#everyone is sad and tired and depressed

[alsojnpie]

hey. um. i love him

#O_O i really love him #it's getting warmer every day and i can't draw him in a sweater for much longer #by the way. is this site going to. yknow. die #sigh........i kept telling myself I'd get better at it one day #kind of like the way i tell myself i can get together courage to speak up but i never do #using another website just sounds so depressing #im not good at social media. im tired of pretending like i can get good at it #but you can't even pretend like you can jump into a conversation if no one is having a conversation #i wanted to be part of a community here but i never could figure out what belonging looked like or how i could do it #and maybe it's my fundamental misunderstanding of that that prevents it but how can i understand it without experience #I'm so jealous of everyone who looks like they achieved what i couldn't even put my finger on. but since i didn't even understand it #i can't even be sure what exactly im jealous of #the other day i walked past a trio of friends and they had their arms around each other and were laughing as they walked #and i felt really strongly that even though I've always wanted a friend like that I'm actually fundamentally incompatible with that. #there's several reasons #but it made me feel really sad. but it made me feel a little better too. i guess it's really not my fault. maybe. i don't really know #in that moment it felt very much like something that was not my fault. and it was nice and sad at the same time #idk what's going to happen here. but one thing i know for sure is that i can have a happy tomorrow. no matter what #no matter what i have to give up on. i can find joy in other things. even in myself #and if there's one idea that he is about. it's that one

[rexxdjarin]

I just :(

I feel like I will always be the girl no one wants.

#like everyone I know is with a long term partner or going on dates #and then there’s me who can’t get a normal person to even look at her #it’s only weirdos or assholes or people I’d never like #and I’m so tired of feeling unwanted #sorry for being depressing #but I’m sad #like I’ve waited my whole life when will it be my turn

[strangerhands]

mmmmm heyyy👁️. ive basically been gone from tumblr for over two days because ive been feeling like a shitty piece of shit. BUT. i finally saw dune part 2 and ohmygoddddd it was so so good. but yes. i was missing leto so bad the entire time. Father come back pls. i need you.

#it was so good tho #like so cool i was internally freaking out about how cool things looked #the fight scenes🤌 #the environments/settings🤌 #all of the fuckin machinery🤌 #the acting🤌 #the everything🤌 #yum #also i dont find austin butler attractive but funnily enough feyd was the only time ive found him hot😭 yes i have issues. but like. okayyy.. #i watched it alone and i wish doing things alone wasnt seen as such a weird or sad thing like. theres nothing wrong with it #sorta vent-> #but basically ive been feeling like an annoying piece of shit so ive been staying off of here for the most part #because ive been convincing myself no one likes me and everyone in my life would be better off without me😝😝 #just tee bee ehch #and idk i was just feeling like ass and was doing nothing and when i finally would go to use tumblr i was already too tired to do shit #so i just went to sleep #and i was busy today #yesterday* #and ill probably be a bit busy today too but idk maybe hopefully ill catch up a bit #idk ya boys just been hating himself like usual but not as usual bc it was worse but it is what it is #i felt a bit better yesterday though #and also my new antidepressants ive been on havent been doing shit for me so im going back to a previous one i used to be on so yea #hopefully that helps soonish idk #i never vent on here so i feel kinda bad for doing so but i just wanted to puke my thoughts here #also since im already here complaining ive just like. not written at allllllll basically like i got into my head and made myself discouraged #so. that sucks. but also nothing out of the ordinary there #why does Everything i say sound so embarrassingly depressing and pathetic hhhhhhhgggggggggggggghhhghghg #anyways yea i was doing bad im still not doing good but hopefully will be a bit better so ill be back and caught up later today or tomorrow #idk if anyone gave a fuck or noticed but i just like complaining into the void so yea #talkin shit

[wasch-lappen]

Be careful what you wish for I guess

#dont even have to try to be annoying #everyone gets tired of me as some point :D #I should just stop trying tbfh #depression #depression meme #anxiety #sadness #sad meme #suicide #suicidal #suicide meme

[chrisbangs]

hello... (and bye ig 👋)

