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purplesurveys · 3 years

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The last person you kissed treat you right? Nah.

Would you be shocked if the last person you had feelings for texted you? I’m not interested in anyone; haven’t been in a while.

Is this upcoming year going to be a good one for you? Ugh, I dunno...I feel like 2021 was already such a peak. It’s scary to place high expectations for the next year because it’d obviously be a bummer if it ends up sucking. I can only hope it would be even just as halfway decent as this year.

What if you had a baby with the last person you texted? Biological impossibility aside, it would cause such a stir in the office, I presume. It would also be a big mistake, considering I don’t feel anything towards her and so I’m just not sure how large my commitment would be to the new life being formed.

Who knows your biggest secrets? Well most of them are with Gabie, unfortunately. Thankfully she forgets easily so I hope she doesn’t remember most of them anymore.

Do you care if people hate you for no reason? I care in the sense that I would find it laughable.

Are you in a good mood? Um I think I’m just neutral today. I recklessly took three cups of coffee yesterday and I’m still recovering from what feels like the world’s worst hangover, but I also like that it’s the weekend...idk, there are many elements that are either good or bad that make up my mood today, so I think overall I’m just meh hahaha.

Were you single on your last birthday? Yes.

Does it bother you when people respond with one word texts? Not really, unless it’s meant to be a response that warrants more than one word.

Have you ever ran from your own parents? I had plans to run away before, but until now I can’t actually tell if my feelings then were genuine or if it had just been an angsty puberty lashing-out thing.

Are you afraid of clowns? No. Is there someone you are dying to see? Any of my friends.

Do you have any hickeys on you? No, it’s been a while.

You just won $100,000, what’s the first thing you would buy? A new phone because the LCD on mine is B U S T E D as fuck.

Are you currently looking forward to anything? Getting my next paycheck lol. I allotted most of my last salary for other people – three birthdays (Angela’s, my mom’s, my sister’s – why are there so many Virgos?!?! Hahaha) and chipping in to help my dad for an unexpected plumbing issue that came up at home – so nearly none of it was left for me. Fortunately the rest of the month will be far calmer so I don’t intend on touching my next pay lmao. Is your hair long enough to put in a ponytail? Yes. I always want it to be long enough to be tied in a ponytail.

Is love worth fighting for? Yeah, I still believe so. The last time I did, it was just for the wrong person.

Is there anyone you wish you could be spending time with right now? I want to be with Angela, Reena, and Hans so we can watch the entire Memories of 2020 together :( I’ve been watching it by myself so far (I was the only one in our group who bought a copy lol) and it’s just not as big of a blast.

Will this Friday be a good one? I’m not sure yet but I know for a fact I’ll still be relieved since it will be a Friday...

Could you picture yourself getting married and having kids? Yeah but the image gets blurrier as the days go by.

What is your current mood? Dizzy from my coffee overconsumption; annoyed because I have OT work to do today; calm thanks to the cold and cloudy weather.

Did the last person you kissed name start with a J, C, B, I, R, S, Q, L or A? No.

Who last poked you on Facebook? Is that still a feature? I genuinely have no clue but I also don’t know if anyone ever did poke me. I was extremely introverted back then and wouldn’t have been a target for poking.

Is it harder to be rejected or to reject someone else? Be rejected.

What did you fall asleep thinking about last night? I went to bed with the biggest headache in the history of headaches and with a nagging desire to try throwing up from the three cups of coffee I took, so I was actually feeling extremely worried as I was trying to turn in hahaha. I had the worst scenarios in my head.

Who is someone who puts up with you no matter what? Angela. I actually just thanked her for it yesterday, since I was feeling emotional with the one-year mark of my breakup coming up.

Last person to call you? A delivery rider asking for directions to my house, as always.

Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me?” Yes.

Do you like to take walks? The need comes up rarely.

Were you happy when you woke up today? Not really. I was just nauseous.

When was the last time you cried? Last night. I was in the middle of a weekend work meeting over Zoom and...idk, a bunch of emotions dropped down on me all over a sudden as I was reflecting on the breakup. I could hardly concentrate on the meeting and I’m pretty sure I was on the brink of a panic attack, but thankfully both my cam and mic were turned off. I just let myself cry. I was feeling every emotion at once, I think is what happened.

Can you honestly say you’re okay right now? Yes.

What are you planning on doing after this? I wanna look for another survey to take.

Will tomorrow be better than today? No, because tomorrow will be Monday, and I’m never excited about that.

Is there a girl you would do anything for? Sure.

Is there a boy you would do anything for? Sure.

Who IM'ed you on Facebook last? Reena.

What were you doing at 4 a.m.? I was wrapping up my Rhythm Hive session and also feeling the increasing discomfort of my migraine.

Have you ever liked someone who treated you badly? It was way beyond like.

Are you a jealous person? Hmm, sometimes. I feel envy more often than jealousy, though.

Are you someone who hates to read? Hahaha yeah, unfortunately I’ve turned into such a person. I wonder where my love of reading went. :(

When was the last time you went in the car past midnight? February when I went to a bar with friends and we wrapped up way later than I thought we would.

What was the last thing you ate? That would be breakfast; and earlier my mom prepared fried rice with omelette, eggplant salad with salted egg, luncheon meat, and dried fish.

Who was the last person to text you? Kata.

How is your hair? Funny you brought this up...I was playing with my hair while we were streaming mass awhile ago, and I plucked my first-ever white strand of hair :( Needless to say I’m freaking out and feeling existential about it lmao.

Could things possibly get any better? I definitely read that with Chandler Bing’s voice in my head lol. < Hahaha now I did, too! Anyway, yeah, maybe a little.

How important are looks to you? It’s up there.

Is your hair longer than your shoulders? No, it sits exactly on my shoulders.

Who would you like your next “fling” to be with? I’m not looking for flings.

Were your last two kisses with the same person? Yeah, but those last two kisses were well over a year ago.

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months? Nope.

Do you have trust issues? Now I do.

Do you have alcohol in your house? Yeah I still have several bottles of soju and beer left in the fridge. My parents also have a couple of bottles of white wine but I would never touch that lol. I believe we also still have that bottle of JD somewhere in the pantry.

