Omg, I actually did it! I finally joined a queer dating/friendship app!!! EEEEEEK!!! I'm sooooo nervous!!! I literally have almost no queer friends IRL so I don't have anyone to get excited with me!! ๐ฅณ
One of my New Year's resolutions for 2024 was to put myself out in the world more and try my best to be more social, meet new friends (as well as potentially find a partner), and explore all my passions, hobbies, and interests with like-minded people.
As a very shy bisexual woman, it's so hard to meet other queer people, especially when you live in a more conservative area. So when I joined a queer dating/friendship app I was was SO surprised to see how many other lesbian/bi women were located near me.
Also, for some reason I've always had this super toxic thought in my head that queer women wouldn't be attracted to me because of the fact that I'm S U P ER femme/girly and I think I look very 'straight' to the average person assessing me. Trust me when I say I was genuinely SHOCKED at the matches I was getting like??? Why did I think such terrible things about myself and my sexuality? I feel really silly for thinking that and I've realized that I have a lot of inner work to do regarding my sexuality and self-worth.
This is honestly such a new, exciting experience for me and was so healing for my mind and mental health to just be able to communicate and talk with other queer women. I know this isn't writing related but it's really not something I can share with other people or on my other social media (yet) so I knew I had to make this post bc I'm just SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited!!!
It honestly makes me wanna cry a little. It's a very emotional feeling and also feels so freeing to just BE MYSELF and not have to hide my queerness or be afraid that someone is going to find out I'm bisexual and act really awful/disgusted towards me, you know?
Regardless of whether I find a partner or make new friends and whatnot, I'm super proud of myself that I'm not denying this part of myself anymore. I'm exploring my sexuality with people who know what it's like to be queer in this crazy world we live in. It's a really awesome feeling. ๐๐๐๐
Anyways, if you've made it this far thank you so much for reading this silly lil post and wish me good luck! Happy New Year!! ๐
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Hi peepsโฆ
Iโve been thinking about writing this message for a while now. ๐ซถ
I need to start turning down requests I donโt feel I can write. Itโs not a value judgment on the idea submitted at all, just my ability to fulfil it in a way that is up to the quality I would like.
Recently, I posted a fic I donโt particularly like to reduce my wip pile. I did the best I could on it, but the prompt didnโt feel in my wheelhouse, and I just didnโt like the end result very much. I donโt think I should do that anymore - write something just because itโs asked of me. I just feel disappointed in myself and the content.
I know Iโm primarily seen as a request writer, and I know itโs a privilege to get requests, but I hope you can still understand my reasons.
With this spirit in mind, I may well be dropping some requests I have languishing in my pile. Ones where I donโt like what I have been able to come up with so far, or havenโt even been able to start. Again, itโs not a judgement upon your idea at all, just my ability to write it for you.
Apologies to those who may be disappointed, and thank you for your understanding. ๐งก๐งก
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"So how are we going to do this?โ The question posed to Alex from her position in the old armchair, Faye wrapped around herself and holding her mug close. It was still early but she had been up all night with her thoughts. Nerves had been getting to her, the thoughts of being around so much of her partnersโ families and more and more of the town in what was literally their backyard. Even if the area did belong to Arthurโs parents.ย โI donโt want you guys to think Iโm ashamed of you but Iโm really cautious about what people might say or do. Like... Iโm sure someone has noticed that I live here by now and already thinks Iโm a whore because of it.โ Maybe it was a little too early for this conversation and that hit her, holding her mug tighter,ย โSorry, itโs early. Ignore me, go back to bed.โย ย
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Question for the folks on my fic taglistโฆ. Are you getting notifications when I post fics? Please could you comment on this message to let me know?
Last fic I posted was Chapter 7 of It Had To Be You.
A couple of people are reporting that itโs not working for them. ๐ค Iโm hoping itโs not the same for everyone.
Thanks ๐๐งก
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Catching up on thousands of years of human history hasn't been the most pleasant thing in the world, but at least you all thought of putting the most important knowledge in books. The idea of reading through billions of records to understand the evolution of society would be beyond my interests.
Truly incredible what has been achieved and learned over multiple millennia, absolutely fascinating. Some of the commonplaces and subjects of amusement I have yet to understand, however.
