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ahiddenpath · 2 years

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Growing Up with You “Podcast”

Growing Up with You turns TEN this year, on September 30th! To celebrate, and to show the fic to my newer followers, I wanted to talk about the fic, the development, what I liked, what I’d change, stuff like that! There is a loose transcript beneath the cut. The audio is about half an hour long (yikes!). I commissioned the art above from Mitty.

Content warning for mentions of (nonspecific) emotional abuse.

Transcript beneath the cut!

GUWY Podcast

Intro

Hey, it’s Hidden! I decided to talk about my fics, starting with the oldest and working my way up to the newest. My oldest fic was posted on September 30th, 2012, meaning that it’s almost 10 years old! Folks come and go to the fandom all the time, so I wanted to shine some light on these older stories.

I’ll be discussing things like themes, characterizations, where I was in my life when I wrote the fic and how that influenced the story, what I’d change if I could, what I like best, ect. It’s a lot to cover, so I’m going to move right on.

GUWY Summary

Growing Up with You is one of those dreaded “rewrite canon with an OC” fics. It’s a complete fic that ran from 2012 through 2017 and is over 420,000 words long! It’s about 4 to 5 novels long, assuming the average novel is 95,000 words long (that’s an averaged length taken across genres).

GUWY follows the story from Digimon Adventure, 02, and some of the movies, but there is a lot of unique/new content. It stars OC Eimi Anami, my main OC, and Koushiro. For the majority of the story, they’re close friends, but they eventually become love interests towards the final arc.

It’s difficult to summarize what this fic, maybe because it so expansive. But -- it intimately shows Eimi and Koushiro growing up and coming into themselves- which introduces a wide variety of themes.

GUWY Themes

It’s impossible to encapsulate everything here, but some thematic highlights include:

-Growing up in an emotionally abusive household and learning to cope with the resulting trauma

-Independence vs dependence, the dangers of taking either to an extreme

-Toxic self-sacrifice

-Valuing everyone’s strengths and understanding their weaknesses; not everyone has to be good at everything; certain strengths are not superior to others

-The importance of clear, open communication and the dangers of resentment and keeping quiet for the perceived sake of peace

-A long and winding exploration of what strength is, especially for a girl who is becoming a young woman

And to really dig into these, we have to understand who Eimi is, so let’s move on to her!

Anami Eimi

Eimi is the younger child of Anami Eiji and Umeko. Her brother, Junichi, is about three years older. She is in Koushiro and Mimi’s year at school. She bears the crest of Integrity and is partnered to Galemon.

Eimi is a steadfast sort. I like to describe her as the first to cry and the last one standing, simultaneously soft and strong. She’s smart, cautious, and guarded. Although her emotional intelligence is high and her social skills are strong, she isn’t very outgoing. In a group, she is watchful and quiet- until something tugs at her sense of right and wrong, or triggers concern for safety.

In the first arc of the story, we watch Eimi shift from a bossy, confident child to a shy, anxious one, dependent on Koushiro and Taichi for a sense of security. The change is due to her increased understanding of the emotional abuse happening in her home. During the beginning of her time in the Digital World, she hovers around Taichi and Koushiro and grows increasingly upset as they are (understandably) unable to attend to her emotional needs. Her digimon partner, Galemon, encourages her to take action on her own, move away from her dependent behavior, and make new friends.

Eimi is still growing by the end of GUWY, so it’s hard to say where she “ends up.” Her story continues in Tri: Integrity Lens, where her steadfast nature is shining. I’d say that, these days, she is still watchful, hardworking, and earnest, but she’s more confident and has a healthier attachment style. Currently, she’s struggling with taking on too much, all while telling the other Chosen to lean on one another and avoid taking on too much, which I think is peak Eimi.

My Fandom Background

For reference, I watched the English dub of Digimon Adventure when it first aired in the states in 1999. I was ten (the same age as Mimi and Koushiro). I wrote digimon fanfics from roughly 2000 to 2004, then left the fandom. I returned in September 2012 as ahiddenpath and launched my Tumblr blog in May 2013 to share art from my fics.

