentangling One-Punch Man (please reblog/make additions)
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If you follow One-Punch Man religiously and keep up with all the twists and turns of its making, this post will feel like old hat. Please pass on the message anyway.
If One-Punch Man (hereafter OPM) is something you watch when there's a season out or read when there's a volume out, what I'm saying may seem rather odd. Pass on the message anyway.
This is for you, the person who likes OPM well enough but isn't a fanatic, especially if you only check it out every few weeks. You may find yourself at sea frequently. Don't worry, you won't be long.
In brief:
One-Punch Man is a webcomic that is serialised on Young Jump. If you can read Japanese, it is 100% free, legally. It is periodically collected and sold in volumes, which also form the basis of the anime.
It is also a passion project for ONE and Yusuke Murata. Every author and writer has things they would like to change, and if they have second thoughts about the way the story flows, they change the online version. Which can be hard to keep up with: many fan archives have a lot of trouble. To make it worse, the ShonenJump app does not change the chapters when they're updated, meaning that successive chapters can feel VERY discordant.
So, where can you go?
Up-to-date fan archive: https://cubari.moe/read/gist/OPM/
Fan archive of redacted chapters: https://cubari.moe/read/gist/Z2lzdC9mdW5reWhpcHBvL2RkMTlkNjU3NjhjOGJlMTk3MTFmZTllMjAwNDVkOGY1L3Jhdy9vcG0tc2NyYXBwZWQuanNvbg/
Site with up-to-date published (i.e., finalised) chapters: https://mangasee123.com/manga/Onepunch-Man The published chapters are labeled 'Punch XXX'.
If you read Japanese, then Tonarinoyj.jp has the current chapters here: https://tonarinoyj.jp/episode/13932016480028985383 and the superseded chapters here: https://tonarinoyj.jp/episode/13932016480029130874
Use these and you'll never be lost. :)
What if you prefer another language? I don't know: please, if anyone has links to updated archives in languages other than English or Japanese, please add to this post in reblogs.
Let's help each other out.
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mikeo56 · 2 months
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I watched the uncensored video of US airman Aaron Bushnell self-immolating in front of the Israeli embassy in Washington while screaming “Free Palestine”. I hesitated to watch it because I knew once I put it into my mind it’s there for the rest of my life, but I figured I owe him that much. 
I feel like I’ve been picked up and shaken, which I suppose was pretty much what Bushnell was going for. Something to shake the world awake to the reality of what’s happening. Something to snap us out of the brainwashed and distracted stupor of western dystopia and turn our gaze to Gaza.
The sounds stay with you more than the sights. The sound of his gentle, youthful, Michael Cera-like voice as he walked toward the embassy. The sound of the round metal container he stored the accelerant in getting louder as it rolls toward the camera. The sound of Bushnell saying “Free Palestine”, then screaming it, then switching to wordless screams when the pain became too overwhelming, then forcing out one more “Free Palestine” before losing his words for good. The sound of the cop screaming at him to get on the ground over and over again. The sound of a first responder telling police to stop pointing guns at Bushnell’s burning body and go get fire extinguishers.
He remained standing for an unbelievable amount of time while he was burning. I don’t know where he got the strength to do it. He remained standing long after he’d stopped vocalizing.
Bushnell was taken to the hospital, where independent reporter Talia Jane reports that he has died. It was about as horrific a death as a human being can experience, and it was designed to be. 
Shortly before his final act in this world, Bushnell posted the following message on Facebook:
“Many of us like to ask ourselves, ‘What would I do if I was alive during slavery? Or the Jim Crow South? Or apartheid? What would I do if my country was committing genocide?’ “The answer is, you’re doing it. Right now.”
Aaron Bushnell has provided his own answer to this challenge. We’re all providing our own right now.
I would never do what Bushnell did, and I would never recommend anyone else does either. That said, I also can’t deny that his action is having its intended effect: drawing attention to the horrors that are happening in Gaza.
I know this is true because everywhere I see Aaron Bushnell being discussed online I see a massive deluge of pro-Israel trolls frantically swarming the comments in a mad rush to manipulate the narrative. They all understand how destructive it is to US and Israeli information interests for people to be seeing an international news story about a member of the US Air Force self-immolating on camera while screaming “Free Palestine”, and they are doing everything they can to mitigate that damage.
As I write this, there are with absolute certainty people digging through Bushnell’s history searching for dirt that can be spun as evidence that he was a bad person, that he was mentally ill, that he was steered astray by pro-Palestine activists and dissident media — whatever they can make stick. If they find something, literally anything, the smearmeisters and propagandists will run with it as far as they can.
That’s what they’re choosing to do at this point in history. That’s what they would have done during slavery, or the Jim Crow south, or apartheid. That’s what they’re doing while their country commits genocide right now. People are showing what they would have done with their response to Gaza, and they’re showing what they would have done with their response to the self-immolation of Aaron Bushnell.
I’m not going to link to the video here; watching it is a personal decision on which you should probably do your own legwork to make sure it’s really what you want. Whether you watch it or not, it happened, just like the incineration of Gaza is happening right now. We each own our personal response to that reality. This is who we are.
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why do so many people keep calling ed izzy's abuser? I thought it was kind of funny how wrong they were at first because I love being right but at this point I feel like, if you really believe that why do you even like this show? where the main love interest is a violently abusive indigenous man? that sounds boring as shit. what would possess the writers of the show for them to make such an awful decision?
but then I think, if this many people believe it does that mean I'm the one who's wrong? or is it that the creators fumbled that storyline when they should have been clearer about it? or maybe it's just that most people on here have had their reading comprehension scorched away by Sherlock Holmes conspiracy theories and Steven Universe discourse. I can't tell. sometimes I think the internet may have been a mistake.
No they're wrong here's what's going on. People all read this shitty fic called Hell or High Water where Ed was everything the Izzy stans say he was and then instead of realizing that Ed is sad everyone regressed into thinking that the Kraken Era TM was going to be incredibly violent, like serial killing blond men because they look like Stede levels of violence. Even if you didn't read HoHW you saw art or read fic from people who had engaged with this fic and succumbed to it's premise. So there's been this background radiation of misunderstanding what the Kraken is on the fandom for several months. So inevitably when Ed did some mild violence and then attempted suicide by threatening murder until the crew took matters into their own hands, which is not abuse or torture by any stretch, btw, it's a murder-suicide at worst (I say at worst because I consider it fuckery-suicide I don't think Ed was trying to kill people I think he was trying to force them into a situation where they thought it was kill or be killed so that they would choose to kill him, but that is my interpretation and you are free to think it's a botched murder-suicide I have no problem with that), which, murder is something the show has never condemned and if it did it would be horribly inconsistent. So anyway, Ed's whole Kraken Era was categorized in the show by him being sad and doing so many drugs and begging someone please god anyone to kill him and trying to break Ned Low's record out of the evil boredom, but because it had a murder-suicide element to it and Izzy's toes were getting removed and he waved a gun around at everyone once (in a way that felt to me like he was trying and failing to work up the nerve to blow his own brains out but I digress) people who liked HoHW and were mad that people had called it out were like "see hes being violent HoHW author vindicated" as if anything Ed did rose to the level of that fic
And you want to know how I know this read is bullshit? Because when I watch the show with people who don't read fic or interact with the fandom and then I gauge their reactions without showing my hand they all implicitly understand that Ed is reacting to Izzy in a way appropriate to how pirate captains react to threats from subordinates. The spectrum of reactions has been from "hey isn't it weird how Ed was the Kraken because his dad was abusive and now he's the kraken because of Izzy? Maybe there's something there but idk" to "I don't think you can apply the logic of domestic abuse to a pirate captain and first mate but also Izzy had it coming" to "I cannot feel bad for Izzy after last season, I'm sorry." To "lmao Izcel" and I've showed this show to roughly everyone I know. The only thing I can conclude from the fact that people who don't engage with OFMD fic almost unilaterally thinking that Izzy is in the wrong and then coming online to see people thinking the opposite is that Izzy as victim and Ed as abuser is pure fanon, like how Stede is a cinnamon roll who talks like Azeriphael.
But anyway yeah you're completely right about the fact that this would be a bad show if they decided to make Ed into a domestic abuser. I don't want to watch a rom com about a domestic abuser falling in love and I don't want a show that decided to make it's indigenous lead abusive when the stereotype of indigenous men as abusers is still to this day used as an excuse to separate indigenous children from their families and put them with white Christians in order to erase their culture. Good thing OFMD didn't make Ed abusive, so I still like the show.
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genevawren38 · 13 days
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I have a few things to say about Quackity's stream and the QSMP as a whole.
If you haven't watched the stream, please do so here, I refuse to paraphrase and believe it should be watched in its entirety to form your own opinions. [Here is the YouTube link]
First of all; I don't think any of the actions Quackity took were deliberately malicious. I believe, in my opinion, he got swept up in the excitement and hype surrounding this new project, and we all know how easily that can happen. It's so easy to ignore the small things when you are being showered in positivity.
I think the project got far bigger than he thought which opens up everything to a lot of criticism.
But he does not deserve to feel unsafe, nor is it any sort of appropriate to send him death threats under any circumstances. Nor to anyone, that is a line we should not cross.
Please, for the love of everything, remember this is one of the biggest projects he has ever attempted. Balancing management, his real life, and his public figure status must be incredibly stressful, and you can only do that for so long until things start to go unnoticed. Someone spread so thin is bound to crack, and unfortunately, I think that's what happened with the administration. He's an incredibly busy guy, and to expect him to be so hands-on with the project while keeping up with the rest of his life and future prospects is an inhumane task to keep up with.
Yes, I absolutely agree that healthy amounts of criticism are necessary in something as groundbreaking as this. But under no circumstances *ever* does that become something you can threaten another's safety over.
I also agree he should have said something and apologized to the previous admins who were brave enough to share their story. But I also can agree with the fact this might have been better done privately, at least as much as possible, because the moment you get the public involved someone malicious is going to rip their words apart to use in whatever fashion they wish.
But it's hard to be truly objective and honest when every word you ever say online could be misconstrued and twisted to suit another's fancy.
I think that's where most of the issue lies, at least to me. There are systems in place when handled in a law environment to protect those affected. The moment anything goes public, it's free game for someone to use as they wish.
I think in certain situations, getting the public involved in the good fight is a sound decision, for a group of people are louder than one individual. But it can also grow wildly out of control if not handled properly, and for a delicate situation like this, I think it's only drawn the whole situation out to a painful amount.
I dislike the fact that a lot of my passion has disappeared for the server because this server is full of people whose content I enjoyed previously and some I've only now discovered.
But, I still do believe it's possible for us to hold hope. I have to hold onto that because if there truly is a way for this to turn around it can serve as an example it's possible to recover and put your best foot forward.
I think there's been mistakes all around, blown wildly out of proportion, but I do still want to give this place a chance.
Because what an example it could become if solutions can be found that helps all the parties and the fandom affected by this all.
That's all. Again, this is just my opinion, and I want to discuss it if people want to talk about it reasonably.
