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creatingnikki · 6 months

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He knows none of my secrets and yet he wants to kiss me — this is not flattering in the least. Fine, secrets may come down the road. Scars too. But smiles? Did he see my full range of smiles? Did he see the smile after the lame joke he cracks and the smile after I say something bold and the smile after I hear him say something a bit too earnestly sweet? Maybe he did. Maybe my issue is that unless everything is spoken, narrated like in a book or movie, my brain refuses to believe it exists. But actions. I don't even know what's the benchmark? I know the benchmark for words. Bur what about actions? For that I need to be less in my room, in my bed, on my phone like I am 16 and more out with you and him and the others for spontaneous karaoke nights and then crash at your place waking up to the quite nice iced coffee you make. But I'm not. I'm here. I'm trapped. I feel more trapped than I did as a teenager. Is that it? Is all my sadness and all my frustration just fomo and discomfort? That's funny. Not funny haha but funny I want to smash something so very hard into the mirror even if it's my hand.

#spilled ink #writerscreed #poeticstories #poetryportal #twc poetry #abstractcommunity #writers on tumblr #poets on tumblr #fomo #feeling stuck #feeling stupid #spilled thoughts #kissing #fomo is a bitch #ugh #adulting #creatingnikki

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thaenad · 5 months

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lol can we please have the back story & tea to why we shouldn’t date normies 😭

that was a note to self, so I don’t want to discourage anyone else from dating normies!!

basically I put being a feeder in my bio, I wrote that feedism is the only thing that works for me & I matched w someone who didn’t bring it up at all. we ended up talking for a few days & even planned an in-person date, but I was getting anxious that we hadn’t talked about it so I brought it up. it was almost as if they were completely unsuspecting. they said they googled it and didn’t think it was that important to me. they seemed upset & weirded out that it was a dealbreaker (which brings up my own insecurities, feeling broken like something’s wrong w me for wanting to pursue my fetish) and that I should really make that clear in my bio. ugh. i’m just feeling very icky about myself, especially because I’m a feeder. this isn’t a thing i’m doing w my own body… it’s something I want to do to a partner. this person is fat & just told me they have eating issues and was very repelled by it for that reason. Idk. I know I did nothing wrong but I feel very gross about it

#i’m just. fragile rn #feeling stupid

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gingerieno-girl · 4 months

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Every day feels like I'm wading in snow. Deep thick snow. Each day takes more energy than the night can give. Every step pushed on by pure willpower. I don't know how long I can survive. I don't know if I'll survive. But I push further on. Knowing if I don't ill disappoint. Knowing if I don't I would truly have lost.

#after love #no one cares #fighting depression #Making it #feeling stuck #feeling stupid #i did this to myself #i'm an idiot

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spoomals · 2 months

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can we all agree that any sound effect needs to be replaced with the cfmot recovery sound

#cfmot #thoughts #feeling stupid #osc #object show

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haikuku · 6 months

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Haikuku, no. 370

Wanting to be loved, yearning for connection; one more disappointment.

--haikuku

#haiku #haikuku #haiku on tumblr #feelings #emotions #sad thoughts #disconnected #disappointed #feel so alone #missing you #wtf happened #haiku poetry #haiku poem #rejection #feeling stupid

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socialbutterfly19 · 5 months

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#in my thoughts #feeling stupid #changes #don’t trust anyone

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doppelnatur · 6 months

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i just don't get how calling for a cease fire is anti semitic. I also don't get how saying Israel is bombing Gaza is anti semitic when they themselves literally say they are.

#Feeling stupid #How is it hamas propaganda??? Am i???#Like I'm not the most informed guy and a lot of people i usually respect and like who seem really informed are pro Israel #And I just?????????#Ughhhh #Literally this is the UN position? I don't feel I'm saying anything radical here.#Like idk man if none of the media and institutions can be trusted at all and like we can't. Help. Then like #Maybe we could at LEAST agree to focus on the safety of migrants asylum seekers and the safety of Jewish and Muslim communities here?#And like. Band together to speak out about the INSANE islamophobia being currently leveraged against vulnerable groups #The way Hamas and Israel are being used to justify the worsening of the legal situation of asylum seekers in the EU?#And the immense threat both Jewish and Muslim communities currently face here?#I feel like like those are issues we should all really. Put a focus on? As leftists? Instead of defending the bombing of civilians.#Sorry i just wanted to process through my thoughts here

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monroeville-is-for-lovers · 7 months

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if you could see yourself through my eyes,

i swear,

you would never want to blink again.

