#drugs rant

[neuroticboyfriend]

don't know how to put this into words that make sense but addiction feels like a really long train ride. you just get farther and farther from home. you know you have to go back. you know the farther out you go the more time, money, and energy it'll take to get home. you know you have things to do at home. you have people you miss and hobbies to do and things to take care of. but you're already so far out. so you just keep going and telling yourself it's better to never look back. you try to find comfort and joy gazing out the window at all the new places and scenes, but you really just keep getting more lost. nothing is familiar anymore - except for the train. except for the mother fucking train.

you know every nook and cranny of that god damn train, but nothing about yourself or your future or what you really want out of life. and the worst part is, if you don't turn around, one day you'll hit the end of the line. but there will be no train back. you'll never go home again. you'll never go anywhere again.

#(ok to rb) #softspoonie #julian rants #addiction #substance use disorder #mentally ill #mental illness #chronic illness #chronically ill #creative writing #spilled words #spilled thoughts #spilled emotions #spilled writing #spilled feelings #substance use #drug use #substance abuse #substance misuse #alcoholic #alcoholism

[bigmammallama5]

Speaking of a previous fandom post I just shared: I have Not stepped away from fandom this fall, I’m just dealing with some health stuff and I’ve been pretty short on the energy I usually have. I’m doing okay and should be all the way better soon! But energy has been going to real job and pottery (which is also real gig job with taxable $ involved but pottery is the art form I have consistently fallen back on for comfort the past decade). I still have so much interest in unfinished fics and art I hope to return to in the new year. And I’m still hoping to noodle out some drawpiles with @sango-blep as my body and energy level allow. But yeah, still here just working to keep my nose above the water.

#arting #stupid rant is stupid #i miss u supercorp i think about u all the time #also the few minutes i usually nab writing during work jobs has been nuked with lots of product photography #so then when i get home im sore and exhausted #also new worry unlocked #the adhd drug shortage has finally hit me and i could only get 20 of my 30 pillss this month #i still have a chance to find those missing 10 but i have to wait until im almost out and get an additional rx from my dr #which is not stressful at all and eating into my energy reserves #anyways

[zipperrants]

I'm bored. Also I shifted last night so im kinda out of it bc it was a long ass shift. If ya'll wanna ask questions feel free to. If you wanna know i shifted to my mcu dr because of comfort reasons. So fire away

once again, I can see you liking but not asking. My asks are open and I promise you all that I do not bite.

#marvel dr #reality shifter #reality shift #shifting realities #shiftblr #reality shifting #shifting #desired reality #shifters #ask zipper things #zipper rants #zipper is back on their bullshit #zipper isnt on drugs they promise #interogate zipper please #zipper doesn't bite unless asked

[jasontoddsguns]

Acknowledging that Robin is inherently a child-solider even with the complicated situation surrounding it 🤝 understanding that it’s fictional and that it’s the younger readers self-insert.

#dc #batman #bruce wayne #robin #jason todd #dick grayson #Tim Drake #damian wayne #‘’it helped them- they needed it’’ #their severe truama say different #‘’they would have become vigilantes anyway’’ #with what resources? also: that still doesn’t make it right #‘’he could monitor them so that it would be safer’’ #two of them literally fucking died. #“he couldn’t stop them’’ #maybe with tim- but still if your kid is doing drugs (yes I���m equating vigilantism to this) you’d do everything in your power to stop them. #you wouldn’t just give up #you can enjoy fictional media but most be able to think critically #ideally #sorry for the rant

[boldandburnt]

now who decided that edibles have calories in them...

#actually mentally ill #i wanna be perfect #rant post #@n0r3xia #@na trigger #ana trigger #st4rv3 #tw disordered eating #ana bllog #ana rant #tw drugs #weed addiction

[ickyguts]

fucked up edgy ass fanart for a concept I have (I want to do a comic for it at some point!)

CW DRUG USE:

 The idea is that on days where Flippy is particularly on edge (losing his grip on fliqpy and afraid he's gunna hurt someone), Flippy resorts to taking a bunch of his sleep aid/painkillers to sedate him.

 Fliqpy sits like this for the next few hours, confused, fucked up, and out of it.

#wont spoil much but its a hurt/comfort flippaky comic #flaky doesnt know abt fliqpy #flippy feels immensely guilty for keeping that part of him secret and feels as though flaky deserves the truth #but at the same time he is TERRIFIED because he doesnt even know what fliqpy is or how to even bring it up #i want to rant about it so so so much <3 #ill leave it at that tho #htf flippy #htf fliqpy #htf #happy tree friends #cw drug use #flippy has painkillers for the nerve damage in his hands lol #and sleep medication cus obviously #this plot im making means a lot to me but im not gunna say why #i just want flaky and flip/fliq to overcome hardships and be happy #also YIPPE I REACHED 100 FOLLOWERS!! #Ty yall ilysm #ill make a post abt it later

[ellewritesandrants]

Hopper: Are you sure about this, son?

