#finnrey fics

[phoenixyfriend]

Why am I having so much trouble finding "Rey trying to avoid her grandfather's attempts to marry her off to an advantageous partner" fic (that isn't for The Ship I Don't Like)

#i searched for fic that had both Rey and Sheev and the word 'arranged' #unfortunately. 66 of the 71 fics are for The Ship I Don't Like #i found one that's Rey/Vader which is a solid maybe but the rest is just characters I don't know #or ships I'm not invested in #I'll that The Ship I Don't Like as the advantageous marriage Sheev is pushing #IF Rey ditches the altar to run away with Finn #shipping #arranged marriage au #arranged marriage #star wars #rey #rey palpatine #rey skywalker #sheev palpatine #finn #finnrey #Phoenix Talks #anyway I'm not naming the disliked ship because you can figure it out by way of Math #and i don't want this post to show up in a ship search and ruin their day

[butchbetty]

I haven’t written anything in a while and I need some inspiration! please leave some writing prompts or requests in my ask box for any of the pairings in the tags ♡( ◡‿◡ )

#gwiles #kristanna #beronica #scarlet queen #anidala #finnrey #peter x mj #malira #rilaya #snowbaird #ghostflower #i’m still trying to think of more #my writing #writing #lb #fanfic #fic

[hackedbyawriter]

https://t.co/JIaYV5eCKt

“open hand or closed fist would be fine”

[rated: M for depictions of past intimate partner violence]

Summary:

"Time, it seemed, was a strange thing, it had a way of softening your sharpest memories, and sharpening even your most beautiful ones."

In which Finn tells Poe what he wanted to tell Rey which then leads to Poe opening up to both of them about his time as a Spice Runner when he was sixteen and how his toxic relationship with Zorii has affected him to this day.

Aka the fic where Sargun depicts Poe and Zorii's relationship with the care it deserves because what she did to him was essentially abuse.

#finnpoe #star wars #stormpilot #poe dameron #finn #jedistormpilot #anti damebliss #finn star wars #finn x poe #finnrey #damerey #fic rec #my fic

[nonhumanhottie]

Rey crosses the threshold. She can’t hide her festering emotions anymore. She crashes against Finn, gripping his shirt in desperate fists. She isn’t sure what she wants but she can’t think of him anymore, she can’t imagine him hiding in the shadows (was it her imagination or was he really here?).

Read the full fic here!

#rey skywalker #rey star wars #finn star wars #reyfinn #finnrey #star wars sequel trilogy #star wars sequel fic #star wars #fanfic #leshi writes

[kylosbreedingkink]

Prompt from @kyluxtrashpit. Trying to keep my word count low and just do a short scene.. I think it worked out? This probably isn't what you expected lmao.

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She can't believe her eyes. Finn and Ben just stood there, in an embrace. She would say it was one sided with the way Ben stood stiffly in Finn's arms, which weren't quite long enough to reach all the way around him. But then she saw Ben slump forward into Finn, like he trusts the shorter man to support his full weight. Like he's done it before, a rehearsed reaction to her friends embrace.

She hates how it looks like they belong together.

Hates how the hug doesn't seem to end.

The worst part is that she's sure she's not meant to see this. They're in a small quiet corner of the base in the early morning, no one else around. She was sure she wasn't meant to see it, until Ben's eyes open and lock with hers.

And then she was just the voyeur who had been caught.

Their eyes stay locked as Ben removes himself from Finn's arms and steps back, finally broken when he turns and leaves. Finn himself seems confused, until he follows Ben's eyes and sees her standing there.

"What was that about? Why were you hugging Ben?"

There was a minute scrunch of Finn's eyebrows.

"I think he prefers to be called Kylo"

#fic prompts #kylo ren #ben solo #finnlo #finn/kylo #rey skywalker #kylo fic #drabble #one sided reylo? or is it one sided finnrey. who knows not even rey herself knows #prompt fills

[the-bi-writer-blog]

question: is re-uploading a thing that fic authors do anymore? 

context: 4 years ago i wrote a finnrey novel, and it was my baby, and it gained a following on here that i’m still humbled by. 

i ended up rushing the ending for TLJ-related reasons, but because i did that, i wasn’t able to hit some of the beats i originally planned, including one of the central scenes that had been in my mind from the start.

i don’t want to remove the fic, since i’m still proud of it, and i want it available for re-readers. but i’d also like to rework some of the later chapters more towards the vision i originally held. 

should i leave the original as is, and create an entirely new work for the reworked novel? (it’s like...a Lot of chapters so i don’t want to clog up the tags, basically) 

or should i edit-in-place, and then leave a download link to the original, if people still want to read?

