#esp from the past few albums

[formerbogbody]

This song might mean more to me than any other song she’s released. It feels so personal, vulnerable, and honest

#florence and the machine #music #dance fever #morning elvis #i say might bc i feel connected to most of her songs #esp from the past few albums

[starlightkun]

the final count is 132 albums across 40 different artists, purchased in the span of like 3 - 3 1/2 years (im estimating, i can find my last album purchase in dec 2020 but i cant find my first, im just guessing that it was spring or fall of 2017)

good jesus 🥴🥴

#goddamn.... #i mean if you do the math it averages out to like 3-4 albums a month #but also i definitely for a stretch there was buying way more than that at once #and there were lulls and peaks depending on comebacks #anyway ive got some other stuff to do before i actually out these up for sale #itll b on mercari i think! #ive got 17 nct albums + 1 kun photo light keyring thing #and then all the other stuff #lots of obscure(?) groups imo #some disbanded ones 😔😔 #feel free to ask me qs if u have them ahead of time but itll still be a few weeks before anything is ready!! #talk #text #mine #ignore.mel #not nct #also like im not embarassed or too terribly regretful of my time collecting albums #it was smth i enjoyed and im in a phase rn where im doing a radical acceptance and radical love for the me of the past thing #esp the mes that im now so far removed from so like w/e #but also.....now the me now has to get rid of all of these albums lmao #tag talk

[sevenswansmp3]

tagged by @hauntedwoman to talk about 5 things i’m obsessed with <33333 thank you!!!

1. succession surprise, surprise. i’ve finally gotten around to starting a full succession rewatch and i’ve been taking notes. first and foremost, one of my missions for this rewatch was to really focus in on shiv as a character because the first time i watched it and then rewatched it, i was a huge tom and kendall girl and honestly really did not like shiv :( but i recognize now that my dislike for her was mostly a result of my own internalized misogyny and also because she is a woman written by men and they really do their best to make her one of the less sympathetic characters in the show. i also think that a big chunk of fans online (esp twitter) are quick to label her an evil woman and, when defending their pov, they tend to bring up her behavior towards tom and kendall while also ignoring how both tom and kendall have treated her. i’m really enjoying this rewatch and have really grown to love shivvy. her relationship with tom also reminds me a lot of macbeth and lady macbeth and i think that their relationships have a lot of parallels and i find it very very interesting!!! i’m hoping to compile enough evidence to write something comprehensible about it. also, ROMAN. i literally did not give a shit about roman until the last few episodes of season four which is crazy but something has come over me. i think it’s his issues with intimacy and refusal to let anyone like actually see him and love him that has really bonded me to him <3 additionally there is something about kieran culkin (and rory…) that has bewitched me this summer. i think it’s kieran’s little fangs. i’m obsessed

2. the enormity of my desire disgusting me <3 welcome to truelovewaitsmp3 on tumblr dot com. this summer, i don’t think i’ve opened my journal without writing about how bad i want someone to love me, to look at the mess of my insides and all of this gross desire and love me anyways. to quote something i said to katy alpacinolover in an email, “I DON’T WANT SOMETHING CASUAL. I WANT TO BE THE PREY IMPALED ON YOUR SHRIKE’S THORN.” there’s something to be said about shame here and probably a million other things but i’ve written it so many times already that i don’t care to repeat it here.

3. ??? (stone fruits) two weeks ago, i bought a carton of nine plums from a local produce market. i had been rotting on the couch all day and decided that if i didn’t get up and put on real clothes and go buy a plum i was going to die. the most erotic experience i’ve ever had was eating a plum over newly washed cream sheets, plum viscera under my nails and between my teeth, wine colored juice dripping down my chin and onto my sheets. when the plums were gone, i found two forgotten nectarines in the fridge. i have been assigned “the love song of j alfred prufrock” for three different classes over the last four years (high school english, western humanities and then british lit in college) and each time, the line “do i dare eat a peach” was said to refer to prufrock’s acid reflux. in my american lit class, my professor brought it up one day and told us that it referred to oral sex. anyways. a nectarine is not a peach but i find the experience just as enjoyable.

4. wasteland, baby (2019) for whatever reason, i’ve always gravitated more towards hozier’s first album. however, over the past two months, i have listened through wasteland, baby an insane amount of times. something about the world ending and having someone there to hold through it. this album is also so incredibly sexy and is home to the horniest and sweetest hozier songs (TALK, be, dinner & diatribes, movement, etc). at the end of the title track, hozier whispers “that’s it” and i lose my mind. nfwmb is an honorary wasteland baby track, to me, and also a song that makes me insane and that i have had on repeat lately. i’m scared and excited to see what unreal unearth is going to do to me.

5. a past that i cannot go back to !!!! my hometown is filled with too many ghosts. summer digs them back up. i drive past her mom’s house and have to see her stupid car. someone else comes into work and i have to be reminded of everything i’ve missed out on. i have written about the same thing so many times i’m afraid that my story is metamorphosing.

hiiii ok i’m tagging @alpacinolover (i know you’ve already been tagged by someone else but i really need you to do this) @motherofvinegar @kenromshiv and anyone else who wants to do it! im tagging u.

