#don’t make me pay for more

[ipushedthewrongbutton]

i’ve been scratching my head over the whole watcher situation. I’m not a fan myself but got dragged into it cus of the people I follow, i only watched their puppet history series and the buzzfeed unsolved series from way back- honestly, i couldn’t care less if they locked all their stuff behind a paywall. I’m so neutral on this whole thing, i might as well be swiss.

but i’m not neutral? In fact, the whole thing really bothers me and i couldn’t figure out why.

cus i get it, yanno. As a company that thrives on creativity, i understand you’d wanna cut yourself off the mega-capatalist-giant that is youtube to get rid of annoying restrictions, and asking monetary support from your audience so you can really stretch the limit of your creativity. I GET IT.

And it STILL bothers me!

And then I figured it out:

the whole “any future videos they’ll be making will EXCLUSIVELY be available through a streaming service you have to pay a monthly subscription for” comes less across as “please support us monetarily so we can grow as creators”, and comes more across as “if you want to continue being a fan, or even being a part of the audience, you’re gonna have to pay up. You have no choice in the matter. It’s either pay, or you’re not a ‘real’ fan or a ‘real’ part of our audience.”

THAT’S what’s bothering me about it. It feels like they’re gatekeeping who gets to be part of their community with money (that not everyone might have). And knowing where they come from and how they started…. That’s… extremely tone deaf. To put it gently.

#Watcher #i had to get that out #My condolences to the watcher fandom you actually fucking deserve better #This perspective coming from someone who was only really subscribed for puppet history #Like to me and people like me this announcement is really just “your mediocre support isn’t enough” #“We’re gonna make it so you HAVE to watch all our content in order for the price to be worth it” #“Or you don’t get to watch any of it at all” #And like… yeah fine no more watcher it is then nbd #But did you HAVE to push out like THAT?? #Listen I’ll GLADLY pay 6 dollars for every episode of puppet history #The money is clearly on screen and it’s cheaper than going to the cinema so it’s MORE than earned #I am however not paying that same amount monthly for all the watcher content including all the stuff i’m not interested in #Your content ain’t THAT good

[syl-stormblessed]

update from my last post: i am currently 90% of the way through Making Money and i think i’m actively losing my mind. in a good way but i’m losing it nonetheless. i’m literally a different person now. genuinely can’t believe that when i woke up yesterday i hadn’t even read Going Postal. i think i died and came back RIGHT

#i swear i’ll make more posts later that make my thoughts coherent but right now all i can think about #is the fact that moist literally got the ghost of the professor to help him command the golems by #promising to let him haunt a strip club for the rest of eternity #and don’t even get me started on the……trial…….it’s not even a trial it’s a circus #especially considering the fact that mr bent showed up LITERALLY DRESSED AS A CLOWN #please don’t pay attention to the fact that it’s currently 1:36 AM in my time zone #making money is currently taking over my life #god. #i think i’m losing my mind #vin speaks #discworld #going postal #making money #raising steam #terry pratchett #gnu terry pratchett

[alaraxia]

mini me banner I made originally with the intention of using it for my ko-fi account, but I realized I don’t have the energy to keep something like that meaningfully updated, so now it’s just a general banner for my socials if I feel like it

#I do have a ko-fi I just don’t advertise it really because currently I’m not in need of extra financial help because job #like on one hand it would be great to make money off of making things I enjoy but on the other hand #I would feel beholden to the whims of supporters and feel the constant need to be making things I think they’d like #or things that would potentially make me more likeable and make me more money #so in that sense I think ultimately I’m a lot happier having a financially stable job and thus allowing myself to make things I want #decoupled from the expectation that they could be profitable and having my creativity tied to my ability to pay bills #I still have my inprnt shop tho where I put some of my bigger pieces and I appreciate the support of it #anyway this was not intended to be a monologue I just got carried away #capitalism is hell but drawing silly pictures of my OCs makes the weight feel just a bit lighter #go draw a silly picture of your OCs #digital art #also secrets the government doesn’t want you to know: you can just draw yourself as a lil elf wizard whenever you want #mini me

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

hey guys just doodling the guy again (i am booed offstage)

