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unhealthyfanobsession · 3 years

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2 important points I want to make about Rhysand (which is what I’m calling him from now on because while the names are hilarious he said in book 1 that only his enemies call him Rhysand and we are now enemies)

Out of everything that happened in these first 6 chapters, the single WORST thing to me was that one sentence...

“Rhys and I have decided...”

I think why I am SO unbelievably shocked by how the IC is handling this is because of Rhysand in ACOFAS.

1- He ACTIVELY says in ACOFAS that he knows how Nesta feels. (he doesn’t, but like he thinks he does)

“Nesta had made it clear enough she had no interest in Cassian- not even in being in the same room as him. I knew why. I’d seen it happen, had felt that way plenty.”

Then later he thinks, while talking to Cassian:

“My beautiful, strong, fierce mate, shackled to me-”

From this I can only assume that he KNOWS Nesta is struggling with not feeling good enough and is pushing Cassian away because she thinks she doesn’t deserve him and is punishing herself in much the same ways that he has mentally done to himself. He KNOWS AND CAN RELATE TO THIS and STILL thinks that the best solution is to take away the little agency she had left in her life?

2- Rhysand ALSO has been thinking about this for months. He didn’t just come up with a random plan. He didn’t just bring it up to Feyre. He was already thinking about how to “help” Nesta and Cassian in ACOFAS which was almost a year ago at this point:

Cassian and my mate’s sister did not speak to each other at all. Nesta had successfully cloistered herself in some slummy apartment across the sidra, refusing to interact with any of us save for a few brief visits with Feyre every month. I’d have to find a way to fix that, too.”

And this conversation with Cassian:

“ “Are you… happy?” Shadows darkened his hazel eyes. “I’m getting there.” A halfhearted answer. I’d have to work on that, too. Perhaps there were threads to be pulled, woven together.”

So Rhysand has been contemplating this for MONTHS with all his 500 years of High Lord wisdom and not only was THIS the best plan he could come up with, but he also completely manipulated the situation to suit his timeline. Why’d he have to read this expense report over breakfast THAT MORNING? Conveniently choosing to force Nesta and Cassian together RIGHT at the time that he has also decided Cassian should be “taking on more responsibility” in the Court.

I don’t think that Rhysand is evil and irredeemable, but I do think that he is- and always has been- callous, hypocritical, self-righteous, and arrogant (in its truest sense, not just ohh I’m a hot guy arrogance but true, genuine, my ideas are always the best and whatever or whoever suffers doesn’t matter because the ends justify the means- I mean you can just ask Mor about that one but don’t because she’ll probably want you thrown in prison for the crime of questioning her cousin).

ALSO I think he’s a shitty brother. His whole “I can never forgive anyone who hurt Feyre” thing in ACOFAS is fucking wild because it’s like ok so Nesta let Feyre hunt when she was a child (which is a WHOLE other post that many people have made with excellent points) and that is completely and entirely unforgivable even though she SAVED YOUR BROTHER’S LIFE?!?!?!?

Like this man is (supposedly) your BROTHER and Nesta saving him from the cauldron is never even mentioned or thought about. it’s just that she was “mean” to Feyre so she can never truly be forgiven? MAYBE FEYRE CAN HANDLE HERSELF MR. KING OF FEMINISM.

In conclusion, it is the forethought and the AUDACITY that really gets me about the sandman (yea I know I couldn’t resist throwing one in there hehe)

#acosf spoilers #anti rhysand #nessian #nesta archeron #a court of silver flames #a court of silver flames spoilers #cassian #sarah j maas #a court of frost and starlight #a court of wings and embers #a court of thorns and roses #a court of wings and ruin #nesta and cassian #excuse me that’s my emotional support Nesta Archeron

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lectophile · 4 years

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I Love Nesta Archeron

SPOILER ALERT for Sarah J. Mass's A Court of Thorns and Roses Trilogy.

