#don't know why

[aboutescapism]

enjoy the silence II | ao’nung.

ao’nung x fem!sully!reader

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synopsis: Ao’nung’s words had hurt you, but his contradictory actions hurt you more. You realize your mistake in your idea that you’d be a good match, but it may have already cost you your life.

genre: angst.

contains: more pining from reader, mixed signals, ilu riding. mentions of near death experience, suffocation, overwhelming feelings. ao’nung literally being so confusing. requited love after all?

a/n: welcome to the second installment of enjoy the silence! the first part ended up being posted two days earlier than expected (the last time i ever schedule a post) and still needed scenes added but, i’m so happy you all loved it so much anyway! i tagged everyone who asked to be tagged. thank you guys so much for the support!

The morning after Ao’nung had said those things to you by the shore came quickly. After he had stalked off, you went back to your mauri, purposely taking the long way home to be with your thoughts for a while. Did you read his signs wrong? Was he even giving any signs to begin with? Or had you been clouded with the illusion of being a perfect pair that you hadn’t even considered how Ao’nung felt?

Your siblings could feel your slight sadness when you arrived back, but no one had questioned it much, save for a few, “Feelin’ alright?”s from your father. Moving to Awa’atlu had affected everyone, they had felt the overwhelming ache of homesickness every once in a while, they understood you were feeling down. If only they knew, your once source of happiness was now your source of distress.

Despite that, you weren’t angry with Ao’nung. Not at all. You understood where he was coming from completely. As the future Olo’eyktan, he needs to protect his people. That means protecting them from humans, and your family had brought that threat. If anything, it’s natural for him to be hostile towards you. That didn’t mean it didn’t hurt. But you were resilient.

You just had to prove to him you were more than what was running in your veins. 

Today, like the past few days, was filled with training. Ao’nung was paired up with you, again. You felt uneasy at first, not wanting to make him more uncomfortable with you. He gave Tsireya a look, almost begging to switch partners. She only rolled her eyes and smiled when you reached them.

He must’ve told her how he felt about you, or maybe she had heard his harsh words to you last night. Either way, you’re sure she smacked him upside the head for upsetting you. Tsireya took a genuine liking to you, and she may or may not have been doubling her efforts in winning over the Sully family due to her liking of Lo'ak. 

Once all together in the shallow water, Ao’nung began to call to the Ilu. Almost immediately, they swam up and circled him. It was mesmerizing, watching him call them so effortlessly, how they swam up to him so fondly. 

“These are Ilu. If you want to live here, you have to ride,” he explained. You were excited, you had little trouble claiming your Ikran, surely this is no different.

Ao’nung faced you, pointing, “the demon girl will go first.” Your eyes widened, suddenly intimidated. But, you had to show him you weren’t just some forest girl with five fingers.  

You swam up to an Ilu, petting it. It clicked at you, nudging you affectionately. This creature was so gentle, so sweet to you. Your Ikran was nothing but the opposite when you claimed it; squawking loudly, attempting to throw you over the edge of the cliff. You gained some confidence from its gentle demeanor, and climbed on top. Tsireya and Ao’nung swam up beside to keep the Ilu still and allow you to make a bond. 

“Make the bond, and hold here,” Tsireya gestured to the handle. You pulled your queue from behind you, bare, pink nerves ready to make a connection. You took a deep breath and made the bond with your Ilu. Suddenly, you felt its being as whole, as a part of you. You felt its breath, its fins, how strong it is, how eager it was to swim with a new driver. 

“Breathe from here, remember. Hold your breath when you dive, the Ilu is fast. But it will know when to go back up for air. It feels you, you feel it,” Ao’nung placed his hand on your upper stomach like he had done when training your breathing. You gasped quietly, not expecting such a gentle, forward gesture from him. Especially not after last night’s exchange.

Your golden eyes made contact with his, your brows furrowed in confusion. Hadn’t he just reprimanded you for just merely existing? Now he was touching you so delicately, like you’d break from too much pressure. Had last night really just been a bit? Just a teasing joke? Maybe he didn’t hate you after all? 

His mixed signals made you feel fuzzy, your brain suddenly so confused. The Ilu felt it, too, and began to thrash around from the uncertainty you felt at Ao’nung’s touch. He removed his hand from you, much to your disappointment, to calm the Ilu back down to stillness. 

You shook the thoughts about him out of your head, you had to focus. “I’m ready, I can do this.”

“Start slow, don’t hurt yourself,” Ao’nung’s tone was firm, but worried. Perhaps he did care for you.

You took another deep breath, and went off into the water. 

You started slow, like Ao’nung instructed, getting comfortable with being pulled through the water by the Ilu. Gradually you sped up, gliding through the reef with ease.

