#emotionally tired

[theperksofbeing-alone]

2024.04.08 // i stayed up too late on saturday night.

#late post #life lately #saturday night #mirror selfie #aliens #alien girl #dirty blonde #blonde #blondie #selfie #girls with nose rings #girls with piercings #girls with septums #i need a nap #zzz #mentally tired #emotionally tired

[chi0lea]

Forever the girl with a razor in her hands.

I try, I try as hard as I can for everything in life. When I’ve had nothing.

Never seen as the best friend, the true love, or even the girl who just makes you want to feel better.

I work hard for people to dismiss me, for relationships to never work out. For my life to grow harder and break me down.

Clenching a razor in my hands hoping to finally sink it deep enough. It’s never enough.

Feeling worthless for all I do. I am never good enough.

Feeling the sting of hope slipping away, I hate myself too.

Grasping my body wishing to change it. What’s so unlikable that I need to take a razor and cut out the ugly parts of me. Of my soul, my skin, my heart. Which life line can I bury enough to feel alive.

To feel the blood pool onto my flesh reminding me that I am warm inside as I fade to a cold light.

I’m forever the girl clenching the blade hoping its razor kiss will finally hit.

#unneeded #giving up #self loathing #deep thoughts #tired #emotionally tired #i am so tired #unwanted realizations #suicidal #self mutilator #self mutalition #self hate #razor #cutting

[alittlebitmessedupgirl]

#emotionalpain #emotionally tired #sadness #loneliness #social anxiety #anxienty #bpd #bipolar disorder #borderline personality disorder #major depressive disorder #depression

[tfshouldidohere]

so many levels of drained and tired and absolutely fucked up rn

#mentally tired #physically tired #emotionally tired #wtf December has JUST started #and absolutely NOTHING has went right #im still carrying the PT (fuck financial statements) #we barely passed our research #i dont fucking know if we did well on our dance presentation earlier #(yes i have dance class. no i dont like to perform dances. no i will not elaborate why i am in the class) #and to top it all off #my grandpa who raised me is in the hospital #his leg is swollen and he cant move #theres a high chance that he needs to get his leg cut off #wtfwtfwtf #bitch i might just cry #tfshouldirambles

[jfite]

#truth

#truth #life #valentines day #love #vintage #life quotes #ugh #words #love lost #mentally tired #emotionally tired #im done

[phantomdoofer]

"Why are you always so cynical about yourself?"

#my stuff #vent post #vent art #ibispaintx #me #mentally tired #emotionally tired #physically tired #negativity tends to breed negativity #intrusive thoughts #cynicism #criticism

[heartweak14]

My unknown feeling with my unspoken words.

#ambivert #introvert #happiness #mentally drained #emotionally tired #i dont know #sad poetry #movies #kdrama

[kagehime19]

Demons in my mind

Hurt, because I don’t know how comfort works

Thought of demons won’t shut up

Keep coming back and back

Pushing further and further

Convincing me

I am a horrible daughter

Person

Only thinking about myself

„Selfish you“ they say

„Hurting others by only thinking

talking

About yourself“

„Selfish me“ I start to think

„Only thinking

Talking

about me“

„I want other people to like me“

But I don’t want to force myself

My problems to them

They have anough of that themself

They don't need, don’t WANT mine too

„You are worth nothing in this world“

the demons say

„You talk to none

You don’t call your family

Your friends don’t call you.

Nobody cares if you disappear

Nobody will notice until it’s too late

Then you'll be gone

And no one will care“

Because I don’t know how to do

How to handle emotions

Don’t know what the hell is wrong with me

I want people to notice me

I am to scared being rejected

So I don’t try

Don’t hope

That there are people who like me

Because the demons, my own thoughts

Won’t let me.

So I look for the most dark and quiet corner

And cry silent all alone

So I won’t be a burden to the ones

I like.

#mental problems #demons in my head #mentally exhausted #emotionally tired

[chi0lea]

Maybe I’m weaker than I thought.

Growing up people always called those of us dealing with depression and suicide weak. Cowardly.

Do you know how hard it is to fight myself every night, trying to keep myself from ending my life.

Do you know how strong you have to be to finally commit to ending your life.

People act as if not every thought runs through our heads. Who will miss me? Will I be missed? Who would this hurt. Would they hurt a lot? Who will I be remembered as.

Even as those thoughts run through I’m being called a coward. I’m be treated as if I don’t actually matter.

Maybe I’m weak but I’m only weak cause I can’t go through with it.

#unneeded #giving up #self loathing #deep thoughts #tired #emotionally tired #i am so tired #unwanted realizations #self mutalition #self mutilator #suicidal #my weakness #weak #coward

[confusionmeisss]

gu-guys. guys. i’m so tired. ment-mentally i’m so tired. emotionally, im so so so tired. i just, i just need-

#ali’s thoughts & opinions 📼 #emotions #mentally exhausted #emotionally exhausted #mental health #mentally tired #emotionally tired

[angy-brows]

Haha, brain go *microwave noises*

#comicartist #webcomic #digital aritst #digital illustration #comicart #digital drawing #web comic #comicstrip #comic artist #web comics #comic art #comics #digitalart #digital art #mentally tired #mental illness #mentally ill #shutdown #emotions #emotionally tired #mentally ill memes #depression #depressing memes

[venting-thoughts]

if someone makes you feel like your medical conditions are a burden in whatever situation that it may be, you’re not a burden. please remember that. it’s not your fault that you’re dealing with sh!t that you didn’t ask for nor wanted in the first place.

#mental health #life #cptsd #anxiety #depression #ptsd #actually mentally ill #social anxiety #suicidal #lonely #trauma #suicidal thoughts #toxic family #abusive parents #mental illness #i hate life #physically ill #emotionally tired #i’ve had enough #im going to kms #not really but I sure as fuck want to #words #venting #disabled writer #disabilties #sad #the world we live in #traumatic childhood #ptsd problems #chromic illness

[ntastyvixensworld]

Friend Zoned

My heart aches and my eyes are bloody red. My soul only longs for him. His entire being pleases me. I don't care about his flaws, no one is perfect, but to me he is more than worth it. I've tried so many times in the last 14 months to hear the words that he says to me. He doesn't express his feelings much. So when he talks I listen.. Listening to his words of not wanting to hurt me. Knowing that this is true it's just so hard for me to pull through. I love him beyond words can express. He eases my pain, puts my depression to rest. He gets my overthinking ways. Which I know is a pain. He is patient and kind. He's the apple of my eye. I can be FREE… 100% me!

Every moment we are together I feel like I'm in heaven. He is what my heart desires.

Truth is he doesn't feel the same for me. Those blows to my heart make me fall apart. The weakness and pain is growing stronger than a hurricane. I'm trying to stay sane. Though I knew all along I just wanted so bad for him to see that he could love and trust me.

To be continued..

~Ntastyvixenworld

#ntastyvixensworld #poetry #poems and poetry #feelings #i love poetry #reality #real life #deep poems #creative #deep thinking #deep love #itslife #emotionally tired #note to self #almost there