#dont @ me i dont knooooow

[yarrayora]

honestly? most people in the fandom probably haven't thought of misono's mother in a long, long time before chapter 136 was released

but i DO remember that when the fandom did bring her up, either in fanfic as a real character, or when they joke about how mikado is too lame to have two women vying for him, they basically treated her as... in the same boat as kiriko? you know, the legal wife who was being cheated on?

and i can see the point of view here. an innocent, naive woman, blinded by love. the only one at fault is the man who was taking advantage of the two women.

the idea of mikado being able to seduce two women is certainly against the popular fanon that is recently confirmed canon that mikado is a Huge Loser but of course the fandom immediately clung to that idea first because of the letters in lust arc implying that she was just happy to be able to love him selflessly.

see, but even if that was true? even if misono's mom was in it for love and not for the money? she still chose to pursue a relationship with a married man. if she wasn't a gold digger then she would have been an incredibly dense woman who thought everything was permitted as long as it was done in the name of true love

which was my original thought! i thought she would be someone whose head was full of fluff and flowers without thinking of the consequences!

which makes the fandom exploding when lily told misono that her mother was an ambitious woman all along kind of. you know. kinda makes me wonder if the fandom was okay with the adultery because they thought it was out of pure love? like. the adultery?

if lily confirmed that misono's mom was a gentle and loving person, would the fandom instead weep for her passing and once again not give a damn that she was mikado's cheating partner? would kiriko have been painted as a tragic villain instead of a victim?

basically, the only reason im this annoyed is because of the popular fanon that misono's mom was a virtuous woman just because the aliceins never blamed misono for what she had done

if not for that i wouldn't even bat an eyelash at people hating her

#servamp #servamp 136 #i knooooow most people just dont think about that part of alicein family drama because uh #who spend that much time thinking about cheating narrative? #me. of course. #maybe the otome game villainess genre is right #maybe people ARE stupid enough to permit adultery in the name of true love

[wickedwitchofthesouth]

I wonder how people address my account lol. I mean do you guys think about me?!?! I NEED TO KNOW HOW IM BEING PERCEIVED!!! If you show your friends a dumb post I made what do you say? "Hey look at the shit wickedwitchofthesouth posted" or do you use an abriviation? Wwots?!?!? Wicked?!?! That witch?!?! SOUTHERN WITCH?!?!? I NEED TO KNOW

I-

#this has been running through my mind for so lonh #random thoughts #what do you think of me #how am i perceived #i need to knooooow #idk #especially since i dont have my name on my account anymore #i wonder if i live in anyones mind rent free #that would be fascinating to me #i need friends on here that are my age #memes

[dreadfuldevotee]

bitches be like, "Im not an anxious person" and then spends 20 minutes having a waking nightmare about contaminating their kitchen with salmonella

#char.txt #trying to overcome my fear of cooking chicken because I miss eating it #but also torn by the cultural practice of washing meat and my seamingly newfound food based contamination anxiety #dont ask me where it came from i dont knooooow #it woukdnt be a problem if i lived alone and had full ability to bleach every surface in my kitchen at every whim but alas #i have a roommate with her own stuff out on the counters and in the sink and i feel like It Will Never Be Clean

[trainingdummyrabbit]

SONG I HAVENT LISTENED TO IN AGES JUMPSCARE

#every day things hit in just the right order and just the right timing to INSTANTLY STAGGER ME MEAN MEAN MEAN M #sitting here 'oh huh oc is following a different path than i wrote them to do haha ow' [<- mods they dont knooooow] #piktalk

[vanyafresita]

WWGRRRAAAAAAAHHHHHHH <- it wants to buy a secondhand book that is on sale, but it already has several books to-read right there in its bookshelf

#okay imma sound insane for a moment but bear with me #ive been avoiding the lord of the rings movies since i was like 14 cuz i wanted to read the books first #but then i never fucking did I KNOOOOOW OKAY every single person ive met friends professors and randoms tell me i should read the books !!! #and a few weeks ago a friend was like #if the lord of the rings books seem a big intimidating you should try reading the hobbit first its a light read and will get u in the mood #and today i was casually checking for 2nd hand books of le petit prince in french bcs thats the type of person i am #(<- collects the same book in different languages) #and suddently i saw on sale the hobbit book and im soooooo *explodes* #I NEED ITBSO BADLY BUT I HAVE MY BOOKSHELF RIGHT NEXT TO ME WITH AROUND 20 BOOKS I HAVE YET TO READ #/AND/ THREE BOOKS I STARTED AND HAVENT FINISHED YET #SOMEONE KILLLL MMEEEEEEE #''just watch the movies they are well adapted'' #what if i told you i'd rather kill myself #i already hate coraline as it is YES THE MOVIE IT FUCKING SUCKS THE BOOK IS ONE OF MY FAVOURITES AND THE MOVIE MESSED IT SO BAD #I COUDL WRITE A WHOLE ESSAY ON WHY IT SUCKED the animation and technique was cool i dont have a problem w that THE STORY THO- !!!!!! #anyways the thing with me is that i usually prefer reading books first and then MAYBE checking visual adaptations #cuz i like when my brain gets to imagine things i hate being given everything I WANNA MAKE A MOVIE IN MY HEAD FIRST !!!! #so yeah i will suffer for some more time until i finish reading my to-read pile of books and then i'll continue buying books #sorry for being insane tee hee #vanya strawberry flavored