The rush of adrenaline that flowed through you only made you more and more confident. The beautiful reef had you hypnotized, you felt so much while being wished around the glowy underwater plants and animals. The swirl of colors dizzied you in only the best way, leaving you in awe.

You reached a hand out to brush against the foliage as you flew past it. It was so soft to the touch. It only reminded you of Ao'nung's.

What he said greatly hurt you, joke or not. The contrast of his words then and now was so confounding to you. And with the thought of him back in your mind, you became tense, now losing your focus. You lost your balance on the Ilu along with your secure grip.

This thrashed you around some, but you could regain your composure. Unfortunately, it was proving difficult.

You underestimated the force of the water. Your grip on the Ilu faltered more with the ever growing speed. You couldn’t keep up, the pressure was too much. The rush of the water was now pulling you back, straining your limbs. Dreadful fear filled you when you realized, inevitably you’d be knocked off and sent into waters you weren’t familiar with at all, with animals and creatures you’d never interacted with. 

You had underestimated the difficulty of riding an Ilu, just as you had underestimated Ao’nung’s impact on you. It was all too similar.

At first, you’d been confident and blinded by excitement. Excitement of meeting your seemingly perfect match. Excitement of trying something new. You weren’t careful, not assessing the situation completely before you dived in headfirst.

You didn’t take Ao’nung himself into account, how powerful his actions, his feelings are just as the water’s force is on your body now. Oh, how your impulsivity ricocheted back to you, but ten times stronger. Whiplash from Ao’nung’s mixed signals and the rush of the current you’re trying to push through. 

You had to let go, you realized. 

You had to let go of the Ilu before you hurt yourself. You had to let go of your delusional idea of yours and Ao’nung’s relationship before it drastically hurts you. Or him. You couldn't bear the thought of hurting him, in any way.

He didn’t feel the same, he never would. Spiraling down this idea would only complicate things more. You needed to let go.

With that, you took your grip off the Ilu, ripped from the back of the creature and sent off into the water. 

Your breath had begun to ran out and you were so far down, clouded with thoughts of needing air and needing Ao'nung. Neither would come to you soon enough.

Unbeknownst to you, a pair of azure eyes caught sight of your descending figure before it was too late. He couldn't bear the thought of you being hurt. The thought alone was what was driving him to swim to you faster.

Ao'nung needed you, too.

taglist! @maxiel4life @aonungmyaddiction @awkward-halfhug @bratsukisworld @bigdikzaddy @iheartamajiki @adaiasafira @holysaladapricothero

#girl #i was so shocked to see it got over 300 notes #also some of the tags r not working #don't know why #so sorry LMFAO #ao'nung x reader #ao'nung angst #ao'nung series #aonung x reader #aonung angst #atwow #part three coming kinda soon? i have some stuff coming up but its already in the works!

[rayukiriver]

Made some redraws at last!! So relaxing really, just LOVE drawing faces and emotions. But why are all brows so frowned? Except for Kurenai, she's the only one. I'm a little broken after all these frowns x)

OH OH and fun fact: i learned about thing like Hairline after i saw Shikamaru when i was like 11 and after that i started paying attention to it. He's some sort of a teacher for me x) And i tried at that time to redraw this picture of Sakura but was unsuccessful (i think i did tracing(??) of it after my defeat, but 'm not sure, maybe it was only Temari)

i wish i had it in me to draw some of them fully, like with line and colour and everything, but i just know they won't be that good in the end so meh

#Who knew drawing Naruto would be so HARD #damn boy why? #though i like his eyes on the first one #and IRUKA?? #it was a Pleasure drawing you sir #was surprised with Sakura considering I'm not really her fan #but i think she looks beautiful and i'm satisfied #and she really has a big forehead under that protector and it makes me so proud! #don't know why #and just a reminder: i love Kakashi #thank you for your attention #Naruto #Sasuke #Kakashi #Iruka #Sakura #Ino #Rock Lee #Kankuro #Shikamaru #Orochimaru #Tobirama #Genma #Kurenai

[greenko]

He’s a nice guy, really. He just cosplays Shigaraki from MHA sometimes :)

#lifesteal smp #mcyt #roshambogames #this sketch is so messy #like many others #because drawing is a PAIN #and many tears #btw my ro is something like a doll #like his hands and maybe body #don't know why #sometimes i do weird shit #and my friend

[erigold13261]

"Crybabies"

Sad little goofs

#jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen #jjk hanami #jjk jogo #jjk dagon #jjk mahito #eriarts #no matter how hard i try #i can't draw a non detailed hanami #don't know why #i can get super undetailed for all the rest #but not her #lol

[nikdwings]

Oh Man! Never expected so many people linking my first Trolls fanart ahahaha Thank you so much!! 💙

