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qumiiiquinnquin · 6 months

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ill never be good enough at anything

#vent #events of today only proved it #im genuinely so close to giving up completely #i dont feel happy when I draw because I know its not good enough and im ashamed when others see it because I know they think the same thing #I dont feel satisfied or accomplished when finishing schoolwork because I know others will have done it better and responded better and im #the stupidest person of the entire class. some things I just dont understand but I know everyone else or lots of others did #i cant do anything right. i cant socialize correctly. i cant remember to do anything. i cant keep any stable relationships #i know if i get a job they'll ly me off or fire me within days max weeks. i dont expect to be able to hold down a job for long #i dont have the skills necessary to become what I want to be which is a meteorologist. i struggle in math and that career is a lot of math #i actually want to be an artist too but ill die a lonely death. i cant even do this class. and artists are not paid enough to survive #hell what I do right now with art in my spare time is much worse than others. a mouse and microsoft paint. both arent good enough #i cant not compare myself to others. i know that they're all better than me. and im around these people every day and see it on social medi #i really want to put my art in our shredder and permanently delete files. i want to drop out. i dont know what to do with myself because i #know that im not good enough for anything except lay in bed like the depressed piece of shit i am and end up getting kicked out #i thought about just leaving class today and throwing myself down the stairwell from the top floor i was already on #just over the barrier thats right next to the first flight of stairs that prevents people from falling off the stairs from a height #the one you can look down and see the following flight of stairs. just throw myself down from that and hurt myself significantly.#ive been thinking about jumping again. from a new part of campus thats higher than where i initially wanted to fall from #if not those then sl!t my wrist or run into traffic #i just need to d!e. There's no room for someone as worthless as me #i cried when I came home today because im just done. i cant carry on and itd be better if i didnt. itd be preferred.

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lecliss · 4 months

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Wait while I'm here lemme say something that's been on my mind for like 2 weeks at least. So, Yahiko was alive when Obito first came to Ame and talked to Nagato. The canonical ages of Obito and Nagato in shippuden are 31 and 35 respectively. So the ame orphans are all 4 years older than Obito. Considering Yahiko died at 15, the oldest Obito could be when meeting Nagato is..... 11. When did Obito have his death scare and meet Madara before leaving for Ame??? When he was 13. Sooooo... unless I somehow got something wrong, and please correct me if I did, Kishimoto is once again a hack fraud.

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halinski · 9 months

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#its been yeeears since i got my dissociation diagnosis in the clinic but i still have trouble believing it #and im always like am i really dissociating #bc im never like fully gone #but like lately ive been shutting my fingers in a lot of drawers and doors #and bumping into corners and hitting my head bc im not aware of where my body ends #and i cant remember words or colleagues names that ive worked with for years #i cant do math #i cant feel #(i keep being cold tho i think thats also extra bc of my digestive issues with the iron deficiency)#and like today i tested with my spiky ball #and... i had an indentation from thw spikes for like 5 mins and now have red spots for the past almost 20 minutes #and i never felt a thing #my skin reacted to the ball pressing into thw skin but i can barely feel the spikes at all #even tho i logically know i should feel them sharp and slightly painful #but i cant #and thats not good #and i cant get myself to focus out of the disso at all #i almost thoight i was gettingg it but thwn i started getting nauseous af and my abdomen was hurting so that might be a reaosn #but idk #eithwr wya #yeah #im pretty disso #not enough to be dizzy and like unstable when i walk and all #but ugh #i hate it #ignore me #dissociation #mental illness #borderline

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corvidcall · 2 years

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uh oh i did it again! (longingly looked at course requirements for interesting degrees from the university near me even though i cant imagine ill ever be able to afford to go back to school for a bachelors degree)

