#don't look at my account please y'all are scaring me

[troublesh00terfaery]

BELOW 18 PLEASE DO NOT INTERACT. THIS WORK IS NSFW! KEEP OUT!

[THIS WORK IS PURELY FICTION]

[One Shot] (or not, thinking of making a part two for this)

[Alhaitham x AFAB! Reader]

Words: 6.8k

Synopsis: ah well, experiments can quite lead to either expected results or something unexpected. don't you agree?

Tags: AFAB! Reader, teasing, breeding (we doing it raw for him), voyeurism, just kinky sex with this man what else? anal, creampie, a looooottt of sex, making a movie with him, well guess it's valentines for you this night with him :D

A/N: I'm gonna have to be honest with y'all, this smut made me realize I still have my unholiness within me and it's HOLY WEEK! anyway, starting to question if I should make a part 2 (seriously thinking this is okay as a one shot). Let me know in the comments. I'm also thinking of making a playlist while you guys read this, will probably open a yt account very soon as I have already have the list of songs! did not thoroughly proofread so my bad.

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Being a student under the Amurta Darshan wasn't a joke, and the other Darshans can say as well with their respective schools. Before graduating under their respective house, one must comply a special research in order to finish. Of course, being an Amurta student, research isn’t new to you nor to them as well considering the demands of research in the biological and medical field is rising.

Recently, a type of fungi has emerged in the rainforests of Sumeru. It was a great variable for research, yes, however with little to no information with regards to the new species of fungi, one must analyze and observe the organism intricately. Some of the Amurta students felt overwhelmed of studying something unknown and new however the new biological specie sparked interest in you that gathering and studying it wasn't of a big deal considering the Sage has given the graduating students time with their research.

You took the interest of how this mushroom might affect an individual if consumed. Very cliche however if taken into a researcher's perspective, it isn't. Considering of the possible harm this specie might cause if ingested. Nah, it didn't scare you. You just happen to be that curious considering of the hearsays you often hear among the localities. Peculiar, most of them saying.

It would appear that it does somehow look like a sea ganoderma that is abundant in Inazuma that bloomed near the beaches and shores however these fungi have bloomed in damped areas in the deep forests of Sumeru. The color of this fungi might be different from the usual ganoderma as it was the color of light purple. It did somehow secrete a transparent and mucilaginous fluid with a sweet odor.

Quite a strange description that even at times you smile whilst gathering its viscous fluid for examination.

"Are you even sure about this one? You're genuinely scaring me." Kaveh, who happens to be your closest friend and a student from Akademiya under the Darshan of Kshahrewar, was one of the test subjects for your research. He is a year ahead of you, making him your senior.  "Am I your lab rat again?"

"Not just you, I'm also going to drink it myself to test it out and see if there are any notable changes or changes in an individual if one drinks this concoction."

You watched your boiling flask create boiling bubbles and watched it disperse as you used a stirring rod. "Don't use the word 'lab rat' that just sounds so unethical."

Kaveh's scared and nervous demeanor was obvious that he took a deep breath before he went off ranting.

"What am I supposed to call myself? What am I supposed to do if this weird witchy-like potion of yours kill me? Kill you? KILL US?! goodness research is inevitable among us students but this is jeopardizing us, my dear Y/N!"

"It won't!" You snickered and tried to comfort him by keeping a straight face. "Besides I did try to use it as an alternative fertilizer and spray it on my Sumeru roses."

You pinpointed a pot just below your study table. "It quite bloomed quickly and as you see. It did sprout new buds in almost 2 weeks only so I can write in my observations that it can be a great fertilizer if used."

"It's a plant, Archons sake! It looks lewd too!"

"It is, I will not lie!"

He drew his nose closer to the fungi. "Strange but it does smell good, sweet and flowery. For a fungus, it is weird."

You spent your afternoon trying to convince Kaveh to say yes to your research. In the end he eventually said yes to you as you have persuaded him that it was safe. Both of you agreed to drink it after two days and another follow up take in of the concoction to see if there are any differences.

Two days have passed and it was the time to finally test out the mixture you have prepared. Along with you was a small briefcase that was filled with your apparatuses needed. Of course, like they say: it's better to be prepared. At exactly 7:00 in the evening, as agreed by you and your friend, you must meet him at his house.

Or his friend's house rather.

Of course, you were aware that he was indeed a freeloader inside nonother than Alhaitham's house but he assured you that during that time the Akademiya's scribe isn't present during those times considering that he's been busy the past few days.

To you, there's nothing special about Alhaitham. Rather than being the scribe and an introverted Haravatat student.

Well, he's quite good looking and somewhat that annoyed you. He somehow did radiate as someone with god complex and if ever the end of world happens, he's gotta be one of those people who will AND WILL survive.

You have arrived 10 minutes early of the said time but it seems that Kaveh is late for 10 minutes. Until it became 20 and 30 minutes late. At first it was bearable however you couldn't waste time anymore. You wanted to finish your research just like any other students.

"I can't believe he's pissing me off. He told me he'll be early." You stood up and knocked three times.

"Kaveh? It's me. It's already 7:30 in the evening and you're not opening the door. Open it!" The annoyance dripping from your tone like acid.

You knocked again. No response.

Another four more knocks and calling his name. No response.

Fuck, Kaveh what's the matter with you? Come out.

Another final succession of knocks and still no response.

You gave up attempting to knock and call his name. It was either: he was just hiding from you because it did genuinely scare him or he wasn't really there. But he couldn't lie to you, you both agreed to testing out the mixture.

"Alright, whatever. Loser."

Heaving a sigh, you stepped back from the door and murmured a few words before accepted defeat and just before you walk away, you happen to stumble something strong and tall from behind and you could immediately tell that it wasn't Kaveh. Your head against a chest.

You slowly lifted your head and greeted the face of nonother than Akademiya's scribe.

"If you knock like that, you'll surely destroy my door." He lowered his gaze to match yours with a rested expression.

Oh, it is indeed Alhaitham. It is indeed him. Him. Oh.

Oh...

Neither of you moved from that position for a while, both of you matching the gazes before you realized it was awkward and slowly lowered your head and made way for him and pretended to idle yourself by fixing your skirt. To be fair, he is really THAT attractive.

He ain't just gifted with intelligence but he knows he is THAT good looking and attractive.

"And what does this Amurta student doing in front of my house at this hour?" His arms slowly sliding to his pocket to get his keys. Tone monotone before skimming to the key for his door.

"I'm here for Kaveh." You took a grip on the handle of your case.

He opened the door and only answered 'hm.' Uninterested. He shifted his gaze at you leaned his toned body against the frame of the door.

"Did he somehow invite you here?"

You nodded and met his gaze before breaking it off.

"We both agreed to meet here."

"I assume it's for your research. Well, come inside. Don't want Kaveh to nag at me for not entertaining his visitor."

You came inside shortly following him. Upon entering, you couldn't help but to scan the house. There's nothing special to mention aside the paper works piled up in a table and scraps of paper under a desk and certain apparatuses that is used for measuring you assumed. It seemed to be Kaveh's side of table that it has be him, it was chaotic.

Closing the door, you immediately sat and primed yourself up in an not so familiar place. Alhaitham sat at the sofa just in front of you and observed you from head to toe before he inhaled. His back relaxed against the back rest of the sofa.

"So... out of all the possible participants you could've chose, you really picked him?"

"I don't see a problem a problem with him being my participant."

"And why is that?"

"It's my research, I get to choose who I want to be my participants."

He wasn't so sure if you were insulted by his questions but it did amuse him by the way you answered him directly with a soft tone.

"Sadly, he's not here."

"Seems so."

Both of your eyes now met and neither of you wanted to break it off. Seems like you already knew how bad your chemistry will be with him by just this interaction. Silence surrounded the room, not a single flinch from neither of you but the eye contact creating this tension between you and the scribe was barely tolerable that you wanted to break free from the contact.

But he didn't show any hesitancy to break off the connection of your gazes, in fact he would want admit he would see this as competition. It wasn't evident in his face but the way he cocked his head slightly to one side just showed how much of cunning asshole he is but it was attractive in a way, of course you couldn't deny it. Being cunning just adds to the list of attributes that just makes him attractive.

Uh well, yeah…

In return, you gave him a soft doe-look and a small smile. The scribe only gave you a small smile in return. Come to think of it, if waiting for Kaveh to return would be a waste of time for you and precious research then why not make him your first research?

"Say, considering that my friend is not here, how about you take his place instead?"

He raised his brow and crossed his arms. "Friend? and here I was thinking that you were dating. But he did mention a close friend." he scoffed.

"Hmm, people often think we’re dating but we’re not." you scoffed and let out a single giggle. “Kaveh’s good looking himself.”

"You're saying you're not good looking then?"

You gazed at him, smile wearing off before you pressed your lips together. "I didn't say anything."

You pressed your legs together as your hands clenched the hem line of your skirt. You lowered your gaze and tried to divert the topic. Your eyes went to look at your small briefcase.

With you little movements, he finds himself smiling at just how fragile yet collected at the same time you looked like. How you pressed those lips of yours that has the tiniest shine probably from your lip balm and the little tint of color pressed unto your plump lips.

'Cherry red? No probably that Tangerine wine... impossible. Peony red? Champagne pink? Too strong. Dewy peach? What else did I see from the market that sold those kinds of...balms'

"Ah, as I proposed a while ago, you can take Kaveh's spot." You paused.

He gave you a look to continue by giving you a small nod.

"It's about these fungi that out of nowhere grew at the rainforests of Sumeru. It was estimated to have grown two to four months ago where the weather condition was harsh yet perfect for cultivating these fungi to grow..." you got up to get your briefcase and showed him a glass box where the specimen of the fungi was stored.

You showed him the glass box before you slowly and carefully dragged one of the chairs to give the box a better and closer view to him and sat properly with an excited look. The expression you made just made him smile in the back of his head.

Just the way your breasts that hugged your white turtleneck sweater coordinated with every movement you made and how your thighs look plush as you sat at such...rather unconscious provocative manner. There's so much about you that keeps him wondering about you. What would such a girl, an Amurta student like you, keep this Scribe fixated at you. You were just, innocently charming that he couldn’t resist the thought of him doing--

‘What am I thinking, this is wrong’

"As you can see, it does look like a-"

"Sea Ganoderma, local from Inazuma. But the color is different, yes." He pulled the chair you were sitting just enough to be close to him, not breaking his gaze from you. Attentive.

 "I can't see if you move your hands much. Stay still."

Now again, both of your gazes have started its connection again only this time it was closer. The gazing and whatever the fuck it was with your eyes and his eyes, it gave pause and silenced the whole room. The sudden closeness has made you tense a bit that you were taken a back.

"Okay?" He looked at your surprised, lost, and doe eyed look that made you look innocent.

You responded with a small nod and a sheepish tone. “’Kay,” a tint blush forming in your cheeks.

He didn’t move to his usual position. He stayed like that exactly and gave you a signal to continue with your details by him giving you a small nod. At first, you were hesitant considering the space he ate up just to get a closer look to you and the box you had. But you didn’t have to waste time so you went on with your detailing.

You described to him its delicious scent despite having a peculiar anatomy. You showed him your paper works as to the recorded data of how it also affected the Sumeru roses you had in your room.

“You conduct laboratory observations in your room?”

“What? the biology laboratory is already packed with students with their specimens. It might affect mine as well.”

“And you think that your room couldn’t affect the variables then? Hm?”

Furrowing your brows, you scoffed. He was indeed correct. The location was indeed part of the variables to be considered that might affect the status of your fungus. That was one of matters that you missed out and it somehow annoyed as out of the person that could’ve corrected you, it would be him.

“Seems like you missed some points to be noted for your research then, Miss Y/N?”

You stood up, randomly gave him the box, and took your briefcase to get to concoction you prepared. You didn’t see any need of explaining the details to him, seems like he already knows your stuff. You showed two him two test tubes with the same length of the concoction. Alhaitham observed you.

Your back facing him as you tend your mixture into another separate glasses. His right-hand skimming through the edges of the box, fingers delicately feeling the edges and surface of the box and not taking his eyes off you. There again, his curiosity taking over with just the sight of you that it somehow intrigued and annoyed him. He slowly opened the box and there he smelled the pungent smell of something gourmand and flowery and yet something of earthy at the same time.

He couldn’t understand what smell it was but somehow it was lulling him.

The silence slowly rang your ears and the pressure between the time and how quiet the room is made you feel heavy. You felt yourself jittery that after a while of his presence and darting eyes from behind you. The night was windy and you can only hear the slow chimes of the door charm and the gentle tings and tacks of the glass. A few moments have passed, you can only hear him grunt and clearing his throat.

“Is something the matter?” You looked at him only to find him resting his left hand to the hand rest of the sofa, palms covering his face whilst his right hand toying the box and seems to play with the lid of the box.

“How’s the smell?” You took each test tubes and went over to him, sitting at the same seat you were just in front of him and took a deep breath. “Now all you have to do it drink this concoction with me if there are any notable changed it will happen to a person who ingested it. Don’t worry, like I said you’ll be drinking—”

“Are you serious? This already makes my head ache, the smell. You think I’ll drink that?”

“You’re drinking it with me. I only need the data.”