My State While Writing GUWY

My fics aren’t necessarily a reflection of my personality, but they are a reflection of what I was going through while writing them. When I say that I write to take care of myself, this is a big part of what I mean. I work through my thoughts on things that are happening to me/weighing on my heart and mind at the time.

GUWY was my first fic as ahiddenpath, so I guess I’ll get this out of the way here. Eimi is meant to be an original character, not a self-insert, and no, my name is not Amy! There is a lot of overlap between our personalities, but there are some big differences, too. The main one I explored in GUWY is that Eimi responded to her abusive environment by becoming too dependent on the few people she deemed safe. I responded to a similar environment by becoming hyper independent. Independence vs dependence was likely the only intentional theme from day one. Everything else just kind of… evolved along the way.

When I started GUWY in 2012, I had graduated college a little over a year ago, and mentally, I was in a bad way. Sometimes, after you fully separate from an abusive environment and find yourself somewhere safe, you actually fall apart worse than when you weren’t safe! When you’re actively in danger, people tend to focus on staying safe. When you are safe, there is no longer a need to maintain a front, tip toe around, or just generally focus your energy into staying safe. You might suddenly have time, space, and safety to think, to feel, to reflect- which means that you might begin to understand the damage inflicted more clearly than ever. And when it was inflicted by family, people who are meant to love and protect you most, that realization can be devastating.

That, I think, is why GUWY is easily my most raw and visceral fic. These days, I look at it and think, wow, I had no discretion or subtlety in my writing back then! But I also know that the raw feelings are what readers respond to and relate to.

I think this is kind of… the strongest feature of GUWY? Adults who went through emotional abuse as children don’t have much media showing a character separating and slowly struggling to cope with what happened to them. Normally, the abuse is shown to stem from a misunderstanding, and the family reunites. We don’t often see what happens when this isn’t the case.

In fact, most of the Chosen kids are going through some kind of family misunderstanding, and they grow in the Digital World and use their new experience to improve their family situations during Vamdemon’s Siege of Odaiba. I think one of the things that worked out best about GUWY is that Eimi fills a unique space in the cast. Her family problems can’t be improved by any amount of growth on her end, because her parents fail to see any problem, and can never be made to see one. In most families, damage can be addressed and healed. But in some, it simply cannot. Instead of using her new growth and strength in an attempt to remove salt from the sea, Eimi uses it to navigate her situation and slowly work towards a safer one- and then to recover when she finds herself there.

Even in Tri: Integrity Lens, that recovery is ongoing, which is very important to me. There is no complete healing from an emotionally abusive childhood. We learn to cope and try our best ensure that the cycle of abuse ends with us. It’s not a clean, happy ending, but I think the truth of it resonates with people who have been through something similar.

Characterization in GUWY

GUWY is my biggest mess! I didn’t see the Japanese subbed until Netflix offered it around 2015, so some of the characterizations change drastically over time, as I began blending the English and Japanese characterizations. There are more mistakes in terminology/honorifics than I can begin to name. I also aged everyone up about two years, because I always assumed the characters were older than me when I originally watched the show.

The Development of GUWY and Galemon

I wish I could tell you that I carefully and lovingly planned this story. Alas, I did not. It’s a visceral, 100% seat of my pants work. In fact, I wrote the entire Glen introduction chapter on a whim! Justice and the anomaly stuff were not originally planned. I think the only bit that received proper planning was the arc where Eimi moves to the states, and where she begins to live more independently and recover directly after.

There are also a few things that are just… dropped. For example, Galemon was meant to never speak names because of the inherent power they contain, drawing from Irish faerie lore, but I never explored that. Also, Galemon has no physical voice because Eimi felt that she didn’t have one when Galemon was made- ie, at the beginning of the Digital World arc. Her bossiness is meant to reflect Eimi’s early childhood bossiness and assertiveness, which she loses along the way. She uses shields because Eimi feels unsafe all the time, and security is what she wants most. And her ability to see into Eimi’s mind was, I think, my way of making sure that there was someone out there who understood Eimi, despite her talent for keeping her thoughts to herself.

