#except pain of course

[cosmicwhoreo]

I jus' think they should all have a 1v2, which is mostly just a game of survive the angry fish monster

#Stink-eye Tortuca #Cookie run #Captain Caviar Cookie #Black Pearl Cookie #This started as Tortuca running from capture by Caviar via a desperate sail through the duskgloom sea #'Course caviar wasn't letting him go that easily #Except they pissed off a massive murdermaid in the process of their little spar+avoiding sinking into the murky depths #I love Tortuca's design but goddamn if he isn't a PAIN to draw- #This may turn into an actual plot I've been brewin' for a bit i'll let ya know laturrr #CRK #cookie run kingdom #legend of the duskgloom sea

[tora-the-cat]

An interesting little fun thing with team 7 is that you assume that Sakura's gonna, like, woobify and simplify Sasuke by putting him on a pedastal,cause her goal is centered around him and shes a 12 y/o fangirl so like of course her understanding of him is skewed cause she doesnt see him as a person, just an object of affection, right? She's can't get Sasuke, can't imprint on and/or traumabond with him like Naruto and Kakashi do. They don't see him with rose tinted glasses, because they've lived through their own Horrors and empathize with Sasuke's experience.

......right?

WRONG lmao!! They have too many ghosts!! Naruto's single-minded codependent ass won't get out of his own way long enough to see Sasuke for who he actually is, only able to empathize with the parts of his trauma Naruto relates to and not really capable of understanding him outside of the context of himself (because Sasuke is. His other half). And Kakashi is far too jaded to be fair to him!! He can't decide if Sasuke is gonna end up as a mini-him or a mini-Obito or maybe a mini-Itachi, but either way he ALSO is too traumatized to see Sasuke AS SASUKE.

meanehile SAKURA'S autistic ass may have dogshit empathy, but you know what she does have? A special interest in sasuke. Nothing better to do then give herself a degree in Uchihaisms. She can write character studies about him. she can read his soul. Whenever she says something about him she is right. Every fucking time! She is RIGHT!!!!

'sasuke would NOT compliment me this directly or explicitly express worry unprompted, especially if it gets in the way of his goals' correct.

'Sasuke shouldn't hide that curse on his neck its not healthy BUT if I tell anyone about it he'll never trust me again, which might be even more dangerous for him then the curse mark. Like he can probably handle the curse mark but no one else can stop him from ripping peoples arms off.' correct.

Speaking of! 'Sasuke would not hurt me even when he seems to be...possessed? whatever the only way to knock him out of it is to present myself as Alive and thus something to be protected rather then something to be avenged, because he gets really stuck in his own head about revenge' CORRECT

'hey so um. like. Sasuke's gonna leave Konoha. I'm not sure anything can stop him at this point and honestly I'm kinda starting to doubt anything should, so the only thing I could possibly do to help him at this point is ALSO defect.' CORRECT!!!!

#shout out to @Obihoe cause this started as a tag comment on one of your posts that got WAY too out of hand. just like old times lol #team 7 #haruno sakura #sakura haruno #sasuke uchiha #team crackhead #naruto #naruto uzumaki #sasusaku #doesn't have to be but like. Yeah #for the record no disrespect to my boys Naruto n Kakashi I love them dearly. but like. they got their issues. that's half the fun of team 7 #And Sakura has her problems with Sasuke too!! But her problems have nothing to do with understand him or his motivations or his personhood #and more to do with. Well. her absolute dogshit empathy. Emotionally disregulated ass. #'if you leave me I'll feel just like you did when your parents died' My beloved. Iconic. Great line. No notes. She's really just still so #inexperienced and naive that means she can explain and predict and KNOW him and his actions but still not empathize. She can say shit #like that with a straight face because she's never FELT loss like this before (except that minute she thought he was dead on the bridge) #so she can't imagine a worse pain. Just assumes it can't GET worse because she has no emotional concept of 'worse'. so it must be the same #she's literally the only person with a chance of convincing Sasuke to take her with him to Orochimaru because he's SASUKE of course she #knows all the right pressure points and keywords and concerns and stuff that she needs to convince him. #she's literally playing a little diolouge tree game with him. And maybe even winning up until that line! it's the dealbreaker

