#dsrdrd eating

[basically-queenberyl]

Is this a relapse?

it's almost 10am and I've been awake for 3 hrs putting off breakfast to exercise. And it feels like everyone is unintentionally sabotaging my workout. Now I feel like I don't have the energy bc I waited too long, AND I didn't burn enough calories after what I ate yesterday. Then my mom comes in my room and grabs my weights so she can workout. Which was somehow triggering to me, and now I want to put off eating a little longer so I can eat less calories today.

This sounds so much worse when I write it down. But I feel like I need to hear how bad it sounds so it doesn't get worse. Why tf am I so triggered rn? Why do I want to destroy myself?

#Is this a relapse #triggered #dsrdrd eating #weight gain #weight loss #mental health #body issues