[bigbigtruck]

My two fav new songs from this year were workout jams about defiance

Most of my new listening in 2022 was actually releases from previous years that I just now checked out, but two tracks that actually CAME OUT IN 2022 that were in heavy rotation were:

Clutch, "Nosferatu Madre" (from Sunrise On Slaughter Beach, September 2022) Frankly this one's just plain a fuckin banger. I've liked Clutch since my roommate introduced me during our sophomore year of college, and I'm glad they're still going strong. The instrumentation (esp the drums) is great --not to mention I've done approximately ten zillion reps to this one-- plus it's about being a badass witch and exacting revenge on Puritans from beyond the grave. Classic Clutch shit.

Shadow Academy, "Invisible" (from self-titled debut album, February 2022) Serious mid-80s Journey vibes. I'm usually not this keen on clean, slick production (I need music to be at least a little fucked up to really connect with it), buuut hearing this through the filter of the past few years gave it a personal meaning that the lyricist probably didn't intend. This song makes me feel motivated, in an almost vengeful way. It encourages me to regard the things that make me feel "invisible" as sources of strength and stealth rather than as faults, and gives me a little more courage to make the art I want without hedging against bad faith interpretation. Save your vacant threats, I'll dance around your wasted breath. That, and frankly it's a fuckin turbo boost when out jogging. Beat my best time when I had this on repeat.

#music #metal #rock #pop #clutch #shadow academy #year in review

[monocotyledons]

initial reactions to minisode 3: tomorrow

(these are copy-pasted from my twitter so they're bite-sized. also, i did not listen to the album preview or title track snippet so these are all fresh listens)

1. i'll see you there tomorrow omg funky retro sound... not what i expected from the title but i'm digging it so far! everyone sounds so smooth, i'm grooving to this. those instrumental breaks are great

2. the morse code title as i expected it's literally just tomorrow in morse code. lmao

3. deja vu OHH I LOVE THE HEIGHTENED DRAMA OF THAT CHORUS!! the previews weren't kidding abt yeonjun's voice shining but i also love soobin in the 2nd verse. that said, i feel like the song length is holding this back from being truly great - like it's good as it is, but i feel like with a prechorus and a bridge it could be worthy to rival 0x1 lovesong

4. miracle mmm a dreamy pop-rock midtempo song, this is my taste HAHAHA plus a yeonjun rap in the middle + taehyun adlibs!! reminds me a bit of an edgier skipping stones, or a gentler dear sputnik. this would be amazing at concerts

5. the killa (i belong to you) i was lukewarm on tinnitus but i already like this more HAHA this is smoother-sounding and more dynamic, i see why yeonjun + soobin were chosen for this track! very sultry in a subdued way

6. quarter life omg this sounds very... 2010s??? and i'm not sure if it's in a way i like or not. taegyukai sound great and very earnest but the production sounds so stereotypical 2010s anthem which i'm very ehhhh on. another song that would benefit from being longer imo, a proper bridge + final chorus + outro instrumental would send this soaring

7. deja vu (anemoia remix) oh dear lord i adore this instrumental already just from the intro lol. i really like this, it ties the song nicely to its pop-rock sisters in txt's discography

first listen thoughts: it's a solid album with polished and varied sounds but ngl i was hoping for something fuller & more immersive esp with the insane concept pics and promo. the shorter song lengths really hold it back from being something i can fully absorb.

first listen faves are i'll see you there tomorrow and the killa, i'll see how i feel after a few more listens

#tubatu #mono logues

[autistme]

if i see laura when she comes here what do i have to listen to before i go talk to me like i dont know anything bc i dont

omg hai its an honor 2 be ur cheat sheet for laura i'll make one lickity split

First two are off of her new album while the rest are a variety of supes common songs she plays but like she really just does whatever she wants depending on the tour. You can shuffle or not like the order is kinda how they go in the setlist (besides adding the new songs on top) openers are at the beginning and closers at the end. Most of these on the playlist are am! songs by virtue of that being most of her discography but she also does her solos (even some from her first one in 2008) but like solo wise do expect A GOOD GAGGLE of new songs (esp ones not already on streaming, like i think i'm not a cop is THEEEEE opening song recently) n e ways here's a playlist of the new songs on yt with most of them if ur curious!! but back to the am! ones i did studio version bc all the other songs are but there are some acoustic versions of various songs on here which might interest you bc shes solo(ISH) rn so shes either playing acoustic or electric but not as WILD yknow

Anyways this is all a guess bc this is based off of setlists from this year where shes just doin whatever and not like THEEEEEE shows where shes touring for the album like i THINK you are going to one of the march shows (YIPPEE) so PROBABLY a decent chunk of it will be new songs and only a gaggle am! but who knows how much there will be im not a psychic. Also it means she will have a drummer + bassist!!! She's been 99.9% solo for her 2020s shows (i think a FEW songs on the carousel tour were the only exception) so im interested in how it will go for her bc this is a new thing!! ANYWAYS i keep missing out on her while she's in town bc im either broke or busy lately BUT from The Vibes, from like vids and also my past experiences at am! shows, the crowd is usually cool. Normal concert going things like singing along and the occasional clapping along depending on if songs have it or not. Sometimes someone shouts some random song and maybe just maybe she might play it. Or not. Or theyll ask on like twitter or in dms. And she might! But again ur asking me 4 the rundown so u probs wont do this but yknow! a fun fact. ANYWAYS sorry it took so long i got distracted w something.

