#felt like making gifs so i'm doing this!

[khaopybara]

Eu tô pensando em você, fumando um cigarro Numa banheira vazia, em um hotel caro Sinceramente, eu tô cansado Se foi você que errou, por quê que eu me sinto culpado?

I'm thinking about you, smoking a cigarrete In an empty bathtub, in an expensive hotel Sincerely, I'm tired If you're the one in the wrong, why do I feel guilty?

FIRST KANAPHAN as SAND and KHAOTUNG THANAWAT as RAY PAKORN in ONLY FRIENDS. Hotel Caro (feat. Luiza Sonza), Bacu Exu do Blues

#only friends the series #ofts #sandray #khaotung thanawat #first kanaphan #ray pakorn #ofts sand #gmmtv bl #thai bl #:: mygifs! #i've been wanting to do this since i learned how to gif #because this song is literally sandray's #so many bacu exu do blues songs are sandray coded #but #they never looked okay #i'm only posting this one bc it's not one that i immediately hated as i was making it #clearly i'm not good at it #the blending here is the one i disliked the least from all my attempts #i felt like if i didn't move on from this i would never make progress #that's it #no one really cares i just need bibs from the future to know why this sucks

[insertsomthinawesome]

I'M BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!!! Okay so honestly I have been very very inconsistent over the years with just disappearing for periods of time due to various things 😂 So it probably seemed pretty normal to most people.

But it felt different on my side, so I'm excited to be back in business. I took a month long hiatus! 31 days of not drawing digital art. Its not something I talk about on here? But I've been suffering from some serious long term Art Burnout for.... a really really long time. Long enough that I should've taken a break probably years ago. It finally got so bad that I could barely draw. I was scared to do it (cause it always looked "bad" in my eyes [i'll come back to that]) and doing it was exhausting and disheartening.

I talked it over with somebody and realized that the fear and anger and frustration I felt towards my own artwork was uh. Not Normal or Healthy. And I finally committed to taking a real break for once.

I still drew a little bit by hand? Traditional art has always felt like it has lower stakes for me (i don't often share it online, and sometimes I don't even share it with friends) so I did some of that when I felt like it. But Digital art was completely off the table.

I had put such an immense pressure on myself to make my digital art perfect, to make as much of it as quickly as possible to satisfy something. It wasn't fun anymore. I'm proud of what i've made over the years! But for a long time now the stuff I've been making was made while hating every second of making it. With some rare exceptions.

I hated my art! It was a combination of Perfectionism, taking in too many external expectations, and the burnout. If you hate doing something its kinda hard to love it even when you want too lol. It wasn't "Bad" in the sense that the quality was low and it was ugly! It was "Bad" in the sense that it was unhealthy for me to keep doing it at that point in time.

I'm glad to report though, that with my hiatus officially over as of Wednesday last week: I am once again. In Love. With doing art, and being an artist :)

I put off taking a break for years cause I was scared that taking a break would mean that I would never achieve all the things I wanted to do with art. I was scared it was a stupid and lazy thing to do that would mean I'd never achieve my dreams. And Also even though I kinda hated drawing, I also loved making art. Its a weird duality that I can't even really explain??? I hated it but I also loved it. I wanted it but I also wanted to run from it. It wasn't until I was more mature and had more clarity and insight (and unfortunately also until the problems got worse) that I was finally able to let go of those fears and just do it.

And I'm really really glad I did. It was everything I needed. And I hope to strike a better balance in the future with art. Taking more breaks when I need them, or just when other things have my attention like reading or Video games (Some star rail got played during this time xD)

From the outside things probably aren't going to be that different?? At this point I don't really have any sure plans to post anything I've been drawing since my Hiatus ended. I might or I might not xD I'm still a hobbyist artist taking things at her own pace, but I hope that it shows how much happier I am :)

Whumptober 2023 is being officially put to rest by this post btw! I was in major burnout when that event started, and I'm ready to just, move on from all the past expectations I'd shoved on my shoulders. If I feel like filling any of the prompts or going back to any of the ideas I'd come up for it I will! But I'm not going to worry about doing it unless the desire sets in. Thanks to everybody who's been so kind to me throughout my time on here as an artist! Ya'lls tags and screaming and kind words, the fanfic, the asks and the responses? Its been fantastic :) You guys have made me laugh, smile, and cry tears of joy. I hope from here that things only get better and sweeter! And if I have bad days again, that's okay too.

