#else deserving only a thank you

[thranduel]

"el would be so heartbroken without mike, she needs him"

meanwhile el: her happiest moments were with max when mike wasn't around, she was happy after she dumped mike, max was the only person who truly allowed her to be herself and taught her how to discover her own interests, she chose to go with owens even though she was warned she might not ever see mike again, she has proved over and over again that she doesn't need him

"will can just move on and find someone else, he can get over mike"

meanwhile will: has been in love with mike since the beginning, had an emotional breakdown and destroyed castle byers after his fight with him, thought about mike when he was away and made him a special painting that meant the world to him, considers mike "the heart", only feels fully safe and comfortable with mike ("you make me feel like i'm not a mistake at all. like i'm better for being different. and that gives me the courage to fight on"), literally told mike that he'll ALWAYS need him, had another emotional breakdown and cried in the van because he confessed his feelings to mike and loves him so much but he thinks that mike will never love him back and he's so afraid of losing him, still finds it hard to watch mike and el to the point where his brother notices and has to remind him that everything will be okay and that he'll always be there for him because will is really struggling mentally

like seriously come on

#byler #mike wheeler #will byers #don't pretend to care about these characters when you don't understand them at all thanks #and el deserves so much better how do people not see that #she deserves someone that'll love her for who she is instead of someone that idolises her for her powers and can only > #say i love you when they're pressured into it #like come on #why would you want el to be in a relationship like that #and not only that but el lies to mike too and he feels insecure and can't be himself with her #that's not fair to him either #mike and will are the only ones that can be themselves with each other and give each other the love they deserve #the way mike acts with will is different to how he acts with anyone else

[schmweed]

#Gerri Kellman #Roman Roy #Coming in all brash and joking about her 'tiny name' and asking abt her daughters #when he's really actually worried he wasn't good enough for her #and she was about to realize it and worry she'd tethered herself to him. #He not only felt worried about that but he also went ahead and voiced his fears to her. #He would NEVER be that vulnerable with anyone else #and the trust and faith goes both ways -- I love how later in the episode #she leveled with him that he and his siblings could actually bring Logan down even though it would NOT be in her best interests #Succession #my gifs #I also obviously love the totally necessary tongue thing -- he's just worried and serious and lost in serious thought #nothing to do with gazing at her of COURSE :D #I love them so much. I miss them SO MUCH! #I can't get over the fantastic finale. The amazing door it left amazingly WIDE OPEN for anything and everything to happen down the road. #They will get their happy ending. She will rescue him. He will believe she's doing it because she wants to #and he will let her and he will be rescued #and she will get all the drawn-out groveling and apologizing she more than deserves from him #and I don't think there's ever been a couple better suited to be together. <3 #also can anyone with serious giffing prowess do these gifs properly please PLEASE and thank you? #the gifsets people make using Photoshop are GORGEOUS #uploading videos to a site will never reach that level.

[that-was-anticlimactic]

like a ghost that won't wash off your skin

Now, though, there was no one left to heal.

Other than the few people left guarding Tengen, Shoko was alone on the grounds.

But Shoko wasn’t alone, not really. She had Kugisaki’s comatose body, the severed limbs that once were Inumaki’s left arm and Todo’s left hand.

Besides, she was never actually alone, not when she was constantly haunted by the ghosts of every body that’s laid on her table.

[or, shoko was one of the only ones who came back from shibuya, and she hates it]