#asks #oliver: hi can i get a couple songs u think will b at tha show i wanna get a good grade in laura #me: two playlists and one billion words

[what-if-nct]

hiiii today's reminder is a notes app list of observations/thoughts from the concert that I kept to say to you lol:

- xiaohenyang black on black dance break I sobbed

- the first VCR started with jungwoo and jeno and I thought they'd do Js first then it went to yuta and my brain said "mera juta hai japani" which is a line from an old Bollywood song meaning "my shoe is japanese" and it cracked me up too much to pay attention to the rest of the VCR

- about the from home stage: RENJUN MY BABY smiling when he made it through his famous voice crack part and all the members putting their mics up to him for the "and it starts from here our home" bit 😭😭😭

- new stages/songs i don't remember being performed before that I loved: Oasis (why does sm hate winwin's voice), kangaroo (i need a well shot performance vid), ok, pado (tho why would they call it pado and not wave bc my brain immediately read it as pedo and then it was a sexy song and I was Disturbed), call d (what does that even mean lol they're not even trying to hide the frat boyness anymore), and you specifically are gonna love bat and alley oop

- why were the mics so bad. why was the camera work so bad, esp in nct u songs where they clearly don't know which part is whose. also they were focusing wayyy too much on close-ups for choreo-heavy songs (rip nectar). also the random hour long delay in between wtf?? tho I did like wayv banter in the meanwhile, speaking of which

- WHY DID THEY CHANGE WAYV'S INTRO TO "TO THE WORLD THIS IS NCITY"?!!!!!!!! also they clearly just tossed wayv up there to buy time while they fix the sets, it was kinda hilarious. they're pushing winwin to act cute and winwin taps his in ear and says "give us more time" (as in the staff asking them to fill up more time before the performance) and they jumped on him with "you can have all the time you want to act cute baby" to which winwin tries to hide behind ten but he's a whole head taller than him lol

- baggy jeans is good and I'm sure it'll grow on me more, but the t7s unit reunion feels wasted on it. love love LOVE ten's rap verse tho

- songs i loved live but really missed the missing members (this is mostly taeil tho sungchan makes a couple of appearances): round& round, my everything, taeil's empty spot in good night broke my heart, misfit, the 90s love bit in resonance. i like that they didn't have anyone cover taeil in 127's songs tho because he really is the heart of their music to me

- conversely: why does winwin still have 0 lines in boss, why not give him you know who's verse??

- apparently the new 127 album will be the most 127-esque yet and should I be scared?

- so so so very few resonance era songs :(

- some beautiful people: chenle, winwin, ten's wayv outfit, jisung in his black outfit (is that allowed???), taeyong's little braids even though I'm not sure how to feel about this hair, KUN 😭, yuta being the only one without a shirt in resonance for some reason

- Kun, Doyoung, jeno and Chenle together in the end that's my husbands and our sons

Hiii!!!, I might be responding super super out of order.

Overall the missing members left a layer of pain the whole time but the members who covered for them did amazing, Yuta hitting taeil's high note my baby did so well. And Jisung too, speaking of, recently I have been fighting any attraction to Jisung back with a stick, but the past day I... Can no longer fight it like hello???? Sir?? Sir?? Also I really noticed how much he and Winwin look alike I used to think it was just their lips but its their cheeks and smiles too. Jisung still looks more like Taylor Swift though. Who is coming to Miami next year! I think it's an amphitheatre so might picnic in the parking lot. Anyway next!

I just wanna talk about how much of a cutie patootie sweetie pie Renjun is every time I see him I'm like heres the boy! and his little smile! His redemption. And just everyone clamoring to him and Winwin, the princes of NCT.

I really didn't want to spoil all of the new songs yet so I just skimmed over them. And I did allow a little more of Bat and you are so right but but I left some surprises and I'll go back after the album release. But Hendery!!!! That is all. Call D, I have so many questions but the sheer vibe of the song answers them. It's not an NCT album without a song covertly about sex. Baggy jeans from what I've heard so far, same I'm not completely sold on it but I didn't hear the whole song so who knows.

The production value was definitely lacking and they seemed confused about how to film it. At least Winwin had a few of you knows lines in Wayv's songs but I always say this but it's cause the first time was so hard but the Yixing vibes are so strong with Winwin, and I worry. SM if you appreciate Winwin and give him everything he needs he won't find it else where just give him more please. Give Wayv more!!! I am an exo-l who's seen a lot and I'm scared okay. I don't want history to repeat itself. Again!! Cause exo was history repeating itself the first time.

I think we should just be prepared for the next 127 album it could honestly be anything, genuinely anything. I think just go in open-minded and ready to hear them out.

And I just wanna add just Xiaojun Yangyang and Hendery, that's it Xiaojun Yangyang and Hendery just wow look at them also.

Ignore the text I don't agree with that, that's just the tiktok. I only okay you know what nevermind.

Also Yuta can *** ****** ** me

[artwithoutblood]

I had a few songs for everyone.

On Aeron’s list were The Kiss, The Snakepit, If Only Tonight We Could Sleep, and Torture. (All from the Kiss Me Kiss Me Kiss Me album by the Cure. It’s possible you’ve already listened to it.)

