talk about your adeline. right now. this is a threat
OOOUUAUUUAA you have opened the pandora’s box.
ok firstly i love the idea of adeline being a big sister. the siblings u draw for her are UNPARALLELED. i will draw them if god is willing because man. like why try to improve on something that is already perfect. every day i think of the littlest one wearing maria’s boot and going :D
i like to imagine she grew up on a farm, so she knows loads about how to take care of plants and animals. adeline would totally keep chickens or rabbits under better circumstances, but her duties as a blood saint take up a lot of time.
i’ve always seen adeline as playing a large role in looking after her siblings along with her mother. the family fell on hard times financially, and they move to the city which becomes cathedral ward. adeline is able to help support her family by becoming a nun, and is eventually groomed as a blood saint. i think she and maria likely met around this time :)
adeline is capable in folk medicine, but her training to become a saint taught her lots about traditional medicine as well. under pressure, she is a natural leader, able to take quick, decisive action — these skills combined have saved lives.
flowerpatch is her service dog, and she trained him herself to assist her with all sorts of things. aside from helping adeline get around, patch helps her identify plants and medical supplies. he’s able to fetch specific tools for her — don’t worry though. he has little gloves to avoid cross contamination and he always washes his paws :)
the other nuns help too! adeline sewed flowerpatch an apron of sorts, so if patch indicates something she needs, one of the other sisters can put it in his little pocket!
adeline is also quite artistic! she finds particular comfort in embroidery, because of all the different textures she can feel. flowerpatch’s apron is covered in pretty patterns.
i hc adeline as autistic as well! she’s always humming to herself while she works, and the textures of her embroidery serve as a comforting stim. flowerpatch isn’t just a seeing-eye dog, he’s also an emotional support animal who comforts her if she’s overwhelmed.
when i think about adeline, i imagine her as an incredibly intelligent and compassionate person, who is strong enough to build community even in hard times — it just makes it all the more tragic what becomes of her.
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Blackmail
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Whump Girl Summer day 6: Blackmail
Taglist: @littlespacecastle @whumpymirages @flowersarefreetherapy @painful-pooch (plus @justplainwhump bc you've been waiting for this)
While at university in Canada, Aaliyah is forcefully reminded of her past as a pet.
Set a few years after Cass and Aaliyah move to Canada. Aaliyah's in her second year.
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CWs: BBU, pet whump, rape/non-con, sexual slurs, flashbacks, conditioned whumpee, degradation, self-degradation, blackmail, non-con nude photos, discrimination, briefly implied homophobia, dehumanisation
Aaliyah closes her laptop and removes her headphones, stretching widely. She's enjoying researching for this essay but despite her ability to stay in one place for hours at a time she's getting stiff. And her ears are aching.
Her roommate Zac looks up from his own textbook. "You want to take a break? We have plenty of time."
She picks up her tablet and chooses her words from the symbols. Zac waits patiently, something he's good at and which she's always grateful for, given how some people act about her AAC software.
"Get water. Will be quick."
"Take as long as you need, I'll look after your stuff."
"Thank you."
She heads out of the library and crosses the corridor to the water fountain, drinking as much as she can and splashing a little on her face too. It feels nice.
She hears footsteps behind her and moves out of the way in case whoever it is wants to use the water fountain.
They don't. Instead, they bark out an order.
"Respect."
Aaliyah drops to her knees before she even knows what's happening. No, this can't happen here. She didn't even realise she still did that.
She tries to get up but her body's locked. If she gets up before Master says she can–
No. No, she's not there, she's safe, Master isn't here. He never will be.
So why can't she move?
"I thought so," says a confident, sneering voice from behind her. "See, my cousin's studying in the States, and his frat house just bought a box boy. So cute and eager to please. Combination of some sort, I think. Apparently you're not gay if it's a boxie you're fucking. Anyway, he showed me their pet on a video call and it's funny. The way you cock your head, your inability to read and write, and you always cover your left forearm, no matter how warm it is or what else you're wearing. You're a WRU slut, aren't you?"