#death note #l lawliet #bright colors #eyestrain #my art #yeah it’s him again #went to actually draw something but like #eh #might as well draw this guy #i’m projecting my tiredness onto him but is it really projection if he’s also tired? i don’t think so #i would pay cash money to pass out for the next 24 hours dm me and i’ll give you my location and u can bonk me on the head w a bat #genuinely think the lack of sleep has been aggravating a lot of my issues i’ve been weirdly flipping between like #paranoia and weirdly happy and irrational anger and just deeply numb #which actually now that i think about it is exactly what happens every time i don’t sleep enough for long enough #methinks i should sleep more snork mimimi it makes my brain work better #god i want to sleep so bad rn #but i have to do laundry and make 2 pies for other people to consume tomorrow #i plan on decorating the crusts w dicks or smth bc i hate the people it’s going to and they are very conservative religious sorta vibes #but some people there would get a kick out of it (the good ones) #u know i was wondering if i really complain about being tired enough for those anons about sleep and y’know what #i really do #and i will forever #if i’m tired u will know of it and thats because it’s always #maybe i should try that caffeine shit people rave about (<- has not drank energy drinks or sodas or coffees since i was like. 14) #actually i think my heart would give out idk what’s with it but it gets silly sometimes so i don’t think it would like caffeine #or maybe idc who knows #the best solution imo is passing out forever and ever and waking up and hopefully being refreshed or smth

[emily-mooon]

Ahhhhh yes a title card. For that one au I said I would write, then didn’t, said I would write for again, then didn’t, then written part of chapter one for and then didn’t finish it on my three days off.

#but I will write for cause hours at work have been shortened for me (fine cause I don’t have bills to pay) #only work one day next week so I’ve got time to write the rest of chapter one #I will use this title card (and maybe more if I make more) when posting chapters #also style experiment with using some colours commonly used in old comics cause I saw a post about it and I liked the look of it #also a bit of the Scott pilgrim art style is in here cause I noticed that my style has some similar stuff in it #stranger things #jonathan byers #steve harrington #stonathan #itakiss au

[kirbyliker12]

This is the deepest I can delve into how I view them n their implications through imagery before it bcomes incomprehensibl 😙😙😙😙maybe I’ll do a tiny bit of elaborating in tags idk(this was mostly an excuse to practice drawing dranzas head)

#kirbyliker12png #dark taranza #taranza #Susie haltmann #parallel susie #man there was Barely any info on dark taranza🥸poor guy I miss him(not really) #nyway I have no idea on how da dark mirror works (nobody does really) #I don’t even know what the mirror even DOES #why does he look so similar to magolor soul they can’t just do that #is dtaranza like. taranza if nobody was there 2 help him n if he just turned to a path of loneliness for what he wants #(taranza voice) wow if I wasn’t surrounded by the beauty of nature n friendship I’d probably destroy the world to bring joronia back😋😋 #IDK ik it doesn’t make much sense but😏I love taranza having world ending potential #not in terms of ‘I’ll use this EVIL artifact n it’ll use me’ but in’wow dis guy is so op good thing he’s on your side ahaha’ #also I reely lauv how her dads demise is entirely suzys fault #the Japanese version specifically says she wanted to ‘make him pay’ #so she really did intentionally want him to get a bit hurt #she’s also more emotionally vulnerable in the aftermath instead of going ‘ermmm this wasn’t calculated🤓what a nuisance!’ #instead of taranza where it’s more like unlucky Suzy is entirely the problem and she knows it #oh yeah parallel Suzys hm well it’s kinda endearing how she still treasures her dad #even though the Suzys ditched their pin #I don’t think original Suzy has a likeable personality n that she’s aware of it but can’t do anything to change it #AGH it’s l8🥸why do I always post at night anyway #oh man can’t wait for da morning where I find how messy these thoughts are

[eyenaku]

wip - is gonna b like a colombian death/burial mask combined w filipino sun motifs 👍🏼👍🏼 (for my honours exhibition next year) RARHHHHH 🇵🇭🇨🇴🇵🇭🇨🇴🇵🇭🇨🇴🇵🇭🇨🇴🇵🇭🇨🇴

#eyenaku #is ceramic and I’m gonna cover in gold lustre #bc I don’t have time/resources to learn metal working :( #but also bc I feel like it reflects myself more while still paying tribute to my bg #yk? #hence this eyes too #funerary customs make me go bonkers #wip #ceramics

[sunflowerpieivan]

Well…I think it won’t do any harm to post this here. I thought that one my avatar is not good enough so I decided to draw something new, so here it is, little chibi (?) bear Ivan.

