#drink up the tears I cry

[ryllen]

i found some fanarts & fanvid [ x.x.x ] and watched a bit of book 7 playthrough where sebek cried

#considering watching the whole playthrough because when will ortho release me #twisted wonderland #twst #sebek zigvolt #baul zigvolt #twst silver #only his pants visible tho fsh #twst grim #twst yuu #twst mc #twst baby #book 7 #fanart #they really had their moments silver and sebek #and the whole diasomnia family gang #HE QUICKLY STOPPED HIS CRYING THO that sebek #IT CRACKS ME UP #i mean the story has to proceed BUT U DON'T HAVE TO TURN OFF UR TEARS TAP THAT FAST #that fanart of baul thinking that his grown up grandson would not be interested in sweets anymore so he offered sebek coffee #but then his grandson like um... i still... can't drink coffee... maybe if i keep trying i'll be able to one day... #and baul just N ever mind pl ease have this whole cake #FSFH #H SEBEK

[hamartia-grander]

I sincerely apologise for my behaviour last night I'm legitimately embarrassed and I hope you don't think lesser of me for it. Think lesser of me for something cool, like my violent tendencies

#I'm never drinking again God above #Two bottles and I'm acting like a middle schooler #Not to mention the crying. I teared up several times lip quivering vision blurred just bc I love you all so much and also I miss my dog #Embarrassing. Won't happen again.

[hairtusk]

#on the train home from my boyfriend's place in the late afternoon sunlight. all the fields of wheat look golden. #i had a dream last night where i was carrying an infant son on my hip and he had a crown of dark curly hair #i woke up with a strange feeling in my stomach and an insatiable craving for a food i rarely eat #though i'm sure that the symptoms of early pregnancy and the after effects of drinking very heavily for 4 days are very similar #the sun makes me miss my beloved. #i've only just waved goodbye to him and pressed my hand against the glass of the train window to meet his on the other side. #he makes me feel so loved. i feel proud to wear his ring and that he wears mine. i have a lock of his hair & a love letter in my gold locket #the train just passed by a field full of birds of prey. grouse maybe. it went by too fast to tell but you know their shape #i feel like crying for want of him. like a woman in a greek tragedy who beats at her chest and tears her hair #love is full of so many big emotions. they don't tell you that in films. this unutterable longing that swells like the sea. #but I'll spend our time apart knowing that he's there in the world. loving me. #and that I'll be here radiating love like a furnace. enough that he can feel it across the miles. #sunlight on canal. breeze through the open window. love will find you anywhere. #Spotify

[mikrotyalm13]

#something changed. and im still here. #but let's pretend that i'm not #so here's some tea... tea my tea... #always makes me go happy happy happy......... #tea time #i love harvesting wild rosehip:( it's so fun i wanna do it again next summer #also makes me sad bc i did it with my auntie #but she got a really bad health scare back in november #thought we would lost her. but she's in recovery from her surgery right now #still makes me cry just thinking about it. i can't even talk to anyone about it #i will never forget the fear in my grandmas eyes #when my dad came up to her with tears in his eyes and silently hugged her #she thought her daughter was gone. and i was just standing there. tipsy #later grandma said to my dad #please. just don't drink too much #and i just. something in me broke. #fucking hate novembers

[edwardshundredyearoldspunk]

went to mexico yesterday to visit my grandpa's tomb for day of the dead. only the second time I've visited him since he died in may. not really used to having a dead™ to visit but now I'm home and I got mexican hot chocolate and I'm cuddled up with a mug and life is good. for now life is good 🥹

#day of the dead has always been this sort of periphery thing for me #mostly because I'd never had a close-enough-to-visit family member die until now #it was quit nice all things considered #lots of people crying which is to be expected #but mexicans are extra as fuck so there were also musicians in at least two tombs of what was a pretty small cemetery #one of the bands was for the tomb right next to his for some fairly young guy #and the band played so beautifully i teared up a bit even though the song wasn't even for my grandpa #i kept thinking about my grandpa's corpse rotting under our feet #which was morbid but on brand for me #and it was actually kind of hard to visit him #I'm pretty good at compartmentalizing which is why I don't like…unrepressing in front of people #because as soon as i do i cry and i hate crying in front of people #not even because it makes me feel weak but because i hate being comforted #it never really makes me feel better #but anyways i got home and went to watch that movie with josh hutcherson with my little brother #and now I'm drinking chocolate abuelita and having a little bit of a cry #but like cathartic y'know

[killuaisaprincess]

happiness

5 (+1) times Gon makes sure to carry Killua.