#feeling stupid #poetry #unrequited love #beauty #assthetic #sobbing #gut wrenching #kms #poems #writing #love

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alberta-sunrise · 1 year

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Not nearly drunk enough 🙄

Can relate to grumpy Joel

#night out #need another drink #need a distraction #feeling stupid #so embarressed #why did i do this to myself #pedro pascal gif #joel miller #the last of us

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moviemagus · 6 months

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Currently procrastinating writing a paper for uni because I'm pretty sure if I write it and send it in my professor will realize I'm actually quite stupid...

#movie magus #studyblr #student #university student #university #uni #writing #paper writing #uni life #procrastination #professor #impostor syndrome #procrastinating #help me #feeling stupid #i should be working

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road2nf · 7 months

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All nerds need a community of other nerds. Otherwise we tend to allow the rest of society to convince us that there’s something wrong with who and what we are. We start to forget that we are awesome, which easily leads us to forget to be awesome.

I haven’t been a Nerdfighter for very long. It was probably about a year ago that a friend showed me Mental Floss, which I enjoyed and watched sporadically, clueless that John did anything else and that Hank even existed.

It was only late December 2013 that I discovered SciShow and thereby came to know and love Hank. I wouldn’t say I was a Nerdfighter though until February of this year, when I found the Vlogbrothers channel.

Prior to that, I thought John and Hank were cool dudes, but now I am addicted to Vlogbrothers videos, I own a copy of TFiOS that has collected my tears and been passed on to my sisters, I have pictures on facebook of me doing the Nerdfighter gang sign thing, etc.

So yeah, I’m kinda new here, but in my few months so far as a Nerdfighter, I feel like the world sucks a bit less just knowing that there is a community of people who proudly call themselves nerds, are committed to viewing the world and the people in it complexly, and work together to try and make the world suck less.

All nerds need a community of other nerds. Otherwise we tend to allow the rest of society to convince us that there’s something wrong with who and what we are.

We start to believe that we shouldn’t let our intelligence show and that we shouldn’t like things enthusiastically and that being weird is bad.

We start to forget that we are awesome, which easily leads us to forget to be awesome.

In high school, I didn’t know anything of Nerdfighteria, but I had an entirely insane best friend, who helped me to worry less about what people thought about me, and I had Dustin, who did the morning announcements on Fridays and always signed off by saying “Don’t Forget To Be Awesome.” and that is how I made it through.

Humans are extremely complex, but humans are extremely predisposed to ignore the complexity of other humans and of the things other humans do.

All this does is screw humanity over.

At the core of most of the world’s problems are people not actually understanding the problem and people not understanding each other.

Even though their videos are short, John and Hank never just hand us basic summaries and generalizations of things. Instead, they always give us something to think about and invite us to discuss it further and share our questions and insights.

They help us remember that the truth resists simplicity, and they have created places on the internet where intelligent discussions of complex issues can be had without all intelligence being lost and buried at the bottom of an ocean of hater comments and trolling.

Kids and young adults are used to being talked down to by less young adults. but even though John and Hank are about twice the age of most of their audience, the way in which they address their viewers makes them feel less like teachers (in the way one generally thinks of teachers) or any other sort of authority figures and more like really cool, really smart, older brothers.

They don’t belittle your intelligence.

They don’t make you feel stupid for asking a question.

They don’t make you feel foolish or weak for asking for advice.

They’re people to whom young adults can look up but not feel inferior.

I get very anxious in real-life social situations, but if I ever get the opportunity to meet John and Hank, I don’t think I’d be all that scared to approach them.

-care623