He looked at you, his brow raising. “What makes you think I’m going to drink that.”

You looked away, not knowing what are the possibilities too. If you ever come up with using the data of plants, he’ll find an argument just to cease your experiment. You held unto your test tubes and faced him. Doe eyes showing desperation and pleading.

“Please, Alhaitham. I’ll do whatever you want. I just need the data…” You didn’t care at this point, you’re never the type to agree to doing whatever the person wants but if it’s Alhaitham, well there would be no problem at all. “Please?”

Looking at your little parade of innocence and desperation, he couldn’t help but to hate himself by letting his inner thoughts run through his system. The way you held the test tubes on each hand of yours enthusiastically a while ago and how you lowered it down to rest to your thigh. How your thumb caressed the glass surface, how your lips pressed before biting your lower lips in frustration causing it to darken its color. Your eyes asking for an answer, and voice soft.  You looking so irresistibly delicious to pounce at.

Just you, being this little sweet lamb that he couldn’t just resist.

“Please, Alhaitham. Please?”

Fuck. Fuck is happening to me?

“Fuck this.” He cursed under his raspy breath, clearing his throat yet his brows furrowed. Before he adjusts himself in his seat by leaning back and bucking his hips up. “Look, at least if there is any possibility that we will die, at least I die with you and your silly little experiments for your silly little research. Got it, you silly girl?"

The enthusiasm back once again in your face. You smiled at him and nodded a couple of times. You instructed him for a few reminders to take note. The two lines that were labeled in each glass signified the amount of mixture was to be ingested.

In a count of 3 you both drank together. The smell of the concoction was lessened however its scent note was still there. Both of you didn’t move, your eyes focusing on the paper and your pen. Alhaitham on the other hand is busy with minding his books.

A few moments have passed a slow tingling heat started to surge in your body. The heat surging inside your body was slow yet everywhere. At first you thought it was just your sweater so did not pay no mind however as time passed, you realized that it starting to get warm and hot. It was making your head dizzy and sweat. You tried to cool yourself by fanning with your hands.

It was a cold evening, a reason why you wore your turtleneck to warm you up yet it seems that it's getting a little hotter. You started to fan yourself with your palms. From fanning yourself to using the loose cloth of your polo neck to fan your chest loosen up. Everything happening right now wasn't anything you expected to be.

Ways... ways... ways... ways to distract myself... what is this? I need to distract myself? Is it too hot here?

You suddenly remembered the paper you were supposed to fill with the initial observation of the first dose of the concoction. Upon looking at it, you felt lightheaded and almost felt like you were slowly floating.

While you were drafting random bullshit in your paper, Alhaitham on the other end felt the same sensation in your body. He was either thinking it was the effect of the pungent scent of the fungus or the mixture you just gave him. His head started to spin and a surge of heat in his body roamed his system. A storm inside him that just felt that it would never end nor calm down. He needed to compose himself, a simple concoction cannot just simply make him feel bizarre.

Alhaitham wanting to stop the chaos suddenly stood up to find his headphones. At times, he would resort to just playing music in his headphones to block noise or just randomly wear it to make it seem that he's does not want to interact.

He just wanted to have and wear it yet his body betrayed him the moment he stood up. His eyes slowly blurring and his legs felt no life made him weak. Just right after passing by after you, he fumbled. Tripping just the moment he passed at the table, falling. A few of your apparatuses falling included some of the unloaded test-tubes and a single tube with viscous and thick liquid inside spilled at his chest, left arm, and the crotch part of his pants.

"Archons…” he whispered, feeling a pang of defeat as he sat at the floor and tried to wipe the excess mixture.

The commotion startled you as you started to fill up the details of the paper. You quickly took action and assisted the young man. Taking a handkerchief from your pocket of your skirt you started to wipe the mess on his chest.

He was wearing his usual dark off-coat that hugged his chest. You couldn't help to get distracted at the little intricate gem that was in his sternum.

Slowly... slowly... you were being lulled again. Like an effective hypnosis it seemed like you were in a haze that you couldn't understand. You couldn't even control your body. The heat was all over your body.

The way you started to simply just mess up instead of cleaning it was a sign that the aphrodisiac took over your senses. You were so distracted and helpless. Everything about this man in front of you was like a need and a want of your body and soul.

Alhaitham felt the same.

The tension, the spark, the need, the hunger to just own you was evident yet he didn't want to be consumed by it. There was this resistance of him and the more he forced to neglect the feeling, the stronger the urge wave his body.

He felt weak and he didn't like that. It was too much yet you kept fueling the fire that he was suppressing. At this very moment, he wanted to breed and own you. A mixture of aggression and lust now surging.

"Haitham..." you dragged a fingertip to his intricate gem that was at his sternum and pressed your thighs as you dragged, fingertips feeling the shape of his gem. It made him hitch his breath, an irregular breath and a painful erection as he got indulged by your little play.

“Get up.”

No response.

“Y/N…”

“I should’ve known, this was an aphrodisiac. A strong one—Fuck, Y/N.” He threw his head as he saw you press your pretty lips against his gem, pecking it before looking at him with doe-fuck-me-till-i-break eyes.

“Haitham…”

“Get up, Y/N…” his voice croaked “Or else we’re going to have to fuck the whole night.” He cupped your cheek, feeling the heat of your skin.

“Haitham, too hot…” you lowered your jacket until it reached your elbow, exposing the tight turtleneck top you wore that happily hugged your mounds and figure. Innocently provoking him. "...hot" you murmured and held his hand that cupped your cheek. Now the back of his hand slimy with the mixture and looking back at him with lust-heart eyes.

"Yeah, you and I won't be going to class tomorrow."

And just like that?

Just like that. It was enough to push him to the edge.

Sloppy kisses, hitched and panting breathes, desperate rutting, and slapping of skins reverberated his whole room. There was only one thing on both of your minds: to fuck.

"H-Haitham~!"

To fuck until you couldn't do it anymore. Breed and fill you up to the brim until his seed spilled out your tired plush pussy.

Your moans were getting louder and louder as you felt another succession of orgasm reaching to you. A hollow feeling started to build up inside you and his cockhead adding up to the climatic feeling as he abused your soft spongy cervix, desperately wanting to push it further and deeper.

Alhaitham unconsciously made people feel small without doing nothing. It was probably his reputation and how cunning he is, he had his ways just to get what he wants.And now definitely, he made you feel small. His length overwhelming you and your insides. The way it made you feel stuffed and full inside and how he's just towering above you. Hands clasped on your ass and carried your weight was he pressed you against the wall and rutted violently.

He kept his mouth busy by marking your chest and neck and desperately sucked on your peaks. He felt the need to breed you and fill you up with his cum.

The constant hitting of your cervix and the rough ministration made you squirm and groan. Your walls pressuring and pressing tightly against his cock signaled him that you were close. Your legs now wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer. He can feel how wet your spongy walls.

"Gonna cum... Ah~! Haitham! Gonna cum-"

"Yeah? Gonna cum again?" He chuckled. "Fuck-- you're getting too loud- Mhn~!" He pressed against yours as he maintained his pace, not changing it. He felt that he was getting near too and that excited him.

Your walls spasmed and legs trembled as you reached your climax, Alhaitham chucked as he changed his pace before he pulled out making you squirt from the intense punishing of your cunt.

"Haitham—" you hitched your breath, heart beating fast as you squirted again. Alhaitham looked down as he watched you make a mess and that just made him hard enough and drive him to make your squirt again. He violently pushed his cock again inside and started to rut and roughly pulling it out making you buck your hips up and squirt again.

"Haitham please~ oh~!"

 a slower one so you could have your moment before he continued his pursuit to seek his high. He changed his pace again, a faster one. A rough and fast one.

His tip now teasing your spot that made you tremble again. His cock made your pussy sing for a couple of times now. He had been breeding your pussy since and the both of you couldn't have enough, a never-ending high and feeling of wanting to release.

"Fuck, gonna fill you up-" he panted, rested his forehead against yours, making him watch the little show: your pussy eating him whole and forming a little bump as he entered. "Your pussy's the best!"

With one final thrust, he came inside you. Rutting and violently spasming as he filled your abused hole the 4th time tonight.

Time:10:30 PM

Recorded data (written): none

Recorded through Kamera data: none, battery level at 90 percent.

It was the fifth time tonight. Now he's fucking you from behind, your chest and the side of your face pressed against the wall as well as both of your palms. Alhaitham drilling his thick and veiny cock inside your spongy and abused walls. Your moans are getting louder again and he was fascinated the way you just came over and over because of his cock. You kept soaking and drenching his dick with your pussy juice. It started to make sloppy noises whenever he pushed in and out. You started to cream again, forming a ring on the base of his cock.

"You feel so good, Alhaitham~!" You moaned, feeling his tight grip against your beautiful hips and created crescent marks as he slammed his cock back and forth.

"Fuuuck this pussy is mine-- fuck fuck fuck--" he groaned, he took his left arm and wrapped his left palm to your neck and slowly pulled it making you arch your back and head hitting his shoulder. He slowly guided his palm that wrapped your neck to your jaw and continuously rutted. Now you can clearly hear his groans and panting.

He hammered his cockhead again and felt your spongy and plush cervix making him push his cock deeper as he came inside you again. He covered your cervix with his thick cum.

Time: 12:50 AM

Recorded data (written): none

Recorded data through kamera: Data recorded, battery level at 75 percent

"Didn't realize you had your kamera with you." He chuckled turning the camera on as he gazed at your body. Tired and a mess, cum dripping out from both of your pussy and ass hole. Saying that he liked it was an understatement, he loved it and seeing the mess you both made him harder. He realized that the slimy juice that it was a lubricant and the purpose of this fungi was an overall aphrodisiac with versatility.

"Haitham..." You called out his name, hoarse and small. You slowly opened your legs and revealed your aching and puffed cunt wanting for more. Alhaitham on the other hand set the kamera up just enough to get an angle of you and him in the frame together.

"Just for the data." He sighed, hoovering on top of you and pressing his lips against yours. Hands roaming around your waist before he positioned his cock again and decided teasing you. His cockhead teasing your puffy and abused entrance before he guided his length to your clit and gently pressed his head.

The pressure made you squirm and groan from his ministration. A few taps of his cockhead to your clit and a few pumping of his dick before he slowly reached out for your nape and raised it. Your weak body being supported by your wobbly elbows and your forehead against his.

"Put it in…" you hissed at him and brows furrowing.

"Not so polite are we?" Slowly inserted half his length making the excitement in your stomach rise up again and his hips buckle. "Say it, princess."

"Please put it in, please please please~" you plead with look of longing.

With a smirk, Alhaitham slowly pushed his cock inside you and guided his hand that held your nape and lowered it for you to watch him get inside you. He pushed until his head was greeted by your cervix but oh, he didn't stop there.

He slowly pushed further making you moan from the pressure of wanting to push further.

"Haitham--too deep~! Ahh~!"

Alhaitham couldn't resist to smirk while he looked at your eyes roll back and legs quivering. You just got this man hooked with your pussy and beauty.

"Cumming already?" he teased as he started to move his hips in a piston like pace.

Time: 3:33 AM

Recorded data(written): none

Recorded data through Kamera: Data recorded, battery level at 11%

"Too tired, Haitham…" you whined.

You took a pause for a moment as you felt your legs wobble and strain a pain from grinding him. Him buried deep in your ass wasn't on the menu but who would've thought that you both

would enjoy it. You rested your palms on both of his thighs and rested your back against his hard chest and took another deep breath as you started to bounce on his dick again. It was slow yet deep, something that made Alhaitham groan and hiss.

"I know, baby…" he chuckled as he saw you in action again. "…just can't get enough of you."

Talk about having three of your holes stretched out in a single night. You couldn't count how many times have he came inside your pussy and mouth and now he just discovered about the pleasure of having his cock buried deep inside your ass.

"So goood~ So deep~!" you whined, biting your lower lip and continued to bounce on his dick. It was sloppy and it was thanks to his cum and the lube combined together and oh, he loved to see the his cum and the lube together forming strings in your ass cheeks and asshole and making sloppy and erotic sounds each time you bounced on it.

He noticed your bouncing started to slow down until you stopped again, making him chuckle. He kissed your shoulder blade and whispered "Sofa."

Alhaitham helped you stand up and walked towards the sofa where you faced the arm of the sofa and rested your arms on it.

"Ass up," Alhaitham took his cock and slowly pushed it inside your ass again making you moan from stretching your whole with his size. "So b-big~" You rolled your eyes as he let a final push to burry it deep.

A sting left your right ass cheek when he slapped it and groping both cheeks, slowly making a move again. It started slow until it was fast and deep. Alhaitham took both of your arms and held it from behind, penetrating deeper and making you bend over forward.

Balls slapping against your clit making you moan louder. You were so lulled by his dick you didn't even realize that you have classes today. Same goes to Alhaitham and he could feel his climax reaching as well and with one final push deep, he came inside you.

Time: 6:30 AM

Recorded data(written): none

Recorded data through Kamera: none, kamera has shut down. battery at 0%.

"Thank the fucking Archons I have bought my keys-" Kaveh scanned his pocket to check if his keys were really in his pocket which of course is there. He hurriedly scanned the keys.

"Key key key- Archons where the fuck is that key!"