At least Faye is able to comprehend the ๐
๐ฏ๐ง๐๐๐ world, well, that probably comes with living in this age.
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โนโ โ CUT & SEWN JUST FOR: @violet-1scrazy
โห๊ฐ๐๊ฑโง BABYDOLL DRESSES : ethan landry, 'in a good way' by faye webster.
โนห. เฑจเง ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐, ๐๐ญ๐ก๐๐ง ๐ฅ๐๐ง๐๐ซ๐ฒ
โ i didn't know that i was capable of bein' happy right now, but you showed me how. โ
warnings โ sfw, reader is stressed, mild academic stress, petnames (angel, baby etc), hurt/comfort, reader's gender is not mentioned. ethan is a corny dork. reader n ethan just loving eachothef.
it was no secret to your boyfriend that you'd been having a hard time lately. it was becoming increasingly harder for you to pull yourself out of bed and the fact that you had 3 overdue assignments didn't help much.
you groaned and turned your alarm to snooze when it went off, rolling over and closing your eyes as you tried to get comfortable. you heard your door click open but made no move to get up and see who it was, your answer given to you by the sound of the intruder's footsteps.
"baby?" ethan spoke up as he sat on the edge of your bed, his right hand resting on your shoulder as the left reached out to gently trace the curves of your face.
"i'm asleep," you grumbled as your eyes remained closed. "leave me to my misery."
ethan let out a soft laugh as he pulled you to turn towards him, you eventually giving up and opening your eyes.
"c'mon, please?" he asked, his eyes taking in your features as they brightened in hue from the sun rays. "i made you french toast and some tea."
you blinked slowly and gave him a sleepy smile, "chamomile?"
ethan leant down to press a gentle kiss to your nose with a grin. "chamomile," he confirmed with a nod.
you gave a sigh and hauled your upper body into a sitting position, stretching with a satisfying pop of your joints. "god, i'm still so behind."
your boyfriend frowned and held your hands in his as he saw the exhausted look on your face. "don't worry about that right now, you haven't eaten properly in days. c'mon, lets go eat something, hm?"
you reluctantly agreed as he helped you out of bed, pulling you by your waist into a hug before he lead you by your hand into the kitchen/dining room of your small apartment. you rubbed your eyes sleepily as you sat on a stool at the bench.
in front of you was a vintage floral ceramic plate with crispy bacon, french toast with maple syrup and powdered sugar and a mug of chamomile tea.
you glanced up at ethan with a smile creeping upon your lips. he looked so happy with himself, he was glad you were finally going to eat a proper meal and he felt even better that he was the one to cook it for you. your nose became tingly with the need to cry as the tears pooled in your waterline.
"eth..." you mumbled and gave a sniffle.
ethan immediately freaked out, his face morphing into concern as he rounded the counter and cupped your face. "why're you crying, angel?" he whispered softly as his left thumb wiped the streaks that ran down your face.
"i just love you so much," you told him as your bottom lip quivered. "so so much, you make me so happy, e."
he let out a breath in relief and nodded, his lips capturing yours in a soft kiss. "i love you too, sweetness. c'mon, have some food now, okay?"
you nodded and began to dig into your breakfast, taking occasional sips of tea as ethan sat next to you. you were unbothered as he sat next to you, his hand tracing circles into the back of your hand as you ate.
you saw the way he looked at you in your peripheral and almost melted, your hands clammy and hot.
"why are you lookin' at me like that?" you giggled as you hid a smile. "i'm sure there are plenty of other interesting things in this world."
"the world?" ethan hummed softly, his head moving to rest on his free hand as he smiled wider; if that was even possible. "it's right in front of me."
your eyes widened as you let out a cough, looking down as you continued to push the final few pieces of bacon around your plate. god, you thought, why does he have to be so stupidly cute and corny.
"you're so cute when you're all flustered, baby," ethan teased with a grin.
"shut up."
RIVER'S BLURB:
thank you so much for this submission, lovely!! i had so much fun writing this especially bc i loveeee faye webster <3 had to give my love to "you make me cry in a good way" with that little scene ofc! kicking off the event requests with yours as the first :D
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