#first time writing Vander idk how i did?

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bro I love your storys so much😭especially the catvi ones lol just wanted to ask if it was possible since it's winter time, to write a Christmas special with Caitlyn and vi× reader where it's snowing and they're decorating for Christmas and opening presents n'all that holiday related stuff,i would really really appreciate it, idk if it's such a good idea tho lol,but the end of the day it's your choice if you wanna write it or not , and again I love your works,keep doing what your doing,it's literally god work😭🙏

HIII ANON! I love this idea! For those who don't celebrate Christmas, I will be making a more vague/winter headcanons post to make sure everyone is included in some way possible. Happy holidays and New Year to everyone!

Merry Christmas (Ya Filthy Animal) | CaitVi Headcanons

╰┈➤ PLOT: Headcanons of CaitVi spending Christmas with you!

╰┈➤ WARNINGS: Not Proofread, Sapphic Fluff, No Use of Y/n, Mention of Modern AU

⍣ ೋ Enjoy!⍣ ೋ

– One thing about babygirl Vi is that she absolutely loves Christmas.

– When she was younger and with her parents, they did occasional Christmas activities, but nothing serious. Then with Vander and Powder, Vi tried to keep the Christmas spark alive for her sister, but eventually, the two of them lost the Christmas spark as they grew older.

– Despite wanting to rekindle her love for Christmas, Vi never had the time or resources to (ya know, being in prison and all).

– So, with you and Caitlyn, she gets to act like a kid again.

– She forces you guys awake super early on a weekend to get a real Christmas tree, cider or hot cocoa, and to shop for some decorations.

– Caitlyn's a casual enjoyer of Christmas.

– Her family celebrated, but celebrating to the Kirammans meant fancy and stuck-up dinners, stiff Christmas dresses, and getting clothes you didn't like as a child.

– Caitlyn much preferred the romanticization of Christmas like baking cookies, taking your partner(s) out into the snow to dance in the streets, reading by the fire, and listening to Christmas songs while decorating the house.

– Also, the Kirammans believed in fake trees to avoid mess and hired someone to decorate the house once they felt Cait was old enough to remember decorating for Christmas. (so like, age 8 is when they began to hire people).

– You can imagine Caitlyn's worry when Vi first brought up chopping down a tree and dragging it into the house.

–– In Vi's words, the trees you see before the tree farm are better in height, thickness, and smell.

A grunt came from the buff pinkette. She lodged her axe into the tree's thick bark, barely making a scratch. "I'm sure, Cupcake. Come on, I've seen movies about this."

"Oh, yeah? And how did that work out for them?" you chimed.

Vi let out a sarcastic laugh. "It went just fine." – –

– After the initial shock was gone and pine droppings were scattered throughout the house, Caitlyn found herself buzzing with excitement. Vi was right. The smell of pine-scented ornaments and sprays was nothing compared to the real thing.

– Just don't tell Vi that.

– When it comes to decorating the house and the tree, you guys have a routine and assigned roles.

– Vi gets the tree, brings it in, and sets it up. You two help her of course. When everything is set up, Caitlyn goes to bake the cookies you guys made last night, Vi cleans up the tree mess (and hides the damage she made on the floors), and you start decorating the mantle.

– When your jobs are completed, you gather to decorate the tree together.

– Each year someone is assigned to put the star on top of the three. This year, it's your turn!

– Vi is a person who puts the star on before the tree is decorated while Caitlyn likes to do it last. As for you, you do whatever makes you happy.

– If you do it before, Vi cheers while Caitlyn recoils in playful disgust.

– If you do it after, Vi will try to coax you into putting the star on top but fails each time. When you finally put the star on the tree, Caitlyn sighs out of relief and takes a step back to admire the tree.

– More like a modern AU of things, VI LOVES HOME ALONE. One is her favorite, and the others are irrelevant to her.

– She wants to name a future child, or pet, Kevin, but you and Cait won't allow her.

– Naming someone, or something, that name puts them up for failure. You already have a rambunctious scamp named Vi, you don't need another named Kevin.

– As for presents, you guys like to do stockings, gift exchanges, and your own gift trade.

– In your household, one person is responsible for the other's stocking. Exp: you would have Cait's, Vi has you, and Cait has Vi,

– Though you guys try to keep it a secret, who had who is obvious. Caitlyn likes to gift thoughtful and useful gifts for the stocking stuffers, Vi just does whatever makes her laugh and what reminds her of y'all.

– One year, Caitlyn got a porcelain broken witch's shoe. The reason? The witch shoe reminds Vi of Caitlyn's heels and the broken part reminds Vi of the one time Cait stubbed her toe so hard that she misshaped the toe of her shoe.

– Vi laughed so hard she was redder than Santa's suit. Meanwhile, Caitlyn looked like she swapped faces with the Grinch.

– As for gift exchanges, Caitlyn's "uppy tighty rich" friends host a Christmas party each year.

– You three dominate the competition by bringing the best and worst gifts ever.

– The worst gifts are funnier ones, courtesy of Vi, and the better gifts you three brainstormed on and spent hours shopping for. (Sorry, Vi)

– Each year, the gifts are a hoot and Vi is thankful at least one of Caitlyn's friends knows how to season food.

– As for your own gifts, you each set a price range for individually bought gifts. This way, you can buy a partner a lot of cheaper gifts or one really big one.

– You three also set out separate times to go shopping in pairs to buy gifts.

– So, you and Vi would go shopping to get a shared gift for Caitlyn, the same with you and Cait for Vi, and then Vi and Caitlyn for you.

– The budget for those gifts is kinda all over the place, but you each have an idea of the price range because you know what the other gifts are.

– On the big day, you three start by changing into your matching PJs, if you haven't fallen asleep in them already, washing your faces together, and herding into the kitchen.

– In the kitchen, Vi is in charge of making breakfast pancakes. She's not in charge because she's good or anything, no. Instead, she's in charge because she tries to make the pancakes holiday-shaped but fails miserably.

– You and Caitlyn take joy in guessing what shape the pancake is supposed to be.

– You focus on the other aspects of breakfast like the meat, eggs, grits or rice, etc. Whatever you see fit, you make.

– This leaves Caitlyn to make the hot drinks which is more like an unspoken rule.

– When the three of you first moved in together, you and Vi would make Caitlyn's coffee for her because she had long nights and early mornings. This would be one thing to take off her morning list, right?

– WRONG.

– With each new attempt, the coffee always came out wrong to Caitlyn.

– At first, the mistakes made sense.

– "Vi, I'm chewing grounds in my coffee." "Darling, this is Earl Grey, not coffee."

– But once you and Vi got the hang of things, her reasons got nitpicky.

– "This roast isn't dark enough." "Too dark." "Is this decaf?" "Is this even the right brand of coffee?"

– Eventually, you and Vi studied her when she made her coffee and jolted the recipe down. But, even following her routine to the exact "T" wasn't good enough.

– – "You know what?" Vi huffed, tossing down the spoon she used to scoop the coffee beans. "I don't want to do this anymore. Day in and day out, we always get her 'order' wrong. I don't think it's worth the extra hour of getting up."

With a heavy sigh, you stare into the empty mug you held. Deep down, you knew Vi was right but you both agreed to take on the challenge and to one day give Caitlyn her perfect cup of joe. It couldn't be the end already...

It's only been a year and 36 days!

"Yeah," you said putting the mug back in the cupboard. "Maybe we're not good coffee makers, Vi." Vi slung her arm around your shoulders, grinning proudly.

"I'm fine with that, Muffin. Are you?"

Feeling some sort of accomplishment stir inside you, you nod and match her grin. "Yeah, actually. Like you said, we get an extra hour of sleep back."

45 minutes later, Caitlyn woke up to no coffee on her nightstand. Relief washed over her and she smiled after coming to. Finally, the war was over.

Caitlyn could make her coffee and have her mornings to herself before going to work.

Here's a little secret about Caitlyn: she didn't want you guys making her coffee in the first place. Her coffee was the one thing she had to control over on weekdays. She didn't want anyone else taking that from her. – –

– Since then, Caitlyn has been in charge of making her own coffee and other hot drinks on Christmas day.

– After eating breakfast and trying to guess the shapes of pancakes, you three gather in the living room and open up stockings.

– Of course, Caitlyn already has the fireplace on and Christmas music playing softly in the background.

– As for opening the actual gifts, Cait's the type to open them up carefully and precisely. Vi is as violent as Jinx when it comes to opening up her wrapped gifts.

– Vi likes to say, "No way!" or laugh really loudly when she gets a gift she wasn't expecting.

– Caitlyn's smile takes over her face, her eyes beaming. Her cheeks get pink as she realizes you and Vi pay more attention to her than she thought and then she says a sheepish "thank you".

– It happens every year and you wouldn't change it for the world.

– When you open your gifts, the girls cling onto each other and giggle when you open a gift they said you weren't getting.

– "HA! Bet you thought you weren't getting that, huh, Muffin?" "That is the right one, yes? We knew you wanted it for a while."

– If they ever remember to get a camera, they forget every year, they take pictures of your sweet face and cute cheeks when you open up your gifts.

– People's hearts and bodies typically warm up after having something hot, but Vi and Cait's warm at the sight of your smile and pure joy.

– Your essence and feeling is the only thing that can't be captured with a photograph, but Caitlyn and Vi are grateful to experience it first hand.