The little commotion just outside Alhaithams abode made the scribe awake. He was a light sleeper, it was enough to awake him since he knew this voice and tone so well it annoyed him early in the morning. Alhaitham was about to rise when he heard your small groans making him look at his chest.

The little commotion just outside Alhaitham's abode made the scribe awake. He was a light sleeper, it was enough to awake him since he knew this voice and tone so well it annoyed him early in the morning. Alhaitham was about to rise when he heard your small groans making him look at his chest.

There you were sleeping. Your once peaceful face grunted when Kaveh shouted another curse and that hit Alhaitham.'

'We fucked.' he said into himself. His brain was somewhat still foggy from last night and he could feel his worn out muscles. He heaved a sigh as to trying to figure what to do with you still sleeping while his roommate is already making his head hurt from his cursing and loud voice. Fragments of what happened last night made him groan especially when he saw the Kamera faced at them. Did it bother him? Well, he simply ignored it. He knew it was down but he knew it recorded some. Probably gonna check it out later.

"We're late for class," he whispered and gently stood up when you were awoken from his movements and the noise Kaveh made. Alhaitham didn't move another muscle and hoped you would just sleep but turns out you were trying to keep yourself awake by rubbing your eyes when you faced him.

"Alhai…" you then lowered your gaze and finally realized that you were in his bed NAKED. "…tham."

"It's okay, you should lie down and rest." he looked at your face before scanning your body. Bruises, marks, flushed face, and…

"my body hurts." you whispered, feeling a bit conscious when he started to scan your body. You covered it with his blanket and looked away.

…sore body. Alhaitham hid a somewhat victorious ghost smile and sat on the edge of the bed, the blanket barely covering his waist. His back was facing you and you noticed

The red marks on his back that somehow looked like a…

"Scratch?" you whispered again with your soft hoarse voice. Alhaitham heard, his right arm reaching his back before facing you. "I thought it was implied that Akademiya students shouldn't have long nails?" he looked at your fingers to see an opal-colored nail polish with your nails with just the right length and round shape which you quickly hid from him.

He looked at your figure again making him gaze at you intently, eyes piercing before he looked away and faced the wall. He palmed his face when he realized his morning wood is up and is in dire need of attention. Morning woods are normal to him every morning but this?

He shrugged off the want to feel your pussy walls in him again but Archons it did want him to feel that again. He stood up and got his brief and boxers and wore it. He took a new off coat from his cabinet and handed it over to you which you accepted. "Or would you like a sweatshirt instead?"

"This is already fine, thank you." you couldn't look at him, he was barely dressed and his body is too beautiful and distracting, stimulating you to think about irrational and unholy thoughts. Pray the archons none of them actually reads your mind.

You took the well folded and newly laundered cloth and looked at it. Your mind was still hazy and foggy making Alhaitham think you actually didn't know how to wear them. He took a sweatshirt from his cabinet and sat beside you.

"Seems like you forgot how to wear clothes I suppose."

"No…"

He didn't listen, he took his sweatshirt. "Get dressed, we're eating breakfast."

As much as you wanted to, you just felt that your body was that tired and just gave him a helpless look. "Haitham… need help. I feel sore."

Another sigh, Alhaitham took the blanket and revealed your body again. Plush thighs with marks, beautiful mounds with marks on your under boobs and some on your waist. Your neck and color bones decorated with his marks. Seems like he enjoyed his self quite too much last night he admitted. He gulped and helped you get clothed.

He then gazed at you.

"Don't look at me like that. Those eyes of yours" clenching his jaw, he looked at you again with piercing gaze.

"Look at you like?"

He came closer to you, gently wrapping his one arm all over your waist and pulling you close to him while he rested his back on the bed frame. He left kisses again on each mark he left on your neck and gently raised his sweatshirt you wore.

You softly whimpered from his actions, eyes closed and hands wrapped on his neck. Just as about he was about to leave another mark…

"Alhaitham open the fucking door, I have something to get!" Kaveh's frustrated voice and loud knocks made you hitch your breath. "Alhaitham! Damn it you Scribe! open!"

"Haitham…" You looked at him but he doesn't seem to mind Kaveh's wanting to break the door. He nibbled on your left nipple and gropped on your right breast while he looked at you. He started to suck on in it slowly and closed his eyes, alternating his sucking from your left nipple to your right.

Kaveh's knocks were getting loud and you were already telling Alhaitham that you should hide but oh, Alhaitham has better plans.

"Dude open the door, Archons!"

Alhaitham stood up and wore his shorts before he gently carried you like a bride as he went to the door. Truth is, you didn't know what Alhaitham's plan was. All he did was give you his stoic look before smiling devilishly while he draped you with his coat. You wrapped your arms around his neck to hold onto him.

Alhaitham finally opened the door.

"Thank Archons you actually opened-"

Kaveh's voice dropped as what he saw. Alhaitham gave him his usual stoic face as he gave you a nudge. You slowly looked at Kaveh with a flushed and embarrassed look.

"Come in." Alhaitham spoke. "Best not to leave your keys behind again." The sarcastic remark from Alhaitham dripping all over his tone.

#alhaitham #genshin headcanons #genshin smut #genshin impact fanart #genshin impact #genshin impact smut #alhaitham smut #alhaitham x reader #alhaitham x afab reader #alhaitham x y/n #alhaitham x female reader #alhaitham x you #alhaitham headcanons #kaveh #haitham #genshin impact alhaitham #genshin impact alhaitham smut #jjk #jjk smut #toji #nanami #gojo #genshin #haitham smut #haitham x reader #al haitham #genshin haitham #al haitham x reader smut #genshin x reader #genshin smut x reader

[catgirl-kaiju]

Messaging you on anon because im a bit scared of how you may respond but genderkoolaid is a transmisogynistic tme person and is one of the primary people behind the transandrophobia push, please dont answer this im not trying to call you out or anything

i looked into this, and the claim seems to check out. i didn't know who ey were, and i'm unaware if i reblogged anything from its account recently. if i did please let me know so i can find it. i've blocked em and y'all won't see em on my blog any more.

y'all please don't be afraid to let me know abt this stuff in the future, and i'm sorry if i've ever done anything to make y'all nervous abt giving me this kind of feedback.

#ask #anon

[x-x-bones-x-x]

If y'all haven't caught on I like to use my account to rant so there's that, regarding TW: Suicidal thoughts, ED behaviors and thoughts mentioned also panic disorders idk if that's triggering to ppl but possibly

Today has been a collosal fucking mess. In case y'all haven't been following along, me and my boyfriend broke up 2 weeks ago exactly. Long story short, I live in a college town, there was a game today, really bad traffic, and he walked right in front of my car and made eye contact with me. I was already having a panic attack because I was literally stuck on one road for 45 minutes and I just wanted to get a diet dr. pepper I forgot it was game day. It took me 2 hours to get home, I didn't even get the diet dr. pepper cause the gas station was so packed. Come home and there's a lot of ppl here, offered pizza I say no obviously. We watch tv and smoke but idk I definitely felt left out so I went to my room. I'm not hungry, I have no appetite but im nauseous. I kinda want to die, I really don't like where I am at rn in life but I also have bpd and that could just be temporary me splitting on shit but im so tired of everything.

Regarding weight loss, I went down .2 from yesterday and plan on reweighing in tomorrow to see if I've dropped more. My thigh gap looked bigger this morning which is nice ig but I still look huge.

I hate my ex, I hate that we live so close. It makes me want to die. No shot I run into him after only 2 weeks. Shoot me like a deer please. At least I have more motivation to starve.

I got scared in the car though I thought I was gonna pass out, my face starting going numb I think from the panic attack and lack of oxygen. Definitely need to get some anxiety meds in my car for future use.

Anyways, later. I have no energy to write anymore. Peace till tmr✌️

#notprojustusingthetags #notpro4n4 #tw self destructive thoughts #tw restriction #tw #ed no sheeran #ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #tw ana diary #tw disordered eating #ana trigger #tw mia stuff #🕯️as a 🪶 #i will be small #i will lose weight #i want to ⭐️ve #⭐️rve #⭐️ving #⭐️ve #anaorexia #anorexica #anorexies #anorexcya #anoreksik #anorexigenic #anor3c1a #i wish i was small #i will reach my ugw #i will be a skeleton #i wish i was weightless

[thegreatgeodo]

Hey Yo!

'sup! If you're here, then that means that you liked my content, i just sortta materialized into your feed, you know me from somewhere else and you specifically looked for me, or you're a fellow gamedev. Whatever the case, i'm just some guy who you can talk to, ask questions (pls do, i really don't mind and i love rambling on my quote unquote 'profession', game lore, or just whatever). I'm not really unique, i don't strive to be, i keep my goals simple and reachable, and yet with all these little projects i'll make it big one day, i hope at least. I'm not very fast to trust someone with things like My IRL face or similars, so please don't expect these from me (except My voice, that shit's all over My YouTube channel). Moving on, this is one of My main forms of logging, along with My youtube channel and whatever the hell i do on the Unitale discord server. Talking about discord, You can find me there as thegreatgeodo as well, i know, i don't have a knack for names. Also! Some more shit bout me

• You can dm/ask whatever the fuck

• I'm there for ya

• Trauma dump if ya need! I'm not the best but i'll help and if it rhymes it's right

• Artist(?????? Not really)

• I love asking why. Why do we fall? Why is that metal ball heavier than that other metal ball when they're the same size? Why do we exist? Where did we come from? Where'd you go when you we're done i'd like to know what you've become your biggest fan awake a ton i'd cry I'd stand on your front lawn it plain to see you're scared of me but that's not how it's s'posed to be when you're the reaaaason i'm in Town nd every piece of mind you put down don't you know i think of the cat's meo-o-ooow Where's the tiger now, Where's the tiger no-o-ooow Bill Watterson can you hear me--

• i ocassionally go off on tangents

• Main and ONLY account. I've had this brought up a few times.

• You can do whatever the fuck in here as long as you're not offending someone. Incite crime? Sure, why not. Arsonpost? Fuck it. Incriminating a guy? ... Maybe yeah. But being rude is where i draw the line.

Edit regarding the kosa law:

Welp. We're potentially fucked. And with we i mean it to trans, enby or generally queer people, i'm sure you know this by now if you've been around my blog, but i fully and completely support the queer community. Every single one of you. I will probably not abandon this place, if i do,

My discord is TheGreatGeodo

I've been told the laws also affect discord, but like, i'm guessing it'll be dramatically less since discord is supoosed to be somewhat prívate. If i do end up feeling too attached to any of y'all i'll give you my phone number but (not to be rude btw) I'm not up for that much of a commitment yet. Allinall, let's hope things end up better

#devlog #heya!

[feybeasts]

Look, it's late and I don't know what it is I can say or if I should say anything at all, but it's one of those nights where I feel like there's a lot swimming in my head and mucking up the whole show so...

I want to say thank you. For accepting me as I am, warts and all.

(Woe, lengthy rambling on my history to follow)

Look, I'm not part of some like- magical old internet old guard. I haven't been doing- or rather- sharing- art for that long. I really only started out a couple years ago, and before that all I really did were doodles, class assignments before I stopped doing any sort of art for a few years when I lost a close family member. Before I really started... getting into the furry scene, being open with who I was and who I am, I was a confused, scared little people-pleaser who would bend over backwards to please folks, to feel like I was part of something not by my own merits, but by virtue of having people to fill the silence- no matter who they were.

Can't tell you how often that hurt me- not a way of living I'd recommend anyone.

Anywho. On a whim, I started doing art again a couple years back, when I first started posting to twitter, and it was through that I started to become a part of the community, as it were- I wrote, then I drew, and I kept drawing. Kink stuff, mostly, because well, that was what I wanted to draw. But I found a community, friends, people who liked me not just because I gave them something, but because I was being myself, a person who, yeah, was a niche member of a niche group in the wide world of internet subcultures, but these were folks who saw me, the unvarnished, not-putting-on-an-act-for-once me and they... liked them.

This was also around the time I really started to address some ooooold traumas through therapy, so needless to say, it was a hell of a time. Anyways.

I can't really describe how much... just, learning I did these last few years. Learning who I was, learning what made me tick. Coming to terms with being ace and that being acceptable, then with being nonbinary, what definition of "me" felt comfortable, felt right when for so long I had neglected even... having a sense of self, hating the idea of thinking about "me" and not my characters or my stories. And all through it, I had friends who were there for me, who didn't simply tolerate, but encouraged through thick and through thin- through them, I learned that the best possible me I can really present to the world is just... me as I am. All my strange contradictions, all my weird little quirks, all my arcane trivia and hungry world-building and little fantasies and dreams and just... all of it.

Goodness knows I'm not perfect. I'm someone who frequently speaks without thinking, acts without speaking, who only sorta grasps decorum and how to at least present a... veneer? of neurotypicality (is that a word? I think it's a word?)- I'm sometimes blunt to a fault, sarcastic to a greater one, and I have a pretty low tolerance for things that emotionally exhaust me- I also don't know or really care to organize a blog so, y'know, my bad there.

