#esp me bc i make less

[yardsards]

the owl house really said "familial love is stored in a gifted garment"

EDIT: forgot one! thanks @cat-eared-exam-taker

#eliot posts #toh #the owl house #i was on the fence abt including either of the examples w amity and the twins #(esp the concealment stones bc idk if they even count as garments) #but i figured in both cases helping her be gay and do crimes is very much a form of affection from them even if less soft than the others #eda clawthorne #luz noceda #emira blight #edric blight #amity blight #darius toh #hunter toh #king clawthorne #alador blight #i want dadrius to get hunter a new cloak SO BAD #ive mentioned it before but i always go wild when stuff like this happens in fiction #bc i've always loved lending my jackets/shawls/scarves/hats/gloves to my irl friends #makes me feel like im protecting them and keeping them safe #and i knit and sometimes sew so p much all of my irl friends have AT LEAST gotten a hat #but i made of of them a long forest green cloak which he loved #it always makes me feel SO WARM INSIDE when i see someone wearing something i made them #but even seeing them wear things like friendship bracelets kinda makes me feel that way #i like having kinda made my mark on them even when not keeping them warm/covering them #not in a possessive ''show everyone that you're mine!'' way. none of it visibly ties back to me #(except in hs when i'd lend them my letterman's jacket w my surname on it) #but i know it's from me and they know it's from me and they chose to put that onto themself #my love language is acts of service and that's what i'm doing when i make someth handmade or lend em someth practical #but they can recieve it as gift-giving or a stand-in for physical affection. which both VERY MUCH do not come naturally to me

[wawawawawawawawawawawawawa]

honestly, looking at izaya's life from a third person pov, it's just... sad? like.

here's this guy who touts himself as something akin to a god and a master manipulator and someone to be feared, and he IS very good at what he does, except... when you take a look at the rest of his life, you see a mid-20s man who has no friends, nobody who really likes him- his clients fear him, his secretary isn't fond of him, and the one friend he DOES have is honestly kind of a garbage friend. and when people draw attention to this, izaya goes on this spiel about how this friendship is so intricrate it can't possibly be understood by an outsider, but what's REALLY happening is that shinra routinely doesn't care for izaya on a personal level via ignoring and ostracizing him, and izaya kind of just. takes it up the ass

he sees everyone around him as an object and the sad thing is everyone, in turn, sees HIM as an object- less an actual living being and more an abstract concept, or at least something that only exists for others to gain something from. it's this vicious cycle of izaya keeping everyone at arm's length and denying his own humanity, which in turn leads to people also denying his humanity, unknowingly feeding into this fucked up cycle of self depracation that most likely started when he was a child- his parents didnt see him as a person, just a mouth to feed and later, a way to have the life they wanted while still appearing respectable- they had kids, just like society said they should, but theyre not obligated to care for them.

and the one person who DOES notice there is something unhealthy going on can't be assed to do anything about it- in volume 9, shinra explicitly says that he doubts izaya expects to live long enough to die of old age- celty actually agrees with him! celty not being assed about it i'd expect, she already hates izaya and doesn't actually know all that much about him, but shinra at least should realize that there's something off about the whole situation. wether thats out of apathy or he just genuinley doesnt believe izaya is being unhealthy, i don't know.

but as it stands, here's a man who insists he can't be manipulated and that he's in control, who's... routinely mistreated by his only friend whom he still talks to and expects some sort of closeness from, and who ultimatley not only loses control, but loses it so spectacularly that he ends up disabled, possibly permanently. i KNOW the spinoff novels said he couldve walked if he went to physical therapy, but "ability to walk" does NOT equal "not disabled anymore."

like... it's just. a sad life! it's a horribly sad existence of a perpetual misery cycle that izaya not only doesn't pull himself out from but actively perpetuates via constantly giving in to his worst impulses and keeping everyone away from him via said impulses, ensuring nobody will notice anything wrong, and that people who DO notice and DO realize its unhealthy, won't give enough of a shit about him to help

