Ahh I’m 145 and I can possibly get to 135 soon !!!
i’m going to fast for maybe ten days. i haven’t been doing it lately so it will be hard but i kinda want to suffer :)
Today my psychologist asked me how I would feel and what I would do if one day I woke up really happy. I had no idea what to say to her. At this point, I thought how long I was not happy and that if a miracle happened and I woke up happy I would have no idea what to do with myself.
it’s moments like when my bf pulls on the extra room on my waistband and says “no way you’ve got that small since we’ve been together” 😌
“Even now, I still feel it. Don’t say it’s okay. Because it’s not okay. Please don’t leave me alone, it hurts too much.”
How the fuck am i supposed to function as an alcoholic
I’ll never be sick enough
✨Why I want to be skinny✨
I keep going away but I don’t really have much of a reason. I guess I don’t really feel like I belong here. I’m old. (27). I have kids. I’m still fat (162 as of today). Everyone here is still young and y'alls journey’s are so much further than mine is. It’s frustrating. Sometimes I don’t feel like I can make it. I don’t know what to do most days. I feel so alone.
tw // ed vent
I’m so tired of this. I’m so tired of not having breakfast and saying no to food I used to love and not being able to take a day off. I’m tired of it consuming everything in my life, I’m tired of every thought I have be about food. I’m tired of the panic. and the rituals. and the rules. I’m tired because I dont have any energy anymore. and this disorder is hurting the person i love the most, and I cant deal with that. I dont know how to deal with that. I dont know how to stop or If I want to stop or if I can or if it’s even possible because the possibility of this lasting for the rest of my life is suffocating and overwhelming and I don’t know what the fuck to do.
what the fuck do I do at this point.
Okay so y'all… :)
I made a recipie that I’m gonna try later and it’s pretty low calorie for a huge meal 🥴
I only eat one meal a day so have a big meal is key for me, and bitch this is i t
If you want something a little more light weight then cut some of the ingredients in half for a quick and easy lunch 😌💅💕
And that’s literally it bitches. I’ll make a follow up post about how it tasted and what it looked like later 😌💅
Although this number might be scary, the total for this big meal is 401, but it’s the only thing I eat all day lol.
If you want a lighter version, try 3 oz chicken, and only 1 tub of mcdonalds buffalo sauce, or hell, make your own low calorie version! I just like that sauce because it’s really creamy and tastes so good :)
Po pierwszym dniu nie czuje się totalnie głodna, co jest dziwne bo zazwyczaj jak mam chociaż 200 kcal dziennie to czuje się mega głodna.
Rano: waga 53.4kg, w pasie: 61cm, w udach 46cm
Zrobiłam ćwiczenia na nogi i ogólnie trening wzmacniający.
Wieczór: waga 53, w pasie: 60cm, w udach 46cm
Same ćwiczenia na nogi i 50 brzuszków
My friend said that she didn’t ate anything since yesterday…
Is this f❤️cking challenge to see how long I can starve or what?
My favourite place to think about everything
My parents always say i wont be able to do anything in my life well jokes on you i just reached a new low 😩✋
It’s hard, while restricting and everything, sometimes our toughts are like “Maybe i have an ed, nah i don’t”, and it’s weird because from one side we want it and from another we don’t want to accept having it. And sometimes i want to be like everybody else, eating normally, but more than this i want to be skinny.
˜”*°•.˜”*°• Safe Foods Menu •°*”˜.•°*”˜
Low calorie Reddi Wip (non dairy, whipped topping for coffee) 10 cals
Coco Lace Chocolate Flavored Desert 30 cals
Skinny Pasta 20 cals
Pop chips (potato usually) 100 cals
Calorie Clever Fettucine Style 10 cals
Walkers French Fries (Salt & Vinegar) Per pack: 82 cals
Kallø Blueberry Vannila Rice Cakes 35 cals
Shiitake Noodles Per pack: 12 cals
Powdered PB 2 Tbsp: 46 cals
Kimchi Per can: 60 cals
Miso Soup 19 cals
Silken Tofu Half-pack: 100 cals
M&S Soy, Ginger, & Chilli (quinoa waves) Per pack: 91 cals
Nim’s Beetroot and pasnip vegetable crisps Per pack: 70 cals
Skinny PopPopcorn (of course) Per cup: 39 cals
ThinSlim foods Cloud cakes 20 cals
Stretch Island Fruit Company Apricot Fruit Strip 45 cals
Pacific Foods Free Range Chicken Broth 25 cals
Fuji Apple Friit Crisps (Brothers All Natural) 40 cals
Arctic Seeo Vanilla Maple (Ice Cream) Per pint: 150 cals
Bakery Vanilla Chai Crunchy Cookie Bites Per cookie: 26 cals
Annie’s Cinnamon Bunny Graham’s Per 11 pieces: 49 cals
Suzie’s Whole Grain Thin Cakes Corn, Quinoa, & Sesame Per 3 cakes: 38 cals
Jello Strawberry Sugar Free 10 cals
DM/ comment your safe foods and I’ll add them to the list (and give you credit)