But I hope y'all understand that I present myself as I am, as a person who spouts frequent 1 am non sequiturs, a person often hyper-focused on weird little niches, as a kink artist who frequently isn't, simply because... that's the only way I know how to present myself anymore. This is my truth, and to live any other way is just... baffling to me. I know people will do things in some ways, will cut the more... saucy...? elements out of their main account to spirit away on some sideblog, but I present everything as part of one big, messy whole not because I'm trying to deviously foist my interests on others, or... I dunno, deceive people- but because I don't want to live with a mask, pretend I'm something I'm not.

I tag art that isn't to everyone's tastes as best I can, try to respect folks' own comforts and not... muddy the waters(?) so to speak, because I'm fully aware that not everything I do is for a general audience. Hell, it's a big part of why I don't take requests or anything like that, and only depict my own OCs- I know what it's like to be forced into uncomfortable positions by someone not respecting my boundaries, and I think I'd be mortified if I did that!

And sure, part of me wants to justify how I interact with kink art- that I feel it's an avenue to explore my own wants, my own body goals, my own comfort, that, as someone not really... comfortable with a lot of physical affection it's a pretty personal exploration at that, but... at the same time I feel like- well, I leave people alone, why would I need to justify what I choose to share on my own blog? Hell, if you're looking for saucy, I'm sorry to say my art ain't it! I wouldn't know "sexually charged" if it hit me with a fish!

But I think that's broadly beside the point. I guess all this is to say... I'm acutely aware and frequently self-conscious about where I sit in the wider world, that someone out there might get the wrong idea, that I'm interested in anything but continuing to explore my own, odd little brain as I've been doing these past few years with the encouragement of some amazing friends, but broadly speaking, Tumblr and the community here have been awfully welcoming and kind, and I'm just... grateful for that.

I know the internet as a whole can be a really ugly place, an increasingly-corporate algorithmic hellhole, so when there's small bits of good in it, genuinely kind people out there, I feel like I gotta point to it and go "oh hell yes, more of this please!"

So... I'm gonna do that. Thank you all for being the strange, wonderful community you are <3

#fey's drabbles #general talk #lil' venty #but like #positive venty? #i will never use tags right i'm sorry to say

[arolesbianism]

Epic dst age hcs and thoughts under the cut (skipping ppl with canon or basically canon ages (and also other ppl I don't feel like talking abt))

Maxwell: I'm starting with him since he's kind of my age compass so to speak, but of course he's on the older end of the cast. I imagine he's somewhere in his 60s, but he could also be in his mid to late fifties in my minds eye. I personally tend to lean towards early 60s though, like 62 probably?

Wolfgang: having been a full adult (hopefully anyways gmdjdnsh) during our pre Maxwell being Maxwell era, we can assume he's also on the older end of the cast, but perhaps not quite as old, or maybe even older if you believe in yourself. I tend to view him as like 58, but he could rly range anywhere from 40s-60s to me, but technically speaking he rly could be younger, especially taking into account that we don't know when he entered the constant, as that evidently can functionally pause a characters aging with the outside world as seen with Wendy. I definitely wouldn't go below 30 though, he ain't that young

Wx-78: this fucker. This fucker. It all felt so clean after their rework animation, but noooo we had to have a notably young Wagstaff at an event that fucks with the timeline of everything, so now I. Don't fucking know. I'm so scared klei please don't take early 60s Wx hc away from me Im begging y'all-

Wickerbottom: very clearly intended to be the eldest of the cast, I think it's safe to say she's like mid 60s at the absolute youngest. To me she's probably somewhere in her late 70s, but she could easily be much older. Tbh rn klei could pull anything out of their ass in regards to Wickerbottom they could say she's somehow 200 years old and we'd kind of just have to accept it as another unexplained fucked up Wickerbottom thing, they probably won't but itd be funny if they did. Just sequence of historical events with Wickerbottom standing in the background. She's like 79 idk.

Woodie: dude he could be like any age and I'd probably believe it. I personally tend to see him as late 30s, but I rly could see him ranging from late 20s to late 50s, and there's Nothing pointing in any specific age so idk. He can be 38 ig.

Wes: sigh. I don't fucking know. Somewhere in his 20s most likely. I don't like trying to pin down his age in my hcs nothing ever feels quite right to me </3

Wigfrid: this might be a bit older than most probably imagine her, but I've always seen her as a bit on the older end. Not like, Old old, but like somewhere in her late 30s to mid 40s probably? Mayyyybe early to mid 30s. Idk, I know she's an actress so having a successful career is more associated with younger age as opposed to older, but she's always given me big like. Star of a movie franchise that defines the first decade or so of her career in a way that sets her up for failure for the rest of it. Either way, I just cannot see her as being any younger than 30 personally.

Winona: now she's a bit of a tricky one. On the one hand, it should be easy to have a hc age for her since I have one for Charlie. On the other hand, I feel the need to think real hard abt what the age gap between the two is in my minds eye. It's hard because I can't in good faith go over 4 years, but I don't know how to narrow it from there. But with the 4 year limit, I think thatd put her in her late 30s early 40s ish in my hcs? I've been saying that a lot huh djdbrjdv

Warly: look me in my eyes. He's 50 at the youngest. He's like 65. Just trust me bro.

Wanda: nope

Wheeler: we have like no real info on her but she gives me early to mid 30s vibes? So like relatively young but still an established adult.

Walani: despite looking quite young, based on her dialogue it rly does sound like she's been around for longer than like freshly 20. I'm leaning towards early 30s, but I could also see her as late 20s or maybeeee mid 20s if we wanna stretch a lil bit.

Wagstaff: again, I genuinely don't fucking know how old hes supposed to be at this point and Im scared. But he's like 60 smth in my minds eye, around the same age as Wx

And it's 2 am so just imagine I said smth really insightful at the end here and now I shall pass the fuck out ✌

#rat rambles #this was a mistake why are there so many dst xharacters Im gonna die #anyways gn I need to die now

[shikyokage742]

Hi guys.

I'm sorry for scaring you. Kinda scared myself too

Listen things are really hard right now, for everyone, but I'm in a bind. And I'm not one to ask for help, or admit I need it.

But I need help, and I'm asking for it.

I made a KO-FI account.

I love all of you and appreciate how sweet, patient, and kind all you have been to me recently and over the years.

I'm really trying to fix things but I need help, If you can't donate don't worry, I appreciate just knowing y'all actually like my stories.

You can find my Kofi under Lady Swellegant. Congrats, you guys know my alt account now. And can find my on TikTok and see what I look like lol. Please don't. I'm sick and look terrible.

Just... Thank you, and sorry for scaring you.

Hopefully next update will be happier.

And remember.

The world would be bleaker without you.

With out all of us.

Ps... Y'all come stalk me on Tumblr it's the best way to badger me lol

: / / k o - f i ladyswellegant

[babecoups]

I like you but until you explain yourself I will have to fall back

This message is long but necessary for me. It's the last time I'm addressing this so as much as it hurt me to expose my raw emotions I did it. Some of you may not like me after reading this but it's okay. So, let's just rip the band aid off.

I'm assuming you're that same anon I blocked on my bts account for sending me stuff about that blog. I sat on this message for a few days and initially I wasn't going to answer it. However, it's just been bothering me and I had to say this because this stuff is getting old.

If you're going to believe those people on that blog then you go to them for the facts they say they have on me. If they claim it's true there should be no problem, right?

And this is about the server thing, not the other stuff because I'm not about to address calling someone a name at this age. Hate me for it or don't. I said it. So there you go. That one's on the house.

And if you ask them about the other thing and they can't provide evidence, what does that tell you?

As far as me being a bitch or rude, I've owned that I am not the best person to call upon when it comes to altercations. Most of the time, I abandon arguments because I know I am very disrespectful when I feel disrespected. I am a human and my bad personality trait is my potty mouth. I curse a lot when I'm mad.

However, not once have I threaten to cause harm to anyone because this is just tumblr and it's not that big of a deal to me. I value my life more than embarrassing someone or making them fear me. All I've ever done was get upset or angry because I was triggered or tested like everyone else has done on this site.

Y'all love to make black women look like aggressors when we express ourselves through emotions. It doesn't matter what was said to trigger us, the only concern is how we react because apparently we are the biggest threat.

I'm just tired. So tired of you all running to that place for answers because that blog was based on lies and rumors...from the very beginning of this journey with the fic rec account to everything. It's all been lies that people ran with because they don't like certain people, content, or blog rules.

It was created to hurt people. Yet the people who take time out of their days to create content for you are being portrayed as monsters, the villains.

I don't even visit that blog because I could care less what they say about me. There's nothing I've done or said that I can't repeat. Good or bad. My only issue is that some of you bring it to my space instead of asking the blog for the answers you want.

The amount of bitterness and misery I picked up on just reading a few asks from that blog made me ill. It's a coping mechanism for people who are existing among people they don't like. They want to feel like their thoughts and opinions are superior so they'll do anything to make it a reality.

They're using you all to make themselves feel powerful. They're lonely and unhappy. They want your opinions(that you rightfully deserve to have) to justify what they're doing. This person's true intentions are not to expose the truth.

They just want to eliminate who they feel are threats to them by tarnishing people's name and attempting to scare them away with numbers and hurtful messages. And worst of all, they're are making y'all their minions.

Please, don't fall for it. Don't let someone manipulate you into thinking you're contributing into making tumblr a better place.

You don't have to like me or believe I'm a good person. You don't have to support my content or like my writing...you don't have to do that for any content creator.

I'm not perfect. I write dark themes, I have a masterlist full of smut and little, I'm just here to have fun with writing, I make mistakes, I call people names when they upset me, I kick people from my servers for not following the rules they agreed to follow, I don't let people disrespect me. But I'm not a bully nor do I believe in making people suffer because I'm struggling myself.

Now if I'm such a horrible person, why spend your time sending me asks everyday? You're either going to believe them or you're going to believe the me. Because I've been me since 2020. I've never created a secret place to share my opinions. Everything I've done has been open. Including with that fic rec blog because I feel how I feel and I felt disrespected.

So with that, you do whatever it is you need to do. Because I'm not explaining nothing else.😂

#this is probably going to cause more trouble than it's worth but oh well #i had to say it #i'm just a dork that wants to write and be a clown in peace #i wear mix matched socks #i cry watching animal videos because i love nature

[orbleglorb]

i guess i should make an intro!

hi! i'm wyatt. i'm 17, and i use he/they pronouns. i also go by sammy! either name works, but most people just call me wyatt, and that's the name i use IRL as well. i've had this blog for a while (over a year? i had one in 2019 and then deleted it at some point, and idk when i made this one!) but i think i'll be more active here now because tumblr's interface feels more user friendly. who knows, tho ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

some info about me and this account (a BYF, i guess):

this is a very general purpose blog. i will post all sorts of crap here. from fanart to serious topics to cats with ridiculous names! i don't repost serious things too often (i don't think, anyway).

most of my posts are just reblogs! i don't have a large audience so i don't feel the need to make posts. i know you have to make posts to have a large audience, but i'm fine with a smaller audience as well. im just in my own silly little environment

i'm on social media for my own enjoyment, which means i will post as little or as much as i feel like at the moment! i will also block people for small or silly reasons (like, if i don't like the stuff they post, even if it's not problematic).

if anyone else remembers framecast/drawcast hmu because sometimes i wonder if that was just something i dreamt

FEEL FREE TO SEND ME PICS OF UR ANIMALS ANYTIME

please don't feel bad if i don't watch/listen to/read something you suggest. i have a huge huge huge list of things i need to watch, read, listen to, play, etc. i have not crossed off a single thing. i really just suck at getting into new content for some reason

that being said, i think learning about a piece of media through a person that really really likes it is much more enthralling than actually looking into it myself. so feel free to rant to me about things!

give me ur ocs this is a threat

i have my own ocs that i may post about from time to time! feel free to ask me about them. please.

i don't know half the shit that goes on in the online world. if i follow someone who is problematic, just assume i don't know anything because i probably don't!

if anyone needs me to give photo IDs/transcriptions of images i post, don't hesitate to ask! i'll gladly add one on

i can't read most fancy fonts. i know some (like zalgo text) are made with the intention to be incomprehensible, but if you use a fancy font (such as over-the-top cursive, some gothic/medieval fonts, or ɑׁׅ֮ꪀׁׅᨮ꫶ׁׅ֮tׁׅhׁׅ֮ꪱׁׅꪀׁׅᧁׁ ᥣׁׅ֪ꪱׁׅƙׁׅ֑ꫀׁׅܻ tׁׅhׁׅ֮ꪱׁׅ꯱ׁׅ֒ (anything like this), i will not be able to read it! a translation or caption would be nice if you use one of these fonts, but it's probably not something i'll unfollow you over

i use parentheses often (because how else will i communicate vital information in an easy and concise manner?)

that's it for disclaimers, i think! here's some of my interests:

five nights at freddys :(

the walten files

blaseball

my ocs!!

stardew valley

pre-2010s microsoft windows operating systems

will i get laughed off of this website if i say purble place? bc yeah

homestuck (im sorry)

anything with convoluted lore ig

backrooms/"liminal spaces" (idk why they're called liminal spaces, which is why there's quotation marks around them) (also i don't know shit about the backrooms lore i just like empty places that fill me with dread)

so yeah!!

i guess everyone is doing "before you follow" and "don't interact" warnings. i pretty much did a byf up at the top. but here's a dni ig:

DNI: proshippers. i think that's it really

YCIBYOTI (you can interact but you're on thin ice): tiktok kids y'all scare the crap out of me. genshin fans (i call y'all genshpacters so don't be surprised by that). danganronpa fand. again i don't want to tell people who like those things not to follow me, because no group of ppl are a monolith and there's definitely a bunch of people who don't live up to the stereotypes. but i am Slightly Wary of y'all. this isn't a hardcore "don't interact" but more like "proceed with caution & please don't tap the glass because it scares the animals (me)"

that's it!

a picture of my cat, for your troubles

ok cya 👋

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Ooh promo time

Dang thought that was a rough thing to end on xdd :'(( 😭

Why are y'all all saying he's gonna be fine

That's sus

Like for a promo anyway xDD but honestly in general too lol

OPE

IDK WHAT THAT MEANS BUT DOES THAT MEAN IT'S LIVE

THAT DOES SEEM LIKE PLAUSIBLE DRAMA- aAH

ಠOಠ

UHHHHH

Yeah I am also asking what is happening xD

BUT YEAH SURE give Asher more trauma why don't ya xDD let's just go all the way!!!

