with your dirty mouth full of honest lies
Fandom: (Pre-Canon) Far Cry 5
Pairing: John Seed x GN!Reader
Rating: M (mature)
Words: 1200
John Duncan has every alarm set at 6:00 AM and that includes holidays, weekends, and the morning after.
All of them went off the morning after he carried you to bed a crying mess and put you to sleep in a wet heap. And every one of them was turned off the morning after you confessed your love for him and he punished you for it with tormenting pleasure.
"I smell bacon sizzling," John yawned, shaking his head of all the sleep he got in "And plastic burning?"
"That'd be the brand new frying pan," you point to the plastic wrapping on the counter. "I'm christening the stove."
"And stocking my pantry for the winter," he rubbed his eyes over to the bags of groceries next to the wrappings. "Have I ever been caught walking into the office with a lunch box, my dear?" Grabbing a Red Delicious apple, he wiped it on his royal blue robe before taking a bite.
"Oh, I see how it is," you try on a teasing tone, turning towards him to show off the pan. "His Highness can't digest peasant food like breakfast skillets." You empty the contents evenly into the two plates you set on the table, proud to have turned his empty, stainless kitchen into a messy, lived-in space.
The homeowner wasn't as comfortable inside of it as you were, however. And while the smell of your cooking had gotten him out of bed, this domestic display had made him a stranger in his own kitchen.
"Already ate," he showed off the shiny apple he had yet to finish, following you back to the sink. "I'll stop for coffee on our way back to your place," he looked over your shoulder at the monstrosity espresso machine you hadn't dared touch.
"I was a server, not a barista," you try your best to not sound as bitter as the hundreds of Americanos rich college boys like John Duncan had ordered. "I never learned to use the damn things."
"Shh," he slithered his hand under the collar of his shirt and reached the back of your neck. "It's alright. Shh. I never asked for coffee. Or breakfast. Or groceries." Then, he tangled his fingers into the small hairs there and threatened to pull. "All I asked is that you say 'yes'."
The night before, he asked you to stay. He asked you to stay when you took the emergency staircase when you closed the elevator doors in front of him. He asked you to stay when he caught up to you in the lobby. And you answered 'yes' when he asked if you were falling in love with him.
'Yes,' you answered him. Yes, you were falling in love with him. Between the bacchanals you abstained from attending and he drowned himself in, between the courtroom and back alley deals, and between all the men and women he swam through, you found someone as terrified of leaving room for his thoughts as you.
The morning after, between the blue curtains and white sheets, you let your thoughts wander. You let them lead you to places you knew you had no permission to be in. And you let them settle in your stomach where your hunger for the heavens in his eyes digested faster than your disgust for his silver tongue.
The morning after, between a breakfast that will never touch his lips and the shit-eating grin on his unshaven face, you swallowed the lump in your throat.
"And I did," you remind him of the ugly truths he choked out of you, all the while calling you beautiful. "I said 'yes'. To you. To us."
"Then leave these to soak and meet me in the shower," he whispered, drawing your head back and a whimper out of your throat.
You dropped the pan and the spatula but still you didn't surrender. "No."
"What was that?"
"I said no," you grunt painfully as you pull yourself out of his tightening grip. Then, as he blinks at the hairs still tangled between his fingers, you finally swallow the lump and speak clearly: "I didn't say 'yes' to Mr. Duncan, I said 'yes' to John. The real John."
"To me," he twirls your hair in his hand.
"No."
You pushed past him and whatever lie he had lined up died on his lips. And, as you pull his button-up off of your shoulders, you start your shameful walk toward the exit.
The night before, you only had your tears to hide. The morning after, you had purple bruises and red teeth marks to cover up. So you push down your pride as you pull at the knob.
"We're not doing this again," John came up from behind, bracketing you between his biceps and slamming both palms against the door surface. "I haven't even had my coffee yet."
"No, we're not," you snap at him, spinning around in the small space between his torso and the door.
"Then stop saying that," he snorted, but there was no humor in it. And there was nothing of the John you said 'yes' to last night in his eyes. Under the dark hair that fell into his face, his frown clouded the clear blue skies. "And get your pretty little ass in the shower."
"I'll stop saying 'no' when you stop lying," you spit. "You fucking liar."
"Stop calling me that," his nostrils flared.
"Only when you stop fucking lying to yourself, John Seed."
"Stop calling me that," he snarled, slamming his fists against the door surface.
"Yes, Mr. Duncan," your voice shook as you tried switching to the secretary one. "Right away, Mr. Duncan."
"Stop it," he shook all over. "I never lied to you. When I said I wanted you to take the day off, I meant it. When I said I needed you to stay the night, I meant it." Dipping his head, he suffocated himself with your smell, sighing into the side of your neck. "And when I said I can't let you run home crying, I meant I wanted your tears to soak up my sheets."
This John you recognized. You recognized the lust, the gluttony, and - most of all - you recognized the wrath. He wasn't flexing his cheek muscles, or eating bullshit, or dusting off his pain with white powder lines. No, not this John. This John snarled, bared his teeth, and bore his blown-out eyes into you.
If you were at your most alluring while in agony, then he was at his most handsome while uncoifed, unmedicated and unraveled.
"Then get that silver spoon out of your throat and have breakfast with me," you brought your hands to his face, combing back his bangs. "I'll even learn to work that fucking machine if you want me to."
"I won't lie to you," he wrapped his hands around your wrists.
"You better not," your thumbs brushed his unshaven cheeks.
"I don't know how that thing works either," he smiled a small smile. A sincere smile. "And I sure as shit don't know how to make you and I work."
"We're supposed to figure it out together, John," you smile in turn, tracing his trembling jaw. "You already know my answer, but what about yours?"
"My answer," he latches onto your fingers with his lips, kissing the tips, "is yes."
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