You’re locked in a room with the person you last kissed. Any problems? None on my end, only because I stopped caring forever ago.

Have you ever kissed someone who smokes? Yep.

If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you? Sure, that might even end up being fun. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months? I lasted nearly 15 times longer than that, if my mental math is correct.

Did you ever kiss someone with a tattoo? No.

Think back to October, were you with someone? Not anymore, but October 2020 had been a major grieving month.

#survey #surveys

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finderskeepersff · 5 years

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It’s weird that I’m going back home, I mean it’s for the weekend but still. I’m so happy to be here and away from home now, probably the best thing my mother ever did for me was to kick me out. Cassius picked me up when I had nothing and I will never forget that, I will never forgive my mother for that because she wanted me to come back and beg and say you’re right but she’s wrong. She is very much just wrong about everything, nobody knows the real Cassius but I do and that’s what matters the most, that’s all I care about and honestly I don’t expect things to be perfect but right now it’s perfect for me. I was supposed to go to my mom’ home on Friday night but I came home, I realised that I’m still playing catch up with the cleaning since being back last week, Cassius needs his things and that’s what comes first so I woke up a little early today and got things out of the way, did some of the ironing and then cleaned up a little. I made food for him so he don’t go hungry, also it’s my way of knowing if he does stay inside. He’s been pushing it a little though, I wouldn’t say he stays out late but he comes back about one or two in the morning and I know to him, that’s early but he comes home. He knows I don’t sleep without him, picking up his boxers from the side, he can’t complain he hasn’t got anything now. I know he still has things at his home but he has a lot of clothes here now which I love and I do honestly love doing things for him “are you going to wake up?” I said as I walked into the bedroom, I swear I woke him up before I left the bed “Cassius” pulling open the top draw “I’m awake” he said groggily “if you want I can always drop myself off at home, I don’t mind it” he said he wanted to drop me off “anyways I washed your things” closing the draw “wake up” walking out of the bedroom, hopefully he wakes up.

Placing the pan back in the cupboard “you not eating?” Cassius asked, shaking my head “I ate cereal but it’s ok, I don’t mind cooking for you. I just wanted to say, you have lost so much weight, I’m so proud of you” walking over to him slowly “really?” Cassius looked up from his plate “yes, but I do miss your fat ass” kissing his cheek “thank you babe, love you too and this omelette is nice” I find him so cute when he’s just woke up, a knock on the apartment door “expecting someone?” I questioned, nobody knows where we live, I mean my friends do but still, they would tell me “nah” walking around the table and towards the door, a knock at the door again. I did a little jog because clearly whoever is here is inpatient, “hello?” I shouted from inside “it’s Lloyd, Sofia” I was not expecting this “ok” what even is he doing here “who is it?” Cassius shouted “erm, Lloyd!” I shouted back “put some sweatpants on” he’s walking around in his just his boxers “mhmmm, what does he want” Cassius sounding less then impressed, pulling open the door “come in” I am shocked he is here “uh yeah, I just gave it a week and thought I would come down. Exposing myself, hi” Lloyd said, looking behind me seeing Cassius just stood in some sweatpants without a top “hey, come” Cassius walked off, he is so sexy my man.

Sitting down at the dining table “you want any drink?” I asked because I’m nice like that “no, it’s fine. I just wanted to give you some space, even at work. Ivy has been off there, I thought back to what happened. I am sorry, from the bottom of my heart I am. I say a lot of things but I don’t like to hurt anyone, also I admit I have spoke about you to Ivy, I said Sofia is looking pretty, more pretty now she is happy. I maybe overstepped the mark, she assumes I fancy you but I can look, but that is not the point, Cassius I like you as a friend. I don’t want to lose that. I’m sorry” looking over at Cassius as he contined to eat not saying a word at all “when ivy said again, what was that supposed to mean? I did hear that” I forgot that was said “because I told you, I spoke on Sofia and she didn’t like it that I did. But honestly I just want to get with you guys, I want to say sorry. Ivy and I aren’t getting on currently which makes me sad but I came here to apologise. Sofia I do respect you and I promise you I do. I mean honestly I do find you pretty, you always have been but I talk too much and clearly pushed it” I want Cassius to forgive him, I think he is sorry about it “Lloyd it’s fine, it happened but Ivy not so much so. She provoked me, she wanted to hit me and that alone is fucked so Ivy can just do whatever but it’s fine Lloyd, you apologised twice now” I smiled a little “Lloyd I do forgive you also, just don’t speak on me to ivy and I do hope things get better with you both” I do hope she is ok.

I feel sad, even though I’m not going far but I don’t like being away from Cassius “do you actually forgive him?” Folding my dress into the bag “are you using my duffle bag I use to transport things” Cassius pointed out, staring at him not saying a word because why not “maybe but tell me, do you?” I would like to know if he was telling the truth that he was “yeah, I’m over it. The poison in his ear was Ivy, she wack. You can forgive her but I won’t and that’s on you, I won’t ever judge you if you was to forgive her” poking my lips out, thinking on how things turned so sour between us. I’m glad she is not at work currently because we sit together “I guess, she I’ll need to apologise to you. I was thinking I am going work Monday and will be leaving from my mother’ home. Should I just drive myself there?” I think I should “I suppose but I will, I’ll wake up early for you” or he will be awake still, there is something in me where I do feel as if he will be out “what exactly will you be doing anyways? While I’m gone?” Zipping the duffle bag up “sweet freedom to be me!!” He spat “ha,ha,ha very funny. You’re going to miss me” I pointed at him “nothing really, just relax at home” so he says, he lies to me “ok Cassius, also you better keep this place clean. Like I left it” he won’t clean, I know him “I will but don’t let your mom brainwash you either. I’m not a bad guy” I cooed out “baby don’t say that, I know” bless his heart.

