#dont look at me im about to cry

[yrsonpurpose]

When I was a boy, my father used to bring me here. Early in the morning before the museum opened. Now I like to come at night. In here, at night, no one else is around to gawk at you or try and take your picture. You can slip between the statues like a shadow. When I was younger, I would dream of taking somebody I loved here. And he'd love it as much as I did. And we'd dance right here amidst all these statues. Just a daft pubescent fantasy. Please be patient with me, and I promise I will try and be brave for us. Because when they write the history of my life, I want it to include you, and my love for you. History, huh? Bet we could make some.

#rwrb #rwrbedit #red white and royal blue #alex claremont diaz #henry fox mountchristen windsor #firstprince #usersteen #usernuria #usermaloune #userveronika #chrissiewatts #userninz #userlang #mine* #ever feel like crying #dont think about the fact the security images got leaked #alex guiding henry's hand straight into his hair bc he knows he likes it #im fine thats absolutely fine #henry was looking at the statues but alex was only looking at henry and to me thats cinema

[allforthe-gay]

it is completely one hundred percent baffling to me that any of the foxes would come away from witnessing neil and andrew's reunion in baltimore with the opinion that their relationship was just hate fucking . like my brother in christ are you blind

#andrew was FERAL . #he fucking choked KEVIN like COME ON #and he was like RACING into the room to see neil and #he was all like *tugs neil's hoodie to get his attention* *threatens anyone who tried to come close to them (abby)* #he was all like 'i dont trust them to give you back.' come on man . #and neil was looking at andrew . most definitely Like That. when he was talking to abby #neil was all battered and bruised from barely dodging a fucking death sentence and he sees andrews partly red eye and thats #the first thing he talks about #*lightly taps a thumb against the bruise at andrews eye* i didnt know theyd staged a riot #they were all like Looking at each other and ..... idk i am not explaining this well enough but . #you don't need me to. you all read it #it was So Fucking Obvious my god #im crying bc even neil thought nicky wasnt far from the truth at that point #like he could not have been more incorrect istg . #aftg #andreil #neil josten #andrew minyard #all for the game #mi ne

[the-holy-ghosted]

congrats 2 henry peglar for being the only bitch confirmed as to be Fucking That Old Man

#the heron giveth #the terror #alright here come the funny tags #bridglar #briglar #people spell it both ways i think. ill do both hujst to be safe #henry peglar #john bridgens #uh um um. uh #peglar x bridgens #THIS FEELS WEIRD. TO TYPE #bridgens x peglar #alright im done good GRIEF #this isnt even that extreme compared to the shit people are putting on ao3 about these two. god. #anyways hi ive watched this show maybe 7 or 8 times? only just recently have i gotten hooked on them #the scripts make me go nuts too. ''they were lovers in their pasts'' shut the fuck up dont say that to me ill start crying #this is the most risque thing i have ever posted on here #getting out of the fandom game for a while rewired my brain i have to get weird again. and boy do they make me feel weird ! #i have a number of terror mutuals who r gonna go nuts over this. fuck yes a little bowl of seeds for me style #this looks blurry posting it hopefully tumblr doesnt crunch the shit out of the quality anyways im done typing goodbye

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

i... wrote a smol fic (っ´▽`*)っ

also!!!!! If you haven't seen it - shoutout to first ever published fic in Ninja Showdown/My Immortal Soul tags - Lustrous Red by @missadmyre !!!

#ninja showdown #my immortal soul #first ninja x chase young #rc9gn first ninja #first ninja #rc9gn #chase young #xiaolin showdown #randy cunningham 9th grade ninja #rc9gn plop plop #well i say smol fic.... but those 4k words felt very long. #i did say i was going to direct my energy into writing >.> and now look at me ive gone insane #no actually dont look at me im just gonna go cry over my 20k words of rough drafts for like dozen ideas that are now going #to haunt my every waking moment like JESUS i woke up today and literally wrote out 1k words of an idea for a modern au for those two TToTT #its literally an au where its a meet cute turned meet violent and first is randy's sorta dad and chase wants to adopt omi #not to mention a different AU where its an epic mystery adventure AAAAAAA someone heeeelppppp meeeee #also. its been a month but im still staring so intently at missadmyre's fic hoping for another crumb. like thank you sm for the food!!!! #ive literally been rereading it several times after i went insane about it on my main blog and im still slurping at it like a starved perso #Ive been collecting my ideas like a dragon but after reading that fic i was like: I WANT TO READ MORE FICS ABOUT THEM #but i dont wanna be a whiny baby&beg others and be annoying about it. So i put on my big person pants and was like f it WE R WRITINg NOW #so i dont care how bad my writing will be. we gonna be balling on those ideas and YES it doesnt make sense im just v rambly rn

[daily-hanamura]

Aww bancho that's such a sweet sentiment! It's really

Oh.

