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futurewriter2000 · 5 years

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Glances

A/N:Well....I wrote this. I didn't go to school again bc I have an oral exam and I'm judt a fucking idiot and a coward. God, I'n so stupid. Anyway I wrote this this morning. Hope you like it @duringirl

PAIRING: Sirius Black x reader

REQUEST: Hawo ^^ I was wondering if you could write a one shot where Sirius has a panic attack and reader is there and helps him trough it and just conforts him and yea. Thank u ^^

WARNING: Watch out for grammar mistakes.

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He was there. You were here. He was goegeous. You were average. His smile was everything. Your smile was enough. His eyes were special. Yours were just (y/e/c).

That was what you kept telling yourself, repeatedly as you glanced from time to time at the boy you've secretely liked since Third year.

One glance and your heart raced for a second or two.

You focused back on your parchment, scribbling down the ingridents, pretending to listen to the professor.

Your heart calmed down but with another glance, it started to race again.

" Amortentia, the strongest love potion. Elixir to induce Euphoria. Polyjuice potion, to transfrom from one to another. Wiggendewel potion, to awaken someone from sleep..." professor Slughorn counted down the potions for the upcoming exam, your hand writing them all down and your eyes glancing from professor, to your parchment, professor, parchment and back to him. The boy who appereantly fell asleep to Slughorn speech.

You couldn't blame him. He hated potions and what made it even worse for him, you had potions right first period on fridays.

One glance. It's all it took you to know that three rows before you there was a boy, sitting with his head laid on his arm and pulling in quiet snores to which only James next to him could hear.

"What was the last one?" asked Alice beside you, causing your thoughts of the boy to fly away and the sly smile that crawled on your lips, fade away.

" Uhm...Volubilis potion. " you simpered and she wrote it down aggressively, causing her pen to let out drops of ink on her parchment.

Slughorn's eyes were now focused on the sleeping boy in the third row before you. His eyes narrowed and his lips turned in a thin line. He stopped before his desk and grabbed the books, lifting them and letting them fall back on the desk.

Sirius' head popped up and he confusely looked around. "Fairly, I ought to wonder why Mr. Black would want to sleep through my class, especially the class where I explain the subject of the upcoming exam."

"And fairly, sir, I ought to think that I will do an outstanding work on this exam if I get just enough amount of sleep." Sirius replied. His voice was low and raspy, his hair a bit messy and his lips turned into a grin.

The class chuckled, the corner of your lips turning up as you continued to draw squares on the top of your parchment.

You glanced up, his eyes met yours and your heart stopped for a second. Your pen removed itself from the parchment, your eyes now staring at his before they turned back around at the professor.

"Meet me after class, Sirius." said professor loudly and sharp, turning around with his robes and walking back to his desk.

Sirius' head turned to his best friend, causing James to snicker before turning it around again and lock his eyes with yours once again.

Your head was empty, your ability to move, to smile, to do something was completely unavailable at the moment. He stretched a grin and winked.

You felt your head spin but then again you shook off the feeling and smiled in return.

' He's a friend. Do not get involved with him.' you scolded yourself.

The two of you were friends. Not close but friends. You supressed your feelings for him the moment you started feeling them.

He was a pure-blood. You were a half-blood. He was from the Wizarding world. You were from the Muggle world. He came from a wealthy family. You came from not that wealthy family but not poor either. He was out-going. You kept your feelings and your thoughts to yourself.

The two of you were contrast in many ways than one and who were you to be in his league.

" Hey! (Y/l/n)! " he shouted after you, struggling to get through the crowd and to you.

A smirk crept on your lips and you turned around, tugging your books closer to your chest. "Black?"

He was now close and smiling. " A lovely smile you sent me there." he started but you only rolled your eyes.

"Please, Black. Stop with the flirting and get to the point. You know it doesn't work on me." you snorted and his grin spread across his own lips.

" You should feel honored I decided to come to you. It's not an every day that you get to see Sirius Black." he boasted and you scoffed.

"Yes, especially when this amazing Sirius Black drools on the desk. " you teased and he chuckled. " But yeah, don't worry. Here." you pulled out your list of potions.

"Firstly, I don't drool. And secondly, thank you." he took the parchment and stuck it in his own book. " You'll get it back soon."

Because from all the students, classmages and friends. He decided to get your notes. It's not that he held any feelings for you but it let you wonder.

He could have just copied from James. It's a short list. Could he- no. You shook your head and left for your next class. " He'd never."