Billy: I’m as sure as I can be, dad. Trust me.

Hopper: But Munson? What about Steve? You know, I like Steve. We like Steve. Steve doesn’t have a criminal record. Anyway, I thought you were dating Steve.

Billy: Oh, I am.

Hopper: Then, what’s this thing with Munson?

Billy: Oh, we’re both dating him.

#billy hargrove #harringrove #billy hargrove au #steve harrington #billy x steve #mungrove #billy x eddie #billy x steve x eddie #harringroveson #stilldie #steddilly #harringrove incorrect quotes #elle rants and writes #jim hopper #and that’s how Jim Hopper was introduced to polyamory #poor jim #he thought El dating Mike was bad #now his son is dating two deliquents and one them’s a drug dealer #There’s a reason Mike liked Eddie and it has something to do with how much better he looked in Hopper’s eyes #it’ll help him a lot when he goes to date Will tbh #all Will has to say is that Billy has two boyfriends so why can’t he have one

[artofkhaos404]

In life, I believe we are all just addicts struggling with our drug of choice.

For some, it may be actual drugs. Meth, cocaine, heroine, marijuana... whatever suits them. For others it is alcohol or cigarettes or other tobacco products.

It may be pornography. Or self harm.

I have wrestled with my drug of choice for about four years. Indulging daily or weekly. I'm accustomed to counting wins by the day.

...

Tomorrow, I'm going out with some friends to celebrate two months clean. Eventually I may relapse back into my old habits, but that's not the point. The point is proving to myself that I am able. Recovery is possible.

I WILL NOT BE A SLAVE TO MY DRUG.

And I'll encourage you to adopt the same mantra. These addictions and this society that fuels them? It can't hold us. We are free.

#alternative #tw drugs #rehab #rehabilitation #addiction #self harm #sh #suicidal #depression #anxiety #mentally ill #mental health awareness #actually mentally ill #ak thoughts #ak rants #mental illness #recovery #we will recover #encouragment #encouraging words #life update #clean #self control #addict #recover #deep shiz #deep thoughts #deep #anti capitalist #anarchist

[wawataka]

tsubomi looking through her bag: where are my yassification pills

reigen, thinking he’s taking his antidepressants: huh

#they deyassified my girl #and they yassiffied reigen even more #good for them good for them #drugs #technically? #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #cnp rants

[eyeballsoup7310]

Maybe the reason Rolan got so high off of straight up real actual non psychedelic mushrooms is because his bug brain is very susceptible to placebo effect

Like, every human behaviour he has, he picked up from people around him. Everything he knows how to do in a human way is just because something told him that when this happens, this is how your body or brain should react. When he’s given mushrooms and told that they’re supposed to have an effect on him, his brain goes “if you say so man. Activate silly mode”

#my sister came up with this for the most part but I really just wanted to make the phrase ‘activate silly mode’ #just talking #eyeball rants #jrwi bitb spoilers #JRWI bitb #bitb #Rolan deep #drug cw

[neuroticboyfriend]

it is not my fault that ive been abused and neglected so much that i have to drug myself out of the constant panic and depression of survival mode. it is not my fault for being afraid and needing relief, but not being able to live a secure life. it is not my fault and i am going to survive.

#julian rants #good things #messages to myself #abuse tw #drugs tw #addiction #cptsd #ptsd

[zipperrants]

mother fUCKER. so in my mcu dr Pietro is actually really good at voice acting (he has done a couple of kids cartoons but nothing big) but the problem is when I am living at the tower he will barge into my room while I am doing either reports or crocheting or something and he will grab one of my 🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️ spicy books (They are so smutty omfg so smutty because thats the only ladylike thing i do. I don't watch porn but I do read it) and will start to read the spicy scenes aloud in different voices. I had to beg him to quit reading them in Kermits voice. He now does Carl Wheezer or Kronk and not I can't read a spicy scene not in one of those voices.

#shifting #shiftblr #shifting realities #reality shifting #desired reality #reality shift #shifters #reality shifter #zipper rants #zipper is back on their bullshit #zipper isnt on drugs they promise #zipper bites #zipper probably needs therapy

[intersexfairy]

"how are you?" im thinking about the free benzos at detox

#julian rants #drunk posting #drugs tw #posting under the influence

[thottybrucewayne]

Talking to other Jason Todd fans will be sooooooo fun until they start exposing their thoughts on the poverty and drug use

#thotty speaks #Like alotta yall are classist as fuck and prove everyday you don't know anything about poverty how it works #Yall think poor poor are just inherently more violent #Like Batman comics tend to paint the links between crime and poverty with a broad brush I get it #But alotta of yall are too grown to be saying shit like 'Cathrine loved drugs more than Jason' and 'Jason was right to kill those drug #dealers and he should kill more like alotta of yall veer into weird as fuck cop language when talking about crime and poverty! #jason todd #thotty rants #dc comics #so sad that gotham war as a book is hot dookie from a butt #It could have been a good time to develop some of the regular gothamites

[xantaty]

Getting to the Point where I can’t stop thinking abt them. I literally spend hours scrolling through pics of xan bars tbh I’m terrified of relapsing but I want to so bad. I want to get worse.