#anime life #even if i did go back to school #i would probably try to get a degree in something that would get me a job #(probably accounting or actuarial science)#(im pretty good at math and i love spreadsheets)#but like. what i love is history and literature #and religious studies. and foreign languages #but i cant imagine i would be able to find any work in any of those fields #and i dont think id be good at teaching #and im not good at articulating myself or coming up with ideas for. Anything.#so i dont think id be cut out for academia or TESL #whenever i get really depressed about it im like. fuck it im becoming a nun #(im not. i dont think theyd appreciate the fact that ive got Genders and im mostly an atheist)#(who just really likes the aesthetics and trappings of Catholicism as well as its tie to my irish heritage)#what a world we live in. i cant afford to quit my job that doesnt pay me that well #and i cant afford to go back to school to get the thing that would maybe get me a better paying job #and even if i could i cant even be sure that i wont just end up at this exact same job i have right now #fuck. remember when i had dreams. remember when i had ambitions #remember pre pandemic when i had a career i was proud of #what a fucking joke #anyway #sorry about this post! its bad.#and kind of pathetic #ill complain about other weirder things in a minute im sure #OH for people who dont know the corv lore: i have an associates degree in sign language interpreting #but i cant do it anymore bc of the way things spiraled at the beginning of the pandemic #and also i fucking hated being self employed

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fiendishartist2 · 1 year

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oh hee hee ! a new horror series about the early internet! i hope its good :3 <-- about to be fooled twice

#man.#its just so disappointing but like im not surprised #its about a cool math games clone or smth? but the voice acting and the visuals just.... are not accurate to that kind of website #not that the visuals are bad they are actually pretty cute but the voice acting really spoils the whole experience #they're trying to go for that style of va where its like really segmented and cartoonish? but its not high pitched enough #and all of the cuts between words are just pauses by the actor lol and the manner of speaking is just entirely inaccurate #maybe its intentional but you wouldn't hear a narrator on a kids math game go ''um so yeah'' without it being a specific quirk #honestly i think the voice acting should be minimal in this kind of thing. like i dont remember even playing any games that had that #sorry for being a hater. if you like these series than like good for you but i just cant stomach them #when will we get another really good horror webseries??

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saltinesinsoup · 1 year

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god. man.

#jayventing #absolutely fucked driving earlier good lord. got stuck behind a truck and i couldnt merge into the lane next to me and there were cars behin #behind me and i was crying and i felt like my mom would not stop yelling at me even if she wasnt and then i cried even more when i got onto #another street with tight lanes and because my mom hasa fucking suv for no goddamn reason it was so fucking big and my mom kept yelling at #me and i asked if there was somewhere nearby where we could pull over because i was fucking crying and didnt want to drive and she was like #no youre gonna get us home. and then i got home and sobbed. and im still teary about it. and now i really dont want to go driving anymore #like. if there was a license that was just. drive myself around to a few various places that dont involve the highway and there were no cars #and all the lanes were a good size and i had a small car i think i could do it.#but oh my god. that was fucking horrible #i think i need to just get a driving instructor instead because driving with my parents is the worst fucking thing ever #im remembering now why i was so hesitant to start driving in the first place (fear of. fucking crashing)#so uh. god #and i also have math i dont understand so im gonna get some help for it tomorrow because i cannot fucking handle the godamn polar grid today #and also like. i clearly Was Not as ready as i thought i was and instead of letting me switch so i wasnt fucking crying while driving my mom #made me keep going. i cant do this man

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envy-of-the-apple · 1 month

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That what if when ms. moon already has a family but has to leave because of him is so HEARTBREAKING. Imagine moving on from a tramatic situation, meeting the love of your life, having a wonderful kid for all that to just get squashed in a instant. That literally had me about to tear up but imagine her kid was a bit older lets say like 10 (i know the math doesnt add up well with the timeline but its a what if)and then she just has to leave, that alone would greatly negatively impact the kid, just leaving a lasting mark. Maybe the kid would remember gojo’s face and resent him for the rest of their life.

The husband thing is equally as sad because I imagine ms.moon as shes about to leave crying and whispering how much she loves him and that shes so sorry. (Bonus heartbreak points they all breakdown as shes about to leave and she cant even hug or kiss them goodbye because shes being watched). After this incident ms.moon’s pervious family completes spiral down the drain and moon’s mental state goes down the drain with it

In conclusion amazing story but that shit was sad as fuck but I still eat it up with silverware and all

(merging multiple SEM asks cuz i feel so guilty for clogging up ppls dashes lmao)

ughhhh anytime kids are involved it just gets way more depressing, right? It think age 8-10 is like the worst time for this to this to happen because the kid can understand little, but not enough to get the whole picture.

