#dude how do i even tag this

[salsa-di-pomodoro]

Ok but can we talk about the absolute horror of being watched and monitored 24/7 that the ancients must have had. The citizenship drones being like an Alexa that's constantly following and listening to you (except it's five pebbles and not Alexa lmao). The fucking OVERSEERS. THEY'RE CALLED THAT FOR A REASON. BECAUSE THEY'RE SUPPOSED TO BE WATCHING THEIR CITIZENS AS WELL AS THE ENVIRONMENT ALL THE TIME. (I would talk about the fact that they all show arti fucking ads as well but honestly idk what else to say about that. Capitalism got yet another society 😔). That's some fucking nightmare fuel dystopian society settings we are being hinted at. You know the Big Brother Is Watching You thing. The book. Yeah that's what it reminds me of.

The Iterator Is Watching You.

#imagine not being able to escape being watched any second of your life #imagine being one of the first ancients who saw an iterator come into being #imagine being one of the first ancients who had to go live on top of them #imagine being one of the first amcients to be constantly scrutinized by the overseers #i bet they knew this wasn't really a good thing #no matter how religious they were. by the time of pebbles though they were far too religiously indoctrinated to realize this was bad #(as a society i mean. theres always some who disagree and figure out what's going on) #disclaimer i have never read the book i am talking about and only know it through references and pop culture. still tho yk what i mean #rain world #rainworld #rain world iterator #rw iterator #iterator #rw five pebbles #five pebbles #im tagging him too even tho hes only mentioned i wanna reach more ppl with this #pls i may not have said everything i wanted to say cause i cant get my thoughts straight rn but i want to hear what yall think about this #agh the whole situation is so fucked imagine being the Big Brother in this and not even having a choice in it. #imagine that everyone with critical thinking knows this and cant do anything about it. #not even mentioning the cataclysmic level rain the iterators brought. like dude who thought this was a good idea. #imagine all this + the end of the world and its ecosystem as you know it happening right before your eyes #and you cant even blame the person at fault that much bc they were literally fucking born into this #rw overseer #forgot this one #rw ancients

[blonde-and-cat-suc]

Catra being anxious and having panic attacks over the bad things she did is actually counter productive to any hypothetical scenario where she is self reflecting and/or receiving constructive criticism.

Her potentially having crippling anxiety over being an asshole in the past PREVENTS and/or DELAYS any changes she might potentially make.

Making this character spiral over moral dilemmas does not inherently mean she’s actively working to change her ways. Her being afraid of facing her badness does not make her good; it simply means she has anxieties toward constructive criticism/dialogue.

#in response to the dumb fuck fan comics I see about Catra having panic attacks over and over #yeah like. I get th sentiment. but really that’s not how that works #well. it DOES. but if the audience of the popular fanon POV of Catra’s character is supposed to be sympathetic #why make her a wet soggy cat (metaphorically) #why make her the sad pitiful one #if she’s making changes in her life and her behavior… wouldn’t that be… impowering ? #wouldn’t she feel happier? #she wouldn’t even need to be coddled by Adora (and company). #she’d accept the bad things she’s done and would apologize with no tears none of this wet cat bullshit attitude #actually… fuck it I’ll just write something where she does exactly that #mariposa rants #what I told you guys… that making a huge self pity party for yourself… after doing some shitty thing #is actually incredibly selfish … and silly…. #(ex. bojack horseman. like. literally the entire show.) #eww mariposa ranting about bojack horseman #<<< (new tag cause I’m not down with this point) #basically. feel bad for a minute. then spend the next hour working on yourself. journaling. self therapy. actual therapy. meditate. pray. #whatever the fuck dude

[wybienova]

third time’s the charm - part 2

[masterpost]

decided im going to make more of this :] we doin a whole comic now!

part 1 here

#wybs art #at #adventure time #adventure time spoilers #adventure time fanart #yayyy im doing this now because . i think its fun. and i want fern to have an ok time #finn the human #finn mertens #jake the dog #once again debating if i should tag it as fern.... #i dont wanna clog the tag when hes not even in it . but also it kinda revolves around him ??? so #idk . ill do this one but idk about future ones #fern the human #oh god i just realized i made them say 'dude' too much . im thinkinabout this too hard arent i #also ignore how the tree keeps changing #fern comix