♡━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━♡

Gon shifts him slightly, and Killua looks up with teary-filled eyes, hiccuping when Gon presses his forehead to his own.

“Don’t worry! We’ll see each other again! I’ll always come back and save you, okay?”

Gon’s lips meet his own, and Killua drowns in that happiness and sorrow.

#hxh #hunter x Hunter #Gonkillu #gon x killua #gon #killua #killua hunter x hunter #gon freecss #;windy’s stuff #ITS TIME TO DRINK GON CARRYING KI JUICE 😤😤😤😤 #GON CARRYING KI MY ONE TRUE LOVE 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #KI ALWAYS LIKES GON CARRYING HIM 🥺🤲🤧 #HE JUST DESERVES TO BE HAPPY AND SAFE AND WARM 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🤧🤧🤧🤧🤲🤲🤲🤲🤲 #THATS MY BABEY #Ki BEING SO HAPPY SILVA TALKED TO HIM WHEN SILVA IS A PIECE OF SHIT MAKES ME WANNA CRY #GON IS KIS KNIGHT 🤧😤😤😤😤😤 #KIS TRAMUA IS IGNORED WAY TOOOO MUCH IN THE SHOW/MANGA AND I WILL NEVER FORGIVE THEM FOR NOT HAVING GON CARRY KI WHEN HE WAS INJURED LIKE T #AND I NEEDED TO FIX THAT MY HEART HURT SO MUCH I WAS TEARING UP WRITING FUCK SO I NEEDED SOME FLUFF TO SOOTHE MY SOUL #AHHNNNNNNN KI IS SO CUTEEEEE AND TINY KITTEN 🤧🤧🤧🤧😭😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #I THREW A TINY BIT OF KITE CARRYING KI IN THERE 🤧😤🥺 NEED A WHOLE FIC OF EVERYONE CARRYING KI #KIS THE CUTEST SLEEP KITTEN EVER HHHHHNNNNNNN #AND THEN I WAS ONCE MORE SOBBING TBH ABOUT TO CRY #I AM NEVER WRITING A FIVE ONE EVER AGAIN ITS EMOTIONAL WHIPLASH ON MEEEE OMGGGG #BUT HAPPY ENDING MY HEARTTTTT KI DESERVES THE WORLD 🤧🥺🙏🙏🙏😭😤 #IM SO HAPPY IM GONNA CRY 🤧🤧🥺🥺🥺🤲🤲🤲 MY HEART COULD NOT TAKE WHILE I WAS WRITING THIS THEY ARE NOW MARRIED 🤧🥺🙏

[fazcinatingblog]

Had a really nice sleep, it was like 30 minutes sleep dreaming that I was going to the grand final, wake up, check bank balance hmm no I'm not, sleep for 30 minutes dreaming I got a ticket, wake up check bank balance yeah no sorry, sleep for 30 minutes RINSE AND REPEAT THE ENTIRE NIGHT

#i don't even care that much!!!!! #i don't need to go to some stupid combustible stadium with overpriced food and drink and climb 500 stairs to watch some silly sportsball #NO I DON'T CARE #also it's so expensive like please don't take $200 from me that's like four weeks of myki money #I'm so happy to be in the grand final that I'll watch the game anywhere #Collingwood always do a live site i think in 2018 it was $20 to watch at the AIA centre #with inflation it'll be a billion dollars but look it doesn't matter there are pubs there is home there is so many places to watch the game #i don't know why i have to depress myself waking up every 30 minutes to check my bank balance #also how is that depressing 'oh look i have money i can afford the next week's myki travel' THAT'S A GOOD THING #also grand finals are overrated #The record is $15 #they show off the mark knight posters a day before the game and your mouth salivates and you're like I NEED ONE I'LL BUY IT AFTERWARDS #but then Maynard gets blocked and you're going home in tears on the train and you forget all about the poster and #and you just clutch your chemist warehouse cushion filled with random little goodies and cry for the next five weeks #in 2011 i didn't go - watched from home - and my mum came home with a chocolate footy and told me it was from Daisy #just cry and clutch Daisy's chocolate footy and cry and eat chocolate soaked with tears so it's all salty and #wait #no guys I'm fine #please don't make me go to therapy i don't have time i have to study for this CPA exam #i really am fine