#finnrey #archiveofourown #archive of our own #the fic is #there is no redemption here

[chidichidibumbum]

Rating: Explicit

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Category: F/M

Fandom: Star Wars Sequel Trilogy

Relationship: Finn/Rey (Star Wars)

Characters: Rey (Star Wars)Finn (Star Wars)

Language: English

Series:← Previous Work Part 4 of The Love That Never Died

Stats: Published:2023-08-05

Updated:2023-08-05

Words:21,575

Chapters:1/?

It's been a minute since I posted a fic. I added to my vampire finnrey series.

#new fic #finnrey #rey x finn #finn/rey #reyfinn #finn x rey

[skyguyed]

Star wars asks: 24 and 38 ⭐️⭐️⭐️

okay you're the best

24. Would you want to be human, or from another species?

off the bat id say human because it's familiar and would probably be the most comfortable because everything is designed basically to cater to humans -- and humanlike beings. but honestly? I feel like this question raises a further discussion about (white) human supremacy in the galaxy too. like me as a white person, comfortable with privilege, of course i'd pick the position of privilege. so that's something i will sit and meditate with.

if i were to pick a nonhuman species to be i'd probably be curious about the Nautolans or Selkath being that I am an ocean hoe.

38. Fic recommendations?

(boring answer) I actually don't read fic sorry!

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for this ask meme

#i feel like i should have a good finnrey/ghost crew fic up my sleeve but i dont #this is not to parallel people of color with aliens #but to reflect on prejudice and privilege in society

[thestrangerblog]

The first order gives their stormtroopers drugs to suppress their libido, right? So I wonder why no author has ever adressed how them wearing off will affect Finn.

Think aboud it: Finn probably only has vague ideas how sex works and he isn't used to have urges. Then he meets Rey, a very beautiful girl he's clearly smitten with and at the same time his always suppressed hormones come out to play. He must be a total mess. Why is this never adresed in fanfics?

Bonus: Poe being the good older brother who explains everything to Finn (and probably to Rey, too) and tries so hard not to laugh at them.

#finn rey #star wars #finnrey fic

[unleashthegoats]

Episode 7: I'm a Big Deal

Welcome to our first Fixing the Sequels episode! (Fair warning, if you liked the Sequel Trilogy, you might not like this episode!) We bring Finn back into the spotlight and out of the shadows of the sidelines because HE DESERVED BETTER. We briefly discuss how the Sequel Trilogy failed Finn as a character, and then go over all of the things that we, ultimate experts on what the Sequel Trilogy should have been, would have personally preferred to see explored, including Finnrey and Finnpoe, the stormtrooper rebellion that wasn’t, and Prince Finn AUs.

If people have any Sequel Trilogy fic recs for us (especially ones that focus on Finn), please feel free to send them to us!

#star wars #star wars finn #finn star wars #finnrey #finnpoe #stormpilot #sequel trilogy #star wars sequel trilogy #podcast #star wars podcast #spotify #Spotify #Youtube

[crazy-god-bunker-jughead]

Listen. I enjoy Finnpoe/stormpilot. I respect it. I’ve read multiple fics. HOWEVER I fucking love Finnrey and untimately think it would have been best for the (originally intended) story.

Like, Rey was abandoned as a child and all she had ever wanted is for someone to come back for her, and Finn does!! He ditches his plans to hide in the outer rim to save her, and overcomes his fear of the empire and joins the resistance. Finn says Rey looked at him like no one ever had, which inspired him to actually become the ‘resistance hero’ she thought he was! They only knew eachother like a day but were inexplicable bonded and just wanted to protect one another.

LIKE UGH IT’S BEAUTIFUL AND I WISH PEOPLE APPRECIATED IT!! BUT SO MANY PEOPLE ARE WEIRD ABOUT INTERRACIAL COUPLES!