#durarara #orihara izaya #izaya orihara #sowwy if this is like. bad. im sick with the ffflllu i think #or at least a real bad cold #waposts #and this isnt me painting izaya as like. a victim whos done nothing wrong btw #its EXPLICITLY his shit behavior that ostracizes anyone that could break the cycle #its a hell of his own making and its really sad #esp if u headcanon hes got aspd because then the reason hes like this is bc of untreated mental illness #which gives him even LESS control over The Situation than he thinks #wa-kun go one post without mentioning aspd challenge (FAILED)(NOT CLICKBAIT)(I ALMOST DIED)

[munchboxart]

Yay I finally managed to make my 2023 art summary! First half of the year was a little disappointing looking back (in terms of both amount and quality). I think I managed to make more personal work this year, thankfully, which is what I wanted last year

#i think i had more examples to use this year compared which is good #esp the latter half of the year #in terms of improvement? i am starting to draw backgrounds.. #i dont even think i have a 2022 art summary good lord (i think its bc i did mainly comms and barely any personal art...) #i also started making my own merch which is a step forward! ive been meaning to make them since 2021 #itll arrive either tomorrow or thursday. ill share them when i get them #this year has also been less consistent in terms of art style. i wont say if thats good or bad #i had a bit of an art crisis in the middle of the year and then i had reached enlightenment in november #which is that i will stop gaf abt the amt of other people liking my art #i want to be those niche artists who stick to their own lane and post their 50 million merchs of their fav ship. that will be me!!!!!! #im having a junmui plush manu'd in jan so im excited #i also plan on making photo holders and standees and etc etc later on #art summary #munch art

[arctic-hands]

I've had more than one anarchist I associate with be surprised to learn I'm actually not an anarchist. But like. I'm a huge proponent of the Welfare State, and you kind of need a state for that

#welfare #welfare state #food stamps #Medicaid #medicare for all #universal healthcare #ubi #ssi #if a government isn't going to take care of its people then the government has no use to the people at all #so like I'm down for dismantling a system that only exists to rule and oppress and watch us die #and i don't mean 'fascists are okay if they make the trains run on time' type shit bc I'm staunchly antifascist #but like i do think a government can take care of even the most vulnerable of its populace if it really wants to. it just doesn't want to #undesirables who can't turn the cogs of capitalism are to be disposed of in most governments. esp the United States via #passive eugenics #anyway #revolution or not if the medical infrastructure goes down for any reason then me and a fuckton of other undesirables are dead #also this next statement is less towards anarchists specifically and more for like utopic commune people but anyway #if your utopia is based on 'work to live/earn your place' you are not a leftist you are a capitalist with a woke vocabulary #and i hate you

[moe-broey]

One thing they don't tell you about the Senshi tulpa that WILL inevitably manifest in your mind to tell you to eat better is that. Every time I make myself a coffee via kuerig instantly, I can hear him. Lamenting the fact that I have become so accustomed to convenience and ease that even a standard coffee machine has become foreign to me. I am thinking about how to make coffee without use of a machine in the first place, I am wondering where my french press went, I can see him. In my mind. Showing me how to make coffee in The Dungeon. Dungeon Coffee.

#dungeon meshi #i'll allow this one to be set free into the wild. i think the world needs to know. #i really love senshi's character too how like. it's easy to feel guilty too if you aren't doing something 'the right way' #and despite him being very set in his ways he manages to alleviate that specific guilt #just by being senshi about it. i have never wanted to learn how to cook. too much work/too many steps #i like instant/ease bc that means i can devote myself completely to the things i AM passionate about #but senshi will manifest in your mind to tell you. you need nourishment to do that #he is just as passionate and detailed about it as i am my art. all i ever want to do is art. esp traditional art #which i think almost feels similar. to magic (digital) vs non-magic (traditional mediums) #each takes a very specific set of skills. one 'feels' easier than the other but a lot Does go into it (digital) #and there is an ease of access esp sharing wise. but i am autistic about the medium itself #yes sometimes i have to wait a day to even share my stuff cause the sun went down #yes there's less ways you can take shortcuts. you have to do Everything by hand #but that's what i love about it. espppp blending my pencils. #but going back i do not have that same level of interest (not even NEARLY) for anything that Isn't related to art #it's like. i really don't WANT to .... but senshi ...... makes me think about it. #senshi