Countess Bathory by Venom was on there for the very literal lyrics but I don’t think the sound fits them.

But if I had to choose only one song to suggest for Aeron, it would be Tanz Der Grausamkeit by Sopor Aeternus. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=q_gr0RBqx9U

The song is vampiric in meaning, soft and loving but menacing as it’s from the POV of a victim, the title literally translates to ‘Dance Of Pain’…

But also if you translate the German parts of the song it really brings to mind Aeron and Eri. Specifically Eri speaking to Delusion/Aeron, or at least someone in his position saying what they want him to be expressing and asking of them. What they think and tell themselves would help him. What will happen to him. It’s a little eerie.

Lyrics here for convenient copy paste or just google and pick a lyrics site you consider safe. https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/3530822107858524961/

For Eri I actually changed my mind about what I’d choose for him. Initially they were goth/goth adjacent songs regarding being threatened and toyed with by someone more powerful, eyes, hallucinations, serpents and shutting down/withdrawing emotionally under trauma.

Clown - Switchblade Symphony https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=A3dEWeu7aII (sung from Delusion’s POV)

A Strange Day - The Cure https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=c4mym0EFKM8

Cold - The Cure https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=BfZ5__1lfXo

This Chapter Opens - Neikka RPM https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=rhf_Qq00h8c But seeing the quiet melancholy playlist, if I could choose only one to suggest it would be Keep The Streets Empty For Me by Fever Ray. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=jWFb5z3kUSQ

Strange choice but it’s more the subtext and feeling. It’s sung from the point of view of a deer creeping carefully through the streets at night, trying to avoid threats through isolation (specifically trying to avoid predators/being hit and killed).

It’s a vulnerable, lonely, and quietly distraught song. About tenuous survival and enduring while hoping to find safety (whether physical or emotional.) A bit lost. Bittersweet. Hopeful and fearful. Hanging in there. At least that’s my impression. https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/3530822107858757326/

I had more ideas for Dorian and Genesis but I’m not sure whether they’d fit now and this is getting long.

i'll do this in order!

i have listened to the cure i love goth music. i've always thought hot hot hot!!! fit genesis, like cockatoos fit aeron, and if only we could sleep fit erebus if we use the kiss me kiss me kiss me album specifically.

countless bathory is a song i could see aeron and genesis performing together. erebus would perform music with them when he gets better.

sopor aeternus is a group i know! i got recommended them on a whim. huge fan of the whole les fleurs du mal album (and i like the collection of short stories the album is named off of too). tanz der grausamkeit fits the regality i have for aeron in close quarters,intoxicating, always readying a dagger despite pleas behind their own eyes to not, the sacrifice of love for art, art for love, and realizing it's okay to be bad. no redemption lies in beauty. there was a desire for erebus not in body but in theatrics and his pigment as paint.

anyway. not the point.

starting with erebus music:

cold is a song i swear i put on his playlist, but looking at it again, i didnt! pornography is such a good album.

clown is not a song i would've thought for erebus. if i had to pick one from serpentine gallery, it would've been rain, but clown is. really good?

neikka rpm is a new artist! the cover of the song is enough to convince me to eri eri's side. i really like this one.

keep the streets empty for me is a song i love. i had a huge love for fever ray back in 2014-16 when hannibal was especially popular. "I'm laying down, eating snow / My fur is hot, my tongue is cold / On a bed of spider web / I think of how to change myself" is very him. very erebus. thank you for bringing these to my attention. <3

#aeron ask #erebus ask

[checkers-dance]

i come to report on my Thoughts on ateez. ok so here's my method for getting into kpop groups: i watch their music videos and if i like what i hear, i sit down to listen to their albums. if the albums convince me, i go into parasocial mode. it's A PROCESS. ANYWAY, we are past the first stage and i'm happy to say ateez has passed the vibe check. my favorite song by them is the real. like i love guerrilla, but the real just feels so grand and epic, it makes me want to go out and fight a war. and the music video is SO cool, a bit weird, but i love it so fucking much. this song gets me so hyped, i love it so much it makes me wish it was longer even though it really doesn't need to be.

their songs have always been good but their more recent releases are especially to my taste, which makes me excited for whatever they're gonna release next.

i gave some of their live perfomances a watch and they are really good on stage, they have great energy. it's super engaging to watch them.

a lot of their songs are clearly meant to be danced to and i like that, i like songs with that energy even if i don't listen to it to dance. the only real problem i have with their songs is that i think some of them feel kinda repetitive?? they have this very signature style that i can so easily see coming and it's only relatively recently that i think they've started to get more creative with it. like it makes them very recognizable but i think there's ways to do that while still sounding unique (guerrilla is very ateez sounding but it still feels really distinct and interesting).

anyway. ateez good, i think.

