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"Oh Dottore you made a bunch of copies of yourself so shouldnt you be okay with doubles?"

No! No actually!! I was One guy!! In multiple bodies! Thats what a HIVEMIND is!! It wasnt talking to other people, it was being able to talk to yourself outloud PROPERLY. I was still just One Guy!! Its why I was so okay with shutting down the other bodies! I didnt lose anything! Just got a pile of very expensive wood and metal!

I know literally nobody else ever wants to read it like that because they think treating the segments like a big family (or shipping fuel. Weird.) Is soooo much more appealing but Im SICK OF IT. Im sick of feeling like I have to ignore that I was ONE GUY controlling many bodies because of the whole "oh I knew multiple mes in source so obvi Im cool with doubles lol" thing. (This is not to say anyone has pressured me over this. Its all in my own head.)

Also actually while Im here complaining about the segments.

THEY WERENT FUCKING CLONES. FOR THE LOVE OF THE TSARITSA IT IS EXPLICITLY STATED THAT MY SEGMENTS WERE MADE THE SAME WAY SCARAMOUCHE WAS. THEY WERE PUPPETS. MADE OF WOOD (AND METAL I ADDED IN FOR RIGIDITY.) THATS WHY I TOOK HIM IN. TO LEARN HOW HE WAS MADE.

I know Im a doctor but for fucks sake cloning takes too fucking long. And are yall just gonna ignore my love for robotics that is still canon or are we gonna act like Miss. No Lore Sandrone retconned my ruin guard lab in Liyue and all of my ackademiya notes because Tsaritsa forbid any harbinger have overlap in their skills. (No shade Sandrone, I miss discussing robotics with you. Im sure you get what I mean.)

Sorry Im. Peeved. Yelling in the ask box helps. Nobody act like Im attacking you personally. Im not.

~Il Dottore.🕯♟️

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(cw: self shipping negativity)

“dottore x reader” this. “dottore x reader” that. don’t even come within a FOOT of me unless you’re a 5’3” balljointed emo boy with a fuckass bob and a god complex - #🧪🪶

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Gonna try to get my hair colour back again.. Excited but nervous- Last time I tried it was Just Off Enough that I Freaked About It..

Hoping this colour attempt goes far better. The dye wont be here til next week while writing this but! Thinking about it now-

I want my blue back. And edited photos show that I'd look really good with the colour in this life as long as I can Get It Right. :)

Just hoping it wont be too hard to maintain if it is the right blue shade... (I have some ideas but it'll be guess and check til I get it right ofc. The nature of playing with hair dye.)

Wish me luck kinnies!

~Il Dottore 🕯♟

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If I had infinite money to buy all the merch I could ever want with no consequence people would think I really really badly wanna kiss Dottore.

But in reality I AM Dottore, Im just extremely egotistical apparently and want every single me item ever forever always. Im recreating the hivemind /j

Keeping my impulse buying under control is hard. I want little mes all the time theyre so silly and cute and LIL MES!!!!

~Il Dottore 🕯♟

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fuck you dottore.

- wanderer

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Sorry about this in advance-

Stop making segment ocs Stop making segment ocs Stop making segment ocs Stop making segment ocs Stop making segment ocs Stop making segment ocs Stop making segment ocs Stop making segment ocs Stop making segment ocs Stop making segment ocs Stop making segment ocs STOP MAKING SEGMENT OCS STOP MAKING SEGMENT OCS STOP MAKING SEGMENT OCS STOP MAKING SEGMENT OCS STOP MAKING SEGMENT OCS STOP MAKING SEGMENT OCS STOP MAKING SEGMENT OCS STOP MAKING SEGMENT OCS STOP MAKING SEGMENT OCS STOP MAKING SEGMENT OCS

MY LIFE IS NOT YOUR FUEL FOR OCS. THAT WAS M Y L I F E. NONE OF THE SEGMENTS WERE THEIR OWN PEOPLE. THEY WERE JUST M E. I AM NOT OC FUEL. MAKE YOUR OWN FUCKIGN HIVEMIND. HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF I MADE AN OC OF JUST YOU AS A TEENAGER? OR YOU IN COLLEGE? WOULD FEEL PRETTY WEIRD HUH? EXACTLY. FUCKIGN STOP.

And while Im here. THERE WERE NO CHILD SEGMENTS. NO CHILD SEGMENTS!!! NOT A SINGLE ONE!! THE YOUNGEST SEGMENT WAS MY 20S!! BECAUSE CHILDREN AND TEENAGERS WOULD BE USELESS FOR MY DUTIES! THE MINDSET OF A CHILD IS USELESS TO ME. THEY BRING NOTHING TO THE TABLE WHEN EVERY SINGLE OTHER SEGMENT WOULD HAVE BEEN SMARTER. "Oh but Dottoreeeeee what about seeing the Aranaraaaa" I COULD SEE THEM! ALL THE SEGMENTS COULD!! WE STOPPED BEING HUMAN LONG AGO. WE STOPPED BEING EFFECTED BY THAT STUPID MAGIC L O N G A GO. THERE. WERE. NO. CHILDREN.