[cathalbravecog]

taco bell bong sfx

#color palette art btw!! i like didnt allow myself to add my own colors #all this is mixed and taken from the pallete #OR with the use of layer effects #looks nice that way i think... #it was like gonna be a painted experimental test doodle thing???? #bc ivebeen feeling a bit rendery again? except using the basic brush and adding texture with brush strokes #KILLS MY HAND BTW DONT DO THIS WITH BAD PAINS LIKE I DO LOOOL #(HAS NOT SEEN A DOCTOR ABOUT IT. BEEN HAPPENING FOR A YEAR) (IM IN AGONY) (KEEPS MAKING AMBITIOUS ART ANYWAY BC I LIKE IT) #BUT LIKE.. i was gonna do like. several managers #not just ben. several. i was hoping for at least 2 that day. just a painted doodle smthn nice. WRONG! #YOURE GUZMA CATHAL SPADES SPAMTONGENDER OF COURSE YOU OVERDETAIL IT! #BUT ANYWAYE... yeah.... i think the result is nice and im proud #ok what else did i want to say before i make these notes a diary again #uhhh #oh yeah. i plan other mgrs like this but i have other stuff in the works rn #that one brain doodle and high roller again sorry the obsession doesnt end with a few drawings #woops! okay to the actual tags hehe ........................... #toontown corporate clash #toontown #bellringer #guz art #oh thats it oop

[thebirdandhersong]

alas babes I literally cannot defend this man's name anymore except in the name of ignorance which. you can only claim ignorance for so long

#we established boundaries! no texting! limited contact! no teasing! #and what does he do the day i get sick. text me AND tease me through text #he's texted five times since (as in initiated conversation) and like. yeah i mean he's abnormally clueless but considering we had a whole #conversation where i explicitly said hey. i NEED the space. i need space if we're going to keep being friends #this is all a bit much :-) #thankfully i am 90% over him so this is not as painful as it would've been last month but sheeeeesh #i can't even defend him to my friends at this point because when i show them the texts they go what the actual hey is going on #i don't know if it's a matter of ignorance or lack of consideration or him trying to make things go back to normal #(except 'normal' for him was the time when i was crying like every day because i couldn't handle the emotional intimacy #of our strange friendship) or just sheer carelessness but mannnn what a situation #he told me that if he crosses a line to let him know and he'll course correct which like. yeah i mean i WAS thankful for that #but at the same time why is it my responsibility to draw the line why aren't YOU helping observe the line that #i drew earlier this month what is going ONNNN

[some-pers0n]

I'm so close to writing about a character being beaten over the head with a rusty shovel and bleeding out dying to prove just how easy angst is to write

#Humour is so much more challenging than angst and I'm not going to take it back #It takes actual skill and effort to make funny jokes and laugh #Actually great s-tier angst makes you feel like you're transcending to a new plane of existence but you can still hurt people pretty easily #I just find the hard-hitting angst sticks a lot harder #Since most of the time it's either relatable or has been built up to exceptionally well #As opposed to most angst oneshots where it's just a quick and somewhat meh dose of pain #Give me suffeing for 20k words minimum or give me death #sp-rambles #Am I arguing over anybody about this? #No of course not I made a strawman to get mad at like usual #Except IG it's also true here #Comedy is seem as a lesser form of writing than tragedy and whatnot #Which it isn't inherently so

[egglygreg]

Ok, so I had this dream last night right? And it was mostly nonsensical and weird and silly, but there was this moment...

#I was the winged fairy girl at this point during a big battle #someone sliced me right down the front through my corset and dress #it was inspired I think by that fight in Zorro between Zorra and Elena #except NOT flirty dude was trying to kill me and sliced a wound down my chest #not super deep but still #and then this other guy #the one in the drawing #defected from the enemy side killed the other dude and very distressed tried to help me #which involved a very funny moment of him pulling my hands back to see the wound and realising my corset had been cut clean through #and us both getting extremely embarrassed and him pulling the corset back together and telling me to keep pressure on it #literally the most YA romantic comedy moment I've ever experienced #I think the main influences of this dream were that I recently watched a youtube reaction vid of someone watching Zorro for the first time #A drawing someone I follow did of that popular YA fae novel that I've never read #and looking at tangled concept art #and actually definitely the first aid course I did this week #because I remember them talking about how you need to cut clothing off someone to put the defib pads on their chest #and I was uncomfortable with the thought of someone having to do that to me #AND the fact I was paired with a cute guy I'd never met and we had to practice putting each other in the recovery position #which was SUPER awkward #so clearly my brain was like You know what would be fun? an even MORE awkward and painful scenario! #but make it fantasy! #ellennart

[unlikely-gravestones]

so those season 2 pictures huh...