[jeysuso]

#roman reigns #romanreignsedit #wweedit #crown jewel 2022 #mygifs* #jeysuso #wrestling tag #tw: flashing #* #his arm is extra BIG #paul is me always #but also do you ever see those dudes when you're just like. i'd actually let you beat the hell out of me #not even in a sexy way just literally lamp me one #that's how i feel when i see roman in his matches <3

[fffuckthelaxbros]

alternatively‚

Also if you’ve only read the main comic so far I recommend also checking out the extras tag! There’s a lot more fun stuff in there (like. A lot)

#gonna be honest this was mostly to set up the second joke #omgcp #none of this is answered by that tag tho so: #1) #fry guy’s that dude in I think year 3 at the game that shitty and jack were at #they spilled fries on him. and I think he shows up a few more times after that. #to be disturbed by the smh #and people made edits with him for a while #2) #swoops is one of Kent’s teammates from an extra and it wasn’t even his name it was a basketball term. #and ngozi didn’t know that’s what we were calling him until someone asked about him during a livestream I think. #his name is Jeff Lastname (he has a last name I just can’t remember it rn) #3) #and I have no idea where holster’s knee injury came from. #as far as I can tell not supported by canon except that he was in juniors and then he wasn’t. possibly and probably completely made up <3 #I actually do not know how much of that is common knowledge this is a very accurate joke. #…. #actually hang on I’m trying to remember if johnson is ever in the comic like. metaphysically. #WAIT he’s in the dibs hockey shit.

[bookwyrminspiration]

when you make a point and then someone goes "yeah! I agree that *a completely different misinterpretation of your point that they missed entirely*" like. dude. that wasn't at all what I said where did you even get that

#shitpost #wow tags look weird now why do they keep changing things #anyway i said I didn't like ai art because it steals from artists #and my teacher was like yeah you have a good point art might be devalued if its oversaturated in the market #like??? that's a completely different and also wrong point! #human art will always be more valuable and meaningful than ai #i was talking about the copyright and control artists should have over their art being disrespected and discarded #how did you even get to an oversaturated market like. my guy #he repeated it in front of the CLASS that wasn't what I SAID #at least i'd said my point out loud so anyone with critical thinking skills knows he said my point wrong #but like. dude #-_-

[quarks-pussy]

So I know we here at Startrekfandom love that "came back wrong but from the pov of the wrong" thing and apply it to many different characters and canon situations and I am far from trying to complain about it (I'm "came out wrong" trope myself so I was always gonna obsess over it) but having recently watched a very important episode (you'll know which one) for the first time I think there's a character who hits both tropes mentioned but llike, intertwined, opposite and subverted, and whom I wanna talk about.

Julian Bashir.

From his parents' pov he's "came out wrong but we got him help and he came back better" while from his own pov it's "came out 'insufficient', was destroyed for it, came back wrong and only later slowly came to terms with his new self tho never the process (justifiably so)" and it's heartbreaking because in a way, he's right! Jules Bashir died! His parents had an intellectually disabled child and decided to eugenics him! Julian is not the person he used to be and while I do love the person he is now, that doesn't bring back who he was! Part of me wishes we could've gotten to see Jules at least once and part of me hopes we never do because my heart would shatter.

This isn't a good comparison but nonetheless one I can't help drawing: it's giving similar vibes to anti-vaxxers. "I'd rather risk having a child who is dead than one who's autistic". Obviously this doesn't map over since Julian is still autistic and the procedure his parents subjected him to specifically targeted his intellectual disability and if any folks with id wanna comment on this I definitely recommend you listen to them over me, but it's a similarity I, as an autistic who has encountered anti-vaxxers again and again, can't help but point out. "Give me a normal child or give them death."

