#feeling indigo

[letlovelightlife]

#feeling indigo #navy blue #tssf lyrics #tssf #my jacket at your sister’s wedding

[itseghost]

some essek portrait doodles :] still figuring him out but i do love 2 draw him

#essek theyless #the mighty nein #critical role #critical role fanart #critrole #cr2 #m9 #i wanna experiment a little more w him still bc i cant settle on a face #or a skin tone? i feel like i always make him more purple than i want. i think more a dark greyish indigo would suit him #yknow. he might just be a character i draw different every time. im okay with that #i do like the idea of him with these very styled waves though #at least until he starts to unwind around the nein a bit #itseart

[cubedmango]

worlds most well-adjusted 14 yr old

#kieran #rival kieran #pokemon #pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon sv #the teal mask #the indigo disk #my art #idk if hes actually 14 thats just my guess #also i cannot fucking figure out how to draw his new hair properly . someone help #feels like i havent posted doodles on here in Forever sooo gonna try getting back to doing that again

[wildflowercryptid]

dude's got the madoka personality, but the unyielding devotion of homura. [ og post ]

#florian's feelings for kieran are just as intense as kieran's for him it's just on the other side of the spectrum #like he took a tera blast for kieran not knowing (or caring) if it'd be enough to kill him he's in DEEP #i need to throw these two into a pmmm au i know it'd end up being wild #pokemon #pokemon scarlet and violet #pkmn scarvio #pokemon florian #trainer florian #pokemon kieran #rival kieran #tealmaskshipping #hc : (pkmn) mjverse #chara : florian russel cavallari #chara : kieran hinoki #🎨 : mj draws #sv dlc spoilers #indigo disk spoilers

[agentc0rn]

He dared to fly high and beyond

With a will that burned hotter than the sun itself

Outstretched his hand

Just to feel a modicum of its light

Longing to possess its brilliance, power, legacy

Enveloped and overwhelmed

His wings of crystals cracked and he fell

Down into the heart of the sea

Just before the tides claimed him

From the skies, came down them

and reached a hand for his.

#pokemon sv #pokemon dlc #pokemon fanart #pokemon sv dlc #the indigo disk #my art #pokemon #kieran pokemon #rival kieran #pokemon kieran #trainer kieran #the hidden treasure of area zero #sometimes our greatest strength is also our greatest weakness - unknown #Icarus’ fall teaches us the importance of finding balance in our pursuit of greatness - also unknown #When I was writing down the tags in my other post it hit me that Kieran is literally Icarus but with a happy ending #I feel enlightened about this #I have a big soft spot for Kieran as you can tell with all the analysis #art and animatics of him - such a special boi #pokemon scarlet and violet

[shima-draws]

THE NEW INDIGO DISK TRAILER???

HELLO?? HELLO??? KIERAN?????????

#OH? OH MY GOD? OH MY GODDDDD???????? #Pokemon #Pokemon Kieran #The Indigo Disk #The Teal Mask #Pokemon SV #Kieran #Pokemon SV DLC #Shima speaks #LOSING MY MIND OVER HERE RN. AAJDJASFNSADS #NOT sure how I feel about the new hairstyle but I'm still super pumped to see him either way 😭 #BUT STILL. WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU. LOOK AT YOU YOU HAVE ANXIETY

[spiritualseeker777]

#spiritual awakening #spiritual awareness #be different #i feel different #don’t fit in #black sheep #lightworker #lightworkers #you are awesome #starseed #indigo

[mblue-art]

nine roses for my darling 💜💙

#lust!sans #skelesona #mblue art #lavender #indigo #happy v-day ! managed to doodle despite feeling egh today haha :'') #i miss them very much so #havent drawn them for a long time :'') #just realized the purple roses form an N somewhat; owh my heart i didnt even notice that... #LN

[metamorphesque]

on art and suffering

Edvard Munch, Jen Mazza, Yun Hyong-keun, Richard Siken, Anaïs Nin, Lisa Wright, Vincent van Gogh, Edvard Munch, Aldous Huxley

buy me a coffee

#cuz true beauty is a true sadness #now you could feel my madness #inspired by these lines #quotes #literature #art parallels #parallels #art #web weavings #poetry #richard siken #vincent van gogh #edvard munch #yun hyong keun #aldous huxley #anais nin #van gogh #suffering #indigo #rm #dark academia #dark academia aesthetics #classic literature #web weaving

[golisopod-mutual]

I love him

#brain rot is setting in i can feel it #pokemon drayton #pokemon #the indigo disk

[satanclark]

Had a vision

#if ur familar with the original of this just know i changed it cause it didnt feel right for kieran tbh #pokemon scarlet and violet #teal mask spoilers #kinda #pokemon indigo disk #indigo disk

[absolutebl]

Hey. Ty very much for your posts. As a woman in my 30s I got hypnotised by the beauty of the novelists and was wondering if you had similar high heat intense recommendations (also watched the samurai one "taboo"), bi or mlm with older leads and non fluffy storylines.. Moody atmospheric and venomous is my weak spot

Moody, atmospheric & venomous BL

Like, the Novelist? really?