I find it so sweet that Cassius goes out of his way by actually dropping me off, it’s like he wants to do it and it’s like he wants to always spend time with me and I love it “are you keeping this car?” I am all here for this Range Rover “erm, not really why?” this has to be the most beautiful car I have been inside “I like it, keep it” I am wondering if he would, Cassius held his hand out to me “you want me too?” placing my hand in his “I do yes” he loves holding my hand “I will then but I was thinking, what do you think to getting a new car? I know a guy, you just need to give your old car in, no more money you need to spend” here he goes “Cassius no and also I have money left on my car payments so no, but thank you. You’re always thinking about me and I love it, I love you” feeling his lips press against my hand “Cassius, if you do go out. Please text me, do not lie to me because that upsets me. You make me worry, and I did notice the smile you had on your face when I said I was coming here. I will never forgive you even when in death!” I spat, Cassius laughed “why are you like this, trust me Sofia” he says that then he lies to me. I know he does it because he doesn’t want to upset me that he is out there.

Home sweet home, I thought I would feel happy to be here but I feel a little anxious, I am anxious on seeing my mom. It’s been weeks, she kicked me out so this is awkward. Even seeing her at the hospital, everything is just so scary to me “ok so text me if you need me or if you want me to keep you warm in bed. I will climb your window” I deep down know he will “I will baby, and I cooked some food and put it away, so please don’t be hungry” stroking his cheek “I won’t, call me if you need me” leaning over kissing his lips “I love you and I will, also I may just catch a cab to work and then you can pick me up” opening the car door “no, I will do it. I don’t mind, love you too bub” him and that word, I grinned wide “it’s ok, I will let you know anyways but be good, keep the apartment clean” I pointed at him, closing the car door and opening the back door “stop worrying, have fun and relax. Don’t let your mom upset you too much ok” grabbing the duffle bag, smiling at Cassius “I will miss your face, bye” moving back to close the door “Sofia! Sofia!” Leyton shouted, where is this boy shouting me from “my sister is back” turning a little, seeing like four boys on bikes with my brother “hey, I came back to see you” he got off his bike “I just come to eat some food, I am hungry. But you’re back” his excitement and happiness in his eyes make me so happy “I am, let’s go inside” hugging him “who’s car is this” Leyton touched the car “leave it, stop touching his Range Rover” moving Leyton’ hand “is this your sister?” one of the boys said “she is one fine person” I don’t even know these boys, turning around “damn” they seem a little older than Leyton. Waving at Cassius through the window as I walked to the home, he blew me a kiss and I felt all giddy inside.

I inhaled deeply, my mothers cooking. She is cooking for the god’s I can smell it “are you back forever now Sofia?” Leyton said behind me, placing my duffle bag on the couch “no, I am going back but I am here now, come here” waving him over “you know what, I have missed you annoying me so much” hugging Leyton close, he held me ever so tight “I miss you too, I have nobody to speak too and mom is always angry and stuff. I am always late for school too” I knew it “why?” moving back from the hug “because I have to catch the bus, it’s far out Sofia. And then mom is saying I need to move schools because it’s bad” he is going through it “oh my first born is here” my mother said behind me, turning around “I have missed your face, look at you Sofia” it does make me wonder how my mom can be so normal but yet kicked me out, I didn’t think she would hug me but my mom did “so good to see you and your tan looks so nice, my daughter” I smiled at my mother, she doesn’t know that Cassius is making me happy.

My mother’ cooking is everything and more, I have missed it “so you don’t think you will come back?” my mother asking me the same thing she did last time, she will get the same answer “I am not mom, I am living with Cassius and we are moving to Atlanta to start fresh with him” my mother is about to start, I just knew it “so you both together still?” my mom said “I am yes mom, happiest ever” which I am “he was outside mom! He has a lit car, so good!” Leyton gushed at Cassius car, my man has a good car which I’m proud of “right, so you’re moving away from us? Sofia what about your brother, we need you here Sofia. I have nobody here, I might as well go back to Barbados” she is about to try guilt trip me “what about my happiness? Cassius is my happiness and I want you to stay here because Leyton is happy here mom” she is so stupid at times “is that it? You get pregnant, you move to Atlanta and that is it? Oh Sofia, why do you have to run to a man, he may leave you. I was so hurt to know you lost a baby, you was pregnant and I didn’t know. I don’t want to upset you or make everything so negative but I just miss you. He is taking you away from me” he’s not even doing that, this is on her.

These niggas don’t want to roll in their own car but making me drive around “so how is it in Europe? Are you really like into this girl? Not saying its a bad thing but you seem very much in love and I am like the hell, tell me how you get this potion, I mean it seems like you so happy as shit and I want the potion too” Myles is funny, I couldn’t help but laugh because love is a weird feeling for me “Nigga there is no potion, just happened and I never wanted it. It just happened and it’s the best feeling, I do hate lying to her but she worries too much so I ain’t got no choice but to just lie. That is why I am here in Brooklyn with you niggas. She is at her mom’ home and Europe was ok” riding around in a brand new Range in Brooklyn is asking for trouble, niggas are looking “is this thing bulletproof?” I asked half laughing but deep down hoping it is because we are getting some looks “could be, just pull up at the side of here, I will get the things we need. Then we can go about our way” Kyle pointed out, pulling up at the side of the warehouse.

Resting my head back against the headrest “how long does it take to get shit, he is taking too long” rubbing my face stifling out a yawn, it’s like three in the morning and I am usually asleep, see what I mean. Sofia got me on lock, these niggas know but ain’t going to say shit “you going to move?” Myles asked “yeah, new life bro” Kyle finally came out with two bags full, pressing the side button to open the trunk for him “lot of product there” I am proud of the empire we made, nigga we got bodyguards for this shit. It’s a whole empire but I do think it’s time we stop “I can do a hit today and tomorrow, Sofia ain’t around” the car door opened, car lights across from us lit up “ready” Kyle said, speaking of Sofia “oh” she is calling me at this time “please, just do not speak. On god” Kyle laughed “look at you, my nigga. You shook” answering the phone “hey” I said in a whisper, I am acting here “where are you?” Not even a hi, as soon as I answered the call “in bed” I have to lie “Cassius you need to help me, my brother hasn’t come home. He went out at eight and it’s three in the morning. He hasn’t come home Cassius, I don’t know who to call” placing my hand over my face “Cassius!?” Sofia spat “I am here, why didn’t you call the police? What can I do?” I can’t be fucking with Newark niggas, not doing that “the police don’t care about a black child, that is my brother Cassius. I have nobody to ask, we have no man to help us. I tried already we can’t find him” Sofia’ voice broke, looking over at Kyle he just eye balled me “please do this for me Cassius, please find him” shaking my head “why did you let him go out? Where was he going?” what choice do I have “I didn’t, I came back down and my mother said he will be back in an hour. He never came back, I tried to look but it’s late and not a thing I want to do with my mom. I’ll ask Mitch, he will help me if you can’t. He plays around the area but he’s not around” why now, the car in front of us honked his horn which exposed I am out “fine, just stay at home. Just stay there, I will try my best. Send me a picture of him. Just don’t cry” I can’t say no.