This may have been written about already but there needs to be stories about teenage Julian (after finding out and rediscovering who he was) practicing some good ol' recognition of the self through media. I need to hear about how he would encounter a story about someone who came back wrong (I'm gonna assume there's plenty of "wrong" pov stories floating around by the 24th century) and absolutely weep. I need to see Julian mourning Jules, taking years and years to process his feelings, experiencing guilt about how he, the imposter, didn't deserve to live Jules' life.

Came back wrong from the returned's pov but it wasn't an accident. It was done to you deliberately by the people who claim to love you. And now you are here, piloting the corpse of your predecessor.

Jules Bashir is dead. Long live Julian Bashir.

#i've called julian jules before simply as a normal nickname but i don't think i ever will again. not after this #and knowing that if it had been possible i would have probably gone the way jules did. knowing that at his age i would have gone willingly. #fuck dude i am literally actually crying literal tears irl right now this is not a joke #fuck!!!!! #julian bashir #jules bashir #doctor bashir i presume #came back wrong #star trek deep space nine #HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD!! HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD AND THEY KILLED HIM!!!! #i cannot stop crying i am literally crying and like not even just a little #i cannot... poor julian how the FUCK do you ever come to terms with something like that #and like... julian remembers. he has most if not all of jules' memories and also knows he was murdered simply for not being julian #like how did he cope #(im about to go off on a tangent that will contain censored names for the sake of not clogging those tags if you dont know who i mean hmu) #like this is literally the thing that fucked up j*ran so bad he went on a murder spree isn't it #he remembers the one who came before who was killed. very different circumstances of course esp since tr*ll are expected to replace one ano #another but he remembers this person he remembers BEING this person who was young and simply enjoying life and who died a sudden death and #he remembers the experience of that death as well and how it lead to his own creation. it's not remotely similar ofc but considering that #the only time we see t*rias in alpha canon is in julian's body... i need to lie down for a moment. #and jor*n couldn't cope! he couldn't! it was far too much and the weird thing is right now in this moment i GET it y'know?? like that's #so horrific. and i haven't watched any jo*an episode besides facets yet but do you think. do you think j*dzia told julian about all this an #he nodded along and kept composure and then when he was alone he broke down crying? like julian you're doing SO well ily you're coping and #you shouldn't have to obviously but you do nonetheless!! do you think julian still has something from jules? like i've heard there's a tedd #but i mean jules prolly didn't keep a diary he was a six year old with an intellectual disability it's pretty unlikely he could write but #does julian have drawings made by jules? i'd like to think so but honestly his parents probably threw them out. like they also moved so #sorry i'm just. many thoughts head full. ive stopped crying now but who knows for how long. also i'll have to tag this with my original tag #maybe i should've picked something less silly for when i make serious posts but like what am i gonna change my url as well? don't think so #original posts fresh from quark's pussy #and thats the tag limit folks it's been fun. i had to delete two other tags but my god. anyway. thinking about jules bashir forever & cryin

[swiftispunk]

good morning @mrsmando and i are currently conceiving a joel miller city bus driver au for exactly no one but ourselves

#you know like. he picks you up for work every morning until he starts to recognize you #subtly offers you free rides #picks you up late one night after work and jokes about how he's only ever used to seein you in the morning #bus is totally dead and he makes a comment about being ur personal chariot for the night #some creep gets on and sits beside you even though the bus is empty #joel's watching the entire interaction like a hawk in his rear view mirror #the second you start to look uncomfortable he's pulling that bus over and kicking that dude off by the scruff of his neck #detouring the bus to drop you off right outside your apartment and make sure you're ok #leaving you with his number but /not like that/ #just wants you to reach out if you ever need anything or if there's anything he can do #just so apologetic you were ever made to feel unsafe on HIS bus #anyway #i have lost sight of normal at this point #now you can all join in whatever brainrot this is too #mimi tag #joel miller imagine