Here is Bitty B enjoying some time with his brothers

#fanart #trolls 3 #trolls #trolls band together #brozone #john dory #Branch #Spruce #Bruce #Clay #Floyd #brothers #family #perfect #oh what a surprise #me drawing siblings #I think it's cute trolls carry the babies in their hair #don't know why #it's cute #Trolls hair #are oddly relaxing to do

[pensat-i-fet]

#ruben dias #second one looks weird #don't know why #we move on

[verk0my]

SARUMAN THE STINKY

#it's stuck in my head today for some reason #don't know why #but at least I'm having fun in my brain #gandalf #saruman #lotr #lotr meme #tolkien #text

[cerine0357]

ZangHian Wie

"Hopefully you're good with reading my eyes cause I'm not good with words.."

@macrylys @histxricaldrama @nyrwve @dxmoness @bertry3 @lombxrdi @achy-boo @honeyandbiscuitandtea-cafe

#navi⌗oc⌗writes #yandere oc #yandere oc art #my favorite oc #ocs #yandere oc x reader #yandere oc x y/n #tw yandere #yandere oc x you #yandere male #he is still having a pussy..... #don't know why #ask the person he's based on...

[notafraidofredyellowandblue]

Why is no one talking about Richard's beach run in Mein Land? Hands all flailing 🤭

Because well.. (gif from post by @mstrnsrvnt )

and

what more is there to explain 😊

besides, some of us tend to focus on some other stuff 😇 (gif from @mstrnsrvnt too)

😊

#mein land mv #one i don't watch that often to be honest #don't know why #not my nr 1 fave song i think #rammstein #richard kruspe #and a bit of #paul landers #paulchard

[endlich-allein]

Till 🖤 (Moscow, Russia, 28-11-2004) © tci.ru

#fucking arms 🤤 #i am obsessed with his arms #don't know why #till is love 🖤 #till lindemann #rammstein #rammstein 2004

[kestrelteens]

I have some spoooooky stuff in the works to celebrate the beginning of October 🎃

#sorry for the lack of cc #and anything #i've just been very busy irl #and quite unmotivated lmao #don't know why #but i hope the spooky season will bring the motivation and the inspiration

[gildeddlily]

1/1 Fandom: Spider-Man: Spider-Verse (Sony Animated Movies) Relationships: Miles Morales/Gwen Stacy | Spider-Gwen/ Hobie Brown Additional Tags: HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!!!, making fun of whoever said that there was gonna be a love triangle, Pre-Poly, Bisexual Miles Morales, Bisexual Gwen Stacy | Spider-Gwen, Bisexual Hobie Brown, it's the spider gene, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Everybody Lives, Silly, Random & Short

Summary:

🕷 Admiring someone was normal, right? Watching them just do and talk and laugh and yell, thinking "Fuck, what would I do to be them". Ganke would have told him that it was normal to admire someone, but that staring at someone as if they were the only source of water in an endless desert might not be admiring. Miles would have ignored him, as now he ignored Ganke's voice in his head. or being young and through puberty, real puberty, is hard. Even more when you only seem to know hot people, who can play instruments 🕷

#don't know why #but here I am #posting this #help #into the spider verse #across the spider-verse spoilers #spider man across the spider verse #miles morales #gwen stacy #spider woman #spider gwen #hobie brown #spider punk #punkflower #plus gwen ig #THE LOVE TRIANGLE WASN'T REAL #if you think there was one #you're too straight for being real #bisexual pride #pride month

[doortotomorrow]

CHOOSE YOUR WEAPON - Echo kom Spacekru

#The 100 #Echo kom Spacekru #Tasya Teles #the100edit #don't know why #but I've been in an Echo mood these days #I love her so much

[partnering-diluc]

If you headcanon Diluc as Aroace, that's cool. But you do know that not all Aroace people hate romance and dating, right?

I'm Aroace and I like romance, really like otome games.

I just don't want to date anyone. But I do know other Aroace people who want to experience dating. To them, it's more like hanging out with a friend rather than being in a date.

Some want to experience intimacy without any romantic feelings. They want a lifelong partner who would kiss and cuddle with them. But they don't want to have romantic feelings.

Also, I prefer Demisexual Diluc rather than Aroace Diluc, but that's just my opinion. And you should respect people's opinions. :)

#diluc #diluc ragnvindr #aroace #I headcanon Kaeya as Aroace #don't know why #I feel like he's the type to date someone he's extremely close with #like jean #he also doesn't strike me as someone who's lovey dovey and into romance

[nonsensetime]

#I remember I had a terrible headache when I made this #don't know why #collar x malice #shiraishi kageyuki #kageyuki shiraishi #cxm

[flowerandblood]

#it actually works #sometimes #don't know why #being a writer is a mystery to me