Disconnecting the call “the fuck are you doing?” Kyle said “we are going Newark, strap up” getting out of the car “hell no, Cassius we have to go and do this fucking hit!!” Kyle shouted getting out of the car also “get out of the car!” I shouted, I don’t fuck with Newark niggas and at night it’s never a good thing for us “Kyle don’t fucking piss me off, you either come with me or don’t. My girl’ brother is missing, you either ride with me or don’t ok?” my phone pinged “we set this up, time is money” Sofia sent me a photo of him “or a life, trust me I feel the same way but I don’t want that on my head. She asked me, they don’t have a man in their life and they need it, just strap up. Put on a vest” I am not saying anything will happen but you never know “kid probably sick of their shit, I cannot even deal” I have no idea how I will find him “Cassius, I can get a nigga that knows the street around there” Kyle backed down, I am just stressed right now because honestly Sofia crying upsets me and then the way she said she had nobody, I will try and get her brother back.

#Chrianna #Chrianna FF #Fanfiction

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aliceellablog · 7 years

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*08/10/17*

Sorry I haven’t posted for so long... ironic when you’re not well enough to write your blog about your illness aint it!?!

Anyway, I’m gonna cut right to the chase. Instagram vs real life is such an issue for me. One I probably need to get over…. It’s so hard I don’t know wether I should try and only post positive fun photos and make it look like I’m having a right old great fucking time or to keep it more ‘real’? But then no-one wants to see pics of an ill sad girl and it’ll probably just look like I’m trying to get attention.

I guess this blog is my outlet for now…

I have people who are close to me who tell me that if I post about being ill all the time I’ll never get booked for work or gigs, but then when it comes to my (failing) career as an artist I want to be real. I want to be honest and build a genuine following of people who care enough to join me on the real journey??Answers on a postcard please thanks.

So if you’ve seen the recent Insta posts you will have seen that I managed to go on holiday with my besets friends - genuine yay!I’ve never been away with friends before and could not wait to get ma body in the sun!! Oh that sweet sweet vitamin D!

But maybe I underestimated how tiring travelling was and how hard it would be…

Don’t get me wrong I don’t regret going and there were some really genuinely lovely times - that and I feel so much closer to my friends, but I’ve been back home now for three weeks and I’m just about making it to the supermarket or doing small tasks around the house each day. BIG FAT MEH.

I know I say it a lot but M.E. is so fucking frustrating!!! Because the more you push through and try and go for it the worse you get, so you physically can’t just get on with things- and the pay back is hell.

So on the way there we had the biggest nightmare…. I met Katie, Grace, Tilly, and Nicki at the airport and all was chill- I was feeling pretty shit but not too terrible. We had a bit of food at the Wetherspoons - keeping it classy - and then all went off to get out bits and bobs from Boots, WHSmiths etc - classic airport essentials!! - now… I’ll spare you the details… but I also have Crohns disease, and was not tooooo well!! It seemed that all of a sudden our gate was called… and I was… erm… busy…

I was as quick as I could be (awks), but there is no rushing somethings man!!! We were all panicking on the WhatsApp group and I told the gals I would meet them at the gate… Grace (bless her heart) said she would wait for me - she went to the information desk and told them my situation and asked if we could get a wheelchair or one of those buggy things to assist us to the gate - which of course was the furthest one away!!!

Do you know what they said to her??

‘You have four minutes until the gate closes and you won’t get there in time. You have to go now and leave your friend’ Grace being Grace said no, and waited for me. She tried to explain but they said to her ‘If she’s ill she shouldn’t be travelling’ - THANKS GATWICK - REAL BIG HELP THERE!!

Anyway… I came out of the toilets (why oh why am I selling you all this hahahaha) and found Grace - we had less than 4 minutes to do like a good 10 minute walk.

I don’t think I’ve moved so fast in a long time!! We were proper power walking through the airport and Grace would break into a jog at some points. I was fast trailing behind her shouting ‘just go!’ ‘Go on without me!’ Which of course she didn’t….

Stress levels were ridiculous, and I almost collapsed on an escalator - I sat and G rubbed my back…. After what seemed like a marathon we got to the gate… where everyone was sat chilling and they hadn’t even stared boarding yet. cool. whatever… Then Tilly comes walking up behind us as my body is shaking and I start to cry from all the adrenaline- ‘oh hey guys! you got here quick!’ - yea Tilly… real quick….LOL

By that time my legs were utter jelly and I thought I was going to pass out - very pleasant- but we all got on the plane and were laughing so hard at the messages of sheer panic in the WhatsApp group! We were all SO RELIEVED that we had made it!! I literally thought I had ruined everyone’s holiday!! - oops!! Never eating before a flight again! ;)

So we got to Spain and yet again the airport staff were assholes - I was as you can imagine feeling awful and there was a huge queue to get through passport control- I had my disabled parking badge with me as way of proof (people look at me and just don’t get it) and so Kaite and I asked if there was any where I could sit to wait for the queue to go down or any way we could go to the front. After they’d asked ‘where is the disabled girl?’ looking straight past me, and told me no, we’d had enough and just walked straight through while they shouted ‘Policia’ at us etc…. Luckily the police did not come and we went straight through!

What is it with these people?? Like even if I was a healthy girl who became ill on the plane they should WANT to help someone who is asking for assistance??

They can all get in the bin. End of.

