#edrelapse

[nikoleivasdiaryxo]

”you’ll feel better when you recover”

no I’ll feel better when I’m skinny 😭

#⭐️ve #⭐️ving #ednotedsheeren #twed #i just want to be thin #Edrelapse #edtwt #anaquotes

[questshunself]

Having an eating disorder & trying to decide what to eat:

#eating disorder #eating disorder thoughts #ed #edthoughts #anorexia #anorexic #bulimia #bulimic #eating disorder problems #edproblems #relapse #relapsing #edrelapse #edtreatment #eating disorder relapse #eating disorder memes #edmemes #eating disorder humor #eating disorder treatment #edhumor #frustration

[edsarentcute]

How do you stop losing and gaining the same 2-3 pounds

#edadvice #ednotsheeran #analife #edrelapse

[honeybeeskinnie]

In order to stay motivated on track, I am gonna describe the process of my relapse as I go..

Day 2..

I keep thinking back to wanting to know if I should really do this, and I have to keep reminding myself of a few things to keep me strong

-I am a toxic person and I don't deserve food

-I only wanna choose recovery because I'm fat af and like food

-if I would have actually relapsed before, like I tried, I would have been down by like 30lbs since then

It's my second day- a little easier at fist the beginning of the day, and much harder at the end. I wanted to eat the food at my work, but I remained strong. I'm hoping 3rd day is easier..

#edrelapse #pro nothing #fat ana #ana rules #ed but not sheeran #not pr0 just for myself #ed vent #skinnni #4n0r3x14 #i want to be a skeleton #tw ana thoughts

[manifast1ng]

binge binge binge binge binge binge

i

binge binge binge binge binge binge

will

binge binge binge binge binge binge

starve

binge binge binge binge binge binge

to

binge binge binge binge binge binge

break

binge binge binge binge binge binge

the

binge binge binge binge binge binge

cycle.

i have to break the cycle.

poem by me

#tw ed rant #poetry #ed poetry #ed vent #ed not sheeren #edtumbrl #tw ed thoughts #edrelapse #help lol #binging #bingedisorder #intimate #tw ed stuff

[posts-fromtheoceanfloor]

It's hard to see that what I'm doing is any kind of wrong with the neighborhood elderly ladies cheer you on as you run past them in the street then continue to gab amongst themselves about "I don't know how she does it!" "I know, I couldn't!!". Or when an old regular you haven't seen in a while comes into your work and asks "have you been losing weight? I need to come up here more often and feed you".

#tw ana shit #anamia #tw #tw ed descussion #tw ed diet #ana trigger #tw food mention #ed relapse #ed vent #tw numbers #twedrelapse #ednotsheeran #ed related #edrelapse

[wastedflowersfallingtowers]

does anyone wanna be my ana buddy or wanna make a group chat? I recently relapsed and idk but i‘d like to connect to someone with similar struggles. I don’t wanna encourage anyone just asking to be less alone

#an0rexiA #ed #anagroup #anabuddy #an0rekksikk #anoreksia #edrelapse

[anaskinny-bones]

day 1

Stats: 140lb 5’4 / 63kg 162cm

#ana #tw ana #edbllr #tw edd #ed but no sheeran #edrelapse #ana trigger

[0calcoffeebreath]

It's really hard having a ED and a bf. No one talks about how having a bf completely disrupts the routine and patterns. There's always going out to get food, or work out times replaced with movie nights. Or isolating yourself because you feel gross and ashamed, stops happening.

You gain weight. And in the beginning you think, wow. Maybe I'll be okay. Maybe this is good.

And then you lose control. It's 2kg. Then 5. And then it's 10. And then 17kg. And you think, HOW did I let myself get to this point. This is NOT fun. I am NOT okay.

And I think the worst part about it all, instead of thinking how lucky I am to have him, and being in the moment, I've already counted the calories in my mind 7 times over, and I'm on the verge of tears because I know I can't just easily fall back into old habits.

The habits that kept me feeling in control.