Please form your own thoughts after watching the stream, and try to keep an open mind. I understand this might drive a lot of people away, but I believe in the heart of what QSMP is.
This server and community are meant to unite people from across the world. Let's give it a chance to continue to do so, eh?
Edit for some clarification ;
I do not blame the admins for doing what they had to. I'm proud of the brave actions they took facing such a massive community head-on.
I just wish it all could have gone down differently, but we can't change the past, only hope for a better future.
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[Here is a transcript of the stream from Twitter, please watch the stream as a priority though]
Edit 2: adding this too
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haikirii · 7 months
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Paranormal Order Community Survival Guide (and other things you need to know for Saturday)
Ok, let's start. First of all, I've been in the Paranormal Order community since the first live season announcement. I've seen this community change so many times and I think it would be cool to warn a few things for those who are going to see Saturday's episode with the global creators.
Despite the recent problems - which have been translated here - the community is not complicated to deal with, you just need to know where to enter and where to stay to have a good experience. So, here are some tips.
1 - Watch the rpg live with the chat CLOSED.
The Paranormal Order live chat IS NOT the regular stream chat. This is one of the biggest tabletop RPG projects in Brazil and, because of this, it is very difficult to have 100% control of the chat.
Obviously, the moderators already have years of experience to deal with. The chat will be 100% in submode and only the Tuesday chat, which is when the episode replays for those who missed it on Saturday, will be open to everyone.
However, this does not prevent hate comments from happening in the chat, as many do not watch Cellbit regularly and just sub to talk in the chat/watch the episode without ads. It's no joke, the rpg chat is known for being a toxic chat that has made players cry in the middle of the session when it was still online.
2 - If you see any hate, ignore it or make a joke.
It's more of a personal recommendation. Even within the community, the essential thing is to ignore hate that has few likes or things like that so it doesn't spread OR turn into a copypasta.
Generally on Twitter it's easier to ignore, because you can just filter things and rarely does anyone post hate on the tag where we comment the live.
MAYBE hate can happen from outside the community, we have suffered a lot of hate for years because it is a "nerd thing" and/or it is a Cellbit's project, which receives a lot of hate here in Brazil and we suffered from hate for a long time. I don't know if it will happen in this episode since the community is much larger, but it's just a warning that it could happen.
But as the old saying goes in the fandom: talking bad about Order gets likes on Twitter.
3 - Some people who watch Ordem are unhappy.
Nothing really serious, but some people in the community don't like QSMP out of sheer annoyance with the project and are frustrated with Saturday's episode because they expected something from the main story - which they've already been warned won't happen until Enigma of Fear comes out.
Which brings us to the Discord situation that I mentioned at the beginning of the post. Just situating what is happening, ignore these people and support Cellbit, which is doing his best.
Paranormal Order is his life project, we all want to give as much support as possible despite these people who call themselves fans and seem to hate the project.
4 - General dates and stuffs.
It's an independent story from the main story and will be in English, so don't worry about needing to watch past seasons to understand because the basis will be explained in the episode.
The episode will happen live on Saturday, September 23rd at 6pm BRT. I saw some people asking and no, it's not a pre-recorded video being show in live, everything is 100% done on the spot.
If you missed the episode, a rerun will take place on Tuesday at the same time and the vod will be for subs only. However, you can still wait until it comes out Thursday on YouTube for free on the official channel.
On average, typical episodes last 4-5 hours. However, as it is a oneshot, it may last 6 hours but Cellbit always warns you in advance if the episode is too long.
The episodes have breaks for you to go to the bathroom or stretch your legs and for the players to rest a little.
The Order fandom does a LOT of live tweets at the time of the episode, the fun is seeing everyone commenting together so we use a # specific to each campaign. In this campaign, we will use #OPQ and you can also use it to post memes and fanarts.
When the episode starts, you will be notified on the official Twitter. But there are two things: IT'S ALWAYS DELAYED and THERE'S ALWAYS A TIMER. So don't worry about arriving at exactly 6pm BRT, you'll have a little time to prepare until the episode actually starts.
5 - We organize ourselves on Twitter.
The order fandom is very active on Twitter and always does dynamics with all profiles and we upload a sentence on the day of the episode to give hype. Even Wiki and some official Order players participate.
We are still deciding on the phrase we will upload to tts, so if you want to help, just keep an eye on the brazilians in the fandom. However, the pack has already been decided and if you want to participate in the fun. Here's what my profile looks like.
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I think this is the basis of what you need to know, maybe I'll reblog adding things later if I remember too much. The Ordem community is not a monster, but I'm giving you these tips so you can live in peace in it.
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seospicybin · 1 year
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ONE CLICK.
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Han x reader. (s)
Synopsis: Han has a habit of stalking you online and wishes to get to know you in real life. He finally gets his wish after one night of accidentally sliding into your DM. (8,6k words)
Author's note: a big thank you to my baby @hyunee1 for helping me with this fic. Love you much much 😘
Click.
Click.
Click.
That's how Han usually ends his tough day of busy schedules, sitting on his bed with the bluish glow of his phone in his dark bedroom, clicking on everything about you.
His eyes move up and down trying to catch the speed of his finger scrolling the page of your Instagram, there's a new series of pictures you posted this afternoon. He guesses he missed the notification, and he automatically double-taps it without thinking, as he always does.
He swipes to see all the pictures of you having a day out in sunny weather, a picture of your lipstick mark on your coffee mug, your hand petting a puppy, of you looking out at the mountain view in distance, another two of your self-portraits of that cute smile he likes so much and on the last slide is a picture of a colorful kite against the clear blue sky.
The caption says ''you’re a kite that toys with my heartstrings."
Han recognizes the lyrics to a song, he goes to the comment box then types the continuation of the lyrics, "but it won’t fly cause I’m too fickle, what do I do?"
He hits send and smiles in satisfaction, knowing that you wouldn't recognize him since he's using a secondary account with a made-up name, he can't be too careful in this kind of thing.
He swipes the pictures to the second slide of your selfie, where he can see the crinkles in your eyes that get him wondering if you're just as beautiful in real life or more, he bets it's the latter.
He unconsciously double-taps the Instagram post again, it's already in his default he believes.
He moves on to the other social media you have, Twitter, to see if you share any TMI for today just like you always do. A piece of information that seems to be useless to everyone else is a piece of treasure for him, it’s a step closer to getting to know you better.
"I'm having plums after a long time, they're so sweet and I think it's my new favorite fruit."
You posted the tweet along with a picture of ripe-looking plums in a bowl and another one of you holding the fruit close to your cheek, he can see the resemblance in the way the color of the fruit matches the blush of your cheeks.
Gah! He wishes he can touch those cheeks and feel how soft they are, he's going a little crazy thinking if he could kiss them. He laughs for making himself flustered out of the blue, not to add alone in his bedroom.
He hits the like button and switches to your fan account to check new updates about you, he trusts the information he get from your fans rather than the ones he can easily access on the internet because they're mostly clickbait or fake news, he knows that better than anyone.
There are new photos of you attending a fashion event, you in that white dress with a high slit on the side, revealing just enough skin but at the same time, making him want more.
He zooms in on each picture and touches the phone screen like he could feel you physically by doing it, something is undeniably attractive about you that keeps pulling him in.
Sometimes he wonders if you're real and if you are, is it possible for him to reach you? Meeting you? Talk to you? See your cute smile with his own eyes?
To convince him that you're real, he exits Twitter to access another app.
Truthfully, he specifically made an account for stalking you on whatever social platform you have on the internet, it's the only time he's free to be his honest self, which is a fool for you.
He opens YouTube and one of your vlogs is making an appearance on his homepage, he goes to your channel to see if he missed any new uploads from you. The last one you uploaded is a week ago, he scrolls down to watch the one he always comes back to, the one that kickstarts this obsession of you.
There was nothing special about it, he stumbled on your vlog one day and he didn't know why but he watched it to the end, it somehow fascinated him, how you slowly lured him to keep on watching 
There's just something about you, it's your bubbly personality or how you keep your attitude real and let everyone knows it's just how you usually act in real life.
Han met so many people in the industry he works in, he knows when someone is true or fake, and he can tell it now just from a glance.
But you, you're your authentic self, there's no pretense. He doesn't care if people say it's a biased view but he stands his ground.
He casts the video to his TV and hits the play button, the vlog starts with the opening sound that he recognizes too well, your laugh.
You went for a weekend away to a beach and the opening scene is of you waking up in the middle of the night, talking about how you like hearing the sound of the waves while clutching the blanket close to your chest.
It makes him daydream about you a lot, what it's like if he gets to lay next to you and cuddle you under the cover. It’s a wishful thinking but he can't help himself.
The scene changes to the view of the beach and you running around in the sand, there's one scene that he can vividly play in the back of his head without watching it. You look out at the sea from the pier, the wind blowing your way and the short skirt you're wearing swaying away with the wind.
He has a thing with you in short skirts or maybe this thing started from seeing you wearing this specific piece of clothing a lot in your pictures.
He keeps it to himself, he only allows himself to daydream only good things about you and doesn't want to ruin it with his lewd thoughts 
Next thing he knows, he waves back at you as you waved your hand at the end of the video before it cuts to a black screen. Fourteen minutes of video is not enough.
Frankly, admiring you virtually like this will never be enough, he wants to go to you and meets you in real life.
But a man like him can only dream, right?
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He wakes up with a smile to a new notification of your new Instagram story.
You're having coffee with a few different kinds of pastries for breakfast.
"I love sweets so much, what should I do?" You wrote on the post.
He types a reply in the message box, 
"Then let me buy as much sweet as you want!" He writes then presses send without the slightest of hesitancy. He had done it a few times, responding to your Instagram stories with messages like that or just a simple 'goodnight' or 'you've worked hard today' to show his admiration to you.
Han never knew that someone he knew through social media would affect him this much, just seeing your pictures is enough to take his mind off things, and watching your video is how he unwinds after a tiring day.
It comes to the point that he misses you and when he does, he'll click on you.
On good or bad days, sober or drunk, he always finds time to click on everything about you.
In fact, he's drunk of out his mind when got home tonight. He crashes onto the bed without taking his shoes off first, fishing his phone out of his jeans pocket, and clicks on you again.
There's a new Instagram post from you, three pictures of you having a night out at an event and it's just like you know how much he likes seeing you in it, you're dressed in a leather mini skirt and paired it with a flimsy white top that people can see through the fabric, exposing the lacey corset you're wearing under.
He keeps hitting the like button as he's staring at your pictures.
"Are you wearing that skirt for me, baby?" He speaks to his phone screen.
He brings his phone close to his face to take a closer look instead of zooming in on your pictures, "you drive me crazy, you know that?"
He puts his phone on his chest and lays there with his eyes closed, intoxicated.
"Fuck..." he sighs at the dark of his room, forgot to turn the lights on the way to his bed.
"I can't take this anymore!"
He lifts his phone and clicks on your Instagram profile, he opens the direct messages he sent to you which come to no surprise to him are left unread.