Speaking of Galemon, I originally designed her when I was ten, and I think that shows! I was an enormous fan of Lisa Frank, and a huge marine biology dork- I read marine life books the way many kids read dinosaur books- and I think I smushed those concepts together! I also designed Eimi’s physical appearance and outfit at age ten, although back then, she was purely a self-insert with a different name and personality. I loved how much she visually fits in with the other Chosen- she looks like a child dressing herself, is what I mean- so I kept the design.

What Would I Change About GUWY?

I won’t lie; I’ve often considered editing GUWY. Naturally, I’m a better writer ten years later, and I would love to make the fic its best self. However, I’m aware that its rawness might be its greatest strength, so I’d have to be careful not to remove that. I would definitely save the edited version as a new Scrivener file, so the old won’t be lost.

Obviously, I’d fix the terminology/honorifics problems and make sure the names are all from the original Japanese, and not an awkward mix of English and Japanese (with a few exceptions). I’d likely tweak some characterizations, too. I’d keep the ages as they are, though, mostly because of the romance elements towards the end of the story.

The largest element I’d like to add is an expansion on Eimi meeting the Chosen when she first goes to the Digital World. At the time, I didn’t know how to handle scenes with so many characters- which remains a challenge- and I zipped right by it for that reason. But establishing a baseline for how Eimi interacts with everyone is important later, so I want to give that area more love.

Other than that, I’d try to fix the “show, don’t tell” issues that I so often had back then. For example, Eimi has a tendency to stand up and give pontificating speeches at the most dramatic parts of her arcs. I’d like to tweak things so that her actions speak for themselves, instead of relying on grand speeches.

The Future of Eimi’s Story

Eimi’s story continues in Tri: Integrity Lens! It’s on hiatus at the time of this recording, but I will return to it either after I finish Puits d’Amour or when I hit a point there where I feel it’s a good place to swap to another fic while I develop the other in the background.

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pebblysand · 2 years

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Happy Sunday! Hopefully, the sun is shining wherever you are and if you are bored, why not take a walk/go to beach with a bit of fanfiction chat serenading you?

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redz0nez9 · 26 days

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Matthew Sturniolo pt 8 & He so Lana Del Rey coded

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eviesrambles · 2 years

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I write fanfiction anonymously... So I have a podcast about it. 😝

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chadfallout76podcast · 1 month

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FALLOUT 4:

"DEATH SHROUD" SERIES UPDATE!

Check out the AMAZING artwork tumblr artist @rad-roche did for our second installment in the Death Shroud! series. This story is titled, "The Cat's Paw", and will see an even BIGGER cast of voice actors returning to reprise their roles this May to benefit Wes Johnson's VoiceAPalooza charity drive for the Alzheimer's Association.

Please note that the voice cast list may change as more people confirm, so this is likely NOT the final art.

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samandcolby-ownme · 1 month

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Summary: Anon request - "But what about reader and Zach like having Seggs 20 minutes before the podcast so that during the podcast reader is just next to Zach and like holding his hand and kinda just after sex clingy but before the cameras start rolling they have a cute little moment in the studio while everyone's there like Tara Alissa ad jared and they just think it's the cutest sorry if this is stupid"

Warnings: SMUT18+, strong language, the smut will be right off of the bat so be prepared, hair pulling, unprotected sex, banter from Zach, flirting, post sex clingy-ness, fluff

Word count: 3.1K | not edited

This is my first solo Zach one shot. Enjoy!

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"We got twenty minutes before show time."

Zach squeezes your shoulders and you turn your head, "Twenty you say?" A smirk grows across your lips as he nods and you turns around to face him, "Lead the way, babe."

"That's my girl." He smirks, sliding his hand down to meet yours. His fingers interlock with yours before he pulls you with him down the hall and up the steps.

He pushes open a door, pulling you in. He shuts the door with your body, pinning it against as he reaches down to twist the lock.