[birdricks]

getting sooooo emotional abt how like. when rick and bp meet again during the federation stuff its like theyre completely different ppl from who they were when they last saw each other. but it almost makes them become closer instead of driving them apart… until of course their values clash in the worst possible way

#i cant word this properly my brain is mush and im trying to fight thru 1billion hc world #BUT LIKE. U UNDERSTANDDD. RIGHT #this happens every time they spend a while away from each other #one or the other or both chnage. but it still stays the same #ill have to draw or write abt it at some point. but i have exams in like a week 😢 #gyadddd damn tho… thw flesh curtains/federation time gap esp drives me insane #bc likeeee. rick is already kinda fucked up when they meet. but way better at playing it off #and it never comes up. like hes not in tht deep yet #but later on he Cant hide it anymore. so much so that bp Has to become involved in ricks issues #and while rick still has that smallllll part of himself that still cares. hes much less trusting and shit by that point #which makes it so much more meaningful to me to have bp become involved at this point #and on the othwr hand u have bp going from sweet and kinda naive #to much more … serious ig. and mature. due to his home being destroyed or w/e #but hes contrasts rick in being far more compassionate and liek. genuinely heroic #from his pov maybe theyve both grown up a bit. but from ricks pov its just bp thats changed #i see rick as being far less aware of his own slow downfall. while its more obviosu to others (esp bp) #gggyaahhhh….. they make me so so ill #birdrick

[and-make-it-double]

slowly going feral over the idea of an spn x tma crossover where tfw get dropped into tma universe. like. the potential that holds.

every time there's a problem, the three of them, in unison, offer "grenade launcher" as a solution (bc lbr even though dean's the one who was super gung-ho abt it sam was also very interested in that one ep and cas would obv go along with it bc he's cas)

the winchesters get roped into working at the institute and cas is js always around and jonah tries to tell them that it's "unprofessional" and "inappropriate" to have someone who's not an employee hanging around like that and they're both just like "tf you gonna do bitch? fire us?" with sam giving jonah such an intense bitchface that it physically hurts him

also the idea of daisy trying to interrogate/intimidate the fuckers who've died multiple times, been wanted for mass murder that they didn't commit, and fistfought god is js unreasonably funny to me

#like #sam and dean are probably so used to the cops atm #that they're just #chill the entire time #esp bc they realise that it's getting on her nerves #and cas would just agressively squint at her until the end of time #also like #the archive employees are all still more or less regular people #meanwhile cas is a whole ass angel #and the winchesters grew up hunters #so i js love the idea of tfw providing the most batshit ideas ever #and the others who aren't used to them and their tendencies yet are js like #????? are you???? ok???? sane???? in the right frame of mind????? #idk it's silly but a tma spn crossover makes me ridiculously happy #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #sam winchester #castiel #team free will #tma #the magnus archives

[batz]

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#spending so much time doing house stuff when i have dpwntime all i can do is snooze #the landlord replaced the fuckd up laundry machines tho! we have these fancy ones now tht sing annoyig songs when th clothes r done #gonna start painting soon and then im gonna be reattaching the cabinetry in the kitchen bc its all fuckd up #frank.txt #u know despite how rough things are i AM hapy w this place . its so cozy and VERY quiet . and my abuser doesnt know where i live anymore #which is gr8 ! i can go outside and im less likely to deal w irl stalking again. still an agoraphobe bc stalking scary as hell BUT #At least im an agoraphobe in a cozy house that is far away from my prev place so its also safer #mental illness and seasonal depression and ptsd stuff kinda make this month scary for me BUT #its ok. its esp ok bc im making ham on xmas. literally all is well when i can make a big meal and watch ppl eat my food #downsides of this house - well ttoday i saw a stinkbug in the oven:(

[darehearts]

