#doesn't sleep all night

[princenotsocharming]

Morning after an absolutely innocent sleepover at Harrington's... Billy will totally stay for breakfast.. or will he?

(closeups under the cut)

#harringrove #harringrove fanart #steve x billy #steve harrington fanart #billy hargrove fanart #I'm a huge sucker for those 'Billy ends up sleeping over at Steve's bcuz reasons' fics ok #especially when he finally gets a good night's sleep and wakes up all well-rested and relaxed for once god knows the boy deserves some rest #and Steve is just there like 'hope this doesn't awaken anything in me' but joke's on him it's already too late #that aside this is the first time I've actually colored Steve and yeah I'm not mad at it

[ponury-grajek]

I needed the comfort content with them, so I draw it myself

#death note #l lawliet #light yagami #near #nate river #mello #mihael keehl #matt #mail jeevas #wammy boys #wammy's house #lawlight #clownverse!au #I guess I'm alive #I'll probably need few days of sleep more but I got back my ability to draw #and to think #and that's a success #do you know what an amazing feeling is to sleep all night?? incredible can recommend #my friend told me that I draw too much Near for a person who doesn't like him and I just want to say #shut up 🤡

[sergle]

I feel you, its so bad 😭, I had to go on a functioning adult human schedule for school and good god, out the house by 7am... bad bitches are not built for that..

WE REALLY ARE... and man, I can brute force myself into any schedule if there are things that HAVE to be done at certain times (like school, like you said) but it absolutely never feels "right". it feels like waking up at 3am to go to the airport type of shit. and it is truly so annoying... to get hit with the "that's a Normal schedule, you need to Fix your schedule" okay. alright. but let me hit you with this one. is it "normal" or is it just conducive to a 8 - 5. because no matter what my sleep schedule is like, or how locked in I am, I'm more clear headed at night + more productive and energetic. and no matter what, I'm tired during the day, especially the brightest times of day when the sun is allegedly supposed to be signaling my brain to be awake and alert. and it doesn't matter how much sleep I got.

#I can wake up in The Early Morning after going to bed at a reasonable hour the night prior and be exhausted throughout the daytime #and if I make it to the night then I'll suddenly perk back up. if I woke up at 7am that morning (with 8 hours of sleep under my belt) #I can comfortably stay awake until 5 or 6am that very next morning. #I need to Adapt to the daytime schedule- but if I loosen my grip on myself at all I will instantly SNAP back to the nighttime one. #full rubberband moment. #I don't need to transition back into it. my body just wants to click it back in place #I'll go right back into the swing of it as soon as I'm allowed to again #sergle answers #also I don't have trouble sleeping in daylight hours. yeah I have the curtains drawn in my room #but they aren't Blackout curtains. it's dim in there but not Dark. that doesn't impede me at all #it is crazy the way that people are so confident in telling me to my face that I'm on a bad and lazy schedule #bc they are categorizing my wake-up time as 'sleeping in' bc they're measuring it on their standard of when THEY go to bed. #i could go to bed at noon and wake up at 3pm and they'd say that i slept in

[hoofpeet]

I want them to be friends <3

#hoof draws #pokemon bw #n doesn't even bother to wonder why his new friend seems to be piloted by some sort of eldritch force #she's the first human friend he's ever had so. probably just normal #**neway i've been up all night playing bw i have to goto sleep now

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below) #My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm.. #pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread... #I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever. #And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

[boygirltreehouse]

I fucking love we are robin they were so huddling in the back booth of the restaurant izzys family ran trying not to laugh while ordering, surfing on the tops of trains, learning how to treat a bullet wound crowding around the phone frantically collecting google searches, taking more hits than they were landing, listening to dax play shitty guitar in his garage while skipping classes, playing dnd in rikos basement, making snide comments while duke and dre argue again for the eighth time that day and watching duke try to resist dre bribing him with his cooking, being connect to someone you don't know halfway across town because they too know that with batman gone someone has to take care of this city someone has to do something and it might as well be you