The kid knows that their mom is leaving, but they aren't seeing the wavering tears in Ms.moon's eyes, the shaky hands, as you hug them for the last time. All that they can see is the fancy new car your new lover sits in. The grand ring that sits on your finger. Yeah, your kid will hate gojo for ripping apart your family.

But they'll hate you more, considering you're running off with a man who has more money than their father.

I think the only upside is that gojo might not bat an eye if you send money back to your family, keeping them comfortable. With enough pleading, he might pull a few string to get your kid into a good school. With your indirect help, your kid will have the best education and prosperity. Them resenting you is a pretty small price to pay, right?

in the fic, the case took about three weeks, so it took three weeks for gojo to just snap.

He would definetly try to toy with ms.moon for as long as he can. Despite claiming that he forgave ms.moon, he does carry a tiny bit of resentment. It's kind of a punishment, in that sense.

And honestly the moment he figures out you who are, I doubt you'd have a chance to run anymore. The reason why Ms.moon was able to 'get away' the first time was because gojo was still a teenager, hier of the gojo conglomerate, but still not powerful yet. Now, he has tons of resources available for him. You're not getting away lmao, I think that's why he's so much at ease this time around.

I never really considered the family's response. their reactions is something I'm not really interested in exploring. i don't think they got any characterization other than 'housewife mom' and 'dad who works'. I don't really think ms.moon would even mention gojo's torment to them. It'd be embarrassing, knowing that some kid the same age as you is just lording over your life, right? I did mention that Gojo confronts your family in EKM, but I don't like that addition now, so I'm retconning it. I feel like they'd find out just like everyone else did: From the media. Everyone in your little town knew who the Gojo was, but the fact that their kid is getting married to one of them has so be surprising.

But then again, not something im interested in exploring

If Gojo had managed to find Ms. Moon before, things would certainly have been much different. The gojo now has 'cooled down' and is far less volatile. If they had met again, if they were in their early twenties....things would not be much different from his high school counterpart.

#SEM #dark content #yandere jjk #dark jjk #dark gojo satoru #yandere gojo satoru

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paramnesia9 · 1 month

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23.3.24

got loadds of things done this week!!

downloaded new app called 'structured', rly helping me manage time

did debate, speech was too long so i lost some scoring on that but did fine

went shopping and got a whiteboard!!

did rlly well in chem test, (95), got better at math (78) and got 85 on a bio prac, so im happy

my ex got 96 on chem (at least thats what he says)

im struggling to move on from him, despite trying to talk to others it feels like i dont want anyone else but him

have started gaining momentum with all the stuff i aimed to do this month (bit late but oh well)

made a bet w someone to buy me lunch if i beat him on the next math test, so that should be fun

we're moving onto poetry in latin now, i cant even understand normal texts and now they want me to analyse poetry im sobbing

anwyays, thanks for reading . always remember that you're an amazing person on your own, and you shouldnt define yourself too quickly because you can change. have a good week <3

#education #studies #studyblr #study motivation #chemistry #study #studyblr blog #legal #math #study inspo #aesthetic #sobbing why cant i be talented #motivation #latin #whiteboard #wholesome #thanks for being here #i kinda wanna make my room smell good but candles are a hassle any tips

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comicaurora · 11 months

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hii hello 👋 just wanted to start by saying that the comic is still so cool interesting and I love how things are progressing so far, at first I wasn't sure if i was going to enjoy the current arc as much but its honestly really enganging with the bits of Falst backstory being revealed, seeing Dainix in action and put in situations, and also more interactions of the party members without Kendal really being present there (i love him sm but its interesting to see how the group dynamic is starting to really shape up, even though falst and dainix have only known each other for like a day(?), putting them in a perilous situation is a really good choice we can see open guy and closed off guy interacting and its so !! its cool) also the lighting for the cave with the fire and the ancient tech is great!