So next was the drive (thank you Nicki for driving on the other side of the road for us all!!) to the villa and then we were there! Bloody exhausting.

The gals all then went out for dinner and I went to bed and ate a gluten free pot noodle I had packed in ma suitcase. Living the dream I tell ya!

The next day I was feeling pretty awful and chilled all day by the pool - now of course I am not complaining as I am so lucky to have been able to go on holiday at all, but that day, and most of the time actually, it was just a massive head fuck.

How was I was sat by the pool, surrounded by palm trees in the gorgeous sun, yet all I felt like doing was crying. I couldn’t shake it.

I didn’t want to be with my friends and I didn’t have the energy to make conversation, but kept trying and didn’t want to ruin everyone else’s holiday or be a downer.

Some of the time it just felt I was like having salt rubbed in my wounds right in my face. I was surrounded by four other healthy girls doing what I wished I could be.

I guess at home where I can escape to my room, and the fact that they are all at work everyday, it’s a little easier to cope.

But watching them all have fun and go out without me, and drink wine every night etc. was just a bit rubbish I guess.

I’m sure I sound ridiculous but you can’t help what you feel, and that’s what I felt.

The second night I went for dinner with them all but got so unwell I was in tears at the dinner table and got a cab home and left them to it. Fuck sake. (Sorry for all the swearing… just feel strongly lol)

I did improve a bit as the holiday went on, and my god they were all SO helpful and caring - always carrying the sun lounger out to the pool for me, and making me food when I was super tired (great omelette’s Nix!!), taking my suitcase for me at the airport, all that kinda stuff - and for that I thank them all, I must have been such a burden always having to be ‘looked after’ and I hated that. But they were beyond wonderful. Love you all SO MUCH!!

Then Emily arrived for the last few days which was awesome as we don’t get to see her as much now she’s moved out- so that was cool and we had a really lovely day at the beach which I genuinely enjoyed and did feel a little better - oh and I got duck pancakes that day too… nuff said!! :)

On the Saturday we had decided to have our one ‘night out’ -it was really nice to all get dolled up and as most of us are single now there was a lot of banter with the bar staff etc!

But again I was there drinking a Diet Coke and they were there making bloody boomerangs of them cheersing with their champagne glasses and getting drunk. God I am bitter!! hahaha

How do I always end up writing about my long to get drunk on this blog haha…. I just really miss it I guess… It’s hard cos my personality is so full of get up and go and lets go get drunk and dance!!! But instead I get to a club, can’t drink and all I think about is where can I sit down and what time shall I get a cab home on my own.

Wow… I really can complain huh!!!

On a positive note- I did have a dance that night!! Ok it was for maybe like 2 songs and it was more of a side step LOL but it felt really good! … and again…. Bar staff were on fleeek - for a laugh Nicki and I went up and she dared me to ask for his number… which I did…he was like the most gorgeous man I had ever seen!! But he had to get a woman over to translate as he didn’t understand a word I was saying and then when he did give me his number he asked if I spoke Spanish… to which I said no…. Most pointless exchange ever but Nicki and I were dying laughing and then just kinda ran away! I felt 13 again!

Then Grace did a high kick on the dance floor and fell flat on her face - and got glass in her hand. Doh! Oh Grace- your dance moves make me so happy- man I wish I could do crying laughing emojis on here!!!

-Don’t worry, Grace got looked after! After being told she would need stitches by the bar staff, she ended up in A&E but came home a mere plaster

Anyway I am rambling now -

After that night again I felt terrible and didn’t make it out to dinner with the gals but was glad I had made it out in the first place. I sat and ate chocolate watching the sunset instead. All good ;)

Then the journey home of course was pretty rubbish - British Airways you suck balls. - We pre booked assistance on the way home after our first ordeal! But this then meant waiting on the (very cold) plane for another half an hour, then being wheeled to a dark hallway and being left sat there alone (no staff anywhere) for about 45 minutes. We got so fed up that Katie found a few wheelchairs and stole one- I mean if they’re not gonna help we will help ourselves… it was at that moment that the buggy arrived and faffed about for a long time and then took us through passport control etc. LONG. Would have probably been less tiring to walk but then you never know how far it is!

After hitting my head at the train station I arrived home to Sussex where my mum picked me up.

Then HOME!! Oh the joy!! Bed with my cat! YAAAASSSS!!!

Unfortunately the next day I had hospital in the morning but it was to see a consultant I’ve been waiting forever to see who is giving me a trail of some new medication.

I don’t want to get my hopes up so am trying not to think about it but my god I am PRAYING that it might just help! - I’ll let ya know ;)

So now that I am back in London I am back to trying to do small realistic tasks each day and build back up from there. It’s depressing. It’s frustrating. It’s lonely. But it has to be done.

Much love for anyone who has actually read that!!! Means so much and am just trying to turn a negative into a positive - I enjoy writing this and hope that someone in a similar situation might be able to relate, and that someone who has never heard of M.E. might gain a little understanding.

Please get in touch if you wanna chat :)

My website: www.aliceella.com

Insta: @aliceellagram

MWAH x

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nanalikessurveys · 4 years

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A! Do you drink Alcohol frequently? I don’t What Age are you? I’m 21 Do you like Apples? Not really, they are not my fruit of choice Do you believe in Aliens? I’m pretty sure were not the only planet with some kind of life in it Who is your favourite Actor/Actress? James McAvoy. but i like Matt Damon, Leonardo Dicaprio and Jeremy Renner as well

B! Do you like The Fresh Prince of Bel Air? I don’t know what that is

Were you ever scared about getting Bats stuck in your hair? ..no. i’ve never even seen bats Are you always the Banker when you play Monopoly? I don’t think i’ve ever been the banker. it’s been forever since i’ve played monopoly

