#five week session

[muffinrag]

oh man. i did it. i found my fucking trade.

#lineworker #i found the school #found all the appreticeship information for the county i live in #im going to start looking at scholarships holy shit #dude it's only two hours away holy shit. it's ten hour days but i could just rent a place down there... #rent's cheap looks like. i'm seeing 2beds for $807 #10 weeks. two and a half months. #spring session april summer session in june #that gives me five months to apply for scholarships & save up at Safeway #this is fucking perfect #once i'm done i can get work with the county and be earning probably $60k a fucking goddamn holy shit #lads. lads. lads. boys. i think i've fucking got it. im going to fucking do it #AUGH ACK HOLY SHIT OKAY #apartments come later. okay time to nail down some goals wish me luck #soliloquy

[scringee]

This is the only way to express how I'm feeling

#i try not to talk about my home life on here but im honestly so fucking frustrated that if i dont get this out i might just kill someone #my family car broke down in January of this year #my father refuses to get a new one because he thinks hes saving so mucj more money and he doesnt feel like he has any incentive #acting as if he was giving us free trips #i would literally pay him 100 dollars a fucking week to help take me in and out of work #and he just doesnt like acknowledge that at all #so now im having to take ubers to and from work every day. each trip is like 20+ dollars so that 40+ dollars a day five days a week #im averaging spending 200 dollars a week jusy to get into work #and i work a minimum wage shitty fucking job so all of my paycheck goes straight into ubers and fucking therapy every week #ive had to skip so many sessions becaause theyre all 50 dollars after insurance #and im just so frustrated #i want to move out so bad but how can i save enough if im constantly hemorrhaging cash #the only reason hes saving money is because he fucking works from home #i just dont know what to do at this point i feel so helpless #becayse even if hou casually bring it up my dad immediately assumes youre ATTACKING him and how DARE you and im tited im so fucking tired #how am i meant to move out in these conditions #how am i meant to do anything #i have no fucking social life because i literally just cant afford it im going to cry #i hate him. i hate my dad so fucking much #vent #ig. #scringee mouth

[dawnshe]

my game from last night got moved to today so! going to reblog memes on the three cr blogs, will be on tentatively be on after, for sure will be tomorrow if not!

#it's going to be a meme week i think. i just want to reblog memes and i am caving to the impulse im so sorry now #five guesses on what terrible ( affectionate ) choice i made to watch before what i know is going to be a heavy session? #i have no regrets lasfkdfjkladsj #{ ooc <——————— {

[lynxgirlpaws]

>:(

#ride to therapy didn't show up #again #second week in a row #and that third week it made me 18 minutes late #and the week before was holiday so no session #[i have not had an hour long session of therapy for like five weeks] #(it is one of the only things I look forward to every week) #i'm gonna go hide and do something stupid to distract me for the next week ! :3

[randomactsofpigeon]

I am so overpeopled from this week. All I want is a grilled cheese and some wine but I need to go out to dinner with my in-laws tonight >.<

#a busy week culminated with two back to back five and four hour training sessions respectively #Stick a fork in me I'm done

[solarisgod]

Mmmm, actually considering having another new main Starwaker who's like... the therapist of the system

#[ ✨ : and they would exist since the first year of high school ] #[ when Micah would learn more about psychology and become interested in mental health / illnesses ] #[ we have our own two therapy starmates who would help us and especially me when they can ] #[ one of them - Darius - had actually helped me get over my mild fear of dogs ] #[ I'm just reading our old text session and it's truly beyond fascinating how the human brain works ] #[ holding myself back from infodumping on DID / OSDD because we still need to finish our group presentation part but ] #[ yeah alters truly do exist providing what's most needed at the time as carrying out needed responsibilities ] #[ and that's just so nice ] #[ ahhh we'll think more about this Starwaker therapist alter but we do be thinking ] #[ since Micah didn't have a therapist until they got into post-secondary school because it's so ] #[ time and energy consuming to do therapy sessions while at high school having classes all day five days a week so ] #[ it would be neat for the system to have a therapist alter ] #[ who uses Micah's psychology knowledge from class and researches done out of personal interest to help Micah and others who need it ] #[ maybe they'd be a side Starwaker but have some prominent activity like how Aden does rather than being a main but ] #[ yeah yeah yeah nodsnodsnods ]

[amarrymeinbostonwriter]

So Writeblr, tomorrow is Halloween AKA NaNoWriMo eve. 

