#everytime i have a headache day like today i am simply blown away by my body’s capacity for pain

[boomerang109]

me: has five days to do assignment

day one: has other assignments to do/deadline is to far away so i don’t care yet/assignment hasn’t actually been posted

day two: i should really do this assignment but i can’t make myself sit down to do it and the professor still hasn’t posted it so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

day three: due to not sleeping, i am physically and mentally unable to do this assignment (a combination of pain, exhaustion, and lack of focus)

day four: (today) i once again did not sleep so my pain has managed to increase exponentially. i have, at 6pm, only just managed to get myself out of bed. i need to do this assignment (and others) but do not know if i will be able to.

day five: that’s tomorrow and the day the assignment is due. here’s hoping i sleep tonight and tomorrow is miraculously the day i can both focus and don’t have excruciating pain 🙂

#everytime i have a headache day like today i am simply blown away by my body’s capacity for pain #like it physically should not be possible to hurt this much #and yet I’m still expected to go about my day as normal cause there’s ‘nothing wrong with me’ #and so I had to attend two classes and work with kids for my job #and then I’ve just been laying in bed and now I’m trying not to cry and I just don’t know what to do #I remembered Advil existed so I took that but it doesn’t usually help anyway. nothing does #and the worst part is I was doing better but then [REDACTED] happened and fucked up my whole eating and sleeping routine #like I can deal with constant pain? like I’m used to that. pain in multiple places? whatever. but just. the stomache plus the leg pain plus #the worst headache you can possibly imagine?? like I literally don’t know how to deal with it #everytime it happens I just lose my mind as if I don’t have this happen all the time. it never gets easier #and I just don’t know what the fuck I’m supposed to do #and it’s not like I can ask my professor for an extension cause I’m just gonna keep being in pain anyway?? and I’m already behind in all my #classes? and if I can type all this out then I should be able to type about whatever ducking shit I’m supposed to be learning about #but I just hurt so fucking much and I hate it I hate it I hate it #negativity #life of a boomerang #vent #fuck chronic pain and fuck mental illness #I almost did work last night too but then I had to ducking spiral instead cause I’m mentally ill. like how am I supposed to function pls lmk