Aaliyah doesn't respond. She doesn't reach for her tablet, or move her head, or try to get up. She can't do anything, and that's probably enough of an indictment by itself.
"I knew it." The voice is gleeful now, and he grabs her arm in a bruising grip, pulling her up and pushing her along. "Disabled restroom should be free, right?"
Distantly, Aaliyah realises she should resist. Master isn't here anymore to make her do this. She doesn't want to do this.
But she's not a person. And it has never mattered what she wants.
The boy shoves her into the bathroom and she tumbles to the floor, ending up sprawled on the tiles.
She hears the lock click with a dreadful finality.
"Now, I don't know any of the positions, but I want you on your hands and knees. I'm sure you know how to do that, at least. Oh yeah. And strip."
Aaliyah obeys with shaking hands, throat tight. She wishes the floor wasn't so white and the light wasn't so bright, it reminds her too much of the facility.
She flushes as he looks her up and down. She's not sure how he knows her, but she recognises him from somewhere. The name will come eventually, she thinks.
She doesn't want him seeing her. This isn't like when she plays with Cass and Calixte, this is different, it's like she's a pet again.
No, not just a pet. Owned.
"You really are hot. No wonder you volunteered to be a slut, your looks are your best asset. I don't see why you hide them, I mean most Romantics don't, right? They seduce and manipulate using them. Your looks might not be your very best asset though, I think I'd like to try you out now. You're bottoming, obviously. Let's see how good a slut you can be for me."
Aaliyah holds back her tears as the boy climbs on top of her. She's been taught how to hide her emotions, she's an expert at it, and she blinks her eyelashes seductively at him as he positions her to his liking. She ends up on her back, legs spread between his. He looks at her like she's a banquet.
"Oh, you really are a nice-looking pet. Keep your eyes on me, I want to see your face while I fuck you. I hear you Romantics are trained to love your owners, and really, that sounds ideal."
He's not her owner. He's not. But as he opens the lube in his pocket and slicks her up, teasing her with his finger, she finds that difficult to remember.
He positions himself and slides his cock inside with a wink. Fuck. She hates this. She wishes she could go back to not caring, but now she knows what it's like not to have to do this, not to believe it's all she's worth, not to have an owner (and that's the most important thing she's learnt, and the most painful), it seems impossible to do. The boy isn't her owner, but he feels that way.
So many people fucked her in training, and then there was Jacob, too, so maybe it doesn't matter if he's her owner anyway. She's a WRU slut at heart, after all, and with her owner gone it would make sense that she's a general slut for everyone now.
No... no, that wouldn't make sense. Not the way she'd like. She has Cass and Calixte, although she doesn't want to think of them right now, doesn't want them associated with this.
She buries her emotions deep down where they can't show, covering her anger and sorrow and utter terror with a veil of pleasure. She desperately wants to curl up in a ball and cry it out but she can't. She has to behave, and do what she was made to do.
She's a good pet at heart, after all.
He fucks into her, not caring how she feels about it, and she turns the small moans and sobs that escape into sounds of enjoyment.
"Oh, you're so good at this pet, my god. Keep doing that, this is good."
Aaliyah wants to stop. Just stop, stop giving him this, stop giving in, kick him and stop him from ever doing it again. But she's a good pet, so she won't. The lights are bright and it's so white and she knows she can't disobey or she'll get shocked. The handlers will use their batons if she fights back.
No. No, she's not there, she's free. Free and still a pet and still being fucked against her will.
A hand slaps her cheek, the stinging pain bringing her back to the present.
"Hey. Bitch. Don't zone out on me now, I was enjoying your attention."
Aaliyah bats her eyelids and does what she should. It hurts, but she's made to take that, so she does, even if she desperately wishes she was somewhere else. Anywhere else.
Almost anywhere.