It looks so clean in comparison with my usual drawings :’)

#hetalia #aph #hws #hetalia russia #aph russia #hws russia #well I just can’t stop gaining myself new hobbies so I just trying to start streaming kinda #some vtubing stuff.. #so yeah this is what it’s for #I know that maybe it’s not good to make bear Ivan my avatar but this is just how I feel #and it makes me feel more comfortable less nervous I think #…don’t pay attention

[melrosing]

anyway in an absolutely wild turn of events I think I’m free of my hideous job and like. substantially richer for it??? lmao 2023 you really owed me

#ok so this a lot of personal shit but I’m just gonna incredulously vent into the tags #like I don’t even know how to describe what 2023 in this job has been like lol #since April they’ve been insulting and scrutinising and scapegoating me over absolutely everything #they were really angling for just firing me outright for never measuring up to their constantly shifting and increasingly bizarre goalposts #and it got so personal man they kept insisting that it wasn’t but my god #then my dad gets sick and it suddenly becomes awkward for them to keep insulting and overworking me #so they switch to just ignoring me entirely so they don’t have to reckon w what me and my family are going through #like they never ask how he is or how things are going just every Friday they say hey do you reckon you can take more work on again? #and THEN I get a gut infection and suddenly im being guilt tripped for taking sick leave and pestered for evidence #it was giving like ‘we had to give you time off for your dad but now you’re taking the piss’ #to the point I DID reach out to a third party at the company and was like ‘I’m sorry but why the fuck are they treating me like this’ #and she was like ‘confidentially this is disgusting and I advise you to report it’ #WHEN SUDDENLY I get back from sick leave and it’s like ‘the business is falling short so we have to make some redundancies….’ #and now they’ve had to pay me a SUBSTANTIAL sum to fuck off!!! I think I win??? #like I was so close to quitting but thank god I didn’t because now I’m getting a sweet deal to fuck off with no notice lmao #i leave end of the month #at first I was shocked like y’all really doing this now??? but suddenly I’m like. this is the best possible thing that could’ve happened #I spoke to that third party again and she was like ‘I am so happy for you’ like omfg it was a curveball but we’ll take it!!! #I’m fucking outta here and in due course I WILL be writing on glassdoor how fucked they are

[lucifersgoodboyinheaven]

ugh, it would be so hot to have some dude pay for my testosterone and teach me how to be a true man and make a workout plan and nutrition plan for me …

I don’t knowwww just think it would be pretty hot and cool and nice

#goodboy.txt #definitely not making this post bc I just ran out of testosterone and literally can’t afford to get more #so I have to stop and I don’t like that at all #forcemasc #force masc #pay me to be cute

[applesandbannas747]

actually i think I am going to be a dick about this even though it's possible I'm being unreasonable. I think it's shitty to post art from behind Jo's paywall unless it's art you commissioned. Otherwise, you are denying her income from posting and/or posting something someone else bought, which sucks a little

#jackshit #fence comic #it just feels so personal when we are such a small fandom and she is such a small artist--l think Jo deserves better #and i get that not everyone can afford to pay for her patreon/kofi but that's why only extra stuff is on there #so you dont miss anyhitn big by not paying #but by making and posting the extra content she can make some more money from people who do have the disposable income #capitalism sucks but steal from walmarts not small businesses yknow #and yeah im also butthurt but her art means a stupid amount to me and when someone else gets to post what i requested before i do #it upsets me a stupid amount #yell at me if you disagree i might delete/change my mind I don’t know but it b u g s me so much and has for years

[ravenpureforever]

This is random but like something that gets me about VegasPete is how they parallel the other relationships in such an interesting way.

Because unlike the other two relationships, Vegas and Pete get to leave the mafia behind.

Kim finds light in Chay, and it forces him to embrace the darkness of the mafia he’s been running from.

Kinn and Porsche find light and happiness within each other but they are now so entrenched within the mafia world that they can never leave. Kinn will not leave his father, Porsche will not leave his mother or Kinn, they are bound to the mafia and won’t leave.

Chay can’t exactly leave behind his brother or mother either, and even if he’s removed from it, he’s been kidnapped once, he’s been targeted twice, he’s tied to the mafia, he’s not going anywhere.

But VegasPete? They get to leave, they are willing to leave and they are happy to be gone. And it’s such a fascinating narrative choice how the couple that started off the darkest is the one that embraces the light and the one with the most innocent meeting has the saddest ending.

There’s something about how being confronted with the unapologetic truth of who someone is from the beginning, messy and raw and cruel and bloodthirsty, allows for a later tenderness and honesty and growth.

