#even though it rly wasnt

[oseike]

In celebration of the Dark Castle arc in the webtoon I'd like to comment dreamily that the fate Kim Dokja suffers is not just in the Dark Castle, it is his fate as a whole. He dies due to the story (and the person) he loves the most both literally, with his sword in his chest, and sacrificially, as he slowly fragments himself as the Oldest Dream and loses himself to both doom and save that one he loves. Oh and also at the end of that road, Yoo Joonghyuk cut apart those last fragments, staining his sword with a black smudge, so it's also a literal death again at the last, though one could argue it would have happened even without that.

As Mass Producer says, true fate is not so shallow a thing that a temporary death like what he suffers in the Dark Castle could be enough to resolve it

#orv #orv spoilers #sighs at the narrarive foreshadowing #i had forgotten about it by the time he became OD but rereading slapped me in the face with it like a cold fish #and both times yjh didn't want it!!! though admittedly the first time he was capable of doing it because he trusted kdj wouldnt be rly gone #the second time he actually didnt do anything #but even if it wasnt his action or choice it was still due to his existence that kdj chooses to doom himself #eyo cycle of pain repeats clap your hands!!

[lemongogo]

vash w this hairstyle is literally so cute.. .. wolfwood matchies or smt T__T

#litearlly dont talk 2 me i saw the knives panel again and smashed everuthing inmy room and set myself on fire #am i wrong 4 thinking that he shouldve had a little more time.am i wrong for thinking this guy.having lived in terrible fear #his whole life 4 what he thought could happen 2 him. to his brother. DID happen 2 his sister #should be able 2 experience some happiness and comfort for once #like yeah the guy killed hundreds of thousands SUREE ok.AND??? let the guy breathe a little #BAHAHA no i think i do still agree w the ultimate ending of him using the last of his energy 2 generate that apple tree #its sweet and i do like the sentiment it was just. Too.soon after it was literally right after #and im like coughing and hacking and wishing.that he and vash couldve spent those few months living (somewhat) peacefully #and secluded.before everything that happened #i guess there is a bittersweet tinge to knives dying before vash woke up / could say gbye but idk.i just grieve 4 this guy #even if a clean redemption isnt like #feasible in a sense U KNOW!!!!!!! but then again i dont think. satisfying endings have to be clean cut and perfect #like he doesnt have to be redeemed i think. not everyone needs Redemption as it exists in its current form #&& i do think that even after all he did.comma.he wasnt entirely wrong?like you cant rly blame him 4 rejecting coexistence #based on the way plants have historically been treated (assuming he also telepathized with exploited plants after the great fall) #though not to say that his decisions/methodology is right ykwim #and i know yeaa yeaa there was a lot of hypocrisy in how he used the other plants 2 amass power #ok this is literally getting too convoluted there r so many conditional aspects to this but long story short i do thnk he deserved. #a little something at the end;______; even if just 4 me to see art of them together post-final arc . #< me dragging my knuckles in the sand w open wounds or smth #sry vash post turned into knives sadblogging EHAHEHA but its like the nature of this^ guys life anyways LMAO #trigun spoilers #trigun maximum #trigun #vash

[violentdevotion]

wait do you have a fav boys character yet ?

i really like butcher but i feel like that's a basic answer and also the wrong answer. in another world id like frenchie but i can't get over how much i hate the actor. I love maeve theres never a moment she's on screen where im thinking get this woman outta here she's always entertaining to me. i like starlight but (and this is probably a bit nasty to say) there's smth a little uncanny valley about her sometimes where when she's talking im not listening but staring at her face trying to see what features throwing me off. I hate ashley but the actress played an insufferable character in jessica jones too and I really appreciate her ability to play The Most annoying woman you know.

centrist answer i like them all (except stormfront. hated her before i even knew she was a nazi. she was on insta live and i was waiting for her to explode and die) but my fave would have to be butcher bc i find im rooting for him the most and constantly justifying his actions. but sometimes karl urbans accent pisses me off. also black noir but he doesn't Do anything so it's hard to have him as a fave bc he's barely there.

