#early days of covid

[foursaints]

on that note. enough marauders band aus where they’re polished modern-day celebs… did the unabashed sluttiness of Warped Tour 2009 mean nothing to you?? i want to see the girls in sweaty hoodies playing for dirty venues of insane teens with sharpie lyrics on their vans. wolfstar gets caught making out backstage in a grainy flip phone pic and within 6 hours myspace is in SHAMBLES doing forensics trying to figure out if it’s really them. the black brothers represent the two sides of emo fashion (disgusting black zip-up) vs (RAWR. PIERCINGS. ARMSOCKS) but in the opposite direction of what you’d expect. early 5sos-style james potter? that slut? with his wattpad love interest swag? TELL ME HE WOULDN’T EAT

#barty wearing hot topic… i think i huave covid #i just believe in my heart that wolfstar would incite a level of mass hysteria only comparable to the early days of frerard #they have their own version of the petekey masterdoc

[satsuha]

for 1draw! (took 1.5h)

#dragalia lost #satsuhart #lin you #the context for why im drawing so much is i need to stay up to fix my sleep schedule and #drawing is one of the few things i can do without getting sleepy #anyway linyou my queen <3 the only reason i ever got into drgl meta #the early days of covid when i spent hours on eciella making her wep are etched in my brain

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

super fun sickness question! so, the illness that has demolished my extended family and is surely coming for me has the following progression:

head cold and cough for a few days

then evolves into FEVER TIME!

then barfing. just hella barfing.

then i guess you're just sick forever in feverish nausea, idk. D:

anyway: has anyone else heard about this going around this sad globe of ours? any clue what it is?

#bf's covid test was negative a few days ago but i know the rapid tests aren't supes reliable in the early days #the way it seems to just keep you in its evil grip for a long time makes me wonder if it's covid #dollsome's deep thoughts #i haven't had a fever or thrown up in years and i am just. not looking forward to it. 😠

[coquelicoq]

i love this cat so much she is such a dumbass 😭 and she keeps coming over to lie on my stomach and purr. perfect creature

#catsitting and i came down with covid :/ #bad timing because my friend is coming home today and i've gotten my germs all over her apartment #also my energy is so low i'm not sure how to get home #i had to go outside yesterday to get a package off the porch it was fuckin crazy #any time i get off the couch which is like five timres a day lol the cat thinks shes getting fed lol #its kiuterally three hours early fir thgat you idiot #(affectionate)

[pacifymebby]

If you can be arsed with all those tags and fancy giving me brutal advice read away haha

#something is definitely going wrong for me because I want to go out tomorrow night with my mate who is thinking about getting a bag in and #and that lowkey sounds like a lot of fun to me and i wanna chip in but like i think B wants to come out and if he does i cant join in with #my pal because B would very much be against me doing that and like ugh #he doesnt even drink at the moment and i feel like out of nowhere hes matured but in all the wrong ways #like in none of the ways ive been wanting him to for the last few years #but in the ways which mean our nights out arent compatible anymore #and i know im the problem for wanting to be nihilistic hedonistic whatever #but i feel like im getting back the bit of my early 20s covid and working in care robbed me of #and hes already had his phase of that sort of stuff but like would be annoyed with me if i was doing coke around him and stuff #im definitely being selfish and should just say no to the drugs and like be a good girlfriend but #ahhhhhh idk if i cant have christmas like and i didn't get christmas eve at the pub then i kinda want boxing day at the pub with my mates #ugh #a tiny part of me is considering changing my plans with b and being borderline dishonest but also i know that #doing that is going to make whatever problem there is between us worse? #ultimately i know that im morally in the wrong here tbh and also like a bit of a loser

[cassiefisherdrake]

if today of all days turns out to be a migraine day, I am gonna be so fucking mad. and by mad, I mean passed the fuck out in bed hopefully but also really, really mad. at existence.