He snorts as he scrolls up and down all the messages he sent to you, he sounded like a love fool and he admits he is.
"I'll let you know, baby, I'll let you know..." he says as he starts typing new messages, pouring out all of his thoughts and letting them unfiltered.
All it takes is just one click, one click and you'll know.
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Han has been chugging water nonstop the whole morning to wash the alcohol in his system.
He has a schedule today, a performance at an award show and he's sober enough to do his job, he's just feeling a little queasy, that's it.
It's not easy though, he feels like dying after finishing rehearsal and he swears to never drink again, maybe he'll eventually do but maybe not try not to drink alcohol the night before a performance.
The other members start chattering when they bump into someone after getting off the stage from rehearsal, he wonders who it is that makes them all collectively swoon.
He feels like shrinking when he sees that it's you or he wishes he could shrink into a microscopic size when he realized that he's not well presented, his hair is sweaty and his eyes are bleary, the hangover drawn on his face.
And you, you're looking nice even in the casual attire of blue jeans and a black shirt with your hair down.
This is not how he pictured meeting you for the first time would be like. Heck! He didn't even dare to dream of meeting you in real life.
He decides to hide behind his members, out of your sight and out of existence. He hears your voice as you give encouragement for today's stage and excuse yourself to get to your rehearsal.
"Good luck for today!" You say for the last time and someone takes you away.
Back to the waiting room, he goes to his phone and opens your fan account, he misses the update about you going to attend the same show with him tonight.
You also post a new Instagram story, 'rehearsing for tonight' you wrote on it along with a smiling emoticon.
It's like he is programmed to respond to anything you post, he types an encouragement for you, 'you'll do well tonight!'
He closes the app but for a second, he notices something on the messages he sent you. He reopens the app and goes through the DM between you and him, his breath caught in his throat when he sees the long messages he sent to you last night.
His eyes skim over some parts but he can tell how inappropriate they sound, he must have lost it last night to ever let you know his unfiltered thoughts about you.
And that's not the worst of it all, he scrolls down to the last message he sent, and below it, there's a little sign that says 'seen'.
It's like his soul has just left his body at that very second, his phone drops onto his lap and he leans back on the sofa, empty eyes looking at the ceiling, his mind blanks, and his mouth got dry.
How are all of these happening in a span of a few hours? Is it real? Is he in a dream? He can't tell which is which anymore.
All he thinks about is the messages he sent you and the fact that you know.
Now you know.
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Han succeeds in not meeting you again during the show but when he learns that they have to attend the after-party, he dreads his life again.
It's exclusive just for the guests of the show and that means he'll be in a smaller place, in one room with you and the possibility of meeting you is bigger.
He keeps himself on alert for any sight of you, it's funny remembering how he wanted to meet you but now he wanted the opposite.
He shouldn't be afraid because he interacts with you online in incognito. You don't know that it's him, you probably think that it's just a stupid teenager who's obsessing over you at home and not him.
He keeps reminding himself that but he just can't calm himself down, his foot bouncing the whole night out of nerves.
He secludes himself in a quiet corner of the hotel ballroom and gulps down every glass of champagne that the server passing around on a tray.
He's buzzed enough to dull his mind and calm his nerves, he doesn't know if it's better to get drunk again.
"You need one more?"
He almost jumps in shock and he's aware of how rude he is for reacting like that to you, you come out of nowhere and offer him a drink.
"I'm sorry, I-I..." his mouth got dry again and he stammers his words.
You softly laugh, "I'm sorry if I disturb you," you say.
He hurriedly takes the glass of champagne you offer him before you think that you did intrude on his space, you didn't but he did been trying to avoid you.
He grips the champagne flute so hard that he swears he can hear the glass starts to crack or it's just his imagination and he's right, he knows he's right that you're much prettier in person.
Your eyes crinkle even in the dim of lights and you smell so nice, like a slice of cake or of that dessert you like so much, creamy and nice and... sweet.
You take a small sip of your champagne, "I've been wanting to talk to you the whole night," you begin.
The fear starts to creep in again and he can feel sweat forming on his back. He keeps swallowing air as if trying to keep the truth from coming out.
"It's just now that I get to talk to you," you continue with a smile.
That sweet smile dazzles him and he blinks his eyes a few times to imprint that in his mind.
"I wanted to—"
Oh no? Do you know that it's him? Should he come clean about it before you lay out the fact?
His foot bounced faster, his mouth got drier and the champagne flute is about to shatter in his grip, the beads of cold sweat rolling down his back and...
"I'm sorry I sent you those messages!" He blurts out with his eyes closed, too embarrassed about the reality he has to live in right now.
"Huh?"
"I was drunk... I-I wasn't thinking straight, I was... I didn't know why I send those messages, I only realized it this afternoon after meeting you during rehearsal," he starts blabbering, knowing well his excuses won't cut for an apology but it's just the truth.
He heavily sighs and tries again, "I deeply, deeply apologize to you!" His face drops, looking down at his feet and feeling so frustrated over himself.
You got quiet for a while then clear your throat, "but I was about to say that I like all of the songs you wrote..." your words trail off as the knowledge registered to you.
He looks up at you with eyes widening in pure shock, oh no, he just made a fool of himself. Why did he crack so easily like that? 
He knew that you wouldn't know but now you know because he blurted the truth like that.
"W-what?" He stutters in disbelief while his hand groping around to find something he can hold on to.
You probably think that he's a weirdo or a pervert or a combination of both. You must be disgusted by him, right? You must be...
Then you crack a laugh then say, "oh, so it's you?"
His brain is malfunctioning, he's losing control of his own body and all he can do is stare at you, hoping that he's invisible to you now.
"You're the one who sent me those messages," you say but in an intrigued kind of way rather than a disgusted one.
You put your champagne glass and place your hand on your chest, cracking another laugh at him, "you're one of my followers?" You ask in disbelief.
He is unable to speak yet but he manages to order his body to nod.
"Oh wow, this is so... unexpected!" You exclaim with a grin.
Wait, this reaction is unexpected to him as well. Aren't you supposed to be getting as far away from him as possible and wish to never see him again?
You take your champagne again and finish it in one long sip then gasp. There's a silence going on for a few seconds and you take a step closer to him while holding the empty wine glass in your hand, "so..."
His breath hitched and he holds his breath, afraid that the scent of your sweet perfume will enchant him.
"It was you who sent those messages?" You ask for confirmation.
Han nods repeatedly while keep holding his breath as if he's underwater.
You look away and sheepishly smile, your teeth faintly biting your lower lip.
He's turning blue from holding his breath and when you put the empty glass away is when he finally lets himself breathe. He should start speaking now before things get worse, "I apologize for—"
"Will you really do all that to me?" You cut him off with a provoking question.
He blinks his eyes, nonplussed. He has the answer but he's not sure you will accept it well.
"Buy you as much sweet as you want?" He wildly guesses to save him from making another mistake.
You laugh again from hearing his response, "you're really cute," you say to him.
One compliment is enough to get him flustered and that laugh of yours charms him well, it works to relax him a little.
"Do you have your phone with you?" You ask.
Just like you cast a spell at him, he quickly obeys you, groping his body for his phone, and takes it out from the inner pocket of his suit jacket.
You take it from him and add your phone number to his contacts, then hand it back to him after.
"You have my number now," you inform him.
"Okay," he shortly replies because he doesn't know how to answer that. His brain is still malfunctioning at the moment.
You laugh again, it's just how clueless he is at the whole situation that makes him awkwardly cute like a lost little puppy.
Your manager finds you at the right time, "we have to leave," she says to you.
"Alright," you answer and gather your purse from the table.
You stay for a while after your manager leaves and come up to him, "before we do anything else I hope you know what to do with my number," you say.
You leave him there, star-struck and in awe.
He needs time to process what just happened to him in the last 24 hours but he knows what to do with your number.
-
"A+ for the eagerness!"
You say the moment you pick up the phone call from him.
Han doesn't want to play cool and make you wait, that's not what he wants. You know how much of a fool he is for you so what the use in playing hard-to-get? Plus, he's in no position to do that.
That's why he calls you as soon as he gets some privacy in his home.
He's all relaxed now that your reaction is far from what he pictured in his head, knowing that you're not grossed out by his filthy thoughts making him feel at ease.
He thinks of something cool to say but his head is empty except for the heavenly smell of your perfume.
"Hi," he awkwardly says to the phone.
Then there's that giggle again, he's addicted to the sound of it already.
"I'll be away for three days and be back on Thursday but I'll be tired by then so Friday?"
It's not that he's not experienced in dating, he dated someone before but that was a long time ago and he didn't have time to do all that again between his busy schedules, now he's just as inexperienced as his teen self, having zero ideas with what you meant by that.
"Friday?" He asks back in confusion.
"Before you get to do what you wanted to do to me, shouldn't you take me on a date first?" You give him a clearer context.
He finally gets what you're saying, you want him to take you on a date. He tries to memorize his schedule and checks the calendar if he has anything on that day, he needs to do some work in the studio but he believes he can finish it earlier.
"Friday afternoon?" He asks again.
There are a few seconds of silence going then he hears a rustle from your end, he's imagining that you're talking to him on the phone while lying on your bed.
"Friday afternoon is fine with me," you finally reply with a low sigh.
It makes him feel like he's there with you, lying next to you on your bed. Without he intends to, he lays down on his bed with his eyes closed, and with the sound of your low breathing he's listening through the phone, it helps him paint the imagery vividly in his head.
Your eyes, your smile, your blushing cheeks, and your sweet-smelling perfume...
"I have to go now, I'm tired," You cut through the scene and shatter his imagination.
He takes a breath to knock some sense back into him that no matter how much he wants to keep talking to you, he can't keep you occupied just to fill his selfish need of hearing your voice.
"Okay."
You softly sigh into the phone, "Goodnight!"
"Sleep well, goodnight!" He says back.
Then you hang up the phone and the call-ending tune reels him back to the reality, that he's alone in his room with the lights off.
That doesn't change the fact that he has become the last person you're talking to before you go to sleep. He's not sure if he'd be in your dream but you'll be in his tonight.
-
Han finishes as soon as he can.
But he's not good at rushing things that he finished a bit longer than he intended to, he picks up some food on the way.
He doesn't want to risk being spotted by people by having a date out, he hesitated a lot when he asks you if it's okay if you're coming to his place instead.
He doesn't want to give the impression that he's forward about what he wants, but he's glad you understand his good intention.
He stares out at the rain outside as he's waiting, letting the coffee grounds sit for a few seconds after he pours hot water over and let it drip.
The sounds of the raindrops pattering against the window and the smell of coffee relaxed him, despite he has been nervous since last night, frankly though, he has been for the last few days since he spoke with you on the phone.
Then the doorbell rings and his heart skip a beat.
He gathers all of his senses, promised to not make a fool out of himself this time, then opens the door.
"Hi!" You say the second you appear in front of him.
It still feels like a dream to him, seeing you in flesh and with his own eyes, breathing the same air with you in his apartment.
"Aren't you going to let me in?"