What would be next idk that's two kinds of weapons maybe a knife next?? xDD

I mean obviously everyone else, especially that new girl I hope she's doing okay :((((, but like. my boy xDD. And besides I said I'd give him trauma myself if no one else will. I mean we haven't seen it YET I'm honestly assuming we will/might at some point but still lol.

Anyway so that looks ROUGH what next xdd

Oof

Oh GOSH oh no

NOOOOOO not my father son duo too 😭😭😭

I swear y'all better not leave this too long to be fixed

Like yeah feel your emotions take as long as you need but SHOW WISE I can't last that long 😭😭 xD

Anyway A H help me

That's the end of my final thoughts :)! Now onto the. . .

REVIEW

I LOVED this episode!! The patients/cases were interesting, seeing everyone navigate their relationships (existent or non) was fun, and I honestly just thought it was a fun episode :). Even if every time Lim came on screen it got super serious and dramatic. Except for maybe that first meeting lol. Still, I enjoyed those moments too! Now, a quick bit for each character/few characters.

Lim! OW. How dare you do this to me. I can just SEE all the pain she's in (everyone's acting has been absolutely PHENOMENAL by the way), but I'm scared of where this crusade will take her. Also that last scene with Shaun was mature and I think the right choice in her part for this situation but still heartbreaking 😭😭😭😭.

Jordan! Girlllll, we all see it 👀😏😎. She is crushing on him HARD, and I don't even remember his name lol xD. I think his last name's like, Perez. Yeah I think that sounds right. Wait, but the girl's starts with a P too. . . Whatever, I really hope they do end up getting together, if only for Jordan's sake :)). But I do think they'd work well together!

Asher and Jerome :D! Y'all I love you xD. But also this closet thing better not ever come up again because if it does then it's a plot point which means you'll get caught, and I CAN'T HANDLE THAT. So please don't XDD. Anyway I thought they were really cute this episode :)).

Park, and Powell! Also a quick bit about Morgan: we didn't see her much this episode but she is as always an icon <333. Rewatching a bit I did see the part where Powell skipped chain of command, and I won't say I think she was right there, but her story was really touching and I think it was a big part of helping that mom :')). Also I loved Park thanking her for her service at the end 😭😭. Anyway, I guess despite my guesses, Park's not gonna talk to the relationship lady now ಠ⁠_⁠ಠ. My bad xdd.

Glassman! OOF, his and Lim's scenes hurt, but I'm glad he stood by Shaun's decision even though he's angry. Even though he doesn't agree, honestly! Because while Shaun does need to take some more accountability, he really did do what he saw as the best option, and who knows what would've happened without it. Still, super angsty <333. Great yelling though :D. XD.

Andrews! Didn't see him much, a bit mad he gave Lim the report lol, but she does deserve to see it.

Shaun and Lea! THAT LAST SCENE WAS THE CUTEST THING I'VE EVER SEEN. I swear, I will never get over it 😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😭😭😭❤️🥰🥰. Anyway, I'm really glad they talked about their issues promptly, got good advice, and sorted something out :))). They're amazing, and I love them :DD <3333.

Overall, I really enjoyed this episode!!! I thought it was great, and spread the focus pretty evenly between the characters. Plus, I'm glad one of the patients got their happy ending :'). But I mean honestly? In different ways, both of them did. What a great episode :D <3.

So yeah! I really liked this episode. The next one looks intense, but I'm excited to see how it all goes down! This has been my review of. . .

The Good Doctor, Season 6, Episode 3: A Big Sign

It was so good! I'm a bit scared for the next episode, but really looking forward to it. I'll be back next week with my review of. . .

The Good Doctor, Season 6, Episode 4: Shrapnel

See you then!!

#the good doctor #tgd #oasis's tgd chatter #I was busy last night so it's a bit late but I finished it and here it is :DD!!! #love you guys :))) ❤️❤️❤️❤️ #byeeee :DDD <33333!!!!

[sparklingpax]

Right Now, Right Here

A/n:

-helppp this title 💀 in my defense (both the title and for the fic) I wrote this over a year ago, and I only rediscovered it today? Um, I can't write??? I did make a few edits here and there but....welp, I guess I'll just hide in my corner again.

-yea so also, there might be typos. I was supposed to post this earlier but I edited and checked this at like 1 am, while incredibly exhausted, and now I'm in a class (💀) I can't inspect this too closely at the moment so...just pretend you didn't see anything if you do--

-set in canon! I have yet to show y'all any writing for my AU 😹 im a bit scared to ngl

-context: Metalhawk went out for a patrol without telling anyone and was gone for a lil too long, so Ginrai asked the others where he was and they all kinda just '*shrug* the grocery store? haha no idk.' So he tracks him and gets there just as Overlord is leaving; he'd jumped Hawk while he was still in his semi-human looking form and Hawk tried to put up a fight but was really ambushed and attacked so fast that he had a panic response and couldn't fight properly. Overlord only left because he thought he'd killed him, but clearly, he did not. And then *gestures* all this other stuff happens

-YES im on my Ginhawk Agenda™ bullshit again, just leave if you're not interested, don't be mean about it...

-angst kinda? some tw for injury stuff but idt it's too graphic or anything.

-dear me from a year ago, dont use ur school accounts google docs to write bad angst please look what youve done 💀

///

“Hawk?”

Ginrai finally caught sight of the Pretender commander in the distance, and feeling his heart skip a beat at what he saw. He sprinted over as quickly as he could.

He came upon the lone birch tree, standing in solitude amidst an otherwise empty clearing, and knelt carefully next to Hawk, who kept a quivering arm tightly to his side as he laid, huddled into himself on the ground, covered only partially in his armor plating.

Evidently, most of it had been…severly damaged in the skirmish between him and Overlord.

Ginrai swallowed, quickly deactivating the glass visor over his eyes and the metal padding around his hands, so the cold and tough metal wouldn’t cause Hawk any more pain.

Vaguely, he noticed the way his own hands were shaking as he reached out, and he felt his breath catch as his fingers touched the ice-cold skin of his wounded partner.

For all the times he was the only one left standing in any fight, it was certainly jarring to see him so feeble, in so much pain….

The Autobot leader took a deep breath, trying to not think too much about the blue and red streaks of blood and energon soiling the earth around where Hawk lay, over Hawk himself.

It was Overlord’s, he tried convincing himself.

But the twinge of queasy fear in his stomach disagreed.

Hawk’s eyes shot open at Ginrai’s touch, searching the aboveground for a moment before darting back to Ginrai. Shock made his heart pound, pulling him out of his half-consciousness and back to the present. He had stiffened, then immediately tried to life himself off the ground, only for his arms to give out. He fell back and hit the tree behind him.

He then held his arms over himself, as a shielding motion.

“N-no, don’t, please--” the Pretender suddenly sucked in a sharp breath, falling back into his crumpled position in the dirt, eyes squeezed shut and gripping his wound harder.

Ginrai flinched, arm jolting back.

He must still be in shock.

“Hawk,” he spoke softly, bent a little closer, but not too close. “It’s me, Ginrai.”

The wounded Pretender slowly opened his eyes again after a moment, searching Ginrai’s face for a few heartbeats before he seemed to realize what was happening.

“You’re alright. You’re safe now. I’m gonna get you back to HQ, okay?”

Hawk nodded slowly, gritting his teeth again as another wave of pain seemed to pass through him.

Ginrai couldn’t help but notice…far clearer than the fresh cuts and bruises, were the lines of exhaustion and pain dulling his face.

“D-don’t…” he struggled, swallowing before trying again. “Don’t worry, I’ll…be f-fine...”

Ginrai felt a surge of emotions. Regret, frustration, despair…something dark and negative.

Not at Hawk, but at himself.

But rather than say anything, he bowed his head, feeling a lump form in his throat. Hot tears welled at the edges of his vision.

Suddenly, could hear the sound of Hawk’s shuddering breaths, and reminded himself that this wasn’t the time to lose his cool.

He needs me. And I…need him.

So he again reached out and gently grasped one of Hawk’s hands, as a comforting motion.

“You’re alright. You’re with me, now,” he repeated, even more quietly than before.

Hawk gazed out into the grey sky with hazy eyes, expression laced with pain.

Every bone in his body--his fragile, human body–hurt. And he felt every cut on his paper-thin skin.

He couldn’t believe he’d fallen for such an obvious trap, and then couldn't hold his own ground.

He felt some of the panic return to his body, triggering another memory of the way that same panic had frozen his limbs in place, choking him before Overlord had at one point in the thrashing, reached out and did the same.

He'd demanded the location of the base. Over and over...and...

No. Get a hold of yourself. Feel the touch of Ginrai’s hands. You are safe.

His breathing eased.

You are safe.

Meanwhile, Ginrai had leaned closer, hands still gently wrapped around Hawk’s. His eyes flicked nervously from Hawk’s face--covered with dirt and blood--to the various wounds on his body, to the broken parts of his armor.

“Here--” he gently reached back and guided his boyfriend to a sitting position against the oak.

After a moment of silence, Ginrai drew back a little, still knelt in front of Hawk, and then began to speak in a stumbling manner.

“…I–I know I should have realized you were gone for too long much sooner, but I...was cleaning my truck–and, I know I should have tracked your signal the way you showed me, and–and–”

“Ginrai.”

The 19-year-old swallowed, trying to slow his breathing as he trailed off, clearly on the verge of tears. He was freaking out, and Hawk didn’t want him to feel bad.

The Pretender commander reached out and lightly touched Ginrai’s shoulder.

“You didn’t…d-do anything wrong…I should have–”

“No!! I’m the Autobot leader!!” Ginrai snapped, a little more aggressively than he’d intended, but it was hard for him to control his tone against the wave of emotions and fear that threatened to make him break down.

“I put myself in danger on a daily basis, and that’s ok. I signed up for this when I accepted leadership of this team, and I see the weight of that responsibility. But Hawk...”

He seemed to be losing the battle with his emotions as he softened his tone, looking away. His body shook as he started to cry.

“...I--I wouldn’t know what to do i-if anything…happened to you. No one on the team is supposed to die, not on my watch. And, after all is said and done, you’re…supposed to live longer than me, anyway.”

Hawk felt his blood run cold.

“I can’t…let you die before me….it wouldn’t be right.”

Those words seemed to weigh the air, hanging heavily in the short silence that followed.

Hawk stared ahead for a bit.

The uncomfortably familiar feeling of panic had seemingly returned to constrict his chest and throat. He felt his heart pounding out of his chest.

He knew Ginrai was right, but he’d always…avoided those thoughts.

He knew it from the moment he had realized that he was falling in love all those months ago.

He hadn’t known love like this on Cybertron, on any planet, or on this earth for all the time he’d been here before then. But…

“I’m s-sorry…” Ginrai whispered, suddenly unable to stop the emotion-driven words. "We both know it: I'm just a man--some mortal--but you…”

Hawk felt tears brim in his eyes. Ginrai's voice felt distant, yet the words cut straight to his heart.

“You're….an ancient Cybertronian, with centuries left to live...centuries I’ll never be alive to see…”

Reality was cruel.

It was nothing short of tyrannical.

And time? Always marching on, in its accursed, coldly unforgiving manner.

Fear had shadowed the trucker’s gaze. But not for fear of death itself.

It was fear for the final moment he would see Hawk’s kind face, and which he’d never see again once he would let his eyes close in those final–

No, no. This is wrong. I can’t think like this–I…don’t. I’m lashing out.

And it was at the sight of Hawk’s brown eyes, fixated on Ginrai, that caused guilt to well up from the pits of his stomach. They stared back at him with that same fear, dazed over with exhaustion and yet, burning with dread…

Without words, Hawk pulled Ginrai back into an embrace, almost desperately, grasping the cold metal plating with all his strength.

“P-please, don’t say that. I...won't leave you, s-so...don’t…leave me,” Hawk found himself whispering. He was shaking, tears rolling down his face. “We have…time, years...right n-now...”

Hawk trailed off, unable to speak anymore for the moment.

Crying was something that he almost never did, even after all the centuries he’d spent inhabiting this body.

It was a strange feeling as well as painful.

