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[magnificentstrangerpeanut]

Will I ever be happy again?

- // things I shouldn't have to ask //

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[jgreyblog]

Everyone says I'm never happy, but honestly, what is there to rejoice in? I am trying so hard; I keep trying but it's always a failure. It's the thorn in my flesh. I am my harshest critic, and greatest skeptic.

j. grey, excerpt from my life

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[anotherangrygirl]

June 29, 2018

NEIGHBORS I don’t blame you for living here. I unlocked the doors for you, Let you in - poured you a drink and asked about your day. Don’t act like a victim, You didn’t reject the drink either. I don’t blame you for building a house next door, you were a friendly neighbor - or you pretended to be, until your house was being built on my land, and you took it upon yourself to redecorate the furniture and change the wallpaper. I didn’t say anything when we became neighbors - perhaps out of fear, perhaps because I didn’t realize what you really were, perhaps because I refused to admit that I knew you, from the times we used to sit and drink together when I was too lonely to leave the house and too tired to eat.

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[aucourag]

写真日記. Indian Summer- n. A period of happiness or success occurring later in life. Jamaica is definitely my happy place. Come see more of my photos at Indian summer art show oct. 14. Swipe for more details. . . . . . #desithegawd #yourphotographersfavoritephotographer #yourvibeattractsyourtribe #indiansummer #photoexhibition #kingston #jamaica #positivevibes #ａｅｓｔｈｅｔｉｃ #photodiary #conceptual #excerptfrommylife #simeonfelicien #pzzyfoot #stephanieheathphotography #shoot2kill #createcommune #createyourwave #createyourhype #dailypost #tbt #creatives #freebeer (at Eventide Brewing)

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[cigarettesandkisses]

Dear You.

Lately ive been in a phase where im stuck, i guess part of maturing is evolving and i feel like im trapped in a cocoon that is poisonous and damaging, and my wings can't flutter, they cant move. Im growing up yet im stuck on a timeframe that is hindering my growth, making me feel unsafe, uneasy and temprmental, its definteley maddening. For five years i have been haunted, i have done mistakes and i have paid dearly for all of them, mostly i paid dearly for them and im okay with that, because karma serves whoever is in need of her and i got that dish served exceptionally fitting for my own mistakes. I was lazy, i lied, i had the occasional theft here and there yet i never meant harm on others. As soon as i hit 16 i never handled the world properly, i said my version of the truth, yet people always saw the different version of the truth, not the one i felt in my heart. To my parentd; you were never there for me emotionally, as a child i always made mistakes and i got told off sharply and briskly, like a soldier in a regiment, yet you never offered me solace and compassion, as i turned 16 i started flunking school and my personal life became a rollercoaster, you couldnt accept me, so i got angry. furious mad. Skip to 18 i met my second girlfriend and i was about to learn what triggering meant. I met a man who was cold and sharp.like you and that made me furious, i also wanted to please him because i could never please you. My body wasnt fit , my hair wasnt correct, i wasnt a girly girl. he seemed to accept me for who i was and for once i thought i might be accepted in this harsh and funny world. Yet i was to be dumbfounded when he turned his attention to soemone else, my new girlfriend. I hated it, you never ever even bothered to accaept me always pointing out of my flaws and this man decided to put someone else front and centre. the little girl in me cried, cried in anger. the grown body smoked more cigarettes and i stopped growing. my mind halted and crashed. in my life i never hit anyone yet in my life i hit 3 people. one of who my heart dearly loved and it still makes me cringe and shudder. i then became their public joke and behind closed door very nearly became their whore for thier use. They never liked me and they never showed it untill a few years back when they showed me their hate and even recently. am i bad person to get all that onslought of public failures and what was private was spread like the plague? i fell into a hole i dug up for myself and i couldnt get out. I worked in a mediocre fashion and i never saved up. i went to loan sharks spent it all and i still endes up feeling dead inside. I never confronted it. I depended on you and i wasnt a priority, i depended on him and her and i was never their priority then my mind took the final curtain call when the unexpected showed up, it was the form of a twin flame i never knew i had, she was so nice to me yet she had her own baggage too. i didnt know it yet but she was passing through hell. i also remembered my true identity thanks to her yet i still slipped and fell and hurt those around me. now inside me lies the dead soul of the small.child, call her the ego, but a little boy is by her side slowly coming to life, his cheeks becoming rosy, his hands keeping him upright, for he is still forming. All those people who cut me off, like the twin flames husband, those two, friends who all left. i realise i cannot control them and their reactions. All those who judged me and treated me like a child, they cannot affect the little boy, because they already destroyed the little girl and the boy is different, healthier, stronger. He has the knowledge of the little girl and he will keep on learning. i can admit i did wrong, but i can always change, 24 is going to be my year, its genuinly time to move foward.

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[mylittletreasure]

Am I so selfish that I will still break his heart even though I know what it feels like.

Stuck-in-his-gaze

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[jgreyblog]

I presented my body as a living sacrifice, but instead of awaiting the fire of the Holy Ghost, they killed me themselves to prove they controlled It.

j. grey

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[jgreyblog]

You convinced me I could never be loved, because of what you saw as a flaw.

Reflecting on 2017

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[jgreyblog]

Over and over again you professed this love for me, yet the gashes manifested with your words still stung freshly as the day they were created.

Reflecting on 2017

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[jgreyblog]

Some days I sit back and wonder what my life would be like had I done things differently....they would've ensured I take no time for myself. Finding who I am would have never happened: I would still be living for them.

Excerpt from the book I’m yet to write

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[jgreyblog]

Some days I wonder why I experience what I do, then imagine others with the burdens I carry, and know why.

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[jgreyblog]

They said 'what makes you different, makes you beautiful'; why don't I feel so?

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[jgreyblog]

Resolutions

New Year‘s Resolutions don’t work, we know that. However, everyone says make lifestyle changes. We think we are so clever, making our New Year’s resolutions, lifestyle changes, but since resolutions don’t work, our lifestyle changes never come to pass. In the meantime, we are okay with that because we have already been offered praise for the IDEA of our resolutions, and not the execution of them. 

-Reflecting on 2017

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[anotherangrygirl]

May 2, 2018

maybe the light at the end of the tunnel

is just an illusion

we create for ourselves - 

an adaptive strategy 

created by our brains

to comfort us

while we sit

in the darkness 

alone

in a locked room

knowing fully 

that the train 

is going to 

crash.

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[anotherangrygirl]

February 7, 2018

a whirlwind.

and I am caught in the middle -

a necklace, a book, a photo,

all twirl around me 

dancing 

in pretty pink skirts

with pearly white teeth

and I stand in the middle

I am not moving.

But I spin 

I spin and I cannot stop

they float around me 

but they hold me down

twinkling stars in a night sky

I cannot see.

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[anotherangrygirl]

December 28, 2017

I always heard tales of

best friends or lovers

turning into strangers, 

Scoffed. Because of how 

unrealistic that is - 

how can one see into

your soul, know you, and then

Abandon that? 

Now, I feel the words of those stories 

suffocating me, 

for I have seen reality -

And sometimes, 

even fairytales tell the 

truth. 

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