#ameeras.got.mail #kieran tag #ik men like soldier boy so ill wait to see him do some evil disgusting horrendous thing that would make most ppl go ew he sucks but make #cis men ages 18-35 go wow hes soo cool #i like kimiko too but i dont think im allowed to say shes my fave when sometimes when shes like i dont want to be a weapon anymore :( im #mad at her and thinking get over it. i like mm but hes kinda this mother hen character and i dont rly tend to favour characters who are the #rational voice of reason like can we please get some conflict here #hughies whatever. i rly like his dad though lets go simon pegg #in the 7: homelander sucks. i find a train fun but his athlete storyline wasnt compelling to me personally bc the more i thought about it #the more i thought his superpower sucks. despite it all i find the deep kinda fun. i like that hes a scientologist. #didnt like transparent. was meh about lamplighter. didnt like whats his name sonicboom?? had a personal vendetta against that hijabi supe #we saw for like 2 seconds girl what are you doing there !!!!!! why are you playing into the diversity market !!!! #like edgar but in the way everyone likes giancarlo esposito's characters #nadia is whatever she was always meh to me even as a background character but i rly love the idea of having the superpower to explode #peoples heads with your mind i cant help but think of the xmen and think about if there was a mutant with the ability to explode heads with #their mind and that was their only ability and what a hard fucking sell that would be for xavier #(ive never read the xmen comics and have only seen some of the movies so i like to imagine charles xavier as lilo in the lilo and stitch #cartoon where every episode she would find an experiment with a unique function to destroy and would have to find it a home where it could #help instead. like yeah this experiment fattens people up and eats them lets put him in a resturant or smth #but with mutants #this mutant makes ice lets send him to a fridge company. this mutant explodes heads lets.... erm. #)

[lastparty]

marianne, he said. i'm not a religious person but i do sometimes think god made you for me.

#well the THING IS i see that the push and pull on again off again will they wont they situationing of this book is not for everyone #but i am taken in by it yes... i dont rly think will they wont they is right though because it wasnt about whether they will get together #it's that people can really change each other. connell saying he changed bc of how he treated marianne in school #and both are changed even if they dont fall back tgt! connection is what every rooney novel is about but normal people is the most focalise #and yeah im not a religious person but i do sometimes think god made you for me + its not like this with other people + #you should go she says i'll always be here you know that

[hellhoundlair]

went 2 see the color purple at the cinema. every time ive been to the cinema for the past 4 or so years ive left dissatisfied.

#i watched the original film yesterday for the first time and i enjoyed it even though there were things about it i didnt like #(mostly the comedic relief and some moments of rly poor acting) #but the new version is SO BAD by comparison it made me so sad. not bc the story was sad but because the story wasnt told at all #i hate modern film i hate disney i hate soulless movies directed by robots and made for money i hate stories that have been polished to #the point of being unrecognisable and sanitization and i miss the rawness i miss showing the audience how fucking terrible ot can get and #hate shying away from it. i was sitting in that seat going :| the whole damn time. I hate modern film. #i want to read the book now bc even the 1985 movie shies away from the topic a little but the new movie is egregious with it #the only other person i know whos seen it and criticised it only dod so bc of how it 'pushed a feminist agenda' shut the fuck uppppp

[tariah23]

https://x.com/megansstats/status/1751747785647337777?s=46&t=QiKHdDdvKoMxWGyakqTvxA

Of course I saw this!!! Megan’s got angels watching over her ❤️. The fact that all that came out simply because barbz photoshopped her nose to look bigger than what it actually is in order to say that she had work done is so weird, but very typical of them. But they’ve always been a pretty disgusting fanbase. I’ve even had issues with them before and I don’t argue with ANYONE online 😭… they’re like hit dogs who move in as soon as they smell blood. All this for a woman married to a registered offender 🚬.