His body ached, right down to his bones. His side wound seared, begging him to return to laying carefully against the oak, but…he couldn’t remove himself, even as he felt himself starting to get dizzy.

Reality was cruel, but it was beautiful, too. And it was moments like this that slipped away like sand.

I'm still alive. That must mean something.

He and Ginrai clung to one another, tightly, silently, until Ginrai drew back, and they were staring at one another again, though Hawk’s eyes were starting to become distant, clearly from the blood loss.

What good had this done, venting his own fears? Ginrai let his gaze fall. He was suddenly aware of the way the chilly winds bit at his fingers.

Before anything else, Ginrai realized he needed to amend this.

There is nothing to be afraid of. There is only…time. We have time.

Hawk’s words rang in his ears.

We have time.

“Hawk, I’m…sorry. I’m…” he plucked at some of the grass next to him. Then, returning his intent gaze to the Pretender, he continued. “I let my emotions get the better of me.”

He watched as Hawk shifted a bit, gingerly touching a bruise on his arm, eyes still on Ginrai.

“It's a-alright, I unders-stand…I…” he swallowed, shaking his head a little.

Any number of things could be making it painful for him to speak, Ginrai realized, and gently held his hand again, speaking so Hawk didn't have to.

“I’ll stay with you. I’ll…always stay with you. We have now, and I have you. You’re right...we have time. Years of it. I shouldn't have said that stuff earlier.”

The edges of a smile seemed to light Hawk’s expression. The shadows seemed to dissipate a little.

Perhaps it was his wavering consciousness, or the realization that Ginrai was still here, with him…but Hawk could feel the panic leaving him once again.

“Th-thank…you…” he breathed, eyelids starting to flutter.

“Hawk…thank you.”

Ginrai rubbed at his eyes, wiping away his tears, feeling himself smile as he Hawk do the same. And all the turmoil seemed to leave them.

This was the here and now.

It did no one good to ruminate on things that hadn’t even occurred yet.

And they were lucky, that perhaps Decepticon pride had caused Hawk to be left alive rather than dead.

I’ll get you home, Hawk. Safe and sound.

He gently gathered the wounded Autobot into his grip.

“I love you…I’m so relieved you’re safe," Ginrai murmured gently, warmly.

Hawk smiled back, a silent agreement.

Maybe they’d have dinner when Hawk was bandaged and ready to walk around again.

Maybe they’d talk about music or nature, or perhaps something simply boring enough that Landmine would quit eavesdropping on them so they’d have some alone time.

Maybe...there was so much they could do.

Ginrai found himself speaking again to Hawk, unsure if he could hear him or not.

“I’ll stay, my love. I’ll stay as long as you wish…I lead this team. We’ll all make it out of this alive. We'll bring peace to this earth. I swear.”

With Hawk in his arms, the Autobot leader headed for his truck, leaving behind him the lonely birch tree.

He noticed the clouds in the sky hung, grey and looming as ever, and cast a fond look down at Hawk, who was definitely passed out now, but breathing steadily.

The sight of his complexion paler than usual, and gashes in his metal armor to reveal bloodied, bruised portions of skin…Ginrai tried not to dwell on it.

Everything will be fine, he reminded himself. I’ve got you, Hawk…I’ve got you.

Well, gloomy skies didn’t make Ginrai sad like they used to. Not since he’d learned they were Hawk’s favorite kind of weather.

So…he smiled.

///

#transformers #tf #transformers super god Masterforce #Super God Masterforce #masterforce #masterforce moment òwó 🥺💖✨ #ginhawk #angst #(??) #ginrai #hawk #maccadam #transformers stuff #fanfiction #fanfic #writing #story #kuniwrites #ew i cant write #hsjsjdjs #thank you for reading if u did ilyy #:D

[paleroze]

#the fact that he said he stayed up all night questioning himself after that #tommyinnit #tommy #tom simons #ranboo #tubbo #jack manifold #wilbur soot #wilbur #mcyt #minecraft youtubers #don't look at my account please y'all are scaring me #apparently the last image doesn't belong to that clip so... whatever #benchblr #crime boys

[jumin-deserves-better]

A troll post on Jumin's BE2 After ending DLC 👀

I am late, right? LONG POST

Note : I haven't played this DLC and I never will, this is based on the spoilers that I have read from other blogs . I am not trying to bring down neither Cheritz nor the people who enjoyed this DLC. This is BASED ON MY OWN OPINION. I have nothing against people who have their own kinks , I actually respect it and I do know that Jumin and MC can be in a kinky HEALTHY relationship . I don't want any hate comments in my posts ( I had enough of it) . If I did offend anyone, please tell it respectfully. Thank you.

⚠️If you are in the idea to play this DLC, warning! Subtle Spoilers ahead ⚠️

Yeah, he bit ALRIGHT 😏💀

First of all, I am not a big fan of BE2 , I mean, because of this damn ending, he is portrayed as the 'daddy dom' guy in the fandom eventhough it was MC who asked for this whole thing ,not Jumin 🚶‍♀️, I still don't understand this mystery. Like I know why cheritz did this, you know for money & fan service for the thirsty fans who are only fans of Jumin for his BE2 and not for his complex characterization. Now, Jumin is definitely KINKY 😏👀 ,but they could have explored his kinky side in a more healthier way cuz there were some parts in the DLC that scared the hell out of me (especially pinning the MC down cuz she tried to get close with other members) . I don't like controlling men at all. These parts made me so uncomfy .This is the biggest reason I didn't even try to play this DLC eventhough I had hourglasses stored in my account . Btw , for you info,I have deleted the app 7 months ago.

Seriously, if you didn't find that 'pinning MC down' part scary and uncomfortable, y'all need Jesus 🤡 ✝️

The meme was edited by me, so repost it with credits 👀

I am sorry guys 😂, but when I saw this CG this was what I thought, my brain is weird.

Jumin becomes controlling only when MC is enabling him to do so, but still inhibiting MC from getting close with others 🚨HELL NO TO THE NO NO🚨 he thinks that this is how he should show their affection to their S/O but hell no..it's not, Jumin. That bitch of an MC was totally manipulating him for her own sexual pleasures, THIS IS NOT LOVE, GODDAMIT. I had to control myself from swearing over this MC, the options were shit, like none of them were caring, SHE WAS A SELFISH BITCH , just like Jumin's mom, and you knw what? Jumin doesn't even care about this, because she is the only one who shows love to him ( it's not love, my boo, it's pure lust she has over you ). Jumin's and MC's relationship in this DLC reminded me of Rika and V, where V and MC were enabling Rika's and Jumin's "inner darkness". Ughh....All i want is Jumin to be happy, not to be this mess, is that too much to ask? Jeez..

👏 JUMIN DESERVES BETTER THAN THIS DLC CONTENT 👏

And , OH ! another thing I forgot to mention lol, YOU GET A GOOD ENDING FOR A BAD END DLC 🤡 ( Golden & Green , something like that, that's what I saw )

Whatever...

BUT, on a positive note,

This DLC did provide us some new information regarding his past, so this DLC escaped from my slander which I have already done though hehe

◇ We got to see Jumin's vulnerability ;;

Look at him 😫, I am gonna cry, he begs MC to show and teach him about love in this scene, but you knw what MC does ? , 🤪 SEX GO BRRR 🤪...She was keeping Jumin like this FOR 2 MONTHS, WTF. Imagine his mental state, JESUS CHRIST, it's just heartbreaking to see him like this.

◇ We get to knw about his MOM ( I would kill you, if i see you again .Get the hell out of Jumin's life..😃🔪) and for the first time in my life,I actually thought Chairman Han is much better than this creature haha..🙂.Yes, he did treat his own son as an employee, but the chairman is much better than Jumin's 'mom'. No wonder Jumin hated women..

◇ We also got some smexy CGs, like OMG! 😏, I hate this approach, but got to say, cheritz, you made me droll over him because of these CGs, why didn't you do this in a healthy approach ⁉️⁉️ god..sometimes i have a love-hate relationship with Cheritz.

🚨 I AM SCREAMING 😝 🚨

Overall, the DLC doesn't seem to be that bad, they did not romanticize this ending too much, otherwise I would have gone to korea and riot 😃. We did get some amazing CGs and something about his past,

But this whole DLC idea...

Cheritz : Cuz, MONEY 🤑💸💲

Can I not expect Jumin's fluffy side?, I mean, the fandom treats and has concluded that he is a dominant daddy, it's a well known fact now, I don't really have a problem with that, I am used with this label that he has got. But Many fans could have known that Jumin is such a softie too through that . But cheritz wanted 💸 I guess, can't blame them 😃

Anyways, I am thankful that CHERTIZ has decided to give content for Jumin eventhough it was unnecessary, atleast we got something, right, guys..? let's be happy that we got some smexy CGs 😏

Thank you for reading through this !

#jumin han #mystic messenger #jumin x mc #juminmysticmessenger #mm jumin #mysme jumin #jumin route #jumin mystic messenger #jumin #jumin mm #jumin bad end dlc #jumin bad ending #jumin han deserves better #jumin mysme #mystic messenger jumin

[nightswithkookmin]

RE JIKOOK IS ESTRANGED

Them

Me

Lol

JUMP CUT ALERT: This is a continuation of an ongoing discussion behind the scenes.

DISCLAIMERS:

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Misinterpretation of my opinion, my words constitute a violation of my human rights. Please do not take my words out of context, share it on another platform in furtherance of your own agenda. If you do hold yourself accountable first. You are the author of your own intentions and interpretations.

I do not intend malice by my words nor do I seek to be disrespectful of any member mentioned in here. I simply enjoy mentally stimulating conversations and thought provoking discussions.

Let the records show.

MATTER OF THE DAY

Thanks to everyone that's shared your thoughts on this matter with me and thanks to that person that brought this matter to my attention.

I haven't looked into it and I don't know how severe this issue is.

I think people have the right to believe in anything they want to believe in. Personally, I don't think Santa is real but clearly others do, doesn't mean I'm sane or that they are crazy.

I don't think discussions of this nature should be about who is right or who is wrong. Everyone's opinion is valid and holds true to their own delusions. Lol.

Frankly, I prefer this kind of ship wars to the slurs and abuses and they are distributing hard core porn now?? What is going on! Chileee.

I have never believed JK and Tae to be anything more than friends. At one point, I wondered if they were even friends at all lol but since they admitted to having had a falling out themselves at one point the topic is now moot.

Tae and JK have- had- have a really special bond. To me anyways. I always saw them as the evil power twins of BTS due their ability to come together to wreck havoc especially on Bang PD's scripts. Lol. I think I have mentioned this a few times now.

I smiled to myself when I heard them call themselves partners in crime. The bond is there no two ways about it- you either appreciate it for what it is or you don't. personally I love their bond. Can't stand their shippers but I love their bond. They keep the drama going for me- love it. Lol

The question has always been whether their bond is as profound as their shippers make it seem. I argue it's not and I will always argue it is not. Lol

I think it's only fair that they also question whether Jikook's bond is as profound as we make it sound. I really can't be mad at that. All is fair in love and war- at the very least we can agree to disagree.

I mean even Jikookers themselves question the extent of JK and JM's bond. Some think they are just very special friends and nothing more. I think I talked about this in my is Jikook real post when I mentioned labels and the degree of love between JK and JM?

We know JK and JM have a unique bond. The question then is how far does that bond go. Is it just platonic, romantic or something in between?

This is the question I was aiming to answer with my is Jikook real post. My objective was to try and dismantle all the nuances that keep us from seeing the 'truth' about Jikook- that they are real. At least the way I see them.

I talked about unrealistic expectations we have of Jikook, false conditionings that often leads us to see Jikook as something more than they are- the amplified Jikook. We get used to highlight reels of Jikook's interactions in edits such that we feel there is something wrong with them when we see them in real time.

I mentioned that Jimin's nurturing nature often also estops people from reading more into his relationship with JK. He is nurturing of everyone, JK ain't special- they argue, just as this person is doing.

I talked about Jimin's Idol persona, the facade of the boy in love with JK- Jimin's role within BTS since debut and how that can equally blind us into thinking Jikook is something more or less than they really are. I have a post dedicated to this topic sitting in my drafts so I will not go into the details of it here. Please look forward to that.

But this person's post touches on another aspect of Jimin's personality that I feel is one of the things that often keeps us from seeing his relationship with JK for what it really is- his inclination for professionalism.

I keep saying this, several times now, that Jimin's Idol persona to me seems well developed, elaborate and very elusive.

I have mentioned a few times how I think during Jikook break ups that they keep it civil and professional for the sake of the team and that you might not even notice the difference especially if you place high value on their skinship.

The skinship would be there, the cordiality and civility would equally be there- except for moments when they are fighting, that gets bloody. Lol. They are best friends at the very least. It is why it's important to reevaluate the metrics we use to determine whether or not they are a couple.

I wish I could dialogue with this person to understand her assessment of Jikook and what she is using to determine whether or not Jikook are a couple and what makes her think Tae and JK are. Know what I mean?

What makes her think Jikook were a couple before 2017? What makes y'all think Jikook are a couple at all? I would like to hear from y'all- but come at me with the skinship bit and I'll block you deadass. Lol

So on this person's post, I think I agree with her assessment of JM's persona but I don't agree with the Jikook have been broken up since 2017. And I think I understand where this is coming from... I think some of us do. Yes they had a few fights that year especially leading up to Jimin's birthday- August was it? but we all know JK more than made up for it with the damn GCFs. Lol. kindly visit the timeline, peruse as many content as you can and form your own opinion on it. This is just mine.