[tinyfantasminha]

drawing jack yume stuff while listening to a disney piano collection stream and the first song that comes is beauty and the beast, the universe wants me dead

#my hands are shaking as im gripping the wacom pen and tears are falling on my tablet #I FEEL LIKE THHROWING UP THAT MOVIE MAKES ME MENTALLY ILL/pos #tale as old as time fits them so much.......crying and drinking my own tears like spongebob

[oceanwithinsblog]

honestly? at times it's so hard to deal with the fact that adulthood means working every week, having so little time to take care of yourself and the people you care about, having trouble at planning a meet up or an outing with your friend(s), having to decide what hobbies you want to pursue and which ones you're willing (or forced) to give up, organizing all your expenses and purchases, letting yourself be vulnerable and understanding that being alone is important and you have to spend some quality time on your own as you can't totally rely on people being there for you.

at times adulthood hits me so hard and makes me feel so little, powerless and lonely that i truly despise it. but there's no going back.

#also being asexual doesn't really help #i know i'm gonna be alone my whole damn life #sometimes it would just be nice to go out and drink something together with somebody but everyone is always busy #and it scares me so much #i undeerstand that our lives go at different paces and that we are at different places and going through different stuff #but the mere thought of our work life getting in the way and pushing each other away unawarely really tears me up #i'm about to cry #adulthood #queer adult #also is it just me or feeling this way when i'm in my twenties is a huge red flag

[transboykirito]

i still hold onto the idea that when kirito has bad nights he’ll either sleep in with suguha or, if minetaka is working, midori. sugu gives the best comforting hugs and midori just has Mom Comfort that makes him feel super safe

#headcanons #yes i still headcanon he calls asuna etc but sometimes she won’t be available #and also kazuto is a mama’s boy and you can’t convince me otherwise #midori would probably pat him on the head and cuddle him and let’s him cry or vent #sugu is slightly more awkward because she doesn’t really know what to do but she cuddles him and he cries a lot #i headcanon kazuto had a lot of nightmares as a kid and used to go sleep in his parents bed a lot #so i imagine the first time after maybe the death gun incident?? when he has a nightmare #he kinda just stumbled down to his parents room and knocked on the door and when he asked midori if he could sleep in her room tonight #she just like. tears up because all these years passed and he still thinks of her as his mom and his support system #and he still needs her. and i feel like she’d get very emotional over that and cuddle him and like. nearly break his rib idk #kirito #sword art online #sao #also this is nothing against his dad i just feel like his dad is very much ‘you’re too old for this shit drink some milk and go back to bed’ #y’know?? like. not in a mean way. just a ‘you’re a Man you need to deal with this on your own’ way

[train-inthedistance]

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#why have I been on the brink of tears over the american for the last two days i lit just woke up last night and started crying…… #haven’t seen him in 2 1/2 months now …honesly i rly miss him i miss him sm but idk i think this was all triggered by my friend telling me #she ran into him at uni bc he was having lunch with a friend of her’s and she said hello and he looked away etc/was very uncomfortable when #she said hi anyways and idk on one hand very infantile behavior. on the other hand proof dad the entire thing and me breaking it off DID #affect him after all? maybe not maybe it’s only uncomfortable for him bc he’s not in control of the narrative w my friends and he’s a #control freak but like. idk im very close to messaging him (i wont do that obv) but like idk. idk i miss him so much if he said sorry now #and told me he’d try and that he’s ready i…i think id take him back. which I wouldn’t have 2 months ago idk #kinda hope I’ll run into him at this thing next week… chances are that he’s gonna be very ..distanced and insincere abt what happened #between us bc he cannot handle being honest abt emotions and istg if he like ignores me like he tried to ignore my friend or sth im gonna #be shattered into 2 million pieces so there’s that idek #feeling extremely sad today idk i should eat sth and drink some water :/ #me #the american

[iron-bubble]