#the beach pics look great #and orpheus...ooo boy #pain #but the outfits are stunning #anyway heres some art #i havent read the comics so idk what happened before orpheus went into hell but #its deeply upsetting to think they both thought the other would 'see their way' of things and come around to the idea #except neither of them did #and thats how it ends #so of course i had to make everyone think about that #<3 #truthfully tho i just downloaded some new brushes and wanted to play with them #the 'story' made itself afterwards #but interpret it how you will theres no right or wrong #sandman #dream of the endless #orpheus #sandman fan art #sandman season 2 #sandman spoilers #i guess? just in case

[esterigermaine]

Linking durge appearing to not feel/be aware of pain while with Kressa and certain chatter lines to durge's brain injury is common, but I also think maybe Bhaal gifted durge with either a super high pain tolerance or the inability to feel pain in most of their body when creating them.

If I was a murder god creating what I hoped to be murder incarnate, I'd want them to have minimal distractions in cases where a victim fights back. Pain is a warning that keeps you from further injury and the ability to continue their work on two broken legs with their guts hanging out would be beneficial when the aim is quantity of victims

#durge #the dark urge #dark urge #baldurs gate #baldurs gate 3 #spoilers #bhaal #bhaalspawn #on one hand they would be more efficient murderers on the other hand thet could die young #like some kids with congenital insensitivity to pain #i like all ideas people come up with for their durges because yall are so creative #im just throwing out an option I have not seen discussed yet #and of course durge has amnesia so they wouldn't even know if they had felt pain previously #granted there are lines referencing headaches so not a complete lack of pain #but that could be a weird case like my late grandmother #she lost the ability to feel pain everywhere except one of her ears after having a stroke #it was weird as hell #she could trip over her walker and break her leg and then straight up not notice #then turn around and get an ear infection and be miserable #the brain is truly fascinating and that is exactly why I got a neiroscience degree #granted that could have been temporary since durge also wasn't able to talk and didnt seem aware then #but still #or maybe they can only feel pain sometimes #like when they let the urge take over and commit murder without them realizing it maybe they can't feel pain #but when they are themselves they can

[myalchod]

Silrah + AU in which Farah's not killed but sent to Earth forgetting everything about the Otherworld

Another one that didn't come out the way I intended to, but I've been staring at it for long enough that I'm just gonna go with what I have at this point ...

1. It’s Sky who finds her, chasing a rumour that he hopes might be Bloom into the First World. He watches only long enough to be sure that she doesn’t know him — their eyes meeting across the expanse of parkland, the complete lack of recognition in hers — before returning to the Otherworld. “It’s her,” he tells them, sitting around the table that evening, and sees hope flare in the eyes of the man who raised him. “I know it’s her. But …” and that light fades as he continues.

2. Of course Saul goes. For her, he would always go; even if the rumour proves false, he would risk far more for the possibility that it’s his fairy out there. The bond between them has been dead since the day he’d been dragged to the Solarian prison over a year ago, leaving him certain that Rosalind had killed her, but as he watches the woman who could be her ghost, he feels, or imagines he does, something stir in his chest.

3. He doesn’t approach. At first it’s fear, because there’s a possibility that he’s wrong and this isn’t Farah, but when Musa accompanies him on his next scouting run, she confirms what he’s known in his gut from the moment he first set eyes on her. There’s such sympathy in her gaze that he has to look away, focussing instead on the clouds overhead, wondering if this is the same sky as they see in the Otherworld. The thought is less comforting than it should be.

4. They had talked, in the years after Aster Dell, about what it might be like to forget that day — if walking away from the past might let them find some measure of happiness once freed of its weight. Remembering those conversations, he tries to tell himself that he should stay away; she’s achieved that, and he has no right to wake the demons of the past for his own selfishness. And yet he comes back, again and again, because the pull remains too strong, and because his own nightmares persist and he needs to know she’s safe, she’s well, that at least one of them has broken free.

5. He thinks he’s been discreet, and so he’s entirely unprepared for the day she sits down on the bench beside him. “I don’t bite, you know,” she says without preamble, and as she smiles he’s struck yet again by the lightness of this woman, and the unfairness of bringing the weight of memory to crash down on her again. (And yet.)

