I think generally this quarantine stuff is hard for us addicts. I know it is for me, the not knowing, the lack of responsibility and the fact meetings are only available on zoom. Fuck it why not just get high right?
I just want to say don’t. Do you remember why you got sober in the first place? The pain and suffering that led you to the point where you had no other option other than to get sober. Remember how dark it was? The feeling of no hope, the feeling of not wanting to be alive. Remember how sobriety was hard at first but you began to see the light at the end of the tunnel, you began to find out the person you truly are underneath your addiction. You started to find hobbies other than taking drugs or drinking. The relationships you began to rebuild and gain. The way the shame and guilt started to get less, the fact that you could finally look your friends and family in the eyes again. Experiencing love, hope and faith. Suddenly the world has thousands of possibilities you can do what you want, go where you want without the grip that addiction had over you stopping you from being able to achieve anything because you wake up every day with no purpose other than to take drugs. Please don’t use again, please don’t throw away all your hard work even if you have a little sobriety time just remember, remember why you tried to get clean in the first place.