So I stumbled upon some ateez lore a few days ago accidentally and I think it ties into what u mentioned abt guerrilla feeling rlly distinct from ateez's other works. I was looking at eden (the composer and singer) bc I liked some of his songs and I was curious abt his discography (I think the composer and singer are the same guy? Idk I haven't looked at pictures). And then I discovered that he apparently composed a lot of ateez's songs, esp the ones that u'd associate w their sound (off the top of my head, wonderland, pirate king, promise, stuff like that). And I also specifically looked for guerrilla or other songs from that album, but I couldn't find them. So I'm wondering if ateez switched composers for some reason? Anyway thank u for the update and yay for ateez clearing the first stage

#asks

[leonstamatis]

hi blink!!! how about top 5 comic recs and/or top 5 ballads?

oh god okay gonna start by saying as much as i love comics i’ve read very few of them okay let’s go

x-men: exiles. if you’ve ever wondered “hey, where did the name ‘blink’ come from, and also, how did you and jaz get to talking” the answer to both is in fact x-men, and exiles is my favorite. i haven’t read the shorter 2018 run (yet), but the earlier run is one of the first comics i ever read and clarice ferguson my darling is front and center so obviously it bangs.

x-men: x-factor. okay this one is great it’s a detective/noir setup with a bunch of great people including terry cassidy, my literal wife, and rictor and shatterstar - who are definitively the gay romance of all time. it gets uhhh less enjoyable as it goes in my opinion? but the first half fucking WHIPS and you just don’t get team-ups like this anymore.

hawkeye. yknow the matt fraction run. so like i’m a fake fan or whatever but i didn’t read this run until very recently and in fact i’m still working through it but i adore both the way clint is written and the way kate is written which is stellar because everything i’ve read with kate in the past has just been kind of. fine? she’s not the most compelling to me usually. but I love her in this one. she’s so so good. man.

red hood and the outlaws (2011). don’t read this one. don’t. it’s not good. for every one (1) panel showing the platonic ideal of a bi4bi4bi ot3 there are 70 panels of nonsense and bullshit (derogatory). instead, find a local bisexual who has read it and ask them to explain the best takeaways and plot points to you, so that you can ignore all the bad writing and poorly done plots. the version that exists in someone’s head is better than what exists on the page. even so, i am the local bisexual who goes feral over it. so like, it got me and it goes on the list.

birds of prey - once again. do not read this one. or at least don’t read the 1990s run because the politics are just. they’re so. questionable and in fact bad. and esp in the later issues the characterizations are very off. but what you CAN do is accept that dinah and babs were in love even before dinah knew babs’ name, and then go read the later runs by gail simone because that little factoid is all you need from any of the hundred or so issues written before ms. simone came along.

ohoho BALLADS. what if i just listed ballads (poems from Romantic authors) instead of songs. i’m not going to but i did consider it. i struggled with this one actually because like, technically ballads have specific meanings and i spent a while trying to find the narrative, abcb rhyming, folk songs. but that’s hard lmao so here have five slow love (?) songs regardless of genre.

“all the pretty girls” by kaleo. this is one of my top songs of all time actually which is why it’s on here, regardless of question specifications. OR. fuck. listen to “my fair lady” off their next album too. godddd god i lose my mind.

“weights and measures” by dry the river. everyone who knows me long enough has to eventually listen to me wax poetic about the album shallow bed (acoustic) at some point, i’m not going to get into it here again, but like. albums i can recite front to back and WILL at the slightest provocation. god this song. GOD this song!!! see also: bible belt and new ceremony. the fact that i use lyrics from any other artists for fic titles is a miracle.

“boy crazy” by dessa. okay listen, this is nothing like the first two songs and may not technically count as a ballad, i know. but, like. lie down in the grass and stare at the sky and listen to the live version from her performance with the minnesota orchestra. unlocks new emotions every time.

“nothing at all” by the crane wives. i wasn’t going to include it because it’s not quite right per the parameters set above but i keep circling back to it and going goddamn that’s a good one though,,,

andkfkgmhm i’m so. me. every time. okay go listen to “into your arms” by the maine. i’m sorry. the warped tour kid in me refuses to let this one go. music videos i watched on REPEAT in high school.

honorary mention to hozier, i told myself i couldn’t list him because everyone already knows all his slow love songs and that’s fine, but it’s weird not to put him on lists of favorites because. well. he is one.

#stara i am so sorry sjdkfkgmhmh #i’m sure you had something in mind when you asked for ballads. I am equally sure I did not fulfill that. #this is fine i’m sure but i do feel the need to say it sjdkfkgkgmgng #i don’t know. Music. generally speaking. #but that’s fine! we got there. sort of. in the end. #ANYWAY THANK YOU THIS SENT ME ON SUCH A JOURNEY #tam.ask #long post // #ask meme #me looking at this like oh no people think I know things. i do not know things. #thehallstara

[whataphantasia]

ugh ok that poll i reblogged made me listen to UUFO again and i didnt realize it's been like a few months since i listened to it in full FKKEDN (ok this got long so it's under a cut now)

every song ive just been going "OMG I LOVE THIS SONG" DJAKDJEK IM NORMAL IM NORMAL

i know its cringe to like a camellia album this much but uufo is like. a culmination of a LOT of the things i like, and all of camellias experience leading up to that point yk.. and so much love and effort went into it from so many different people.. auuuughhh

every part of the album comes together... i LOVE albums with a theme and this one is PARANORMAL OCCURENCES and URBAN LEGENDS and shit ITS EVERYTHING I LOVE!! the different pieces of album art... ufo girl... wauuuu wauuuu cries sobs

idc if its uncritical and cringe to love every song i do what i want. i dont rly care abt if a song is structurally good as long as it makes me happy it goes hard (and all of them make me happy)

the website.. so pretty...

ok im gonna go to bed after doinf this but heres a few tracks i want to ramble abt (i wish i could do all of the tracks but i wont (FOR NOW...))

for the longest time buzzbox was my favorite song LOL. it was one of my first songs on the album and the russian bass/hardcore mix is just SO good. idk why i liked it so much honestly, its not rly what i LISTEN to yk. i have a fond memory of making my geometry teacher listen to it in 10th grade and she never let me pick a class song again. SHE LIKED EDM TOO I THOUGHT SHE'D GET IT </33

obviously ghoul is amazing. no notes. everyone loves that song.