WC: 1,730

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headcanons for walls erode to dust

These are always kept as a running list in my head when I write fic. They help me stay on track lol.

During the fic timeline:

Though Vi may not see it very often, Jinx and Lux do get into conflict, especially when they first start dating. Jinx has difficulty sorting through how to respond when she feels hurt or rejected by Lux, and Lux takes issue with how Jinx handles it sometimes. But Jinx begins to learn that Lux really, actually likes her, and (in tandem with therapy) starts to ease out of more maladaptive behaviors

Again lmfao, Vi refuses to go to therapy. She just gives me the vibe of someone who's like “uh I'm fine. I'm fine for real. Brb I'm going to go rip a log in half”

Silco is less of a villain in this fic and more of just like. Vander's divorced husband that he talks shit about sometimes to Benzo in front of Vi and Powder lmfao

The few times Vi fucked in college and navigated penetration she was like “idk it's just not my vibe”. And then she took Caitlyn’s dick and she was like “oh. THIS is my vibe”

Jinx saw Caitlyn once and looked at Vi and was like. “Girl someone get her an autism screening”

Caitlyn is like “I'm not autistic. I just have standards. I like things done a certain way and that's okay. And doesn't EVERYONE have trouble navigating social situations? And doesn't EVERYONE fidget like this when they get nervous?” and Jinx is like. : /

Caitlyn takes the online screening questionnaire and it tells her she's very likely to be autistic and she's like “well it's not a medical professional so I'm taking it with a grain of salt” and everyone around her sighs

Post fic:

Don't ask me what law school Caitlyn goes to by the end of the fic. I don't know. But I do think she becomes a really incredible defense attorney, and Vi and Caitlyn end up permanently moving there

Caitlyn, Vi, Viktor, and Jayce go to the mall/on dumb touristy outings sometimes for fun (wlw/mlm solidarity). Caitlyn, Vi, and Viktor often gang up on Jayce during these outings when he's being obnoxious, except for when they’re getting food. Then Caitlyn and Jayce commiserate over how Vi and Viktor only ever want to get burgers

Jayce is very happy his friend Cait is in lesbo city with her lesbo gf

Cait’s dad (Asian coded) spoke a little bit of Cantonese to Caitlyn growing up, but she only knows a few phrases nowadays. Vi asks to learn a little bit and all Caitlyn can teach her is “wash your hands” because Vi very often does need to wash her hands

In my head, Caitlyn is an absolute freak when it comes to sex lmfao. Not that Vi isn't, but Cait is very blunt and often it's Caitlyn initiating “what if we did this” and Vi is like …..*gulp* ok

Jinx and Lux definitely fuck like crazy on the couch after Vi moves out

When Vi and Caitlyn come visit (they're able to visit pretty often since Caitlyn is rich/Vi has a good paying job w Hextech), they often meet up with Vander, Lux, and Jinx, and play dumb board games and eat Vander’s food and play with the cat the Jinx and Lux are not supposed to have

Through the dynamic of good cop/bad cop, Jinx and Lux somehow convince the landlord to let them keep the cat

Pre-fic:

Cait actually grew up in California before moving to the undetermined East Coast setting where she and Vi are at the beginning of the fic. That's why she knows all the local spots

Jayce also lived in California before moving to the undetermined East Coast setting and they bonded about it when they first met

Jayce got more than a few hasty text messages from Caitlyn when he moved back to California while Caitlyn was in college like “please help me Jayce I'm lesbian and I think I'm in love” and she sends like 38272 images of Vi smiling pretty

Ok as tagged, the neurodivergence in this fic isn't a big part of it or anything, but I think Jinx was diagnosed w/ autism/ADHD in her childhood (bc she could not stop being Like That and Vi and Vander were like “this CANNOT just be trauma.”) 

In general:

My conceptualization for the light cannon/CaitVi fic was: (1) jinx and lux are insane and way cooler than caitlyn and vi (2) caitlyn and vi are insane but on the down low and also they're fucking losers lowkey

Vi accuses Caitlyn of hating trying new things in the last chapter, which she does, except for when it comes to trying new ways to fuck Vi. Autism be damned, my girl can slut it up.

For every scene you see of Caitlyn and Jinx bickering, the only thing going through my mind at the time of writing was “autism on autism violence”

I was talking to my sister about how Caitlyn and Jayce are originally from California and move across the country to where Vi lives in an undetermined East Coast area because it's kind of representative of people from Piltover visiting the Undercity and i was like "but i dont know where they actually live geographically. I just know it's kind of trashy", and my sister is like "Topside is California and the Undercity is like... New Jersey" and I almost screamed

So yeah anyway Vi and Caitlyn live in Undercity, New Jersey when they meet in college. Thank you to my sister for enlightening me

*bows* thank you

#arcane #caitvi #caitlyn kiramman #vi arcane #jinx arcane

[khaotic-neutrxl]

Jinx/Powder: An In-Depth Analysis (Of Her Zodiac and Identity)

[Note: This analysis is entirely just an interpretation! I am not completely certain of anything! Just want to give a perspective on Jinx that I'm passionate about, with all the nuances and little things I find to have meaning. As Christian Linke said, he wanted viewers to find their own answers in this series. So that's what this post is. Sorry for the upcoming essay, but bare with me if you can!!!]

[Also Note: If my writing sounds pretentious or wordy I actually genuinely apologize, took too many literature classes as a kid, and my tism really affects my writing. Promise it's just tism, I'm not feeling a certain way or a robot! Maybe, idk...🤖)

First I would LOVE to start off with not only her astrological sign...but ALSO how the symbolism in this series really fleshes it out.

I would like to think that since Arcane is very focused on things of symbolic nature (ex. drawing connections to Jinx's entire design to her childhood self down to her face shape, having moments that show her childhood innocence in subtle/symbolistic ways, her color scheme connecting her to Vi, etc) that Arcane itself would similarly have a lot more meaning in small things than what might have been seen at first.

To begin this, I want to start of with the sign I see the most in her character (may not be the most agreed upon, BUT PLEASE HEAR ME OUT...

🐟 Pisces 🐟

Ah, yes. The fishies. The sensitive, emotional, intuitive, psychic-psychotic, trusting, adaptable, scatterbrained blue little baby of the stars. But for Jinx it is more than just the fishies!

I feel like Jinx also has a fire in her. A fire like her sister, just put out at times by the water sign of Pisces. I mean, the fascination she finds in explosions, tendency toward fiery aggravation, passionate creativity, and heart-driven traits... I feel like Aries also suits her. But why not both? Because that's possible, they're neighbors on the chart. So that could mean that she's on the cusp between those two signs, having both traits simultaneously.

And what exactly is the cusp of Pisces-Aries so fittingly called?

The Cusp of Rebirth

It's the SYMBOLISM! (maybe not literally, but in many different small aspects!!!)

Not only would Jinx being on that cusp explain why she connects with Vi (who definitely has strong Aries placements behind that Taurus sun!) but ALSO,

HER ENTIRE ARC IS FOCUSED ON REBIRTH.

From Powder, to Jinx.

The scene with her and Silco in the water, when he does than whole dip in the river thing, also focuses on rebirth. Her rebirth, just as Silco says he did the day Vander betrayed him.

"That day, I let a weak man die. And another was reborn." -Silco, talking to Jinx in the water

And after Silco says those words, he lays Jinx in the water to let Powder die, and allow her to be reborn as Jinx. Because to him, Jinx is perfect. And Powder holds onto so much fear of pain, in a way, he wants her to let that go.

Not only is the symbolism of water-related elements of their relationship SCREAMING water signs to me (Jinx being Pisces, Silco being Scorpio), but the fact that in this intensely deep moment REBIRTH is the focal point.

And what better to embody that than the Pisces-Aries Cusp? The Cusp of Rebirth? A scene that literally is meant to represent Powder dying, and Jinx coming out the other side, as a stronger more authentic identity for herself above all. To leave her pain behind, as Silco said, and come out stronger than before. To have strength. Something she ALWAYS admired and idolized Vi for, trying to mimic it in the spirit of her older sister who she looked up to more than anything.

In this way, she became stronger, as she always wanted to be. For herself, but in a way, also for Vi. As a way to internally and externally prove something she always wanted to.

"You never left. I always heard you. Shadows in the streets, prickles on the back of my neck... Your voice---pushing me, picking me up." -Jinx, talking to Vi

She adapted (to her environment), as Pisces do, and transitioned to a form of herself she viewed as higher, better, stronger. Her. I mean, Neptune (the ruling planet of Pisces) is literally the planet of transcendence and mysticism.

Which also, somewhat, reminds me of how she somehow intuitively cracked some ANCIENT RUNES (probably outdated to the point of illegibility) and made a weapon in, like, a quarter of the time Viktor and Jayce did (no offense Viktor my beloved). Her Pisces intuition can even be drawn back to when she dodges that attack from the Firelights---not even seeing it come from behind her, just feeling it. Very Pisces-esc.

BUT THATS NOT ALL.

There's even more SYMBOLISM!!!!

(regarding her Pisces placement, a more compressed list so I can at least TRY and make this post a little shorter).

1. Butterflies! Her butterfly gadget, and the way that Fortiche really is specific on how they portray things, really spoke to me. Butterflies symbolize TRANSFORMATION and CHANGE, along with comfort, connection to the spirit realm, and a need for gentleness.