#i know i havent gotten to a single ooc msg today but you know what #i set up my queue for next week so YAY!!!!! one less thing for me to #stress about. pls someone be proud of me bc that was not easy lol #esp bc i have been working overtime all week and still pulled this off #also thanks for sending me so many memes! i have enough to last #me for a few months there were so many but pls always send more #it makes me happy <3 #tbd

[teddybearsims]

oc questionnaire !!

tagged by @raiiny-bay ♡

NAME: August Milan NICKNAME: nothing, other than being called sweetheart or honey or some other sickly sweet thing by Bear :3 (I haven't figured out his streamer @ yet which could be considered a nickname too!) GENDER: male, he/him STAR SIGN: scorpio HEIGHT: 6’0 ORIENTATION: bisexual NATIONALITY/ETHNICITY: san myshuno native, idk what this would make his ethnicity in sims logic, but ig he's some sort of European mix? FAVORITE FRUIT: honeydew FAVORITE SEASON: summer FAVORITE FLOWER: roses!! Bear bought him a (small) bouquet of roses on their first date and it's been his fave since. FAVORITE SCENT: Bear. Straight up. Anytime. After a shower, after a run, ANYTHING. He wants to bottle and inhale Bear at all hours.  COFFEE, TEA, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: iced coffee! AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: around 8-12. Depends if he was out at a club late. Mostly wakes up on time to do his livestreams, and falls back into bed when he can, but he can't fall asleep ALONE so his hours revolve around Bear a lot too! DOGS OR CATS: cats ig.. but he doesn’t really ever want a pet. DREAM TRIP: Simply spending months in Sulani just relaxing in the sun with Bear at his side <3 He'd also love to take Bear around with him during Fashion Week but Bear does not have the energy for it :p NUMBER OF BLANKETS: one big fluffy duvet RANDOM FACT: he was an oopsie baby.. his parents never planned for him, & he has no siblings!

I tag: @machinegrl @dandylion240 @yuauaua @bubblepopsims @mobwhim & anyone else who would like to do this!! ♡♡

#ts4 #tag game #sim: august #so sorry this took me forever #hes MY oopsie baby actually.. #extra fun fact the base of his sim was made from a couple I played with when I installed sims again in late 2023 !! he was their first kid! #I have a pic of them in my drafts but it'll never see the light of day .. ill have to re-make his parents at some point tho #so hes got that top-notch toddler trait #and lore wise I kept it bc I imagine he was raised lovingly by his au pair and DID excel in his studies with the best tutors and whatnot #he just grew to care less about school and he's got the money to live comfortably #esp now that hes a popular streamer #ive missed taking pics of him but their penthouse is sooo not ready yet #its so EMPTYYY #considering just moving them to an apartment instead so I have less space to work with

[divorcetual]

Jamaican patois my beloved U are suxh a helpful referwnce

#ITS SUCH AN INTERRSTING LANGUAGE TOO the number of other languahe influences is crazy #i wld LOVEEE to know more abt hlhow the grammer and vocab is effected bt them #it more or less uses english as a base #but words like me/my/I/etc. are all simplified to “mi” (I THINK) rather than having multiple versions #would be interested if thats how west african languages work or if thats jusy a product of it being a creole #the participles are so interesting too #the function to cobjugate verbs but work entirly differently than that of english #i wonder again if thats an infkuence of west african languages #then there are paticiples like “fi” which have a TON of different uses where english ones tend to only have one #it expresses posession or obligation. it can be used as “for” in some cases. so cool #I mentioned this with “mi” but often the pronouns dont have much change between like. position #i forgot the word. I mean like “He” and “Him” are the same word (im) #“they” “them” and “their” are all the same too (dem) #theres also a plural you which I always enjoy #it has a lot of notabke similarities to spanish esp. jn the different “to be” verbs #which is cool bcs I wld usually thnk it wld be omitted from a pidgin and creole #it does have spanisha and portuguese jnfkuence but considering its mainly english and west african languages it makes me wonder if #WA languages also have that equative abd locative “to be” verb

[ufolvr]