Your lips crash together in a fiery embrace, your hands on either side of his neck.

He leans down, hooking his hands on the back of your thighs and lifts you up and your legs move to their place around his waist.

He moves to kiss down your neck, a small moan escapes your lips as your hand moves to slide through his hair, and your head tilts to give him more room.

"Mm." You whimper, "Not much time."

"Yeah, yeah. You and your time." He sets you down, a smile on his lips as he shrugs off his black leather jacket.

You tilt your head, "Did you wear that for me?"

He shrugs, "Maybe."

"It's hot." You scrunch up your nose, smirking as you lean down to take off your pants and underwear. He lays his fingers under your chin, "I know."

He smirks and undoes his belt, pushing his jeans and boxers down just enough for his cock to spring free.

"You're so full of yourself, you know that?" You wrap your arms around his neck, jumping up for him to catch you.

He laughs, "Yeah, you're about to be full of me, too."

You bite down on your lip, resting your head back against the door as you feel him guide his cock into your already soaked entrance.

You let out a gasp, your fingers grasping the hair at the nape of his neck, "Shit."

A low groan escapes his lips as rests for a quick moment. He slides his arms under your legs and begins to thrusts.

You tilt your head down, lips parted, brows furrowed as you stare at him, whimpering and moaning out his name, "Z-Zach.. yesyesyes."

Your back arches against the door, nails dig into his skin, "Fuck fuck fuck."

His lip is pulled between his teeth, breath growing faster and faster with each thrusts, "You feel so good."

He pulls you away from the door, moving you over to lay on the bed. His body over yours as he resumes his thrusts.

Your arms wrap tightly around his neck, "S-so close. So close."

His lips kiss your neck, moving up towards your lips, "Cum for me, babe. You can do it." He slides a hand down, gripping your upper thigh, "Cause I'm right there with ya."

Your back arches off the best, chest pressing against his as your walls tighten around him. His name leaves your lips in a slightly loud tone.

"S-Shi-" you gasp, clinging to him as you cum. He groans as he feels your walls pulsating around him, urging him to cum next.

You feel his cock slip out and his cum spills onto your waist with a moan from his lips.

He tilts his head down, smirking as he admires how you look under him, "We can pick up where we left off after."

You look at him and he winks, which causes you to giggle, "Sounds good to me." You watch as he moves off of you, bending down to pick up a towel for you to wipe off with.

Once clean, you stand up and take your pants from him. You slip on your panties and put on your pants and fix your hair.

"Oh.." you walk over to Zach, "hold on." You reach up, fixing his hair and he smiles at you, "My own personal hairdresser. Gotta love it."

You roll your eyes, "Uh huh." You smile, "alright. Come on."

He smiles, taking your hand into his and he unlocks the door and you walk out with him, making your way down the steps to find everyone ready to roll.

Everyone on the set knew you and Zach were a thing.

Hell, they called it before you and Zach even thought of it.

"Ew. I know what you two were doing." Jared points and Zach taps his chin, "Did you know you have something right there?"

Jared wipes his face, "What? What is it?"

"Jealousy." Zach laughs and leads you over to your seat. Jared scoffs, "No. that's not at all-" he turns to Alyssa, "Is there really something on my chin?"

Alyssa laughs, "No, Jared. He's fucking with you."

"You asshole." Jared laughs and walks to his seat. Tara comes in, "Sorry I'm late, but I'm here."

"Oh my god, you brought Sugar!" You lean down, holding out your hands for Tara's dog to come over to you, "Hi baby!"

You pick him up and set him on your lap.

Tara comes over, sitting down on the other end of the bench, "He got all excited when I said we're going to see you."

"Oh my god, that's adorable." You smile, leaning down to kiss the top of his head.

You look up at Zach and his eyes are just glued to you, "Such a cute little puppy." He smirks, "Sugar is cute, too, I guess."

Your mouth drops but you can't help but laugh, "Rude."

He shrugs, "I gotta pick on you, you know that."

"You guys are so cute, it actually kind of hurts." Alyssa says with a laugh and Tara nods, "No I was actually thinking the same thing."