2. Her bunny stuffed animal! It is a sensitive, emotional piece specifically given to her from Vi, yes. But also, in the Chinese zodiac, the Rabbit quite literally is the equivalent to the Pisces zodiac! No coincidence Vi gave it to her, it suits her very well to me. Quick, swift, witty, vigilant, ingenious, sensitive, fearful, smart...so many things that scream Jinx! And her pigtails remind me of floppy bunny ears...

3. Color scheme! For both Pisces and the corresponding Chinese zodiac, her color scheme really resonates with the official ones related to this star sign. Blue, pink, purple...very much a lot of the colors you see with Jinx!

4. Water Symbolism! Water signs usually only genuinely are understood by other water signs, like she was with Silco (Scorpio). Not only that, but the "Fishbones" she literally talks to (spiritual in a way, speaking to the spirit and representation of Silco) is WATER ORIENTED. Aka fishy oriented. It's a MAJOR focal point that is built up to in the end, the finale. It's what she uses to not only "show them all" like Silco wanted all along, using a weapon she made representing him, it also helped define herself as Jinx, in a way. Genuinely, it seemed to me like a bridge between them that connects them, even after him being gone. And that connection would be very suited with Scorpio and Pisces, two signs that understand each others' depths (not to say Silco doesn't definitely have some big Pisces placements in his chart, really would explain their bond similar to Vi and Vander).

If that's not a water sign I don't know what is.

There is so much more. The shrine she made for Mylo and Claggor, which is so spiritually connected and resonant in itself. The fact that she never comes in first place (very Aquarius-Pisces vibes, but that's for another rant, possible Aquarius-Capricorn rising Jinx!), and the way that she genuinely knows and admits when she makes mistakes. Calls them mistakes, doesn't try to hide that but is deeply ashamed by it, mournful. And it EATS HER ALIVE not being able to resonate with people, letting people down, not being good enough for others. She DOES care. Doesn't shrug it off or deny her mistakes, they just make her cry and wish for what could have been [insert song here]. And regret, deeply. Nothing surface-level for Jinx. Everything is deep, kinda like water (lol).

But also, just to leave off here, look at the Creator and Writer, Christian Linke's, birth charts (both Vedic and Western). Why's that relevant? Because he really was one of the first, if not the first, who saw the flesh and bone in these characters! He pitched ARCANE! And, as he said in the documentary, he really put and left more than a chunk of himself within this series. If his emotions and diction, which connect DIRECTLY to a person's chart, influenced Jinx at all...I want to bring it up! Because the connections are a bit insane to me. They're way too coincidental.

So, if Christian had as much emotional input as the documentary talks about, I would like to shed light on how his chart could influence that. Because the connections and similarities are so incredible. That, and the fact that it was even officially posted that she has an Aquarius placement makes it all the more mindblowing! Makes me love science and astrology even more.

So I'm just gonna leave his chart there, for giggles, a little snack for thought :)

Anyway that concludes my rant! At least in this post! I would love to go on more but I don't intend on making people read a book, even though this practically is. Maybe I can talk more about her big three placements, or big six...another time. Thank you for sticking around if you made it this far! Hope this gave a (maybe) new perspective on Jinx!

If someone already made these points I'm sorry, I suck at finding stuff on the internet and probably totally missed it to be completely honest. I pinky promise I have no negative intentions with this post! Still, I hope this brought at least one interesting thought to the table, and I also hope ppl are as excited for the new season as I am!

#jinx arcane #jinx #zodiac #character analysis #insane in the membrane #unhand me #rant post #sorry for the rant #autism #jinx league of legends #jinx lol #release me #character rant #bad at tags #i hate tagging #tagging is hard #tagging game #slaying

[goddessofroyalty]

Hello again, hope life’s been good~

Anyway about Marcus’s daughter, I’m not sure if you remember but I’m sure a past comment brought up the idea that if Marcus was to die then his daughter (does she have a name??~) could be adopted by Silco (+Vander~) and be their 6th child, round out the 3 bio boys with dark hair and 3 adoptive girls with bright hair colours?~

It didn’t go any further than that but if Silco did adopt her (Idk how, maybe Marcus dies in front of her and Silco’s the only one there so she clings to her dad’s “friend” like a life line, and Silco’s just like ‘Ah shit’ cause now he can’t not adopt her~) what would that relationship with and the family be like, especially if she ever found out what her dad’s (Marcus) situation was actually like with Silco?~

(They wouldn’t be able to hide the whole ‘Eye of Zaun’ thing from her if she living with them, but that Marcus was Silco’s b*tch?~ Probably~)

Google to the rescue - her name's Ren.

I do wonder how easily Silco would be able to adopt her (as immediately bonded as he might be with her depending on the circumstances of her father's death). Only because she is the daughter of an important(ish) Piltite and Silco is still from (and living in) Zaun. You can definitively write it that Silco could (there's no other family around and Silco has the paperwork filed and signed off before anyone else starts to wonder what happened with Marcus' daughter?) but would it be that easy or would there be some pushback because we don't want her living down there in the filth of the Undercity. That's wondering off topic though.

There's obviously going to be a transition period because Ren goes from the only child to a (wealthish) Piltite to one of 6 to a (still wealthy) Zaunite. Like she's going from a house that is probably quiet most of the time with some staff doing the housework to the rowdiness of Vanco kids and being given (age appropriate) chores to help out with. Yes everyone in the family is at least trying to be welcoming to her and not overwhelm her but it's still a big adjustment. She would adjust but those first few days I can see being spent very wide-eyed on her part.

Finding out the actual relationship between Marcus and Silco would be a blow. And it's probably something she finds out quite late (being mostly told "they worked together" with no elaboration until finally one day someone goes "worked together? Ha! Silco told your original dad what to do and he had to do it, still don't know what Silco had on him to keep him that under his thumb").

She probably splits from the family and tries to do what her father had been trying - take Silco down. But, well, she's going to hit the same wall Marcus did there are enough people in the right positions who don't want Silco gone (because he's got blackmail on them, they see him as a necessary evil, or are now married to one of his kids). She's lucky that Silco can never hate his kids and he probably straight up tells her "you can hate me but I will always protect you". Which just makes the internal conflict worse.

#Arcane #Zaun Family #Ren Arcane #Marcus Arcane #Silco Arcane #Ramblings of the Goddess #Q and A with the Goddess #Anon question

[k1nky-fool]

This is so random, I'm sorry, but I want your advice.

I kinda want to start writing fanfiction, but idk how to start, soooo, how did you start? And what does your writing process look like right now?

Alright so this is an interesting question, friend, and I don't know if I can be super helpful, but I'm gonna try my best for you.

I have a very frameless writing style. Which is cool, I know what works for me, but what you gotta know is that tailoring your writing style to your own comfort, is the best thing you can do to start. I know what works for my own brain, and what works for you may be very different, just know that there is no "correct" or "incorrect" way to plan a fic or any writing project for that matter.

But, since you asked, I'll answer.

When I say "frameless" I really do mean that to start, I really don't have much of a process at all. I will often start when I'm drawing, and I want to just create a character that can exist in a universe. For this, I'll just use Least Sane Moments as an example, because I know you read it, and it's probably the best example of how my writing process works.

I first started by drawing Mita. I went through a few drafts of the drawing, knowing the kind of character I wanted, and I started eliminating aspects of her character I didn't want, and adding ones I wanted. I knew I wanted an Arcane OC who was some kind of bounty assassin, I wanted her to be very stone cold, and I knew I wanted her to be skilled to the point that it definitely seems like she's got some skeletons in her closet. (You don't have to be an artist, it's fine to just do like some kind of character sheet from a role play discord server or something).

When I have a character, I just sort of figure out what kind of situations I want to put them in. This is usually accomplished through vigorous daydreaming. A lot of times this can also look like me speaking lines out loud, while I try to capture specifics of the characterization. This was how I figured out how I wanted Mita to get her points across in as few words as possible.

Interactions like:

"If you're waiting for someone, I doubt they're gonna show. You've been here for hours, and I'm the only one to even approach your booth here."

"If you're lucky, he'll be a no-show." She stated with finality.

"And if he does?"

"Then I'm the lucky one." The voice modifier glitched as though she gave a small chuckle.

Went through many verbal walk-throughs before I ever managed to write them down. Speaking lines (especially with Mita) is my way of capturing the character in as lifelike a way as opposed to just writing a scene and editing it down. I do edit down my scenes a lot, I just save a lot more time and effort by speaking lines before I try writing them into a fic.

Now, a lot of these scenes are thought of, out of context, and without any consideration to an overarching plot. For example: Mita first showing her face to Vander over drinks while they talk about poisons, as well as Mita and Grayson's meeting were both going through this verbal process at the same time. I just liked both of these scenes, and I wasn't even really thinking of being able to put them in the same fic.

So, by this point, I have the main characters I wanna focus on, and a few scenes I have in mind. From there, it's just a matter of finding a starting point. With Least Sane Moments, I just found a scene that I had already thought of, that didn't need any context and could easily be framed/edited into being a meeting point.

I didn't have to do this with Least Sane Moments Part 1, because I knew to start where the story starts. Vander meets Mita, and hijinks ensue. But when I don't have a good starting point, I just find a place I like, and I start writing interactions from there. If I don't like the first 300 words or so, I'll delete the first starting spot, and I continue writing as though that's the new start.