Here's to 2024 and whatever it may bring ya'll :D 🎉🎉✨✨🧡💜

#isa screams #long post #gif #flashing #i think? Lemme know if I'm incorrect on that one alksdjfLKSJDJDSG #I don't normally talk this much so its kinda strange? #its kinda nice to be more honest about this stuff though #I'm a bit more of a private person so its hard to find the balance between wanting to discuss things openly and honestly #but with the fact that I don't owe the entire world an explanation for everything I do #its a tricky thing #but today I felt like doing this and I think that's okay #if i regret it I just won't do it again alsdjLSDJLFJSGSDG #thanks if you read this! I appreciate it! #I'm a pretty smalltime artist relatively. So sometimes it feels as though it doesn't mater what i say or express. #But hm. I doubt its really that simple or bleak #And if I don't respect myself then well. Who will right? #And I want to learn how to be happy with how little or how much I get #part of the reason I've done so poorly mentally as an artist is chasing numbers and outside praise instead of asking the harder questions #am i happy with what i do? what I make? Who I am #I'm going to probably be working on those questions and problems for the rest of my life. #But thats okay. Thats not a bad thing :)

[hwiyoungies]

seventeen 8th anniversary countdown ↳ favorite music show stage from 2016

#svtgifs #svtcreations #svtsource #svtdaily #forsvt #seventeen #this was supposed to be a small set #but then i felt bad about leaving like 4 members out so i was like ok big set #and just in case someone doesn't know but wonu wasn't a part of these promotions! #so that's why he's not on the set #gonna make two more just to catch up with kst so that i can post the anniversary set at their time #which....... i have No Clue what i'm gonna do #b.edits

[kveom]

dk throwback gifs 1/50

#dokyeom #mingyu #seokmin #dk #seventeen #svtcreations #i tried #dktb #i felt like posting something but the thing i'm working on is gonna take me ages #so i just decided to find something to gif #and then i couldn't think of a caption so i was like maybe i'll just make it part of a random gifs series #so i did! #let's see how many i actually do..haha #no but this is fun #i've been wanting to gif other random moments before but didn't really see a point?? #just in terms of 'if i only have 5 hours a (week)day to myself is this what i want to spend it on?' #sometimes yes sometimes no #hopefully this will satisfy my giffing urges lol

[horrorshow]

"That's just the way the old man runs things." "Yeah well maybe that worked when we were kids but not anymore, all right. Not after everything you and I have been through, Dean." 

SAM & DEAN CHALLENGE | underrated episode: 1.20 Dead Man’s Blood

#spnedit #samdeanchallenge #corespnedit #sam winchester #samdeanedit #dean winchester #felt like making gifs so i'm doing this! #1x20 #bc 1) this ep is such an important turning point in their relationship #and 2) no one mentioned it as their fav s1 ep on that one post and im petty :') #you and me #**

[hotasfahrenheit]

What are you doing?

I'm resting at home, alone.

No. I hate that.

[NCT 127 - Home Together]

[Home Together gifsets 1 | 2]

#uhhhhhhhhhhhh wtf are they doing y'all i'm CRYING #this whole video felt like a hallucination #especially with no actual english subs #mark using his hand as a phone actually killed me #i actually screamed at the screen several times while watching this #because actually wtf 🤣🤣🤣 #it all felt like a surrealist nightmare instead of a holiday promotion like what are they even thinking hahaha #BUT Y'ALL LIKE WHO CAME UP WITH THIS #DID THEY COME UP WITH IT THEMSELVES BECAUSE THAT WOULD BE THE ACTUAL BEST #what is illichil even DOING #i'll make more gifs from this later probably i gotta go do dishes but i had to start somewhere because there's just so much wtf hahaha #nct 127 #nct 127 home together #nct #mark lee #taeyong #nct mark #nct taeyong #mia gifs nct 127 things #mia gifs nct things #mia gifs kpop things #mia gifs things

[smilesflower]

⟣ forsvt carat birthday event • day two: your biaswrecker(s) ⟢

➼ joshua — double take (dhruv cover)