Are Jikook Jikooking all the time? Absolutely not. They are human too. They fight, they make up, they break up they get back together, they have introverted, extroverted moments, they go up, they go down- have bad hair days, it's all part of their dynamics I'm afraid. From my point of view of course.

I feel some people notice these things too and when they sense Jikook aren't in a good place they bow out and Jump ship- I don't blame them. They are shippers not supporters. What Jikook need are supporters not shippers- or maybe both, do you.

Could this person be one such people? DNF shippers? Given up on Jikook before the end of their story? I don't know. May be.

Jikook is not a fantasy that you ship. It's a relationship that you support. You can't escape into them. They are an ongoing love story- chapters close, chapters open, you just have to ride it out till the very end.

I think the challenge of their post for me is whether or not Jikook is a performance. Her post leans into the whole Jikook is fanservice bull especially in light of the recent photoshoot video which some are using as evidence Jikook don't 'click' when the cameras are off- the lies they tell on Beyonce's internet!

I think I have speculated on this and shared my thoughts on this whole Jikook is fanservice bit. I will delve deeper into it in my next post on Jimin's idol persona but as I've already said, Jikook is fanservice is equally a misnomer.

Yes Jikook does fanservice sometimes, but they are not fanservice. Fanservice is the cover for their relationship. It's their glass ceiling- nothing to see here folks just two snakes under glass. Keep it pushing. (Sorry. Couldn't help myself. Lol)

But you do raise a valid question, what is Jikook like when the cameras are not filming?

Is the mood of Jikook in that footage the general mood of Jikook behind cameras as Tuktukkers are claiming? They barely interact, JM doesn't pay much attention to Kook, yadda yadda yadda?

And the part that gives me a complex, that JK only interacts with JM when they are the center of attention. Huh???????????

Sigh.

I feel caught between a rock and a hard place on this one.

The theory you pointed out in support of this assertion isn't mine and I think I made it clear I didn't share the same thoughts on it. I said it was valid nevertheless. Chilee, this is hard. Lol

Yes JK is an introvert, Jimin is an extrovert, JM doesn't live for JK, all that is true and some Jikookers have said that too- so when you ask, if this is who they are when the cameras are off does that mean what they do when the cameras turn on is fanservice-

I-👁👄👁

I don't know the thought process that went into that theory so I can't confidently defend it. I'll ask? Lol.

Personally, I'd like to know whether or not they see the tension in that footage as tension in the first place. Chileee I don't know.

I see it as tension. Not a very serious one though. So we'd have to agree to disagree on that one.

But the part I can argue, the part I agree with is Jikook aren't hyper super duper lovey dovey on each other all the time. They aren't cuddly all the time. They have their moments of quiet- Jimin seems like the more affectionate kind who'd rub all over JK in the comfort of their homes but still...

If you ask me though, I think Jikook are tamer on cameras than they are behind scenes. I always talk about the fear and panic in the members' eyes when they see Jikook gravitating towards each other- it's probably because they know the extent of Jikook's shenanigans. They know how worse it can be because they've seen it all.

And when JK panics sometimes when JM gets closer too you just know dude is scared perhaps because of his Mochi chick's devil may care shamelessly in love policies- Jimin wild. Bless him.

I did say also that Memories 2019 is equally eye opening. These were censored bits. BigHit was holding all of that and giving us crumbs- stingy mfs. Bless.

All that said, again I don't think Jikook are hyper lovey on eachother behind the scenes. Another part I diverge from that view is that this is not exactly off camera. It was just behind the scenes of a photoshoot. Something we've seen a countless times.

This is not BTS's first ever behind scenes photoshoot. It's just a different angle that's all.

They were working. They were at work. This wasn't an alone private space for them so they can't base on this to say Jikook don't interact when the cameras are off.

The cameras were rolling. We saw them interact, JM was interacting with everyone the way he always does on camera all the time except he wasn't interacting with JK the way he does all the time, grainy footage or not- I mean let's call a spade a spade and not a big fat spoon. Lol

As to why he was doing that- let's just say there are many schools of thoughts.

My thought as I've said is JM was freezing JK out. I think with anyone that's recognized and is familiar with Jikook fights, that mood is all too familiar as I mentioned earlier.

If JM was being courteous and not mad at his man then he would have kept it 'professional' and done the 'fanservice' bit with Jk as per usual just as this person is saying since the cameras were still rolling.

Jikook is not fanservice. They are real.

I have refrained from providing a detailed analysis of that '5 minutes' footage for reasons I will explain later when I do share my thoughts on that footage- eventually. Some day.

But my hypothesis remains the same that I think Jikook were fighting or had a minor issue. As to why they were fighting, chileee I don't know. The confirmation bias in me feel it had something to do with JM's birthday but honestly it could have been over anything at all- dumplings, microphones- we all saw that slap on stage, a certain Iphone notification perhaps, did JinMin make a secret VLive without Kook again? Lol

There are plethora of reasons, I can only speculate on a few. And I think we've all seen Jimin when he is not 'Jimining' with the others, JK included. Take his mood with Tae at GDA for example- since this is not a VMin post I won't go into it.

But it seems they squashed whatever beef they were having on stage when JM extended his hands to Tae and they shaked it out.

We've seen him and Suga bicker too- which again, I am not gonna to get into out of respect for their shippers but I can point you to the On comeback VLive early this year when Suga touched JM and JM mouthed Hajima to him- which I think had something to do with what was going on with him and JK at the time but that is besides the point. Every shipper for themselves.

I contrast his 'fights' with Suga and V to show you the difference between Jimin being professional and courteous and Jimin being rah rah. He was sat next to suga, talking and laughing with him but snapped the moment Suga held his back.

He did the same in the Dynamite MV Vlive, smiling and laughing with Suga but the moment JK teased him with the Yoonmin comment his countenance fell.

Jimin is not that good of an actor if you ask me. I have said he is very Kumbaya in nature, often makes compromises for the sake of the team but that don't mean he is a pushover or one to trifle with- he scares me when he is mad. Lmho.

The scene in that footage didn't look to me as that he was being nice and courteous to JK- is that y'all's definition of professional courtesy? Damn.

If they were having a lover's squabble then the 'icy' mood of Jikook we saw in that footage is not the general mood of Jikook when the camera's are turned off.

I have to state again that I don't know much of what goes on behind the cameras and most of the things we see sometimes are equally missing context.

That been said we have seen enough of Jikook 'behind cameras' and they are more intimate than we can imagine. A certain cozy selfie at the back of an abandoned truck comes to mind. Whatever they were doing at the back of the track wasn't intended for the cameras judging from JK's reaction.

We've had glimpses of Jikook when they are not the center of attention enough to have a fair idea of what they are when cameras are off and I don't think it is that mood we saw in that footage.

We saw them at Jingle ball bell, towards the end of 2019. We saw them in their own space doing what they do best- making us feel single as fuck. Bless them.

We've seen them at awards, we've seen JK eating Jimin's ear nom nom to calm him down- like I would have just bought him icecream to calm down his nerves or rubbed his back but whatever JK. He is your man; you know him best. Good for him. Good for both of you. Now come back and feed us.

And the bit about JK only laughing with JM when he noticed he was on the Bangtan Bomb cameras in that footage- now that's nasty below the belts phony ass ass! I felt that one straight in my chest, shit. Lol

Dude was in a doghouse it seemed and I noticed them stealing glances at each other and.... sigh.

I just think JK was looking for an opening to warm his way back into JM's good graces- it's really nothing we haven't seen before.... sigh.

This is 2020 that narrative of JK hates Jimin, JK doesn't like JM needs to stop. It's dead. Pack it up. Chileee, y'all tried it with this one.

Jk is nice to JM only when the cameras are on him? Nice try.

JK is so fake and fraudulent he glared RM down till he stepped away from Jimin- again, in the very same photoshoot footage y'all swear to God is proof Jikook is not real.

Find it. RM stood next to JM. Looks up see's something- or someone. Does his tell- the hand to head thingy he does when JK glares at him over Jimin. He backs away inches from JM.

Cut to JK. Dudes a mood. Jin bumps into him, stares at him but JK wouldn't even look at him and then deadass looks away grumpyly- talk of professionalism. You doing great swidy keep going!

You can hide a relationship, fake it on God but you can never hide the intimacy. Taekook just lack that intimacy, I'm sorry. Even in that 'estranged' moment Jikook's intimacy was still there-

Even in whatever mood JK was in- which again, I believe was just due to their lover's squabble- JK still was claiming his man and exercising his right of authority over him. That's how you know they are not broken up. In my opinion. Chileee. I'm gonna get in trouble. Deep sigh.

Y'all think JK was hovering over Jimin because he was preparing to strike him down like a censored censored censored? Yea, he was preparing to strike alright- All the corners of Jimin's heart. Y'all better stop before I find you. Lol

I said I wasn't going to analyze the footage in this post but damn. This man out here serving us all kinds of brooding assorted jeonlous as his man takes a time out or two to wiggle wiggle wiggle on him Malfroy style and y'all are out here peddling nonsense. Strike one.

He was a mood alright. Did y'all see Tae rubbing his chest, arms and legs, ears did y'all see any body else in there doing that for him? Y'all's falcon cannot hear his falconer give it up and sorry, Jikook can't relate.

As I've posited, JM I feel was mad as hell for whatever reason and wasn't in the space to be that person JK needed him to be- in that moment. Doesn't mean they are like that behind scenes all the time.

And before I get attacked again for causing drama, being toxic etc by Jikookers understand that I am just a delusional person shipping these two in a way that makes sense to me. Write me off as delulu, and go please.

Whatever ambiguity surrounds that moment, to me, Jin and RM's reaction to JK clarifies things a bit. Jikook were boiling hot. JK was still keeping an eye on his man. Lol. Bless them. That's my conclusion. I'm running miles with that. Catch me. Lol

Feel free to come up with your own theory in a way that makes sense to you.

I'm not sure how long that fight lasted but from the rain day incident I'm hoping it wasn't that long. Jikook are fine I believe- I hope. Judging from the way JM drew JK out in his VLive with the whole I miss JK comment? Did that not sound familiar to y'all? And that Mickey mouse thingy- JM ain't slick. Bless him.

JM is the perched akekeke whisperer whispering all kinds of things in JK's ear, feeding JK news of what goes on on social media and what not. Dude don told his man they won a BB on his birthday, told his man Jin wasn't happy he chose his bag over his- definitely told his man Army was missing him- what? I'm going with that too sue me. Lol

Did you or did you not see Jk coming out to do a live log afterwards? And JK seemed less grumpy, in very high spirits? Wedding bells- I'm manifesting it for JK. Manifest with me.

Remember when JM did a log and talked nonsense about JK, and JK did a rebuttal log to respond to JM and address some of the things JM had said about him? Remember that? It's a jikook thing and it's back😌

I have said JM uses social media to connect with Army while JK uses it as an outlet to express himself. Through out his Live he kept talking about how he wasn't prepared to do a live and it shows in the way he kept saying it was awkward, he just kept it business and didn't know what else to share... I wonder who put his paws on him, dragged his ass to turn on the camera because Armys had asked of him- a certain quick tempered chick who dragged his man out on social media to do the whole Chuseok greetings 2020 on Twitter perhaps?

And JK is so whipped he'd do just about all the hoops to appease his man- Jikook AU written by Goldy. High five. No but seriously...

Behind the scenes, JK sneaks into JM's bed at night- Taekook does it too? Please! The look on JM's face when RM spilled that tea is enough said.

There's only two people in BTS that panic and don't want us to know they lay one on God in bed and it's not Tae Kook.

JK: Jimin hyung and I will sleep here

JM: how about we let the others choose first

Everyone shares a room:

Footage:🦄🍲🐯🧀🐺🍟🐓🥛🐑🛏

JIKOOK share a room:

Footage: 🚪👀

Behind the cameras Jikook sneak into each others bed- camera caught them live. You saw JM's face, I can't make this shit up. Lol

Behind the scenes, Jikook do laundry at 1am. *insert JM pervy face meme.

Chileee, y'all making me trip with this one. Deep breaths.

Jikook have their moments. This was one of them. Can they be human? Please. Thank you.

At this point, these folks are not even shippers. They is shoppers shopping a man for their bias. Lol. Just admit y'all want Jeon thick thighs strong butt for your bias and go. Just admit you want some tall glass of Tiger charming face husky voice strong chest for your bunny and go. Lmho

Chilee, when we say Tae and Kook had a falling out we don't mean they freeze eachother out behind cameras. Hell, we don't even mean they fake their bond or interactions. C'mon! Tae and JK admitted they are not lovers and y'all is bitter. That's why y'all is making up this nonsense about Jikook. Speak the truth and shame the devil. Peter would be proud.

When we say Tae Kook is not real, We just mean JM spends JK's birthday with him while every one including Tae is out there cruising for Jesus with friends. We just mean Jikook claim eachother even when they beefing. That ship beefed and didn't even know they was beefing and they are real? Damn.