(this is already such a long ask im so sorry)

but ... speaking of ancient tech, i wanted to know how much of it has survived? we know that Erin's bag of holding is also Ancient made (iirc), and so is the storm pedestal, but is there still some other known Ancient tech used in the world? are there also significant populations/communities of people with Ancient ancestry that have gathered and do they have most of the access to that tech? If they do exist, are they more of a closed-off community or are they kind of subsumed into the local population (of ppl with no Ancient ancestry and stuff) ?

tl;dr really digging the current arc i love zombie dungeon funtime adventure. more info abt ancient tech / ppl descended from ancients pls?

anyway thank you very much and have a good day ^_^ love your work Red and it's honestly amazing how far the comic has progressed and the community's grown over the past 3-4 years ! (damn i cant believe 2019 was 4 years ago)

glad you're having fun! dropping dorks down a hole for Character Development is always a fun idea

Most Ancient stuff is in ruins, but the automatons are quite sturdy, especially the stuff created in the final days of the civil war. Ancient war machines will sometimes reactivate and un-bury themselves, wreaking havoc based on long-belayed and half-remembered orders. Dainix's desert home deals with these on occasion, which is why he's familiar with the basics of how they work.

Most Ancient tech works in ways that nobody has quite figured out how to replicate, but it can sometimes be repurposed if it's well-preserved enough - although the fact that most Ancient tech reacts with alarms at the presence of humans and elves makes it pretty hard for most people to make them do anything particularly useful. Things like Erin's bag are rare but not unbelievably so - there seem to have been a lot of them, and they're hard to break.

Ancient ancestry has been almost entirely subsumed into the overall population, and it almost never presents in any visible way - just about its only telltale signs are unusual height, and the combo of earthtone-skin and light-earthtone-hair with pale jeweltone-eyes, which is not naturally found in uninfluenced humans or elves and is rarely found even in elementally adapted populations of either (elves can have jeweltone eyes but always have skytone skin, typically patterned; influenced humans like crystal-caste will have jeweltone eyes and hair; etc)

Ancient tech responding positively to anyone is quite rare, and typically occurs in people who seem to have a significant number of Ancient ancestors on both sides of their family and consequently visibly resemble the phenotype to an unusual degree. It's very difficult to measure this sort of thing, but the general rule of thumb seems to be that a person needs to be at least 10% of Ancient descent before the tech doesn't panic on sight, and at least 20% in order for it to actually respond to them in any meaningful way. So the equivalent of one Ancient great-grandparent would work as a bare minimum, which doesn't sound too bad - unless you start doing the math of how many generations have actually passed since there were a surplus of Ancients around.

After the Ancient civil war ended and the "cave-folk" left the Singing Caves, there were barely a thousand Ancients left alive and scattered across the northern continents, in contrast to hundreds of thousands of humans and elves. And since this was over 4000 years ago, with generations happening at a rough average of three per century, there have been over 120 generations since the Emergence. One way to look at this is that every person of the Elder Races currently alive is a descendant of some set of those people alive at the Emergence, 120 generations back - they had kids 119 generations back, those kids had kids 118 generations back, etc etc, eventually leading to a person alive today whose great-great-great-(115-more-greats) grandparents were all around at the Emergence. However, this numbers game gets complicated when we do the basic math of asking "how many (118-greats)-grandparents would anyone have)" and find the answer is 2^120, or a little over 1 undecillion, which is a one with 36 zeroes after it, which is a billion billion billion billions. This many people have never been alive anywhere, because the uncomfortable truth is that after a certain number of generations back everyone's family trees stop forking and start looping, though if it happens far enough back it's not a genetic liability like it is in certain colonizing nations' royal families. So this math is already falling apart, but it is giving us some idea of how catastrophically unlikely it is for someone's Emergence-era ancestry to beat the odds and have enough Ancient make it to the modern day to be detectable.

To dramatically simplify the math and pretend generations are cleanly delineated at 3/century (and that genetics actually works like clean 50%s every time, or even that genetics as we understand it applies to this fictional fantasy world), at the time of the Emergence, the world population was around 0.1% Ancient, and in order for a modern person to make the tech work for them, their first-generation ancestry - the sum of all those Emergence people whose descendants eventually produced this kid, weighted to account for the people who are technically the 118-great-grandparents multiple times over thanks to family tree loops - needed to be at least 10-20% Ancient. It's not impossible, and there were parts of the world where the Ancient population at the Emergence was easily that high, but they're likely to be vastly outnumbered in the rest of the pile of 118-greats-grandparents as the family tree approximately doubles in size every generation.

So it happens, but it's rare and getting rarer. Most people in this field are instead trying to crack how to reprogram or build automaton control units from scratch, rather than dealing with them freaking out all the time.