How I sleep understanding my favorite villain's personality and backstory and why they work so well while also throwing key aspects of it away for the benefit of my own indulgences btw ^_^

#📡 incoming transmission 📡 #once again talking about frieza. mostly. their backstory and direct mirroring of goku's is the strongest in the series #they never had to life a finger for anything ever and thats the point #but.... sometimes a guy has certain needs and urges #i also mess with buu and cell but thats after they died so i can do whatever. like introducing a character for them to bounce off of #is one thing but changing their backstory is another. do you see it? i dont think i need to do that to tell a meaningful story #for frieza however i do not want them 'going soft' for anyone ever. i want them to have been soft from the very beginning #that's a lot stronger to me. what if they cared? what if they cared so much. what then. #any other changes i make to characters i like esp villains is more... well. where can we go from here buddy? #and less What would happen if your backstory was a moved a little bit to the left. it just genuinely depends on what works best ^^ #self insert #selfshipping #f/o #selfship #self ship #also bc its driving me up the wall: #me whenever i tell you that frieza cannot be enjoyed separately from their femininity and poise so frieza with a square jaw means nothing #and cell was hard for me to grasp but the truth is that the more human she became the scarier she got. #like another false sense of familiarity almost #and buu is all over the place because buu is buu and makes little to no logical sense #this has nothing to do with the post. sometimes i just like to sound smart #and as a proof that i do know frieza plenty well i just love to fuck with them and make them care for someone

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

Honestly though, this (what Ashe is pointing out) is exactly why I don't think GW could possibly end well. There's no "talking it over" after all the bloodshed (especially bloodshed started by them, and especially bloodshed started by them that didn't have to happen).

The way the narration leaves it "open" too at the end of GW just comes across as "it failed". It feels like... a kind of pointless story?

And I know some people might think that since Dimitri personally isn't as deeply affected by losing Matthias and so might be willing, that's still no good if his people and closest allies aren't. Rodrigue and Sylvain wouldn't be so forgiving, and I do think Dimitri would follow suit because that's his father (Rodrigue)'s closest friend and one of his own closest friends' father.

Add that to the fact that they have Sreng to deal with still (and I imagine sooner or Sylvain would figure out that Leicester had a hand in provoking Sreng to attack Faerghus) on top of losing Matthias and I imagine all the stress and aggravation wouldn't bode well for Leicester as far as Claude's thinking of things working out goes.

I just really can't see where GW goes afterward that would be "good" or works in Claude's favor at all. Maybe that was the intention and it was meant to be a route with a completely tragic ending, but apparently there are players who think it would end well and whatnot and I just can't see that happening (both from Faerghus' end and from Adrestia's end, the latter of which Claude discussed within GW itself).

If their intention was for a totally tragic ending, like yeah, I can see that... but as always the writing muddies the waters to make it sound good while something bad is happening. It keeps trying to have a positive spin on bad things as if they're just afraid to commit to a fully bad ending.

