#dont know which kind tho

sapitchuazul

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I feel like a god now

#pepper #dont know which kind tho #just found it nice and kept them alive for some months now

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tabellae-rex-in-sui

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GREAT Valentine’s day ask

Pretty sure it was Émilie with Maupertuis in 1734…

#it does depend on interpretation and your definition of an 'affair' tho #especially what constituted an 'affair' in 18c france vs what constitutes one now #the thing with Maupertuis iirc was pretty one sided... on Émilie's side #and V didn't seem to mind?#at least.... at the time #that's also assuming he knew what was going on. i mean... we dont even know #youre right it is tricky to figure it out #we're only going off letters #in most cases #if we're only going off of hard evidence i guess i'd be Voltaire with Mme Denis circa 1745(?)#but theres times before that that its kind of a gray area for both of them #it also depends how you interpret V and Fritz' relationship #and after V's unannounced trip to Prussia; Émilie rebounds with Duc de Richelieu; sendin him all ''Voltaire's abandoned me!'' letters #which; in her defense; he kinda did #theres a lot of factors going on here #but hey; its an 18c nobility* relationship #things are bound to get complicated #* V and Maupertuis aren't nobles but they hung around them enough that they basically are cmon #ask #anon ask

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i’m so full of anger and bitterness these days. it doesn’t make any damn sense. and altho i’m rly aware of it, i’m having a hard time not indulging in it.

#mine #like i get irritated over the smallest things #and now i just decided to ignore messages from ppl who leave me waiting for replies #even tho i understand why theyd be busy or distracted #but its like im all out of patience and i cant bring myself to message them back as usual #idek how id address it like ''hello you talk to me once in a blue moon and it annoys me dont talk to me anymore''#which mind you i do not want to lose these friendships but turns out i am rly bitter and idk how to manage that #or to address it w/o being all mememe #i hate this feeling where its like i dont rly like anyone or i like a selective few #its hard to tell if its the depression or if i genuinely dont like these ppl but im trying to be nice #cus some days ill be like ''i love this person even if we dont talk much wahoo''#then weeks later ill be like ''if they dont message back im not double texting lol if it dies it dies''#like am i depressed or kind of a jerk? who knows. bit of both maybe

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its been like 4 days but im already bored

edit: i lied its been 5 days lmao

#like ngl if there was no panoramic it would be so much easier for me to just completely forget this blog #but the only places i go to are school and home and its BORING #esp since i only have 1 academic class right now and its one of my best subjects #i started opening up to my counsellor and parents more tho which has helped a lot #so who knows might cut this hiatus really short lol #also thank you everyone who sent in really kind messages 😭💗 i probs shouldve kept my ask box open djjsjfjd #anyways i’m working on a new oc cuz i dont wanna start over jaehee again since theres a lot attached to her that i dont wanna go back to

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tiny vent!! inconsequential in the long run!! dw about it!! it’s a non issue no trigger warnings just little pining vent! read or don’t read idc

#thinking about how even tho people have admitted to liking me after they got over their crush #ive only ever been asked out as a joke. and how i've gotten stood up multiple times even when i have asked people out #and how it kind of sucks to like. not be desired in the way it seems other people get desired. like why dont people just ask me?#im approachable? ive been called non threateningly pretty like 6 times so im like quite sure that its not bc im Too Hot #am i too visibly mentally ill? do i flirt too much with everyone?? whats going on??#i've put a lot of feet forward in my time on this earth and i've always been the starter for things and ive been rejected plenty #and idk i just think its time for me to be wooed u know? i think i should be the one who gets asked to things.#i also want dates that i dont have to plan and unexpected gifts and to be flirted with and given special affection and attention #i want to get surprise hugged and casually touched and have hands rest on my waist and have someone check up on me in groups and like #when will someone look after me? its rotten work sure but maybe it wont be to someone u know?#i think ive done enough romancing i think someone should like me enough to put themselves on the line for once.#but idk maybe i expect too much.... its not happened yet so like. rip #sorry for pining publicly. fallen into multiple romance hyperfixations and valentines day is approaching #and people keep getting crushes and telling me about them (which is cute!! i do like being in the know)#but it means i have a lot of time to think about what i want #and rn i think its mostly to be wanted

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I really do need to actually watch Ojamajo Doremi all the way through bc I never have, despite it being a huge part of my life in fourth and fifth grade. Back then as far as I could tell, Sharp was still in the process of being subbed and the rest of the show wasn’t subbed at all. I know I watched all of the original (many, many times, both dubbed and subbed), mmmooostt? of Sharp (not sure I actually finished it? im having a hard time remembering…), but I’ve never actually seen anything else except the very last episode and a few Naisho ones (the non-chan episode is going to FUCK ME UP if I end up rewatching)

i know late child me was really mad they chose not to be witches at the end, haha. I’m curious if the themes will land better with me now or if I’d still be in the “wait no I want to live a long time with all my best friends using magic” camp.