#asks #aurora

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aesrot · 3 months

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your thoughts on minecraft lore are so fucking sexy. tell me more

TEEHEE YES <3

i dont have muuuuch more atm bc i. im dumb and i never write them down. but rn i have a hc that pillager patrols do some sort of recruiting, bc you never see children among illagers, so where would they get new people? they probably 'recruit' (aka, kidnap) villagers who are outstanding or 'gifted' (like, who probably have some ounce of magic, so they'd go through some training and would become evokers). this could also happen to the babies villagers who weren't killed during a raid.

less likely and i'd have to do some more thinking and researching to develop this other hc but maybe we dont see their kids bc they live somewhere else while growing up. underground? in some of the hidden rooms in the mansions? a completely different place? who knows! maybe they have a some sort of quarters or district where they all go through some thorough training before they're old and/or good enough to join the patrols and raids. also, i believe in the pillager<vindicator<evoker hierarchy. pillagers can work their way up to vindicators, but evokers are their own thing, if you dont have magic abilities you cant become an evoker, which makes them rare and powerful and all that. idk where the illusioners fall into this tho, as unused mobs i know very little of them, but i'd say somewhere above vindicator and below evoker, could probably work its way up to an evoker through training.

in my perspective, patrols, as well as all illagers groups, are like an attempt at some sort of oppressive government (or maybe religious group?). the patrols are, well, as the name suggests, a patrol, they're keeping watch and looking for any 'trouble', attacking villagers and golems probably to scare them. Raids are more destructive, i'd say they're caused by a threat to the illagers (like the player, despite said player's reputation w the raided village, although i like to believe that, in this worldbuilding, thats not the only reason they raid a village) and not only attack the player, but also the village, killing every adult villager, taking their sources and children, leaving a clear message of what's waiting for the others if they dont behave.

as for the villagers, they're pretty much defenceless in these situations, unable to harm literally anything. you could even hc that they're vegetarians, since all they eat are vegetables and bread, despite butchers selling meat and stew. why are they so pacific? they dont each other, other villages, mobs, nothing, and any villager who's relocated to another village will get along w them just fine, despite biome difference. you could try a religious approach to this. their only defence is the iron golems, who show up naturally or summoned by the villagers, another thing that could be explored through a religious approach (which, imo, is probably different than the illagers religion, if we go that way). the only way for a villager to turn hostile is, again, turned into a witch or a zombie, which immediately outcasts them.

you could also think 'huh, so to be accepted by the villagers you have to be passive, the moment you turn hostile, you're not welcome anymore', and yeah, pretty much if you ignore the golems ability to kill mobs (they're more like neutral mobs i think). makes sense when it comes to the player as well, w the whole gossip and reputation thing when the player saves or trades or kills/harms a villager, but theres math to that so i wont touch it lol. overall the villagers are major pacifists, shame the illagers are totally taking advantage of them.

this is all losely based on my own knowledge w minecraft, there might be some stuff that goes against game rules but who cares, im having fun. i probably have more thoughts but i forgor, will bring them to you once i remember/have more <3

#lua answers #aurora my beloved #CATEGORY 5 AUTISM EVENT #long post. sorry #minecraft worldbuilding #<-new tag to save this

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masonsystem · 4 months

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the next game i plan to play is TWEWY. unlike the other games ive been playing recently i will not be going into this game blind bc that is impossible for me, cuz ive lived with the worlds biggest twewy fan who is my brother. literally have memories from 2009/2010 of hearing the twewy ost from his ds first thing in the morning. he has also told me the entire lore of this game multiple times. i also tried to play it before in like 2016 or 2017 cuz my brother rly wanted me to and he was like 'its shorttt you can do it'. He Was Lying. and i also watched like 80% of his neotwewy playthru.

so im going to try again now as a More Experienced Gamer. hoping to finish before the end of january cuz thats when i see him again and i wanna hv scholarly discussions abt it with him. and maybe ill play neotwewy if i feel like it (i doubt this). for fun i want to list down everything i know abt the game from my brother so after i finish it i can revisit this post and laugh at it

- "What's a meme?"

- i dont actually know what a meme is. i remember this gameplay mechanic confusing me

- everybody is DEAD and this is PURGATORY or something like that. i still dont really understand what the reaper's game is despite knowing abt twewy for like 16 years

- this game is not a week long my brother LIED. i thought the game would end after one week which is why i tried it back then LOL i know that theres three weeks.. i think..