[thegothicviking]

#unedited #no filter #am I demon...I need to knooooow #kill for me...die..for me..bleed for me #I usually dont feel this pretty #i guess demon red should be my new skin color?? #ghouls #goth #spooktober #halloween

[starlooove]

If punchline was black I’d forgive any dislike about her tbh. Same with flatline.

#yknow what punchline is black to me now as a lil treat #love black clowns <3 #for today or right now ig. #the punchline being black #will always love black clowns #OMG YALL DONT EVEEN KNOOOOOW #I forget I’ve only been on this blog for like. 2-3 years right? whatever shitty memory #had a very big clowncore phase like 2 years ago #still love clowns but like it was BIG BIG BIG before

[sludgeguzzler]

thinking of dyeing my hair blue

#so i can have. blue hair and pronoun #but my roots are pretty overgrown maybe i should take care of that before painting it #hm. i really dont know #last time it hurt like a bitch to bleach my hair i dont really wanna do that by myself #but also i cant afford a hairstylilst #man what if i just painted over it with blue dye and let that be #or what if i just cut my hair out let that be my new Thing #im actually so close to cutting my hair really short like just at home by myself #just me scissors and yup thats it #maybe todays the day where i finally get a buzzcut #hmmmmmm #hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm #yeah i am. buzzing my hair. and then painting it fucking. blue #yeahhhh #my brain imediatly concocted a reason why i should not do this damn. #yk what i do not care i want to have blue hair and pronouns so i will have blue hair and pronouns (lol) #ill just like. bleach it before i dunno #i dont knooooow i wanna cut my haiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrr

[hanarchy]

it‘s not necessarily warranted bc my track record with people younger than me is actually like… great but. we have two new 18yos at the office and they genuinely make me anxious bc teenagers scare me

#theyre absolutely fine but like #idk how to describe this anxiety bc its so DUMB #but theyre both very skinny and always wear makeup and put themselves together every day #which are all things i dont care to do and am fine without #but also i knooooow those girls from being a teen and uh #yeaaaaah they were not great #but yeah im definitely in no way their peer and i know they must be nervous its their first job etc so i will #do my very best to make them feel welcome and good abt working there and at ease #but also like 17yo me still lives inside me and she is being v weird #good thing she hasnt been in charge of the n 13 years lmao #like god i always sound insane and i swear im not #oart if why my track record is good is that i very much am 30 and good with that #but also teens are judgmental #most people kinda calm down as life goes on bc they realise that everyone goes thru shit #and like have themselves been pieces of shit tbhhh #but teens just fuckin judge u on sight lmao #personal #life

[gghosttowwn]

samia went inside my brain and lived there for a few months to get writing inspiration and she wrote Mad At Me about what she saw . there is no other explanation as to why the lyrics are Like That . who let her get away with that

#samia #honey #are you still #mad at me #are you stiiiiiiiill #mad at meeeeeeee #I DONT WANNA KNOOOOOW ANYMOOOOORE

[sungbeam]

h-hi everyone

i might have another idea

#sungbeam strikes again #i knooooow dont come at me #ik i have 387482 wips but this ones cool too 🤕 #it's gonna be quite a bit of work and planning needs to be detailed but this makes me excited for the first time in awhile 😔 #wip: wgp

[gigagasp]

Mmmfmmnnmmmmmworter

#we are speedrunning feelings of failure and grieving and suffering #like #i feel like I'm in an emotional wormhole between shock and numbness and acceptance #preparing to teach my first first day of school #i KNOOOOOW its going to be fine. #and still my materials are not fully complete (yall I'm using fucking Trello 😭 of my own accord thats how lost I am) #my room is neither complete nor at a point that is ready for students to come in #we keep walking one step at a time... falling forward #GOOOOODDDDD pain suffering dread like #i need therapy LMAO girl I KNOWWW this is irrational and I'm being goofy and whatever #it doesnt have to be perfect no one's asking or expecting perfection #am I batting below expectations? perhaps. but they're supporting me still. #FUCK AND I KNOW there are worse teachers than me 😭 but can I be a Good teacher? #also i Know I'm a good teacher... but i dont feel like a good teacher lmao. or feel like I act like a good teacher or do the administrative #things a good teacher does #craaawling in my skinnnnnnnn #booboop