✧3,091 words | shoko-centric✧

dedicated to @urostakako & @wlwjujutsu <3

#corey writes:) #there were no good emojis lol #hi guys this is dedicated to y'all because you guys prev tagged me on that post where i mentioned this fic and that actually inspired me to #finish it lol no joke this has been a wip for over a year and i got SO stuck on it that i gave up and thought i'd never finish it but #then shoko in the latest chapter and y'all's tags preving me... even if they weren't about the fic idea i mentioned they were what inspired #me to keep writing it and actually like... gave me ideas so thank you SO much because i truly loved this fic and the idea and like. #come back is SUCH A SHOKO SONG I WANT TO BASH MY HEAD AGAINST A WALL ahem anyways no truly thank you guys <3 #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk fanfic #shoko ieiri #ieiri shoko #jjk shoko #this fic is literally just shoko and nobara's body and memories i kid you not #also shoko and yaga deserve more love there are barely ANY common shoko tags and only ONE common yaga tag:/ #you know what? #yaga masamichi #he's mentioned enough lol #jjk spoilers #idk what else to tag this as lol i'm procrastinating haha #sorry guys this fic is a Mess and also. not the happiest thing ever lol #oh also wlwjujutsu if you have an ao3 i can gift it to you there as well! i know ari has one but i wasn't sure about you haha

[tellthemhowihopetheyshouted]

more in depth explanation ig, i dont feel like i can listen to especially poets without thinking about the whole paternity test analysis thing.

when i first listened i felt really awful and embarrassed and i couldn't quite articulate why

while im still trying to figure it out, a huge part of my feelings was (and still is) that the part of me that wants to theorize about songs and who they're about, and connect it to taylor's life and imagine what she wrote about is at odds with what i hear in the lyrics about creeps who want the best for me and etc

there are some songs im better at just vibing with and some songs that i just actively have to force myself not to be like "oh thats about x person and so they did this and she did this and..."

I'm trying, and if anyone has suggestions or things that work for them please send them to me, im new to this and to online fandoms in general. i feel so shitty but then there's part of me that still doesn't see harm in thinking "x song is about taylor and x person, so using what you know about them both lets picture this in your mind" and "oh [symbol 1] that must mean it's about [person 1], but wait now there's also [symbol 2] so it's about [person 1 and person 2] but wait does that mean person 2 could also be related to symbol 1?" all the while all of these people are real actual people.

#another thing is i caught myself thinking ''god i love you taylor'' and then ''she'll never meet you don't adress her in the second person #she doesn't know you pretend like shes a character from a book so you don't makeup a parasocial relationship'' #and i cant get it through my head that she's both a real person deserving of empathy and like an author or a person i really only know #through their work #because im stupid ig #so anyway im trying yo sort all this shit out and being online about taylor swift is really not helping lol #so i blocked every tag i could think of on most of my social medias #i might pop in on here from time to time but not for rebloging things because that feels like a minefield honestly #if anyone has suggestions probably ask box or dms is the best place to put them because i blocked the tags lol #i would really appreciate someone else's input on this and im totally willing to talk more about what my mindset is rn lol #thank you for reading through all this and have a good day #im gonna tag this with (some of) my blocked tags now so other people can see #poets #the tortured poets department #taylor swift #swifie #in shipping recovery #ttpd #tsttpd #taylor nation #taylornation #tortured poetry #tsttpdta #the anthology #the tortured poets department: the anthology

[xluxsolarisx]

brings you to the lavender farm¹ that the bear² is from and takes you through the fields looking at all the different types of lavender before having some lunch at the farm cafe and getting you some lavender ice cream to try out (i'm sure you're interested by the sound of it and yes it is pretty good^^) and then takes you to the gift shop for you to look through at anything else you might like so i can get it for you:> and just has a lovely day together:3

1. https://lyndochlavenderfarm.com.au/

2. https://lyndochlavenderfarm.com.au/products/lavender-bear?_pos=1&_sid=90127ddf4&_ss=r

uhm, yeah <3

:O a fun outing!!!!! there are so many cool different types of lavender i never knew... and not all of them are purple! i only thought lavender came in. well. lavender so seeing different colors is really cool...i especially like the hidcote pink and munstead, very pretty! i am running through the fields and picking flowers if they would let me pick flowers if they don't i am admiring their beauty without taking anything ^^ you're right actually i would love to try lavender ice cream! and i also wanna try lavender honey and lavender jam, they sound very floral and sweet, very nice c: i should find some for myself soon in like a farmers market or something i wanna try it irl... hmmm....from the gift shop i would like the lavender body mists, incense, lip balm, & bath salts. ok maybe not the bath salts actually ^^' i don't trust myself not to eat them. vietnam flashbacks. and also the lavender sleep pillow for the same reason i'd like the plushie (seems cuddly and would help me sleep) and finally maybe some lavender seeds so i could grow my own lavender! thank you for taking me this day was so fun, at the end of the day i reveal i have taken some lavender flowers and weaved them into a flower crown for you and i put it on your head. i love you. i also took the plushie and she had so much fun, here are two pictures i drew of her enjoying the day out ^^