OOPARTS IS A BONUS TRACK ON THIS ALBUM. OOPARTS. OF COURSE IT'S GOOD

speaking of the muzzle facing.. god idk. the melodic metal undertones. i LOVE a big variety in musical textures and this song just SCRATCHES my DAMN BRAIN. the part where it goes *metal guitar riff* *oingo boingo ass scratching noises* ANDJWJDJEJD IM NORMAL (at 1:37)

POLYBIUS GB IS SO GOOD. the way every section of the song builds on eachother AUGH. the final drop with the chiptune/extratone. CAMELLIA AND HIS EXTRATONEY FINAL DROPS ARE SO GOOD WAUUU WAAAA

a lot of what i feel abt polybius gb ALSO applies to final blenderman!!!! except final blenderman has WAYY more electric guitar YEAHHHH!! camellia final drops. the shift from rock guitar to chiptune melody, and an extratoneish finale,, reminds me a bit of million pp actually? haha. it miiiight be my favorite song? it outranked buzzbox a while ago but tbh this place might be slipping for like, the muzzle facing.

i actually didnt like myths you forgot as much as the other tracks when i first listened to it.. idk why? maybe bc it was a little slower? past me has no taste bc this track is so layered. and good. thanks toby fox

artcore is usually an "eh, its good" for me (i have a lot of artcore i enjoy, like fallen symphony) but #1f1e33 is different.. just felt like pointing it out (esp since this album has a longer version of it) like! i never felt BORED! every section builds! and has interesting auditory textures! lol. ig thats how u keep my attention (not that "being boring" is inherently bad ofc)

i have really fond memories of listening to microwave-proof cat in like, 10th/9th grade... sighh that song is so fun. the main melody's texture is just so bouncy. kisses it.

OKAY. DAMN. its 3. i need to go to bed. i'd love to continue rambling abt this though. maybe later.

as of right now my favorite camellia song (outside of this album) is parallel universe shifter :3c yeah, like, his most recent 7 minute song. of course its good. idk just.. it has all the things i like in it. i'd love to be able to one day make music like this song specifically. but point is, it has all of my favorite musical things.. in it. idk how to explain it. the name too. its super personal to me LOL. and the references and callbacks in the song. so tasty

ig another 8+ track edm album i like is also good evening hollowood... can you tell i love paranormal/halloween themed albums. JK LOL the songs in that album have nothing to do with that. while im talking abt t+pazolite i like ponko2 girlish too.. maybe ill dedicate a post to that if i get bored.

OK FOR REAL NOW ILL STOP. BYE

#ph_ramb

[ebdanon]

10 artists you've liked in your life and 10 artists you would like to one day like?

hi im going off the assumption this is about music lmao because i have a long long list of artists i need to listen to/get into but i havent because im lazy and need to sit in a sensory deprivation chamber basically to process new music

10 i like/liked (obv taylor is one but im not including her because duh. but my list is predictable probably)

1. noah kahan

2. waterparks esp their recent album intellectual property thank u to @heystephen for bringing me to enlightenment

3. olivia rodrigo has not made a bad song literally ever the talent she has is crazy

4. sabrina carpenter. stream feather and decode btw

5. ricky montgomery (ive loved him and sab for years and im so so so happy theyve finally gotten their big breaks in music in the past few years)

6. shawn mendes (listen. the way his music got me through all of my teen years and paved the way for me to bond with my best friend of 6 years almost can never be discredited or taken away from me love him forever)

7. harry styles. harry’s house isnt my favorite album (i like it tho) but im convinced fine line is the reason i made it out of my senior year of high school alive that album holds such a tender soft place in my little heart. i got lyrics tattooed on me thats how annoying i am btw stream sunflower vol 6

8. COIN - saw them at a music festival and basically fell in love w them

9. ed sheeran 🫣 divide was my comfort album for years tbh. i havent really gotten into subtract and equals the same way but i still think both albums are very excellent and he has written one of the best lyrics of all time its true

10. maisie peters stream the good witch specifically bsc oh my god. oh my god

bonus since u said used to like 11. used to be a huge p!atd stan but the brendon urie of it all happened. stream pretty odd tho

10 i wanna like:

1. renee rapp - ive listened to some of her music already and i ADORE her in interviews and videos of performances ive seen from her but havent had a minute to dive deep into her discography

2. lizzy mcalpine - my friends love her but i havent given her a good listen yet

3. hozier - ive seen him live and really enjoyed him but dont listen enough tbh

4. wallows

5. 5sos newer music. i stream self titled and sgfg religiously to this day however i havent listened to much stuff past young blood for some reason and idk why