#calories #anamia #body goals #fat #notpro #body dismorphia #adhd #mental health #skinny thighs #just ed things #thinspii #thinsperation #tw ed content #tw ed stuff #edmemes #edrelapse #thigh gap #collar bones #dont report just block #bodycheck

[blackcoffeesteam]

okkkaaay first time posting on here and I’ve relapsed idk what to say lmao

#ed #ed tumblr #relapse #edrelapse #thinspo

[sadroachsblog]

TW ED VENT

binged again and couldn't purge,I feel like I'm loosing myself and my identity I genually feel so numb and lost I'm going insane I just wanna be happy but my head is fighting against me.

I can't even look at my body I feel my ribs but I also feel my horrible bloat.

Why cant I purge??? I'm a failure I'm fat and deformed ill never be good enough

#bingeeating #recovery #anorexia #ana #mia #bulimia #eatingdisorder #eating disoder things #mentalilness #mentalhealth #depression #starvinb #edrelapse #ed

[kittykittybun]

ed rant

CW ana + vent

recently i relapsed back into my eating disorder. i was clean for around five months, then spiralled back in. everyone has been complimenting me, saying that i look so good now. i know this sounds like really bad, but i am not pro ana but when it comes to myself i am. does that make sense ? i want others to get better, but i do not want myself to get better.yeah that is it.

#ana #anarexsick #tw ana vent #tw ana stuff #it's not as simple as just eating #ed #edrelapse #relapse

[questshunself]

I edited this meme to make it more relevant to my life + silly because I always panic and can never seem to remember the conversion from lbs to kg in the moment 😅

#eating disorder #eating disorder memes #edmemes #eating disorder thoughts #edthoughts #ed #eating disorder problems #edproblems #eating disorder humor #anorexia #anorexic #bulimic #bulimia #ana #anamia #mia #relapse #relapsing #edrelapse #edhumor #edmeme #this is silly #eating disordered #eating disorder things #eating disorder joke #dumb jokes #dumb joke #silly joke #my silly thoughts #tw ed behavior

[onceagainrelapsing]

yup, me again are we surprised? no. dissapointed? yes sir.

yup i relapsed again lol three days away from my birthday. we just love that dont we? anyways stream getaway car by taylor swift my love

#taylor swift #edrelapse #dissapointed but not surprised

[decayingsunfl0wer]

(TW!! Eating disorders) I’ve been really struggling recently, and I figured I’d write about it and post it here, since I know many people may be finding themselves in a similar situation. I haven’t really opened up to anyone I know in person, since I have been in ed recovery for a year and don’t want to face the backlash of taking a million steps back. 

#ed #ana #proana #anorexia #bulimia #promia #thinspo #relapse #edrelapse

[badkleptomaniac]

I remember like it was yesterday, my eleventh birthday.

Candles on the cake, fake smile on my face.

"Wish for something nice and happy!"

I blew the candles wishing I would fall asleep and die.

My years before that was not the best.

"why do you laugh like that?", "you have so many dark circles around your eyes", "you have a weird nose", "your teeth are crooked"

The only insults I enjoyed was about my weight.

"You're way too skinny!", "you look like a stick!", "You're gonna disappear soon!", "Skeleton!"

My sister used to call me fat and chubby. That's was the type of insult she would use. Never commenting on my nose, my teeth, or my laugh.

It didnt matter that I was skin and bones, I was still fat. I thought that too.

After weekly meetings with the school nurse and my parents, her forcing me to eat, I finally started gaining weight.

It made me despise food. Eating became something bad. It was something you were forced to do.

My entire life, since the school nurse started to force feed me in primary school, I've restricted my food intake.

Everything for skipping meals, lying to my parents, to going vegetarian. It was always something new.

I have now become an adult. And I still cant consume food without feeling the same way i felt when they force fed me.

I look in the mirror; fat

I look at the scale; fat

I drag my hands down my body; fat

I will always look fat

I am fat

#anarexya #ed #triggerwarning #edrelapse #anorexia #eatingdisorder #restrictive #fat #proana #pro ana