she is laying in the grass and also sitting next to lavender flowers because i couldn't decide which drawing i liked better. ignore the way her palms are open magnanimously like jesus christ or jerry seinfeld i wanted to show her beans. also ignore the way her nose is white in the grass drawing i forgot to color it in. just imagine she ate a powdered donut filled with lavender jelly, okay? thank you again, this was really fun! bye bye 💖💖💖

#the thought of this made me very happy ^^ what if life could be dream... #only thing is i can't actually get the bear plushie because they don't ship to the us. hell world. #anyway i have been trying to learn how to draw lately! #it's slow going because between family and friends and college and other hobbies (like chess and baking and gardening) and The Horrors #i don't have a lot of time to practice #so i'm not very good yet but that's okay because i'm having fun and i'm allowed to be bad at things #so far i can draw. #BUNNY! KITTY! SHEEPY! #THE FACE (AND NOTHING ELSE! JUST THE FACE!) OF A MELANCHOLY WOMAN WITH HEAVILY LIDDED EYES #AND WINGED EYELINER AND LIPSTICK AND BRAIDS! #TEDDY BEAR! CREEPY SMILE! BREASTS! and that's it ^^ #i want to try my hand at fanart someday maybe... #for now i've set a goal that i need to get better at drawing bodies and hands and generally conveying motion. #like looking to the side and different poses. and HAND POSES ugh i'm so bad at hand poses. #i do most of my work on pencil and paper but i should get some kinda drawing app soon... #only thing is i don't have a tablet and i know in my heart i cannot draw with a mouse on a computer. i just Can't. #i mean i guess i DO have a laptop but it doesn't have a touch screen... #so digital is kinda off the table for now unless i'm drawing with my phone (like the teddy bear drawing) #i'm rambling. ok so thank you!! the mental image of this was very pleasing to me. #you're very nice. have a nice day!!! you deserve it. bye bye <3 #fortunes told (asks)

[malka-lisitsa]

I got like 2 hours of sleep last night bc i couldn't get out of a panic attack where i just could not comprehend the shadows and shit in my room were not THINGS about to get me so-

Idk if I will get much serious writing done today. Soz-

feel free to send asks tho, the end of the year 2023 ones are super cute and you should send me one

#the one and only... sort of: ooc #existing is a struggle for me #i should get rewarded for getting up every day #i deserve a head pat and a 'good girl' but only from stefan #from everyone else i deserve worship and adoration #thank you for coming to my ted talk #no but fr im so fucking exhausted and yet it takes forever to fall asleep and I CAN NEVER STAY ASLEEP for more than an hour for naps

[silvreflames]

lune and i are obviously fixing the mess that is canon but i cannot stress enough that she clearly would accept the treatment that she receives throughout her book because she thinks that she deserves it and she is nothing if not built in the image of the obedient little wife

#the fact that janet thinks that SF is a healing arc. or markets it as one. and that fandom eats it up as one #there is no healing in that fucking book except to stroke at rhysand’s massive ego #who heals? the beaten down and abused girl who bows down before someone who essentially told her that she deserves to die? #the girl who sacrifices herself and her powers because she is made to believe that the only way she is deserving of respect or care #(the same respect and care everyone else receives freely of course) #is by cutting off pieces of herself to serve the people who abuse her? #yeah. no. no thank you. not even to mention the rest of the shit she endured in that book ‘but healing!!!!’ #she would let rhysand kill her. she would let cassian do whatever he wanted to her. #her anger is not her true emotion. yes she IS angry. but at herself #and really what she feels is fear. loneliness. FUCKING DEPRESSION JANET #‘she’s mean to everyone’ she’s scared of everyone. and nobody gives a fuck about her not really #they give a fuck what she can do. for them or to them. that’s it #and she knows that. so she reacts accordingly #anyway fuck canon but goddamn ouch