#dont get me wrong i used to read a TON of stuff so i know about the witch queen metaplot and momokos general personality and such #i kind of fell off it towards the 2/3 way of sharp bc i just wasnt enjoying them raising a baby as the main plot. it just. meh.#like theyre in what fourth grade why is the plot about them raising a CHILD #and then horribly i got into shugo chara which is a far far worse choice #ive heard motto is generally considered the best season tho so i would like to actually watch it #i love momo from what i read and watched in naisho #ojamajo doremi #mary blabs

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lunima

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must i write to be an rper?? is it not enough to shitpost and leave.

#out.#i'm kind of tempted to reboot this blog bc its just... so messy and i don't even know what direction ez is going in anymore #i never actually lose muse for her tho which is nice #i just need to do some renovating ig #again #me after long periods of absence: REVAMP INCOMING!!#dont look @ me

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#bee buzzes #ive been staring at these applications for over 2 months #i have one paragraph to do #about a play that i read and how i would adapt it #and then i have to produce a two minute podcast and write an essay about that #and im trying to work on the first one #and i know what i need to write #but i cant start #and idk if its because im scared theyll deny me again but like thats guaranteed to happen if i dont finish #i think im just having trouble imagining the future #and im fine my brain is just not being kind rn #and like i was ready for this a few years ago #and i feel like im not ready now #even tho i want it so badly #but now im self sabotaging by not finishing it #which ill regret #so im just staring at this doc #trying to finish it #and nearly in tears

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Am starting to seriously envisage learning ASL, if not to communicating on a daily basis just so I can actually fucking communicate in the rare time where I get overwhelmed by emotion (generally being extremenly sad) because I know I just can’t speak correctly without just breaking down.

Would it actually be useful? No, since no one around me knows it, bity heck would it be easier for me to explain why am crying without breaking back into tears.

#morgan posts #my dad earlier asked what was wrong because I clearly had been crying #(still fucking am on intermittent tho)#and all I could do was just vague gesture towards my dog #but what caused my crying today wasnt really just that #just how my mom commented about her 'getting a shot' because she was frustrated that my dog wouldnt go upstair #shes scared of them now because she manage to hurt herself a couple of time #and she apparently didnt went upstair since this morning #yet this isnt a reason to put it that way!!!#I know she dont have much more to go #but fuck dont get surprise that I want to cry because of that #but i couldnt say all that #of course not #so my dad guessed i was just crying about the condition of my dog #which is also valid despite knowing she dont have much longer #am so tired of my very rare fit of crying like that being kind of dismessed #what do you want me to fucking do?!?!?#I already bottle everyone things up to cry alone in my room since I hate crying in front of others #i can probably count on one hand the last times it happen in the last couple of years #am just so fucking tired

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#i found an emulator for it and 1000000% j/anis is supposed to be white lmao both her parents are #which begs the question can reincarnations be a different ethnicity than their prior person?#perhaps but it dOESNT MAKE SENSE #but i guess if i add her to my multi i gotta go w it smh #out.#blonde blue eyed pale and big curly hair #and the first person who comes to my head is amanda seyfried lmao #i'd 100000000000% change it from her leaving to go back home to ultimately having to stay in feudal japan tho js #maybe edit it to where she kept some of her powers but not all #but idk yet its still just an idea #why am i replaying this when i hated it as a teen we just dont know #lbr im trying to get to the moon cave part where she meets sess just bc him helping for like ten minutes and then yeeting out of the #entirety of it to deny ever helping a kind of human and avoid looking at his brother is just hilarious to me

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hmmmmmm so i completely forgot in the blur that was 2020 that the tie-up movie for psycho pass s3 aired and now its available w eng subs so s3 is complete. but like, is it separate from s1/s2 for the most part??? i rly wanna watch it now that i think abt it bc psycho pass was such a good show but if its too direct of a follow-up then id have to rewatch s1 and s2 and like.. as much as i love the series s2′s gore was unbelievable i dont think i could stomach it again

#god its been so long since ive seen pp actually.....#i stopped at the 1st movie which i watched w everyone else w ripped eng subs and a raw mov #i had no idea they made more movies to bridge s2 and s3 like 4 yrs later oof #i do remember vaguely hearing abt a s3 tho??#but yea my psycho pass phase ended early 2015 would GLADLY hop back on tho #if the new content is worth it #i read the summary and it seems like its w a new cast #but if there are callbacks of any kind i most likely will get none of them sooo #damn all of them literally came out in 2019 what was i watching then that i missed all the pp content????#i feel like all the k project movies came out early that year so prolly that #golden kamuy n chihayafuru too #o actually wait that was the start of the Year of daiya no wonder i blanked on everything else #anyway im rambling but IF YOUVE SEEN PP S3 N ENJOYED IT PLS RESPOND #if i have to watch the movies b4 s3 iunno tho #the eps are already 45+mins #if i have to watch 3 1hr long movies b4 i might fall off #esp if they dont have anything to do w the sibyl system #tbh i could def watch s1 again but like #knowing what happens (what to expect gore-wise) in s2 is a turn off plus mika is annoying lmaoooo #if i could go in blind again i would give it a shot but knowing #that i would be rewatching scenes that had my stomach in knots n remembering having to pause the ep to sit n breathe is a turn off #pp is incredible w the genre tho its very psychological #anyway thats enough ill stew on my thoughts for a few days

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