#DCB Three Hopes Run #also to be specific the reason I just call Rodrigue his father outright is bc he refers to him as a “second father” in Houses #but I'm not gonna literally write “his second father” every time I mention it and honestly “adoptive father” doesn't work for me either #bc him being an adoptive sort of parent doesn't make the fact that he /is/ a parent to him any less valid #like a parent is a parent and I don't feel the need to point that out and the feeling is mutual between them #if Rodrigue is literally calling him ''my boy'' it's a pretty cut and dry parent/child relationship #obviously I'm using Houses context in this case but it's still accurate in Hopes #and I just can't see losing Matthias going over smoothly at all and things getting better with time #I mean Matthias is such a major player in Faerghus and so important that I just can't see them being like #well it was only /one/ important bigwig who died. like no it was one important bigwig saving a whole lot of lives #who is also very intelligent and has a deep say in politics. that's ofc not counting #as Ashe says here in AM in reference to Adrestia that they've killed so much on both sides bc of the war #that he can't imagine just sitting and talking now. just because we as players only saw one named character die #and just because that character wasn't a playable character nor a returning character we already knew and loved #doesn't mean hundreds if not thousands more didn't die in Leicester's invasion #like Ashe says here I just don't see how both sides could sit and talk after all that #esp since Sylvain would prob be involved and uh... Sylvain is... a very emotional and angry person #and extremely vengeful (and they rly leaned into that side of him in Hopes in all routes) #I canNOT imagine talks with him involved not getting heated and aggressive #and he'd /have/ to be there bc he's the Margrave now in GW. if they want to have important talks like that #they need all their major players which like even if Felix say wasn't there #Rodrigue has basically equal authority as Felix bc Rodrigue has the respect of experience and has proven himself #so they could be swapped out for talks and Felix being the ''official'' Duke wouldn't affect talks in the least #if Rodrigue was/had to be present instead. with Sylvain you've either got no other options #or you've got Miklan who I can't imagine would want to even get involved with all of that #both bc of his mixed feelings on Matthias but also bc he's been out of the political atmosphere for so long #so yeah I uh... can't... see talks ever going well unless Claude legitimately makes amends somehow #or Houses Claude gets in there smacks him around and fixes some shit before heading back to his own verse lol

[silenthillbunni]

ig i just personally dont rlly vibe w ppl who think that merely saying 'i wish they died' just to lighten the heavy weight of their overwhelming emotions (that they cant control may i add) is the same thing as actively actually murdering someone 💀

#did u know that venting can actually make someone feel a bit better and less inclined to act on thoughts..... #when u create environment in society where u force everyone to supress and hide all their ugly thoughts and emotions #those feelings will grow stronger and stronger and poison you #and that's why ppl eventually explode when it cant be contained anymore #ppl expressing things - that they prob dont even mean or want to be true or a reality #is nowhere near the same thing as ppl acting on it or causing others harm #but then also i am of the opinion that *everyone* deserves help and treatment. ppl shouldnt be discarded and labeled as broken or crazy #sm ppl have overwhelming emotions they cant control bc all of our brains are different. there should be *quality* help available for everyo #instead we live in a society that shames ppl. that push ppl into boxes and say #if u dont fit into this tiny neat little square u are ugly broken disgusting and reprihensible!!! #then they just banish u to the shadows where they dont have to see u or look at u #anyway this is a whole society thing that is connected to this issue in my braib #brain* #what i was gonna say was that i personally think venting and expressing your thoughts - no matter how ugly they are #is necessary for humans. esp when it's in a space where the potential target of the thoughts wont see #esp when there are no plans of taking yhe thoughts into action #asl long as u can separate complaining and venting ur frustrations and causing someone (undeserved) harm irl #thats just who i am and this is my blog and i dont appreciate ppl telling me #that i have to shove it all back inside and im not allowed to express anything #if you're a wasp who thinks everything should be bottled up. that everything should be expressed delicately #then u do you. but you do not tell me that i have to conform to your ways. i find your ways harmful and regressive #so maybe we should just go our separate ways huh? everyone arent meant to get along #theres no use in arguing or fighting or reprimanding ppl everytime u see smth u dont agree with #esp when all u see is a *thought* that causes no material harm to another person. then u should just be on ur merry way

[thiefscant]

sometimes i think abt that person who got mad at me for reblogging from them one (1) time and then implied i didn't read their rules...thus revealing that they had not read my rules which explicitly mention how my adhd makes it very hard for me to remember who all doesn't like to be reblogged from on the reblogging website...

#can i just say: i hate hard n fast ''never reblog from me'' rules tbh #it wreaks havoc w/ my anxiety bc of the adhd forgetting problem #and uhhh reblogging EVERYTHING from the source ALWAYS #is not a reasonable thing to ask on The Reblogging Website imo #esp as tumblr makes that more and more difficult w/ updates #(this doesn't apply to like...reblogging memes n shit from the source if u don't send one in; i think that's just polite) #it's just kind of a case of conflicting boundaries ig... #!a suspicious lack of dragons. ( ooc ) #tbd. #blacklist for less soft nonsense. #negativity (ish) ?