#you can also have Finnreypoe which #is mwah #perfect #star wars #sequal trilogy #finnrey #Rey #finn

[boasamishipper]

20 questions for fic writers

tagged by the lovely @doodledrawreblogs - thanks cy!

1. How many works do you have on Ao3? 104 (it will be 105 after my yuletide fic is posted)

2. What's your total Ao3 word count? 1,296,866

3. What fandoms do you write for? i've written fic for legend of korra, milo murphy's law, the dragon prince, star wars, ted lasso, top gun / top gun: maverick, 9-1-1 lone star, what we do in the shadows (tv), a league of their own (tv), mission: impossible, our flag means death, perry mason hbo, and night court.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

when i see your face (top gun, icemav, 1.4k) - 5018 kudos

Moving In Slow Motion (top gun, icemav, 7.5k) - 3044 kudos

Make A Wrong One Right (top gun, icemav, 18.8k) - 2313 kudos

baby, baby, i'd get down on my knees for you (top gun, icemav, 18k, cowritten with @academicgangster) - 2290 kudos

Word on the Street (top gun, icemav, outsider pov, 3.8k) - 1991 kudos

5. Do you respond to comments? yes! if you are kind enough to read one of my fics and leave a comment, i always do my best to reply, even if it's just a string of heart emojis.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? probably Like Attracts Like - it's a companion piece to my legend of korra mash au sometimes you hear the bullet, and ends with zhu li (the radar of the story) getting word of varrick's plane going down a la henry blake in abyssinia, henry. truthfully, i'm not a big writer of angsty endings. angsty beginnings and middles, definitely, but i prefer all my fics to have a happy ending.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? see basically all of my fics have happy endings, but i think the happiest ending i've written goes to the end of I Know I'm Home, my robisanya au where sam matched with dani on bantr and not rebecca. in the final chapter, all the loose ends get tied up: richmond wins the premier league, roy and keeley get married, and sam and dani have the 'i'm going to marry you someday' talk. nothing but sweetness all around.

8. Do you get hate on fics? the only hate i've ever gotten on a fic was for one of my star wars sequel trilogy rewrites, and that was from some reylos who didn't like the anti-reylo things i was saying on my star wars sideblog, so... nah.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? i do and i have definitely gotten better at it over the years (though i still have a Long way to go lmao). i've only published m/m, but i've written some f/m smut (as you will see when i publish my degas/paris fic next year 😏)

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? indeed i do. craziest (or at least most ambitious) has gotta be there's a raging fire in my heart tonight, my top gun/mcu crossover. (craziest crossover i've ever come up with is the night court / perry mason hbo crossover that @saltyfilmmajor and @bornforastorm have been enabling me to write)

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? no thankfully

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? yes! when i see your face has been translated into korean and chinese, Lead Me On (To The Other Side) has been translated into korean, and (I Love You) A Bushel and A Pallet and Moving In Slow Motion have both been translated into chinese.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? yes, i wrote baby, baby, i'd get down on my knees for you with @academicgangster and wrote Austin Alone with @lilalbatross

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? i'm picking three for how they have influenced me and my writing: boasami, finnrey, and icemav.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? there are So Many of these....my google drive is essentially a graveyard of unfinished wips

16. What are your writing strengths? dialogue for sure. i've also been told my characterization is great and i have good comedic timing.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? action scenes and smut

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? i've done this before - usually i run it through google translate and then check other translation sites to be sure it's as accurate as possible. i've included the to-english translations in some fics (namely my top gun ones where i've written ice speaking russian) but mostly leave out the to-english translations these days. usually when my characters speak a different language you can pick up what they're saying from context.

19. First fandom you wrote for? the first fandom i wrote for was (i think) icarly, but the first fandom i published fic for was legend of korra.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written? varies depending on the mood i'm in (and also i have written a Lot of fic so it is difficult to choose lmao). right now i'd say Word on the Street - i'm still really proud of how that one came together.

tagging @icemankazansky @lookforanewangle @lilalbatross @hacash @saltyfilmmajor @bornforastorm @maverickcalf @academicgangster and anyone else who wants to do this :)

#thanks for tagging me! #my fics #i have written. So Much Fic #god help me

[alligatorjesie]

*glances at the raging cunt who keeps posting harassment to this fandom's tags every month or so*

You know the last time I checked you're not a fucking reylo so beats the fuck out of us why you're up in our goddamn shit so often @watchingtheearthrise

Cait Corrain isn't active in this fandom. She's hardly a reylo, and if she's gonna act like that she's not fuckin' welcome here.