- shiki doesnt actually look like that thts actually the appearance of her toxic yuri friend or something. i remember this Very vividly bc its like the biggest plot reveal from week one and i remember being like WOAHHHH and jaw-dropped and it was so awesome. its still so awesome! im excited to experience that again

- beat and rhythm are hit by a car but the cars look like sharks bc uh.. hm...

- i actually dont know why the enemies look like that. i know theyre like..... Negative Spirit Energy or SMTH LIKE THAT but why they take the form of animals... idk

- Calling..... Someone is Callinggg 🎶

- the music is really good

- EVERYONE IS SO SKINNY ITS ALMOST SCARY

- fashion fashion that mechanic is fun. you need bravery in order to crossdress which gives you epic stats. which i think is very fun!

- also fuck im realizing that this is a squarenix jrpg meaning im gonna have to be planning members stats and all that shit again. and while i do miss doing that, i hope twewy's 2008 (2007?) design isnt too asswater and is actually functional

- THE COMBAT IS HARD i remember having to draw shit with my left hand while my right hand had to tap buttons! like what!!! according to my brother the combat utilizes every part of the ds, even things like the microphone and closing the screen, and is why he likes this game so much. i hope i can like it as much as him

- im nekuuuu and im rude and unfriendly and i cant remember anything and im mean but I'll Become Kinder as the game progresses

- neku chokes shiki??? i think he was trying to kill her??? so he could leave the game or something.. and she was floating? i have levitation powers???

- i dont remember if i get epic powers.. i feel like thats something i shouldve remembered

- i dont know what the math dude does in this game. i dont remember what all the dudes with the wings are called or what their deal is but ohhh i remember them all pissing me off

- THE FUCKING PIN GAME pins??? badges?? bottlecaps??? i dont remember but i remember that minigame pissing me offff. fuck im gonna have to experience squarenix minigames again

- there is so much dialogue wohfuisdhfjk Squarenix JRPG.

- shiki DISAPPEARS at the end of the first week.. for some reason.. and neku plays a second week so he can bring her back. and that happens again for the third week where i think??? beat and rhythm disappears at the end of the second week? but this time neku isnt just betting on bringing his friends back HES BETTING ON THE FAITH AND GOODWILL OF THE ENTIRE WORLD somethinggg like that

- joshua is the new partner for week 2 and he is such a gay boy.

- Mother and father calls me Joshua ohohohoho

- only dead people can enter the reaper's game and if you win you get another chance at life or something?? idk why tho..

- beat and rhythm entered the game bc they were running away from home cuz they have shitty parentsss and then they got hit by a car

- and shiki attempted suicide i think

- and neku can't remember how he entered the game.. oh... so mysterious....

- it was because joshua shot him with a gun

- and joshua is God because this is a Squarenix JRPG

- joshua wanted neku to show him humanity's worth or SOMETHING cuz neku was a kid who had lost faith in humanity or something like that??

- and joshua disappears in the ending i think very ambiguousss

- The World Begins With You....

#twewying #<- new tag #planning to play it once i write down my tingle thoughts at some point

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isabelguerra · 1 year

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personally ive been thinking about the paranat characters as miraculous users since you assigned isabel as chat, and i think i have the activity club members (former and current) but only for the main 5 bc its been awhile and i don’t know what the new ones are or what they do

max would have the ladybug miraculous. i tried to think of any other of him bc i dont want it to be main character = main character, and while i think he would rock (and most likely want) the fox miraculous, he has been shown to be incredibly creative and adaptive in situations that just lends itself to the ladybug. creating his bus jumping plan in a few seconds (and it WORKING), figuring out how to take the ball and how it would bounce off him to end the game in hit ball, quickly trying to adapt what he had seen his spirit do briefly the night before… the boy is probably the one doing the most creative problem solving of all the kids. also then it creates the isabel+max partnering and contributes to ed’s insecurities about his and isabels relationship and isaacs one sided rivalry with her

ed feels like i should be saying the ladybug miraculous bc his tool is a paintbrush and he uses it to create weapons and objects, but really hes not one to lead or figure a battle strategy by himself and just going well he creates things :) feels like a weak argument. instead i see him with the fox miraculous, the powers allow him to still be creating things (albeit that only those in the spirit would would see) and we havent really seen him in fights too much but he seems like hed try to distract his enemy with whatever hes drawn if hes not outright attacking