Who else is attempting NaNoWriMo 2022?

#hi everyone #writeblr #I'm defending my five year streak this time #I've done 50k words in November for the last 4 years since 2018 #that was my first win #and I've made an attempt to win NaNoWriMo almost every year since 2011 #I have my story and technically started since I felt like it #but I won't count any October words towards the total #nanowrimo #nanowrimo2022 #writing #national novel writing month is in november #november is now my favorite month lol #who's ready #and I have the first week off from classes because my next session starts on the 7th #mychatter

[riahchan]

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#ugh #sleep is a struggle tonight #my back hurts too much #my head hurts too much #and tomorrow is the first session of marriage counseling with my husband #and I don't even know what I want from it because I am still so hurt and angry from how he's acting and things he's said #I start physical therapy for my back on Tuesday which is a good thing #I tried to do too much last week and made my back pain worse so I have been laid up in bed since Friday #plus migraines #I'm trying to see positives and get myself together #I need to start job hunting too #but it's a struggle #I feel like I can only look a step or two ahead of me #but I'm afraid that everything against me is five steps ahead #real life

[cinnabeat]

the way its like yeah itll take ten minutes like bitch i cant do this shit that fast

#last week it was five minute sessions and that shit took me 15 minutes #i know bc i play music so im not in silence while doing it and like three ish songs would pass before im done #michi tag

[starpros-sunshine]

Rotating the Aireichi dorm around in my mind like a carousel rn and just hmmm I want them to have more moments together

#look just #I have a lot of thoughts about them #they're 99% insignificant average headcanons about stuff they could potentially get up to #like my thoughts about Wataru taking puffy bunny to an amusement park #just stuff like that yanno #anw I think Aira seems like the kinda person that does facial masks once a week or so and Eichi and Rei invited themselves to one of his - #skin care sessions so now you sometimes go into their dorm room and one of them is sitting there with a weird facial mask #idk I think that's just very fun to think about #that story woth Reis coffin was so fun I wanna see more of that #Imagine rooming with this super attractive absolutely stunning and amazingly cool guy who's just a total dreamboat - #the former demon king of Yumenosaki unofficial leader of the five eccentrics official leader of undead hot vampire genuis yadda yadda yadda #and you're super intimidated but you think at least your other roommate will be not as intimidating #joke's on you it's Yumenosakis ex-top idol now leader of one of the top three units in the industry unfathomably rich - #Imagine being Aira I would've died on the spot #and then you live with these people and the cool vampire is actually just some whiney 21 year old that pretends to be an old guy #and the other guy articulates himself like he was written by Shakespeare and has absolutely no feeling for how much - #trauma is an appropriate amount of trauma to tell someone about and also has a questionable sense of humour #and those two are like passive agressive cats #and you're constantly being dragged into their squabbles #Aira honey I am so sorry you have to live like this #and in one of Eichis voice lines it says that Watarus birds sometimes deliver morning calls to him #does that mean they're just???? tapping onto the window glass until someone opens??? #if so then that's coming onto the pile of things to deal with as well #indirectly having to deal with your roomies boyfriends shenanigans #Aira honey I am /so/ sorry you have to live like this #but then again he and Eichi can be idol fanboys together so ig there's a win in there somewhere #enstars #eichi tenshouin #rei sakuma #aira shiratori

[blujayonthewing]

getting to actually play dnd in person turns me completely insane I'll have one(1) session and be like 'oh okay gotta make elaborate themed snacks and go through my perfumes to work on the custom blend to evoke my character and change the ink color in my fountain pens but also they have to be aesthetically coordinated pens also I really ought to make some kind of holster for my panpipes so I can wear them on a belt oooh I bet I could make a mini for my sprite familiar by sticking some wings on an LED--'