He snaps himself out of his daze and opens the door wider, stepping aside to let you in, "come in, please!" 
You flash him a smile as you walk past him, letting yourself into his apartment and taking a look around the place. You put your purse and take your cardigan off, place them on the sofa.
"You live alone?" You ask.
"Yeah," he stands there a safe distance away from you.
"No pets?"
"I have a dog but he lives with my parents since I rarely home," he answers.
You nod and turn around to see him, "it's a nice place," you say with a smile.
He feels good about himself, he did a good job at tidying up the things around his place in one night. He hides his triumphant smile and remembers to offer you a drink.
"Coffee?" He offers.
You notice that he's been brewing coffee in the kitchen, "yes, please!"
He walks to the kitchen, "with ice or...?"
"With ice, yes!" You reply.
You're following him to the kitchen to watch him prepare an iced coffee for you.
"Drip coffee?"
He sheepishly smiles at you for noticing it, putting ice cubes into the glass before pouring in the coffee.
"And that's the same coffee I always drink," you say with a raised eyebrow.
Han doesn't mean to show off, he just wanted to make sure that he provides you with everything that you like. Your favorite coffee brand and how you like drip coffee which reminds him that he bought that sweet you like so much.
He takes it out of the fridge and takes out the box of macaroons, he bought all the flavors you like and serves it with the iced coffee.
You look at it then look at him and shot him an impressed smile.
"Of course you know," you say with a smile as you take a sip of your coffee with a straw.
Flustered, Han scratches the back of his head and looks down, "the store happened to be on my way home so..." he vaguely explains.
"As far as I remember, they don't have any branch near here nor your agency," you casually say.
Uh oh! He just got caught lying to your face and doesn't know how to save himself from it.
"That's so sweet of you!" You praise him out of the blue, again giving him the opposite reaction to what he expected.
He looks up at you, finally able to see your eyes to eyes and you're glowing under the fluorescent light. He sees you taking one of the macaroons.
"You should try it, it's good!" You bring the macaroon close to his mouth and tell him to take a bite.
He slowly opens his mouth and lets you feed it to him, taking a little bite of it
"It's good, right?" You say, then shove the rest of the macaroon he just bites into your mouth.
"So good," he says back.
With the permission you got from him, you continue the tour around his house, exploring the rooms one by one.
It's his bedroom you're curious about the most while Han holds his breath as you get inside, he doesn't know what makes him this nervous.
He watches as you approach his desk, you must be aware of the mess on his desk, he was working on something last night and forgot to tidy up after.
"Are you working on something?" You ask, standing next to his desk and playing with an action figure from his collection.
"Yeah, I was working on a track," he answers with his hands gripping the headrest of the chair.
"Can I have a listen?" You ask.
He likes how you sweetly ask for permission for everything like a little child.
"I understand if you can't," you add as you put down the mini figurine back on his desk.
"No, of course, you can, let me just..." he quickly sits on the chair and searches for the track he worked on until late at night on his laptop.
Once he found it, he hands you the headphone.
"It's not finished yet," he informs you before hitting the play button.
Your eyes are looking at him for the whole minute you're listening to his unfinished track, a faint smile appears once in a while, and slightly bob your head here and there.
"I like this," you say, handing him the headphones back.
"Yeah?"
"I think I have a thing for every song you wrote," you say then turning away to move on to the next room.
His room is spacious but why it suddenly feels so small to him, not in the most suffocating way but he feels drawn to get close to you.
He hears your gasp as you step into his closet, he follows you there and sees you standing in the middle of the room.
You look over your shoulder and say, "And here I thought I have too many shoes!"
Han sheepishly smiles and stands by the doorway, watching you look at his shoe collection, then look at his clothes hanging on the other side of the wall.
You pull out one of his jackets and ask, "may I try?" 
And how can he refuse when you ask sweetly like that?
"Sure!"
You take the jacket from the hanger and put it on, walking to the full-length mirror to see how it looks on you.
"What do you think?" You ask for his opinion while looking at his reflection in the mirror.
To be honest, you look good in everything but seeing you in his clothes makes you look more appealing, more alluring he wants you more and more and more.
He clears his throat and pushes the thought away, "you look cool!"
There goes your giggle, his new favorite sound and you put the jacket back on its hanger, putting it back where it belongs.
"Then what about the skirt I wear?" You ask.
His eyes instantly shift to the skirt you're wearing, it's plaid in the colors red and black. It's short and tight, he likes how it accentuates your curve and how it looks on you.
You're coming toward him in slow steps and stop right in front of him, "didn't you say you like seeing me in a short skirt?"
He wonders if you can hear his heart drumming in his chest because he can hear it loud in his ears, deafening.
You're not making a contact with him but his body's temperature is already rising from the proximity.
And your eyes are on him with a subtle sly smile on your face.
You turn around with your back facing him and take his hands, placing them on each side of your hip.
Han looks straight ahead, at both of your reflections in the mirror, and damn, he looks like he belongs there, right next to you.
You catch his eyes through the reflection before sliding his hands down to let him touch the hem of your skirt.
"I'm wearing this for you," you say, still looking at him through the mirror.
Everything else is just so quiet at that moment that he thought you were whispering.
His eyes lower to where his hands touch your skirt and without warning, you pull him closer until his chest meets your back.
Looking over your shoulder with your face merely inches away from his, "do you like it?" You ask.
He swallows hard and tries to think of something to say even though the answer is obvious.
Your head leans back on his shoulder, leaving only an inch between your lips and his.
"I'm wearing this so you can do what you wanted to do to me," you say with your sweet breath brushing his cheek as you speak.
He recalls the messages he sent to you on that one drunken night when he spilled all of his unfiltered thoughts of you.
How do you know I like seeing you in tight, little skirts?
I can't think straight whenever I see you in them. You want me to get in trouble, do you?
His eyes flick back to the reflection of you together and his hands are on you, your hand guiding his going under that he can feel the warm flesh of your thigh.
I take it that whenever you're wearing that tiny skirt you want me to cause a trouble.
And he's holding on to every last shred of sense left in him to not cause trouble. But you make his hand pull the hem of your skirt higher, exposing your thigh and the smooth skin that glows even in the dim light.
Do you want to know what trouble I'll cause?
Just one touch on your silky skin and it's enough to make him give in, he splays his hand on your thigh with your hand on top of his.
I'll touch you there, baby. Lift the hem of your skirt bit by bit, then I'll touch your thighs and that soft skin of yours.
Your skin is warm under his touch and it's getting hot as his hand inches closer to that heavenly thing between your legs.
But he stops once his fingers meet the lacey fabric of your underwear, he might be drunk that night but he remembers everything he wrote that night in the back of his head like the lyrics of his favorite song.
And you think I'll touch you there with my hands? No, baby. My hands may be impatient but my mouth is greedy.
His greedy mouth is getting impatient as well, those red-painted lips tantalize him and so he kisses you. It's even better that you welcomed his kiss with such eagerness, a burst of sweet and hot like a birthday cake with so many candles, he wants to blow on it and eat it too.
His hands are moving on their own, tracing the sides of your body and squeezing your flesh, every touch is a reminder that you're real, this is real.
For a second, he glances at the mirror to assure him that he's not seeing things, he's kissing you with his hands all over you.
You turn around to face him and put your hands around his neck, your red lipstick is fading from his hungry kisses but it doesn't make you less attractive to him.
He lowers his mouth on you again and holds you close, slowly lifting you off the floor to carry you back to his bedroom.
Once he puts you back down, you're walking backward then lying down on the bed.
Han is standing there, watching you waiting for him to let him do what he has been fantasizing about you and your body.
I'll touch you there with my mouth. I'll bury my head between your legs and smell you forever, get myself drunk in your scent.
He kneels on the floor so close to the edge of the bed and parts your legs open, he can see the flimsy fabric of your underwear that covers so little.
How can you wear something so provocative under your skirt?
His eyes are on you as he places a soft kiss on your inner thigh, he begins making a trail of kisses from there until his mouth lands where he wanted the most, he believes that's where you wanted him the most as he feels the fabric is damp from your wetness.
He rolls down the hem of your skirt until it hunches up around your waist so you can see how he doesn't hesitate to kiss your clothed core then buries his nose to inhale your scent.
I wonder what you smell like? I bet your smell will get me drooling like a kid at a candy shop. All I know is I'll crave a lick, a bite, I won't stop until I get enough taste.
This craving is growing bigger the longer he stalls, he pulls your underwear down and takes a sniff at it before tossing it aside. There's nothing like drinking water right from the fountain and he's getting thirsty with every passing second.
You make one sweet cake, baby and I'll eat you out like it's my birthday. I'll lick the icing off, gobble on you until I get to that sweet, sweet filling, and lick my fingers clean when I'm done.
And it feels like his birthday, he's not the type to celebrate it every year but he certainly like how it's all about him on that particular day and he wants to make you remember how he enjoys eating you out, from the way you tug at his hair he can tell that you enjoy it too.
"Oh— oh, fuck!" You mutter under your breath with your other hand fisting the bedsheet.
The way you arch your back against his mouth tells him you want more of it, you want him to leave nothing but how his mouth feels on you.
Oh, those soft whimpers you let out as you cum with his tongue on your clit, it feels like the confetti pops and rains down on him.
Your essence floods his mouth and he smears it all over your cunt with his fingers, so he can lick it all over with his tongue.
You prop your elbow against the mattress, look at him and ask, "How'd it taste?" 
He shoves his fingers coated with your juice in response.
I always have the dessert first and that's how I like it, sweet and creamy, full of a burst of flavors.
He crawls over your body to come to you, kissing you down and planting the natural scent of your body all over his bed, pieces of clothing are off from each other's bodies.
You take a second to look at his body, the muscles on his chest, his broad shoulders, and his impeccable small waist, it's nothing like you've seen before but somehow you like it, he has his own charms.
He looks down on you as you place soft yet searing kisses on his neck and chest, closing his eyes to take it all in, how your lips feel on his skin.
"Fuck, I'm going crazy," he says, holding your face in his hands.
"But we're only halfway there," you say with a sly smile, then turn over on the bed, on all fours with your ass jutting up at him.
That skirt is what starts all this, that skirt is the cause of all this trouble, therefore it should stay on you. It will stay on you as I take you from behind, holding on to your skirt as I thrust into you.
You're naked except for the skirt hunches up around your waist, he takes a moment to run his hand down your spine and the beautiful arc of your back then when his hand meets your skirt, he takes a fistful of it in his hand.
You're moaning just from him teasing your entrance with the tip of his cock and you're so little, he doubts that you can take him well.
His doubt evaporated the second he enters you, slowly and you take it well. You continuously moan until his whole length buries deep inside your tight, velvety walls.
Han has been keeping his moans to himself by pressing his lips together with his jaws all clenched.
You want it slow, you say? No baby, why don't you try to keep up with me? You can blame that itty bitty skirt you wear later.
Your loud moans are enough to beat the sound of the heavy rain outside, the skin-slapping sounds come second, and then there are his grunts that escape through his gritted teeth.