With the newly-released title and release date of Sarah J. Mass's Nessian spin-off, A Court of Silver Flames, I have noticed that the YA fantasy community, or at least a good enough portion of it, has begun to become very vocal about its lack of fondness for Nesta and their displeasure at her being matched with Cassian, who they believe "deserves so much better". As the self-proclaimed number one fan of Nesta, I have an urge, that will not go unrequited, to dispel the idea that Nesta is a terrible person.

I have to admit, when I first read the series, I disliked Nesta, Elain, and their father an unfathomable amount. I relished in the idea that somewhere, later on in the series, they would each be served a mouthful of the crap they deserved. I would say, in terms of relativity, Nesta was highest on my dislike meter, Elain next, and then their father. Elain having bought Feyre the small tins of paint and Feyre's father telling her to never come back and live out her dreams were small redemptions in their favor. I admired Nesta's protectiveness over Elain, but disdained her for so easily having forgone attempting to protect Feyre, because, after all, she was the youngest.

After having read the series three times, and having deliciously bathed in gallons worth of putting-Nesta-and-occassionally-Elain-in-their-place, compliments of our wonderful, and even more scrumptious, winged friends: Rhys and Cass, I have come to the new conclusion about our dear Nesta. As the oldest, Nesta was able to receive the most education out of all three of the Archeron sisters. She learned valuable skills for women in society, making her a suitable match for eligible bachelors—but that was worthless when their family became poor. Nesta had no skills in surviving in a world where you had to fend for yourself. All she knew was which fork to use with salad and how to greet gentlemen. Feyre, on the other hand, had not even learned to read and write, making it easier for her to adapt to their new situation and assume the role of interim head of household while the rest of the remaining Archeron family pondered on a life Feyre had never had the chance to be a part of.

Nesta began resenting Feyre when Feyre successfully began taking care of their family. Nesta was being showed-up by a fourteen year old girl that couldn't even read, and all Nesta had succeeded at doing was mope around and wait to die. Nesta was ashamed of herself for this, blamed Feyre for her shame, and, in turn, wanted to make Feyre feel it as well—hence, abusing Feyre, I do not excuse it, but I don’t know when the book community decided to cancel characters for being terrible in the past and GROWING to become better people. Nesta also never looked after Feyre like you would hope an older sister would do for their younger sibling because Nesta didn't feel that Feyre needed taking care of. Feyre could hunt, make money, make food, and anything she set her mind to—she didn't need Nesta for anything. Nesta took this as a jab, feeling that if Feyre thought she was so good that she could do everything for herself, why should Nesta even lift a finger? Feyre was doing it all and seemingly handling it perfectly fine. Because of this, Nesta preferred Elain to Feyre; for one, Elain needed guidance and someone to follow, which appealed to Nesta's superiority complex; secondly, Nesta took care of Elain as she did because Elain gave her a purpose, to find someone for Elain to marry off to and care for her in the meanwhile.

Later on in the series, when Feyre shows up to their home as Fae and with part of the Inner Circle, Nesta feels a whirlwind of emotions, which makes her lock up even more than she always did. Nesta is scared of letting people see how weak and frail she is and how she has no real purpose in this world; and she is especially wary of letting Feyre see it because, even though she always resented Feyre, she liked that Feyre admired her for her steely exterior and unbendable will. For one, Nesta was shocked out of her mind because Feyre was Fae, something that all humans south of The Wall were taught to fear; Another thing Nesta felt with Feyre coming back into her and Elain's life was fear. Nesta feared that Feyre was going to disrupt everything Nesta had achieved while Feyre was gone: getting Elain engaged to Graysen. With Feyre gone and their father on his secret voyage, Nesta was finally the one in charge, the dependable one, the one protecting their family—even if that was only Elain—and Feyre was not only throwing off the balance, but threatening to destroy it altogether.