#none of these are made up and all of these were tonight #I also went insane when I got to play tsakesh in a pre-wedding celebratory weekend level 20 one shot #I bought multiple dice and a new pen and made paper minis and a whole goddamn glow in the dark enchanting table dice mat for that boy #whose campaign is officially dead and shall never be revived #I also spent like five solid days playing skyrim kghfdkgfd oops #looked up some ta'agra phrases I could use to command my artificer steel defender (a skyrim dwarven spider) #seriously considered getting dwarven construct miniatures but they were too expensive to get just for that :') #I didn't go quite AS insane for playing Mel in person but I did admittedly also buy her some dice for it #I think that was more because that game was like two days before our wedding cause the california DM flew in for us #so like. I didn't have a lot of bandwidth to spare in the weeks leading up to that session cause of uhhhh wedding lmao #anyway I'm not like this All The Time when I'm playing in person I just almost never get to play in person #so this only happens when I suddenly am and get excited about it lol #we're playing nyssa's campaign for a second time in a month!! UNHEARD OF #but I wasn't insane about it back when we were playing fairly regularly in. you know. late 2019 very early 2020 lmao :') #about me

[oflgtfol]

if one more fucking person honks at me for not going right on red when theres a fucking car coming in the traffic lane im seriously going to lose my shit

#had a five minute screaming session in my car earlier bc some asshole BLARED their horn at me #i had my windows down and everything so i hope somebody fucking heard me #i was like ITS A FUCKING RED LIGHT WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING HONKING AT ME LIKE THAT #YOU WANT ME TO CUT SOMEONE OFF? WHO HAS THE RIGHT OF WAY? BECAUSE THEY HAVE THE GREEN FUCKING LIGHT ???? #this has happened FOUR FUCKING TIMES this week so YES im at my WITS END #TWO OF THEM FROM TODAY ALONE !!! #STOP FUCKING HONKING AT ME!!!!! #brot posts #delete soon

[sleep-deprived-person]

So apparently KOSA (2024 edition) is getting either thrown out until next year or put into effect in six days. That was a guesstimate based on a different person saying that's when Congress is back in session and may be false.

Update that's going in the main post at the top: it has enough support to pass Congress.

It failed the last two times because people were voting against it.

This time, KOSA has traction among the pro-LGBTQ parties. Because nobody is fucking calling their bullshit and screaming from the rooftops that calling it the "Kids Online Safety Act" is misleading.

What will it passing do?

Nothing much, only prevent any education on LGBTQIA+ (it's that stupid fucking argument about us grooming kids again), shut down nearly every fandom space on the internet, and make it required for most big tech companies to have your ID.

Want to have resources for kids to discover their identity readily available? Yes? Then fucking speak up against this stupid fucking bill.

Fandom spaces like Tumblr, Twitter (? I thought the MAGA assholes liked Musk?), Tiktok, Archive Of Our Own, and any other website that hosts fanfic or fanart? Either shut down permanently, forced to uproot to a different country and down for a while (best case scenario, and they likely won't be able to send any data, and therefore fanfics, to the US), or gutted so that you only get to put G rated cishet ships on there, if any shipping at all. How to avoid that? I've already said it: Call your fucking representatives.

Want to avoid the fucking dystopic task of being legally obligated to give big tech your government issue ID? Again, cause an uproar. Call your goddamned representatives.

If they can pass this, the ripple effects could be catastrophic.

So, for fuck's sake, any Americans that can impact this stupid fucking bill and see this? Do everything in your power to shut it down because you have until February twenty sixth (26th) to send this bill back to where it belongs.

And if you can't do that? Reblog, copy my tags, and boost the signal.

Sorry not sorry for ranting, making you scroll through that, and swearing a probably excessive amount, but KOSA is a bill with a GLOBAL IMPACT being passed by ONE COUNTRY because some old people are scared of two guys with who were told they were girls kissing within five hundred miles of a child. Fuck this shit, I shouldn't have to worry about bad bills in America but I fucking do because I use the internet and would like to avoid mass censorship. Fuck this, fuck conservatives, and fuck the fact that some boomers make your country's policies.