https://x.com/quinveer/status/1751721132745470056?s=46&t=cKo2jnMIiVKeu8vnu79EyQ

#Megan has always seemed like a legit sweetheart… #we don’t know these celebrities and I don’t rly keep up with any not even her but when you’re kind to people #they will remember it #and the kind of person you were regardless of where you are in life even if the path you’ve reached wasnt where you intended to go #i remember seeing this old court video of some guy crying because of the judge recognizing him from their middle school days #he started to break down after she went on about how he was one of the nicest kids in class and was always a good person to be around #I know that he must’ve been ashamed to be standing in front of her like that #idk the outcome or the details behind that case or anything #but I think about it every once in a while #anyway #I saw the actual tread of Megan’s old classmate talking about her and it was really sweet to see other classmates of hers in the thread #saying that she was never mean to anyone and even though she was popular she talked to everyone and was always pleasant to be around #like what we see is her #again #people will remember if you were a good person no matter how much times passes #similarly to if you were known as a bully. people never forget these things especially those affected #tkf replies #the-morose-musings-of-mewaddlee

[dandyshucks]

trying to decide if i want to show the counselor/therapist my self insert art or not djdkslsl I think it is too obvious that it's Me to ever be able to say "hey look at this cute art i did of two random characters neither of which are me or in any way connected to me :o)" but AUGHGHGH she wants to see more art of mine and most of my art recently (ALL of my art so far this year i think) has been selfship stuff,,,

#i dont think she'd judge but its just... trauma stuff fjdkdl #i am not ''allowed'' to have feelings for anyone ever fjdkdl i am not allowed to feel these things #its amazing I've been able to share selfship stuff at all even relatively anonymously on here tbh sjdkdld #the one time i put up any sort of poster/photos of a couple musicians i rly enjoyed (and wasnt crushing on at all lol) i was put thru hell #just for having a person's face up on my bedroom wall as part of a collage with my art and stuff #so fjfjdkl i never did that again and any selfship stuff w fictional characters has been a guilty secret until last year fjfkdl #WHICH HONESTLY. IS RLY GOOD PROGRESS I GUESS IN SOME WAY? #once again selfshipping and the community has somehow helped me more than any mental health professional ever has LMAO #okay im sharing too much and rambling but dhdksl decisions decisions... i have some art saved to show her maybe #I'll just delete the selfship art out of that phone photo folder if i decide i dont want to share it djdkdl #i would like to though bc goddamn I've made some rly good stuff the past couple months djdkdl #and i never get to share my art w ppl irl so fjfkdl AUGH #dandy.cmd

[weirdlizard26]

so bizarre to me that my love language is apparently recording music for people. how did this even happen

#wl26 #<- little weirdo #SORRY I LIKE MUSIC AND THE ACT OF SHARING IT!!!!!!!!!! #i feel rly guilty abt it sometimes bc it feels so selfish. like hi i made art and im showing it to you so you can look at or listen to it #and you might not like it but i made it for you specifically because its related to something you enjoy #but its not actually the thing you enjoy. its just something that i made about it because i also enjoy it #and im scared the ways we enjoy it are completely different which means youre gonna hate the thing i made #but i will show it to you anyways because i love you and its the only way i know to say it #n a couple of time ive wanted to write a song for someone and gotten so excited about it and then had the horrible realization that #this is so. so oddly specific to me and this is just something i do out of love for friends #and it really isnt any bigger of a deal than any other handmade gift #and i think it can easily qualify as a handmade gift even though it doesnt involve making anything with hands #except for sounds i suppose #but yeah its just something i do. but. outside of my tiny little world. writing a song for someone might seem like such a huge gesture #and i dont want to make anyone uncomfortable or have the wrong idea about me or think that im doing a big thing to get something in return #and idk why im so scared of that like ive never been in a situation where people misunderstood me like that #but i guess. the very concept of being misunderstood is so painful to me gdfkgjd #this wasnt supposed to turn into a big post sorry. just want a normal brain that doesnt make me feel guilty abt everything please #wouldnt that be so nice #this isnt rly abt anything btw i was just going through my music folder. listening to my stuff from 2018 #5 years... god

[c6jpg]

okay it might be a bit early to say but it i do like that so far sumeru doesn't seem to be dragging it's feet with the plot. liyue and inazuma had us running around doing our silly little tasks for zhongli and thoma but sumeru so far is like fine here's your fucking lore.