After having felt like we, the readers, had gone hand-in-hand with Feyre through everything, from the trials Under the Mountain to her neglect by Tamlin, we were angry and enraged that Nesta had the audacity to be so rude to Feyre, who had done absolutely nothing to Nesta all the months she was gone. For heaven's sake, Feyre hadn't even made contact with Nesta up until this moment. But, we have to understand, Nesta uses her anger to keep people out and prevent them from seeing how insurmountably weak and riddled with dark emotion she is. Feyre seems to have the world figured out: a mate, a close group of friends, wealth beyond imagination, and a beautiful home; and Nesta is upset that Feyre would want to take away the little her and Elain do have for, what she believes, is Fae business.

After having realized all of this, I loved Nesta with my whole heart—the most out of the whole Inner Circle, Az coming in close, close second. She reminded me of myself: flawed, jealous, wrathful, prideful, and resentful. Feyre seems to be some kind of unnatural super-being—ignoring the fact that she actually is for the sake of my argument—able to overcome everything in her way, making me want to be like her and making me resent the parts of myself that she overcame within herself. Nesta is Sarah J. Mass's way of letting us know, we can be powerful, strong, courageous women that surprise ourselves with our ability to do anything we set our minds to, as well as being flawed, broken, and distant. We do not have to be Elains: so kind that an other-worldly Cauldron gifts us power out of its sheer amazement at how lovely we are inside and out. We can be ferocious and take power for ourselves, just as Nesta had ripped power from the Cauldron with her teeth as repayment for making her and Elain undergo what they did. Nesta is devastatingly beautiful, graceful, collected, cool, intelligent, determined, curious, wrathful, prideful, resentful, and most of all, humiliated with herself for not being the strong person she wishes she could be. I love Nesta so, so much. I wish her all the luck and happiness in the world.

And, last but not least, something to remind everyone of. In A Court of Frost and Starlight, Nesta behaves outrageously—but this is her way of trying to cope, trying to get some sort of feeling back after having been turned Fae. Her transformation had occurred during the chaos of the battle to save humans from Hybern, and so there was no time for her to take for herself and understand what had been done to her. Once the adrenaline of battle and victory had faded, she was left with a hole within herself in a foreign body, leading an immortal life with an even more foreign power within her. Feyre also suffered from post-traumatic disorder, but in a different way—as all people go through trauma uniquely and individually. Nesta does not want to admit how broken, how weak, how confused she is, and all the Inner Circle wants to do is what they think will make her happy—but they don't get that she can't even feel. Personally, I find that everyone, except for Cass and Az, seems to have their own opinion of her behavior without really trying to understand why it's happening—especially Feyre. I think Feyre has always felt responsible for the well-being of her sisters, and so she does this the most. She has never truly understood Nesta, why she’s so closed off, why she’s so distant, and it hurts her as well, because Nesta is the only sort of mother figure—a strange one I know, but she was the oldest, wisest woman in her life for a long time—Feyre had, as their mother was basically absent and then died. Feyre is also young, so we have to understand that she does not truly understand how trauma can be different for each person, and so she tries to solve this by assuming that Nesta’s trauma may be similar in some way to that of what she went through in Under-the-Mountain. Feyre isn’t doing anything wrong, it’s just a younger sister trying to make her older sister as happy as she is—think Anna with Elsa. Also, Feyre is confused because she would have thought that the beauty and power of the Fae realm would have made Nesta feel better about being Changed, but, as I will dive more in depth below, the circumstances surrounding their views on being Fae are completely different, and frankly opposite for Feyre and Elain/Nesta. Feyre’s seeming misunderstanding and attempts at helping Nesta infuriate Nesta because she feels like some broken doll her sister wants to sew up new so that she can look pretty for the rest of them.