#👋😭 hi... #i haven't come on in about a month and i didn't realize a month passed by like that... i've kinda stopped using any apps on my phone #i barely even talk to my friends anymore lol 😭 #i just saw my follower count this morning and realized i hit 13k and i was like 🥸 huh... #uhhhhhhh 😭 idk i wanted to say thank you i guess 🫂 #i'm done with stayblr and tumblr in general 😭 this much has been obvious for a while now... i tried to fit myself back in during 5star but #i think i realized i've outgrown the vibes here and in online spaces in general... i don't really enjoy it anymore 😭 which is weird cause #i've used tumblr since i was in middle school so 🫡 end of an era some would say... #i think it sucks because i don't have the same feelings about this place or skz or anything in my life right now... i tried to ignore it bu #it's so obvious now that the entirety of december passed without me really talking to a single person / without me using social media / #without me really doing much except for like homework and assignments lmao #i think genuinely i've stopped enjoying everything i used to like and i don't know why 😭 it hit me the other day bc i don't even enjoy #pc collecting anymore which is CRAZY considering how much time and money i've put into that hobby so 👋🥸 who knows what goes on #i haven't consumed any skz content since rockstar dropped 😭 and that also feels weird to me... idk... i would say maybe i'm going through a #depressive episode but i don't really feel how i do then... i think i'm just tired like i always am and that's just how i am now .. i think #i'm just not really interested in things anymore? weird but .. yeah idk😭 if i knew what was wrong i would Fix It sndjdndkd mostly i'm just #sad because i haven't been talking to friends... i keep ignoring everyone and not replying to any texts from anyone because ???? #i tell myself i will do it later but i know i won't ... idk i genuinely don't know why i'm struggling to talk to ppl anymore 😭 i've become #even more of a reclusive hermit than i already was 💀 and the worst part is i feel normal abt it #i don't feel /bad/ i just feel guilty that i'm not replying to ppl bc i don't want to hurt ppls feelings... on my end i feel Normal abt it #like i ??? is it weird that i'm so detached from everything that not even a month ago made me so happy..? that's weird right 😭 like idgi #i don't feel (as) depressed (as i usually do) but clearly ?? smth is wrong ?? like ik i'm not a clingy sentimental person but ? it kinda #makes me sad wondering if i really don't care abt ppl anymore ... but i think 😭 it's also the object permanence issues that come with adhd #not seeing or talking to the ppl i love . not doing my hobbies or seeing the groups i care abt . makes it easy to not care or forget what #they make me feel etc etc ... i get it... but idk 😭 if that's what this is . well wow it sucks ASS.. cause i feel guilty for not feeling #anything at all ... 😭 idk how to explain that HENSKDNISJS anywayyyy 💀 #i came on cause i wanted to say thank you for 13k followers 😭‼️ and that i probably will not be online anymore unless i really want to say #this was a really long winded way to say i feel bad but i'm done with stayblr fr 👋🥸 i tried so hard for the last 2 years to make it feel #like home again but it stopped ages ago so 🥹 that's ok.. i still cherish my memories here 🫂 anyway thanku and sjsjsksksks bye i guess 😭 #who knows maybe i'll enjoy it one day again and come back :') never know what the future holds 🫡

[desnas]

it is literally infuriating wanting desperately to be able to draw. i've had an itch to create and illustrate for the past three weeks and i can't even do it because of how excruciating this wrist pain has become

#i feel really stupid and bad for taking so many commissions and then it all suddenly getting so much worse #i'm really grateful everyone has been so patient with me #and it's like i still intend to finish them #chipping away slowly until i can get this cyst on my wrist treated #but even beyond comms i just want to DRAW for the fun of it i miss being able to do it every day. i'm tired of living like this! #no wonder i've been so depressed and sad lately #i can't express my creativity the way i want to and that SUCKS i hate being stifled #anyways sorry for the long ass vent i'm just tired #might delete later #faye.txt

[itsanit]

I can feel myself becoming a worse person everytime an x reader fic doesn't specify that the reader is female