We just mean Jikook make efforts for each other even when they are having bad days- Had it not been for Jimin they'd still be gnashing on these cold streets. Place some respect on his name, y'all's ungrateful. Lol

Tae and JK don't want each other they both want Jimin- there. I said it.

Thanks for attending my Tedtalk. 👁👄👁

Now where was I? Never mind. I'm just gonna go burn some sage. There's too much negativity going on around. Hakuna matata!

There is nothing wrong with Taekook as a ship. Personally, I'm a multishipper I ship all the ships but I support Kookmin. I don't mind their shippers calling them whatever, but my eyes twitch when people who claim they support Jikook act wishy washy with Jikook. Lol. Like are you going to withdraw your support of Kookmin if JK sits on Tae's lap?👀 Yall make me nervous. How can you think Jikook is real but then look at Taekook and go huh??? What are y'all seeing that I can't see?

Like those are two completely different dynamics. It's the skinship isn't it? Talk to me. Jikookers who see something nonplatonic in Taekook honestly give me trust issues. Y'all have me out here looking over my shoulders.

I am delusional but I'm confident in my delusions because to me it is about the love and support for JM and JK as LGBTQ plus couples. Please stop shipping Jikook, stop shopping JK and JM for eachother and start supporting them because they are real.

IN MY OPINION.

Signed,

GOLDY

#jikook #jikook analysis #kookmin #kookmin analysis #jikooktheories #kookmintheories #goldy blogs #goldy theories #goldy analysis #nightswithkookmin #jikook fights

[aphrodite1288]

Not Quick disclaimer 💃

If any of y'all might be wondering...

I don't ruin Kaisoo's personal life...

I just..uhm..they want us all to know. 💁🏻‍♀️

And let me tell yall something.. Everyone in Korea knows of kadi even their haters...it's just us internationals who don't know shit. So I was just putting y'all on the board so that u won't look or feel like Delulus. It's sorry funny how everyone knows everything n y'all's look like shit all Stoopid in oblivion.

Everyone knows of kadi in Korea, Japan n China especially Hongkong n Tokyo Eksol.

So? Im just letting y'all know what everyone knows???

It's not like Kaisoo themselves or their supporters are trying to be low-key or anything..I mean Ji is an open book n ppl know everything.

And what I'm sharing with y'all is NOT A SECRET🤦🏻‍♀️ or that I'm invading their privacies...it's something THAT EVERYONE KNOWS...it's only US INTERNATIONALS who DON'T KNOW.

So no I'm just telling OLD things abt Kadi that Everyone Knows Of n Y'all Don't. And that Kadi themselves know everyone know abt them.

Guys Kaisoo n EunHae n Yunjae couples are huge in Korea n Japan😂 Chanbaek too!

And Why am I sharing things up so openly without being scared to invade their privacy or getting attacked by sasaengs or insiders??

👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻

Korean Kaisooists are wilding in Twitter n Naver yallz have to go n take look to know that it's totally fine to share old stuff. They even share new stuff abt kadi. 🤦🏻‍♀️

It's bcuz wut I'm telling yall is something they got over it in Korea n Japan..old news that everyone knows of. So they won't care if I share anything also I'm a small account who cares?

Also Ksoo's brother is so famous in Soul he n his father are business men who own factories n everyone knows them.. his Bro has his own sites in which he shares things..he meets people n eksolz n Kaisooists everyday in his Jobs Hahahahhahaha Everyone knows Ksoo's family. They're not secretive. His mother has a her own business n everyone goes to visit her let's not say her profession..his father too is a business man that everyone knows. It's not a secret! Ksoo's family are famous cuz they're all business men n women!

I'm just reporting y'all what EVERYONE knows n YALL DON'T. I don't wanna post pics or screenshots cuz that would be the real privacy invasion.

But as long as I'm just blabbering who can sue me? I didn't post anything/any evidence such as pics (even if I have them but I won't) cuz that would be the real privacy invasion.

But since I'm not posting any pics or evidence why do y'all have to even believe me??

So please I know wut I'm doing I don't want anyone telling me what to do..cuz the last thing I would do is to harm my faves. 💁🏻‍♀️

Dude y'all beg for Tea n evidence but when u FINALLY GET IT.. y'all go all playing the mature n wanting to protect ur oppas like "NO BUT YOU'RE INVADING THEIR PRIVACY N EXPOSING THEM n THAT WOULD HURT THEM!" but you still enjoy the Tea.

And if anyone has a question come ask me don't go asking others and if u have something you feel uncomfortable with in my posts come n tell me I'm a cool person yall I DON'T BITE. Let's be a family n let's not bring e/o down.

Now I understand why no one tells y'all a thing..cuz y'all THRIVE for CONFIRMATION n VALIDATION of Kaisoo...but when u Get the Tea y'all ain't grateful instead u attack n play the MATURE OVERPROTECTIVE FAN who wants to PROTECc her Oppaball costs n Be acting up as "the MATURE LET'S NOT INVADE MY OPPA'S PRIVACY" FAN.

Now I know why KOREANS n ASIAN EKSOL in general DONT TELL US ANYTHING ABT THE EKSOZ. Cuz they see us childish n Stoopid enough not to tell us. Now I know why. Too bad we bring e/o down when we should be one.

#kaisoo #kadi #love #dika #kaisoo love #Everyone knows it's just you who don't boohoo!

[ephemeralgalaxies]

Loki Ep4 Spoilers below (once more bc I just can't help myself, can I?)

It's been a while since I've had a character as interesting as Mobius to analyze and I have no chill. Spoilers start below:

Also some spoilers for WandaVision but it's been months so hopefully y'all have seen it

TL;DR Mobius really trying to connect back with Loki in order to try and bring the TVA down (and also bc "oops, Loki was right, guess I gotta own up to that bitterness") and it works but it hurts so much. Also see: I can't stop watching this scene over and over trying to understand Mobius' subtle actions bc his reaction here is so different than in all other scenes where he's usually calm or trying to delve deep into Loki's mind for information. Now he's just desperate.

Ok so I know I made a post talking about Mobius' jealousy in that interrogation scene but I also want to touch on when he comes back again after seeing the footage from C-20's interrogation scene bc man is so desperate here and I'm crying

(I'm sorry, I can't get gifs to work for me today so we just using images. But I got these from this post)

Mobius was so hurt last time we saw him, Loki being thrown back into the time cell with Lady Sif, hitting our dear agent with "out of all the liars in this place... you are the biggest... for the [lies] you tell yourself." Mobius has been pushing down all these doubts, hiding all his questions and curiosities of the TVA for a while. He's teased Ravonna, but could never really get anywhere. Then after speaking with Loki about Sylvie, about "you're all variants", Hunter B-15's suspicions, the oddness of C-20's "death" (M:"she was just fine before." R:"well, then she suddenly wasn't fine."). Mobius is finally allowing himself to realize things, to question truly what is going on. (R: "Is that what you wanted to hear?" M: "Yeah, if that's the truth." R: "You've been around Lokis too long.")

In this scene, when he comes back to the time cell for Loki, he's frustrated, he's angry, he's desperate. Everything is a lie. He can't pretend anymore. Loki has bonded with Sylvie (actually caring for another human being without the trauma of Thor: The Dark World and Thor: Ragnarok) ((I'm begging you, pls let him see a variant of Thor in this series and get to bond again, I miss them)). C-20 is likely pruned and gone forever with no answers. B-15 is getting anxious and unfocused. Ravonna is snapping at him and manipulating him with those long speeches (please, Mobius has heard enough from Loki's videos to know when he's being manipulated by fake sentimental words). He's tired, no longer patient enough for all the little quips-- he just need answers. For once in his "life" at the TVA, he just wants the truth. Something to safely hold to.

He's just put Loki through this timeloop of Lady Sif, of someone from home someone that could've been close to him under different circumstances, someone his brother cared about, kicking him/slapping him/ berating him with "you deserve to be alone, and you always will be." Loki's whole "Sacred Timeline Life" marks him to "always be alone", to finally get close to people before being torn away (whether in his own volition or by someone/something else). But with Loki caring for Sylvie, maybe even loving her, this changes everything for this Loki. He could finally care enough to save someone, to go out of his way in order to help others at his own cost. And Mobius knows this.

He asks again, desperate, pleading, hoping. Loki has to believe in himself, has to love himself enough to think to believe that he deserves a family, love, security from his greatest fear. He has to have changed because if not, then he'll either get pruned or wind up just like Mobius. Either way, gone from existence-- life erased, precious memories of "what if", "what once was", obliterated. He has to believe, or it'll happen again and again and again. To everyone, to the whole universe, unless something someone could do the impossible and shatter all reality.

With Wanda (specifically in WandaVision, final episode end credits), with her searching for her children and Vision, attempting the impossible and blending her realities in order to give them life because she needs them, she loves them. (M: "If you really care about [Sylvie]..."). This threat to the Sacred Timeline, pushing closer and closer to the MCU Multiverse, because they have to, because they want to.

(sorry again for bland picture, I love his expression in this gif but it wont load)

Mobius knows Loki is hurting-- from Lady Sif, from his past, from failing to protect Sylvie on his own, from Mobius not believing him and calling him "just a bad friend". He knows Loki could learn to believe, but he doesn't yet. Only Frigga ever told him she believed in him, he needs to hear it again. He needs to know he deserves love because he is loved. Mobius does, "believe, stupidly" (ep2) that Loki has this potential.

When I first saw this scene in the trailers, I was nervous it would be in the context of Mobius trying to get Loki on the TVA's side, "someone good". But here, this is so much better-- he knows the TVA is lying, is manipulating, is destroying lives. (L: "No one bad is every truly bad, and no one good is ever truly good" ep2 again lol). Loki knows he's not "truly good", that he's hurt people-- whether he planned to or not. But he can still be good. He can still choose to love, to care, to believe.

He can be what he's always wanted, what Frigga promised him, what he's always feared. He can be known, be loved, be safe-- Loki doesn't just fear being alone, he fears people choosing to leave him. That's why the memory of Lady Sif instead of Thor reaching for him on the Rainbow Bridge or Thanos threatening the Asgardian refugees or even Odin trying to explain why he "saved" Loki when he fought Loki's homeland. This memory was casual, simple, unnecessary. But it's always the smallest moments that truly impact us the most-- the slight changes.

When Mobius says this to Loki, he freezes-- he's confused, hesitant, scared. No one tells him this, why is someone telling him this, how can I believe this?

And then:

.And the little shrug Mobius gives here

It's so casual, so simple, so nonchalant. He just wants to reassure Loki that he still cares. He just spent a whole interrogation hounding on Loki for finding love with Sylvie, for changing with her (jealous boi be jealous), for lying to him and betraying him (M: "You don't do partners... unless ofc it benefits you and you intend to betray them at some point"). But now, now he's stopped lying to himself. He knows he cares, that Loki has a chance, that they have to burn this place down. Mobius wants stop this from ever happening again, from someone ever having to go through what Loki's gone through, being told they can never be loved because that's just how the Timeline goes. That a kid would be taken away from their family (probably because Sylvie presents feminine?? Idk, feel like MCU Odin wouldn't be so good with that). He has to reassure Loki, he wants to, because no one should ever feel that way again.

(and frick I really hate this, please look at the gifs from the linked post above, u gotta see his precious smile grow)

LOOK AT THIS SMILE, LOOK AT HIM HE'S HAPPY. And it was such a small, subtle apology from Mobius but it made all the difference bc he told Loki that he believes in him. And then they walk back out of the time cell, side-by-side, looking at each other. Content, safe, prepared to face the world together. He's no longer alone.

... And then ofc this happens...

*cue my heart shattering* (bless Hiddleston's acting).

The fact that you can even hear the hitch in Mobius' breath as he realizes this is the end of the line for him, that Ravonna knows and there's no going back--he's not making it out of this.

"One last desperate trick from the desperate trickster."

He talks about the jetski, about what his life might have been, he knows this hits Loki, being ripped from your timeline, losing all that potential. More importantly, it gives Loki a reason to fight. A silent, "Don't let this happen again. Don't let them get away with this. Please, remember me, don't let me disappear." But it doesn't work, because the one thing Mobius didn't account for, is that Loki cares about him. That now, the fight drains out of him. They pruned Mobius, ofc they'll get to Loki and Sylvie. They didn't even hesitate. Loki just lost, once again, the only other person who ever told him they believed in him. "You can be whoever, whatever..." "She told me I could do anything..."

Loki is less of a narcissist and more of a person desperate to fill that hole inside-- he's been neglected, cast aside, told he should want this and then never getting it. A "Glorious Purpose" to always hide in the shadows, to cause suffering, to give others a reason to unite against him. But for once, just once he hoped that he didn't have to do it alone-- that he could unite. And then they crushed those beautiful few seconds of hope like it was just another tedious, burdening purpose of the TVA.

(credits of images/gifs to the original posts linked, none were mine as I can't figure this out at all lol)

#loki spoilers #loki ep4 #wanda marvel #loki #loki series #mobius #mobius m mobius #agent mobius #dear god he has so many different name tags #sylvie #hunter b 15 #c 20 #queen frigga #ravonna renslayer #lokius #but not really #angsty #bc I can't help myself #character analysis #pls save me #im too deep into this episode now #there's just so much to unpack #long post