You can feel your cheeks heating up and you move your hand as Sugar moves towards Tara, "Alright, let's do this."

You, along with everyone else, puts on their headphones and you look at Zach. He looks at Alyssa and she gives him a thumbs up.

"Hello everybody, welcome back or welcome to Dropouts!" Zach starts out, "We have a pretty full house today, every mic is taken."

He looks around, "Did anyone have to do that thing in school where they had to go around and say their name and one thing about themselves because I think that's what we should do."

"Are you serious?" Jared laughs and Zach gives him a serious, plain look, "Dead, and you can start."

Jared sighs, "What's up. I'm Jared, I'm nineteen and I never fucking learned how to read."

You and Tara instantly burst out laughing.

"That was good!" You point to Jared, "I honestly wasn't expecting that." Tara leans over, laughing, "Oh my god."

Alyssa laughs, pointing to Zach, "Do you know what he's referencing?"

"Isn't that a video from the now prehistoric app, Vine?" Zach asks and Jared dies laughing, "Correct."

Zach raises his brows, "Oh my god, anyway." He tries not to laugh and nods to Tara to go. She takes a deep breath, "I'm Tara and I'm the First Lady of juicy couture."

You point to her, "You sure are."

She laughs and motions for you to go, "I'm y/n, and I'm-"

Zach cuts you off, "Totally in love with Zach Justice."

Everyone goes silent and you look over at him, "I mean, that's kind of obvious I thought." You laugh reaching your hand out, "But yeah, we can go with that."

Zach smiles and takes your fingers into his. You move closer to the end of the bench, if it was possible to be right next to him you would.

You always get clingy after sex, and doing a show right after was rough because you just want to cuddle him, but that isn't an available option right now.

"So cute it hurts." Jared winces and sighs.

"Actually, can we talk about that for a second?" Tara leans into her mic, smiling as she points between you and Zach.

"You mean yap?" Zach rolls his eyes, thumb rubbing over your fingers.

Tara laughs slightly, "Well yeah, but first we can let Alyssa say her name and the one thing you're forcing us all to say."

"Do I have a gun to your head?" Zach looks at Alyssa, "Can we make it clear that I am not standing behind you holding something to your head and forcing you to read a script?"

"I mean, yeah. Zach is totally not standing behind me forcing me to read something that he wrote out on a piece of paper." Alyssa laughs, "I'm Alyssa, and I just love this job so much."

You smile, looking back at Tara, "What do you wanna talk about?"

"Yap." Zach corrects you, "It's never just talking with her."

You squeeze his hand, "Be nice." You smile and Zach nods, "Yes mom. I mean, ma'am."

"Dude." Jared laughs, shaking his head, "Nice save."

Zach smirks and looks at Tara and Tara sighs, "Well first off, is it okay that we talk about this? Like I know that you guys kind of were keeping it just between us five."

You look at Zach and he shrugs, "Bound to get out at some point, might as well come from the Queen yapper herself."

Tara smirk, "Aw, Zach. You think I'm a Queen?"

"Oh yapland. Sure." Zach tries not to laugh, but you laugh, "I'm getting you a tiara that says that."

"Oh my god, please do." Tara laughs, "Okay, so anyway. For the listeners of this podcast, what we're talking about right now is the fact that y/n and Zach are a thing and as Alyssa said, they're so cute it actually hurts."

Zach gasps, "Me and who!?" He lays a hand on his chest, "This is news to me."

"Oh my gosh, shut up." You look at him, smiling huge and he smiles back at you, "Kidding. Kidding."

"Tara, this is like you're telling the world a big government secret." Jared laughs and Alyssa nods, "To some people it probably is."

You laugh, "I'm sure, but I promise I'll take good care of him."

You look over and Zach smirks, but before you can say anything it's too late, "Yeah she does."

"Zach. Ew!" Jared, Tara, and Alyssa all say at the same time and Zach's mouth drops, "You guys need to get your mind out of the gutter because I meant she takes good care of me as in I always have someone to laugh at, I mean laugh with."