I also want to add that being Fae means completely different things for each of the Archeron sisters. Feyre loves being Fae, and I think it’s because she has associated it with the insurmountable happiness that has been brought into her life after she had Changed: she found Rhys, became strong enough to defend herself and anyone she cared about, was able to paint whenever, whatever, and however she wanted, found a family that truly supported her and loved her and required nothing of her, and was finally able to dream of a future that was only for her, not for her sisters or father. Elain hates being Fae, or at least hated it at first but seems to be adapting to it, because it took away the future she had always dreamed of. While Feyre never really had the chance to dream of anything for herself, Elain did—because, she’s sweet and I also love her, she really didn’t lift a finger until she shoved Az’s knife into the King of Hybern’s neck. Elain was raised in a society where domesticity are the best characteristics of a woman, and it is what she should strive for. She strived to be a loving wife, with a beautiful home to decorate, to have parties and socialize with everyone, and to be the sweet angel her husband came to after a long day’s work. She had that, and being Fae took that away because her fiancé hates the Fae. The man she thought would love her no matter what she was or looked like, hated her. I mean, if that happened to any of us, we’d all have been destroyed from within: she trusted this man with her heart, she trusted that he would always love and care for her—and for her to trust men was difficult because she had trusted her father to always look after her, but he failed her—and then he said he hated her for the abomination she was, for something she couldn’t control. Being Fae took away Elain’s dreams, and so it is not all the pretty, supernatural stuff that we, the readers, would love to be a part of—because, remember that the series was written in first-person from Feyre’s point of view, so obviously we’ll have some bias towards being Fae and her beliefs. Nesta hates being Fae. Nesta demands control over her life, she demands being the one in charge of it. If she’s gonna die, it’ll be because she said so; if she’s gonna eat, it’s because she said so. She will not let anyone or anything control who she is or how she lives her life, and then she was forced to be immortal. Imagine, feeling so lost, so insurmountably despairing, in an immortal body. While she was mortal she could at least wait for death to take her away from the tortures of being poor, cold, starving, and out of control, at least death was something she had decided on accepting, not forced upon her—but as a Fae, she would have to wait hundreds to even thousands of years for merciful death to take her away from all these feelings, emotions, and general environments that she has absolutely no control of and feels she could never truly be a part of. I have not ever been depressed or suffered from PTSD, but from what I have learned, I have heard that it feels like a never ending hole you fall into, where you are consumed by darkness and there is nothing else you can see, and anywhere you are within that hole, you are alone and no one can reach you. Imagine that, but feeling like you will feel that way for the rest of your immortal life.

Last, last thing: Nesta and Cassian are mates. If she had an instinct within her to call Cass from battle just in time to save him from the Cauldron; if her willingness to sacrifice her life so she could die with him because she could not live without him, didn't convince you of their status as mates, I *clap* do *clap* not *clap* know *clap* what *clap* will.

Anyways, thank you for reaching this point of my fanatic rant over Nesta.

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nestable · 3 years

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No matter how vulgar, crass or violent my arguments with my sister got, we always eventually hashed it out because guess what?...we had a parent in the house who gave a shit. Something that feyre and nesta lacked.

If you have siblings and sisters in particular, you know how serious and borderline toxic you can become to each other but know that at the end of the day you'll eventually sort out your issues. Pride can get in the way but I know that my sister and i woudnt have gotten as close as we are today if my mother allowed us to fight and argue and didnt do anything to help us sort it out. Sometimes she'd force us to apologize, or sit together till we sorted it out without her intervention, what mattered was that she made sure to play an active role to teach us dispute resolution and to treat each other better. That's not an inherent behavior, it is learnt and that's something father archeron dismally failed at. A parent job interview just financial support but emotional too. People often forget that.

He may have gotten his leg shattered and was down in the dumps, but the least he could do was stop his daughters whenever he heard their arguments get serious and stop them from insulting each other. That's not an older siblings job, its the parents job and all it takes is care. He knew that his daughters were gonna have a hard time adjusting to their new life and shouldve dedicated his time, if not on anything else, to ensuring that his family remained together and tight knit. Instead he just sat silently while feyre and nesta ripped each other apart and deteriorate their relationship further. He had no problem giving elain all his attention so why not so the same for feyre and nesta? He was wrong, lazy and incompetent as a parent. Even if he couldnt provide financial he could've just done this one emotional task for them which wouldve benefited everyone in the household because that would've taught them to work together and maybe even work for the family together. He was grossly negligent, theres no excuse for that, not when he sat around doing nothing while feyre provided for the household, and blaming nesta for all their conflict is the biggest deflection I've ever seen. It the parents job to provide for their families financially and he failed. It's the parents job to guide their children as they grow and to teach them how to treat each other and he failed at that too. He had one job. Just to be emotionally present and he didnt even bother to do that.