I think they may have wrote a few reylo fics a long time ago but they're not a big name writer and the fandom as a whole don't really know who the fuck this person is.

I've seen a few people online mention Cait's book is published reylo fanfiction but I can't find anything from the writer confirming it so we’re all just assuming it started out as a reylo fic.

Looking at it, it seems more like lore olympus fanfiction than reylo but again, until the author says otherwise we’re just assuming.

Cait did however talk a gullible friend into helping her sabotage other people's book reviews and when the lacky she coerced did it wrong because she didn't really explain her dastardly plan very well and the moment she realized how badly the 'friend' fucked up she threw that kid under the bus.

But even that shit is kinda sus because these timestamps don't fucking line up. This conversation looks doctored to a lot of people meaning the only person responsible for being a cunt here is cait and you @watchingtheearthrise.

The friend is mentioned to be a reylo but you can't really put much of the blame on them since they were just doing what their cool(shitty) published writer friend asked them to do, assuming this friend is even real.

Cait didn't get mad she did a bad thing. She got mad she did it poorly and got caught. Which speaks volumes about Cait.

You being here assuming the worst out of this fandom every time someone so much as sneezes without saying 'god bless you' speaks volumes about you @watchingtheearthrise.

Please for the love of fuck would you find a fucking hobby to pour this endless passion into.

You know something really fun that I've spent a lot of mental energy on over the years and has brought me great pride and joy is this Star Wars Episode 9 rewrite comic I've been working on.

Legit!

I got character sheets and new alien designs.

Most of the script is wrote out, I'm currently working on storyboards and page framing.

I'm only as far as I am because I have a life outside the computer and can't dedicate endless hours a pet project but it's got 2 of my favorite things in it:

A narratively cohesive continuation of The Last Jedi-

And furries.

Because fuckit why not it's my fucking comic.

You're welcome to laugh, and I know you will because you're a huge pile of shit, but doing this has been incredibly cathartic.

we live in a world were we have increasingly little control over basic shit in it. Media can feel like it wants to make money more than it cares about the story and character development and if I want media I’ll actually enjoy well goddamnit I guess I’ll make it myself.

I want it to be good. I want the salt of the fact a random furry wrote and created a better Star Wars EP9 to burn. I think thats funny.

I personally didn't like EP9

(Notice how I dislike EP9 but don't go out of my way to harass people who like it @watchingtheearthrise?)

So I decided to just make my own. Instead of being asshole to people in a fandom who do like it.

(Notice what I'm doing there @watchingtheearthrise?)

I don't see you in here when the fandom does nice shit like donating a shit ton of money to Adam Driver's arts for the military foundation.

I didn't see you in here when Thea Guanzon, a southeast asian reylo's published book became a new york times bestseller.

I don't fucking see you pop in when the dedicated members of this fandom post art and stories and celebrate the thing they love.

Don't let a single person who is acting shitty color your entire opinion about a whole ass fandom man. God fucking knows if I took this approach with finnreys I would just assume all of them are huge pieces of shit because nine times out of ten the people posting anti hate to the reylo tag are finnreys.

But since I'm not a complete fucking dumbass Like Some People Here

I'm able to use some common fucking sense and see it's not the finnreys that are shit.

finnreys are fine.

It's just like... 4 unique people with a lot of extra accounts.

real fucking bold to comment on someone making extra accounts to do nefarious things online from someone who already does that.

I’m pretty fucking sure at least 6 of the antis I regularly come across in this tag Are Your Accounts @watchingtheearthrise. You admit to 2 extra ones you’ve used to harass people in this fandom in the past In Your Fucking Bio

( I love hate how you have reylos in your DNI but paradoxically will not stop posting to this fucking fandoms’s tag I swear to Jesus Fucking Chri-)

God fucking bless you @watchingtheearthrise I hope you find someone who helps you learn how to not be such a festering cunt.