[cupiare]

walking into work tomorrow for the staff training day after i got rejected for the job i was near guaranteed to get and didn’t find out the news from my boss who i was with the whole morning in TUTOR PLANNING DAY FOR NEXT YR FOR TUTORIALS THAT TUTORS WOULD BE DOING THAT I WAS BOOKED INTO WITH THE TUTORS THE ROLE I APPLIED FOR AND HAD A VERY GOOD INTERVIEW FOR i found out from a noreply auto generated email from hr that was sent out as soon as i stepped out of the meeting room :) and then got invited back to the meeting for the rest of the day where my manager repeatedly talked about taking my good ideas from my interview and implementing them into tutorials next yr. after i got rejected via generated email. How we doing guys 😆

#p #me personally. and not just me literally everyone else coworkers students anyone but my manager apparently was in my favor #like advocated for me #i got insanely good feedback from everyone #like that job is. mine already. i’ve done that job and my job and i did that voluntarily #no hate to the other candidate lovely girlie she is but being told my interview was great #and my teaching task was great and she’s never seen HER OWN GROUP OF STUDENTS so engaged in a task before #and then being highly praised for my vision and ethic etc #and me knowing this shitass school and system inside out and still wanting to be here and being passionate abt what i do #and STILL i get turned down. thats personal i take it personally #but bcs i know this place i wouldn’t have been surprised if it was just that #its the cruelty of how they let me know #this entire day was like being spat in the face #like thanks for all your hard work! bye now! you won’t be here much longer but we’ll take all the good things you’ve come up with! #i’m so shocked #i had a go at my manager and APPARENTLY the email wasn’t supposed to go out ‘yet’ but its a very convenient coincidence that it did then #isnt it #i’ve never in my life felt so disrespected ngl #like i still didn’t get a proper conversation about it ???? literally only got good feedback and a quick apology??? #how dare you and what did i do to you to deserve this like literally #my feelings are CRUSHED its essentially like getting laid off #cause i’m gonna leave soon anyway its like yeaaa we don’t want you actually #well then ! thanks for treating me like a valuable employee and person with feelings

[mlchaelwheeler]

Ok ok, hot take, (read as: whole entire analysis, sorry abt that) if will was going to get a new love interest, they would've given him one already.

Byler can't be unrequited because we've already seen how the duffers handle unrequited love in s2 with Dustin and max.

In season 2 Dustin and Lucas both clearly showed romantic interest in max, only with Dustin it was unrequited. One of the big differences between this instance and byler is that they weren't subtle about Dustin liking max and being jealous of Lucas, and more importantly they didn't DRAG IT OUT FOR 4 SEASON JUST TO HAVE GET TURNED DOWN. In fact, he never confessed to max at all. He just accepted that she was with Lucas, and more importantly, he had a girlfriend by the start of s3. They easily could of done that with will this season by having him get a boyfriend in Cali. It would've made sense too because then rink-o-mania would've been a double date instead of will being a 3rd wheel. At this point, there was literally no point in will having feelings for mike to begin with if it wasn't requited.

This brings me to the most important difference between dustin and max vs will and mike.

Dustin had a crush on max.

Will is in love.

If he could get over him, he would've by now.

#ohhh my god anon you are so absolutely correct #there was NO reason for them to not give will a boyfriend in cali if he's gonna get rejected in the end #bc why not ??? why deny him of happiness again and again ??? #the ONLY logical explanation is that he ends up with mike #why else would they make it clear will is never getting over mike? why have will prioritize mike's happiness over his own? why have mike #have trouble telling el he loves her after a year of dating ??? #unless byler is endgame none of those narrative choices make ANY sense #ok this was stunning thanks for sharing MWAH 💕 #ask sarah #hot take hour #byler #< the people deserve to read this #narrative tag #save

[akagamiko]

is Shanks still fond of chocolate as a adult? does he reward his kids with chocolate too?