Your head drops onto the pillow with your hands crumpling the sheet, trying to take his hard pounding as he chases his high.
He keeps adding speed as he goes while you keep tightening around his cock, giving him a hard time to last longer than he intended to.
I won't stop, I won't stop until you learn your lesson. I want you to remember that every time you put on that skirt, you'll think of the trouble I'll cause.
His eyes shift from looking at how he's fucking you through the reflection in the mirror to his cock going in and out of you, both giving him the same amount of pleasure.
But it's you, it's you who allowed him to indulge himself in you.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck," he repeatedly says under his breath every time he almost slips away.
But it's you, you just feel too good and your moans are luring him to give himself in.
His eyes screws shut as he puts all of his into his thrusts and cumming, he realizes that he's going in raw into you a few seconds too late and hurriedly pulls out.
His cum dripping down and he got some drops on you too but he is high in pleasure to notice. His body goes limp but he feels the softness of your body when he collapses on top of you.
Fuck, how I wish I can do all that to you, my sweet pie! I'll always be in trouble just from thinking of you nonetheless.
But that little skirt, that little skirt will be the end of me.
-
The first thing he sees when he wakes up is you and he keeps on blinking his eyes, thinking he's still sleeping.
"Why are you staring at me like that?" You ask with a hand propping your head, looking down at him.
"Am I dreaming?" He asks with confused, squinted eyes.
You softly giggle and gently poke his cheek with your finger, "is that enough to convince you?"
You keep poking his cheek with your index finger, "your cheeks are incredibly soft," you say.
He should be the one curious about you then it hits him that he's under the duvet with you, naked. As if that's enough to convince him that he's not dreaming it, he grabs your hand and kisses it.
Then the reality hits him, he must have dozed off after the sex and cringed at himself, which surely will leave a bad impression on you.
"How long I've been sleeping?" He asks.
"Not long," you reply, turning on the bed to lay on your stomach with the upper half of your body overlapping his.
Now it feels real, having your body on him and your skin on his skin. He puts his hand on the side of your face and brushes your hair to the side, holding it there.
"Are you sure I'm not dreaming right now?" he innocently asks.
You lean in and give him a long peck on the lips, "how about now?" You ask once you break the kiss.
He shakes his head, "I'm not sure," he answers with a faint smile on his face.
"Just say you want me to kiss you again," you say with an eye-roll and place a kiss on his lips, a little longer than the previous one.
"Still think you're dreaming?" You ask again while biting your lower lip.
He doesn't answer but brings his face close to kiss you. With his hands wrapped around you, he rolls on the bed and has you underneath him, kissing you hard and deep.
He takes a break to catch his breath and looks down at you, with your eyes closed and lips wet from the kisses. You're so beautiful that it still doesn't feel real to him.
"I forgot to tell you that I can't stay the night over," you tell him, resting your hand flat on his magnificent chest muscle.
He frowns at the information but he understands, he lives the same way too where his work dictates his life, not the other way around.
"When do you have to leave?" He asks.
You glance at the clock on his bedside table, "in like two hours," you answer while dragging your hand lower to his abdomen.
"Okay," he meekly says because he can't do anything about it.
You keep dragging your hand lower and lower and he starts to notice where it leads.
He shoots you questioning glances and you respond with a smirk, then you bring your mouth close to his ear to whisper, "but I think we have enough time to..."
He closes his eyes as he feels your hand inch closer to his member, getting hard from you implying that you want to go again before you leave.
But your hand takes a turn back to his chest and you lay your head back on the pillow, "order some food because I'm starving," you say, followed by a series of a giggle from succeeding at playing him.
Han scoffs, he can't believe he almost fall for it but he concedes, no matter what he should treat his guest well.
He collapses on his side of the bed and asks, "what do you want for dinner?"
You shift to lay on your side, "Uhm..." you hum as you think with your hand under your chin.
It feels like he's looking at a pictorial in a magazine, therefore he doesn't mind you taking a long time to pick your dinner.
"On a second thought..." you say, snapping him out of his daze.
You get up from the bed and the duvet slides down your body, exposing your body to him like he needed the reminder of how gorgeous you look in your birthday suit.
"We can order the food later," you say and slip your hand under the duvet, closing into his cock that is getting hard from the anticipation.
He groans as your hand finally makes contact with his semi-hard cock with your eyes bore into him as you speak.
"I'd like to have my dessert first," you add with a sly smile.
-
Click.
Click.
Click.
That's still what he does every night, clicking on everything about you. Scrolling down your Instagram page and double taps on the beautiful pictures you took of yourself, leaving a comment on it with emoticons that consist mostly of hearts.
It's when he lays on his bed like this that the image of you fucking him that day flashed through his mind and he remembers everything so vividly.
Your mouth was slightly parted open with soft moans spilling out of it, your skin glows under the dim light, your breasts bouncing with every movement you made, and your ample flesh in his hands. To add to his suffering, he remembers how good to be inside you, and when you cum all over him, it's something that he does not even dare to fantasize about.
Fuck, now that he thinks about it, his cock is twitching in his pants.
He checks his phone and the last text he sent you looks so lonely without your reply.
On the day of the date, he watched you get dressed from the doorway of his bedroom, you put your skirt back on and turned around to look at him.
"I think you owe me a skirt," you said, showing him the mess he made on the fabric and he believed it's his cum dropping on your skirt when he hastily pulled out of you.
That's what was inside the package, a skirt that he owes you and he carefully picked it with the help of his stylist, frankly, he also chose one that he would love to see on you.
He's been waiting for your reply, wanting to know whether you like it or not. Alas, you've been keeping him on his toes all day.
To compensate for the absence of your presence in his day, he goes to your YouTube page to watch his favorite video of you, it feels a whole lot different watching it after he met you in real life. It enhances everything since he knows how you look like, how you smell, how you taste, and how you feel like.
He can't take it anymore, he craves you so badly like he's running low on sugar.
If you're not going to reply then he'll just send you another text, screw being a cool guy! He'll let you know how much he wants to see you.
Like you're listening to the rant in his head, the three dots appear on the chat box which means that you're typing a message for him.
He bites his lower lip with his fingers tapping the back of his phone nervously.
"I got the package!" You write.
His fingers automatically respond to your text and compose a reply even before his brain can think of an answer.
"Yeah?"
"The skirt. I love it!" You wrote along with three hearts emoticons.
He triumphantly smiles in the dark of his room, deep down, he knows that you'll like his pick.
"I'm glad you like it," he replies and presses send.
Before he forgets to ask it, he composes a new text.
"Have you tried it on?"
"Yes."
"And it fits?"
"Want to see?" You ask back instead of confirming whether it fits or not.
But you're offering him a visual aid and he absolutely can't say no to this. Heck, he would love just to see your shadow.
"With pleasure," he replies and bites his lower lip so hard that it turns white 
You send him a picture and he quickly opens it, it's the lower half of your body with the skirt on and it amazes him that it fits you so perfectly, he did make a good choice.
Then you send another picture and it comes unexpectedly, he opens it to see you wearing nothing but the skirt.
It's clear that you're taking the picture yourself since you took it through the reflection in the mirror but you know how to tease him, how to get him going, and to make him crave you.
It takes him a minute to admire the picture you send him and another minute to compose a reply.
"Now that you do that, you know what will happen, right?"
Instead of answering him, you send him a video and he couldn't be faster to open it.
The video only lasts for a few seconds, it's you lifting the hem of the skirt to show him the white underwear you're wearing under. The fabric is so flimsy he can see right through and see the thing he craves the most.
"Come and cause trouble!" You send a text after the video.
It's like he's back on that night when he was drunk and being enticed by your tight, little skirt but he would never regret clicking send on those messages.
He's on his senses now, trying to make a good choice, he licks his lips before typing a reply to you.
"Aren't you the troublemaker?"
"You will be the end of me!" He adds, then paces around his room to get dressed. He's aware of how much of a fool he is for you, just pictures of you in a skirt and you got him wrapped in your little finger. Did he mind though? Not at all.
He stops by the threshold to send another text for you, "I'm coming." 
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stinkypeanutbutter · 2 months
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silly Aiden headcanons because I have no impulse
i probably already done these before in other headcanon posts I made but ermm I’ll do it again 😹
small TW for scars at the end 🗣🗣
AIDEN :
Aiden has the most unhinged playlist ever like oh my giggly goodness we got metal we got rock we got classic we got indie we got pop we got vocaloid Idfk whatever you can think of ( same 😹 )
totally had an immense phase of just everything . Creepy pasta , animation , FNAF , idk any other phases from 2016 help
Probably dated like once or twice , but they weren’t serious at ALL and mostly online . He just said yes because he wanted to be nice since he never really had friends ofc , so why hurt someone you barley know if it means getting a friend ? ( I’m gonna explode 😭 )
I’m not sure when this was actually invented , but he’d probably try and convince everyone to make battery acid candy drinks . ( they all say no 😔 )
Sorta sad headcanon they if no matter how hard to tries to solve a difficult puzzle , and he fails , he just starts silently bawling his eyes out . Cause you know he’s really good at them right ? He can solve them pretty quickly ? So if he’s like absolutely pressured by a bunch of people watching expecting him to win ( or like his friends cause yk they believe in him !!!! ) and he can’t solve the puzzle he’ll be like “ why can’t I solve this why is this hard why am I failing “ or something and then start crying ig ( Yeouchers angst 😿 )
Bro is the heaviest napper ever you can stack things on him for HOURS but the moment he actually sleeps most things can wake him ( if he’s not comfortable at least . He’ll sleep pretty well at sleepovers )
I can’t figure out an art style for him but I updated it so ignore that last drawing it’s grody anyway he sometimes draws people but prefers just random splotches of color . He has extremely stylized art but yk , it’s just ‘ weird ’ according to some people since it’s really . . graphic . Not in a BLOOD BLOOD BLOOD way but very mixed ( if you get what I mean )
Hugs everything when he sleeps you can’t tell me otherwise like you seen his old bed ?? He had NOTHIN so absolutely is he gonna cuddle everything near him
Hates competing . ( idk if he did it before but we’ll see ) like he doesn’t like doing puzzle competitions anymore that much , he just got bored of it and was really kinda forced to do it when he was younger . BUT if it’s in a game against his friends , he’ll probably do it just to help them out cause they always get stuck if Logan can’t figure it out either .