I started out this post not even know who the fuck Cait Corrain is. I still don't give a fuck because shit people can go fuck off into oblivion for all the fucks I don't give but since some asshat antis can’t be fucked to do a goddamn second of research I guess much like that ep9 I'm rewriting I’ll just fucking do this too.

Cait's a reylo about as much as you @watchingtheearthrise and you’re both welcome to let the door hit y’all on the ass on the way out.

#anti talk #reylo #reylo fandom #fandom wank #fandom nonsense

[hackedbyawriter]

Chapters: 1/7

Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy

Rating: Mature

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Poe Dameron/Finn, Jessika Pava/Rey, Kaydel Ko Connix/Rose Tico, qpr finnrey, Finn & Rey (Star Wars), Poe Dameron & Rey, Karé Kun/Temmin "Snap" Wexley, Past Poe Dameron/Zorii Bliss - Relationship

Characters: Finn (Star Wars), Poe Dameron, Rey (Star Wars), Rose Tico, Jessika Pava, Temmin "Snap" Wexley, Luke Skywalker

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Buzzfeed Unsolved Fusion, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Fluff, Scared Poe Dameron, Believer Poe Dameron, Non-Believer Finn (Star Wars), Rey Skywalker is Neutral, Priest Luke Skywalker, Sequel Trio Needs a Hug, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied Sexual Content, however this will come much later in the fic and it will definitely be glossed over and skippable, fuck zorii bliss all my homies hate zorii bliss, if you dont know why read free fall, the writing is very silly please dont expect my usual poetic style, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Gay Poe Dameron, Bisexual Finn (Star Wars), Asexual Rey (Star Wars), Religious Imagery & Symbolism

Summary:

"Kill off all my demons and my angels might die too."

Poe Dameron, a Resistance employee, has always been fascinated by the supernatural, so under the company, he starts a show, called Unsolved, retelling supernatural events from history and visiting haunted locations with his long-time friends and co-workers Jessika Pava and Snap Wexley.

Near the end of the first season however Jess has to leave due to scheduling issues and Snap, newly married to Kare, is expecting a baby, leaving Poe with the rest of the season to film and no one to help him.

On a whim, Poe decides to ask fellow employee and family friend Rey Skywalker and her best friend Finn Storm to accompany him.

Whether it’s the best or worst decision Poe has ever made, he’s not quite sure, but it was bound to change his life forever.

Tags: @enviedear @british-strong-style @dhyanshiva @no-url-is-good-enough @foxglass0822 @the-bread-is-dead @finnpoeweek2023 @yourejealousofthisname

#finnpoe #stormpilot #star wars #poe dameron #finn #finn star wars #finn x poe #finn dameron #rebel finn #sw finn #finnpoehalloweenbingo2023

[nonhumanhottie]

Into the empty parts of me

Finnrey (mostly platonic, a little codependent). 2.6k Hurt/comfort. AO3 link ~~~ Rey isn't doing okay but luckily Finn is there to help

Into the empty parts of me (finnrey)

The ship is no longer at full capacity. Surviving Resistance fighters are dropped off in discrete locations, swapping ships, going deep undercover. There isn’t another option; they have to rebuild. Rey can’t keep up with the layers of stories and covers and missions. It all blurs together—and it’s unimportant to her, which sounds callous, but she can really only think of one thing lately. It consumes the crowded days and nights on the Falcon. Every time she swallows a bite of a stale ration bar, the lump in her throat grows. Every time she shuts her eyes, he (don’t think about him) is behind her lids. Staring. Waiting.

You are nothing.

How to describe these frantic days that upturned her life and poisoned her reality? As the panic rises, and it does often, she wishes that she never left Jakku. When her heart thuds too loudly in her chest, she silently swears she would take solitary over this. Then the guilt seeps in, and she feels selfish and silly. But how can she explain this to her new peers? What would Leia say? What would Finn say?