#p4 #p4g #p4d #persona 4 dancing #persona 4 #persona 4 golden #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #DONT TOUCH ME IM VULNERABLE RIGHT NOW #everyday i come on to this app to yell at you guys about how important yosuke is to yu #i know we all know this already but still BUT STILL every time i look at the evidence i want to cry #LOOK AT HOW CLOSE TO HIS HEART BANCHO HOLDS YOSUKES WORDS #GUYS THAT WAS THE FUCKING SCENE THAT RISE WAS CONFESSING HER LOVE TO YU IM ACTUALLY YELLING BECAUSE #HERE YU IS. REPEATING YOSUKE'S WORDS ON NATIONAL TELEVISION #he's good with his queue

[randomminty]

Just a buncha cynthias

#some of these look out of character but eh #pokemon #art tag #champion cynthia #i draw cynthia so much shes so fun to draw. illl never know how her hair works that wont stop me #ive started watching a bunch of the pokemon anime even though i never liked it before. MAN i was missing out #i mostly just tuned in to see it butched my fav characters but thats the completely wrong mindset to watch it in #ive been watching as somewhat separate to the games and its so much fun #and the dub…… its good but so unintentionally funny #i didnt care abt alain but after seeing him go MEGA EVAAAOLVE like 5 times in the mega special i adore him #if i dont see miarin in the anime again ill cry i miss her #last thing about the anime for now i forgot they kept lances old va for journeys #im used to his pokemas and generations voice which is p different so that was funny. leons journeys va is so good too #ANYWAYS CYNTHIA. cried when i saw her again in journeys. shes so cool

[skunkes]

(trying to be) happy to be here

#a doodley #1st pic is from last yr #im an easy crier and lately its bc i hate the way my life is going but then i think abt how one day ill be dead and i wont be able to #draw anymore or look at birds anymore or eat things i like anymore and it also sends me into insane crying hysterics #i want to live so bad.... but idk... i shld make the best of what i have. and try to cope with what i have (hence the images) #bc like idk. i want to leave so bad but my parents will be gone someday too so why am i in a rush to not see em...idk. #i dont knowwwwwww chimp image #copium. i have to find anything to be excited about. trying. #sorry its those nefarious 3 am thots -_-

[redloftwingfeathers]

I love it when music takes me places

#its like the biggest hug youve ever received #feels like home #yes this is about zelda music #yes this is about the aoc ost #yes im gonna cry #no dont look at me #cat talks

[fizzytoo]

"I will die a better man with you in my life / I can't wait to tell the world that you're my wife!" (♪)

#ts4 gameplay #sims 4 gameplay #postcard legacy challenge #IM IN LOVE WITH EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU ALL THE OLD AND ALL THE NEW ‼️ YOU KEEP GETTING BETTER AND BETTER 🎤🎤🔊🔊🗣️‼️ #PLEASE PLEASE LISTEN TO THE SONG‼️‼️ #this is literally their song like im foaming at the mouth you have no idea #my babies are engaged and i was actually fr crying 🦔 dont look at me #danny booo ‼️‼️🍅🍅 cornball cornball. how you gonna prepare a romantic picnic date and propose on love day.....CORNY* #*bullying my sims as a sign of affection 🦔🫰🏽 #danny’s sister terra’s watching juliette and she’s probably teaching her how to cuss #he prepared everything they ate that day and absolutely refused to let rosa in the kitchen #he was probably even more nervous preparing the sweets than he was for the actual proposal #with the love of his life being a baker he was a little flustered about the taste but he did just fine 🥺 #postcard: gen2 #queue #sim: rosa han #sim: danny avagyan

[carma-tjol]

“To know you is to love you.”

#one punch man #OPM #fubuki #psykos #fubukos #psybuki #fubuki x psykos #psykos opm #fubuki opm #carma art #take my heart dont lose it... listen to your heart #do you know how fucking long i spent downloading glaze for this #or uhhh drawing it in general #worth it. this is my lockscreen now. every time i look at it i want to cry. like in a good way. WAHHHHH #everything i draw gets a massive improvement from the last #probably because i was taking a life drawing class at the same time #something about drawing naked people constantly makes you better at anatomy and shading. who knew. #10/10 do recommend. take a life drawing class if youre an artist (and not a perv) #color work has always been my weakest point and im taking a painting class next quarter. none of u are fucking ready for me