AKA Pornographer movie series AKA The Novelist, Mood Indigo, Pornographer Playback (Japan 2018-2020) - emotional manipulation, cheating, obsession, seduction, May/December, kink, touch of necrophilia, explicit.   

Okay I got one right off the bat: seek ye....

The Cornered Mouse Dreams of Cheese

AKA Kyuso wa Chizu no Yume wo Miru (Japan 2020) - obsession, cheating, breakup, reunion, then break up again, explicit, mature characters. 

Now let me think about some more:

high heat

intense

non fluffy

older leads

The last one is a doozy, so I'm not gonna use it as a qualifier. BL is most, well, about "boys" not men.

Some others that might work for you but don't meet all your criteria:

Your Name Engraved Herein (Taiwan 2020 Netflix) - this movie is fantastic but it is also seriously depressing, it’s a self acceptance journey, but if you wanna wallow in high quality acting and serious gay drama, this’ll do it. 

Innocent (Taiwan 2021 GaGa) - mental health, childhood trauma, actually kinda sweet. 

The Eighth Sense (Korea 2023 Viki - This isn’t in the KBL bubble, there’s sharp edges and lots of triggers. For a KBL the darkness of the content left me feeling unsettled but it's really damn good.

My Personal Weatherman AKA Taikan Yoho (Japan 2023 Gaga) - Basically: boys who fell in love in college end up living together but both are so repressed they actually don't realize they're in love. They're hot, young, in love, and total idiots.

I Feel You Linger in the Air (Thai 2023 grey or YT) - IFYLITA is an exquisite BL, elegant and classy… from Thailand which normally doesn't even try for classy. The main couple (both as a pair and individuals) were excellent, it gets hot more that explicit, but it does have sharp edges.

Tokyo in April is AKA Shigatsu no Tokyo wa (Japan 2023 Viki) - Two young men with a shared tragic past reunite and fall in love all over again, but the past will not stop hunting them. It’s Japan in full on soft focus which means it gets emo, abusive, and chewy. These two characters are giving parts of their souls away in a desperate attempt to shape themselves to the expectations they have of each other it's heavy and cutting.

Moonlight Chicken (Thai 2023) - I enjoyed this complicated little show, even though it’s spectacularly messy gay with lots of shrapnel and authentic pain. EarthMix turn in their most compelling performance to date.

Bed Friend (Thai 2023 IQIYI) - Office frienamies transition a flaming hot one night stand into a f-buddy relationship that is built on a puppy/cat dynamic (and kinks into it at one point). Our puppy is loyal, smitten, and protective with endlessly longing eyes, while our cat is snarky, prickly, and deeply damaged (ALL THE TRIGGERS). NetJames give lovely high-heat with excellent chemistry and tuned-in performances of surprising depth.

Big Dragon (Thai 2022 Gaga) - This is a decent execution of true enemies to lovers, these two spy on and bully each other, exploring darker themes and self worth issues. The way the leads transition between anger, resentment, titillation, and flirting (and the way, with kinksters, this can all be the same thing) is really well done. A pairing that proved itself to be a lot more sophisticated than I expected with excellent chemistry, but something went askew around plot, directing, and ending. Still if you're in it for the sexy, go to, they did.

My Beautiful Man AKA Utsukushii Kare (Japan 2021 Gaga - One of the most Japanese BLs to release in the last decade, as weird and as messed up as any 2000′s yaoi: emo af and hella warped, entirely true to itself with no attempt made to modify its POV for modern sensibilities or current BL fandom. It used seriously old school problematic and kinky tropes, like whipping boy, for a truly uncompromising piece that also manages to hit up themes of communication, consent, and self acceptance. It’s a wonderful BL but uniquely dirty and harsh, in the best possible way - Japanese cinema, uncompromising.

End of the World With You

Junjou: Pure Heart

The Egoist

No thoughts on those three, not my thing.

You also might consider some of the stuff on this list:

Hope that gives you some options!

#moody bl #venomous BL #atmospheric BL #The Novelist #Mood Indigo #The Cornered Mouse Dreams of Cheese #Your Name Engraved Herein #The Eighth Sense #My Personal Weatherman #Taikan Yoho #I Feel You Linger in the Air #japanese bl #thia bl #taiwanese bl #kroean bl #Tokyo in April is #Shigatsu no Tokyo wa #Moonlight Chicken #bed friend #Big Dragon #My Beautiful Man #Utsukushii Kare

[sacredthefran]

call me old fashioned but i was raised to serve my husband. i clean the dishes and cook his food. i do whatever he says bc he is my husband and he makes the rules around the house. he owns me. i am his property. if he ever cheats on me it's bc i was lacking

#rahhhh #totally feeling normal #t o t a l l y #it’s fine I’m fine #jake kiszka #jake gvf #greta van fleet #indigo streak will always be that bitch #the indigo streak #starcatcher #live session