They have bigger issues to deal with and so Rey keeps her internal battle to herself. She pilots the Falcon and hands out ration bars and sits silently with Leia as she mourns (‘So many loses in so few days.’). She stares at her (Luke’s) broken lightsaber, a piece in each hand as if she could put it back together herself. He did this (don’t think it don’t say his name). This was a borrowed possession, a trinket from an age she doesn’t understand. And now it’s nothing. All its history (it was always so cold to the touch, even ignited, why was it so cold?) was gone in a flash of blinding light. Its story is over. Perhaps that’s a good thing.

But Rey’s story continues, and she doesn’t know in what direction. She has the ancient texts. Texts she can barely read. Leia mentioned briefly that she had picked up a thing or two from Luke, but it had been a long time ago. It’s been a long time for everyone. The Jedi, over barely two generations, are a dying breed, and likely always would be. There was no master left to guide her. Would they want to, given her curiosity towards the Dark Side?

The Dark Side.

Thinking about it, mouthing the words to herself, sends chills down her body and bile in her mouth. She knows nothing about it, not really, other than Luke’s few words on it and what he (don’t think about him) said about it. It frightens her, the utter power, the chilling sensation and, more than anything, the temptation. She imagines it easily, giving in, letting it fill her, oozing into her empty insides.

When she lays awake on her tiny bunk, and the ship hums too loudly around her, she thinks about it: the alternate choice. She felt it, through the bond (that insidious word), the satisfaction, the passion, the rage, the lust. It keeps him (stop) full, even if only in temporary bursts, even if the tug of the Light is blinding. He’d seen a vision (he was probably lying) of her by his side, shrouded in darkness, with a red blade. Her imagination runs off without her, so clear and fightening.

Her skin prickles; it’s too tight. Lights dance around her, and she can’t tell if it’s coming from the ship or behind her eyelids. Are her eyes even open? Is she even on the ship?

She sucks in a deep, rattling breath and the emptiness swirls inside her like a hurricane in a chasm. She’s as void as space, she’s back on Jakku, scratching days onto the wall, time trickling like molasses. As wretched as… his (don’t think of his name) thoughts were, as sickly as the connection was, it was something. As tangible as feeling could be. It had snaked around her like prickled vines, it had grounded her, rooted her in reality, despite the reality-bending nature of a Force-bond. It was confusing and dangerous and uncomfortable, but the loneliness was gone. 

Rey.

And now, everything had shifted again. Not back to the way it was, but something newer. A new emptiness she could never have fathomed. Each staggering breath leaves her hollower than the last. Does she deserve this? Is this punishment for following the elusive lure of the Dark Side? Maybe the bond isn’t severed at all. Maybe this is him (don’t think of his name!) coaxing her into returning, filling herself up again, whole and alive.

‘Rey.’

You are nothing.

Would it be worth it? Just to feel something. Even if it’s him (please don’t think of his name), as vile as he (don’t) is, as empty as she is, as confusing as these feelings are (she can’t breathe, there’s nothing to fill). What is her course? Where are her next steps? Her senses are robbed by (just breathe) (don’t think it), by (stop!). By Ren—

‘Rey,’ Finn says, standing in front of her, filling her vision.

Oh.

She sucks in another deep, but less-rattling breath. She’s still on the ship. Reality (actual reality—not Force-bond, space-bending reality) crashes into her, filling her insides like the tide coming in. She doesn’t remember how she got to the galley but here she is. Finn, as bright a moon on a clear night, smiles, awkwardly, hesitantly. He’s worried but polite enough (or concerned enough) not to comment yet. His hands remain by his sides, though he shifts his weight slowly, forcing patience.

‘Finn,’ Rey breathes. She swallows and tries again, ‘Finn. I’m not. I’m alright.’

‘It’s okay if you’re not,’ Finn says, a rehearsed line he probably heard from Poe or Leia. Finn carries weariness too; he’s slightly better at schooling his features but he can’t hide the eyebags and heavy shoulders. He spent most sleep cycles by Rose’s side until she woke and was able to move on her own again. Rey still hasn’t introduced herself. She wants to but her nerves outweigh her desire for new company.

‘But I am,’ Rey says, lying to Finn, her stomach tensing. How can she tell him without frightening him? Or is she underestimating him?