You may have noticed that I haven't mentioned any sort of plot outline yet. So, funny story, I don't usually know what my plot is until I've already written a few chapters. I didn't even know what Mita was investigating until I already had finished Part 2. I have Mystique keeping it a secret from Mita, because she was keeping it secret from me, as the author. I didn't even know I wanted there to be another creature until I had finished Part 2.

This happens a lot from Part to Part. For example, in the version I posted, Part 2 of Least Sane Moments starts with Mita watching a target, and having to chase him. Part 2 originally started with Mita leaving the Last Drop and going to Mystique for information. I decided I didn't like that beginning, so I deleted what I had and started from her watching the target, so I could introduce Mystique at a different point where I liked the interaction more. You can do this from any starting point, including the fic's opening scene.

I discover my stories as I write them, and that's why I don't post Part 1 of a fic until I already have Part 2, and about half of Part 3, written. So when I decide to add something, I can go back and add a little bit of foreshadowing in a previous part without disrupting what my readers already know.

But as I created and added parts, and characters, and OCs from other stories into Least Sane Moments, a narrative began to construct itself. I know if I want Devoan to be in Least Sane Moments, I have to have a clear connection to the conflict.

(Prepare for a real time example of me using this process in writing here)

My biggest issue right now that I'm trying to work with, is that I know I need Mita to get some kind of information, but I don't want it to just fall into her lap. I can't decide whether to demonstrate her intelligence, or show another character's kindness. The issue with showing another character's kindness, is that I would need it to be a character I've already introduced, or alluded to in other parts of the story, because I have certain parts already published.

Either Mita is just smart, or I need, Vi or Mylo to be the one to collect and give her this information.

And as I wrote this out, I actually just decided that it should be Mylo. It's already established in the show that Mylo is an eavesdropper, and I already have a scene I've verbally played through, where Mita discovers she wants to teach Mylo to be the one she passes down her swords to. So it's likely that Mylo has heard Mita telling Vander what's going on, and he would likely be the one to over hear some kind of transaction happening somewhere in the undercity, and it makes sense that he'd blab about it to Mita, just because we know he can't keep his mouth shut.

Interesting how this process works out for me. And from there, I know how to develop Mita's growing attachment to not only Vander, but life settling down with him and the kids at the Last Drop. Suddenly it makes sense why she would choose to make this job her last, when she now has people to keep safe, and she knows someone that may want to take up her mantle and use the skills she teaches for good. She can't do that while she's intentionally putting herself in harm's way with the most dangerous people in the city.

From here, I can tie this to the rest of the scenes I've played through, and bring the story to a good conclusion, that leaves plenty of room for all of my other fics that I've placed in this universe.

Finding your starting point is not as important as figuring out what you want to write, and reverse engineering a start point from what you know you want later in your story. It's ok to spend time figuring out what you want before even beginning to write stuff down. For the most part, I just start writing from whatever point feels right, and editing it into a real story.

I know this process isn't for everyone, but I constructed this process because everyone else said I had to write an outline and know my entire story before I even started writing. I knew that process didn't work for me. Writing down bullet points for every part of my story sucked all the life out of my scenes, because suddenly, my characters were just points on a list. I liked being able to speak their lines, and explore their stories in my imagination before I started writing, and most of the time I just start writing an interaction down before I even have a point.

Whatever way you decide to explore your story, is perfect. Don't let anyone tell you that you're disorganized or unintelligent for doing something a certain way. If it works for your brain, it's the right way.

All that being said, I can't wait to read what you write! Definitely tag me whenever you get around to posting it.

#arcane oc #arcane #arcane fanfic #vander x oc

[the-insomniac-emporium]

Going to bed in a minute here, just waiting for my meds to kick in a tad, 'n just wanted to pop in and say I'm 95% sure that I'll be going with the name Runnek for my Arcane/LoL OC

Pronounced "Rune" like the word + "Ick" like Tick

Holding out on most of their story until I finish Arcane, even though I've already decided that they weren't in Piltover/Zaun during Act 1 (they did grow up in Zaun, but left around a year and a half before ep1). Definitely knew/befriended the Vander Orphans, but wasn't super close or anything (to the point that neither Vi or Jinx would recognize the adult version of Runnek until they speak).

Kinda have two "branches" that their story could follow, depending on two factors (from an OOC standpoint it's who I want them to date/be friends with lmao, from a more story-driven perspective it has to do with who they side with/who they reunite with first when they get back to Zaun), and knowing me... I will probably explore both ones, and pretend it has to do with the overarching themes of duality/identity, as opposed to me wanting to imagine my silly lil OC kissing my favorite blorbos (it's more about the cuddling, actually, but you get the idea)

TW for eye trauma below (because I am still attempting to get over some of my fears through writing/research)

The branches would also determine how exactly Runnek full-on loses their eye (though it gets injured when they're a kid in Zaun, which is the main thing that sparks their departure), with both versions being traumatic, but different, uh, idk, "flavors" of traumatic. Like, "begging your best friend to cut out your eye because you cannot bring yourself to do it" vs "desperate times call for desperate measures, but everything goes to shit when the dust settles"

#j has ocs #oc: runnek #will change the tag when they get a last name #tw eye trauma

[eri-blogs-life]

Fire Emblem: How Engaging Really Is It?

Fire Emblem: Engage has been out for two weeks now, and I just finished my first playthrough, and I figured it captured my attention enough that I wanted to write up some of my thoughts about it on my blog. And that’s what this post you’re reading now is! :o

So, first off, I am not gonna avoid spoilers, if anyone cares about that, just as a heads-up.

Second off, tl;dr: if you don’t wanna read what’s probably gonna end up being a lot of paragraphs about this game, then here’s my short answer: It’s a good game! Probably one of the best games in the fire emblem series... in certain respects. But it’s also got some big issues which may not be issues for everyone but which did cause me to have a hard time getting into the game at the beginning. If you want to know whether I’d recommend it, I’d say it’s absolutely worth picking up if you have liked any other FE games before, but as an entry to the series I think Three Houses is probably a better first pickup on the Switch.

Alright, so let’s break it down. Broadly speaking, I think the game is really good. It also serves as a nice love letter to past fire emblem games without overdoing the callbacks

But let’s start with probably the most obvious aspect of the game, the aesthetics:

(Alear, the protagonist of FE: Engage)

The main character of FE:E is Alear. Alear has very striking features. And mind you, there is an understandable story reason for it. (As you might guess, basically she lies halfway between two states of being in the story and so that’s represented by her blend of red and blue.) (Also, you CAN play as a male Alear instead but I play with female avatars and will likely continue to refer to Alear as a she throughout cause that was my primary experience with Alear in my playthrough.) (Also also, my friend mentioned they might’ve colored her red and blue specifically because as a reference to the switch’s default joycon controllers? But IDK about that.)

Toothpaste-chan, as Alear was affectionately called by the community after her original reveal (among other nicknames), has a very striking design with those two colors mixed like that. It looks weird as heck at first glance, and continues to look weird as heck throughout the game. But you get used to it.

As I understand it, the Fire Emblem team hired a notable japanese visual artist who’s done a lot of vtuber designs before, so when Alear was first revealed people were all “oh you can TELL this was made my someone into vtubers” (said in a derogitory kinda way), which does kinda suck. It’s a real offputting design at first, but it also is a design that kinda works in a nice way to capture a big part of what Alear IS. Alear is the bridge between Good and Evil within the setting and story of Engage, at least to some degree - the bond that draws together people from all over the wartorn world to unite together and work as one.

Though, if we look at that as a piece of political commentary it gets kinda weird. Alear unites all the people of her world to fight against a common threat, the evil Lord Sombron, but that threat is revealed to come from outside the world. He’s a foreign entity and Alear as the hero units the people of her part of the multiverse to kill that guy who came from elsewhere. But I guess they do also ally themselves with the Emblem, people from other worlds, so it probably is more intended as a story to be about fighting for the world alone vs together.

(Vander, one of the early characters, when you speak to him in your hub area)

The other characters of Fire Emblem: Engage range from being relatively mundane in their appearances, to even more out there than Alear. And a lot of the really weird designs are front-loaded, and relegated to story-significant characters (looking at you, Timerra).

And... I get that. From a character design perspective, you want your main characters of your story to really stand out and stay in people’s minds, as well as making them easy to identify what they’re all about at a glance. And Engage’s designs certainly do stick in your mind! BUT not all for good reason.

The game also puts a lot of the weirder characters early in the story, and the story early on really isn’t all that strong, being a kinda generic forgettable adventure until about a third of the way through the game, but I’ll get to the story later.

I REALLY dislike a lot of the character designs in Engage (and I really like a lot of the others), but I’m absolutely willing to put up with the weird ones. Because...

(The greatest Override I have ever or will ever accomplish)

Fire Emblem: Engage’s gameplay is AMAZING. As a long-time Fire Emblem fan, who’s been into the series since it came to America in the GBA era and has played every game save for a couple of the older ones, I have to say... FE:E may be my new favorite game in terms of gameplay. There’s a decent variety of maps, lots of mechanics both old and new that blend together really well, lots of different objectives on maps both required and not, which push you in different directions and do what I think any good strategy game should do - make every turn its own puzzle, custom-built by the decisions you and your opponent (the computer) have made over the course of a fight.

The big new mechanic is obviously Engaging - there are twelve Emblems (kind of? There are twelve main ones, but then there’s also like some shenanigans late in the story that change it up, plus you can also get extra emblems from the DLC too). These Emblems are heroes from previous Fire Emblem games, though within the world of Engage, those emblems are known to be something like effigies of the spirits of heroes from another world - not the hero themself, but a representation of them. During combat, characters who have an emblem’s ring equipped can Engage.