#duke izzy and dre sleeping over rikos house bcs their own homes arent great to be at right now #duke quizzing riko on her math work just bcs hes failing doesn't mean she has to #dre patching up a wound izzy got bcs she absolutely ate shit while trying to make a jump and izzy thinking abt how dre reminds her of her #brother if he hadnt been such an ass #like gotham is a shithole and these kids are in the heart of the mess living and loving and protecting their city #SOMEONE SEDATE ME #this is what happens when u read we are robin one too many times and like too many studies abt gotham city #dc comics #dc tag #all of them grew up looking into the night and seeing colorfully clothed children bound across the skyline and thought 'i can do that too' #i need to be shot #duke thomas #batman #thought bubbles #we are robin

[sysig]

Delusions (Patreon)

"Could I have your hand, sir?" Max didn't move, which Dexter was, sadly, getting used to.

"Sir?" Max jerked, then turned and stared at him, lost and blank. "Your hand, please."

Max's hand lifted shakily, and he laid it gently in Dexter's upturned palm. Dexter gave a quick and quiet "thank you," then turned it over in his own hand, observing him closely.

Too closely - his knuckles were rough and his fingernails were dull and cracked in places. His once-soft, not-a-day-in-his-life-subjected-to-hard-labour hands were now, already, toughened and split and scarred in places, especially the heel of his palm. He turned it over again, this time to stop looking so intensely. He had only wanted to give it a cursory glance to begin with.

"Do you know what I see, sir?" he asked as conversationally as he could manage, running his fingers along Max's abused flesh. He seemed to be at least half paying attention, his eye gazing down between them, and he'd occasionally twitch, encouragingly Dexter thought. He seemed to want to curl around him, then stopped and shook, his hand squeezing into a fist. Dexter coaxed him back out, encouraged him to hold himself lightly.

"What do you see?" He was almost startled by Max actually continuing their conversation, that happened so rarely now, shaking and quiet as it was. He took a deep breath, was he really going to do this?

"I see a hand, with five fingers." Max remained quiet, though his brow curled, and a guarded look came into his eye, though he still wasn't looking at Dexter. He felt a pang of guilt, but he had to try. "What do you see?"

Max's eye unfocused and began to water. He looked up, but not enough to reach Dexter's gaze in return, instead staring through his chest, and he felt just as hollow and empty as he must look to him.

"Do you take me for a fool, DAX?" Quiet and as close to angry as he'd heard since they'd been here.

No, not angry.

Betrayed.

He swallowed down the stinging lump at the back of his throat. He had to put on a brave face, had to keep his composure if he wanted Max to get better. That was the only thing he wanted, more than anything.

"Of course not, sir. Genuinely, what do you see?"

Max pulled his hand away and turned his body, his bandaged side facing Dexter. Shutting him out, pointedly. Dexter's empty hand curled into a fist, he was no better.

"Please, don't..." Max took a shallow, shuddering breath, and several beats before he spoke again, even quieter. "Don't ridicule me." Dexter could hear his breath catch, and he wanted nothing more than for this all to just stop.

"Sir, I didn't-"

"I've had enough of that." He shook his head stiffly, the action strange and wrong, like he had forgotten how. He stilled, his head turned even further away. "More than enough."