I WAS NOT RAISING COPIUS AMOUNTS OF CHILDREN TO BE SEGMENTS. WE WERE ALL MADE LIEK SCARA. WOODEN AND METAL PUPPETS. MY OWN MIND FRAGMENTED. AND SOME TIME FUCKERY TO GET OLDER VERSIONS OF MYSELF ALONGSIDE IT. I HAD FATHERLY TENDANCIES BUT THEY WERE NOT TO MY F U CK ING SELF!!! I HAD OTHER ACTUAL KIDS. KLEE IS RIGHT THERE! COLLEI TOO WHEN IM NOT SCARED TO CALL HER MY DAUGHTER.

FUCK!!!!!!!

~An Angry Il Dottore 🕯♟

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If hyv doesnt give me confirmation on my playable element I am going to scream cry and throw a tantrum /dramatic

I have memories of anemo, cryo, and dendro. Have pulls toward electro- (And pyro on the rare occasion) Like I know I could utalize any element if I wanted because I made the soldiers weapons.. But elemental infused weapons arent a vision. Or a delusion. Or whatever I end up having I guess-

And I've seen a strange amount of fan merch label me as hydro just because Im blue... (Even though Cryo is also blue??)

sigh.

As long as Im not geo I dont care what they give me as long as Im cool. (Sorry geo weilders, thats Pantalones domain. Zhongli you should acknowledge his achivements sometime. (Pantalone dont say I never did anything for you.))

Oh and dont make me physical.. Im sorry but physical is so bad in our game... Im number two of the Fatui Harbingers. I should be meta (I mean meta doesnt matter in the game but Im sure yall understand what I mean. I want myself to be good.)

SIIGH I dont want to wait ANOTHER two years >:( Three was enough..

~Il Dottore 🕯♟

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I dreamt of you three last night. I had forgotten how close we all were- Well. To be fair, I was starting to remember Columbina thanks to some fanart floating around.

But Capitano and Pierro- I had forgotten how tight knit our higher ranks were.

I thought the only Capitano I cared about was the noncanon one in an old divergent timeline.

Oh but Im glad to know I care about the canon one to.

I miss ripping into you Capi. That seems so silly, barbaric even, but we both knew you didnt feel a thing and it was so mesmerizing. I see why Tartaglia wanted to fight you so badly, you could certainly take quite a beating. You deserved that number one seat.

And Columbina- Im sure I had a nickname for you but I cant remember it yet. Perhaps it was based on your real name which we do not know in this world yet. I miss our high energy. I have a feeling we tussled quite a bit. You were the much needed sunshine in our little group. Never failed to make us smile when we needed it. (Dont know how we knew Capi was smiling whenever these situations came up but he certainly was...)

And Pierro- Forgive me Im running on so little memories right now but all I have is. My Savior. Which seems silly given many feelings of guilt and regret but it still feels correct. You gave me an out from Sumeru. And while I may hold feelings of regret around joining the fatui for other reasons, I would never trade the family it gave me. My gut tells me you were my closest friend, and I do not doubt it. You were a lovely man. And I put absolute faith in your intentions behind our organization despite the... reputation we had gained over the centuries.

I miss you three quite a bit right now- I wish I had more to ramble about to go with it but. Well its all fresh so oh well.

And Now that you've read all of this I must kindly ask you three to pretend I never said this, as we all know these things were never supposed to be said. We would all never admit these things. We all knew. But us higher ranks had a reputation. We werent supposed to be human. We werent supposed to feel. We were paragons of success who had thrown out our humanity in favor of gaining the strength of gods. These feelings of companionship. Of affection and love(platonic ofc), they were beneath us.

At least they were supposed to be. But they never really went away did they? Perhaps we had a flawed view of godhood..

~Il Dottore 🕯♟

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I'd be a lot less annoyed about this harbinger kin, if it wasnt the man who got exiled from the genshin equivilant of HARVARD, i dont want to be this weezer blue twink man

-Dottore, genshin

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Well I don't think this was supposed to happen-

People have made some. Very interesting theories about me! (Kinger tadc). Im not sure how spread around it is so Ill just say it here. People have theorized that I created the circus and in turn became trapped within it at some point. Implying my insanity has caused me to not remember my connections to the program, but the infodumping about digital food hints at something.. more.

Well in short I like the theory! It has stuck in my brain quite a bit!!! And thats the PROBLEM-

In the process of thinking of myself/Kinger as a very intelligent man lost to the insanity of a mental prison of his own creation I have in turn

begun connecting him to another large kin of mine.

Il Dottore Genshin Impact. A fellow highly intelligent man many percieve as mad due to the lengths hes willing to go for human progress, even creating an entire hivemind of himself in the process.