#Happy pride everyone I'm getting misgendered by fictional characters bc some fanfic authors are lazy self-absorbed assholes #If you don't specify gender in your fics I literally hate you #Also like it makes me dislike the characters too #like wow I didn't know link of legend of zelda fame was transphobic #Is it sad that I'm genuinely angry about this? Yeah #But I've been dealing with this shit for 2 years now and I'm tired of it #Like am I just not allowed in the x reader part of fandom now that I'm a boy?? Is that how this works? #Also thank you to everyone who tags their works as fem reader or has a read more section after they specify reader is female #You've saved me from a downward spiral into depression many times #You and the authors who write gn or male readers are heroes #I guess I'll tag this fir the fandoms who need to hear this #twisted wonderland #legend of zelda #resident evil #If for some reason you reblog this you can tag the fandoms you want to see this too ig #Sorry I'm emotional about this and it's worded bad it's late and I have not been sleeping well #x reader

[hafwen]

2023 had one high point and it was finding Toni and catching her the day before my birthday

The rest of the year was been pretty shit. Ollie died of old age and Pumpkin died of probably cancer

And to top off December my mom got diagnosed with endometrial cancer

Really need 2024 to be less tragic and have less cancer

#very depressed this year #didn’t read as much as normal #and my Duolingo streak of 500 days got kicked to the curb #I just couldn’t do anything but play silly games and cry for a lot of it #and now my mom is very tired all the time #too tired to do more than sit #and my dad is useless #at least he drove her to the appointment today #he’s good enough for that #I honestly don't know how I would've made it without Toni #she keeps me from being too sad #she doesn’t miss pumpkin and Ollie she never knew them #which is both sad and good #it helped everyone #all the pets were noticeably better once she come around #personal #cancer #pet death #so i have cats and a dog #pumpkin #Ollie #Toni #my mom has cancer #really happy I have therapy in less than 24 hrs

[random-sensei]

Same...

#parasyte #parasyte the maxim #shinichi izumi #Same Shinichi... #Same... #Sad #Anime #depressing shit #i'm tryin my best #i'm tired of everything #And everyone #sorry for being depressing

[mad--sad--bad]

i'm so sad

#bpd #so sad #i feel empty #overthinking #mentally ill #lonely af #exhausted #just drained #tired #mad #hate myself #hate everyone #hate everything #hopeless #i'm bitter #feeling alone #feeling trapped #i don't belong here #depressed

[makaelachanese]

The worst feeling is knowing you are at your lowest point in life and the people around you don’t even care to help you better yourself.

#lonely #lonely girl #fuck the world #fuck everyone #loner #sad #broke #depressed #broken spirit #tired #life #no one understands #chànesedice #fuck life

[tinseltina]

i found an old angsty fanfic summary for my fire emblem conquest corrin involving her son forrest and questioning her marriage andni made myself sad

so here's a doodle of my corrin with baby forrest

#i should given her some wrinkles and dark circles to go with the setting #but she isnt that old in thr story just tired and depressed and trying to get better #should she have had kids while in the throes of depression and becoming a workaholic to cope? maybe not #but the lady loves her kids mental illness be damned #but her marriage is in shambles bc i love pain #i think they end up divorced or just cohabitating without the love being there anymore #in the story with jakob she does in fact get divorced and takes the kids bc OF COURSE she would #that one is less sad for corrin and more for everyone else #this story is mostly sad for corrin and angsty for forrest #mine #art #corrin #forrest #fire emblem #fe14 #fire emblem fates #fire emblem fates conquest #fire emblem forrest #fe forrest #anyway he's my favorite still

[catfindr]

hi i’m so sorry to hear about your depression getting worse, i’ve lived with it for most of my life but cats make everything better!!! here’s Meenakshi

💛💛💛

#cats of tumblr #catblr #cat #kitten #kitty #qna #i take effexor for my depression but idk i think ive just been overworking myself lately #im so tired i sleep through every day that im not working #and ill still sometimes get bursts of intense sadness because im still grieving lili #it also doesnt help that im still pretty upset about being kicked out of the last place i was living at #even though they were very openly misandrist even when i expressed that it was upsetting to me as a trans man #whoops didnt mean to rant in the tags here... oh well #thank you very much for the well wishes everyone‚ im trying my best here