dimitri seems like hed be an AMAZING leader. he is calculating, he was able to sense that the student councils plan wasnt going to work and quickly come up with his own plan AND get max and johnny + his crew to go along with it. but he is very methodical (and mathematical) in how he goes about it, seeming to view the battlefield as a 3d chessboard, which is why i dont think hed be a fit for the ladybug miraculous despite how creative he could get with his powers. instead i think hed be a good match for the turtle miraculous, defending and protecting others. math vs art, left brain vs right brain, concrete and tangible vs loose and abstract, it just feels more fitting

isaac is tougher. i would want to say the black cat miraculous bc i think thered be something to him having one of the strongest miraculous there is but being unable to control it and ending up destroying everything he touched, but thats not an option in this senario. instead i see him with the bee miraculous, bc the power can still be destructive if used incorrectly and i could see him lacking control and maybe his paralysis packing too much of a punch just like how his lightning does. i could see him complaining and thinking that hes being excluded bc of how his powers are more “evil” than everyone elses, and comparing himself to isabel bc her powers are also “evil” but everyone loves her, spinning himself out. maybe he badgers her bout how she doesnt understand how difficult it is to wield his miraculous and how she has it easy, maybe he does this enough that she gets frustrated and agrees to switch with him if it will get him to drop it only for her to easily master the bees powers and him to make a mistake and spin himself out even more. eventually they would try to come to a tense truce and he learns that there is no such thing as an “evil” miraculous

i wouldnt know what to give johnny so im not really going to try. i dont think the bee miraculous would be a good fit bc its precise while i cant see johnny being contained in any way. maybe the monkey? but i dont really remember what it does so i cant say whether it would really fit him or not

#paranatural #asks #anon #you put. SO MUCH thought into this. i cant write a proper response rn but do you want to get married

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homoerotic · 7 days

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im just feeling very demoralized. exceedingly so. i want to be a radiographer so badly. i wish i had known sooner but i want this so so so bad. and i cant help but think the reason i didnt get in this time is due to two things:

1. i had one (1) C on my transcript. in ECON. a class that has no bearing on my major but dampened my gpa exponentially

2. i had a panic attack during the venipuncture lab in one of my rad classes because i didnt adequately prepare myself for it. and i distinctly remembering my professor telling me "if you cant do this you arent cut out for this major" so i bet she brought that up during deliberation.

its not fair man. i dont live at home w my parents, i dont have a free schedule to study constantly. i have so many bills, so many doctors appointments and health issues to handle. i have to take care of my family.

i have such a bad needle phobia that i am actively working on. its bullshit! you dont NEED to do venipuncture as a radiographer! if i was specializing in CT/nucmed then YES 100% i understand that due to administering contrast. but every single nurse and radiographer ive spoken to has told me that learning that is a waste of time for me.

so how do i prove that im capable of handling the sight of needles now? drawing blood =/= seeing patients get their blood drawn/have IVs. they are not the same. i even wrote a whole essay about my phobia for that professor to help her see my side of it all. isnt it enough that im willing to expose myself to this daily because of how bad i want this?

i was fine, REALLY, i was fine not getting in this time. i really was because i was told left and right that getting in your first time is as likely as the lottery. so why does the girl that i see every single week for the past two semesters get in her first time? the same girl that ive constantly had to help through math and chemistry. who isnt confident in any of her homework answers. who needs me to hold her hand all the time through the complicated concepts.

and i know thats not fair of me to be angry at her. i know she works hard. she has good grades. shes in the honors program. but we both have medical experience. im 5+ years older than her. what did her personal statement have that mine didnt? why wasnt i good enough.

i know i am being over dramatic and acting very entitled but i cannot help but be angry and upset over this because i want this SO BADLY. i want this more than anything else and now i have to wait another year for it. a whole year of my life for the next slim chance of being picked. and what if im denied again? i'll be 27.

i want to start my career. i want to help my partner pay for our bills again. i want to stop struggling to survive. but now i have to wait and wait and wait. and i have to bend over backwards this next application period. get more certifications, dedicate more of my limited free time to volunteering. retake classes for a better gpa. spend more money. kill myself faster. struggle struggle struggle.

im so tired. im so fucking tired. im sick of being a student. im sick of college. im sick of feeling this age gap with my peers. im sick of being lonely. im sick of not being good enough. im sick of it all.