Your mouth drops and you just stare at him, fighting back a smirk, "You know I was thinking the same thing."

Zach rolls his eyes, "You know what?"

"What?" You tilt your head and he shakes his head, "I'm not saying it because people will take what I say out of context."

"Don't we always?" Tara furrows her brows and laughs, "Anyway, I figured we could talk about how you and him ended up an official thing."

"Can I just-" Alyssa raises her hand, "Can I just cut in to say that Tara and I called this a while ago. Like after the second time you were on I think, y/n."

"Yeah, yeah, Tara told me about that. She actually texted me the one day and was like, you and Zach are totally going to be a thing, and I was like in denial at first but then it just.. I don't know.." you look over at Zach, "Progressed into us flirting until one of us was like look, this is what's happening."

"So who was it?" Jared asks getting the attention, "Who came onto who to finally move it from the friend zone into the end zone?"

You laugh and Zach leans in, "y/n."

"I don't think.." you laugh, "No." You stop laughing, "Was it?"

Zach stares at you, "I can pull up the texts right now."

"Do it!" Tara yells, and you tilt your head, "You know what.. I think it was, something about me wanting to sleep in his stupid shirts and hold his stupid hand or something like that."

Zach smirks, nodding his head, "There ya go, sweetheart. Now you're on the right track."

You can feel your cheeks forming into a deeper shade of pink, "He's actually going to show you guys the messages."

"Oh no, babe. I'm reading them out loud." He laughs slightly and holds his phone up as he reaches for your hand again.

Your hand instantly goes into his and you lean towards him, "What's it say?"

Zach clears his throat, "So it was just us talking back and forth, mainly us trying to get each other to admit that we liked each other." Zach scrolls down, "And then Y/n just says, I want to sleep in your stupid tshirts and hold your stupid hand, Zach."

Aw's from the three others in the room emerge and you shake your head, "Yeah, yeah, it's cute or whatever." You lay your hand over your face and Zach laughs, "And I must have been caught off guard because I really didn't expect her to say anything like that, so all I said back was, well damn."

"Well damn?" Jared laughs, "That's not very romantic, Zach. What did y/n say after that?"

"She honestly didn't respond for a little bit, so I was actually kind of having an, okay I ruined it, moment, but then she answered with an, that's all you have to say?" Zach laughs and you nod, "Well yeah, I poured my heart out to you and all I get back is a well damn."

"I mean, I wouldn't have responded right away either." Tara laughs, "But that is such a Zach thing to do."

You nod, "That's why I gave it a minute because I had to remind myself that that was Zach we're talking about." You laugh, looking over at him, "And yeah. Now we're, what? Seven.. almost eight months into this thing?"

Zach nods, "Eight months of my life that I don't want back."

"Who even are you?" Jared looks at him shocked, "Like.. the man that is sitting across from me right now.. is literally.. dare I say.. almost nice?"

"You're pushing it." Zach points to Jared and Jared raises his hands, "No, like I was talking to Alyssa about it a while back and I told her, I think it was before you guys officially told us. I said to her that who ever is bringing out the best in him, needed to stay connected to him."

"That is true." Alyssa nods, "And I knew it would be y/n, like just the way that they were looking at each other gave it away."

"Yeah they literally.. I don't even know to explain it, like, it's a connection that can't be explained unless you're with them in person." Tara nods, smiling at you.

"Yeah, I guess I just fucked around and got attached to you." You smirk, looking over at Zach and he smirks, "Now, I'm going to say this, but it's not like what it sounds, okay?"

"That.. doesn't sound like a good thing." Jared shakes his head, "But go on, please."

"You suck sometimes, only because ever since you been around, I've been smiling a lot more than I used to, and that just ruins my mysterious, serious look." Zach laughs slightly, "But I'd still do anything for you."

You pout, "You're such an asshole."

"Yeah, yeah, I love you too, princess." Zach laughs slightly and Tara scoffs, "I don't.." she laughs, "I've been seeing this you know, sweeter side of Zach come out over these last few months but it still catches me off guard when something nice follows his, I don't even know, jerkish comments."