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Dexter Favin #And a drabble-fic under the cut #I ended up writing that the night after I read - I was a bit too inspired while busy so it's a little on the unfocused side haha #I would've cleaned it but I worry it wouldn't make it out of that stage! Please enjoy it for now <3 #This set is mostly periphery ideas - inspired by events rather than directly shown ♪ I suppose the first two kinda count tho #But they're more directly of the little scene I wrote ouò Poor ZEX </3 #And Dex! He's usually so capable! But he's stretching himself so thin ahh it's hard to watch in the best way #Of course he doesn't want to give ''Max'' over to just anyone - anyone at all really - both of their trusts have bottomed out #But how much could he reasonably care for him in that state? When he's still being actively haunted and most importantly - Not Max #He needs helps he needs support he needs to sleep and shower but a second with his eyes off Max and - then what? He'll immolate from fear #It's hard to imagine him crying but pushed to this extreme? To the thought of losing Max utterly and completely? Hhhhh #I do also just love him being possessive even outside of how terrible the situation is - he's always had his glimpses but this situation #Brings out the worst in him <3 In terrible ways #Really his method is just setting ''Max'' up nearby and prompting him over the sound of the shower like that's not nerve-wracking at all #Like he already doesn't answer half the time if that #As for the mini fic I was really interested in Dex's line about indulging ''Max's'' delusions #Apart from the fact that they're not delusions - not that anyone believes him outside of the Institute - what it means to indulge is weird #I saw one example of how to handle delusions that stuck with me - how not to deny them outright while also not reinforcing them #Since it's not actually helpful to be told ''That isn't Really happening to you'' when to you - to ZEX - it really is! How invalidating #And so rather to take the approach of ''I don't see/feel/hear what you are - I can't find any evidence of it myself'' and extrapolating #Dex taking the approach of ''What reality are you experiencing right now?'' and trying to build from there! #Unfortunately ZEX has already been treated like....well like all that - he's not in the mood for games even well-intentioned ones #He /knows/ he's in a human body. He can feel that and see that and understands that. It doesn't change who - what he /is/ #The idea of a completely broken ZEX is so sad to me :( He's so strong and prideful and vivacious - Max really is another him </3 #It's not the same but he was saved from death! To fall into torture... But even despite that I want to see him succeed! As much as he can #Even in that small and shaking way I want to see him be hateful and spiteful - angry. Powerful <3 Fighting ♥

[hannigramislife]

I don't think I can truly express how much it physically upsets me to hear the words Dazai says to Akutagawa in season 1, when he's captured by the Mafia.

It genuinely makes me sick to my stomach because...why?

"You were so difficult to train when you first started out."

"You were such a slow learner, and you could never follow directions."

"And then there's that useless ability of yours."

"My new apprentice is superior to you in every way imaginable."

Just...why? This is the first time you have had a proper talk with him in 4 years. You had a chance to fix things. You're supposedly better now. A good man. Akutagawa didn't even do anything; does the man offend you by like, existing? Breathing?

Do you truly not wish to make any amends?

Could you think of no other possible way for sskk to happen? Really, you?

The Dazai Osamu didn't have a better idea?

I find that hard to believe.

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #dazai osamu #bsd dazai #akutagawa ryuunosuke #bsd akutagawa #it saddens me #to my core #i get it #he probably doesn't care #but like...how can you *not* care??? #how does he sleep at night??? #really??? no guilt??? none at all?? #the worst part is: all this charade isn't *needed* #akutagawa would have done what you wanted *either* way #he would have done anything for you #god #i hate dazai so much #for this

[iantosource]

it's crazy that ianto watches jack sleep at night cause at this point its really like a competition of whos more insomniac

#i dont believe jack when he says he doesn't sleep at all since we see him sleep literally 2 episodes later #but also he has nightmares about the fairies and hes probably lived long enough to have seen many more traumatising things than the average #person so i wouldnt br surprised if his brain had a huge rotation of nightmares and the nights were he actually sleeps normally are fairly #rare #txt #ianto jones #jack harkness #janto #torchwood

[auggiedrawsturts]

Younger siblings doing younger sibling things (they were supposed to go to sleep six hours ago)

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt mikey #rottmnt leo #everyone always talks about Donnie and Leo hanging out at night bc of insomnia/hyperfixations #and I love that headcanon #BUT WHAT ABOUT MICHEAL???? #hes a teenage artist with adhd and his own private room #you cant convince me that he doesn't stay up late or pull all nighters because he gets too focused on his art #also if youre wondering why Raph isnt included #he is currently asleep in his own room like a normal person with a normal sleep schedule #the weirdo /lh #I totally drew this at a reasonable time and not in the middle of the nights

[talaricula]

My wife to our son last night: "and now you sleep or I'm selling you to One Direction"