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And a week had passed since then, your list of potions was never returned but you didn't mind. You studied with Alice and she let you borrow hers.

You ran through it one more time while Alice closed her book and let out a huff. " I'm done."

"Already? But we haven't gone through the last three potions." you quirked an eyebrow and she got up, stretching her back.

" I'm going to wing it." she yawned and you let out a snort of laughter.

" That's usually my line."

" I know but it works, doesn't it?"

"What do you mean?"

" Well, whenever you decide to give up on the last minute studying, you say 'I'm going to wing it.' and then you end up passing every exam."

" Not every exam. I can never pass Arithmancy."

"Nobody can pass Arithmancy. Arithmancy is shite."

You laughed at her comment and closed the book as well. " The reason I pass them is becuase I cheat on the exam."

" Yeah about that, how do you do it?" she asled as she started to gather her books.

You shrugged. "I don't know. I guess I wing it."

She narrowed her eyes in envy. "I hate your not caring arse." and she left.

" Love you too! " you shouted behind her and started to gather up your books as well.

Alice. She was always so nice yet so sassy. It was a good combination. No wonder every guy fell for her.

You smiled to yourself and lifted the pile in your arms. Gaining your balance, you turned your way towards the stairs and started walking.

A few steps up and you were already on the floor. Not because you have lost your balance but because someone ran into you with super speed and knocking you down.

" Urgh!" you groaned, rubbing the back of your head before finally looking up at the person. " Sirius?" you asked after the pain disappeared and the surroundings became clearer.

His eyes were wide, scared, filled with unshed tears. You heart grew heavy at the sight but before you could say anything he just stormed out.

Doubting yourself first, you got on your feet and started running after him.

You didn't know what you were doing.

Your back was in so much pain and still you continued to run after a boy who you weren't even close friends with.

But you did it anyway. You ran after him. He was walking fast and with heavy breathing. He wanted to turn into his Animagnus form but couldn't due to a girl following him.

He wantes to say something. He wanted to do something to let you leave him alone. For you to not see him in this situation. But his head was heavy and his heart was racing. The air was suffocating his lungs and a lump in his throat made his stomach knot.

Until he couldn't hold it in any longer. His bare feet touched the cold grass and he just fell on his knees, sobbing uncontrollably.

You stopped in your tracks, rethinking your decision, doubting yourself once again.

"Sirius." you spoke quietly,making your way to him and placing your hand on his shoulder.

He was ashamed to look up. He couldn't lift his head and face you.

Sirius Black crying. Ay, there's something everybody would gladly see.

" Sirius, look at me." You spoke softly and placed your hand against his cheek.

His eyes locked with yours, cheeks completely wet from the tears and his breathing was strong and fast.

"Calm down."

"I-I can't." he sobbed and continued to breathe even heavier. " I- I" he tried to speak but the lump in his throat prevented him from saying a word.

You heart was racing. You didn't know what to do. There was no doubt he was having a panic attack. Crying uncontrollably, choking on his own breath.

You had no idea of what to do so in a desperate situation, the only thing you thougnt of was pulling him closer and hugging him tightly. Both of your were on your knees, your arms wrapped around him as your head was pressed on his shoulder.

"Calm down." you spoke very softly and quietly.

His arms were wrapped around you as well, his head burried in the crook of your neck and his hands knotting themselves in your shirt.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." he continued to pant, cry, sobb...

" Don't be sorry. Just calm down." you whispered back and slowly, very slowly he started to calm down.

After he got his thoughts back together, he sniffed a few times and lulled away. "Guess you want your list back." he joked around, causing you to roll your eyes once again.

"Really? You almost give me a heart attack and you later joke about it."

" Awfully bad habit." he smirked and you threw yourself back on the grass.

Your eyes were set on the starry night and your thoughts running wild in your head, not wanting to settle down. " You want to talk aboit it?" you blurted out without thinking, your eyes on the sky.

" Not really."

" Is it the reason you sleep in every class?"

" Maybe."

You laid on the ground, staring at the stars and staying quiet.

After a few moments, you got on your elbows and looked up at him.

He looked at you as well, somehow ashamed of the situation he was in.

You smiled.

He quirked an eyebrow.

"Come on." you got up on your feet, patting your clothes and offering him a hand.

He got up as well, patting his shorts and smiling. "Where?"

"To the kitchen."

"What? Why?"

" To adopt a dragon. What do you think why? Food makes everything better." you grabbed him by the hand, this time determined.

" You surprise me, (y/n) (y/l/n)." he smiled and you chuckled.

" So do you, Sirius Black."

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