Does that thing with music where If it absolutely hits he just starts spazzing out and dances to it
that one thing where he walks around in a circle talking to himself if he’s really deep in thought ( he could go on for hours so someone has to pull him out to drink water at least )
TONS of posters in his room
Him and Taylor binge shows together , often ask the others to join when they aren’t busy . They totally watch anime ( Tyler calls it childish then gets really invested in uhhhh let’s say full metal alchemist and sport animes like haikyuu or something I can’t think of any he’d like . But I’m gonna make them all watch Ghost stories because it’s funny )
Aidlyn cuddling is mostly done at Aidens house cause his parents rarely go up to check on him ( 😅💥 ) and also he had a ton of blankets for Ashlyn to wrap herself in . He got her a heavy weighted blanket for her birthday one time so when that’s not around she just uses Aiden as a blanket if she’s feeling affectionate ( he’s warm in the winter time and pretty light believe it or not )
Has a medium spice tolerance , eats more then what he can handle like a stinky loser
doesn’t like anyone pointing out his growing hair roots so just don’t talk about it much 😅😅
steals chopsticks from restaurants cause who needs to buy any ??? They’re free if you don’t get caught / hj
sometimes just locks himself up in his room and lays in his bed thinking about life
LOVES drawing his friends ( especially Ash ) in his free time because he rarely draws in front of people , and will make an airplane out of it to throw it over to them . But he has that mentality where “ Everyrhing I make kinda sucks “ so expect to find doodles in the trash or hidden in his room
IPad kid , can’t tel me otherwise .
Loves hover boarding but he kinda sucks at it so he just 🧍🕺☠️ ( falls )
Will ram into everyone in bumper cars , almost sent someone flying ( Lilly , he bought her candy as a sorry )
rarely catches cavities because he actually has really strong teeth and willingly bites down on hard candies ( I do the same thing because I’m impatient 😹 )
Does all his school work at home cause school has too many distractions ( real )
Buys like body foundation to smear onto his legs and arms . He doesn’t want anyone to point out them out , and if they do he just tells them their from skateboarding . It can come off after a few days if he doesn’t reapply , but it’s fine since he does it again in between and would have to reapply anyway . Idk how it works 😿
Anyway who shall I do next ????? Put your answers in the comment section below subscribe like and support my Patreon see you in the next video 😹😹😹☝️☝️💥💥
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rottenpumpkin13 · 9 months
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Out of Context Shit Heard on the SOLDIER floor #4
A portion of these were sent in/inspired by an ask sent by @strawberrysnortshake
Zack: Ironically this isn't the first time I've accidentally eaten chalk.
Angeal: Attention everyone we're now taking votes. Raise your hand if you would sleep with Sephi—I DIDN'T FINISH SAYING HIS NAME PUT YOUR HANDS DOWN.
Kunsel: We're all out of duct tape. Angeal used the last of it to tape Genesis to the ceiling.
Sephiroth: Are you satisfied with your fish sticks, Zackary?
Genesis: Why does it smell like mommy issues in here—oh hi, Sephiroth.
Zack: I'm officially 23% goat milk.
Genesis: Well well well if it isn't my old nemesis, Heterosexuality.
Zack: Aww! 🥰 You're the antichrist!
Cloud: Yeah you're a SOLDIER alright, a sold your ass.
Zack: Where are we supposed to put this giant clown statue?
Lazard: WHY do you have a giant clown statue?
Sephiroth walking towards Genesis's office with a flamethrower: The goddess has had it good for far too long.
Essai: If we all chip in, we can finally buy Kunsel a face.
Genesis: I guess this means that the box labeled used illegal knick-knacks is off limits?
Roche: let's all dance maniacally and pretend we're gay!
Lazard: ANGEAL THAT ELEVATOR IS COMING OUT OF YOUR PAYCHECK!
Sephiroth: Are you, as the kids say, flexing on 'em?
Zack: Does anyone know what happened to my Sephiroth scented candle?
Sephiroth: I'll add murder supplies and can of whipped cream to the shopping list.
Luxiere: Let me guess, nobody cared about your light up sneakers?
Zack: 🎶 We take the pain out of paint 🎶
Roche: Have a slutty, slutty evening, director.
Angeal: Gen, can you let me have a cup of coffee before you start divulging your theories on why Cloud Strife is a time traveler?
Zack: I am going to default dance my way through hell!
Cloud: Cool trick! I'm a wizard now.
Genesis: I will start rumors about your sex life.
Lazard: Sephiroth I can't fire you, but I can mysteriously make sure you go bald.
Kunsel: This is a cave. Nothing really matters.
Sephiroth: how does one acquire a leprechaun? Can you order one online?
Roche: Commander Rhapsodos is so pretty. He reminds me of a prostitute.
Sephiroth: Genesis got me a journal for my birthday. I think I'm supposed to write down my feelings but I don't have enough pages for that.
Kunsel: when will we be free from the chains of foot pictures?
Genesis: If I find drugs in this office I'm confiscating it for my own personal use.
Lazard: Would anyone care to explain why there was a condom filled with grape jelly in the break room?
Zack(drunk): Good evening, my esteemed bastards.
Angeal: Bullying is only allowed on the SOLDIER floor if it makes Genesis cry.
Sephiroth: Mental healthn't.
Kunsel: is anyone here familiar with the concept of witchcraft? we're hexing Commander Rhapsodos at dawn.
Luxiere: Here kitty kitt—Oh that is a huuuge cat—OH IT'S GENERAL SEPHIROTH.
Angeal: Why did you spell salmonella as Sal Minella???? Who's Sal???
Sephiroth, while walking towards his office with an entire pie and a fork: Do not presume to question my actions.
Lazard: If we suffer any more budget cuts we're going to use Zack's hair as a broom.
Sephiroth: Which one of you locked Director Lazard in the Janitor's closet?
Cloud, watching Genesis recite LOVELESS: The evil gay red man is at it again.
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vespaer77 · 2 months
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You just did the impossible. You changed someone’s opinion online. I can see Gale now. Thank you!
Listen, I'd be the first to forgive anyone if they didn't share my feelings. Gale is the worst about filling in the gaps in his story, and I filled a lot of them by suddenly taking an interest... and then going out to the Forbidden Realms wiki pages and doing supplementary reading on Mystra and Blackstaff Academy which made me first go, "Oh." And then, "OH." And then finally, "Oh my god."
It's like the same criticism I have about Star Wars, haha =) In order to know the whole story, one has to have seen x and y shows and read z comic book. Otherwise you wouldn't know that Kylo Ren wasn't actually responsible for the destruction of Luke's temple, which is somewhat critical yet relatively hidden information.
I *hated* Gale in early access. He was my dead last least favorite character. They changed him somewhat in full release (not to mention he was infinitely hotter, lol), but it wasn't until damned near the end of the game when I was like, "Wait... wait a minute." I think that's also why they did to Rolan what they did - in the same place, even. While we were completing Gale's companion quest. Rolan was the clue, the tip off. Another insufferably egotistical wizard. Suffering abuse. They laid the parallel out so plainly and I still walked right past it until Gale read the book and suddenly took a very surprisingly dark turn. And I felt so silly that it surprised me so.
And I was so disinterested in Gale at the time that I saved his companion quest for basically the last. Sort of. I think I did Gortash after him. But I got to watch all the other companions face their abuser and win. I got to help Wyll break his contract AND free his father. I got to help Shadowheart free herself from Shar and return to the open arms of Selune. I got to help Halsin fix his past mistakes and return Moonrise to its former self. I got to help Astarion face his abuser at long, long last and free himself for the first time in his own memory, along with thousands of others. And Sebastian <3 And then I even helped Karlach face her abuser and bring him to justice.
But what did Gale get to do? Where was his freedom? His catharsis? When he faced his abuser, the only thing that happened was her expressing her disappointment that he was still alive, that he didn't choose her above his own self-inflicted demise. And then she subjected him to yet another new pact that still indebted him to her. Because he's a wizard. No matter what he does, as long as he draws breath and casts spells, he'll always be indebted to her. And it just felt so... hollow. Unfair.
it made me FEEEEEEELLLLLLugh things haha! And then I was like, fuck. No, I do. I like this character.
OKAY I LOVE HIM, ALRIGHT? THERE. I SAID IT.
So I unbelievably and totally and with full chest and face understand and respect it. Not every character is going to be to everyone's tastes. If anything? It just proves how well these characters are written. That this team of writers were capable of such subtlety and depth. I'm not sure I could do the same justice to a fictional creation of my own. I'm just in awe of Larian Studios =)
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jewishbarbies · 2 months
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There’s a post circulating rn that explicitly says it “doesn’t matter what Hamas did or does” bc it “doesn’t justify murdering civilians and children” … what about all of the innocent Israeli civilians and children that are murdered, tortured and raped by Hamas? Where is the outcry for them? Where is the rage and the upset for them? Anyone who tries to condemn hamas on that post is met with mockery and more applause for hamas. It cannot be any more clear to me anymore. Jewish lives don’t matter to these people. Innocent Israeli lives don’t matter. They want us entirely gone. - an American Jew who feels so alone in all of this.
(fwiw, I shouldn’t need to say it, but I agree that murdering innocent civilians is wrong regardless of who does it. But the fact that nobody will extend the same sort of consideration and compassion for Israelis and Jews is insanity. There are multiple victims of this war. Israelis are not their government.)
it absolutely stems from the blood libel. the “Israeli soldiers sit on rooftops and purposely shoot little kids in the genitals with rocket launchers” bullshit. like, yes, the IDF is toooootally wasting entire rockets on random kids that happened to be perfectly in the middle of the town square and witnesses could abbbbbsolutely tell the rocket was aimed at their crotch. this disgusting shit is so rampant right now. and acknowledging the falsehoods spreading does not mean negating the actual harm done - it’s simply being responsible in the spread of information about a very serious, very real conflict with real world consequences for misinformation. there are children caught in the crossfire of this conflict and have been from the beginning. but the way we talk about these groups is so fucking important.
every day there’s new info on how an actual UN backed group aided and participated in a terrorist attack where woman and children were raped, mutilated, and murdered. so many were burned alive. raped to death. people were tortured to death on their own FB livestream specifically so their families could watch. how is that at all NOT the same as the blood libel conspiracies, but real? I’m young but I’ve never seen an international event like this SO denied by the masses and I can’t help but wonder if this is what it was like for the jews that survived the holocaust and found out no one actually cared. no one wanted to join the war to free them, many thought it would be amaricans coming to save them, but most of america didn’t believe it was happening and owned a copy of TIME’s hitler cover magazine. there were nazi rallies in madison square garden.
I don’t like holocaust comparisons, but socially this feels so similar to what we know about those times, and it’s genuinely terrifying. it’s not just a sad time online. real people can and will be lost over this.