It's not nestas job, and believe me I'm also 3 years older than my sister but we're basically the same level of maturity. If I had the responsibilities that nesta had thrust upon her at that age idk how I would've behaved. But I know that I would've still needed my mother to be there every step of the way as is her duty as a parent. But nesta never had that. She just had a parent who did nothing for them and ignored them more often than not. Anyone else wouldve lashed out.

#nesta archeron

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courtofshipsandillyrianobsession · 5 years

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November without you chapter 4

Azriel couldn’t believe it… He had a mate? And not only that it was the most beautiful female he had ever laid his eyes on… she was sweet and kind and simply adorable… But how could he missed this? He needed answers and he needed them fast. So he went to the roof hoping to clear his mind.

When he arrived, he was clearly surprised when he saw Cassian in there as well.

“Hey brother, what are you doing here?” Azriel stated.

“I should be asking you exact the same thing Az. What’s up with your face? You look like crap” Cassian responded.

“Thanks for your support bro…”

“What the hell are you doing here little brothers?” Rhysand exclaimed as he appeared next to Azriel

“Az was just about to tell us the juicy secret he discovered tonight… What is it bro? Perhaps lady troubles?” Cassian said with a confident smile on his face.

“Shut up you prick. But if you must know I will tell you… I think Elain… you know…”

“Oh is it about my mate’s sister? What happened? Did she heard about the wingspan theory and she asked you if it was true?” Rhys said barely keeping a serious face.

“You assholes could you be serious for one second? I am about to tell you that I think I have found my mate and it’s Elain and you won’t stop making stupid jokes about wingspans” Az said with a threatening tone.

“But she already has a mate. So, it can’t be possible right?” Cassian asked.

“Once… a long time ago, my mother told me it was possible. She told me that old legends stated that the cauldron didn’t care about status, logic or order in any way. She even told me about these high lords that had the same mate. When the female choose one of them, a war almost started between the courts but the abandoned high lord realized that the female would never be completely happy with him, even thought there was a mate bond, because she didn’t choose him on her free will. So, as a matter of fact, it is possible but the cauldron acts on mysterious forces that nobody understands brothers. The real question is: how can you be sure Elain is your mate?”

Azriel told them about the book he have just read and how it all fit perfectly with how he felt about Elain.

“I don’t know brother… I don’t think a book should tell you about who is your mate. To begin with: How does my cousin fit in all this? How do you really feel about Elain?” the night high lord asked

“I don’t know Rhys. I mean how were you sure Feyre was your mate?” the shadowsinger said.

“When Under The Mountain, she was killed indeed and in that moment I was completely sure because it felt like literally my whole existence was just taken away from me. It was as if my wings were teared up in pieces a hundred times. So, that’s why after that just knowing she was alive was a relief for me, even thought, she almost married an ass.”

“So… you are suggesting we put Elain under a completely dangerous situation and if Azriel feels mated we called it a day?” Cassian asked.

“You stupid, you are missing my point. I mean we need a strong emotion between them so we can be completely sure. Perhaps a situation where her life is on the line, a hug, a kiss or even something else. As for Mor, I think you should talk with her and you better get your feelings clear because Elain could find happiness with Lucien and if you are not going completely with Elain, you better not put another weight on her shoulders. I am not telling you this as your high lord, but as your brother” The high lord stated.

“I know, I feel like crap but please just let me be for this night. I need to sleep there were so many things for one day.”

