That pandemic shit to be over
People grow apart however, the journey they share will always be a part of them.
You know when you think you’re doing better, but then suddenly it’s like you’re back at square one trying to survive the minutes and it feels like the end of the world because you feel like you’ll never get better and find stability in yourself
I hate myself and don’t want to be here anymore
“It takes ten times as long to put yourself back together as it does to fall apart.”
-Mockingjay, Suzanne Collins
Was helping clean for Passover & before ya know it K and I are fighting in front of his whole family 🙃
Just trying to fall asleep not fall apart…
Most people, when they feel the weight of a thousand tears, cuts and lead-bags of guilt tug their heart into the darkness-
They want nothing more then just someone, and generally they want that someone holding them.
I want that someone to hold.
I’m struggling, falling back into my old toxic ways. Can anyone hear my crys, my screams for help? No one cares, this I know is fact. So here I go, walking straight into the void.
Very very very tired of being a second choice…
Already wrote and posted two chapters to my new story today…and I’m still aching to write more??
It’s kind of refreshing to write about such dark and personal subjects…ive been occupied with happy go lucky stories so far and I think I needed the change of pace.
If you are wondering what story I’m talking about, It’s called Falling Apart.
Und ich frage mich Tag für Tag wieso ich noch hier bin…
Control your sadness before it controls you…
I’m inching towards bre
i am on the floor, i’m in a strangers bed. i am wanting for more, i’m caught up in my head. i’m under the shower as i let my thoughts devour - all that i remember of you. begging and pleading haven’t gotten me far yet. i don’t when we lost it. just tell me and be honest: what has love made of me?
Depression is living in a body that fights to survive, with a mind that tries to die.
I never felt so uneasy to do normal tasks than I did yesterday. Maybe it’s just the thought of this whole virus thing. I mean granted it hasn’t changed any aspect of my life, I’m an essential worker (petrol attendant) so I still have to work. There is jus something unsettling about needed to work/go to the shops that just threw me out of whack completely. So I went home as fast as I could and decided to sleep for a while - something I haven’t done in a month or so. Let’s hope it’s not me getting worse again.