It seems like an eternity before he comes inside her, which is usually permission for her to orgasm too. The boy sighs blissfully and withdraws.
"You are an excellent pet slut." He does up his trousers and pulls his phone out of his pocket, cocky grin back on his face. "Just gotta do something."
Later Aaliyah will wish she had punched him or covered her face or run or something, but right now she just lets herself be manouvred. She's a pet, she doesn't have any free will, and anyway she can't bring herself to move. It's all too much, all over again. He takes photos of her face and her barcode and the two together, and other parts too, making it very clear who and what she is, and what she's done.
"Nice photos. I won't share them so long as you don't tell anyone about this. And, well. I might come up with more terms later. Gotta finish college before I can move and get a Romantic of my own, after all. Do we have a deal?"
Aaliyah nods, barely keeping the tears at bay. How did she end up like this?
"Great. See ya."
He stalks out of the bathroom without so much as a backward glance, and Aaliyah locks the door again before sinking to the floor. Now, the tears come. They can, now he's gone, she doesn't need to keep such a tight rein on her emotions now she's alone.
She didn't... how did this happen? How could she let something like this happen? She's not a person, this is a clear reminder of that, because a person wouldn't be so useless. They wouldn't have a barcode that makes them so easy to control. Master's dead and she's still a pet, still owned in every sense except the completely literal one. She scrunches up under the sink, giving herself a few minutes to cry messily, snottily. Not silently pretty, as a Romantic should.
She takes a deep breath, then another. Then she gets up and leans over the sink, scrubbing her face, wiping away the tears, making her eyes less puffy.
Maybe Zac will assume she's had a panic attack and not ask too many questions. She hopes so.
She dresses hurriedly with shaking hands, wanting nothing more than to go home and curl up in Cass' arms. But she can't do that, because then he'd ask and she'd tell him and she can't risk those photos being shared.
As a pet, she's not allowed wants anyway.
She brushes herself down, takes another deep breath, and heads back out.
Zac spots her as she re-enters the library and frowns. As soon as she's close enough, he murmurs, "Are you okay?" She nods. She's fine, she always is. "Okay. If you say so. Another half hour, then we'll go get food?" She nods again. She's in no shape to use her tablet to communicate right now. Zac squeezes her shoulder and looks back down at his textbook, frowning thoughtfully and highlighting another line.
Aaliyah opens up her laptop and puts on her headphones, pressing play. She prepares to draw down her notes and bookmark the sections she needs for her essay.
It's hard, so much harder than earlier. She was enjoying it before but now she can barely concentrate. Her head swims as she tries to settle back into the research. She has to rewind the audio of her textbook several times as she zones out, constantly replaying the last half hour or so. It hurts, physically, mentally, everything, she was hoping she'd never feel that hurt again.
She's useless. She can't concentrate, can't even read or write. She doesn't know things that everyone else finds obvious, that they all stare at her for not understanding. She's trying, she really is, but she's hopeless at it.
She's been pretending to be a person for a while now, but she's not. She never will be. She's a pet, and that's all she'll ever be.
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hey i'm talking about spider/pet death in this post and going on a bit of a ramble about it. not going into explicit details but i am talking about it and how i was feeling so. be wary
tl;dr for below is that I'm okay. It just happened very unnaturally, in a way that really sucked to watch and learn further about, and it was all very upsetting.
it's been a little over 24 hours, and I'm doing better now. Well I mean I broke out into cankersores after all the stress but outside of that I'm fine. Hoping to get the stuff together to preserve her so at least I don't lose her entirely
Actually got myself into a research rabbit hole. Because what happened just seemed so unnatural and so sudden it really didn't sit right with me. Honestly it hadn't sit right with me for about a week beforehand, because she'd been acting so strangely I just didn't think it could be normal. But finding anything about it was difficult, so I chalked it up to her losing her grip with old age and just having troubles holding onto stuff in her enclosure.