To an extent, yes! I hesitate to say yes fully only because I know how fandoms get when a character is shown liking/disliking a food (stares directly at Law and bread). But he does like it! His sweet tooth has definitely lessened as he's gotten older, but he also enjoys snacking, and does crave sweets from time to time. I've written before that one of his crew, Breya, is an excellent baker and spends her time making all sorts of treats, so when she does, he's usually reaching for whatever she's been making, chocolate or not. Also going to add that Shanks has a (mostly) normal relationship with food, especially compared to someone like Luffy who will completely gorge himself.

Regarding his own kids, I don't think he was ever able to reward them just because he would absolutely spoil them rotten. You can't reward kids with a treat when you give them everything regardless of what they do. I'm sure Beckman tried to put a stop to this with Uta, so there's probably a balance there as long as there's another parent present.

There's a post that I can't find atm with Luffy and Shanks (feat. Makino) where Luffy wants candy before dinner and Shanks tells him "You know the rules" and Luffy says "No candy before dinner :(" and Shanks tells him "No, that's Makino's rule. My rule is to bring me some too" and I've always loved it. You know he's definitely out there sneaking them little treats against the other's wishes.

#ANSWERED. #anonymous #so essentially yes! as long as you don't make him crazy anime character over it #shanks is very much a 'i deserve a little treat' sort of guy before he eats the whole container of beer nuts while chatting with someone #tells himself (and everyone else ) he's only going to have 1 brownie but keeps coming back and grabs another each time #and then he's had like 8 of them but will still lie and say he only had 1 #also rip to ME thank you for reading my post about the roger's rewarding shanks' good behavior with chocolate :') #HEADCANON.

[pastafossa]

Hi Pasta!! Just wanted to send a little appreciative message to you for always being so thorough with your notes at the beginning/end of the chapters. I'm ace and so I tend to skip or skim over the smutty chapters and it means a lot that you take the time to mark out which sections I should read to/jump to/etc. Thank you so much!!

p.s. out of curiosity i have read some of the smutty chapters and even though I'm not a smut reader, you are VERY talented at writing it haha

This is awesome to hear, thank you so, so much anon, and you're very welcome in return! I knew from the very beginning when I decided on a slow burn, plot-heavy fic, that I wanted to make sure that not only was there enough plot and relationship building to carry it on its own, but also that any ace or even just Here For The Plot Before It Became E Rated readers would have the option to skip over the smutty bits and keep going. And I always want to make it as easy as possible to know exactly where and when to jump down, what chapters to skip, and to sum up any relevant info at the end (cause there's no reason anyone should have to miss out on clues!). Took a while for me to figure out how to do it, so I'm EXTREMELY happy to hear it's working out!

#ask response #the red thread #and also thank you for the compliment on the smut! #i feel like that's extra high praise tbh since most of the time you skip! #and admittedly i treat their bangin like everything else most of the time #plot and smut both get equal effort so that no one misses out #whether you're Yay Smut or No Only Plot #everyone deserves to be happy reading TRT #(until the angst but that's another storyyyyyy)

[exghul]

Why did the author kill you off?