This mechanic lets them fuse with the emblem to become something new, getting a new costume and new abilities. The new abilities a character gets depends both on which emblem they’re using, and how strong their bond with that emblem is, with bond being mostly built up from fighting together in previous fights. Bond can also be built up with training in the Arena, or with another new mechanic you can do in your home base area, the Somniel.

You know that mechanic that got cut from Fire Emblem Fates where you would invite allies to your home base and you would have to pet them with the touch screen and that would increase your relationship with them? Engage has something like that, but it feels even creepier somehow, and this one didn’t get cut for censorship reasons

(Technically, there’s nothing perverted about this scene, but it still feels off)

You can have different characters polish the rings, thus increasing their bond. But it’s a mini game where you have to move the cursor around and press A to polish, and the emblem gives you words of encouragement along the way and it just feels... off. It feels perverted somehow. I don’t know that I can elaborate how or why, but it is one of many Somniel activities I just stopped doing entirely like 2/3 of the way through the game.

There were a lot of those.

Like in a few recent FE games, you have a base that you can run around between missions, called the Somniel. In the Somniel you can eat meals with your team to increase your supports and get buffs for the next fight, work out to get Alear temporary buffs for the next fight, farm animals to get eggs and stuff (or exclusively ingots once you realize putting dogs on your farm gets you ingots), and all kinds of other activities. Honestly, it just got to be too much for me. I was spending way too much time in the Somniel and not doing the fun strategic puzzle gameplay that I WANT to be getting up to in a game like this.

So eventually I just stopped polishing rings, eating meals, and just about anything else. I’d just come back to the Somniel between missions to restock on healing items, inherit any emblem skills I had finally unlocked for a character, and check out any new Bond and Support conversations.

The Bond conversations, between characters and emblems, are all pretty lame. They’re usually a two-sentence back-and-forth, with just some pleasentries exchanged that don’t really say much about either character in the exchange. Supports are better than that, at least. A lot of them feel really light, though, in my opinion. Short. And they are REALLY poorly animated, using a lot of repeat stock character animations that don’t feel like they fit the mood of the scene at all.

But, to be fair, there are definitely some cool characters in the game, and even if the support conversations feel kinda short, and even if their designs visually sometimes leave a lot to be desired.

(one of the bests of the bests in terms of characters in this game)

One big appeal about the Fire Emblem formula definitely is digging into the personal lives of all your characters and learning about what makes them all tick and what they get up to outside of the ongoing war, and even if most characters will appear on the surface to be pretty tropey and one-note, being just a class and a gimmick, supports usually flesh those characters out into being much stronger characters overall. And Engage certainly does a decent bit of that, in my opinion.

One aspect I really liked about a lot of older FE games was seeing how a character’s supports you’d built over the game changed their ending in the epilogue. Unfortunately, Engage doesn’t seem to have any characters pair up if you max out their supports in the ending, at least as far as I saw on my first playthrough, which is a bit disappointing. Like, I think Celica and Alcryst would make a great couple, for example.

But you can get a special relationship with a character of your choosing and your protagonist in this game, which is pretty cool. And you can be gay!

(i obviously married best girl Yunaka. my assassin wife <3)

(there’s even unique CGs for which character you marry, apparently! which means I’m going to have to replay a bunch of times to see all of them I guess lol)

And that’s cool. Cause relationships is definitely a big part of Engage. Not just romantic relationships, though. Bonds, Supports, the Pact Ring (the marriage item), they’re all part of trying to tie into what seems to be the narrative core of the game:

At least, that seems to be the narrative core of the game once you get up to the final battle. Before that... well, I didn’t really pick up on any specific themes that really felt strong up until you get to that last third or so of the story.

But yeah, let’s talk about that story a little.

Fire Emblem: Engage’s story is definitely FUN, I’ll say that. It starts off really weak, though. The first third or so of the game is fairly slow, mostly just introducing you to the world and a lot of the major characters, but having a fairly generic story about going to fight against some guys who stole your cool rings from you. Which isn’t necessarily a bad story on its own, but its execution does feel like it leaves a lot to be desired.

(Also, quick side note, in like the second chapter Alear’s mom dies, but because of the way the story’s set up neither us nor Alear really got much time to spend with her, so what feels like it SHOULD be a big dramatic moment in the story rings REALLY hollow as the player. Like, why is Alear crying over someone she basically met, like, yesterday?)

But things really pop off about a third of the way through the story, when we start getting some good character development from Alear. Alear starts out fairly bold and confidant, but gets her ass handed to her about a third of the way through the story, and we get to see her rebuild up her army and her confidence.

And about two-thirds of the way through the story, we get some reveals about the nature of the world, and things really start to pop off. This is when it goes from being a solid story that’s enjoyable as a backdrop for the amazing gameplay, to being a point where I was REALLY invested in the story.

And then we go to what is basically a fucking meteor in space and fight an epic final battle against a dragon and it’s amazing

(Sombron, the big bad, summons Dark Emblems that represent the big bads of previous games, but they’re subtle enough as references that it feels like a nice nod to past games while still letting Engage do its own thing. This also makes the final fight into a really cool puzzle challenge of its own that isn’t just all about wailing on a lonely old guy)

(Also, if you do Game Over during the final fight - which is hard to do since you can normally use your Time Crystal to reset to a previous turn of the fight - you actually get a Bad Ending, which surprised me when I was expecting to just go back to the title screen)

So... I think that sums up most of my core thoughts. Here’s just another fun set of screencaps I took. I started the game taking like <10 minutes per map:

Then through the midgame I took roughly 30-50 minutes per map, until we get to the final fight:

Almost 2 hours. Damn.

Anyway, I think I gotta wrap this up. I enjoyed the heck out of my time with Engage, even if it felt really weak at the start. I’m looking forward to my next playthrough, just gotta decide what to do with that playthrough (maybe if I can do the new tumblr polls I’ll make one of those).

I’ll just end it with one last screencap. My feelings for Engage overall I think:

#eri blogs games #fire emblem #fire emblem engage

[a-gal-with-taste]

Hey!! I wanted to say that I think your writing is lovely, truly. Could you please do a Vander x fem!reader? I’d love to see Vander notice Reader struggling with her lungs, and notices his smoking is only making it worse, though she never says a thing about it? And maybe the kids are concerned too, noticing how her health is going down. Thank you for your time and have a lovely day!

First non-Silco request, let's goooo! Love me some crimerat, but it's nice to shake up the pace every so often. I'm still working on writing Vander's character, I'm not familiar with him as I am with others, but I hope you don't mind if I use this to practice writing with the hellion-kiddos of the underground. I rewatched Episode 1 and had to squeeze them on into a story

Vander X F!Reader

Warning: Language, serious illness, minor blood, hurt/comfort, tobacco usage and second-hand smoking. Also first time writing some characters, so apologies if they seem ooc

As soon as the kids came to know they were safe, would be fed, and had a warm bed to return to at night, they were off running. Away, yes, but now that they knew they had a place to return to, they always did so, after a long day of wreaking havoc in the Underground.

Today was one such day, and considering the lateness of the hour was beginning to make those in the shadows more and more bolder, locating the children was becoming a greater necessity by the minute. "Mylo, I'm taking your picks for a week unless you tell me where they went." You said in your best parental-tone, earning a squawk and frantic shake of spiky hair as he continued to insist he didn't know.

"Clagger..."

"I dunno either! I thought it was our turn hiding, I didn't think to look." The boy flushed, reaching up to adjust his just-too-big googles in his sheepishness. You sigh, and wave a hand in assurance, pausing as you glanced down an alleyway. Premonition, and frankly, experience led you to glance further up, through the oversized pipes and gears jutting out between buildings... "Can you climb, or do I have to come get you?" You called up, your voice bouncing along the metal as it echoed upwards.

Violet, of course, hopped down without further ado, despising the very idea of help. "Tattletale," The older child snarled at Mylo, giving him a small shove that you halted with a look as the boy whined. "Hey now, be nice. You can pick up the game tomorrow." Turning back to let the two simmer their attitudes down, you squinted as you gazed up through the pipework, calling again, "Powder...?"

A beat, before a tiny hum sounded, an anxious tune that made your heart twist even as you rolled up your sleeves, voice calm as you called up, "Okay sweetie, I'm on my way, don't worry..." Holding out an arm as Violet quickly steps up, face twisted in determination, and independence, "No, Vi, I need you on the ground. Keep these knuckleheads from disappearing again, alright?" Said-knuckleheads let out twin indignant sounds at the idea of babysitting, but the pink-haired girl gave a sharp nod, fists tight at her sides as she leveled a gaze upwards to the jungle of pipes and metal her sister was stuck in.

After scanning the bars and pipes for a minute, you took a short running start before leaping, using the momentum to step off onto the building wall, and haul yourself up to the first level.

There was a beat of anxiety in the air as the children heard your rasp from that action alone. "I-i can go get Vander..." Clagger offered, starting to back up, but a tiny whine from high above made him stop. "Don't leave me! I-i can get down on my own, I promise-" "No, sweetie, you stay right there." You ordered, after catching your breath, taking a sharp inhale through your opened mouth before balancing with years of skill and survival on the pipeline. "Nearly there, okay? Just hang tight, monkey..."