But with it gradually worsening, and how she passed, it was... No, that was not old age. I'm not going to go into detail because I still get a bit upset about it, but it's... There's just no way that's how it goes. I refuse to believe it's that agonizing. I don't think I could own a spider again if that's how it ended every time.
So after rummaging through google, reddit threads, various forums, and youtube, I figured out the most likely culprit was something called dyskinetic syndrome or DKS. Apparently it's a little understood, uncommon series of symptoms that usually leads to a spider/tarantula's death within a few days.
And after finding videos of it (which I do not recommend watching if seeing animals in pain is hard for you; it's very upsetting), yeah, it was exactly how she was behaving. She had every bit of it.
What frustrates me more though is how there's no agreed upon cause. I've been wracking through my brain trying to figure out what I could have done different for her (because of course, my brain jumps to "this is my fault somehow" with anything like this) and the uncertainty about all of it is so. Frustrating.
Some sources say insecticides cause it (which leaves me questioning a million different things wondering how in the world she could've got poisoned), others say it's genetic (which makes a bit more sense to me, especially seeing another story that very was similar to mine in a few other aspects), but it's like. "We don't know!!" and I'm like what do yoU MEAN you DON'T KNOW.
I'm half tempted to reach out to the spider biologist at my uni just to ask him what he knows. Because this is going to drive me crazy. Watching it happen was devastating enough, especially seeing as most spider/T owners will euthanize before its gets too bad because it's just so awful (and now I feel bad for letting it drag out as it had), and now i'm left here triply unsatisfied because I don't even know what caused it.
I can theorize forever (and I probably will) but I'll never know for sure. And it's like. What the hell, man. She deserved so much better than to go out like that
Maybe I'm way too passionate and emotional about a little jumping spider. But girl after like 3 nights straight of constantly supervising her and doing whatever I could think of to make life easier for her, and then her going out the way she had, it was like. Getting slapped in the face out of nowhere when you thought you had at least a month or two left.
Good lird. What a first experience
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Current Top Ten Red Velvet Songs
1. Body Talk
No question about this one. Ethereally beautiful, a song from the realm of the gods.
2. You Better Know
Realm of the gods part two. A song that makes me feel like I can take on the world, like the first day of summer and all its possibilities bottled into just four minutes.
3. Knock On Wood
This is such a perfectly constructed song--it's chic, not showing its high quality in big displays, but rather in a thousand little sparks of excellence strung into a cohesive whole, each showing the effort that was put into making a track that would stand the test of time.
4. RBB (Really Bad Boy)
Mean girl music because I am me. Also because it's a masterpiece—both the arrangement and the vocal performances have such contagious energy!
5. Automatic
When you get it you get it. It took me a while, though--actually, I think it's a life experience thing. I stopped finding this track boring when I felt that kind of subtle romance myself, not the neon-pink drama of my usual feelings but something more blue-gray. Once I could relate, I couldn't stop listening to this one.
6. Talk To Me
One of my first RV obsessions, and somehow still so much fun after three years of overplaying every time I have a crush (which is a lot, again because I am me).
7. Butterflies
No but hear how it SPARKLES ????? DO YOU HEAR THE SPARKLES ?????
8. Bad Boy
I know we've all collectively agreed this is a masterpiece, but honestly, I can't put my finger on why. I listen to it like all the time, though, to the point where it's a comfort song for me, so it's definitely doing a lot of things right? I don't have words to explain why "Bad Boy" is so great, but I won't be arguing with the masterpiece label, that's for sure!
9. Cool World
Sentimental & synth-y: exactly my type in a song, and the ladies do this (already fantastic) chorus justice, turning up the bittersweet feeling to a 10 so that “Cool World” is not only a nice, pretty song, but also an unforgettable emotional experience. Special shoutout to Joy for performance on this one!
10. Love Is The Way
A cupcake in audio form. It might be a little too sweet for some, but "Love is the Way" works perfectly for me, especially the parts where the RV ladies start harmonizing.
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