“One would think that after Hybern’s battle nothing could shake the powerful high lord’s spymaster. Funny how it is a girl that yesterday asked me for help to open a pickle jar.” Cassian commented with a smile as he remembered how Elain was having a hard time with that pickle jar.

“May I remind you it was the same girl that killed Hybern and saved your illyrian ass on the same day?” Azriel said with a playful tone.

“Fair enough” the illyrian commander said.

“Thanks brothers, I really appreciate it, but I think that it was a lot to process in one night. I think I need some rest” Azriel stated as he standed up.

“Me too, Feyre’s being in a strange mood lately” Rhys responded.

“Aren’t you coming Cass?” Azriel asked as he approached his room.

“No, I think I just stay here for a little while more” the illyrian commander stated as his brothers left him. Cass was thinking about a certain female that left him enchanted since the moment he laid his eyes on her. She was fierce and unstoppable but she was stubborn as a goat, and what was worst: she despised him. As he was thinking about these, he heard a pair of steps approaching him. When he turned around, what he expected the least was seeing Elain with a sunflower pot, ignoring him.

“Hey, what are you doing here miss Archeron?”. She stumbled while she looked at him with with her brown eyes wide open.

“What? Oh I didn’t notice you were here mister commander. Sorry I will be going” She said while Cas could imagine how badly Elain was blushing.

“No, no excuse me my lady. It’s your house too. I mean is there something causing you trouble that I could help you with?. It’s my duty to take care of you. And please, no mr. commander, Cas is fine”

“NO, it’s nothing mister… I mean Cas” the seer mumbled the last word.

“Look, mistress. We can do this: I will tell you something nobody knows about me and in exchange you tell me what is really going on. Really, I have been dealing lately with a lot myself and believe me, at some point you will explode. Going around carrying heavy burdens it’s not nice at all. Here it goes, when no one is watching, I go out to the a little restaurant where there serve a pizza and I always ask for one and I put chocolate syrup on top and I eat it by myself and I tell no one because Az and Rhys think is gross”

Cas felt relieved as he heard Elain’s laughter bursting in the middle of the night. He knew he it was a funny story but he understand it all when she whispered.

“I love putting ice cream on fries, but once Nesta catched me doing it and told me it was gross, since that day on, once a week I woke up in the middle of the night and go to the kitchen and prepare some vanilla ice cream with fries. Siblings are the worst”

Cas couldn’t hold it and started to laugh too. After that they started joking for a while, but Cas was still worried.

“Really mistress, can you tell me what is going on? I promise you I will tell no one, not even Rhys or Az… ” the illyrian stated as he emphasized the last part.

Elain hesitated for a long time. Cas stood there in silence. He was just about to tell her that it was fine if he didn’t wanted to tell him, but then she started talking.

“Days ago, Lucien brought me this sunflower, at first I thought it was no big deal. But this past few days I felt as if the sunflower was drawing me to it. I mean, I know it sounds crazy but last night I tried to use my seer powers on it and I think I invoked a sunray. I am no completely sure, I mean it could just be a vision but I came here to try to invoke sunrays again.”

Cassian was expecting a lot of things, except that one. He stood there with his eyes and mouth wide open. He tried to maintain serious once again when he stated:

“Look Elain there’s not much I can help you with, Magic is Az’s business. But I can be your friend, someone you can trust and if you let me I could hear you every time you need it. Also, Az told me about Lucien’s incident. If you want I could teach you a few basics to defend yourself. Even if you want to know about magic or anything else, I can show you the library”

“Thanks, I would really appreciate all the help I could get and please tell no one about this” the seer said. She was really surprised how fast this illyrian have managed to earn her trust but then she remembered how much he cared for her sisters and she assumed that in this moment, she could trust him more than in Nesta.

“Okay then see you tomorrow miss, have a nice sleep”the commander responded.

“Yes goodnight Cass. By the way; it’s Elain not miss Archeron”

“Well then goodnight, El”

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