[skylesbian]

when i first listened to out of my system i was like “yeah i like it, but i liked bigger than me more, idk :/“ and now im SO OBSESSED WITH IT, its literally my favourite song by far, i cant stop listening to it. not only the sound is SO GOOD but also like the lyrics hit so close to home. “take anything you can carry and leave everything else behind” “i am only half of what i think i could be” “im taking all of my demons, putting them where i wont see them, ‘cause i just wanna feel alive” ??????? HOW!!! btm also feels personal but this is just so......yeah.....yeah this!!! idk these songs are just so in line with the process i’ve been doing in the last couple of years and. like his album’s name IS faith in the future im :’) IM SO EXCITED FOR THE REST OF THE SONGS.

#hi im never here anymore but i have so many feelings about these songs #THE LYRICS MAN THE LYRICS!!! #he’s doing things to my soul with those lyrics #he’s so brilliant. he feels so personal like..... i feel like we have been doing this process together #because there’s NO WAY his lyrics are this fucking relatable like hes putting into words things that i have felt in these last few months #and i knooooow they probably feel relatable to many LMAO i dont think im special 😭😭😭 but this is literally what my life is headig RIGHT NOW #this is happening to me with such a big presence and he’s out there just.....saying everything the right way tbh #ltxt #IDEK I LOVE HIM SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA 💐❣️🤲🏽🤎✨🌹

[toastsnaffler]

damn I rly have another 4 weeks of holiday this year huh. I should start making some plans

#well maybe more like 3 weeks bc I wanna keep some to use for long weekends or day trips #but thats still kind of a lot.. #my problem is i dont wanna take time off just to stay at home bc I do that most weekends. but im not sure I rly wanna go anywhere either #I dont mind travelling but its very much just a function for me. even when im travelling for fun + not bc I Have to it feels no different #Im v independent but I just dont rly have the adventurers spirit. plus im disabled so going new places alone is so stressful sometimes #ugh I dont wanna let my parents catch wind of how much holiday i have tho bc theyll be like come stay with us for a week! #i will Kill Myself no thanks #theyll probs already get christmas with me and thats an ordeal enough #its the expense as well idk how much its worth it. even if i can afford it like that money couldve gone into so many other things #ahhh. #my flatmate did suggest we go somewhere together but i feel like shes gone off that idea.. ik she doesnt get as much holiday anyway #id feel bad eating into it just so she has to spend more time with me even tho we already live together. nightmarish ik #there are maybe some landscapes id like to see but not alone bc id wanna hike but i dont rly have any friends into that kinda hiking #like i cant rly just fuck off into the mountains for a week by myself the risk is stupid #i dont knooooow. maybe ill just do myself a cornwall trip v early or late summer when kids are in school that might be nice #bc its just trains to get there. and ive spent a lot of time alone there before like it wouldnt be as stressful as a New Place entirely #i wanna do a music festival in the summer too but rly id only need 2 days holiday for that. and again i cant rly go alone #so i need to find ppl to convince to come w me #god i feel so lame for not rly wanting to go on proper holidays. but its never felt worth it to me sorry 😭 #blame the childhood trauma or whatever #ill stew on it and maybe ill think of something we'll see. ive got a while yet before id need to book stuff anyway #gotta do some more cleaning today but the sooner i can get it done the sooner i can play elden ring 🙏🙏🙏🙏 #.diaries

[infiniteseriesofhalfways]

no its ok this chapter is already 9k let me add some more fuckin words to it

#i was just telling my mom that i am a short chapter girlie #like the fuckin...the name escapes me but the lesbian romance ebook i was reading. 10 minute chapters. great i love it #according to reedsy this ch is like 40 minutes. which. is not my jam. i might have to cut it up #which tbh it was previously and then i thought about it like... this is all one night. theres a flashback in the middle #but then we're talking three chapters and idk how i feel about that #but the self pity spiral im writing is like. its important to the why ryan has to fix shit #but maybe theres something to be said for 'he'd wanted to fix it [...] but no. of course he's gone and fucked it all up. #why is he surprised? #and just leave it at that. i dont fuckin knooooow #im sure the way i ramble about this book makes it very appealing #but you know what fuck it this is the process sometimes #like a movie #nightmare calling

[mayhem-moth]

What's that tired feeling where when you close your eyes, it feels like you and everything around you constantly change sizes?? I can't sleep until i figure this out.

#need sleep #i need to knooooow #need sleeeeeeeeep #plz tell me #ill google it #mabye ill just go to bed #will i regret posting this? #dont care lmao