I have 3 joints left.. I get paid in 2 days.. Im going to get more acid maybe some Molly or blow.. spring brake is in a few weeks it would be nice to go numb for a bit…

#cocain #drugblr #tw drugs #drug abuse #coke lines #girls who smoke weed #weedlife #smoke weed everyday #tw weed #joints #ana rant #ana trigger #ana meal #ana bllog #tw ana diary #cokegirls #blowing ice #drug blog #mdma trip #acid trip #mdma party #lsd tabs #ed not ed sheeran #tw selfhate #self h@rm #self sabotage #self sabatoge #selfharrrm #cutt1ng

[alexanderlightweight]

@faejilly so @saeths and I were talking about how Magnus has a reputation in the mundane underworld because sometimes he has to get involved when magical drugs and etc move over. Plus business deals.

And Alec has like no mundane identity and at first they (mundane ppl) think he’s muscle/bodyguard but Alec gets huffy the first and only time they try to send ‘entertainment’ to him and Magnus and Magnus has a very quiet and intimidating word.

So Alec becomes known through mundane circles as Magnus’ mob wife (cause it’s a position not a gender) and everyone tries to avoid saying it around alec ‘cause he’s scary and stereotypes’

And when alec ‘finds out’ —he’s actually knows for ages— He’s 100% okay with it because 1) it’s a mundane title and he could care less what mundanes think of him unless it could hurt Magnus’ rep 2) he’d rather be called Magnus’ wife than his bodyguard 3) it means he doesn’t have to bother the clave or magnus for a mundane identity

Alec keeps getting chatted up by trophy wife’s and arm pieces and is So Confused™️ because on one hand, he totally gets these really weird mundane women who aggressively Support their husbands, but also they all start crying when he mentions that he and Magnus had to get new rugs because he tracked too much blood in the house and brain matter is apparently a biohazard

Alec with all these super jeweled up women flipping out three throwing knives: Magnus wanted to put diamonds on them, but it would have thrown off the weight

An actual mob wife later to her mob boss husband: honey look, the girls and I can’t take much more of this. Just let Magnus bring his boy in with him

Mob husband: magnus talks about him like he’s crystallized honey. No way trophy wife like him can handle our convos

Mob wife the next event chugging Chardonnay and long islands

Alec: Magnus got me this new poison, apparently it can’t be tasted once it’s added to water and turned to ice.

Mob wife to waiter: another Long Island. On the rocks. Double rocks. No make it triple. (Yes this is in response to Alec mentioning deadly ice. She has Hope).

This has only been like, four meetings btw. Alec was trying So Hard™️ to blend in with mundanes.

Alec also hates Long Islands ice teas and Chardonnay. And Pinot noir. If you offer him an old fashion (he hates Lorenzo) he’ll pour it on your shoes.

He also fits in very well because he talks about how Magnus sometimes helps picks his clothes and takes him shopping. And how he makes breakfast. And is constantly picking up whatever Magnus tosses (a few spell books and always Alec’s work phone). Magnus normally orders drinks for him to try (he has more experience and knows Alec’s palette) and Alec is generally just very quiet for the most part because he 1) has no interest in talking with mundanes and is only doing this because he knows it’s important to Magnus and he didn’t like Magnus being offered entertainment (he trusts Magnus 100% it’s just irritates him). 2) is naturally quiet and likes to observe 3) it takes the women two times to notice he’s there and two times for them to beg for him to never come again 4) Alec has no understanding of mundane gender roles, mundane underworld roles, mundane life, crime life or etc so he doesn’t make sense and no one makes sense to him.

Magnus just loves Alec and likes him being involved in all aspects of his life and Magnus and Cat are both are giant trolls. They dish over brunch every month that these meetings happen. Magnus has surveillance spells so she and cat can watch Alec and mob wives talk. Alec knows that Magnus has spells.

They are all awful trolls of mundanes and it’s 100% amazing.

Alec when he’s ‘allowed’ in the ‘important’ meeting and he doesn’t give a single solitary fuck and just snuggles up to magnus and reads his book because he’s bored af.

Magnus: he won’t be pulled away from his book for anything less that a natural disaster, you mentioned there was a chemical explosion?

#shadowhunters #lumine rants about words #tw drugs #tw alcohol #malec