"Yeah but she knows that I don't mean anything in a wrong way." Zach squeezes your hand, "Right? Say that you know."

He tries not to laugh, but fails when you make a face at him, "She knows."

You laugh, "If Zach didn't pick on me daily, then I would know that there's something up. But I honestly think that goes for everyone who knows him."

Alyssa nods, "I always think to myself before coming in, what out of pocket thing is Zach going to say to me today?"

"I have nightmares about him just being so mean to me." Tara says and Zach looks at her, "Do you really?"

Tara nods, "Yeah."

"Tell me what I've said to you." Zach tilts his head and Tara laughs, "No because you'll just write them down and use them against me."

"Everyone here knows how you are, Zach." Jared laughs and Zach stares at him, "Shut up, you don't even know how to read."

You all burst out laughing and Zach shakes his head, "And they say I'm mean to them."

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After the podcast ends, you hang your headphones on the mic stand and stand up to stretch.

Zach pushes his mic out of the way and extends his arms out to you, "C'mere."

You walk over to him and he pulls you into his lap, arms around your waist as his head rests on your shoulder.

This is exactly what you wanted to do the whole time.

"You know there's rooms upstairs right?" Jared teases and Zach gasps, "Really? I didn't know we had an upstairs, that's so cool."

You laugh, resting your head against Zach's, "You guys kill me."

Zach lifts his head, moving to lay his head on your chest, "Liar, I can hear that heart thumping away in there."

You roll your eyes, laying a hand on his head, "I think that was just an excuse for you to be close to my boobs."

You feel Zach's body move as he laughs, "Maybe."

Jared scoffs, "Get a room." He walks away and you feel Zach sit up, so you look over at him with a smirk.

He looks at you, "You know what.." his hand slides down to your thigh, "I think we will."

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I hope you liked this! I know there isn't really much Zach stuff, so I hope this is good enough!

As always, let me know how you liked it! Love you all, thank you for reading! 🖤

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roseanddaggerpodcast · 3 months

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EPISODE 59: TALKING ABOUT HYBRID FICS

We discuss the hybrid trope (animals, not cars).

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sagechanoafterdark · 1 year

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It's here!! It's here!! The first episode is here!!

Proud to drop the first episode of The SmutHub Podcast hosted by @thelemonadestxnd and myself.

Earlier this week we posted a 10 minute preview for the first episode and we were both super excited to post! Tragically our original recording became corrupted and we lost most of the first episode conversation. It was heartbreaking, but instead of starting from scratch we decided to press on and post as is with 20 glorious minutes of fandom origin stories and laughs.

We're still working on a few aspects of the podcast so keep an ear out for our new updated format as we learn along the way!

I want to give huge props to @thelemonadestxnd. She is recorder, mixer, editor and handler of any and all technical sides, something I'm so grateful for. I want to thank her for letting me come along on this journey and teaching me some stuff along the way. 💕

You can catch the SmutHub Podcast on both Apple Music and Spotify!

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cutielando · 2 months

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always ~ max verstappen

Summary: When Max can't deal with the hate he gets from his fans, you are there to help him through it and give his fans a piece of your mind.

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Max got hate.

It was a known fact, but one you vehemently despised. It broke your heart seeing the comments on posts, hearing what people thought of your boyfriend and what things they had to say about him.

Everyone hated people when they were at their best, they loved dragging them through the mud. Max had started getting a lot of hate after winning his second World Champion title. Due to the fact that he always stated that he didn't care about anyone's opinion of him, it only added to the fuel of hate already coming in.

The biggest amount of hate came swirling in after he had won his third World Championship. Max had absolutely dominated the 2023 season, rendering it obvious that he would be the one ending up winning the Championship once again.

As amazing as that was, the fans didn't seem to share the same thoughts. They started spreading hate that Max was taking all the fun out of the sport, that the races had become predictable and a lot of fans had given up watching because they had got sick of seeing Max win all the time. It broke your heart when you would see the toll it would have on your boyfriend.

