ix. the creation of atlas / xiao ( genshin impact )
[ the hermit. ]
( why does tragedy exist?
because you are full of rage.
why are you full of rage?
because you are full of grief. )
a/n: quote by anne carson
in darkness lies :
REGRET: to forget the sins of the past is an act of cowardice. to carry the weight of your burdens is a trial of living, one he thinks to endure until the earth lays him to rest and the calling is heard by another. he tires of it, but the blood on his hands is a reminder of an ugly past, a haunting, and phantom ties wrapped around his wrists.
“keep your distance.” the adeptus warns, but the trace of malice is drowned entirely by melancholy. an aching. his soul trembles in your presence. what will come in the future, he wonders, if you continue this?
yakshas survive loneliness by protecting others. it is all he knows. it’s better that way. safer. in his life, he has witnessed too much loss, and most of it caused by him. perhaps he had a heart, once. he simply wonders if it was taken from him or whether he rid of it himself.
( it doesn’t matter. it doesn’t. it won’t.
a single beating heart would not make a difference in the world. not his. )
CORRUPTION: the sunlight is too bright an existence, too kind and gentle on his skin. it reminds him of someone, and to even indulge in the thought brings reluctance. you are too close, but he cannot distance himself, even if he tried. you find a way, you always do-- perhaps that is what draws him closer.
his head hurts. he cannot think. it is happening again. again, again, again--
he is weak. all these years of drowning in hatred and it is the one thing he fails to defeat. a flood of memories intertwined with violence and havoc, one that returns endlessly. he will never escape it. he deserves it, doesn’t he? he seeks logic in suffering and false redemption. this is the only way he survives.
( somewhere, there is an absence of being in him. in an eternity of life, there is much untold and too little addressed-- but sometimes, the suffering should be left unsaid.
“the warmth feels nice, doesn’t it?” you ask him. your hand rests on his, slowly, in hesitation. he likes the feeling more than he expects, more than he should. his lips part. he pauses, afraid, and answers.
“it does.” )
FORGIVENESS / re: AWAKENING: inside your heart resides a wrath. when will you put it to rest? how will you put it to rest?
his soul is too entangled with those he has destroyed and slaughtered. there is no separation in existing. it is a punishment, this darkness that shrouds him. why doesn’t it frighten you? he has made what little peace he has with it; he hopes you will, as well. but you won’t. you are a force, an enigma of hope and power and everything bright. it is contagious, almost. but if he ever dares to find a way out of limbo, then he will do it himself.
“xiao.” you speak his name and he only hears love. your fingertips ghost over the markings that find home on his arm. “you are more than your darkness.”
amber eyes with a burning gaze. the ignition of a hope once lost. the yearning to live again.
( you frighten me, he whispers, his lips finding yours under the moonlight.
now, he is the one closing the distance between you two. )
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BNHA as yanderes.
He’s tired of pretending, he’s not perfect, if anyone is, it’s you.
todoroki is the devotee and you’re the deity. Shouto is so obsessive. he’s got some issues, his daddy/mommy issues have played a big role in his personality. Shouto craves love, he wants to love and be loved so unconditionally. Shouto likes to hide it, but at night, the multicoloured hair man wails at night with nothing but loneliness as his only companion.
he needs to be assured, he wants validation, he wants to feel valued... and you’re the only one that is able to make him feel like how he craves.
can you? A hint.. be careful.
“Y-Y/N D-DONT LEAVE ME... I’ll DIE PLEASE. YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING, MY PURPOSE, MY HEART BEAT. please!~”
the obsessive freak.
oh!~ how did he get so lucky???!
you, y-you are his??? how? Izuku cant understand... he can’t comprehend it.. he simply can’t... how ARE YOU EVEN REAL?!
yeah, Izuku Midoriya is that type of a lover.
He’s a wolf in sheeps clothing. He’s always been insecure, he thinks of himself as so bad, unworthy and unloveable. but, he actually felt his heart flutter abnormally in his chest when he first saw you.
and boy... was he obsessed with you? it’s always you in his mind... he closed his eyes? It’s your face. it’s always you. you have captivated him... and he’s absolutely addicted to you.
You are like a drug that he never wants get enough of.
“Y-Y/N I love you! I-I love you s-so much! Only I can love you this much! Please!~ see the flames of my love burning for you so passionately..”
the posessive one.
bakugou want to kill you. actually, how fucking dare you. Who allowed you? tsk.. okay, he was in love with you? Katsuki didn’t ask for this.
He didn’t ask for you, for you to come into his life and ruin everything. bakugou is both posessive and obsessive. He’ll never admit it but deep down he knows that he’s madly in love with you.
the one that’s ruined him.
you’ve really ruined him because when he sees you happy with someone else, he wants to rip his hair out. and whenever he sees someone even looking you... the urge to gauge that persons eyes out gets overwhelming.
but, he doesn’t mind.
after all, all is fair in love and war.
“You’re mine. only mine. I’ll destroy the whole world and you if you try to leave me.”
the crazy one.
you really have the worst luck in the world.
dabi as your lover... hm, the universe hates you. He’s probably the most dangerous one out of the bunch. he will and can kill you. he’s a fucking psycho.
it wouldn’t take long for him to get obsessed with you. maybe it runs in the todoroki clan. but.. dabi can’t be blamed. some events that happened have led him to be like this.
he won’t let you leave him.. he’ll fucking tie you up or cuff you to him. just don’t test him.. play your cards right.. he actually acts pretty normal but every psycho’s a charmer, and dabi’s no exception.
he’s the type to carve his name on your skin or vice versa..
“oh no, is my doll crying? well, I love it when you cry.. I can watch you sob so pathetically forever. oh god, brings me so much pleasure. don’t stop crying. FUCKING CRY!”