6. billie eilish — i like everything i hear from her so idk why i havent fully went through her discography yet

7. troye sivan — one of my best friends is a huge stan but i havent listened to his new album. ADORE blue neighborhood tho

8. boygenius

9. scott helman

10. paramore — i listen to their older stuff but havent listened to their recent stuff much and i have no excuse at all

#ty for the ask i love these #i deadass gave a paragraph for each one im so sorry #i love yapping can you tell #asks

[ilaein]

Hi babi,

Happiest Birthday to you again. It’s been 8 years and I’m still fond of you. I hope you always well. I’ve been so happy to witness all your achievements in life. I had the chance to see you twice personally and the recent MysteryElevator still lingers in me. You look exactly how I thought of you, well more ethereal than ever. You look so.. so unreal. Most of the time while you are performing I can’t compose my thoughts that u are really right infront of me It feels like I’m just watching you on the big screen. Silly. My soft spoken voice struggle to shout your name as everyone in the crowd did the same. I sob in between some of your songs esp my fave ones. I can’t believe my eyes you’re glowing! Glowing infront of me .. of us..

I remember how stunned I was during our Hi-Bye session. I didn’t expect you’ll be that close.. I nearly can’t breathe. 😅 Got some heart and soul malfunction. 🤭🤣 I was mesmerized.. I wasn’t able to fell asleep no matter how tired I was after the show. I spent the rest of the evening wondering.. how can you be that handsome?! Hahahaha I also promised to myself that, that would be the last fancon of yours that I’ll go to. ‘Cause I just wanna move on with my life.. this life around me. I’m getting old and I find it hard to like someone else while I’m attracted to you. Hahaha It’s crazy. Im crazy.

For the past few weeks I avoided watching your clips that pops up everywhere.. literally in every social I have .. even random reels I was scrolling to in my dummy Insta I saw you! I restricted myself from checking notifs that includes news about you. I even unfollowed your official twitter account haha. I talk about it to some of my friends I requested them not to mention you anymore. ‘Cause they love to tease me using gifs of u or sending me clips about you. I’m still your fan but I have to detach myself in some way before it gets deeper than this. I don’t want my future husband be mad when he sees my diary full of dongmin. Haha.

Recently i bumped into twitter account handler “Kai” she’s the luckiest fan ever. She was able to attend most of your fanmeets and had several videocall with you. I was so happy for her. She even prepared a NEW YORK TIMES SQUARE AD with the largest single LED with the best resoultion! for your Birthday today! Like just wow! She really made everything so possible! She also prepares gifts and a manager of one of your fan projects. Incredible! 🤍💜

Then I realized.. for those long years that I became your fan, I wasn’t able to give you anything.. aside from flexing you on my socials, making you my cover photo since 2016 haha which I remove last 2022z Greeting you a Happiest Birthday in all of my socials.. Facebook, Insta, Twitter, etc. Supporting your songs, projects and dramas silently reposting them.. and just praying for your happiness and health.. that’s all I manage to do.. Don’t have the means to sent you food trucks like what Kim Domingo did.. or to show up in every fancon venue you have scheduled like Andrea. But one thing we all have in common.. that I’m sure of.. We all love you! 🥰

This might be my last post and greetings as I now focus in my own journey. But no matter what I’m still an aroha and eunwoo stan by heart. Thank you for being my inspiration all throughout my college years. Thank you for existing..

Happiest Birthday to you again, naesarang.

May you get all the best in life and please know that you deserve them all.

Yourstrully,

A.Lee

(Ps. As I am writing the last few sentences spotify that’s currently on shuffle playing some random playlist decided to play “STAY” from your Entity Album yes. And I almost chuckled. You’re growing so much on me, I’m scared haha. Next thing I knew I was giggling and turning red. You’re not even here! I’m sweating! Hahahahahaha)

Here are some of your recent pictures I truly love! Its not that obvious I love your long hair right? Haha!

And ops! I will definitely tell you once I had my Gabriel Dongmin hahahaha 🤭

#cha eunwoo #lee dongmin #fangirl #long post #Spotify

[cosettepontmercys]

Hi Cossette! Happy (belated) October 🍂 It's been a been quite an eventful past few months hence the slow reply!

Talking about reading, I have been very behind with updating my Goodreads profile, but I have managed to read more than 50 books this year so I'm pretty content! I did find a lot of books a bit forgettable, but I've really enjoyed:

A Day of Fallen Night by Samantha Shannon

The Magician's Daughter by H.G. Parry

Labyrinth's Heart by M.A. Carrick

For The Eras Tour, I haven't thought about making bracelets just yet but I'm definitely going through my wardrobe and fancying dressing up the Reputation Era (esp. the black hoodie look from the LWYMMD music video)!! And ahh I'm also very thrilled about the Paramore guest appearance!! (Castles Crumbling really has been growing on me 💖)

As of Maisie Peters, I still personally prefer the coherence & production of You Signed Up For This (I listen to her debut more often in order), I think The Good Witch really showcased her songwriting strength & her willingness to experiment with new sounds! Out of the 2 albums, which do you personally prefer?