#our little lives don't count at all! #waking up with the early signs of a migraine on my birthday? after being taken out by my COVID booster the other day and #a sinus infection before that and a month and a half with almost no days off just before that? #I took my rizatriptan (hate. disgusting. needs a new flavour that doesn't make me wanna die while taking it. why is 'mint' the standard) #but can't I just have a break? on my birthday of all days? :( #augh fuck now my teeth are starting to hurt. bad bad bad sign

[paleolithique]

if my coworker gave me covid i swear to fucking god

#trying to decide if it's too early to take a covid test or if i should wait til tomorrow #if it's negative today i'll have to test again tomorrow night anyways to rule out false negatives #really great getting sick before two days off. really productive.

[insert-math-username]

the thing about depression leaving my Saturday activities early is I still have depression but now I'm just alone in my bedroom and sad instead of being with people having lunch and being sad

#personal #like i don't regret leaving bc i Was abt to start crying #but shit sucks i wanted to be social today #oh well I'm going to a party in 6hrs assuming no one tests positive for covid #still thinking abt eitan calling to see if i was mad at him bc i depression left his house early #nah buddy it's just been raining for days and if i don't see the sun and or cuddle someone I'm gonna breakdown sobbing in a target

[babygirlificationn]

The swimsuit :) the tan lines :(

#this is a very random thing to draw but also sooo funny to me. my ass is two different colours :( #but also this is NOTHING compared to the early covid days. my FACE was two different colours back then #you could clearly see the parts of my cheeks that were covered by the face masks straps #insane. #art #digital art #my art :D #doodles #doodling #should i make a tag for all the times i draw myself? #uuuhhhhhhh #me tag #there. that will do

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

skipping class for the first time in my life bc my professor has covid and he sent out an email saying we’re having class and he’s asymptomatic and will wear a mask per cdc guidelines even tho he’s past the 5 day required isolation period. like. great whatevs but have you actually tested negative

update: the answer was no he had not

#stressed as FUCK #it’s fine we have a textbook and he doesn’t take roll #hoping he doesn’t do an extra credit activity but if i miss it for the sake of my health so be it #i have to go home afterwards anyway bc i have an appointment the next day with my thyroid dr #stressed abt that too bc my mum has dropped all precautions as if she isn’t in her 60s and didn’t lose her husband to covid #and idk what my sibling is doing but i know they’ve stopped masking at their practices and i wouldn’t be surprised if they stopped masking #all together. they also only wear cloth masks but at least it was something #idk i just feel like im the only one not ignoring it. like. when my dad got sick i asked him early on if he could smell and he was like #‘I’m just congested’ and my mum was like ‘no he’s just sick it’s not covid’ and then we waited until it was too late #like. i tell my mum that there’s nothing we could have done bc i don’t want her to feel guilty but like #idk. part of me thinks that if people had just listened to me and gotten him tested earlier and not lived in denial that maybe he’d still be #here. and my mum is pretty healthy but again she’s in her 60s. i don’t want to lose another parent to covid. or if she gets it and has it #bad or ends up with long covid then im gonna have to come home to take care of her or. idek. like i don’t live at home anymore so i can’t #pick up the slack if something happens to her. and my sibling definitely can’t #it’s so stressful. did we not watch the same process of my dad rapidly deteriorating. by the time we took him to the hospital he looked like #a corpse. he was completely grey and his eyes were glazed and he couldn’t even sit up or wave goodbye. has she just forgotten that happened #am i the only one who remembers watching my dad deteriorate in front of us #vent tw #covid tw

[reactionimagesdaily]

#early covid days were a wild time #reaction image #reaction meme #daily reaction images #image mood: depression time

[thethingything]

had to lay down. woke up at nearly 7am. got overwhelmed by our sleep schedule once again being fucked because yesterday we actually went to bed at roughly the right time and thought "oh this is great we've fixed it". decided that we're just gonna deal with it and it'll be fine. and then our brain decided that no actually we're gonna have a combination of emotions that's maybe gonna give me another breakdown if I can't figure out how to deal with them but I have no fucking clue what to do with them