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helloooo !!! i've been reading your blog for quite a while now and i have to say,,, your writing is amazing ?? like how??? i aspire to be like you one day (onE dAy) also i wanted to request a nct ten hogwarts au bc that boi- o lawd,,, ilysmmm your writing is amazing keep it up !!
it was his birthday so!!! here’s some hogwarts shenanigans with him!!
“what did you do?”
you ask, arms crossed and voice hinting on annoyance
seeing as it is almost two in the morning on a tuesday and ten has done the gentlemanly thing of teleporting you out of your comfy bed and into the gryffindor common room
he grins, still in his own pajamas as he motions to a stupefied looking yukhei on the couch
“it’s not what i did,,,,,,,it’s more like what i didn’t do,,,,,,”
you narrow your eyes and ten tries to pull out a puppy dog expression - that you admit is cute and could work on even the coldest of hearts
but not you
you’ve known him way too long to be falling for those tricks
he heaves a defeated sigh
“i was trying to see if i could make my own truth serum, because yukhei says he doesn’t know what happened to my pet cat but i know - i just know he’s hiding her somewhere -”
you kind of feel where this is going, and you don’t like it one bit
“but you need jobberknoll feathers and those are expensive so i just used the feathers off my quill thinking it’ll do the same job but -”
ten walks over to poor yukhei, pushing at his cheek a little
“but now yukhei won’t talk ,,,,,,, at all.”
you shake your head, stuck between getting ready to nag ten for playing around with potions he’s not familiar with to agreeing - because he’s one of your closest friends - to help him out in this mess
you end up doing both
reminding ten over and over that he needs to be careful with potions while also sneaking you two into the library to see if you can find any books on wearing off a silencing effect
the nightwatcher is doing rounds of the great hall so you two are pretty much free to roam
and you get to a couple of helpful books, nothing really giving you a clear answer
until of course,,,,,,,,,,ten pulls a book from a shelf
and it wobbles from his hands, falling to the floor with a loud thunk
you pull ten over by sleeve, muttering that you guys need to get out before you get caught, get detention, and then end up in front of the headmaster explaining why it is that yukhei - the boy who has the most to say - suddenly can’t speak at all
you two dash through the halls, making way back to gryffindor tower
where yukhei is still sitting, confused himself why he can’t speak
“how about this, how about we make another truth serum and give it to him?”
ten looks at you with wide eyes
“but we don’t have any of the feathers-”
“i know where we can get some.”
ten is equal parts shocked and impressed when you return, your dormmate is a super rich heir to some old pureblood family and has a collection of quills with exotic feathers
you pluck the blue jobberknoll and think - it’s fine, they won’t miss it all
“i never knew you were a thief!”
ten joyously teases
“this side of you is exciting!”
you roll your eyes and hand him the quill, watching as he carefully lays out the other ingredients
even though ten is always getting himself into messy situations and has a taste for being mischievous
he does have a hand when it comes to potions - he might mess them up because of what he puts into them - but he can make almost any combination work ,,,,,, in one way or another
you watch as he makes the serum, the liquid tinted blue with the remains of the feathers and you both return to yukhei
who puts a hand up to his mouth in silent protest
“c’mon dude i know i messed up the first time - but i didn’t this time i promise!”
yukhei’s eyes tell you that he doesn’t believe ten at all - so they dart to you for some kind of assurance
you give him a small smile
“do you want to be able to talk again? you’re gonna need your voice for quidditch practice.”
this seems to ease him up and yukhei drops his hand and takes the serum from ten
with one big gulp, he swallows it down and you and ten wait in anticipation
after a moment or two - you think oh no,,,,,,,it didn’t work! ten is going to be in big trouble!
but then yukhei says something
“i can talk!”
you and ten jump up in joy, looking at each other triumphantly
yukhei sits up a bit and looks up at ten
“and as payback for silencing me, im going to spill all the truths. one - i did hide your cat ten, she’s safe with jungwoo in the hufflepuff dorms. two -…”
yukhei turns his attention to you now
“two - ten is in love with you. he’s had a crush on you since you were both-”
ten dives onto the couch, toppling yukhei over as he hisses at him to shuttup
but yukhei keeps talking, even through the muffling as ten tries to clamp his own palm over his mouth
“yeah, he told me that he’s sad these days because you only see him as a friend but he thinks you’re the most beautiful person that has ever lived-”
ten grabs his wand, trying to think up a spell to get yukhei to stop
“i should have let you just stay silent -”
“and then what? not like it would take long for them to figure out your feelings-”
you know yukhei can’t help talking now, the truth serum kicking into overdrive
but that’s not what matters, what matters is that ,,,,,,, if yukhei says ten confessed about liking you
that means ten did do that
and you feel something warm in your chest at that thought
you pull ten back from yukhei - and yukhei takes the chance to escape back to his own dorm
you sit down beside ten who hangs his head in his hands
“im sorry you had to find out like this - it’s so embarrassing and i understand that it’s awkward-”
“it’s not embarrassing or awkward. ten, i like you too.”
he jerks up, eyes wide again
you laugh a little and take his hand
yours fits perfectly with his, it always has
“you think i’d let someone i didn’t like drag me out of bed and send me on a wild chase through the school to fix a dumb mistake they made? you think i’d do that for anyone?”
ten shyly blinks, shrugging his shoulders
“i just thought it was because we’re friends-”
“well we were, and now we can be something more.”
you lean up and press a small kiss to his lips
ten makes a noise of surprise, before kissing you back
you feel him smile against your lips and it’s a perfect moment
until the door opens and you hear the nightwatchers voice go
“why were you two lovebirds doing in the library just now?”
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