Over the course of the past few months, I've been listening to Guts (Olivia Rodrigo), Bewitched (Laufey), and The Loveliest Time (Carly Rae Jepsen) quite a lot! Carly's latest b-sides is quite a pleasant surprise: it's her most experimental body of work to date but I really enjoyed it nevertheless! I also love listening to the upbeat tracks from Guts - they're quite a refreshing change from Sour!

Other albums that I've enjoyed include: The Rise and Fall Of A Midwest Princess (Chappell Roan) & The Land Is Inhospitable And So Are We (Mitski)! I'll need to relisten to these a bit more but they are growing on me 🩷

My recent top pick goes to Laufey's Bewitched: I think this might actually be my favourite 2023 release - it's a no skip album to me and I love how coherent & well thought out her sophomore effort is!! Which songs are your favourite so far? And which of the 2 Laufey albums do you prefer?

P.S. Ahh I'm very excited about 1989 (Taylor's Version), The Eras Tour Movie, as well as the new Holly Humberstone album!!

happy happy belated october and happy eras tour movie day and happy holly debut day! 🤍 i hope you're doing well, jennifer!

i feel like everyone i know has had a bit of a ~ forgettable ~ reading year with only a handful of highlights! i've been in and out of a fantasy slump, which is really frustrating because there's so many fantasy books that keep popping up on my radar!

the reputation era seems like such a FUN era to dress up as !! i saw a bunch of people in rep era-esque outfits at my show and i loved it 🤍 i wonder if she'll sing castles crumbling with hayley each night — i was really hoping we'd get castles crumbling for my surprise song in seattle, since paramore was originally supposed to play in seattle the day after eras seattle, but i also would not trade my surprise songs for the world!

i personally prefer the good witch over you signed up for this, but i do still really love you signed up for this! i think my ranking of maisie albums is good witch → trying → ysuft → dressed too nice for a jacket? maybe? what about you? the good witch is definitely my most streamed album of the year so far, according to apple music replay!

i also loved bewitched, loveliest time & guts, but haven't listened to bewitched or loveliest time as much as i would want to! i've been in more of an audiobook mood lately than a music one! i think i like guts more than sour overall, but i think i like my favorites from sour more than my favorites on guts, if that makes sense? what about you? what are your favorites from guts?

i haven't had a chance to listen to chappell roan's new album or mitski, but i really really need to!! the only other fall release i've listened to lately is del water gap's i miss you already + i haven't left yet! i really want to get bewitched on vinyl i think my favorite might be letter to my 13 year old self, but i need to do a couple more listens until i'm certain! what's your favorite?

i have listened to paint my bedroom black though, and i LOVED it! have you listened to it yet? what are your favorites from it? 🤍

hope you're doing well and having a good october!!!

#post: answered #mutual: jennifer

[thekidsarentalright]

almost 12 hours!!!! TONIGHTS THE NIGHT!!!!!! how excited are u???? personally idk how i slept at all lmao this is insane

I saw ur post abt so good right now and now i’m like shaking with excitement lmao 😄 songs like you make my dreams come true are instant serotonin for me, i love older sounding music like that (esp with trumpets) so the idea of fob having a whole song in that style… gonna explode‼️ the teaser sounds so fucking cool too! this album is gonna kill us fr

alsoooo i went to a show at metro recently, which was so so so fun but also i was just like. damn fob was here?!?! it’s Such a cool venue and the idea that ppl got to see them at a show that small… god!!! so jealous of everyone that’s been able to see them at smaller shows 😭 i also got to see the beach that pete was on in the tour announcement video (when he finds the seashell) bc we drove past it! idk it was rlly cool and i had a Moment where it made me think abt how special fob is… like i always know but recently i like. Felt It and felt that connection again if that makes sense! the fob emotion is so so strong and this all has me like… vibrating until the album drops. idk how we’re gonna survive the next 12 hours or so!! i’m gonna be absolutely insufferable today and tomorrow and i’m not even sorry 😅

- 🧋 anon

now less than 12 hours when im answering this!!!!! i am so excited excited doesn't even cut it like. oh my god it's been 5 years of waiting for a new album and now we're getting a new album?? just like that?? insane!!!! idk how i slept at all either im like buzzing w excitement fkdjhfks

ohhh if u love songs like that then ur gonna love so good right now in its entirety SO much!!! what a time to be alive has those vibes too, to me!! just funky kinda jazzy (from the trumpets lol) upbeat vibes! absolutely love it too. this album is SOOO gonna destroy devastate ruin us i cant Wait bestiefsdkjfhsk

omg that sounds so fun!!! absolutely love small venue shows like that in general but YEAH small venue fob shows feel especially incredible and special like. i feel very lucky to have gotten to go to a small venue fob show a few years ago, because idk they just. shine. in a small venue (they shine everywhere always but smthin abt small venues just makes them shine extra!!) but ough that is so cool u saw the beach too, i absolutely understand feeling that fob connection it is. literally so real and so special!! like!! they are so special they are everything, i cant wait to get this new album literally How are we gonna survive till it drops!!! i wanna be so insufferable abt it w you and everyone else Nowwwwww!

#holding ur hand thru these trying hours where we r having to wait we Will get thru it kfjsdhkfjs #asks #🧋anon