#shiba noises

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acidthecorvid · 3 months

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more danger force headcanons because i cant shut up about them

[its just me elaborating on df neurodivergent headcanons because im hilarious]

-bose had to take meds daily for a couple of weeks for his anxiety but hes extremely forgetful and his parents couldnt be bothered to remind him so for a short period mika would send reminders [bose literally started remembering because he was looking forward to her good morning text]

-miles' parents yell at him a lot for procrastinating on his schoolwork and he really wants to blame it on executive dysfunction but hes too nervous to actually talk to his parents about the potential of him having adhd [miles and chapa do that thing where they'll trade assignments to get it done easier and it works pretty well considering miles is a math/science brain and chapa is an english/history brain]

-pre-danger force days mika used to unintentionally mask her autism except after spending more time with the team she recognized she was doing it and also realized she kinda hated it so more recently has stopped [theres a good chance she masks at school but she probably lets it slip around the rest of the group]

-chapa definitely has anti-social personality disorder cough cough shes a sociopath cough and probably misses a mission here and there from being in therapy [even after the identity reveal her mom absolutely refuses to let her skip a session because its genuinely been helping]

-as a group they all have various triggers and cues that mika has written down in her notes app, shes pretty good about recognizing if someone is struggling and removing them from the situation if need be

-to the same idea mika and chapa recognize each other's stims- like they could be sitting in complete silence and chapa will know mika is content because shes steadily rocking back and forth- to the opposite effect chapa is more of a vocal stimmer so mika knows to be a little worried if she goes completely silent

-miles and bose share airpods 25/8 because it helps them focus- for bose it gives him something else to focus on if he gets anxious and for miles it helps keep his head clear]

-bose knows a couple of skills that he uses when he gets overwhelmed and he's slowly started to teach them to chapa to help her out whenever she gets uncontrollably angry [bose: stress ball or box breathing?] [chapa, shaking: ..s..stress ball,]

#i enjoy the way that its canon that mika stims #makes me feel seen #danger force #dangerverse #bose o'brien #chapa de silva #mika macklin #miles macklin

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minecraftpissblock · 2 months

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THANK YOU FOR TAGGING ME BABE @hopelesscalico :) going to do one of these for once because, for fun

Are you named after anyone? i dont think so! my parents own a couple zora neale hurston books but i think they just liked the name unrelatedly

When was the last time you cried? damn ummmmmm like last week probably i cant even remember

Do you have kids? nope! not really yearning to have any in the near future but possibly someday... crossing that bridge when we get there

What sports do you play/have you played? i did swim team for a second in late elementary/middle school and it was the most stressful shit of my life but now i can swim pretty good and i kind of miss it sometimes

Do you use sarcasm? yeas when im mad but i try very hard not to direct it at whoever im talking to

What is the first thing you notice about people? hmmm probably like their Talking style if that makes sense? i feel like a lot of my initial opinions on people rely on how they speak to me

What’s your eye colour? brown!!!!!!!

Scary movies or happy endings? happy endings but i will certainly not turn down a scary movie

Any talents? drawing and playing guitar and singing and sewing are the main things i do on a regular basis and consider myself proficient in, anything else is just kind of dabbling

Where were you born? WEST VIRGINIA MOUNTAIN MAMA💪💪💪💪💪

What are your hobbies? i kind of answered this in the talents section i guess but i like drawing and playing music and sewing stuffed animals/fursuit parts and also video grames! i would probably list hiking here too if i still lived in wv but i hope to get back to doing outdoorsy stuff regularly someday

Do you have any pets? a stinky little cat named blossompaw (named her when i was 10 and in full swing warrior cats phase) and a beautiful angelic ball python named nyx!!!!!!

How tall are you? UMMMM i think like five feet and five inches

Favourite subject in school? life sciences and math and also hands-on art stuff

Dream job? WILDLIFE BIOLOGIST i want them to send me out to look at animals and then i do math about the animals

i have like 2 mutuals that havent already been tagged but hey guys @galushanationalrailways @ska-elysium @oceanfossil and any other mutuals who see this!!!!!!!!!! go wild

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