Regardless, Finn’s unconvinced. ‘I know it’s hard,’ he says carefully. ‘We were taught to bury any feeling. All that mattered was loyalty, servitude. That’s no way to live.’

Finn adapted quickly. He fell into honour fast and absolutely; he embraced love and compassion as easily as breathing. The First Order bred totalitarianism and hatred, and against all odds, Finn escaped. Perhaps out of cowardice at first, but once Finn tasted life (and love) on the outside, he couldn’t turn back. And he didn’t. Heroism suits Finn well, and Rey knows that will only further blossom in him.

Then what of her? Is she a hero too? She rejected him (but the temptation was there, however minute) and she saved the final scraps of the Resistance. She made rocks dance like cascading stars. Was that enough to be a hero? Did she have to feel like a hero to keep doing the right thing? She’s sure Luke would disagree.

You are nothing.

‘I’m just very tired,’ Rey says, and it’s true, but it’s also elusive. She’s falling apart at the seams, as she does at least once a day, and she needs to hide it, like a dark curse. ‘I’m going to head to the bunk.’

‘I’ll walk you there.’

Rey doesn’t refuse. She walks with Finn by her side. When she’s with Finn she’s safe and whole, mostly. It’s a struggle to verbalise her woes but having him close eases the fear weaving into her bloodstream.

They arrive at the bunk that she, Finn and Poe share. It’s been very strange sleeping with others near and if either of them is woken by her silent sobs, they haven’t mentioned it. Poe is outspoken and headstrong, so Rey thinks he’d say something if he heard. Though come to think of it, she isn’t sure he’s slept yet.

Rey opens the door and for a second, she sees him, sees Ren, standing in the darkness, eyes glowing, hand outstretched.

It’s an illusion; she blinks and he vanishes, but the terror remains. Every time she sleeps, that’s what she sees. Him, waiting, wanting, hunger burning in his eyes and pain pulsing between them. The bond (what a horrid thing) is still there, Rey knows it must be, even if she can’t quite feel it, not like before. So many things she can’t describe, and even if she could, no one is left to understand. Except for him, perhaps.

Finn steps inside but Rey lingers in the threshold, heart thumping, head spinning. She grips the doorframe and shakes. The galaxy is so cruel, and the Force is so unknowable. What chance does she have against the power blazing inside her, connecting her to every rock and tree in the galaxy, distancing herself from anyone she could hope to love?

But that just isn’t true. She repeats that in her mind and wills the walls to stop shaking around her. She is loved—Finn loves her, Leia does too. Poe likes her enough, and she really should introduce herself to Rose; they will be good friends, Rey knows.

You are nothing.

He’s stuck in her thoughts, echoing sentiments she tries so hard not to believe.

‘Are you going to come in?’ Finn asks.

Something has to give.

Rey crosses the threshold. She can’t hide her festering emotions anymore. She crashes against Finn, gripping his shirt in desperate fists. She isn’t sure what she wants but she can’t think of him anymore, she can’t imagine him hiding in the shadows (was it her imagination or was he really here?).

Finn catches her, staggering once, then resolves. He holds her tightly, arms clasped around her back. He knows, somehow. It’s like they’ve known each other their whole lives—for several lives. Rey cannot imagine life without him, and she’ll keep it that way. That isn’t the Jedi way, according to the texts; it’s cruel to position someone above death itself. She’d have to work on that, but for now, she clings to Finn like she’s drowning. She needs to learn how to swim.

They don’t speak right away. Rey pants and almost sobs but can’t get it out. Finn rubs her back like she’s choking on rehydrating protein chunks. It doesn’t help but the contact is nice, regardless. His hands are warm and firm. He doesn’t treat her like she’s fragile; he embraces her with all his strength and crushes her to his chest. Rey can barely breathe but she never feels more whole than in Finn’s arms (is that normal?).

‘It’s okay,’ Finn says lowly. ‘I know. It’s rough. But it’ll be okay.’

Rey nods against his shoulder. He’s so soothing, so easy to believe. Even in the dark room, he’s a light spot, guiding away from her waking nightmares. Finn doesn’t need to understand everything; he knows when she’s uneasy and he extends his compassion. He’s special (Rey knows that). Very special. Few in the galaxy blossom into such kindness after such a harsh adolescence. His shift to freedom fighting was inevitable. A hero. Her hero.