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #I fucking hate this. we barely did anything yesterday because we were too fatigued and then slept at a weird time #and we're still too fatigued to do much and we need to do the stuff we'd normally do before bed #and by the time we've done that we'll probably need to nap because we will feel so much worse if we don't #and I don't want to have to try and fit my whole day around trying to fix my sleep schedule but once again what else do I fucking do #and the whole last month has been like this over and over and it's because we got covid in February and have been way more fatigued #so we have to keep laying down and when we do that we just pass the fuck out #also waking up at like 7am (shortly before what should be our bedtime) leads to us feeling really sick #the way we used to feel when we had to get up early for college. like our body can't handle it and makes us feel like shit #and to top it all off the emotional shit I'm dealing with has nothing to do with this and it just another overwhelming thing on top of it #dysphoria and homesickness my fucking beloathed #I just want to be awake at the right time and have a nice stress free day and feel relaxed for once #like we keep trying to take time to relax and set aside time to do something fun and relieve some stress #and we still end up just as stressed and when we decided to spend a whole day just trying to relax we just ended up even more anxious #I'm so fucking tired. just let me sleep at the right time. just let me fucking relax for once in my life

[autisticpride]

since it's on my mind: you probably need to make a dentist appointment

#fr a lot of people missed/cancelled appointments in early days of covid #and never made a new one

[queer-ragnelle]

when you feel the migraine coming & you’re pleading & bargaining with your body to hold off until you’ve finished cooking so at least you can crash on a full stomach

#i’ve felt the migraine all day but it’s starting to hurt now #there’s nothing i can do to make it go away don’t make suggestions please #meds from the doctor do nothing over the counter meds do nothing eating drinking sleeping do nothing #i just have to wait for my body to decide it’s over #hate that it creeps up sooner & sooner in the day steadily until i eventually have to call out of work #on those days it’s like #the gap of okayness closes completely #& every second with my eyes open is agony #i’m still better than i was a couple years ago #but off getting covid early this year made the migraines come back again & i feel so attacked #my post

[gideonisms]

I think the first time you burn out & take a little break from living in a society After you know what's wrong with you should be like a celebration. When you feel it coming on and then plan for it and burn out right on schedule it's a coming of age thing. welcome to living in this world if you've just crashed & burned and now you know why! you should have your beverage of choice and sit in the bath about it

#takes bong hit. when you feel like situations were overwhelming sometimes it's because they were #i was reading through this old journal i kept where i wrote down things that made me happy bc research showed that helps with mental health #and one of the entries was like so i scrubbed the mold off my wall it keeps coming back but at least it looks nice now! #girl. #facepalm #call into work to send the email about that you can't just let that happen. both jobs. call in #living in the worst conditions with 2 jobs and full time class still barely making rent like why am i sad & overwhelmed? #girl i. #it wasn't even that bad this last time i was living with family in a place with no mold working and only taking like 1 or 2 classes #it wasn't quite as concerning tho i'm sure at some point we will unpack the way customers acted during the early days of covid bc wow.

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

I think one of the other reasons I've been so dreading this trip is because I haven't actually been back to California since my gram died. Last time I was home was to see her in the hospital. Stepping back over the state line will make her being gone more real, somehow. And then I'll be going to a wedding where people are probably going to ask about her, while I'm also reminded in all the shortfalls of my own life. And I'll have to pretend everything is good because I don't wanna be the weird downer at a wedding. The entire situation is uh, to put it lightly, not something I'm looking forward to.

#dreading this trip #half convinced my car might break down #gram's death weighing heavy on me #oh and also last time I drove down was right at the beginning of me meeting/talking to d #so that's also gone to shit since then #gave up on my chosen career since then #granted my job now is technically better in a myriad of ways but not something I'm excited to talk about #i am half tempted to fake a covid infection to get out of going #but I know the guilt from not going would eat at me too #so fingers crossed my car doesn't break down #I'm gonna have to get wizard high for this wedding #which thankfully probably won't be hugely out of place at a Humboldt wedding #wish I had someone to talk to about this shit #all the feelings bubbling up when I should be sleeping to get up stupid early in the morning and drive all day #i wish I could cry in someone's lap for a while #but of course if I had someone I wouldn't be dreading this as much so catch-22 there