You don't know when the rasping started, but the kids, primed and conditioned to take every new development with a mountain of suspicion, noted it instantly. At first taking it for sickness, Violet had been quick to hustle the other children away whenever you were in the room, peering suspiciously as if you were collaborating with your germs on how best to spread and compromise the youngsters health.

Anxiety for her flock soon included anxiety for you, leading her to reach out in little ways. Water shoved into your hand at a seconds notice. Running errands in your place, grunting and growling away your insistences that it was your job to carry the heavy objects. The other kids picked up on it too, helping out in their own, little ways to prevent from hearing the uncomfortable sound of your labored breathing, but no one said anything.

At least, no one said anything that made it's way back to Vander. Which is what you preferred, knowing the man already had more than enough on his shoulders, you didn't want the children to race off and worry him with what's probably just the consequence of a life down in the undercity.

"Hey, spidermonkey. Climbed a bit too high?" Your joke comes out as a wheeze, but the pinched, anxious look on Powder's face melts a bit at your joking tone as you balance on the thin catwalk she's huddled on. Thankfully not as high as you anticipated, but after taking a moment to catch your breath, you hold your arms out which leads to her instantly latching onto you. "... 'orry," She whimpers into your ear as you need another moment to catch a breath with her arms locked around you.

"Don't sweat it, sweetie." You said, turning your cheek to press a quick peck to her temple. "Listen, how about you get on my back, we'll climb down, and then later we'll stop by that food stall you like. I know her bread rolls are your favorite..."

The blue-haired girl was already perking up, and she couldn't restrain a giggle at your pout and heavy sigh at the end. "I'd like yours too, if you didn't burn 'em!"

"I make them crispy, thank you very much."

Another few chuckles that calmed her down some, but her grip around your neck was still iron-clad as you secured her heels on your hips, standing up with hitched breath as you gazed down. Violet was staring up, on the verge of mutiny as she met your gaze while you caught your breath from the trial of simply hoisting a girl onto your back.

Taking a small breath, ordering your lungs not to start a rebellion that could doom you both, you whispered to Powder to hang on tight, before hopping down to the next pipe-level.

A squeak from behind as you staggered, hand catching yourself on rusted metal as you let out a soothing hush. Another breath, ragged more than the rest, before you dropped another two levels, catching yourself on a oil-slick pipe.

"S'okay, we're okay..." You had to take a minute to close your eyes, breathing slowly as you kept your body still and calm. Then a hoarse cough suddenly yanked from your lungs, one that couldn't stop, and you slipped.

"Shit!" "Oh no!" "Powder!" "Language!"

Somehow, you landed on the ground with Vi racing to tug the immobile girl from your back, as you pressed your palm to your mouth to stifle the cough. Your knees were stinging smartly from the impact, after managing to catch yourself at a lower level before, ungraciously, dropping down the rest of the way. But your chest was feeling some true pain from the laboring task, and as you finally managed to suck in a wet, but stable breath, you pulled your oddly sticky hand from your mouth...

"... I killed her, there's BLOOD!" Powder's screech made your ears ring as you quickly curled your fist to hide the evidence from the kids crowding around you, but it was too late. "N-no, kids, really, i'm..." You wheezed as you raised yourself on shaky legs, and even though he looked pale from the sight, Clagger immediately reached over to help you up onto your feet. "I'm fine..." You finished lamely.

"Bullshit, I'm telling Vander." "No." You said to Violet immediately with a frown, looking at other the kids firmly. "I... I know some guys. They can take a look at what's up with me. Do not bring this to Vander unless I bring it up with him, understood?" The casting of glances between the four made you nervous, and you put on a stony expression as you held your hand out, pinkie extended.

"Swear it, or I'm hiding your lockpicks, wrist-wraps, tools and no food stall trips. For a year." Each kid, besides the equally-stony pink haired one, gawked at your gall. Begrudgingly, Mylo and Clagger stepped up, too attached to their precious, sometimes questionable passtimes to risk losing them despite their worry for you, but Violet held Powder's hand to keep her at her side. Your frown deepened as you saw the mutiny in her icy blue eyes. "Vi..."

Jaw tensing, and hand tightening around Powder's, the girl whipped around and raced off. Knowing exactly where she was going, and knowing you had zero chance to even begin to break the distance between you two, you stood, and began walking back to the tavern to face the music...

-

The music was quite lovely, actually. Vander already had your favorite album playing in the background as you staggered in. That always put you in a good mood, which is why he always played it when you were about to have an argument.

You didn't feel betrayal when you saw Vi give you a glare as you walked in, still holding a worried looking Powder. Ushering the boys along, you saw the eldest give an uncertain glance before she finally moved her sister and brothers back to the door to the basement, leaving you and Vander alone in the tavern. Weekday, so it wasn't surprising, but you could imagine him ushering out a few remaining patrons before you walked in.

"I'm already planning to see someone," You announced quietly as you took the barstool closest to him as he was wiping down the counter. "Maybe go up to the Lanes for a bit, get some fresher-air."

"Were ya going to tell me? Or just shove off?"

You frown at the accusation. "Van, of course I would've told you. I wouldn't run out on you and the kids like that." The larger man huffed a bit, reaching for his pipe abandoned behind the counter. "Right, you wouldn't run off but ya would keep the kids from telling me you've been hackin' out a lung after every jog."

Smoke soon arises as he raises the pipes to his mouth, bushy brows furrowed as he raps his fingers on the counter. You swallow, and open your mouth to reply, but you speak only with coughing. Your partner immediately swears, slipping around the counter to put a hand on your back to try and help clear your airways. "Shite, poppet..."

After a moment, your coughing returned to hoarse breaths, and your reached behind you as Vander's large hand traveled up to your shoulder. Covering his with your much smaller own, you swallow and turn to look at his worried, pinched expression. "... It's the pipe, Van."

A slow blink, and you sigh, again needing to swallow air before you can speak again. "I know... it's stressful, taking care of all of us. Taking care of this city, much as we can. I know you don't have many things to cool down at the end of the day but... I don't have the lungs you've got, from the mines."

"... ya saying I caused this-" "No." You said, firmly as you squeezed his fingers with your hand. "No, I'm sure this has been a long time happening, honey." Where Vander grew in the deepest, darkest parts of the underground, you lived on the Lanes, practically within view of Piltover. The air was still tinged with the toxins, but the salt of the harbor had been clean enough in your youth. Since your departure into the undercity, you knew your body would have to get used to the clogged, dense air surrounding you, that others seemed to inhale with little to no problems, having been born into it.

Your body either had to get used to it, or rebel, and unfortunately, it looks like it was firmly the latter camp.

The pipe was put out, but he didn't remove his hand from your shoulder. "... I should've known better." "And I should've said something. We're both dumbasses," You assured him, turning in your seat to cup his face, giving him a small smile as you gently scratched at his beard to get his attention. His eyes flicked up to yours, and though he didn't turn warmer, you leaned into that hand that softly cupped your cheek.

"... You've gotten paler." "Long time from the sun." "... You said you knew some guys." "I'd trust at least two with the kids. I'll be fine, back up and running in no time."

He sighed, and his thumb gently brushed at your cheek. "'M sorry. I should've noticed." "Again, I should've said something. Dumbass parent we are, making the kids need to point it out for us." There was finally a small smile at that, and you turned, pressing your lips to his palm. "Vander, I'll be okay. We'll figure something out, we always do."

A small nod, as he made the quiet suggestion of asking the Enforcers for a favor. As the peacekeepers between the two, he had the best chance of not getting laughed at for such a request, but you still found yourself hesitating. "... Let me try my guys first. We can see what Topside might be able to help me with then, okay?" A beat, then you smiled gently at him, and he finally closes the gap, bringing you into one of those deep, enveloping hugs that immediately warmed you down to your soul.

"'M sorry," He stresses into your hair, and you hummed, swallowing another round of hacking to murmur assuringly. "I know, honey, I know you are..." Suddenly, if not for your man's grip of you, you would've gone flying from the lunge Powder gave as she finally got sick of eavesdropping, eager to be close to you. You heard a muffled apology for today's stunt as she buried her face into your side, and gave a small sigh with soft assurances, running a hand through her hair before glancing up at the others.

"... c'mon boys, bring it it." You ordered with a small smile, your two sons hesitant, but still quick to latch on to you and Vander.

You held them for a minute, hiding a smaller cough behind your fist as you glanced over to Vi, who was watching with a stern expression and arms crossed tightly over her chest. You would never be able to replace the mother she lost, she had always made it quiet clear, but you still gave her a matronly soft smile, letting the invitation hang in the air between you two.

"... I'm not saying sorry for tellin'." She insisted in a grunt as she latched onto the pile, all six of you together before an uncertain future. You could only chuckle, for a moment, lungs free from coughs as you whisper back to her, "Good, because I was planning to thank you."

#give Vi a mom figure you cowards #shes 100% a daddy's girl but she needs that positive female influence in her life #first time writing Vander idk how i did? #i think a B- #he's good but not my favorite but i hope i did him justice #my writing #vander x reader #arcane vander #arcane powder #arcane vi #arcane mylo #arcane clagger #vander x you #arcane #lol arcane

[jadetea-writing]

Arcane spoilers below the cut

Discussion/rambling on powder's behavior around the end of episode 3

Some people be saying that powder/jinx's mental break seems "forced" or "sudden" and that the writers didn't build up to it enough

Bruh, her history aside, she fucking killed her entire family at the age of 9, how tf would that alone not justify snapping?