#seventeen #svtcreations #svtgifs #bycarat #joshua #joshua hong #n.gif #g:svt #m:js #he makes me do a double take A LOT so i felt like this was appropriate #all of them biaswreck me but generally speaking joshua the hardest so i picked just him for this prompt #i have been wanting to gif this video for a while now and the other thing i had in mind for day two didn't work out so i figured why not <3 #not the coloring i usually go for but i'm like obsessed w it?? #i love him a normal amount (totally not a lie) #*eye twitch*

[dinaur]

HIP-HOP TEAM // _World, SEVENTEEN

#seventeen #wonwoo #scoups #vernon #mingyu #jeon wonwoo #choi seungcheol #vernon chwe #svt #seungcheol #choi hansol #marie.gif #i'm like.. not 100% happy with these but oh well #i started off just making the gyu gif but then i felt silly just posting one huge mingyu gif so i thought i should do hhu 😞 #unsurprisingly the mingyu gif is my fave #the middle gif... we don't talk about her #also i KNOW i'm weeks late whew i've been busy #TRIS THIS IS FOR U BUT THE GYU GIF IS FOR ME

[gxlden-angels]

Looking back, it's so funny that my family still sees my neurodivergence as more of a prayer issue than a neurological difference especially when I got very overwhelmed singing during praise and worship, but was still told to sing and dance so they definitely looked to their side and just saw this

#I'm autistic on the gay sex autism website. who would've guessed lol #but seriously tho its so funny looking back because I was so so autism #I'd stand and close my eyes so the lights and sounds didn't overwhelm me as much then I'd mostly sway and bounce in place #Sometimes I pre planned my exact movements ahead of time to make sure I didn't get in trouble for not praising #also I wrote an essays earlier about absurdity but it felt Off #like I was someone else trying to write in my style #a fun innuendo followed by TWs for safety and a hook intro #and a heart felt thing for ppl to take with them #it was 'The universe doesn't care about you but I do. I care so much' #but it felt preachy #it felt like I was trying to convert y'all to something via instagram influencer Canva-esque type essay #so I deleted it #I mean I saved my copy for my religious trauma coach but deleted the post here #so I might try again but I think I should look into why it felt ingenious with my therapist #ex christian #religious trauma #flashing lights #flashing gif

[bylertruther]

moodboard for when you lose the idgaf war. or something. again

#when i started this post there was no one online so like. can u guys turn around or smth -_- #anyway. feeling like a chump like a weenie like a marshmallow that's dissolving in someone's hot chocolate feeling very um . Feely #and tht isn't said in a self-deprecating way bc there's nothing wrong with being a sensitive person i'm jus. yk. saying tht it's not always #very fun. like i would very much rather feel like a toasty marshmallow being smushed in a delicious s'more rn but instead i'm trying to #express in the least vulnerable way possible tht i've felt a series of human emotions in quick succession tht make my heart beat funny #bc i think if i were to be any more open abt tht then i would likely disintegrate and i mean tht in the most normal I'm Okay way ever 👍 #and i jus think tht it Sucks tht u can be earnest n true n it won't matter bc if someone doesn't engage with u in good faith then there is #simply literally nothing that you can do but go ''Okay 👍'' #like. goes taut n keels over dead like a cartoon character. then reanimates bc i'm not done #that is just The Worst!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wdym!!!!!! #it should be enough. it should be but it isn't and i'm a little marshmallow melting in someone's drink they're stirring me and #i'm turning into foam like . There Has Got To Be Another Way Out Other Than Through Bro someone grab my collar and drag me out #this bitch like a cat on a leash someone hold their hands out or smth i just . *)%*^76)*%$^)%*43^rty)*%6$)6578^$%(*8796gk@$)*%$ #it will be ok . it will 👍

[batri-jopa]

Why are all the shapeshifters so fucking cool?

Nimona

T1000

Genie

Could it be that being a shapeshifter usually have those aro / ace / nonbinary vibes

of never fitting to only one definition? as if not touching the Earth? and pining to belong somewhere?

but also

of no rule applying directly to you? as if you were free from being judged? and thus free to be whoever you choose?

But this kind of freedom is both a blessing and a curse. Because being one of a kind means you're all alone in the whole world.