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tuituipupu · 10 days
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i'm having such an emotional time lately so i'm gonna be candid for a minute (i'm ok dw just feeling a lot h hh)
though everything feels heavy atm, i can at least feel happy in recognition that when i look back - i certainly have come a long way.
i've always thought i didn't care what people thought of me or my interests (but i think truthfully, everyone does deep down - even if it's just a small bit)
my old blog was SO PRECISELY curated to a tea that i would rb things in a certain order. to keep an aesthetic. and i hated it. it felt like prison (and this place of all online spaces is meant to be free - at least free of judgement!) i deleted that blog a couple of years ago.
now i post whatever i want when the impulse hits me.
i felt like there were lots of aspects of my interests that defied each other too strongly. but human beings are complex. and we can like different things at once (and post about them!)
and i think this is a big problem with aesthetic culture (and don't get me started on core culture on tiktok) i've always loathed it. like you have to tick certain boxes in fashion and culture and lifestyle to be an acceptable being and true to a community.
i'm really grateful for artists like käärijä or more recently, chappell roan. not only for their music ofc, but where many find a relatability in kä for his body positivity, he rly helped me accept the side of myself that is sexual. i always felt like i've buried this part of myself and felt shame and embarrassment. i even feel awkward talking about this now and a bit silly, but idk if some people might be able to relate and if so, i'd be interested to see if anyone shares similar experiences?
i feel like it's ok and above all safe to express myself sexually. i think it comes with being a woman for me, just feeling watched and exploited all the time. which makes me in turn feel awkward to express my sexual needs or desires. or talk about anything sexual. but where käärijä is so free in talking about these things or performing in a way that includes sexual elements, i feel free and like yes. this is normal and human and ok. a lot of people feel this way.
and with chappell roan, her drag elements of her makeup and fashion really inspire me and almost mimic harajuku elements to me. i love the over the top rhinestoning. i definitely feel more confident experimenting in makeup and wearing things i want to wear or have been scared to pair together.
idk i guess it comes with growing up and i'm still very young. but i guess it feels like for me, its taken me a while to get to this point. i know in reality my peers probably have their own battles but ig i don't see them and maybe deep down i almost feel like the odd one out and just idk... awkward?
idk it just feels better to write this now. when you realise things that have maybe been bothering you in the background of your mind and then it suddenly clicks into place.
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you’re watching….
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( ALL IN ENGLISH ) ( questions searched on the web about Sol)
"Hey, I'm Sol and this is the Wired Autocomplete interview," Sol said smiling. Sol was given aboard. A medium-sized board where the questions were stuck with a paper and she has to peel it off to open the question. “Let’s see what you all are curious about”
[ UPBEAT MUSIC ]
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"Have you ever googled yourself before?" Interviewer.
"No. I try not to."
"Alright, first question," Sol said before carefully peeling off the sticker that was covering the full question that was searched on the web about her.
[ WHAT ]
"What is Sol’s full name? My full name is Solaire Victoria Raeya Ivanov and I know it's a long name. But my parents liked it." Sol answered and smiled.
"What does Sol like in a guy?" Sol chuckled at the question. "Wow, did someone actually search this on the web?" Sol asked as she looked at her staff behind the camera and giggled. "What I like in a guy is honesty and just be good to me."
"What is Sol’s net worth?" Sol smiled at the question. "why do you guys care about this? but to be honest I don't even know what my net worth is."
"What is Sol's zodiac sign?" "Aquarius, I am. Fun fact, I actually share a birthday with Rosé. I was told recently about some of the characteristics of the Aquarius. Think I maybe have like, three of eight."
"What is Sol's phone number?" "That is a question I won't be answering. I don't give my number to anyone. So, it is maybe impossible to get my number. Sorry." Sol said and smiled blandly.
"What is Sol's accent?" Sol laughed at the question. "Honestly I have no idea. I would say British on most occasions. it also depends on where I go. When I got to America. my accent changes to American English and when I'm in Paris, I speak in a Parisian accent. Or these days it feels like I’m getting Aussie accent because of Rose. It is a bit confusing I don't know what my accents are." Sol chuckled.
"What is Sol doing right now?" Sol exhaled and chuckled " Talking to you. that's so funny people would google that. what is Sol doing now, like Google's gonna know"
"What was Sol's first song?" "The very first song I wrote was for my mom on her birthday when I was like six years old, and it was about when I grow up, can I be as pretty as you? when I grow up, can I wear your dress? and still, my parents and my siblings make fun of me sometimes."
Sol throws the medium-sized board on the floor and grabs the one handling to her.
[ DOES ]
"Does Sol have pets?" " Yes, I have 4 pets, three dogs and one cat. I have Shiba Inu named Cain, Samoyed named Chico, white Pomeranian Cece, and a Manx cat named Cleo. I adopted all of them from a rescue shelter. They are my angels."
"Does Sol speak Spanish?" Sol smiled. "Yes, I can speak Spanish because I taught myself and I'm proud of myself for doing that because I can now communicate with my fans who speak Spanish," Sol said and continued smiling as she peeled off the sticker that covers the next question and read it.
"Does Sol play guitar?" "Yes, I do play guitar. In fact, I play a lot of instruments. My grandpa taught me how to play the Violin and Piano. during my trainees days, I learned to play drums, electric guitar, ukulele, recorder, flute, and Saxophone recently. since I have much free time this year because of the pandemic, I spend my time mostly learning new instruments and learning online." Sol answered and nodded.
"Does Sol has tattoos?" "That’s a secret" she giggles, “but I do, I have four tattoos and each one of them has a meaning.”
"Does Sol watch anime?" "Do, and my top three animes are the seven deadly sins, my hero academia, and One Piece."
“Does Sol know how to play games?” “Yes, I love playing games. It’s my hobby.”
[ CAN ]
"Can Sol sing?" Sol laughed at the question. " I bloody hope so, otherwise I have no idea what I'm doing here."
"Can Sol rap?" "Yes, I can rap. I’m the lead rapper in the group."
"Can Sol drive?" "I can drive.  I actually passed my driving test the first time. I do really love the freedom of just getting in your car and going wherever you want."
"Can Sol come to my birthday party?" Sol laughed."I wish I could but I think you would have to speak to my agency and my manager about that."
"Can I date Sol?" Sol laughed and grinned. the staff also laughed "that's an interesting question. Maybe but I think you would have to speak to my agency and my manager about that too." Sol said and shrugged with a chuckle.
[ HOW ]
“Okay last board, How old is Sol?" Sol read off as she peeled the tap. "I'm 26 years old."
"How to get Sol's face?" Sol laughed. "Seriously? I don't know. surgery, I think?" Sol said and shrugged with a chuckle.
"How did Sol become famous?" Sol chuckled. " by releasing good music."
"How many languages can Sol speak?" Sol smiled. "I can speak 7 languages. Korean, English, Japanese, French, Mandarin, Spanish, and Russian I'm hoping to learn Thai and German by next year." Sol answered.
“How does Sol stays in shape? By working out.” She stated. “I don’t like dieting and I was extremely bad at it. When I was training to be a singer, I had this extremely diet and I just failed. I couldn’t resist my love for ice cream.”
“How does Sol keep her hair healthy?” She smiled, “I use a specially made shampoo and conditioner provided by my wonderful stylist aka Lina.”
“Well, that’s it?.” She asked, throwing the cardboard away when the staff members nodded. “It’s been fun! They weren’t as scary as I thought they would be.”
“I hope you enjoyed the video, thank you. Mwah.” She says, staring directly into the lens and blowing a kiss at it.
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headspace-hotel · 2 years
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Okay I was planning on staying out of it but this is painful to watch.
To be clear, OP was being very weird and didnt at all need to say that. But it seems like hald the people since then have just been trying to explain what OP mewnt and doing it horribly, because I do in fact get ehat thry were saying.
Theres been a bug movement with online fascists thats like "modern society is too urban (see: diverse). Weve gotten too far from how we traditionally lived, and were so out of touch with nature. Kids spend all their time inside or in the suburbs and never get to see real nature." And its all a recruitment tactic.
The Start of that pipeline is often just "huh modern scoiety is extremely out of touch with nature. Kids grow up without the experiences I had as a kid running around in creeks and stuff. Kids cant recognize plants." And most of that is true and it Is bad, but they then often make a very quick leap to "this is a problem with Society." And from there to fascist talking points.
And like, if you squint, you can very easily draw similarities between the very start of that pipeline and your recent posting.
Again, this is Obviously incredibly stupid and anyone who actually reads anything you post can see that. But like, I can at least see how, if someone is primed to always look only for fascist dog whistles, and one of your recent posts crossed their dash, if theyre not smart, they could arrive at that anxiety.
Everyone since then has just been dumb about it.
...Okay I'm thinking the "cottagecore" discourse has just rotted people's brains out here. I didn't realize it until now but "posting pictures of a basket of freshly picked strawberries is a fascist dogwhistle" really was a Thing on here a while back. Okay. That makes sense now.
I know about the "trad"/fascist-adjacent 'homesteading'/off-the-grid doomsday prepper attitudes. Where I live, being a 'homesteader' often goes along with stockpiling guns.
But these people's attitudes are individualistic, it's all about personally escaping the "Modern" world and living in The Wilderness(tm) somewhere and being "self-sufficient" (lmao). Kind of a manifest-destiny adjacent fantasy (gross)
This is where the "cottagecore" discourse brain worms did immense damage—no one wanted to explain why the individualistic, intrepid settler homesteader fantasy was a problem, so all the well meaning people on the margins of the discourse went "oh, okay, wanting to reconnect with your natural world and consciously participate in your local ecosystems is a fascist/colonialist thing."
I have multiple posts buried deep in my drafts about this somewhere that I was afraid to post, because I was met with the "google is free" stuff when I tried to figure out what was going on, and Google was entirely empty of any material explaining the (alleged?) fascist and colonialist roots of cottagecore.
It makes my brain hurt because yes, actually, I *see* how "homesteading" is sometimes related to white supremacist and colonialist shit, and the fascist and "cottagecore" communities do have an overlap that is not purely coincidental. That's real. It's not made up. But. A lot of people on the internet have learned to recognize fascist "dogwhistles" instead of learning to recognize fascist ideas.
A lot of the work of recognizing fascist-adjacent stuff in the wild does rely on developing a sensitivity to such "red flags." I've talked about things that I consider to be red flags, and I sometimes respond strongly to them. But—it's crucial that you understand that the red flags themselves are not what fascism is. You have to be able to see and recognize the actual harmful components of an ideology instead of deciding that any similarity, no matter how superficial, Is Fascism.
A lot of colonialist and fascist systems of thought have "relationships with nature and growing plants is good" somewhere in there, but the actual poison here comes in a few forms:
unquestioned romanticization of settling/colonizing an Untouched Wilderness
deciding that some kind of stable, inherent 'natural' state of human existence is always good, and 'unnatural' things are bad
modern society is decaying and degenerate, "traditional" values and lifestyles are better (enter romanticizing the past as a paradise of moral and racial purity)
Yes, there were statements in my post that looked superficially similar to some of these. No, those statements were not even remotely close to communicating the same things.
And "dogwhistles" are not about superficial similarity. If you learn about 'homesteading' as a white supremacist fantasy being a thing, and you jump onto a post talking about growing native species like "Oh look I've found a fascist dogwhistle!" You've misunderstood the assignment.
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lajikookbolala · 10 months
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Some thoughts on this shipping discourse
I have already expressed MULTIPLE times how much I hate drama, so this is probably gonna be my last post on this topic. In the future, I might post less, not at all, or often but with only positive stuff. I just don't know if I can mentally handle being on here for much longer. Anyway, here are some thoughts:
Trying to convince Tkkrs they are wrong is not going to work.
I would like to challenge anyone here to think of a time when someone ACTUALLY changed their opinion on something after an online argument. Can't think of one? Exactly. Humans are stubborn, it's just part of who we are. Especially online, nobody is actually open to changing their opinion on things. We argue just for the sake of arguing.