"her hugging silco doesn't make sense"

powder thinks her last family in the world just abandoned her, and it's all her (powder's) fault bc the ONE time her shit worked, it killed 75% of her family. I don't think she knew/saw that silco was behind vander getting taken in the first place, but even then she has nothing left to lose so why not scrape the laat bit of comfort she can by hugging the first person she sees?

Silco uses a somewhat gentle tone when he says "little girl, where is your sister" Yes, he's holding a knife, but Powder grew up the Lanes, everyone carries a knife prob

I'm not trying to start a fight, nor will I engage if someone wants to argue how "forced" /"sudden" Jinx's turn is… idk, I'm mostly venting.

It seemed very clear to me from the moment we first saw Jinx that she's a very traumatized, unstable girl, and traumatized children aren't rational actors—"healthy" children aren't rational actors.

"Jinx's actions don't make sense": From a logical standpoint, maybe not. From an emotional viewpoint? They abso-fucking-lutely do.

Man, i think I'm just salty from reading too many worm fics where the board discussion is all "why did taylor do this! This makes no sense!"

She's an traumatized, maladjusted teenager, why are you expecting hyperrational behavior from her?

A pinch of salt from the "It's not bad writing just bc you don't understand it 🙃" camp too, i guess

#god I'm going to tempt fate if i tag this #but i want to tag it for archival purposes #arcane #arcane powder #arcane jinx

[roughlyangelic]

ALL THE ODDS!!

1 (put your itunes on shuffle. give me the first six [6] songs tht pop up): lost by btskiss with a fist by florence + the machinegive me a sign by nathan grisdalewake me up by ed sheeranhospital for souls by bring me the horizondilliwaali girlfriend from a bollywood movie ((dnt judge me))

3 (grab the nearest book to you, turn to page 23. give me line 17): “The ghost screamed as the dirt covered his body like a…”

5 (ever had a poem or song written abt you?): my ex allegedly worked w a couple dudes from monstercat to write one of the songs on their channel for me, but i highly doubt thts true. also ive probably had poems written for me but i dnt remember :’)

7 (whats your religion?): im pagan

9 (simple but extremely complex. favourite band): oh wonder

11 (do you believe in karma?): hell yeah

13 (what is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?): weakness: doing smth tht harms me since i was young. id rather Not get into it. strength: god i have no idea

15 (how do you vent your anger?): i dnt. i internalise it until i explode

17 (are you happy w the person youve become?): honestly? no

19 (whats your biggest ‘what if’?): “what if no one actually likes me?”

21 (stick your right arm out; whts the first thing you touch? do the same w your left): right: a blanket. left: air

23 (whts the worst place youve ever been to?): florida

25 (to you, wht is the meaning of life?): fuck i have no idea im traumatised

27 (what was the last movie you saw?): coco

29: already answered uwu

31 (do you tend to hold grudges against ppl who have done you wrong?): yeah lol in the summer between 6th & 7th grade i had to go to a daycare type thing for a week & my best friend was there & we played barbies w this one girl & she stole All the good barbie clothes & ive held a grudge against her ever since

33 (whats the last thing you purchased?): idk some sims 4 thing

35: already answered UwU

37 (what is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?): idk man i have a million different personalities tht i take on ((not DID/OSDD, i have BPD)) when talking to different ppl So

39 (wht were you doing last night at 12 am?): idk talking to this one gross dude prolly

41 (you are walking down the street. there is a dog drowning in a canal. your boss told you tht if you were late one [1] more time youd be fired. wht do you do?): bitch wht the fuck id save the dog

43 (whts a song tht always makes you happy when you hear it?): home by morgxn

45 (how can i win your heart?): jst fucking talk to me ill prolly fall in love w you

47 (wht is the single best decision youve made in your life so far?): to break up w my main abuser!! :)

49: already answered UWU

51 (whts your current desktop picture?): well on my laptop i think the home screen wallpaper thing is some oh wonder lyrics. & the lockscreen or whatever is a picture of the baes josephine vander gucht & anthony west. my phone, both my home & lock screens, are a black nd white outline of a human heart ((its hard to explain tht one))

53: already answered U W U

55 (you can relive any point in your past. but the time frame is only a half hr. wht point wld you relive?): none. n/a. other. i dnt wanna go back there L0L fuck you

57 (you have the opportunity to sleep w the music-celebrity of your choice. who wld it be?): JOSEPHINE VANDER GUCHT BYE

59 (ever been on a plane?): my longest yeah boi ever

#rough.txt

[goddessofroyalty]

*Throws a fic promt from the void*

Vander finding another pup (Mylo) and Silco having to nurse another slightly older pup because of it while Vander wonders if his ever gonna have a turn at that Tiddy.

(Please don't feel obligated to write it if your not feeling it, I just absolutely love your Wet Nurse fic!!!!!)

Like usual there will be a second part of this from Vander’s POV at some point before it goes up on AO3. IDK I just like doing them separate here first (it's because they're ~1k each and can stand alone)

Shout out to the person in the Zaundads discord who basically gave me the entirety of Mylo’s background here.

Tags: omegaverse, breastfeeding a toddler

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“And what’s this one’s story?” Silco asks as he puts Powder down now they are home, nodding at the pup Vander has on one of the tables as he tries to wipe the dirt off him. The boy pulling faces and leaning away as he does but not getting up to leave like he very much is capable of.

Silco has no doubts there’s a sob story to go along with him.

The way Powder clings at his legs makes him realize he should have already put his foot down if he wanted to stand a chance at preventing Vander from picking up every stray he finds and bringing them back home to pack into Silco’s nest.

And maybe Silco should count himself lucky that this is how Vander has found to fill his want of pups instead of trying to get Silco to whelp them for him. There is still too much to be done to have time for a pregnancy.

Silco ignores the traitorous fear that rises in him that Vander might find he prefers this method of pup acquisition.

“You know those missing people Benzo kept talking about?” Vander asks, as the scrawny pup tries to squirm away from him.

“He turned out to be right?” That was a surprise. Benzo had a habit of not letting up on something no matter how clearly it was just the usual life in Zaun.

“Don’t sound so surprised,” Vander says, giving up at trying to clean down the pup.

Silco snorts at it, gesturing for Powder to let go of him. The girl wondering off likely in search of her sister.

“They were nabbing people off the streets,” Vander explains as Silco walks over to him and the boy. “Taking our people in chains to sell in foreign lands.”

“And did you and Benzo take care of them?” Silco would be disappointed if they didn’t but the two had lost their edge of late. The deal with Piltover causing them to forget that their people still needed them to fight for them. Both becoming lazy in their new lifestyles.

“We did,” Vander says, hanging his head as if it is something to be ashamed of.

Silco doesn’t comment on it. He has made his thoughts of the newfound pacifism clear and is working to ensure Zaun’s protection if Vander proves no longer capable.

“He’s a skinny thing.” Silco cups the pup’s face to examine him and the lack of puppy fat a boy his age should have.

There’s skinnier pups in Zaun if you know where to look. But it wouldn’t do for one of theirs to be seen as missing out.

“They’d been starving the lot of them,” Vander says. “And, well, I though…”

“Thought what?” Silco says when Vander lets his statement trail off. He has a good idea of what his alpha is thinking. But there is no way he’s letting him get away with not saying it.

“You’re already feeding Powder,” Vander says with a shrug. Because for him it’s no big deal.

He’s not the one with tits that now leak if he goes too long without letting a pup feed. Any attempts at getting the supply to dry up thwarted by a certain blue-haired girl’s pathetic face whenever he tries to deny her.

“My supply isn’t unlimited you know,” Silco reminds as he works on undoing the clasps to his new vest. Because Vander had better not start getting any ideas about trying to save every orphan in Zaun with Silco’s breasts.

“I’m not asking you to become their sole food source,” Vander says and Silco just rolls his eyes at it.

“Come here,” he says, reaching out to the pup that has been watching him with curious eyes.

The boy lets Silco pick him up, sitting in Silco’s lap after he hooks a chair out from the table to not have to nurse standing up.

“Do you have a name?” Silco asks, holding a finger up when Vander goes to answer for the boy.

He at least deserves it from the pup’s own mouth.

“Mylo,” the pup says, glancing between Silco’s face and chest as Silco undoes his shirt enough to get his fuller feeling breast out. “Are you my new mum?”

“Something like that.”

 When Vander first brought the girls home he had told his mate they were the alpha’s pups to deal with. That Silco would only tolerate but not parent them.

It had taken less than a week for Powder to make him go back on it. The two girls now as much his as they are Vander’s.

He doesn’t see any point in pretending it will be different with this one.

“Are you hungry?” Silco asks, despite seeing the answer clear in how the pup’s eyes off his breast.

Mylo nods quickly.

“Go on then.”

Silco has to guide Mylo’s head into the best position to get a good latch. It makes him wonder when the last time the pup was allowed to nurse was.

Soon enough the boy finds a rhythm, one far more desperate than either of the girls ever have. Thin arms wrap around Silco’s waist as the pup practically clings on as if he is afraid he will be ripped away.

“You are safe now pup,” Silco says. “Nobody will take you away.”

Nobody would dare.

Silco looks up to Vander to see why the alpha hasn’t said anything only to find Vander watching.

“Enjoying the show?” Silco asks with a raised eyebrow.