[pocket-prosecutor]

it's not always that bad maybe. sometimes it's fun, even

#g/t #ace attorney #wereshifter miles au #art tag #giant/tiny #aa gt #aa g/t #hi im not too used to drawing gregworth yet but im getting there teehee #dont look at Gregory's hands too much i know they're not quite consistent sized #i made these relatively quickly bc my brain was ITCHING to draw something and I can't use my PC upcoming week so- #tadaah #humans are able to adapt to a lot of situations and that includes this one #though it probably would take Miles months before he was able to accept his condition #thank god he has a great dad and let's not think about anything bad for a bit #just happy times w his son who shrinks after sunset #the one w the hands originally had crying Miles but the other sketch made me so happy #so i changed it! :) happy now

[yellowocaballero]

Been a fan of your fics for YEARS. I was just telling my friend how despite how much I read fics I never actually love them, with some of your fics (especially TMA) as the exception. Felt the need to reread some of them and saw you reblogged some ISAT fanart. So. Any thoughts on ISAT you'd like to share?

Hope you have a wonderful day!! So happy I found your fics again!!

I avoided answering this for a while because I was trying to think of a way to cohesively and coherently vocalize my thoughts on In Stars and Time. I have given up because I don't want to hold everybody here all day and I have accepted that my thoughts are just pterodactyl screeching.

I love it so much. I have so much to say on it. It drove me bonkers for like a week straight. I have AUs. It's absolute Megbait. They're just a little Snufkin and they're having the worst experience of anybody's life. Ludonarratives my fucking beloved.

I am going to talk about the prologue.

The prologue is such a fascinating experience. You crack open the game and immediately begin checking off all of the little genre boxes: mage, warrior, researcher, you're the rogue...some little kid who's there for some reason...alright, you know the score. You're in yet another indie Earthbound RPG, these are your generic characters, let's get the ball rolling.

Except then you realize that these characters are people. You feel instantly how you've entered the game at its last dungeon, at the end of the adventure. They have their own in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They get along well and they're obviously close, but not in a twee or unrealistic way. They have so much chemistry and spirit and life. I fell in love with them so quickly.

But Sif doesn't. Sif kind of hates them, because they will not stop saying the same damn thing. They walk the same paths, do the same things, make the same jokes, expect Sif to say the same lines. They keep referencing a Sif we do not see, with jokes we never see him make and heroic personality he never shows - they reference a Sif who is dead - and Sif can't handle that, so he kills them too.

They become only an exercise in tedious frustration. Sif button mashes through their dialogue, Sif mindlessly clicks the same dialogue options, Sif skips through the tutorial, Sif blows through the puzzles. Sif turns their world into a video game. Sif is playing a generic RPG. Sif forgets their names. They are no longer people with in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They're the mage, the warrior, the researcher, and...some random kid.

I did not understand the Kid's presence at first. I had no idea what they contributed to the game. They didn't do anything. As a party member in a video game, they're a bit useless. Why is the Kid there?

Because Sif's life isn't a video game. Because the kid isn't 'the kid'. They're Bonnie. Bonnie, who the party loves. Why is Bonnie there? Because they love them. There is no room for Bonnie in the boring RPG that Sif is playing. And then you realize that Sif is wrong, and that they've lost something extremely important, and that they'll never escape without it.

Watching the prologue before watching ISAT gave ISAT the most unique air of dread and horror, because you crack open ISAT and you see the person Sif used to be. You realize that Sif used to be a person. Sif used to be the person who made jokes, who gave real smiles, who interacted with the world as if they are a part of it. And you know you are sitting down to watch Sif lose everything that made them a person, to lose everything that made them a member of this world, and turn them into a character in a video game who doesn't understand the point of Bonnie at all.

At the climax of the game, when the others realize that something is deeply wrong and that Sif physically cannot tell them, they realize that there is nothing they can do. So Bonnie declares snacktime. And for the first time they have snacktime.

What is snacktime? Classic JRPGs don't have snacktime. There's literally no point to a snacktime - not in a video game, and not in Sif's terrible life. It's not fixing this, because nothing can fix this. But Bonnie gives Sif a cookie and Sif eats it.

It's meaningless. It's a cutscene. It didn't save Sif and it didn't change a thing. It will make no difference in the end.

But it did make the difference. It made all of the difference in the world. Bonnie is a character who you really don't understand the point of before you realize that Bonnie was the entire point.

ISAT is about comfort media. Why do we play the same video games over and over again? Why do we avoid watching the finale of our favorite shows? What is truly comforting: a story with no conflict, or a story where you always know what is about to happen? Do you want to live in a scary, uncontrollable world, or do you want to play Stardew Valley? Do you want a person or a character?

When I beat Earthbound for the first time (and if you don't know, the prologue/ISAT battle system is just Mother) and watched the ending cutscene where the characters part ways and say goodbye...I felt a little bit sad. I wanted them to be together forever. But that's something only characters could ever be.