#Reader I died laughing #Sleepless nights are hard but having a funny wife makes it much easier #Also baby is SO great #He doesn't sleep between midnight and 4am and he struggles with breastfeeding #But he's SO cute and so well behaved during the day and so snuggly #We're so so so so happy he's here #I keep crying all the time about it #Baby Smurf #(nickname tag derived from my parents calling him bébéschtroumpf before he was born) #He is almost a week old!!! Wild

[drama-dick]

little head canon that Renee says “goodnight Dan, goodnight Allison” every night before bed + bonus: when all the foxes have the sleepover after Baltimore she says goodnight to every single one of them

#its so cute to think about #and I know in the book they're just silent during this part #but it feels Right that Renee always says goodnight #and neil doesn't respond but I think he'd appreciate it #boy needs a good nights sleep for once in his goddamn life #aftg #aftg shitpost #aftg foxes #aftg hc #aftg headcanon #all for the game #all for the gay #neil josten #andrew minyard #aaron minyard #matt boyd #dan wilds #allison reynolds #renee walker #nicky hemmick #kevin day #the foxhole court #the raven king #the kings men #nora sakavic #all for the game series

[irkedisaac]

idk how to articulate this but dishonored chaos and deathloop loop stress are the same narrative device

chaos makes an inherent wrongness in the world. it's not just because you killed someone with dreams and a family and a midday shit coming up. your enemies literally and figuratively become vermin! your relationship to them changes in high chaos until a horde of guards is nothing but future viscera to you.

loop stress is much the same. there's an inherent wrongness to it, as you see the anomaly bucks against what you're doing to it. why else do we see so many more infused objects? why are these trinkets suddenly so much more powerful? why is everyone checking the shadows, as if they remember a time they regret not doing so?

#deathloop #dishonored #hhhhhhh this is such a late night can't sleep thought but like #im not crazy right? they're like cousins #the loop doesn't give a shit about morality but it's easier to put things back the way they were all at once #like a path of least resistance thing

[captnpunk]

if you need me I am going to be thinking about this, the flirtiest head tilt I have ever seen, forever. thank u.

#finally succumbing to sleep. i am on a cloud. i love men. #GOD TIER FLIRTING. OLIVER STARK THANK YOU FOR MY LIFE. #[laughs in incandescent joy] that happened!!!!! IT HAPPENEDDDDDD AHAHAHAHA GOD! I LOVE. EVERYONE. #tim being like 'listen buck doesn't realize he's giving signals but BOY IS HE.' yes. [i've been there. oh man] #Tommy's soft little 'probably not on the same day' [GLANCES AT BUCK'S MOUTH] SAME. YEAH. #I AM SO ALIVE #the way this. the way he. oh my god i'm too gay to type. good NIGHT. #911 spoilers #911 abc #IT'S SO GOOD. IT'S ALL SO FUCKING GOOD. #'I COULD TEACH YOU' !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #they did me in. i'm in heaven.

[quantumshade]

job interviews are so fucking evil i'm so stressed for literally no reason

#like it doesn't even matter if i don't get this job #it's not the end of the world #but i need everyone to like me forever and i hateeeee this feeling #like i'm under a gddamn microscope #AND i didn't get any sleep last night bc i was stressed about the interview! #which has made me in turn. more stressed about the interview!! #@ my body how is it evolutionarily useful to make me so so so scared about everything all the time #RAAAAAAAGHGHHH #whatever. whatever #delia.txt #delete later probably

[alackofghosts]

3 degrees of au, just so i could draw ppl napping? maybe so, maybe so

#i carry a wol succesfully vomits ardbert out during 5.3 au in my heart because i know EXACTLY which brautigan poem to use #in the art description if i ever get around to tackling that part #and sometimes that's what life's all about #warrior of light #G'raha Tia #Alisaie Leveilleur #Ardbert #alphinaud is welcome to join but he strikes me as a type who doesn't nap #Final Fantasy XIV #i draw sometimes #not a speedpaint #this took... almost 7h.... that's basically like a solid night's sleep i didn't get because i was too busy lining