SOMEBODY HAD TO DIE. sorry, kid. really, honestly, i'm sorry. someone had to die, for one reason or another, and you drew the short straw this time around. this wasn't a matter of surprise. no, your death wasn't meant to be a shock, wasn't meant to rattle the audience to their core. your life was a debt, an obligation. somebody had to go, because the story needed weight, needed sacrifice, needed the conflict to have consequences. maybe you had the perfect balance of "emotional impact" and "lack of loose ends", or maybe the author just didn't know what else to do with you. regardless... you deserved better. another writer could have given you more time and a better death, if even a death at all. at least your fans will never forget- at least they will forge their own stories, tales in which you live to see another day.

absolutely yoinked off @hexsreality ♥ yoink it from me if u please :3

#⊰ ℜ ⊱ ┊ i see the truth through crimson eyes. ┊ DAMIAN WAYNE: CORE. #i knew the result before i even finished it #didnt know what the results COULD be but i knew it would immediately point the finger at m.orrison's bULLSHIT #literally a quote from the man: “[m]y plan was to kill d.amian at the end of the four-part story where he was introduced!” #then goes on to explain the only reason behind it was to “keep away from accusations” that he “made batman too old” #bman has been around since the 40s #in the 90s we had bman beyond. where bruce's an old man. #its ok! to have plots where hes older! and has children! #you dont have to kill off his son bc ur afraid of the fans #hell j.ason died because of a POLL to kill him off #dami was killed bc m.orrison was too selfish to let anyone else write his character #that HE BUTCHERED! BY HIMSELF! #his last words were 'we were the best r.ichard' & the last thing he sees is d.ick's face #which is. the best part of his characterization in the entire run #thanks to g.leason (iirc) for reviving my son a fucking /year/ later #tl;dr bman inc is the worst timeline but unfortunately its the basis for all of his current continuity #i forgot what else i had to sayt #if u read this rant ty & m.orrison doesnt deserve to write dami ever again or touch al ghul lore WHATSOEVER

[astrxealis]

thinkin about how zenos is our ENEMY. but he wanted us to live

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #i'm thinking about zenos again. god. i think his character is just so good #him in stormblood was absolutely AMAZING. and i think everywhere else too #i like him the way i like sh/uake i think. zenos is our opposite. our mirror. #out of everyone in the game i think he's the important character who sees us most as an adventurer #and he's the only 'human' that can challenge us. not even shtola or raha or anyone in the scions or out of it. only zenos. #tbh idrk if he's really our Opposite or Mirror but at the very least he's some sort of foil #zenos wants us to live bcs we're the only one who can fight him on his level #and. at the end of everything ;;;;;; in THAT place where emotions rule over everything ;;;;;;;;;;;;; if you know you know #i think zenos has so many crimes it'd be a crime in itself to allow him to. yeah. same w tsuyu #both however truly are victims at the very core and it doesn't excuse all they did but. they deserved better. they really did. #zenos i really empathize w bcs my childhood was better thank god but i understand his motives and how he is the way he is #and it makes me sad that wol is the first person he considers a friend. i think him being royalty fucked up his capacity #to make friends too. and even then he calls us his friend despite NOTHING screaming 'friendship' #it is only long after. way too late. that he realizes how to be a proper friend. in the only way he knows how. and it is then #we accept him properly. though i already accepted him a long time ago :')

[marciego]

One more, since I forgot to put this in the of ask. Pelfi (Because they need apreciation)

and you're extremely right pelfi deserve it so much so let's go it's their moment to shine

pelfi

friends to lovers excellence like ACTUAL friends to lovers, it's so important to me

like the way we SEE them bonding and becoming closer as FRIENDS, that we SEE pedro supporting delfi in her relationship with gaston, helping her out when it ends, just being a good friend before being a good boyfriend?? like i know the bar is on the ground but not jumping right away into the romance part of them made me love them just SO much more

listen delfi deserves the absolute best in this world and pedro can give her that. like the way she gets to just talk about her interests with him and light up and he gets all excited with her without ever judging her is so!!!! like delfi is SO clever she's such a fun person to be around and she has strong opinions and just the way she lights up whenever pedro shows her that her opinions truly matter to him gets me so much, it's what she deserves it's absolutely what she deserves

i also love that pedro never really like? changed if that makes sense? or maybe that delfi didn't change? like nothing "happened" to make him start to like the bitchy mean girl you know, they just got to know each other better and pedro didn't "change his mind" on her, he just didn't know her that much and then he did, that's all, she never had to prove herself to him, to show him that Actually she wasn't a bad person, he never assumed she was

they're just honestly so sweet. like it's full serotonin time every time they're on screen, he's one of the only characters delfi gets THIS excited with, she's bouncing on her feet every time she shares something she loves with him and he's all giddy listening to her talk, they're so fucking cute it's so!!! fuck yeah!!!! they deserve it!!!!