#these aren't deep or unique thoughts they're just the specific aspect of ISAT that made it one of the most interesting gaming experiences #i actually like the prologue much more than ISAT for just this reason #its honestly a video game art piece that's created to give the player a very specific experience #that makes them an aspect of the narrative that is told #it's. incredible. #in stars and time #start again start again start again #start again: a prologue #isat #god and there is so so so so much more to say here #what a rich and complex and fascinating game that made me cry like a baby #i dont even kin sif. we arent similar at all. #i cant imagine how devastating this game would have been if i did #but I do have a deep relationship with escapsim #and i write about it a lot #and video games about being video games are wonderful #as are stories about being stories #and why we consume stories. how we use them. how they save us and hurt us. #never played a video game that used its medium so well #i bet undertales also pretty good at that but this is more so i think #stories about stories have to be about why we love stories #and im not an artsy person and i roll my eyes a bit when people talk about the spiritual neccesity of art #i think people need stories because the world is sad and hard and boring and we want to think about something else for a while. #some people need to be anywhere but here #and sometimes if you're Lil Depressed-Ass Snufkin that looks like being here forever #baby cringe-ass snufkin big hat idiot

[troybarnesbabygirlconfirmed]

what if i told you every scrap of troybarnesbabygirlconfirmed content comes from this Mid White Birch… would you still love me?! or would you unfollw imeddiat …. #facreveal

#i added the bikini pic to let everyone know that i look so normal #i promise i am LITERALLY HOMOSEXUAL #i literally look so straigyr #im so sorry #i promise im not #im not straight #im sorry #also please dont bully me #im really really fragile #and if you say something mean about my appearance i kid you not ill cry for hours

[robotpussy]

i wish ppl would just shut up when ppl say they're afraid of something i don't care if you think it's stupid or unnecessary or the thing they're afraid of is already widely disliked by many people you don't understand where ppls trauma is coming from and even if there isn't any trauma causing the fear just shut up and move on

#people do this to me about spiders theyre always like omg it wont do anything to you but thats the fucking thing #that annoys me so much i know it wont do anything to me i know they are important to the environment but im still fucking scared #of spiders they just look scary and i literally freeze up and cry when i see a huge one like i genuinely get scared #i dont care that its smaller than me i dont care that you think theyre cute i dont care that youre tired of ppl hating #spiders. im scared of them because i am you dont neee to give me biology 101 to try and get me to not be scared leave me alone #i feel the same way abt ppl who laugh at ppl for being scared of dogs #'oh? ur scared of the 4 yr old dog is barking at you?' like so what if this is the case? shut up!!!! it doesn't matter that u think its #stupid alot of these fears that ppl think are stupid aren't a open door for u to ne patronising just shut the fuck up #there is a girl i know who has a phobia of crisps/chips and ppl think its stupid and inconvenient #like. who cares if u think its stupid there is a real trauma behind her fear and even if there wasnt literally. calm down and go somewhere #else and eat the crisps like omfg

[gayfour]

experimenting with filters and stuff again :)

#star trek #star trek the search for spock #star trek movies #spirk #k/s #kirk/spock #i dont know why spock came out looking kind of like a ghost #i was going for something more like sun and moon sort of? #im gonna find some sort of deep meaning to ghost spock and cry about it #because wait 😭 because he came back differend 😭😭😭😭 #it would be so fucked up if he came back as a ghost #like jim saying “he couldnt touch me” #but then if he came back #but as a ghost #and like HE STILL COULDNT TOUCH HIM 😭😭😭😭 #okay im apparently not normal about them still i guess

[furbyeggs]

drew a thing or something i suppose

#art #robot #robot wires #robophilia #robotfucker #i dont rlly like the wires for hair thing but i decided to test it out for once #if it looks bad that's because i use kleki #i swear im such a good artist #one of my irl friends follows my on here and i will cry if she sees it #she already calls me a robotwhore and a roboslut soooo #would be very very embarrassing #i swear im normal guys #im normal about robots #i am to be trusted with machinery #machinefucker #i am but a humble robotliker who gets called many many horrid names by my friends #(i tell them i want to take apart sun fnaf and look and his insides and they act reasonably horrified) #im literally aroace and they act APPALLED when i say something SLIGHTLY odd abt robots #IM NORMAL #IM NORMAL ABOUT ROBOTS #i swear #when i was little everytime there was a fictional robot on screen id get sucked in. like i wouldn't be able to stop staring until they were #gone #like id just be staring no thoughts #brain completely empty nothing in my mind but “OMG ROBOT!!” #i still do this sometimes actually but its not as bad #i just think robots are neat! they're cool #(on screen as in whenever i was watcing tv)