#shapeshifter #sorry I'm talking to myself again #it's kind if a joke that t1000 is here... but also not #well t1000 is a liquid evilness but also I can't judge it as human being #it's just a very advanced machine and functioning within its program still makes the best of it... #and it's not like I ever wanted to be a killing machine😅 #yet interovertic as I was as a teen I could not be so cool at joking as Genie #so I was rather pretending I'm cool robot that could defeat you all but to your luck it's busy heading for its mission... #I know Mystique from X-Men should also be here #but I don't know she never felt relateable to me somehow. way to dependent to others. taking orders. doing bad things and liking it #I can't judge a robot for cruelty but I can't not judge her as a human😒 #asexual #aromantic #agender #nonbinary #enby #aroace #aspec

[orangeshinigami]

hi guys, just a quick psa !!

given some recent events, i just wanna emphasize that this is a low activity / slow replies blog. i am a full time worker who's also still finishing up university & taking some language courses. so yeah, not a whole lot of free time these days.

i may take days up to weeks to reply to things, and sometimes when i finally have free time, i'll only have muse to reply to certain threads / interact with certain characters. this is nothing against you or the character you play, it's just how things have to be for me in order for this to keep being my fun and safe space. i may also drop threads without previous warning or end up not answering to every meme you send me and again-- don't be upset, this is nothing against you or your muse. sometimes i just can't come up with a good enough idea to write a decent reply to some things i receive in my ask box-- and i certainly don't like spewing out half-assed replies just for the sake of replying to absolutely everything i get.

with that being said, if you truly wish to interact with my ichi, come into my im's for us to plot !! i've come to realize that ooc talk with other muns gives me more motivation to write / makes things a lot more fun for me !!

& lastly but more importantly, it's ok to send me messages asking about a thread we have and that i haven't replied to in a while, just don't do so every single day because that's just... not cool.

aaand that's it, thank you for your attention. <3

#i know me being a slow roleplayer may be a deal breaker to some #so just felt like i needed to make a post about this #bc if this bothers anyone... then i'm sorry #i'm not the right blog for you to follow then #and that's ok!! #you do whatever you have to for tumblr rp to be fun for u #and i'll just do the same c: #( psa. )

[hysieme]

Crazy for Palace 2 (subtitles by aphellion)

Everyone Want to Meet You BTS

#zhang zhehan #crazy for palace 2 #*my gifs #so i watched this scene #and for some reason it reminded me of ewtmy bts XD #why is he like that XDDDD #so i tried leaving tumblr... #and at first it felt really good #i had so much free time #to watch k-dramas #and to do woodworking! #i felt happy and relaxed #but the thing is... #when i don't make gifs #i miss him even more... #and it's unbearable... #so i tried posting on twitter #but the quality of gifs there is so bad 😭😭😭😭😭 #so idk #maybe i'm doomed to stay on this hellsite...

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Honestly was not trying to be accusatory with the FetLife suggestion (just cheeky, really)! But if you check the list of people who say they’re going and see anyone you know (or even anyone who seems to have a good vibe), you could send a quick message; it might give you a boost in motivation to go if you’ve already connected with someone who will be there…

Of course that probably sounds like a terrible idea… but I’m really cheering for you to go to the party! You have expressed an underlying desire to go, and you’re in the prime of your life for that kind of thing! Do it for us curmudgeons who have given up and will be sitting by the fire, drinking spiked hot cocoa, and regretting having skipped all those parties in years past 🎉

Fair enough! Sometimes written messages can come across with a different vibe than intended and that's why I try to not assume the worst. But unfortunately there's nobody on the current guest list that I know, so no messaging there- if I knew anyone going already then I wouldn't be in this predicament! 😂

Am I really in my prime? I already feel pretty damned curmudgeonly. I feel like I should have been partying a decade ago if I wanted to get anything out of it. But of course a decade ago I was scrabbling to survive and focused on a relationship with an emotionally abusive dickweed, so not a lot of fun times out. And now that I have the funds and time to go to events, I feel like I never learned how to be a person correctly. Still trying, though

#anon asks #friendly anons #encouraging anons #i know mid thirties isn't really that old in the grand scheme of things but I've felt 65 since I was like 12 #my bones hurt and I'm so tired all of the time #but I HAVE to make myself go out and do things and try to meet people or i will end up old(er) and alone forever and like not even fucking #a fate worse than death