#thank you again <3 #pelfi my beloved #there were like 10 whole episodes of s1 where lumon were Not doing great and everyone else was being a bitch too #and on god pelfi were genuinely the only thing making it worth it for me #i keep saying it but delfi is my fav and only deserves the best of the best which happens to be pedro so! good for her!

[gatun-gatunesco]

...

#and so i came back here. because in here i can find joy and sorrow. laugh a little and cry a lot because someone made a post i resonate with #it makes me feels understood. a private and intimate place that is also shared at the same time. and strangely; like a home #but i came back without knowing who i am. I see someone else in the mirror. Is that a monster? a sinner? a human? a normal man? #after all that effort leaving depression and self hate from my adolescence behind. from being proud of myself for being different to all me #was all a lie? how could i do such awful and terrible thing to the person i swore to protect? the person i love the most #i said i would never do that kind of unforgivable act. And here i am. Alive after the event. I want to drop dead. To dissapear from here. #But at the same time i want to fix what i did. in order to do that i need to heal. to change. be happy. to live. and i hate it #how can i do all of that with the weight of guilt crushing me and telling me i killed myself that day? i am just a shell of who i was #how to change what i thought was the best version of me? i was supposed to be different no harmful and kind man!!! #i already asked for help. and they told me it was not all my fault. But i still think it is. There is no way it can be 50/50 #physical actions are only responsibility of the ones who made it. circumstances are not a reason to diminish them guilt #a confused person is not deserving of any part of the guilt. they do not have control over themselves. but the other ones sure have it #yes. they might have started and added little physical actions. but i refused and it never came to completion. which is the opposite of min #physical trauma can spawn emotional and mental trauma as well. is way more bad and deep that the emotional one i might have #i want to kill that trash in front of the mirror. why are you still living bitch? just to be a parasite and hurt people on the go? #to make irreversible mistakes that affects every person around you? your decisions never end well. why do not you just give up already? #and yet here i am. trying to not isolate myself thanks to the safe place i found here. I can write what is on my mind. gives me some relief #because the only person i talked everyday is the same one i hurted as i never thought i would in my life #Hope i can found redemption one day. I hope they can heal and be happy soon and forever. #I am going to always be worry about them (i am sure of that) but i wish nothing but the best for them. I want nothing to hurt them again. #They never deserved the trauma and guilt. They suffered more than enough way before i step in and fucked up everything. #Life. if you can hear me. Please give them recovery. happyness. health and lots of love. They deserve it. Please #They did nothing wrong! Take them pain away and put it in me. I will stay alive just for that if is neccesary #I wanted to kill myself way long ago. but i still here. I might want to kill myself again. but i still will be here. #Just leave them be happy. That is what i really want

[self-shipper-snowdrop]

*building up pity for when Kaveh shows up*

Genshin: “I bless you with baby.” *hands me Qiqi*

Me, who has been wanting Qiqi forever but hadn’t got even one until now, sobbing: OMFG IT’S MY BABY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#She is so smol and cute #Her energy recharge is just over 200% and her attack is like 1.1k I think #she's level 40 but she will be higher soon [I used all my resin for her artifacts and such #but I am proud of baby... for she is my babey #and I gave her a cute sword like she deserves! #Now if only I had Diluc... T_T #IF ONLY BUT I'M WAITING ON HIM TOO;;;;;; #WHILE EVERYONE ELSE I KNOW HAS HIM AND THEY ACT SHOCKED WHEN I SAY I DON'T #AND HOW I DIDN'T GET QIQI UNTIL NOW #but. I can at least be content that my baby is here #from daydreams to text #thank you for coming home babey Qiqi;;;;; hugs for she