#overworld gameplay mechanics are kinda awkward though itll take some getting used to #0.txt #genshin spoilers #not rly but just in case #ive only done the first area story so im prob gonna work more on just exploring tomorrow before moving on #tbh from the trailer i wasnt. that interested in the story. and even the implied main plot im whatever on #but i am enjoying this intro

[flowers-that-sing]

yeah i have wet dreams all the time… i jumped off a cliff into an ocean in last nights dream. it was VERY wet

#bobbi babbling #actually i did kiss a girl in my dream last night though #that was interesting #it was before i jumped off the cliff #jumping was rly embarrassing though bc i was all dramatic and like #’this is the last time ill see your face… ill give a parting kiss’ #AND YHEN IT WASNT FROM HIGH ENOUGH AND I DIDNT EVEN DIE #last nights dream was actually crazyy though bro #that girls dad was like. the rich guy overseer of this mansion #and i worked and lived in the mansion #and there was school there too #anyway that guy was TERRIBLE #but the thing is it was still better than anyplace id been before #and i had nowhere to go #but when i got in HUGE trouble #after interrupting a meeting and throwing off his plan to spy on me #i was like shiiiit #i really dont feel like getting tortured or having sex with this guy #so i tried to jump off the cliff and die #the girl was like ‘you should run away’ #but i couldnt bc i had nothing and because i loved her #and she was the only person who had ever been kind to me #and i wanted to protect her and take care of her #i protected her from her shitty dad and stuff #she was very sad. #and very sweet #i couldnt leave her #and i didnt wanna end up where i was before the mansion #and i didnt even know how to drive #which. right i need to go do my drivers ed

[chiisana-lion]

"wow you really always do work fast no wonder you're [department head]'s favorite" girl im not even supposed to be doing concept and layout work at all

#that was the latest ive ever stayed at the studio i only left at like. 8 pm god #im just a measly 2d anim student kidnapped into helping out among the actual concept artists augh #yes maybe my work speed is a virtue but man thats not helping my workload the moment i finish one another gets lumped onto me im orz #maybe i rly am the head's favorite he shouldve let me go back to animation work by now my supervisor was begging for my return soon #duck rants about something #jesus. my shoulders hurt so much #the actual concept kids were all super nice though even if i wasnt actually one of them it was :] #one of them suggested i just transfer divisions and oh man have i considered that many times before. but alas ill be on cleanup duty once #full production starts in july thjs is agony

[petorahs]

not gonna lie my characterization and rationalization of akira's character has been easier to do once i found out he shares the same personality type as me.

like sure it's subjective or whatever but as one myself, ENFP akira makes a lot of his actions make so much more sense. same with ENTP goro. god it makes everything so much easier with arguably complex characters like them.

#aishi.txt #NOW IMMA BE REAL W U i cant pretend to know everything about personality types and learning about it makes my head SPIN #so if im wrong about their types (or god forbid my own type) dont beat me up!!! im just a little guy you wouldnt do that to a silly lil guyy #i know how. passionate people get about these. letters #but i just think knowing even surface-level about it helped Me in particular ^_^ #like it rly did. im a stickler for these things and i care if im portraying characters right somewhat in my art n analysis n shi #so putting them in these lil boxes and labeling them helps! #OUGHHH IM BEIN sooo.. smart n organized rn. lets freaking go #like i think its less 'oh akira just like me fr' but more like shit yeah that makes sense people do that #like if someone thinks its weird akira would devote himself to a man who betrayed and tried to kill him twice 🤨🤨🤨 #....lets just say they havent met me! #(me forgiving any guy who's wronged me before as long as they say the word or show a modicum of remorse) seems legit! #that being said i think akira just like me fr in the way that if i embraced my quietude or whatever #i think #i am an ENFP though even if i dont know anything beyond surface level ive done multiple tests on various sotes and spaced them out #by months #and kept getting ENFP #So objectively i am one 😎 (dont make me go into identity crisis mode pls! ) #i think it speaks volumes though like i understand all too well #hc but i think akira wasnt always quiet but he had to be quiet when he transferred which is obv and also being quiet came naturally? #but its obvious he doesnt always want to be #ie him laughing maniacally in metaverse. frequent flaunting and 'it's showtime!' stuff #for me in the past the 'quiet kid. unassuming' label followed me throughout school and i haaaated that but there was also no disputing it.. #i could only try to get close to ppl to show them the real me... -_- #i guess i relate to akira on that front #that being said im also probably mega projecting #but what is media and my own engagement of it if not a sandbox playground for me to do whatever #that being said if im severely ignorant abt this pls lmk im down to learn. i think i prolly am esp in regards to goro's type cuz #i didnt spend that long thinking about him. cuz akira's my fav dhdhdj #🫰goro's just fun to psychoanalyze. akira's my meepmorp if that makes sense