[wildflowercryptid]

that one part from indigo disk, but make it even MORE dramatic

#honestly i was looking for an excuse to have florian commit a sacrificial act for kieran's sake so when this scene happened i was cheering #very smart of the pc to throw out koraidon in that moment but i feel like flori would be too caught up in the moment to do that #this is one of the ideas i'm toying with making canon in mjverse #i'm still workshopping how it would play out exactly but i really wanted to draw this so here we are #pokemon #pokemon scarlet and violet #pkmn scarvio #pokemon kieran #rival kieran #pokemon florian #trainer florian #tealmaskshipping #hc : (pkmn) mjverse #chara : kieran hinoki #chara : florian russel cavallari #🎨 : mj draws #sv dlc spoilers #indigo disk spoilers

[trans-axolotl2]

Fuck the DSM. Seriously, fuck the DSM.

The DSM is and always has been used primarily as a method of rationalizing mistreatment of the people it labels as "deviant." When you look at the history of psychiatry, it becomes clear that things like drapetomania, protest psychosis, hysteria, and homosexuality as a disorder were not just thrown into there randomly. Rather, it showcases the power of the DSM: labeling and categorizing ways of being as mental illness opens up new paths of incarceration, social control, and curative violence. I need people to understand that the modern DSM still works like this: these classifications of madness/mental distress/neurodivergence into psychiatric labels encourage society to treat madness/mental distress/neurodivergence with the apparatuses used to eradicate "deviance." Diagnosis is not neutral.

As mad/mentally ill/neurodivergent people, we deserve access to more explanatory models of madness/mental illness/ neurodivergence than what the psychiatric language of normalcy and disorder offers us. Whether this looks like rejecting diagnosis, embracing varying cultural understandings of mental experience, or any million different ways of interpreting our bodymind, we deserve the option to move beyond clinical language that tries to convince us not to trust ourselves. We deserve to view ourselves wholly, leaving room for all our experiences of madness/mental illness/neurodivergence--the meaningful, the terrifying, the joyful, the exhausting. We deserve to have our own relationship with our madness, instead of being pushed to view ourselves as an inherent "danger to self or others" simply by existing as crazy.

Here's another truth: I hate the DSM, and I still call myself bipolar, a diagnosis that came to me through psych incarceration. While I wholeheartedly reject the DSM and the system intertwined with it, I simultaneously acknowledge and believe that many of the collections of symptoms that the DSM describes are very, very real ways of living in the world, and that the distress that they can cause are very very real. When I say fuck the DSM, I don't mean "Mental distress, disability, and neurodivergence aren't real." Rather, I mean that the DSM can never hold my experience of what it is like to be bipolar, the meaning I derive from experiencing life with cyclical moods. The DSM can't hold within its pages what it's like to see my mood cycle not as a tragedy or disaster, but instead as an opportunity, a gift, to grow and shift and go back to the same place over and over again, dying in winter and blooming again in spring. The DSM can't hold the fact that even though I experience very, very real distress due to those mood cycles--they're still mine and I claim that as something that matters to me. I call myself bipolar as a shorthand to tell people that I experience many things both extreme high and low, but I do not mean the same thing when I say "bipolar" as a psychiatrist does.

When we build community as mad/mentally ill/neurodivergent people, I want us to have room to share, relate, and care for each other in ways that isn't calling to the authority of a fucked up system with strictly defined categories. I don't want us to take those same ways of thinking and rebrand it into advocacy that claims to fight stigma, but really just ends up reinforcing these same ideas about deviance, cure, control, and danger. I dream of the day when psychiatry doesn't loom as a threat in all of our lives, and I think part of that work requires us as mad/mentally ill/neurodivergent people to really grapple with and untangle the ways we label and make meaning of our minds.

ok to reblog, if you want to learn more about antipsychiatry/mad studies check out this reading list.

#personal #antipsychiatry #antipsych #mad pride #mad studies #disability justice #disability #prompted by. idk. being tangential to certain spaces lately #seeing ppl who r forming communities focused on neurodivergency #in a way that really just. reinforces and legitimizes the dsm #and constantly refers to the authority of the dsm as a reason why they r right #not going to get into the specific discourse of the week except to say that something i feel strongly. is that we get to have different #explanatory models. but also that we r allowed to critique explanatory models as a community #like i hate the indigo child shit. i think its full of white supremascist dogwhistles #that's not an explanatory model i feel like the autistic community should ever support u know #anyway. getting offtrack

[effemar]

Replace the rent with the stars above / Replace the need with love / Replace the anger with the tide / Replace the ones, the ones, the ones that you love

#sorry guys. back on my bullshit ✌️✌️✌️ #it feels nice to draw him again…. forgot how much i loved my man….. #anyway everyone say thank you to my middle school science project for that awesome pic of slime mold that’s in the bg #slime mold is very adamcore i’ve always thought #lyrics are from kid fears by the indigo girls btw. song of the summer check it out #trc #my art #adam parrish