VegasPete are arguably the darkest couple, and yet they get to leave, they get to be embraced within the light, they get to be together, away from everything else, they get the lives you know Kinn and Kim wish they could have, and it’s such an interesting narrative choice.

The softer the meeting the more brutal the ending and the more brutal the meeting the softer the ending, and how could it go any other way in the world of the mafia?

#look I don’t often pay that much attention to VegasPete because Porsche and Chay are my boys #but that doesn’t mean I don’t have thoughts on them #and they play such a fascinating role within the narrative #and how the softer the meeting the more brutal the ending and the more brutal the meeting the softer the ending makes me insane #I got a lot of thoughts okay #kp meta #kinnporsche meta #vegaspete #kimchay #kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #kp the series

[chitaquagirl]

feeling dire

#definitely mostly pms but also other things . SCARED!!! #lots of stuff happening to create Perfect circumstances for me to have a very bad time #and generally. i am FAR more prone to depression than anxiety but atm i am a ball of nerves #meds on back order. Scary!!! makes me feel like i need to ration my current supply (i rly don’t) #SCHOOL. RLY SCARY. didn’t go to class today. So many assignedments to work on and they just keep piling up!! #need to meet w my prof abt research. SCARY!! bc i have been slacking like crazy 🫠 #and the biggest anxiety inducer. Money!!! which is DUMB!!!! bc objectively i don’t need to worry!!!!!!! #but unexpected thangs are in motion so i am having to pay > $700 more than anticipated a month #which again. this is manageable. Not ideal but given my jobs i can handle it #i just wasn’t expecting it and now feel very out of sorts #since i was a little kid ive had this weird truly unreasonable and irrational anxiety abt money #and this is unfortunately triggering a lot of that again #which is bad bc it makes everything else spiral. ex. need to save -> buying less groceries/policing what i eat -> ed relapse #just feeling very very stupid and upset 🥴 #pers

[athetos]

If this job interview at the MRI clinic next week doesn’t pan out it’s still okay because my manager said he’s proud of me and he’s requesting I’m promoted to team lead and I’ll get a raise on top of the one already in the works!!!!!

#we don’t even have a team lead position at the moment but they’re making one just for me :3 #also because we REALLY need one for when my manager is out and he’ll be out for his granddaughter getting born #at the end of the month #it will have a bit more responsibilities but I can handle them especially for the pay increase #I feel kinda bad cuz I have 2 coworkers who have been here a lot longer than me #but they have zero customer service skills or can’t use technology at all….

[littlecutiexox]

.

#your number one priority as an employer should be making sure your employees are happy and work is being done #how do people think its okay to start a meeting with ‘due to everyones paycheck not being certain next month’ #like #fuck #thanks thats not putting any anxiety on to me at all #they started going on about redundancy #i think you don’t qualify for redundancy unless youve been there for 15 years #the oldest member of the team has been there for 5/6 years max #how is everyone in the team not meant to freak out exactly? #people have rent to pay #sorry besties im freaking out #mega sucks too because i was massively enjoying this job and finally found myself excelling expectations #like really i live month to month and i am not the only one #how are we meant to live? #i better start applying to jobs #this makes it soo much worse that i refused the other job offer i had 2 months ago because i was most likely going to get promoted soon here #noww theyre most likely shutting the entire business down #sheeeesh #update i was wrong #redundancy pay is if youve been employed for more than 2 years #so thats 4/9 team members that can get redundancy pay #ive only been there 8 months #but at least others can get redundancy pay for a couple of weeks

[phoenix-rising-starbird-one]

German punctuality means everyone is on time except the fucking train. Except that one time you have to catch the train and it leaves right in front of your eyes. Two minutes early! Fucking gotta love this place.

#there are times I hate it here #I really wanna get my driver‘s license but I’m holding off until I have 100% confirmation that I can stay here #cause I’m not paying €2000 when honestly I have my American license and had that one since 2008 #with my renewal expiring in 2030 #I’m also still not sure if I want to stay here #the benefits don’t always outweigh the bureaucratic hell this country is #and I’m simply not making any friends here #I’m really not sure if coming here was a mistake #I know I know I gotta give it time #but honestly #I can part with everything I have and live with very little and maybe I should’ve done that #maybe I should’ve tossed everything and start somewhere where no one knows me #I don’t know #I just know I feel more lost here than back in Hawaii #and maybe that makes me ungrateful #to what I have but I am very VERY miserable here and I know it’s not just an attitude issue or me #I feel lost and alone and just don’t care for anything here other than my sister.