The night after you guys celebrated in style in the clubs of Qatar, the mood dropped when you guys made it back to the hotel and Max finally opened his phone.

You had been taking your make-up off, starting on your night skincare routine, while Max settled on changing out of his clothes and getting into bed.

"Max?" you called out, the silence coming from the room being unusual for your boyfriend. He was always one to talk about everything and anything while you did your skincare, knowing you would get bored otherwise.

No response.

It made you slightly suspicious, but you let it go for the moment, figuring he had just fallen asleep.

Finishing up, you dried your hands and tied your hair in a loose ponytail before exiting the bathroom. You, however, were not prepared for the sight that met your eyes.

Max was sitting at the edge of the bed, silently sobbing in his hands, his phone discarded on the floor by his feet. You immediately sat down next to him, enveloping him in your arms.

"Shh, it's okay. I'm here, you're okay" you cooed in his ear, rubbing soothing circles on his back and whispering sweet nothings in his ear.

His sobs were wrecking his body, his tears soaking up your shirt. He was holding onto you tightly, afraid that you would just vanish in thin air if he let go of you for even a second. You didn't know what had brought this on, Max had never been one to cry or let what others said about him affect him.

His sobs slowly started dissipating and turning into little sniffles after a while, his body now void of any tension, slumped against your own tiredly.

"Do you want to talk about it?" your voice was soft, your hands still caressing his soft hair and his back.

He was silent for a moment, so you didn't press any further. You didn't want to make him feel obligated to talk about what was bothering him if he didn't want to.

"They all hate me" he spoke up, making your eyebrows furrow.

"Who hates you?" you questioned, still keeping up your soothing motions.

"The fans. They all hate me because I've come first this season. They're all saying they hate the sport because of me and that I never give anyone else a chance and it-s getting boring. It's not my fault that I win, I just do it because I like it" he confessed, sniffling before straightening up and pulling away from you.

You shook your head, watching him as he picked up his phone from off the ground. He unlocked it and glanced at it for a second before handing it to you.

"He's taking all the fun out of the sport, I gave up watching it because of him"

"He should honestly just give up and make some room for other people. Nobody likes him winning all the time"

"He's definitely cheating, there is no way someone is that dominant compared to all the other drivers. Does Red Bull honestly want us to believe he's winning on pure talent and with a good car? Not buying it"

"Max should go and kill himself, nobody wants him in this sport anymore. It was fun at first, but now it's making me hate even hearing about Formula 1"

The comments made your heart break little by little. You couldn't understand how people could be so cruel, how they could hate on someone so dedicated and talented, judging him for anything he did.

"Oh, baby. None of those things are true, Max" you said to him while cupping his face, but he shook his head and looked down.

"It is, they're right. Maybe I should just retire and stop racing, that way everything could go back to normal" he shrugged, but the idea sounded ridiculous to you.

"Baby, listen to me. Those people have no idea what they're talking about. They have no idea how much work you put in during the whole year to be able to drive the car. Nobody knows how much pressure you're under, they have no idea. Baby, you've worked so hard to get here and it's finally paying off. You're so talented, so driven and so dedicated to this sport, your wins and titles are just the fruit of your labor. Don't let people tear you down just because they're frustrated and have no idea what they're talking about" a new wave of tears started falling from his eyes and down his cheek, but he was smiling at you this time.

"I don't deserve you" he whispered, hugging you and burying his head into the crook of your neck.

"You deserve me and everything that you have achieved. I love you, and I am proud of you. Next time you're feeling like this, please come to me. I hate seeing you cry over this" you felt him nod, which brought small relief to your heart.

"I love you too. Thank you for always being here for me, I don't know how I would be able to cope with everything if it wasn't for you" he replied, leaving small kisses on your neck.

"You're never going to have to know what it's like without me. I never plan to leave" you reassured him, giving him a squeeze.

You couldn't even begin to thank your lucky stars for giving you such a perfect boyfriend, someone you were sure you were going to love for the rest of your life.

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