#emo hours thingz

[romanticfistfightz]

i need to learn to sawww properly i have a sawing . sewing ? learn to sew??? whatever i have a machine i want to . do stuff witb it i alreayd have some plans and i wanna draw new furry oc thata inly in my head for now and i would looove to use up the canvas i have laying aorund kn my room ans try to paint aomething but i dont even know what . and i want to finish a gift for my bf and i would lovee to start writing again and i wnana do so many thingz . but i get overwhelmed and do absolutely nothing or playing a game for 7 hours bc its a fun game j love it!!!! but its. also i cried today cuz i hate how my hair looks. but onlt today normally im just slightly displeases cuz most of my fringe broke off and the hair that didnt started curling even more and i can have. an emo fringe and i cant sleep at all melatonin does not work. i mean sometimes it does just not the type i have . sometimes j think i wanna start therapy again but i have such an idealised version of a therapist i want i cannot deal with one thats not exactly that and also i change my mind all yhe time hetween i want a therapist i dont want a therapist and it stays on u cant have a therapist cuz we dont have momey for a therapist also i need to go to a dentist and endocrinologist bc i might need to go back to prolongatum cuz nebido is. it kinda works ig but my t levels are super low and my estrogen levels are super high . no clue where i was going i just had Thougths i needed to get out so i can sleep or think abt my furry oc. who i need to find a name for. time to cover this post up with reblogs

[emeraldenha]

the way hanbin’s smile still has so much power over me😭😭😭

#blaming him for my emo hours #the bestie circle💛 #yangcica ✧.* — asks #non enha thingz💫

[monstermash]

HELLO everybody this is a little introduction post because i keep getting new followers and nobody knows me. my name is jules monstermash i’m a 20 year old white college student (gender studies/sociology major) im a gemini i have two dogs (fergus and fiona) and a cat (the venerable olive bar) i’ve been vegetarian my whole life i’m not cis and not straight (they//them//theirs pronouns). my sleep schedule is horrible. currently spending the summer of hell 2020 speedrunning the emo phase i never had in middle school because i was busy trying to be the ideal tumblr softboy. following the tag usermonstermash

my personal posts are tagged #julez.txt, art is #my art, face tag is #my face // #julez.png, and i can try my best to tag triggers etc if needed but i am incredibly forgetful and mostly use mobile. i have an unfortunate tendency to delete my posts within 1 minute to 10 hours of posting them if i no longer vibe with what i said so if u think my posts r disappearing they probably are. some of my old urls (for people who've been here for a while and dont know who i am because i undergo a complete aesthetic and personality change at least once a year) include but r not limited to bvckybvrnes // yourpllot // gonzolesbian // hotdammneron // monsterrmash. 

i currently mostly post halloween aesthetic thingz, a moderate amount of early 2000's emo band bullshit (mostly mcr // the used // the academy is... // cobra starship + midtown // photos of ryan ross wearing a little sword earring that makes me feel crazy), doom patrol, deadly class, and gifsets of whatever mediocre horror movie i’m currently watching. sometimes my sense of shame is stronger than usual and i post things on sideblogs u can follow if u want to. 

if u ever need movie or music recommendations please for the love of god send me a message because i have an incurable superiority complex about my taste in media. if this webpage had a smell i think it would be aquanet and nail polish remover. if u read this far thanks here’s a meme i stole from jepha howard’s instagram page. love u. thanks

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