[shannonsketches]

he's so important to me

#i guess i need to watch the anime but super's manga has just been a self-indulgent fever dream for me from start to finish #100000/10 absolutely perfect so validating so extremely catered to my tastes and headcanons and analyses and humor #so fucking funny and emotional and intense and goofy and beautifully drawn #my beautiful son getting to finally fucking see his HARD won character growth fucking shine and choose love and choose to be loved!!!!!! #Goku just being Goku Vegeta being Team Dad Piccolo being Team Grandpa Bulma being a fucking superstar keeping everybody organized and fed #god i love this squad i love this series i love these dumbasses and their struggles and their triumphs and their stupid childish bonding #I love that Toriyama just spent the last several years reminding the class that DB as a whole has always been an ACTION-COMEDY about LOVE #and I'm SO sad that the z anime really never did it justice in that sense because of having to fill time with dramatic tension but god. GOD #THE MANGA HAS ALWAYS BEEN SO CLEAR ON THAT THESIS. #Just all about Restorative Justice and Community and CARING even when you wish SO MUCH that you didn't care but yoU DO GODDAMMIT!!! #SUCH a great series I'm so sad it took losing mr t for me to finally read it but my god I needed to read it now and I'm so glad he wrote it #and i'm SO glad he wrote it Exactly Like This #once again rip to a legend i'm caught up and crying it's so perfect it's SO everything I've wanted to see onscreen and embedded in canon #and canon isn't everything but it still feels gREAT to be SO 1:1 on the same page with an author re: how you interpret your blorbo yknow??? #been rotating this man in my head for 25 years and Mr Toriyama just mWAH kissed me on the forehead about it #anyway enough tag rambles I'm off again aklsjla #bonus for that kenpachi shit and letting him say 'sorry dude I can't be cold and numb anymore but this is still cathartic as fuck lol' like #mr t i hope you see the HIGHEST tier of heaven for that (and obviously for like everything all of it the whole life you led)

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[frogintheair]

the vampire that's been living in my head rent free this past week

#guilty gear #slayer #slayer guilty gear #dude...how do you even tag this series hi hello #my art #anyways i guess i can upload here too but ive been drawing this man so much #mostly in a desperate attempt to learn how to draw him #but god. ive known him for very little time but he's already made me go wild. go stupid even #cant wait til hes in strive :3

[atopvisenyashill]

the only thing about satin gay discourse is that the nw guys are calling him slurs because he was a prostitute not because of his actual sexuality. i go back and forth about what i think about it but i’ve settled on it not mattering LOL

i mean yeah definitely but they dislike that he's a prostitute because a) that's a woman's job and b) he took male clients. the conflation of a woman's role and sexuality is really intrinsically linked, like that's part of why homophobia exists, is this idea that a man would be happy and willing to "play the role" of a woman in a romantic or sexual relationship is bad, and that being "the woman" in a relationship is dirty and, ya kno, gay lmao. like, whether or not satin likes men or not, they're calling him slurs because they think he's gay because he had male clients, he took a "woman's" role, he's pretty and educated, and doesn't conform to westeros' idea of masculinity. i do think what a lot of people miss - especially the dudebros on redit lolll - is that homophobia and misogyny really go hand in hand a lot of the time. hatred of queerness is tied to hatred of women and vice versa and i think a lot of the nw really drives home that specific point (see: sam, danny flint, the wildling woman warriors, etc) but trying to get reddit to acknowledge something as simple as "homophobia and misogyny bad" let alone "let's explore the ways in which homophobia and misogyny feed into each other and how these men would rather shoot themselves in their own heads then ever admit someone feminine might not be the devil themself" is an admittedly hopeless crusade.

#asks #valyrianscrolls #satin flowers #i know he doesn't go by flowers but that's how everyone tags him and i don't give a care aldsjf #i hope this doesn't come across mean i agree with u anon they are calling him slurs bc of his job but they dislike his job bc of homoophobi #as well as misogyny. satin doesn't do gender correctly and in an even more heinous way than sam bc at least sam likes women. #but a dude who doesn't realize JON FUCKING CONNINGTON is gay is not gonna pick up on that. they probably agree aljdflkjdsalkjfsdj

[random-bean-allie]

what exactly compels people to insult fics in PUBLIC bookmarks??

like sir, the writer is a random person who's writing for fun and has decided to share their creation with us so that hopefully some of us can have a few minutes of joy in our day!! that's amazing!

if you don't like it - just click out. it's not like they tricked you into giving them your firstborn, chill out and be respectful.