💜

#as much as i want to wallow in sadness today all day i cant #it's not that im not letting myself not feel sad it's just that im not letting the other sad in cause that other sad had been trying to get #in again and for a while now so instead im coping in a different way #i'll probably randomly tear up as i do possibly cry but i just cant do it all at once not like i used to #im rambling again but um maybe someone will find it silly or it might seem im not letting myself feel sad but it's just #i cant afford to be pulled in im alone... i dont have a job anymore that can distract me #i moved away with bro cause of his uni/college #im with myself again and that used to be not good for me so now im trying to figure out how much ive changed and how much i can take #this is therapy talk and all over the place lmao #but to fellow army friends you'll be okay eat your fav snacks today and drink water and take walks and it's okay to feel sad just remember #to take care of yourself FIRST you are more important okay 💜 #that's it sorry if anyone finds this just airing the brain on here 😂🤷 #im gonna be reading today and playing sims cause i installed it again and then im gonna make some pasta for dinner tonight #i'll do the comforting things today ☺️

[numbaoneflaya]

literally cant even throw up anymore without being like “but vincent 😳” bcs i know hes into that shit. Literally ruining my life. whre is my compensation 

#not throwin up YET tonight but last weekend i was vomming crying covered in tears and snot from how painful it was and the whole time #(40 min) i was like well.... atleast vincent would think i looked hot rn ://m #just gagged a lil on my drink and started getting dizzy and first thought was oh hed like that. #MENTAL ILLNESS!!! #teehee vince do i look cute on thefloor crying and dry heaving. say yes

[youshouldseemeinadeerstalker]

I figured out what i want in a piece of media. It’s men crying. Are there sad, pathetic, vulnerable men? Sign me the fuck up. Abs and arm muscles? I dont give a shit. I want to see them ugly cry. Show them on the floor sobbing.

#Women need to smile more? No. Men need to cry more. #men showing emotions and being vulnerable thats my crack cocaine #Their tears are my life energy. I drink them up.

[citrusce]

#diamond no ace #cat carrier #but art <3 #CACKLING THE ENTIRE TIME I DREW KILL LIVE #THEY FUCKING WOULDDDD #i couldve found out what sawamura drinks but i didnt wanna go back throgh so mweh #im not even a hardcore furuya stan idk what came about me but hes so cute #helping each other feel more at home and belonging <3 #furuya get off the costco bear furuya youre gonna get us kicked out #WHEN NORI WILL FINALLY SAY FUCK??? #tearing my hair out the duck caps were SO cute i want it so bad #okumura is like mudkip pikachu and magikarp all at once #asada pog #what does?? yui look like #why doesnt???? setos hair part on the same side as his lil tuft thing??? #yeah i reused the fond itoshi rin its the universal gay look when looking at pretty people #christmas gifting as a vehicle for drawing haruichi with a bow scarf crying and throwing up hed be so cute

[dr-lizortecho]

me: what if delevans dated during the lost decade?

also me: *sobbing* what if delevans dated during the lost decade???

#sorry this is where I am right now #imagining Maria laid out across his chest playing with the bracelet on his wrist #there’s a few long deep breaths before he kisses her forehead and she props up her chin to look at him with a glint in her eye #and she’s all ‘thank you for making me feel less alone’ #and he has a furrow between his brows cause of course he’s here #he’s been around since they started this thing #since he found Mimi wandering on the road and brought her back safe and sound #since Maria ‘bought’ him a thank you drink #he’s dried her tears everytime they hit a new roadblock in what’s wrong with her mom’s mind #Maria just smiles down at him and says that she’s always had to do all of this alone #that people always eventually left and never asked to see the ugly stuff anyways #that ever since graduation she’s been seemingly stuck with no one but her mom #but she’s more of the care taker there now #so it’s nice to have someone who thinks to restock her fridge or ask how she’s doing #and that she’s done being alone #and she tugs gently at the bracelet on his wrist and bats her eyelashes #and is all ‘you know when I crawl out of bed to open early the last Friday of every month?’ #and Max is all yeah and wraps his arms around her waist #and she gives him this sad look and tells him it’s just because she’s scared and goes alone to cry at her friends grave #and Max’s breath catches in his chest #and she wipes a tear from her cheek and asks if he wouldn’t mind not leaving her alone #and she doesn’t know why he closes himself off almost immediately and climbs out of bed and why he looks like he might start crying too #he mumbles an apology #etc etc #maybe he eventually takes her to the pod caves but uggghhhhh #sorry reasons im not allowed to plot fic and drive #roswell new mexico #rnm