[tealfruit]

I think I surprised my new doctor a little yesterday when she found out that I have 1000 things going on in my life including the recent death of my dad and a hefty amount of mental health management and appointments and late night work shifts etc and yet was still cracking jokes and stuff. I said yeah I got a lot going on and she's like "yeah sounds like it! but you still keep a smile on!" I'm like yeah I'm a glass half full kinda guy ig

#nerd alert #people who knew me like 6 years ago know i have not always been this way #i struggled HARDCORE with depression and anxiety and general mental health stuff #especially when i was with my abusive ex #i started working at food lion a few months before i moved out of his house and dumped him #and after id been seeing june for a little but all of them talked about how drastically id changed #saying how before i always seemed tired and sad and didnt smile much and was just kinda blah #and now i seemed so much happier and more energetic #i think about that sometimes. i know i could tell the difference in my own quality of life #but it was wild to me how fucking obvious it was for everyone else as well

[v-arbellanaris]

i think the problem (?) is that the only kind of (fictional?) love that interests me is the kind of love that changes the world. the kind of love that derails the narrative, the kind of love that changes everything -- not necessarily by how special or unique the love is but by the very mundanity of it. the love that grows, not in spite of the barren lovelessness of Before, but out of it. i think that's why I'm always so invested in ships that are two people diametrically opposed to each other, or enemies-to-friends-to-lovers, or two people on separate sides of the morality issue coin, because i love it when love... not that it changes a person but it allows the person to Become. the space, the grace, to change. to love the monster, to love the unlovable and the intolerable, is to make it something other than a monster, than unlovable, than intolerable. i love it when being loved at your worst, ugliest, most horrible self is what makes you want to be someone worth loving. like is this ANYTHING to anyone or

#sorry im not here but im thinkin abt fic things and im really just! having some Emotions about things #idk? i see a lot of aspects of myself in villains. whoever you consider a villain. and i think there's a tendency in fandom #that I've noticed for like... years. where when these issues are portrayed in Good People it's always framed in an acceptable way #if they're angry it's never in a way that really hurts anyone - or everyone Just Knows they're going through shit #if they're depressed it's always the sad pathetic kind that makes people want to coddle you and not the kind that made me isolate and #unpleasant to be around #the urge/inclination towards violence to people who did wrong to me is a villainous act #trauma only ever affects Villains in a bad way. and their trauma MAKES them Bad and Evil people who should only ever just die to fix all #the damage they did to people. and idk man! don't you think that's kind of fucked up? don't you think that it's so fucked up to see yoursel #and the ugliness of your trauma and how it impacts you only ever represented by villains. and then the solution is ''they should just die'' #and in the rare moments those villains DO get redemption arcs or a second chance or whatever there's a large n frankly horrific portion #of fandom going i want this person dead or (other violent gruesome violating thing) because they're awful and horrible and their very #existence is unforgivable. i think they should die #and it's like i get it. i also get tired of having to see this message constantly blasted into my brain 24/7? #''why do you ship x with x--'' god i dont fucking know #maybe i want to believe we can get better. that people can change. #maybe i want to believe there's no end point where i have to weigh up the damage ive done to people vs the benefits ive brought and decide #i should die. maybe i want to believe that people are inherently good and want to do good and have the capacity for good!! #that we can do better if only someone believed we could!! #maybe i want to believe we're all worthy of love. of someone who will believe in us. who sees something good in us even when we're at our #worst & most unlovable. maybe i want to believe we can still BE loved after all that! idk leave me alone!! #tbd #i added the image bc its how im feelin rn

[music-for-them-asses]

Bruh... the desire to get takeout is almost always tied to how tired I am. I would pay someone to cook me healthy, home cooked meals if I could. But my only options are unhealthy takeout, so that's what I go with :))

#personal #I'm just so tired. How did my parents work all day and then come home and cook everyone dinner??? #4-5 nights out of the week??? #either it's my depression. my SAD. an undiagnosed deficiency. or some sleep disorder making me so tired all the time