[caruliaa]

why did you say that why did u point that out. r u fucking trying to mess with me

#using one of those online glasses things that send u frames to try on first to get new glasses and my mum was watching me try them on #and this one pair i liked had this little kinda rainbow thing like it wasnt the full colours it was like #small stripes going red to green and one blue line #on the inside of one of the arms of the glasses #and she pointed it out like 'oh look theres also this on it !' #LIKE WHAT WAS THAT ABOUT ?!?!!? #like i was just like 'yea i guess there is haha' but like. wtf was that about ?!?!!? #like okay. i am so so ubsurd insane for having this is be my main thought #and actually incredibly rather sad and pathetic and reaching #but for some reason my first thought was that she was like . trying to subtly hint that shes no longer homophobic and accepts me as queer #WHICH IS INSANE ?!?!!? bc like. okay. #if that was the case she would just fucking tell me directly #but also thats obviously not going to fucking be the case omfg like. i know her i know what shes like #this isnt something shed change her mind on if it was shed have done so when i was literally fucking begging her to #and also like. shes would have actually changed her other behavour in other ways if she realised she was wrong #and like shes acts like fake the most surface level way nice but she hasnt actually changed #just like. ugh. i feel like the reason that was my first thought was bc like. even though ik its impossible at this point #and iv mostly accepted that and ik that even if she did it wldnt fix and make up for all the trauma i have from them #part of me still wishes my parents wld change their mind and accept me as queer ig #which idk kinda rly sucks bc they wont but idk. i keep dreaming abt it too and waking up feeling weird. #idk whatever . it sucks but its fine #flappy rambles #vent

[pomfiores]

I never said anything after meeting Tim Curry but yesterday, I got paid to let someone cut me in line. not really cut me bc she wanted to wait by my side but ended up behind me but still, getting paid? to let someone get in line?

#◟ ⋆ㅤㅤif my hair's a mess﹐my mind's a mess.ㅤ( ooc ) #she asked how much did i want and that was so weird FKJSAH i didnt even know what to say #i didnt wanna give some ludicrous amount (despite waiting a ludicrous amount of time :/) #she basically paid for the last autograph and my lunch so it wasnt too bad. #to delete * #tim curry called me beautiful ill never forget it. #it was so tiring these last two days i slept like the fucking dead when i got home yesterday #im happy meeting him went smoothly though. i met him and 2 others and just. #i usually see people's meet and greets getting canceled- people i knew- but this went so well for me im grateful #this is all i cared about. meeting him. i didnt bring the book but its ok i can send it to him #me: i dont care rly about celebs #tim curry: <3 #me: aW?!!!