You are nothing.

 She just has to hold herself together. For Finn. For Leia. For Chewie and Poe and Rose. For the galaxy.

There’s a bang on the door.

‘Finn, bud, you in there?’ Poe’s voice is too loud, even behind the door. ‘The General wants to talk to you.’

Finn sighs and waits another beat before he gently draws Rey back. ‘Will you be okay if I head off for a bit?’

‘Go to Leia,’ Rey says even if she can hardly bear it. She’s sure that isn’t a normal response, and perhaps when her life is in less peril, it is something she can assess. But for now, she wraps her arms around herself to keep her insides in place.

Reluctantly, they move to the door. Finn opens it and reveals Poe tapping his fingers against the doorframe (always so impatient). Finn pats Poe’s shoulder as he passes and turns to give Rey a goodbye smile before vanishing around the corner.

Rey doesn’t step outside the bunk. She presses her lips together tightly.

Poe looks after Finn and then back at Rey. ‘What’s going on?’

‘Nothing,’ Rey says, too automatically to be convincing.

Poe is suspicious. Not in a cruel way, but a little nosy. In the extremely short time of knowing him, Rey discovered that Poe did not like to be left out of a conversation. He likes seeing the bigger picture. Along the journey so far, Leia has chastised him in a fond, forlorn way. They have a bond Rey can’t understand but the sick guilt of jealousy clings to Rey whenever she notices it. Rey doesn’t like to be left out of a conversation either, but she doesn’t have the confidence to probe anyone for more information.

Rey smiles and hopes it's convincing. She should probably practice in a mirror when she gets the chance (she makes others frown more often than not).

‘Um, so,’ Poe said, scratching his neck, ‘it’s been a helluva week, huh?’

‘Yeah.’

‘How’re you holding up, kid?’

Rey scrunches her nose. ‘It’s Rey.’

‘I know. I remember.’ Poe gives a lopsided smile and raises his brows.

She still needs practice with conversations. Should she lie and say she’s fine, or should she burden him with her anxieties? Should she mention him (of course not) and her fears surrounding that?

Instead, she says, ‘I’m going to join Finn.’ It’s not something she should do. Leia didn’t request her. She should give Finn space—but she’s been doing that when he was nursing Rose. And Rey still hasn’t introduced herself. Maybe she should do that, instead of following Finn once again. Rose would like her. Why wouldn’t she?

Poe’s expression falls into a grimace. ‘I mean, I think you,’ he cuts himself off and sighs, ‘no, go ahead. Go find him. Leia was in the cockpit with Chewie. Finn’ll be there too.’

Rey isn’t sure why Poe gives in. Is he treating her like she’s fragile or is she not worth his time? (Always so many questions swirling inside her). Or maybe he’s dealing with his own issues. Rey knows a little of what he went through from Leia’s anecdotes. She senses the guilt; it weighs him down. Pain is relatively easy to hide from the average person, but Rey sees right through him, to the broken pieces. Is that what the Resistance is—broken beings fighting their demons? Is that why they want to recruit her? Broken beings who mend each other by mending the galaxy.

No one is whole, but that doesn’t mean they aren’t hopeful. Oh. Is it really such a simple revelation? She doesn’t need to hide her fears. No one else is. No Resistance fighter is infallible; they’re flawed, they’re hurt, they’re angry. And they’re stronger together.

You are no—

Rey leaves the bunk and walks to the cockpit. She doesn’t pass anyone, thankfully, and sure enough, Finn, Leia and Chewie are all there. None of them are surprised to see her. It doesn’t mean she should be there. She should work on that. Her attachments hit her hard and fast and she’ll do anything to hold onto them. That probably isn’t normal, though neither is she. She’ll work on it. Surely, she’ll grow and change and adapt. The future is very unclear and frightening but at least there’s a future to fight for. Will she ever see it to the end? Who knows.

It doesn’t matter all too much because Finn smiles at her.

She is known and she is cherished. And that is enough for now.

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since apparently like 80% of all new authors are just reylo fanfic writers who filed the barcodes off their old fics, I sort of feel like someone ought to be out there publishing their finnrey fics too. just for balance.