6. If this was a First World fairy tale, that first brush of her lips against his would right everything once more. But he knows, better than most, that those tales hold little of reality, and so it is nothing more than a kiss.

[ ask me another ] [ all answers ]

#fate the winx saga #au headcanon meme #farah dowling #saul silva #silrah #au: canon divergence #asked and answered #charis writes #i'm so sorry #except not because of course not #(and also because i think anne will endorse pain for these two) #i wanted so badly to resolve it but i couldn't decide how #so there are at least three different possible endings in my notes somewhere

[asharestupid]

I've said it before (I think) and I'll say it again: real life siblings do Not! call each other "big/lil bro/sis". The closest I've got to this is calling my little brother "young Padawan". Maybe while texting my friends (not talking to my siblings) I've said "my lil sister" but I've never heard anyone besides in fiction call their siblings "little bro" or even address them as "big sister" to their face. We call each other things like "shitbag" and "heathen" (lovingly, of course).

#scronkle #dear siblingless writers #fiction #writer #writing advice #story writing #creative writing #writing #writing siblings #watching the 100 for the first time and im in pain seeing whatsherface call bellamy big brother a thousand times #thats not what real siblings do #except of course in her case it could be from trauma and she likes saying “brother” bc she hasnt seen him in a long time #but in general #if you dont have siblings please listen to me

[clodiuspulcher]

once again everyone thinking ‘past good’ is foolishly and arrogantly unable to image themselves as among the 50% of children who did not live into adulthood

#maybe im just biomedicine pilled but please god get a grip #before about eighty years ago every single person with type one diabetes died #they just died as children or adolescents or sometimes young adults #there was nothing you could do except watch your child die a slow and painful death #waste away into nothing #dead certain that like the richest thirteenth century noblewoman or whatever would give up all her wealth and luxury #to live in a world where smallpox had been eradicated and she didn't have to fear for her childrens lives #kim wexler voice picture it... REALLY picture it #a world without vaccines sanitation anesthetics antibiotics antivirals blood transfusions #chemotherapy immunotherapy radiation treatment x rays CT scans MRIS #without a basic knowledge of how diseases are spread and where they come from without antimalarias and antihelminthics #without any sort of meaningful medical testing without surgeries or anything like the ability to medically transition it #you literally cannot imagine it #and of course the fact that our medical advancements aren't available to everyone across the world because of capitalism is horrific #it is nothing if not a crime against humanity #but that problem won't be solved by pretending cornelia mother of the gracchi wouldn't have chosen to live #in a world where 9 of her 12 children didn't die if she could #9 out of 12 children. god. really picture it. can you? #i can't and i am thankful for that

[vaguely-concerned]

that last scene in fatal journey where nie huaisang has to support nie mingjue for him to keep upright, harrowhark's arc in harrow the ninth*, and the 'O, let me not be mad, not mad, sweet heaven/Keep me in temper: I would not be mad' line from king lear all break my heart in exactly the same way. that precise thread of the ultimate, hopeless vulnerability and confusion that's at the heart of madness -- of realizing in glimpses that you won't even realize how far you've drifted from yourself and that you don't know how to stop it, you can't stop it. that's such a core part of nie mingjue to me, and I don't feel like I've seen a lot of real discussion around it considering how central I think it is to his character.

*also like harrow, nie mingjue is both 'mad' (im mentally ill. I'm reclaiming it. sometimes that does feel like exactly the right word for it) and also like. severely haunted. by a sword even lmao. they've even got the 'crushing weight of shouldering the responsibility of their entire house given to them at way too early an age under horrifically traumatizing circumstances' same hat/same hat! thing going on here. omg. nie mingjue is like if harrow was a big sensitive jock who cries at the drop of a hat and harrow is like if nie mingjue was a small wet ratwoman who does bones and catholic guilt. but the core is basically the same. I can't believe I'm right about this.

#and jin guangyao and ianthe doing the clasped hand meme over mercilessly gaslighting and generally making everything worse for them! #I have respect for ianthe's grift but not jin guangyao's I only regret nie huaisang could only kill him once </3 #the locked tomb #the untamed #nie mingjue #nie huaisang #nie bros #I wish everyone in this particular fandom overlap a very 'I've connected the dots' except in this case I think I actually did lol #I've always had a hard time explaining why I love nie mingjue SO MUCH despite the fact that he's probably the most doomed person #in the entirety of mdzs/the untamed and also of course his hands are not clean (no one's hands are clean in that world) #but my raw horrified sympathy for him in that element is probably really central to it #he tried so hard!! he tried so hard #it's so funny in my liveblog of the untamed way back when you can see me imprint on him hopelessly just like IMMEDIATELY haha #I chose pain

[anarcho-masochist]

It really is like my brain went, "Wow, those are powerful intrusive thoughts you've got there. You know what's more powerful? Your desire to see this guy traumatized. Have 1.5 days of maladaptive daydreaming about them."