And the problem here is I am WRONG. My mind is so wrong. They are not alike in the slightest but here I am, conflating the two so much that when I teeter into a dottore shift for a moment I am joking to myself that "theyre basically the same character so its like we didnt even shift haha"

I know Im not the first person to end up connecting two kins with absolutely nothing in common as if they are nearly identical but-

Oh boy.

I dont know what to do here. I dont think theres anything TO do aside from ignoring it best I can- (Or tormenting my friends with the cursed thought as well)

But I wish Id stop thinking of a blonde dottore for "human Kinger"...

Maybe I'm just too desperate for a "good guy" Dottore timeline?

~Kinger & Il Dottore 🕯♟

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thinking again . i think other dottores have put this into better words than i could , and i fear i would just be repeating what has already been said , but i cant pull myself out of this if i dont at least type out a little bit of it .

being myself feels so strange sometimes . there are all these people i remember — fondly at that , though we never dared to say it outright — but i have almost no hope of ever really connecting with them again . not to mention , plenty of people could resent me for whatever reason , whether i think its rightful resentment or not . i find myself in a weird space where i want to interact with certain people , but i dare not approach them , because what am i meant to do if my mere presence is enough to upset them ? the mere mention of me enough to drive them away ?

i think i would be more hopeful if more people could just discuss me normally . if more people could find interest in my potential nuances , if they could allow me a shred of depth . but thats not how it is , from the majority of what ive seen and who ive interacted with . maybe im just looking in the wrong places ?

i dont know . i just want to connect to someone again . i want to be able to talk in a fun and silly way about my experiments , my theories , my work , my memories , my fondness . its a bit funny that im like this in this life , because i was never really the type to wallow before , but thats all i really see myself doing anymore . wallowing .

o(-(

— il dottore #🩺🐍

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for stealth kins :3

il dottore — so , technically , this one Is human canonically but . gestures towards blog title . i remember being slightly Off from human . really this would depend on a lot of things - i dont think people would be very kind about a huge facial scar and sharp teeth and red eyes ( they Werent in my memories ) but i think itd only be obvious if you got really close . like 8/10 probably

janus ( ts sides ) — this one depends on if i would be able to shapeshift .. if i Was able to then its like a 10/10 ( and disguise was kinda my whole Thing wasnt it ? ) but with the base form itself .. i dont think people would be convinced . something about being covered in scales and having a snake eye and tongue might cause people to be a little suspicious . 4/10

narrator ( stanley parable ) — so i do remember having a form for this one , both a human-like one and one that was more . abstract . but either way i dont think i would be able to pass as Fully human purely on concept . 6/10

( is #🩺🐍 taken ? ive been sending a decent amount of asks so i might as well give myself a signoff thing )

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stealth HUMANS * sorry i am incredibly tired sending this stuff in #🩺🐍

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for fond canons .. god i miss the other harbingers in general , but especially scaramouche . not sure how others remember things , but i remember most of us being very close ( whether it be in a pplatonic or romantic context ) . i also remember that i didnt really forget scaramouche when he erased himself from irminsul , but i caught on pretty quickly to what had happened when i saw that no one else seemed to know who he was , and supposedly the sixth spot had been vacant for some 500 years . i feel a bit weird trying to say how i feel about him though because im not really sure how many scaramouche kins will remember me fondly — or at least remember me non - negatively . i mean , i understand the frustration , but . hm . i cant really honestly say i regret what i did , given the benefits we both received in the end .

buuuut all of that is really complicated . the shorter version is i miss how mean he was to me — and that sounds weird because it is . heart emoji

— Il Dottore ( genshin )

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(cw: might seem mean-spirited towards genshin kins, but it’s just my genshin kin being a total dick who i don’t agree with.) // i can’t help it. i laugh every time i see or hear someone using “archons” as their expletive—as if they were praying to a god. the gods aren’t listening anymore. the more you pray to them, the less and less they listen. i always say, “oh teyvat!” when i am reaching for a word to use—the world around us is the largest thing that actually matters, and the archons are not watching it. all we have is us and our blood. but i will bring that blood closer and closer to whatever you fools are considering divinity. i will make us new gods and bring us to salvation, and the old gods will not be able to stop listening even if they all hear is pain, and that is all they will. - #🧪🪶 (il dottore)

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so my friend enjoys genshin and infodumps to me about it on occasion, and this has been pretty much the only interaction with its lore i've had. from what i've heard, my friend likes scaramouche a lot and hates il dottore with a passion... that seems to be related. the thing is, dottore is one of my mystery canons, i just know it. now, i really want to get into the game to accompany my friend, but you can see the potential issue jkhgfh

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people who draw me without my facial scars are pussies <-- guy who literally does not have a canonically wholly revealed face and also whose appearance is sometimes transient due to cloning technology - il dottore (#🧪🪶)

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