Do you like going to the Beach? If it’s warm yes Who do you think is the most Beautiful person in the world? My mother C! Do you like Cats? I love cats Are you Charismatic? I wouldn’t call myself that Do you like laying down to look at the Clouds? I don’t do that Are you a pro at Checkers? Noo not at all Has someone ever called you Cheap? No D! Are you more of a Dog person? I’m not, i love cats Do you like Disney films? Yes Do you still Decorate the house for holidays? I don’t decorate my apartment. my my mom does a little Do you have a Dressing gown? I have Do you think Dinosaurs are awesome? Not really, lol E! Have you ever ran up the down Escalator? Or ran down the up one? I have What did you Eat last? I ate banana yogurt last night What’s the most Expensive gift you’ve ever received? I got my first smartphone when i turned 12. so that How do you like your Eggs? Scrambled or omelette Have you ever been so angry you thought you might Explode? I don’t remember, i guess i haven’t F! Would you ever want to be Famous? Not really. not super famous anyway Do you think you’re Funny? I don’t Are Flashing lights fun? Uhh i guess lol When was the last time you Flew in a plane? End of summer 2018 Has a Folding chair ever un-folded and squished you while you were on it? Haha no G! Did you ever wear Glasses, even though you didn`t need them? No Have you ever eaten Glue? Nope Do you Give to charity? I haven’t done that. but i want to someday

Do you think Goats are cute? Sure H! When was the last time you High-fived someone? Forever ago Do you dye your Hair? I haven’t dyed it in ages

Are you Happy with your life? Mostly yes When was the last time someone physically Hurt you? Uhh ages ago Do you always wear a Helmet when you go cycling? I don’t go cycling because i don’t even own a bike anymore, but when i was younger and owned a bike i did wear a helmet

I! What’s your favourite flavour of Ice-cream? Vanilla. or cookies and cream Could you ever live in an Igloo? Nope Do you know what an Icoceles triangle is? Yes What’s the most incredible thing you’ve ever seen? I have no idea Do Insects freak you out? Yes, every single one of them lol J! When was the last time you completed a Jigsaw? It’s ben awhile Do you like Jam? Yes, strawberry jam is the best. or orange jam if it’s with a croissant Tell me a Joke! Noooo

Are you Jealous of anyone? People who are happy with themselves

K! Who was the last person you Kissed? ...my ex Do you have a nice Kitchen? It’s okay Do you like Kiwi fruit? Not really, they just make my tongue tingle lol Do you find Knock-Knock jokes hilarious? Sometimes Do you tend to Keep a bunch of stuff you really don’t need? Yes L! Do you think walking under a Ladder is bad luck? Nah Have you ever been inside a Limo? No Do you really hate Losing? It’s not my favorite. but i don’t midn it usually Do you like playing with Legos? I did when i was younger Do you think you have a cool Laugh? Noo haha M! Did you collect Marbles as a kid? I had some marbles but i didn’t collect them Do you look in the Mirror a lot? I guess the average amount? Do you have a Moustache? No Could you live without Music? I could but it would be fucking boring Do you like going to Museums? Yes, i love museums N! What’s your Name? Nana Do you like your Neighbours? I don’t know them Do you watch the News? No, i prefer to read them What`s your favourite Number? I don’t have one O! Do Opposites really attract? They can Would you hate working in an Office? I wouldn’t hate it but it’s not my dream job to work in an office Are you Open-minded? Yes Do you think Olives are gross? Yes P! When was the last time you made Pancakes? Last week i think Are you wearing Pajamas? Well yeah i slept with these clothes Have you ever been to Paris? Yes Can you play the Piano? Not anymore Do you Pull the door that says Push or Push the door that says Pull often? Not often but yeah i do that sometimes Q! Are you a Quiet person? I am Do you ask too many Questions when you first meet someone? No Are you a Quick learner? Not usually Did you know that Mythbusters proved that a Quack can echo? I didn’t lol Do you know anyone called Quentin? No R! Do you smile everytime you see a Rainbow? Nope Do you listen to the Radio all the time? I never listen to the radio Can you Roller-blade? Not really Do you take a Rubber-duck in the bath with you? I don’t take baths Can you Run fast? Pretty fast S! What makes you Scared? Way too many things Don’t you think Sellotape is cool? What is that Do you get Sick a lot? No, i’m rarely sick Do you still own a Slinky? Not anymore T! Did you like Thomas the Tank Engine when you were a kid? No, i thought he was creepy hah When was the last time you were in a Taxi? 2018 Are you Thirsty? Yes Do you always remember to say Thank-you? I think so Do you take care of your Teeth? I do now U! Do you own an Umbrella? No Do you live Underneath anyone? Yes Do you think hanging Upside-down is fun? Sure Have you ever put water in a rubber-glove and pretended they were Udders? Lol no Do you think you are Ugly? ..yes V! Do you live in a Village? No Do you have a cool Voice? No What’s your Vice? Idk Do you still own any old Video’s? My parents do Do you think you could survive in the Victorian era? Tbh no W! Are you too Warm right now? No, i’m cool now Do you like Weetabix? Noo, i hate it Do you wear a Watch everyday? I never do Are you cautious about your Weight? No, i don’t care how much i weigh, it’s more like how i look like Do you get Worried a lot? Yes X! Do you like to play the Xylophone? Sure Did you ever watch Xena: Warrior Princess? No Have you ever been X-Rayed? Couple times Are you Xenophobic? No Did you know that X is 10 in Roman Numerals? Yes Y! Do you like Yogurt? I love yogurt Was Yesterday better than today? It’s the same Do you like the colour Yellow? Yes How are You? I’m ok Do you Yell a lot? No Z! Do you think a horse painted to look like a Zebra is cool? ..no

Do you know your Zodiac sign? Libra Do you take Zinc? No Did you know that Steve Irwin said to run in Zigzags to escape a Croc? I didn’t. i used to watch his show alot tho

#survey #surveys

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winkonium · 7 years

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작은 국 : A Pocket Sized Jungkook Story

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 (coming soon)

작은 국 : A Pocket Sized Jungkook Story (3)

I woke up at 10:30 AM. I love Fridays. I love that I don't have classes on Fridays. That means I can do whatever I want. I can get to finish homework due next week but now, I can get to spend my time with Jungkook.

When I rose up from the bed, Jungkook was still passed out on my bed, his head resting on my phone that was maybe 5 times bigger than him. He's so adorable, really. "Watch your head, Jungkook." I said as I carefully took my phone from him. His eyes opened for a second but he passed out right after. Cute!