#'this fic is soooo mid 😑 and i dont like this trope!!' #it's literally tagged?? like... they told you it'd be the main trope. what more do you need? #if you want to be rude put that shit into the private bookmarks dude #BUT ALSO WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU BOOKMARKING FICS YOU DON'T LIKE?? #and it even looked like they were aiming the bookmark at other readers?? like 'oh beware this fic is shit' #shut the fuck up?? first of all no it's not. second of all how dare you?? that's a fan just like you! #ao3 #ao3 fanfic #mcu #percy jackson #kinnporsche the series #mdzs #spn #destiel #hannigram #merthur #percabeth #wangxian #six of crows #johnlock #found family #art #xiyao #steddie #stranger things #doctor who #tgcf #hualian #bakudeku #pjo

[crabussy]

when did you first realise you hosted a system?

sometime in 2020 if I remember correctly? had been experiencing very obvious osdd symptoms for YEAAARS but had no idea what it was before meeting some friends who did. learned a bit about it and went okay interesting! and then a few months later went oh fuuuuck.

#IT WAS REALLY FUNNY I DONT KNOW HOW I DIDNT REALISE PREVIOUSLY #like hey man. #you had full blown conversations with another presence inside your head every day on the way home from school for MULTIPLE YEARS #this presence didnt agree with me on everything either like. #dude arguing with someone else inside your own mind is NOT average 11 yo behaviour #anyway ya its been like three or four years. wow #also had an 'imaginary friend' named ivy at the age of like 7 who was mean to me and just. never wanted to play or anything #ask tag #and like. my interests and attitudes towards relationships and even the way I spoke changed almost daily #inchresting stuff ^_^ #I DO WANT TO ADD that disorders involving being a system are VERY COVERT. you might not even HAVE symptoms #I was just. very special or something

[princessg3rard]

okokok I look like ray and Frank’s love child idk how to cope with that

#lord above #how did this happen #my curls look fucking amazing tho #this is so ray coded #ray toro #so frankie coded #frank iero #fuck dude #how do i even tag this #mcr rox

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

#N posts stuff #one could argue ‘we see tula worry a lot tho’ but that’s bc Worry is an Action that can occur Separately from Recognizing Anxiety #now that I know tumblr will put a hard cap on your tags w/o telling you i'm resigning myself to posting rambling meta in post body #but i'm not happy about it; anyway i love how often life is full of Coincidences bc this is something I've Finally identified in myself #like. This Month. like this is brand new articulation for some of the problems i have in life; again knowing this doesn't help lmao #bc even when you know to look Around the shape of the emotion - like 'oh my face is Snarling rn. i'm probably experiencing Something' #like i said bc you don't know What that something is OR What might have caused it then the only solution you Ever get to come up with #is just 'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else' which INVARIABLY means that you will wind up in that same situation again #and Still have no idea how to handle it bc you never could figure out what caused it so you don't know how to handle it any better than #'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else'; so 'be somewhere else' is the ONLY way you can ever think to Help it #which usually invariably turns into 'Just Avoid Fucking Everything just in case'; which doesn't work! bc life doesn't let you do that #so then it's just a cycle of falling into the same pitfalls and feeling miserable all the time; gotta love it :) #if you're like me this also gives you Bad Bad Bad Memory bc your brain will Promptly hide evidence of Scary Situation instinctively #like 3 weeks ago this dude ran a red light and almost t-boned me Full Speed & managed to stop like. maybe 3 feet away. #and i like. Startled Laughed and said 'that was scary' and then within 30 seconds i had Fully Forgotten it happened & only remembered #like 2 days ago. Ha! believe it or not this Does Not Help with 'How can I Address the Problem instead of Avoiding It Entirely?' #dimension 20 #d20: stupendous stoats #tula #d20lb