He knows Vander enjoys the fact he nurses the pups. He would be an idiot to miss the signs. But it isn’t something he can encourage if he ever wants to have his milk supply dry up and not a constant supply of orphans being brought home to him.

“Uh.” Vander coughs. “Do you want dinner?”

“Please.” Silco hadn’t eaten since lunch and his body was apparently going to need enough food to produce milk for two regularly nursing pups.

“I’ll go get you something,” Vander says because Silco clearly isn’t going to be getting up anytime soon.

At least he is grateful for what Silco is doing for the pups he found.

#Wet Nurse #Arcane omegaverse #omegaverse #SIlco Arcane #Vander Arcane #Mylo Arcane #Arcane #breast feeding #breastfeeding #platonic breast feeding #Anon prompt #prompt fic #prompt fill #Also yeah Wet Nurse gets its own tag now #I'll start doing Work/Life Balance as well now #because lets actually try and get organisation on my blog

[the-insomniac-emporium]

J Watches Arcane: Episode 3, Random Thoughts/Play-by-Play

Back at it again, ready to have my fucking heart ripped out (if the ending if the last episode is any indication of what's to come). Under read-more because I have lots of thoughts! Okay, well, plenty of them are jokes, because I haven't been the same since watching MST3k. But also the episode starts with a monologue about drowning, and as someone with personal experience in that area, well, had to add in my 2 cents :D

Includes time-stamps for watch alongs/curiosity.

Reminder: These thoughts are just initial observations, and are subject to change. Some scenes hit different in retrospect, and some thoughts end up being null by the end of a scene (though I try to note that, if things change soon enough for me to write it down).

(0:43) "Ever wonder what it's like to drown?"- Silco. Uh, it's like coming home?... Movie reference aside, I know what it's like to drown, and lemme tell you, it's just as horrible as you've always imagined :)))

(0:55) "There's peace in water. Like it's holdin' you, whisperin' in low tones to let it in."- Silco. Maybe it's because I almost drowned close to shore, and was in water less than a foot taller than I was (for reference, I was between 3 and 5 years old, and this is literally one of my earliest memories), but gotta disagree here. The waves crashed over me, over and over again, screaming at me to just stay down. No whispering, no soft caresses. It was like being beat to death, like getting kicked to the dirt, and stomped on. Repeatedly. Fucking sucked.

(1:20) "But then there's this thing, in your head, and it's raging"- Silco. YES, we agree on this. Pressure building in your chest, body struggling, fighting endlessly, even as the shadows start to creep into the corners of your vision. The water holds you down, but by God, your body will not let you go gently. You will not take a breath, will not flood your lungs, until it is the only choice. Flashing imagery aside, the visuals felt like a very accurate representation of the moments right before you pass out. Contrast between giving in to the unrelenting water and the strive to keep flailing.

(1:55) "For that I thank you... old friend."- Silco. Oooh la la, some of the first real hints towards Silco's complicated character. Since starting the show, I've heard a little bit more about what specifically people love about it (thankfully without many spoilers), and I'm looking forward to learning more about Silco!

(Intro/Opening Credits) Woot! I think I recognize almost every character in the intro now :D

(3:50) Oh, wait a second, are we doubling back on the trope subversion? I mean, okay, it's a common thing for either a father figure or an older sibling to give themselves up for the sake of the youngin. But it's less almost-maybe-cliche if Vi is the one who goes with the enforcers/takes the blame, even if she technically is the ringleader who orchestrated the crime. Maybe. Hmm. At the moment, as I am watching this, I'm not 100% confident about my trope analysis, so I might revisit this at another time.

The point is that I'm a bit surprised, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. Should probably finish the scene before I say anymore, though!

(5:25) DAMNIT, this is why I shouldn't make comments before finishing the scene. Also fuck! Fucking fuck, man! Good shit.

(6:18) "This wasn't the deal!" The fuck did you expect, mate? You gonna trust a man with a glowing eye and a crime syndicate to keep his word? Amateur.

(7:15) At this point I am really wishing that I didn't have any vague ideas about future plot points (as in I wish I hadn't had anything spoiled), because right now my brain is reeling, trying to figure out how the hell we're gonna get from point A to point B.

(7:30ish) Viktor is kinda cute? Idk, the lil face he made when Jayce said that they need to "crank it" amused me.

Everything about that scene with Vander and Silco was fucking superb. Tasty lore, contrasting visuals, wunderbar voicework, etc, etc.

(13:34) "Wait, this isn't my bedroom"- Viktor. My man, you are officially the fucking best. Adorable.

Mel is gorgeous and I am a very smol, weak-willed gay.

(16:40) "I can't lose you, you're all I have left"- Vi. Characters love to say this, but they never seem to realize how it feels to the person they say it to. Vi tells Powder that she can't help save Vander, because it's dangerous. But that just means that Vi might die. Powder might lose her. There's no good solution, obviously, which is why lines like this hurt so much.

They're just leaving Powder there? I know that without Benzo, and with Vander captured, they don't really have any adults they can trust. But can't they at least have her hangout with Ekko? Small traumatized children need emotional support. They can cry together or something

At first I wasn't sure about having such an intense undercity plotline run concurrent with science experiments in Piltover, but on second thought it makes perfect sense. Jayce's experiments are somewhat of a parallel to Silco's weird drug shit. They're both endeavors to enact change, though the methods and intentions are very different. "As above, so below" and all that. Could probably write a longer post about this parallel/contrast.

(18:16) Seeing Powder having an emotional breakdown is... not fun. I mean, obviously, this isn't intended to be a happy scene or anything. I'm just stating that I am having emotions!!! Also reminded of my own breakdowns at her age, so, ya know, that's fun (/sarcasm).

(18:40ish) "I can help them"- Powder. OH NO. OH NO. This VERY MUCH feels like the lead up to that one spoilery meme I saw. This is going to backfire horribly, isn't it? fuck, man, I am not ready for this. Also my food is cold :( this episode has a lot more to it than I expected

(20:48) GOD, the look on Vi's face when she realizes that this is a trap, my heart hurts man. Not quite as bad as the last episode, when Vander realized what Vi was planning, but still... Definitely a testament to the facial animations.

(22:21) Rock 'em, Sock 'em, Robots! Uppercut! Ding ding, we have a winner! Fuck 'em up, Vi! I am amusing myself with these words to try and counter the inevitable heartbreak that this show promises me!

At what point does Silco pause and realize that Vi is the biggest badass in the building, and that maybe trying to kill her is a bad idea? If he had somehow gotten to her earlier and convinced her that his plan to fuck up Piltover was going to work, she probably could have done 95% of the work herself. Or something. I mean, a loser like Deckard + drugs = unstoppable monster. But a badass like Vi + the drugs? Not the kind of beat you'd want to mess with. Maybe that's part of the problem, tho. Maybe Silco picked someone like Deckard to experiment with because he's easier to manipulate. Idk, rambling, not really putting much thought into these... thoughts.

(24:23) Not gonna lie, Drug!Deckard reminds me of husks/indoctrinated people from Mass Effect, just purple instead of blue.

(25:18) hehheh. angry lil hipperdipper or whatever his name is. funny.

(27:14) Forehead bonk!

(28:42) POWDER FALLING FROM THE BUILDING MIRRORING SILCO FALLING THROUGH THE WATER FROM THE START OF THE EPISODE??? FUCK.

damnit. the meme I saw. was indeed. a spoiler. rip Ben-10 (Mylo is voiced by Yuri Lowenthal, who voiced one or more of the versions of Ben 10) and Goggles

Vander pushing himself out of the rubble = Spider-Man in the iconic "if this be my destiny" scene. I mean, not directly or anything. It's just vaguely similar, and I really love the Spider-Man scene, so the similar vibes are making me emotional, okay?

(32:16)... forehead... bonk...

Drug!Vander has more of a pink tint, compared to the strong purple of Deckard, and I'm not saying it's a connection to Vi (and her hair), a subtle sort of thing, but I'm also not saying that it's not connected.

(34:44) "Take care of Powder"- Vander. this line hurts a lot more when I think about what I've heard regarding future episodes.

(35:52) WHAT THE FUCK, VI. maybe this is just, like, a personal thing. but I never, ever understand when a character's response to trauma is to hurt other people (obviously Vi will regret this choice, and it's not what she would do if she had more time to process everything that just happened). of course, my personal response to excessive emotions is to direct all anger/desire to cause harm at myself, which is very clearly a result of my childhood trauma and mental health issues, and isn't healthy (I mean, hurting other people is also not healthy. neither option is good, is what I'm saying). this scene just. fucking HURTS so much.

(35:56) "Because you're a jinx!"- Vi. First of all, hate that this is how Powder gets her name. Second of all, that's not even true! Vi left her behind to keep her safe! Again, I know that Vi is going through an inconceivable amount of trauma right now, I am just pointing out reasons that make everything about this hurt more.

(36:29) this hurts. so much. Vander's last words were literally telling Vi to take care of Powder, and now Vi's walking away while Powder cries after her. Why am I watching this. Oh my god. This hurts my heart. So much.

Oh. Oh. So is Silco going to take Powder in/take care of her out of some weird empathy, because her sister just abandoned her, just like Vander betrayed Silco? Is that what this is? More parallels? Hmm. Painful. I need a nap.

#crying #sobbing #j watches arcane #j watches tv #arcane spoilers #arcane netflix