I cooked us breakfast: omelette and some sausages. After, I prepared the table, putting a plate for me, chopsticks, a spoon and the food I made. I even cleaned the mess from the cake we ate last night since we were both too tired to clean.I walked up to sleeping Jungkook and patted his head with my finger. "Wake up, we're going to do a lot of things today." His eyes opened and when he saw me, he immediately smiled then stood up.

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"Do I really have to go with you?" He was sitting on my shoulder so I can hear everything he will say. His voice was even trembling.

I nodded. "Why not?"

"Hmm.." He hummed. "I'm just.. Scared." He was too shy to admit that he's scared but I'm still glad he said.

"You have to come with me, we'll buy some cloth for you."

"You mean clothes?" He tried not to sound sassy but he did sound sassy.

"Hmm, nope." I shook my head with a proud smile. "With your size I don't think I can find clothes that fit you."

"E—"

"Even if I look at the Barbie section." I cut him off. I walked while he was on my shoulders, observing the surroundings. He looked like a tourist. That is if you could see him. I feel like dogs could see him because they would bark at me when normally, they don't. But thankfully they don't run after us.

What I plan on doing today is buying cloths for Jungkook then I'd just get his measurements then sew clothes for him. I learned sewing when I was in elementary. I used to sew for the little kids at church so maybe I could sew for a pocket sized human who is smaller than a barbie.Going inside the mall, I started to look for the fabric shop and when I did, I immediately went off to find cloths that would catch Jungkook's eyes.

"That! I like that!"

"The one over there with plaid!"

"Oh, stripes, yes!"

"Pink would do."

"I like some blue, too."

It wasn't that hard since he was vocal of what he wanted. With each cloth that he liked, I took a meter of each. When I went out, I immediately saw an ice cream stand and it made my mouth water. I quickly went there and ordered a soft served vanilla ice cream with strawberries on top.

"Ahh.." I heard Jungkook moaned at the sight of the ice cream and I held back a laugh. When I eat, I was sneaking a size fit for Jungkook and he would eat it. Basically, we were sharing the food.

"I'm full." He said when I sneaked another for him.

"Are you sure?" I asked and he said yes. Okay, more for me.

"Joo Eun?"

I looked up and saw another friend of mine. "Jimin." I smiled and then I saw he was with another guy. Kim Seokjin.

"Are you alone?" He asked me. As usual, he was wearing a bright smile. You know, the smile that makes his eyes disappear.

I looked at my shoulders and saw that Jungkook's gone. I was about to panic but I felt something at the back of my neck. He was hiding. Thanks for the consideration.

"Yeah." I said, half confident because Jimin's a friend of mine but half shy because Seokjin is there.

"May we sit with you?" He asked.

"Sure, no problem." I said with a nervous smile.

"I'll go order." Seokjin said with a blank expression. Jimin sat in front of me.

Jimin and I haven't seen each other for months though we study in the same school. We were classmates on our first year but when he decided to switch majors, it was hard to see each other. He's friends with Taehyung and Seokjin but just like our situation, they seldom see each other and to bump into them is a huge coincidence.

"How have you been?" He asked me.

"I've been good, thanks for asking. How about you?"

He smiled so wide like a child seeing his favorite toy. "I'm okay. It's nice to see you again. It's been a long time." I agreed. "Are you well?"

"I am. You?"

"I am. I just find it hard to keep in touch with them." Referring to Seokjin and the others. "Today is a good day. I saw Jin-hyung and you."

What. What is my heart doing. Agh. It skipped. No. Stop it, Joo Eun. You're just flattered. I can't help but smile and reply, "It's good to see you again, too."

"I missed you, though." He said as he started to play with his fingers.

"I did, too." I replied then after, there was a tug at the back of my neck. Jungkook. What the hell is wrong with you.

Jimin blushed. God. I didn't know I can make someone blush.

Our conversation was interrupted by Seokjin who sat down with two banana split. He gave the other one to Jimin who said thanks.

"It was your birthday yesterday, right?" Jimin asked, eating a spoonful of ice cream.

I nodded. "I was with Taehyung last night and.. A couple of other friends.." I was careful whether I should say if I was with Seokjin. I'm not even sure if he acknowledges that he was with us last night since I'm just no one and he's like.. I don't know, a king?

"I'm sad I missed it." He pouted, being cute and all. Ugh, I want to squish his face. He looked at Seokjin and nudged his waist. "Hyung, why aren't you talking?"

Seokjin snapped back out of reality and stopped staring at the melting ice cream. "Just thinking about stuff." He still had a blank expression.

Jimin nodded. "Joo Eun.." He said, playing with his fingers again. "Do you.. Have a boyfriend?"I looked up at Jimin and then at Seokjin who looked at Jimin. He was wearing the same shocked expression as I have. I then looked back at Jimin. He seemed shy but he was smiling and blushing. He was still cute.

"I don't.." I answered subtly and then there was a tug at the back of my neck again. Jungkook.

"That's good." Jimin grinned. I felt myself blush but I think we're taking too much time. I need to go home for me to finish Jungkook's clothes. I reluctantly stood up and told them "I need to go.."

"Not too soon!" Jimin pouted again.

"I need to finish some stuff.." I said. I still want to talk but I have priorities.

"Okay, but, can I get your number?" Jimin asked me and I gladly gave it to him, we both exchanged numbers. I then went off, walking as fast as I can without looking weird.I felt Jungkook creep onto my shoulders again.

"Who was that?"

"Which one?" I asked him.

"Both of them. Which one is Jimin and which one is the other one?" He asked.

"The pink haired one is Jimin and the brown haired one is.. Seokjin." I answered him.

"Kim Seokjin?" How did he know his full name. "You almost named me after him?"

Right..

"Don't mind it." I told him. When we reached my dorm, I quickly gathered the sewing kit I have and opened my laptop for outfit inspirations with Jungkook on my side, standing in front of the laptop screen. He was pointing everything that he likes and I save the pictures. We had like at least twenty inspirations for the outfit and as soon as we were contented, we proceeded on measuring, cutting and measuring.