#I'm predicting this will continue for what's left of today #'pulled myself out of it' now but just enough to do things like post online and eat #I predict I'll return #I got up for the first time today (it's 7pm) and was suprised at how weak and shaky i felt #thought 'it is almost as if I experienced everything from the daydream. the power of one's mind over their physical well-being truly is #exceptional isn't it?' and then realized since I hadn't gotten up today I hadn't eaten and 'breakfast' was in the daydream #(was having trouble remembering whether it was or wasn't) #and of course knew I hadn't yesterday save for breakfast #which was real. I ate it outside and it was nice. #oh yeah and yahto fronted for like 10 minutes earlier but all he did was respond to our friend on the main blog and then we switched again #So it really has been a solid 1.5 days of nothing but daydreaming #Not about Cedar this is about the other one #Cedar also featured prominently. He just wasn't the main draw. #It was a coherent plotline but I wouldn't tell not-cedar the details of it on pain of death #I need something to call this person other than “not-cedar” or just using pronouns that WILL NOT communicate to them that it's them #And it's technically people not person but I don't know which they prefer #100% of people I've gotten obsessed with are also plural (all 2 of them) (or 14(?) depending on how you count it) #(Actually. Since I'm specifically obsessed with Cedar not his whole system it's more like 6? people) #(I'm not sure if there's a particular alter I like the most in the second system)

[qi-rong-enjoyer]

just realized that from qi rong's perspective tgcf is, in fact, an Accidental Baby Acquisition fic

#this is legit a tag on ao3 and I adore that it is one #tgcf #qi rong #guzi #tgcf in general from qi rong's perspective is very very funny #except for maybe the past bits that take place in Xianle. those are Traumatic Events. #some traumatic for qi rong. some traumatic for other people. #but in general reading the novel from qi rong's perspective is really great if you need a laugh because its just him doing Hot Ghost Shit™ #and then people start showing up and The Plot happens in front of him and he's just like #'LMAO COUSIN CROWN PRINCE IS THAT YOU??' #funniest fucking shit. #even if u dont like qi rong I wholeheartedly recommend giving the novel a read from his pov because the whole novel gets so funny #of course this is provided you are looking for funny stuff. #if you want to cry: read from mu qing's pov. I can guarantee that you WILL feel pain.

[they-thespian666]

Who needs therapy when you have funny pun rpg from 2015

#art #my art #tma #the magnus archives #tma fanart #jonathan sims #jon sims #tma jon #tma art #jonmartin #(kinda) #comic #tma martin #martin blackwood #undertale #honestly though #i have so many thoughts about jon playing undertale somewhere else and it being a somewhat cathartic experience #its about getting the choice to help those around you and have a world where you are able to save almost everyone #that is of course except asriel/ flowey and even here there are those that you just cant save no matter how hard you try #just to add some spicy little pain to it #also yes they are wearing the undertale humans' outfit colors and they have a little white cat <3 #despite everything it's still you

[szallejhscorner]

People on wattpad keep asking for updates. You know, I don't want to abandon my stories. It's just that I've never been so tired before in my life. My child cries at night, he cries at day. He refuses to sleep so I can't even take naps with him because as soon as he drifts off to sleep, he starts to cry.

I can barely keep my eyes open, and no way would I be able to write a single proper sentence either for King of Diamonds or the oneshots. All I want is sleep. But I know I won't get it.

So be patient with me. If one day I manage to get over this sleep deprivation I'll write again. It's just impossible to tell how long that'll take.

#It's the damn teeth #Why on earth does teething have to be SO GODDAM PAINFUL for toddlers #Like... Why does it have to hurt so much he can't eat #Can't sleep #Can't do anything except crying #And nothing I try helps in any way #Im tired. He's tired. We all are entirety exhausted. But of course these teeth take WEEKS to come out #It gets worse every day even though I think that can't be possible #I have thoughts. Bad thoughts. That's how tired I am