Honestly, the whole reason I identify as genderfuck/fagdyke is because of how i grew up. I was expected to be a straight girl, a butch, a gay boy and a straight boy all at the same time. I had people telling me to marry a man and be a wife, while i had others telling me i was their husband. One would call me a cute dyke, the other would say he wasn't a fag. I was too masc to be a girl to a boy, i was just right to call myself a dyke to girls. I've been bullied for being a 'fag', until they found out I was afab... then i was just a 'dyke'. I've had boyfriend's who would call me their boyfriend, i had girlfriends that would call be their girlfriend. My family would ask me to just be butch instead of trans, when they found out I wasn't gonna change they begged me to be a straight man... regardless of what I chose they wanted me to be perceived as straight by whoever saw me.
I grew up in such a way that allowed me to experience both worlds of being a fag and a dyke. I was never one or the other, I was both at the same time. In my mind I never cared. I loved myself enough to embrace both and love the people I did. Absolutely nothing could narrow down my experiences as both.
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