"What's it like in your world?" I asked him as I was sewing a piece of cloth, trying to turn it into a plaid shirt. He was sitting on a small mountain of cloth.

"It's fun." He answered. He was smiling.

"Tell me more." You know, if I'm going to live with him for the rest of my life, I might as well get to know him.

"I have six hyungs there but we're not blood related but we live together. Hmm, I also have a couple of friends there." He said.

"Do your hyungs have owners now or is it just you?"

"Joonie-hyung and I were sent away at the same time. I don't know about the others." He seemed a little gloomy when he spoke.

"Do you feel.. Lonely without them?"

"Hm." He nodded. "But I was told having an owner is good and that I'll be happy here as well." He beamed a smile at me and I smiled back.

"Can you still visit them?"

He nodded. "If I go into the mug."

"Well then, I'll make sure to keep the mug on my desk so you can go there anytime you want. But tell me before you go so I won't be worried, okay?" He nodded again. I was now done with the first article of clothing I made, a white cotton shirt. "Try this on." I handed it to him.

He took it from me and hid behind a pile of books. He quickly changed to it and showed it to me when he was done.

"It fits me very well!" He was so fascinated that his eyes lit up. I stopped myself from screaming because he's just so cute.

"I'll make you pants." I said and grabbed a denim cloth then proceeded to make his pants.

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We finished at 7 PM. I made sure to maximize the use of cloth so we won't have to worry about anything. We both were hungry and I presented to buy some food outside. Jungkook agreed for me to go out while he cleans up the tiny messes we've made.

I made my way out of the dorm only to see a pink haired guy standing in front of the gate. "Jimin?" I ran to him, surprise that he's standing outside.

"Joo Eun." He smiled that beautiful smile. "I was hoping you'd answer the phone.."

What. I checked my phone and he had 5 missed calls. "Ah, Jimin. I'm so sorry. I was doing something."

"It's okay." He nodded and then handed me a paper bag. "I brought you dinner."

I blushed. Thanks to the orange street lights, my blush isn't visible. "Y-you didn't have to.."

"But I just did." He playfully rolled his eyes and I finally accepted it, taking it from his hand."D-do you want to eat this inside?" Why am I stammering? I only stammer for Seokjin!

He seemed delighted. "If that's okay with you." He seemed quite hesitant but we eventually went inside. It was already clean. How can Jungkook clean that fast with his size?

"Can you like.. Prepare this? I'll just go clean up my desk if that's okay." I told Jimin and he agreed. I made my way to my room, looking for Jungkook.

"Jungkook?" I whispered through the room. I searched my shelf and my bed but I can't see him. "Jungkook!" I whisper shouted.

"Over here." He whispered back. Following the voice, I found him near my lamp on the desk by my bed. I walked over him. "I'll stay here until he leaves."

"Are you sure?"

He sheepishly grinned. "Yeah. He might freak out if he sees me."

He's right. Pocket sized humans aren't still a thing nowadays.

"But what about you? You're hungry."

"It's okay, I can wait."

I smiled. "Okay. Thank you. Stay put, okay?" I said and then left to head over to Jimin. He was sitting down already, ready to eat. I sat in front of him and he handed me chopsticks.

"Let's eat?" I nodded but before I could grab myself some food, I grabbed another plate and put a little amount of food there.

"What's that for?" He asked me.

What is it for, Kang Joo Eun? "It's for my neighbor's cat." What the hell. "It's cute and it likes to eat..?"

He chuckled and seemed to believe me anyway so he started to dig in on the noodles and the chicken. I put the plate aside and finally ate. "I was going to get some food but I saw you outside."

"I was actually going to knock but I saw you walk outside." He grinned. Park Jimin.. Park Jimin is always smiling. I've never seen him frown except when Taehyung accidentally cracked his phone two terms ago but that was when we weren't that close. When he's with his friends, he can highly tolerate it.

"Thanks for the thought, Jimin." I smiled.

"I've always thought about you, Joo Eun." He said shyly and I had to stop eating because I was shocked at that sudden confession. "It was so frustrating how I never got to see you again after I switched to another program. I can only see you having a good time on Facebook and I badly wish I could be there."

Oh, gosh. What do I say? I wish I could say I thought about him too but I haven't. If I'm going to be completely honest, Seokjin was the only guy I've had feelings for ever since I stepped in this school. He's my biggest crush but why is Jimin making me sway?

"I'm not expecting you to say something, though. I just want you to know that I constantly think about you." He said. I sighed in relief internally that I'm not obliged to say something back.

"It's nice to see you again, Jimin." I said. It's the truth. I'm glad to see him again.

"Good to hear that." He said. We ate in silence and then when the clock struck 9, when we both were done eating and everything was clean, he was ready to go home.

"It's nice seeing you again." He said for like the hundredth time. "Let's catch up soon?"

"Sounds perfect." I said with a smile.

"I'll call you." He said before leaving, leaving a mark of his smile on my mind. God, Jimin.

Jungkook.

"Jungkook!" I yelled, grabbing the plate with food from the table then ran to my room. He was still there by the lamp but I caught he was folding his tiny clothes. I need to stop internally screaming.

"Joo Eun-noona!" He cheered and drooled at the sight of the food. I went to him and placed the plate on the bed. He sprinted to it then began eating.

"Sorry it took long." I said. I grabbed a pillow and leaned on the frame of the bed. It was taking him so long to reply because he was so busy with the food. He was holding a noodle with both of his hands and munching on them.

"It's okay. It seems that he likes you." He replied after he finished a noodle.

"What makes you say that?" I asked and I have to wait for another three minutes before he could reply.

"Can't you hear what he was saying?" He rolled his eyes. "Can I just eat and discuss this tomorrow? You've already made me wait so long." I laughed in response and didn't answer him and just let him be.

Park Jimin likes me? I mean, okay. He was vocal right there when he said he misses me and that he always thought about me. And he brought me food, too at this time of night. He even asked me if I have a boyfriend. But what if he's just curious about it? And that he misses me as a friend? We're pretty close way back then.

I sighed and just stared as Jungkook ate the rest of the food. He eats a lot, I notice but he doesn't grow? Will he ever grow? I hope not. I like him the way he is.

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