Now, if you won't mind me, I'm going to be up until three in the morning downloading fanfiction or copying and pasting them into a a text file if I can't so I can read them by the end of the week.

#kids online safety act #media preservation #kosa #kosa bill #ao3 #archive of our own #tumblr #tumblr meta #fandom psa #fandom spaces #fandom #important #psa #bad internet bills #twitter #internet censorship #internet #very important post #anti censorship #anti conservative #signal boost #fanfic #fanfiction #<- these tags are relevant because they will be lost for god knows how long if this stupid bill passes #stop kosa #stop kids online safety act #tiktok #i don't like that one but censorship is censorship dammit and it's on the list

[lilyaceofdiamonds]

“Do you want to do this group dinner?”

“I dunno, man, people are a lot.”

*snicker* “People are a lot?”

“Stfu, yes, people are A Lot. I’m too introvert for that.”

“Oh me too. I can only have actual conversations with people for about an hour before i get bored. If it’s not video games i don’t care.”

That’s … that’s not the same thing at all. Bored because gamer adhd brain is not the same as being drained of energy by interacting with people for an extended period of time.

Being around people at all is exhausting, masking around them even more so.

#my ramblings #even with full spoons it would be a lot #and i haven’t had full spoons in a loooong time #not counting work burnout and depression and the rest of the mental health bullshit #like our five hour dnd nights (which is like 60% talk and memes and dumb youtube videos) is a lot #‘oh we could start earlier this week’ no absolutely not #i already come away with headaches after most sessions #‘oh do you want to hang out some other day too’ no five hours a week is already too much #my bar of social interaction is so very low and they just don’t get it #chronic fatigue #spoonie life

[kikiandclouds]

The way I should read a book that is super easy to read, big font, thick pages, topic I'm actually interested about and yet here I am dumb scrolling on literally anything because I must study it for an exam I have in a week and half :)))))

#hopefully it's my last exam session before graduation #the inner conflict between wanting high grades and the necessity of dismantling the whole grades system because fuck neoliberism #cmon its only five exams left in the span of two weeks #manifesting to be possessed by Durkheim for my two sociology exams #is it even an exam session if i don't spend an excessive amount of time complaining on the internet i mean lest be real #probably cause it kinda help with spotting the anxiety behind the procrastination

[klara-rosa]

anyway therapy was good today! I was very frustrated after last week's session. It was super uncomfortable and I wanted to cry afterwards (I have literally only cried twice during my entire therapy career). I actually told my current therapist that last week sucked and made me angry and we talked about it and she told me she really wants me to tell her this information in the future. And in general, today was a looot better and more positive and uplifting. We did an exercise in gratefulness and it really helped to kinda flip the coin and make you look at your life from a dofferent angle. I have sooo many negative self-beliefs and rituals I've accumulated over the years and sometimes I forget that a huuuge part of every one of my days is literally dependant on my own attitude and outlook on life in general. So I'll try and incorporate that exercise in my day to day life. Honestly, I left with such a lighter heart today than I did the last couple of weeks and that makes me happy 🥺

#in general i have never had this kind of communication with a therapist ever where i actually feel like i can just be 100% honest #like during the exercise I had to wrote down the first thing that comes to mind looking back at the last five days #and then rate them from feeling kinda positive to neutral to bad #and for wednesday i wrote down therapy and i rated it as bad because it was the worst thing that happened last week #I just wanted to be honest even if it sounds weird or could potentially upset her #it wasn't bad because of my therapist or because i feel like she did a bad job #it just made me angry at myself because so many of my flaws and quirks i really dislike about myself came to the surface #so that's what i told her and she said that she's really glad i was this honest and that she thinks my bravery is really cool #I guess she is one of the only people ever i actually sometimes act brave around sometimes #Or honest i guess #anyway it felt a lot better this week and i think it made us understand each other better #she also said that she has the same view as me that sometimes therapy is uncomfy and hard and sucks #but that she doesn't want that to be the case always #that she would rather have our sessions to feel very uplifting and calming and strengthening #So that's nice... #personal #mental health #therapy diaries #also i can feel my english getting worse and worse everyday and i'm 🥲🥲🥲