[daimoan]

dont remember if i ever was this angry at anyone before

#keep thinking abt [redacted] #wack. tbh #like embarrassing idgaf abt this guy why is he still on my mind. #this is some ego feeding shit like its cool to hate and be angry or something? #its just that i think he should be corrected. but the system is not in agreement on this. #guy was like my best friend for a couple months never even asked abt the system lol n theyr like looking out for him #or i guess mby theyre looking out for me/us. so as to not go to jail/be haunted by our choices our whole lives. #whatever #i know how to make it stop it is just taking time and effort. because its like 1. kind of addictive so i keep accidentaly/habitually reinfo #cing it and 2. the other option is to face that im hurt and i cant do shit about it realy other than ... LeArN from it or some shit #like learn what? i already went full schizoid over this. #maybe i dont need to learn shit lol maybe i already did it :) #so just the pain then. and overcoming the hate habit. and like just letting it go and forgetting abt it #but the thing is that he needs to die i think. #i want to kill kill kill kill him so bad. #i hope hes not reading this in case i ask to meet him again sometime. for business. #maybe thats why its still on my mind #because im unwilling to let go of the idea that we could help eachother if i wasnt so stupid hurt over some little thing (the nasty shit he #pulled that hurt me lol) like bro. bro. im not going to just get over it. like thts rly the thing. 3-5 yrs ago i would have totally just #elected to get over it and make up or smth like that. #and im v unwilling to do that now while lots of my brain architecture is still built for that interaction style. #so when im thinking kill kill kill kill im going to [redacted as fuck im not putting that shit online this is already bad enough] mby im #actually killing the mental structures that make me a target for abuse :))))))))) #all is good in the world i love myself and my life. and absolutely no one else. except my mom and my friends and that one other guy who als #might read my blog but i really doubt it bc he doesnt evenrly ask me how im doing or anything . its cool though. for now.

[snekdood]

ok so i watched the new avatar show (yes obviously thats what my post earlier was about, duh,i wanted to watch it before sharing my thoughts) and it was. iight.

#spoilers ig #there were things i liked that it did vs the show. theres things i didn't like that they removed #like. aang doesnt actually learn waterbending at all #so the climax of the first chapter feels really unearned? #and i am getting barely any passion from kataras character #sokkas fine ig- not nearly as fun and sarcastic as i'd want and i rly wish they didn't take out his sexism arc bc part of what makes his #character funny is him doing something sexist and immediately getting fucked over for it lol. but ig they could always do that in other way #like with the whole 'the universe loves proving me wrong doesnt it' things hes got going on sdhbfshvg #otherwise i didn't mind the fusing of episodes much- aside from skipping aang and katara bending with eachother which i think is #part of their relationship developing. so any romance later on is gonna feel a bit unearned too....... #i dont like the whole koh thing? idk that was weird. but it was cool he saw gyatzo in the spirit world. #i also didn't mind the backstories happening in the beginning very much. though ig it would be better to have them show up later #but the problem is i think everyones expecting this to be beat for beat the same thing as the cartoon. which makes no sense i mean #if you want the cartoon. watch the cartoon. lmao. either way it felt kinda like a play version of the movie- like a good play but def #a play the way they fused stories to cut down on time. i think ppl want the avatar world to be expanded but this isnt what this is gonna #be. ya gotta read the comics for that. this is clearly gonna be more or less a bit more of a dramatic remake. and i can tell the characters #really get more comfortable in their roles as the episodes go on. i do wish that they'd stretched the episodes out more tbh. #also they never really concluded the whole thing with hai bei??? which made me :/ #but i liked zukos character and i like aangs character. zhao is unhinged even more some how #i didn't like iroh as much in the beginning bc he wasnt as warm and welcoming as he was in the show #but since they seem to be going for a slightly more serious tone i think they wanted to make zukos family even more uptight #and strict n all. #also sidenote but jeez azula's actor has such a lil baby face. not that there's anything wrong with that i think it's cute but its #not how I imagine azulas live action character looking idk. i think the girl playing ty lee looks more like azula personally :0 #not a huge fan of the cgi for appa and momo but it could be way worse. yue's hair is stupidly obviously a wig- #im saying it was literally just a play version of the series. cut down and more dramatic. but they added their own original tweaks #to it too which was nice. #the whole thing with suki and sokka though was. hmm. she's really thirsty abt him huh #i also cant get over how much sokkas character just like. looks like a cartoon character vs everyone else who look like real ppl sdjhbfgshf #i like how zuko and aang talked more. i think everyones lines were a bit flat but im blaming that on them being children mostly