And, we have to remember that Tkkrs are JUST as confident that their ship is real as we (Jkkrs) are. It may be stupid, but as a former Tkkr I would know (I had just joined the fandom and I was young, don't blame me for falling for the Taekook bs). Anyway, when I say I was confident in my belief that's an understatement. Eventually, I did stumble across Jikook, and the story is actually very funny. Again, I had just joined the fandom and hilariously, my mom was starting to get into BTS too. One day, she stumbled across a Jikook video on youtube, called me in the room and showed me, saying "look how in love these two are". I was hesitant at first (still being a tkkr at the time), but I watched it with her, because she was my mother; someone that I knew and trusted. If some random person online had sent me the same video and told me to watch it, I wouldn't have. I would be pissed and ignore it. My point is, to convert me from a Tkkr to a Jkkr, it took my own mother showing me a video, and explaining to me that with her almost 60 years of life experience, she could tell they were in incredibly in love.
Nobody's gonna listen to a random person's opinion on line. At least, not with an open mind.
2. We're just giving toxic people the attention they want.
More than 50% of what I see on Jikook Tumblr recently is answers responding to toxic people's posts, whether those people are tkkrs, antis, or solo stans. Because we answer all their stupid questions, more of these people are coming out of the woodwork to share their own stupid opinions. And then it's just a toxic circle.
Even though it may give you some satisfaction to roast random strangers on the internet (I even enjoy reading roasts by jkkrs sometimes), it's really not worth it. We're just giving them the attention they want. If we just ignored them for a while and didn't answer their questions or respond to them, they wouldn't go away, but we would definitely see less of them on here.
Also, aren't we kinda being hypocrites? When tkkrs leave hate on Jikook posts we all get together to hate on them (which is justified) but we seem to have no problem when jkkrs leave hate on Taekook posts. I know it's different because Jikook is real and taekook isn't, but again, we're not going to convince them by leaving hate comments. We're just gonna piss them off more. Honestly, I think the only thing that would shut tkkrs up once and for all is if Jikook came out with their relationship, and we all know that's not going to happen, at least not anytime soon.
Ok, I think that's the end of my rant. Please let me know if you agree with me or not. If you disagree, I totally understand. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, and I'm just sharing mine.
ALSO 3 more things:
1: please feel free to send me asks! I will respond to ALL of them as long as they are not toxic.
2: does anyone know any platforms where the Jikook community is welcoming and nice? It may sound stupid but I think that's what I really need right now. I have no BTS friends and would LOVE someone to talk to about them.
3: let me know if you would like me to stay on here. I'm almost definitely not gonna post any more stuff about this drama, but I will 100% post more cute and wholesome Jikook moments if y'all want me to.
I love you all, thank you so much 💜
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In response to your post about recently peaking: I think I'm still very much in the progress of getting into radical feminism, but one of the things that made me start to search it out was the huge discrepancy I noticed online with regard to how for example J.K. Rowling is treated by TRAs compared to any man ever who also has a "bad" opinion. That made me want to look up what so-called TERFs actually have to say, and I had to admit to myself that a lot of it made sense. A lot of things I felt uncomfortable about regarding gender politics and sexwork for example started falling into place as I read through more radfem blogs on tumblr. I want to use my free time this summer to read some proper feminist literature (very open for recommendations!)
I must say I feel hesitant sometimes to go further and actually peak though, because ever since I went on this journey a few months ago I've started to notice the misogyny in many places where I could ignore it before, and it scares me sometimes. I'm worried that if I become to aware the anger I feel about how women are treated will keep growing and I won't know what to do with it.
Sorry for rambling in your askbox! It felt kinda nice to write it all out once, I don't feel comfortable yet discussing all these thoughts with the people in my life unfortunately
Anger can be a very productive emotion if you're willing. I've been watching a youtuber who does recaps of SisterWives, and she said something in one of her videos recently that I agree with but never heard it articulated this way. I'm paraphrasing but: Emotions are like our five senses, they're there to give us information. Then, you have to process that information and decide how to act on it.
The example she gave is if you see someone far away that looks like your friend, but you're not sure - your eyes gave you information, but you have to go look closer to investigate to see if it's really them. If you feel angry, you have to investigate and take some time exploring why, and to what extent, and what you're willing to do about it.
Maybe you've never had anyone say this to you plainly but: I don't see my ideologies as an identity. I don't see my social identities as extensions of my virtue. I'm not afraid to get angry because if I'm angry it's probably something worth getting angry about. As with sadness, or happiness.
Misogyny is scary, but life has many facets, and truth is a worthwhile pursuit. I can't imagine my life another way because I can only be living this life as me, and like every life, it's full of complexities. I'm subjugated, I'm privileged, I'm a good person who has made bad choices, I'm a smart person who can be obtuse, I've been poor but never the poorest, I come from grandfathers who fought in wars and grandmothers who raised children in a bad religion yet they are all so deeply in my heart, and I've had to weigh my values against self serving decisions time and time again to get some of the comforts I have now. I have to live in the world now, and I'd rather live with open eyes despite any pain, because otherwise I miss out on joy. This is my only chance of joy, so I'm taking it. I will never turn my back on knowledge lest I leave joy on the table. Maybe one day, you'll see what I mean. Good luck sis! Thanks for sharing :)
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Dreaming awake (Mick Schumacher)
Note: english is not my first language, here is some Mick content that I hope you like. I'm trying to go through the requests and soon there will be more Mick content because those were the requests that I have pending 🤍
Thank you so much to everyone who likes and reblogs, your feedback is appreciated 🤍 and I'm not taking requests so if you have any ideas or concepts you want to share, feel free to do so but know that I'm not certain when I'll be able to tend to them!
You were sat in Mick's sofa, pillow on top of your thighs with you laptop propped on it, at least ten different tabs open on the browser as you huffed and puffed in frustration at your indecisiveness, "you're thinking too much about it, schatz! I can feel my head hurting from the thoughts running on your head!", your boyfriend called from the kitchen where he had volunteered to get a coffee for you. "You're saying that because you're not meeting one of your partner's closest friends that races in motorsport for a family dinner that is for his birthday!", you replied back before you groaned, throwing your head back on the sofa's headrest, groaning before you felt Mick sitting down next to you, "You'll be fine, there's nothing for you to worry about", your boyfriend said as he kissed the side of your forehead, "Now let's look at this entanglement of online shops' websites", as you both browsed through them, his hand going on your thigh as he squeezed it every now and then.
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You and Mick had arrived at the hotel pretty late last night, only doing your hygiene routine before going to bed and now, as the warm sun entered through the curtains, you woke up, an instant smile on your face when you felt the warmth your boyfriend's body next to yours on your skin. It wasn't usual that you woke up beside him so you were going to take full advantage of the situation, your body moving closer to his while you admired his face, noticing his pink lips slightly parted and how he took deep even breaths. You really were the luckiest person out there. You were refraining from running your fingers through his hair, understanding he needed his rest despite looking very handsome like this and, after a while, your wish was granted when you noticed him scrunch up his nose and slowly start opening his blue eyes, "Good morning handsome", you whispered. Rolling onto his back so he could catch you into his arms and wrap them around you, you nuzzled your face on his strong neck, feeling his fingers run up and down your back while he kissed the top of your head, "Morning darling, did you sleep well?", he mumbled, feeling your butterfly kisses on his skin. The two of you stayed in that position for a while longer since it was still quite early before you decided to get breakfast delivered in the room and then start getting ready for Esteban's birthday lunch.
"Does this look okay?", you asked as you smoothed your flowy pants down, looking into Mick's eyes through the mirror on the hotel room, "You look gorgeous, schatz, as always", he said as he came up to you, circling his arms around your waist and clasping them on your tummy area, kissing your cheek softly, "I don't want to be badly dressed", you said as you watched his black outfit, simple t-shirt and jeans, and then back to your flowy pants and a simple top outfit, trainers on your feet so you would be comfortable, "you look really nice, as always, and this is a small thing with his close family, you don't need to be that worried", he said, still noticing the crease between your eyebrows, "if you don't want to go, I can tell Esteban that we're not feeling well to go, he will understand", he forwarded. Quickly shaking your head no, you grabbed your boyfriend's hands, "I want to go, I want to meet Esteban and Elena and their families. I guess I'm just nervous, I've never met anyone from the paddock like that", you muttered as you played with his long fingers. You and Mick had decided to remain private when you realised your relationship was developing into something where love feelings were involded, with you not wanting to put your privacy at stake while Mick wanted to protect you as much as he could from the negative part of the media his job involved. Combining that with your work and studies schedules, you hadn't been able to go to any of Mick's races yet, you were nervous at the prospect of meeting someone you knew meant a lot to your boyfriend. "I'll always be by your side, anytime you feel overwhelmed or anything, we can go outside for a bit and we can leave if you want to, I don't want you to be uncomfortable. Just tell me if you feel like that, okay?", he spun you so you would face him, your hands on his chest while his travelled to each of your cheeks, his thumbs rubbing the soft skin while you nodded, puckering your lips at him so you could get a kiss.
"This way here", Mick's hand on your lower back guided you through the building's hallways so you could both get to the place where you two and Esteban would meet up before heading for lunch, you noticing the French driver and his partner at the end, "Mick! So glad you guys could join us!", he said as he embraced your boyfriend, "And this is the famous Y/N. Hi, how are you?", he said as he greeted you with a kiss on each cheek, "Hi Esteban, happy birthday!", you greeted gim back before he introduced his girlfriend, "this is Elena!", the blonde came in for a hug, "It's so nice to meet you, Y/N!", she smiled, "Likewise!".
Making small talk until you reached the room, everyone was introduced before getting to their seats and ordering their food, "So, Y/N, Mick told me you're doing a master's", Esteban began and you told him about what you were studying, Elena too showing her interest by asking a few questions about it too, "You know, when he told me about you I thought he dreaming awake because the way he spoke about you made it seem like you were just made for eachother and I couldn't believe that he had found that", Esteban said when Mick excused himself to go to use the bathroom, making you giggle at the French driver's words, "you're really good for him, and I'm very happy that we have finally been able to meet", he finished. "You know, I was a bit nervous coming today. Not because I didn't want to be here of celebrate your birthday, but because I haven't been involved much in this whole part of his life, you know? I haven't been able to attend races yet and we've been taking things slowly", you explained, "but hopefully we'll see eachother around the paddock soon", Elena chipped in just as your boyfriend reached you, "I think that's a great idea too, if you're up for it", Mick said as he circled your waist, kissing your cheek as he looked into your eyes, looking for any sign of uneasiness but only finding comfort and happiness.
When you were leaving the meal, Esteban made a suggestion, "We are thinking of heading to Disneyland, do you want to join?", while Mick looked at you, "Promise you'll wear a set of Mickey's ears?", you teased him, "that way my own Mick can be a Mickey". Laughing at your pun attempt, your boyfriend grabbed your hand as he nodded to a chuckling Esteban, allowing him to walk then front of you while he whispered in your ear, "for you, I'll be anything you want, my love".
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