[microwavepopcorn]

#I don't know when the last time I washed my hair was #this one is adding a bit of my personal life into the bertgif world #I'm about to probably overshare so if you don't care to know about my lore then stop reading now lmao #I have had a ROUGH month LMAOOOOOOOO #my cat is sick and needs surgery and ive been putting literally all of my mental energy into helping him and making sure he's ok #so I've been struggling and it's been so wack bc my birthday is this month and since I'm a Leo I like to make the whole month about me(lmao #but this month I haven't been able to do that and it's just been weird and sad and it hasn't felt like my birthday #and I just havent really had anyone to vent to so I guess I'm word vomiting here #it just feels so stupid #also my basement flooded and insurance won't cover the costs to repair it and to prevent it from happening again in the future #and other rlly big stuff has happened this month that's super shitty and out of my control and it's just been a huge bummer #fjadksfjsdkjfkdsahfkdsjfkldsafjdskfjdsklfjs #i am not okay #but no I am okay #it's a bad time #not a bad life #it will pass and things will be good again #and I will keep making my silly little gifs #and doing my silly little tasks #and maybe tomorrow I will wash my hair #but maybe not #and that's ok #sorry for being depressing #bo burnham #bert gifs #bo burnham inside #bo burnham make happy #bo burnham what #egghead #robert pickering burnham

[fourteenthz]

Btw I finished everything from 6.5 finally and my take is

#this might be my favorite patch btw i just wanted to talk abt lyna for a bit bc I ADORE HER and it makes me happie that she was there #I REALLY LIKE MSQ I adore the parallels with ffiv and as SOON as i saw zero staring back at her reflection I WAS LIKE #SO SHE IS GOING TO BE CECIL #LIKE IN MOUNT ORDEALS !!! YEAH !!! so i was the entity of msq going “shes going to transform into a paladin AAANY minute now” #SHE DID !! and that is my fav trial from these last patches btw I adore rubicant but yeah 🫡 zeromus won 🫡 #it was just. so cool. i adore the mechanics so much and it felt right the moment and everything #it isn't my fav moment in the msq now but it's a satisfying one and they really brought some shb moments to remins us of the good stuff^tm #but with so many good raids going one the msq seems A BIT lackey but just bc the raid series are WAY TOO GOOD #something something i almost had an anxiety attack when the twelve were leaving TRULY i was destroyed #but them deryk did THAT FACE ^TM and I was BAWLING MY EYES #this guy means so much to me. insane. so much ao i genuinely changed my girl's patron deity and its him now CANNONICALY #his is by far my favorite fight from the twelve. it wasn't hard per see but i was dying with laughter how i was being thrown from one side #to another. I'm not even kidding me and still STILL it's a fave. I'm going to play that again now excuse me #but yeah it was so good. i really really like this alliance raid series so much deryk is so dear to me the way the dialogue went #with him talking abt the twelve like his ancient friends i cried so hard 👍 that ending ruined me so bad u guys 👍 #yeah the msq was good but they are popping OFF with the raid series #maybe myths isnt my fave just bc pandae is right there and I swear nothing tops that for me but MAN.... HEAD IN HANDS. #i love them. I love what the devs are doing with expressions lately and i love the amout of times the wol is smiling #just... something something it seems fitting for what they want for the next expansion #yeah I'm insane abt the fact we will not have mom and evil dad anymore and the ancients and i get panicked thinking the twelve arent there #anymore and OF COURSE I miss drama a lot but it does seem somewhat fitting. the way that doing all that it still #straights the scion's relationship more and how we will keep the group together despite everything changing #idk idk i hate change and i adore what we had in the prev expansion to no and and yeah i feel like it isn't perfect like before NOW but its #like. still so good and so true to what ffxiv likes to preach and etc etc. i don't expect an shb or ew exp for 7.0 but still. EXCITING. #this rambling came out of NOWHERE BUT YEAH Anyway if u excuse me now. shb new game+ play time #kelly says #6.5 spoilers #edit: there are SOOOO many errors in these tags. sorry i got to excited. i just saw fray and had to close tumblr immediately to talk to him.